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Tuesday 31 July 2012

Day 60- Fighting for Self Imposed Limitations





Day 60-Self Righteous Justifications and Validations as Fighting for Self Imposed Limitations

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for using justifications and validations as comments and spoken words to assert my accepted and allowed self righteousness as a way of fighting for myself imposed limitations.

I forgive myself for not realising that so many times I would react with comments as a way of ensuring my accepted and allowed self righteousness as self justification and self validation that I am right and great for being right and that I know what I am doing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing in my accepted and allowed justifications/validations as self righteousness and I forgive myself for not realising that as a result of believing in accepted and allowed reactions as justifications/validations as spoken comments that I was creating and asserting myself imposed limitations.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for feeling justified and validated in speaking comments/statements from a starting point of a reactive nature.

I forgive myself for not realising that I was asserting and expanding upon accepted and allowed self righteousness as fighting/arguing for my own limitations by speaking from a starting point of reactiveness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for avoiding facing my accepted and allowed defense mechanisms as self righteousness justifications validations and excuses for accepting and allowing self imposed limitations.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having feared facing points of greatest resistance within myself as defense mechanisms that have kept me bound within self imposed limitations as a result of keeping alive consciousness systems as self righteousness justifications and validations.

I forgive myself for not realising the extent to which my backchat has existed as accepted and allowed self righteous justification and validations as a way of making sense of self imposed limitations.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having justified and validated coping with accepted and allowed self righteousness as a result of buying into accepted and allowed backchat as validation and justification as to how things are as my way of making sense of self imposed limited existence as a result of believing self created justifications and validations.

I forgive myself for not realising the slyness and deceptive manipulative nature in avoiding facing accepted and allowed justification and validations within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing slyness and deceptive manipulative nature in avoiding accepted and allowed justifications and validations within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having created and energy high addiction dependency upon and as self righteousness as a result of feeding my thoughts/feelings/emotions from the starting point of accepted and allowed justifications and validations.

I forgive myself for not realising the point of accepted and allowed self denial/self betrayal as a result of feeding thoughts/feelings/emotions as justifications and validations.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing self denial and self betrayal within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to deceive my best interests as equality and oneness as a result of feeding an energy addiction high as self righteousness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get and energy high every time I speak a justification and validation as a reactive statement/comment that comes up within a moment.

I forgive myself for not realising the extent to which I have gone to defend and protect accepted and allowed self imposed limitations as self righteous addiction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying and validating relationships to support self righteous addiction and energy high.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having created an extensive amount of relationship channels to fuel self righteous self proclamations as accepted and allowed backchat as justification and validation as a result of accepted and allowed self imposed restraints/limitations/suppressions.

I forgive myself for not realising the ridiculousness of speaking from the starting point of reaction.

I forgive myself for not realising the difference between self expression as speaking from a point of clarity and stability as stillness/silence as sharing and speaking from the starting point of self imposed limitations/suppressions as a result of speaking from the starting point of instability as reactive movement within and as my physicality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having reacted to the realisation that I have existed as a very reactive emotional being and that actual self suppression in speaking/expressing who I am in every moment has been quite suppressed/limited.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be quite suppressed and limited as a result of accepting and allowing myself to exist within and as reactive behaviour.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having suppressed and limited self support as a result of feeding self righteous energy addiction as speaking justification and validations.

I forgive myself for not realising the ridiculousness of accepting and allowing myself to be influenced by reactive comments.

I forgive myself for not realising the lack of substance as sound self expression in speaking/projecting reactive comments.

Self realisations

I realise in no longer accepting and allowing self righteous energy addiction by stopping all participation in speaking from a starting point of reaction that I am in fact stopping the engagement of accepted and allowed polarity friction within myself as self righteousness justification/validation that manifests self imposed suppression/limitation.

I realise the practical self support as self nourishment and self expansion in no longer speaking from a starting point of reaction and I realise the practical self support in stopping speaking from a reactionary starting point by accepting and allowing myself to stop and breath when I realise I am accepting and allowing myself to react to a point within my world and desire to speak/say something as a way of asserting self imposed limitations/suppressions as self righteousness.

I realise the ridiculousness of having accepted and allowed myself to feed and perpetuate and self righteous energy addiction.
I realise the ridiculousness in speaking from a starting point of reaction.

I realise the ridiculousness in accepting and allowing any form of justification or validation.

I realise the ridiculousness in validating/pitying any beings reactive comments.

I realise the ridiculousness of accepting and allowing myself to be influenced by reactive comments/statements.

I realise the difference between self expression as speaking from a point of clarity and stability as stillness/silence as sharing and speaking from the starting point of self imposed limitations/suppressions as a result of speaking from the starting point of instability as reactive movement within and as my physicality

I realise the extent to which I have gone to defend and protect accepted and allowed self imposed limitations as self righteous addiction.

I realise the point of accepted and allowed self denial/self betrayal as a result of feeding thoughts/feelings/emotions as justifications and validations.

I realise the slyness and deceptive manipulative nature in avoiding facing accepted and allowed justification and validations within myself.

