Day 91 Living at Home
Ok so I’ve come to see home as being where I am as home is
where I be and therefore I’m always at home.
I’ve also considered Ottawa as my main home because I’ve
spent the most time living in Ottawa.
For the past 7-8 yrs I’ve moved around Canada for a few
months of the year working as a tree planter.
After planting I’ve always returned to Ottawa to live. I’ve
either stayed at my parents place or rented my own place in the Ottawa area.
This year I decided to capitalize on a work opportunity
working for an oil company in Alberta and therefore will not be returning to
Ottawa.
Not returning to Ottawa after planting is a new thing for me
and it’s felt kind of weird a little bit...like I’m expanding my horizons in
terms of letting go of complacency to feeling like I just got to return to
Ottawa because it’s where I’ve spent most of my time and I’ve defined it as my
main home.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
defining Ottawa as my main home.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
feeling weird for not returning to Ottawa after I finished planting.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel
more at home when I’m in Ottawa than when I am anywhere else.
I forgive myself for not realising that I was suppressing the
living application of the self realisation of and as home is where I’m at by
holding onto the belief and positive feeling/energetic charge that I feel more
at home when I am in Ottawa because it’s been my past pattern that I’ve played
out for a long time.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not
realising that I was suppressing my living outside of Ottawa by having created
some sort of allegiance to Ottawa because I know the town very well and
everything is familiar there in terms of me knowing where everything is.
I realise that I was suppressing myself as the living
realisation that home is here as earth.
I realise there can’t be any separation between me as home
and earth here.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
separating myself from and as home.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
creating feelings about home.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to
believe that I can be more at home or less at home.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
creating a polarity relationship as home.
I forgive myself for not realising the word play within the
word home as oh me like me as the orgasm
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
creating a positive energetic charge attached to the word home.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
creating positive energetic feelings about the word home.
I realise myself as home as here as earth as comfort and
assistance and support as rest as work as play as living.
When and as I see myself accepting and allowing myself to
separate myself as home here as earth as comfort and assistance and support as
rest and work as play as living, I stop, I breathe and I realise the
ridiculousness of believing/accepting and allowing myself to perceive myself to
be away from home/separated from and as home here always.
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