I realise the extent to which my backchat has existed as accepted and allowed self righteous justification and validations as a way of making sense of self imposed limitations.

I realise the extent to which my backchat has existed as accepted and allowed self righteous justification and 
validations as a way of making sense of self imposed limitations.

I realise that I was asserting and expanding upon accepted and allowed self righteousness as fighting/arguing for my own limitations by speaking from a starting point of reactiveness.

I realise that so many times I would react with comments as a way of ensuring my accepted and allowed self righteousness as self justification and self validation that I am right and great for being right and that I know what I am doing.

Self corrections

When and as I see myself accepting and allowing thoughts/feelings/emotions of justifications/validations...I Stop...I breathe and I realise the ridiculousness and absurdity in accepting and allowing myself to follow and participate in reactive behaviour as self righteous justifications and validations.

When and as I see myself accepting and allowing myself desiring to speak from having a reaction...I stop....I breathe and I realise that speaking from a starting point of reaction is accepting and allowing the assertion of self righteous energy addiction. I accept and allow myself to realise the absurdity and ridiculousness of self righteous energy addiction and I allow myself to share my self correction in stopping participation as self righteous energy addiction.  I make a point of exposing absurd ridiculousness of self righteous energy addiction as reacting from a starting point of emotions and feelings.

When and as I see myself desiring to fuel self righteous energy addiction...I stop I breathe.



Day 59 Righteous Spitefulness within Hope and Desire


Day 59 Righteous Spitefulness within Hope and Desire

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 I forgive myself of accepting and allowing myself for being righteously spiteful as a result of reacting in irritation and frustration and anger and annoyance to my hope/desire of making money at work today and projecting righteously spiteful backchat towards my crew-boss.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising projections of spiteful righteousness are self reflections of me being righteously spiteful towards myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having justified participation as spiteful righteousness because of pent up emotions such as anger/rage/annoyance/irritation/frustration/suppression/lack of consideration/disregard/ignorance/arrogance

I forgive myself for not realising the nastiness of having accepted and allowed myself to participate as righteous spitefulness within hopes/desires.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying righteous spitefulness as retribution and justified vengeance as blame and belittling anyone I believe to have stood in the way to the fulfillment of my hopes and desires.

I forgive myself for not realising the ridiculousness of righteous spitefulness as self consuming bullshit that is like trying to fuck myself within my every hole.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for indulging in spiteful self righteousness in an attempt to release pent up emotions.

I forgive myself for not realising how accepted and allowed righteous spitefulness within hope and desire just manifests and compounds within myself until I effectively release spiteful righteousness with self forgiveness and allow myself to stop fucking myself from every angle and give myself instant relief by stopping to allow myself to indulge in thoughts of brutal nastiness of finger pointing blame.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising how I have abused myself extensively by accepting and allowing righteous spitefulness within myself.

I realise how I have abused myself extensively by accepting and allowing righteous spitefulness within myself.

I realise how accepted and allowed righteous spitefulness within hope and desire just manifests and compounds within myself until I effectively release spiteful righteousness with self forgiveness and allow myself to stop fucking myself from every angle and give myself instant relief by stopping to allow myself to indulge in thoughts of brutal nastiness of finger pointing blame.

I realise the ridiculousness of righteous spitefulness as self consuming bullshit that is like trying to fuck myself within my every hole.

I realise the nastiness of having accepted and allowed myself to participate as righteous spitefulness within hopes/desires.

I realise righteous spitefulness is bullshit.

When and as I see myself accepting and allowing myself to participate as righteous spitefulness, I stop, I breathe and I realise the fuckedness/bullshit/ridiculousness of accepting and allowing righteous spitefulness as I know righteous spitefulness is like fucking yourself in every orifices’.

Day 58 Excitement and Expectation


Day 58 Excitement and Expectation

 

Ok, to start... I’d like to make some additions to the word excitement. What do I mean by additions? Well, previously I had removed polarity charges on the word excitement and had redefined excitement as walking in the unknown...and expressing without knowing what will happen...like living self trust no matter what.

Ok, so what I would like to ass to the word excitement is the following:
Excitement is having clear sight of target/goal/commitment...excitement is a very specific focus.

So, in putting excitement all together as me as a living word as who I am:

Excitement:  Very specific focus.  Having clear sight of target/goal/objective and walking in the unknown    with self trust no matter what...meaning it doesn’t matter if you don’t know exactly how you are going to achieve your goal, yet your goal is specific and therefore bit by bit, piece by piece you collect all the proper bits and pieces and wholla, goal/objective/target/commitment is...! As excitement is the journey/process of goals/commitments.

Ok, very cool! Yes I know! LoL!

I am grateful for sharing my process of walking the word ‘discipline’ with a co-worker as he assisted and supported me with a gift in describing my sharing as exciting which was cool because this slowed me to see that I had missed a point of completeness in definition of the word excitement as an eternal expression of who I am.

I forgive myself for not realising that words I redefine to stand by eternally may need some fine tuning such as additions because I am in the process of equalizing myself as life and there may be point I initially missed.

I forgive myself for not realising the specific focus as sight and seeing as clear vision in and as excitement and 

I forgive myself for not realising that I site myself as to sight myself as to say what I have to say as to profess and declare excitement as who I am as the living word here as I hear me here.

I realise that words I re-define/equalize/purify to stand by eternally may need some fine tuning such as additions because I am in the process of equalizing myself as Life.

I realise the specific focus as sight and seeing as clear vision in and as excitement.

I realise that I site myself as to sight myself as to say what I have to say as to profess and declare excitement as who I am as the living word here as I hear me here.

OK..just now I noticed a new point about excitement which I had not previously noticed and it has to do with the ex in excitement as the sound ex sounds like sex and x is like to intersecting points like sex and I am sex and this opened up the realisation of orgasm as I am a sexing organism as orgasmic expression and orgasmic expression is exciting excitement because any type of explosion can happen at any moment as explosive intense expression from a crazy big fart to a big hearty laugh to a little giggle and a calm subtlety
I forgive myself for not realising that as I live words as me as who I am that I will experience self expansion like a tree branching out as I will learn and become aware of new dimensions of myself as sound self expression that previously I had not allowed myself access to.

I forgive myself for not realising the simplicity of oneness and equality mathematical equation as one plus one plus one etc...

When and as I see myself accepting and allowing myself to neglect excitement as me walking process/journey to life as physical self realisation, I stop, I breathe and I realise the ridiculousness of accepting and allowing myself for having neglected excitement and I allow myself a giggle of joy, glee and excitement

Ok, about the word expectation

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting annoyed /angered/irritated as a result of holding onto expectations like hopes/desires that I will have ideal tree planting/working conditions in terms of maximizing profit potential.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to expect my working conditions/setup to be the exact same as it was the day before.

I forgive myself for not realising that I would get angered/annoyed as a result of holding onto expectations like hopes/desires and that if my expectations as hopes and desires were not met that I would have an emotional outburst/reaction as anger/irritation/annoyance/frustration.

I forgive myself for not realising how I placed hopes/desires within and as the word expectation(s)

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for defining ‘expectation’ as positively charged within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for defining ‘hope’ as a positively charged word.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for defining ‘desire’ as a positively charged word.

I forgive myself for not realising the ridiculousness of having defined ‘expectation’ as positively charged hopes and desires.

Sooooooooooooooo ridiculous

Playing with the word expectation:
Expect-a-ti-on....accept-a-tie-on...x-pecked-a-tie-on...x-pecked at ion...expect a tie on...expect at ion...expect day shun...expectation is like putting boundaries on orgasmic expression and a hindrance to self expression/self enjoyment/self fulfillment because there is this preconceived idea/belief as expectation as a future projection as to how a specific sequence of events will be. Expectation has the ex sound like sex as expectation is how you fuck yourself in the ass as a result of assumption based on hope/desire which creates a burning fire of anger/frustration/irritation/annoyance as sexual frustrations as compounded emotions not being properly released when expectations are not met/satisfied due to accepting and allowing expectations.

When and as I see myself accepting and allowing myself reacting as a result of my expectations not being met/satisfied...I stop I breathe and I realise the ridiculousness of accepting and allowing expectations within myself and I laugh at my own ridiculousness in reacting as like sexual frustration and I share some of the ridiculousness of expectation because expectations are funny in the sense of absurd ridiculousness.
When and as I see myself accepting and allowing myself to place self fulfillment within and as expectation, I stop, I breathe and I realise the ridiculousness of accepting and allowing self fulfillment to be reliant upon expectation/future projection

Day 57 Friendship


Day 57 Friendship



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having suppressed the awesomeness of friendship.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising the awesomeness of friendship as a pillar of assistance and support.

I forgive myself for not realising the awesomeness of friendship starts with myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding and ignoring the many friendships I have.

I forgive myself for not realising that I was disregarding and ignoring myself as a result of disregarding and ignoring the many friendships I have.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for suppressing gratitude as a great attitude and gratefulness for the many friendships I have.

I forgive myself for not fully living the statement that, ‘somebody you don’t know... is just a friend you haven’t met yet.

I forgive myself for not realising the assistance and support within and as friendship as caring is sharing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having suppressed the point, ‘carrying is sharing’ as a result of having ignored and disregarded friendships.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for abusing friendships and suppressing the point caring is sharing.

 I forgive myself for not realising that I am missing out on an opportunity of friendship when I resist getting to know someone that I have the opportunity to get to know

I realise that I am missing out on an opportunity of friendship when I resist getting to know someone that I have the opportunity to get to know.

I realise the awesomeness of friendship as a pillar of assistance and support.

I realise that I was disregarding and ignoring myself as a result of disregarding and ignoring the mnay friendships I have.

I realise the awesomeness of friendship as sharing is caring.

I realise the assistance and support within and as friendship as caring is sharing.

When and as I see myself disregarding and ignoring the awesomeness of friendship, I stop, I breathe and I allow myself to embrace the awesomeness of friendship.