Day 75 Ideal Relationship

 

So I've had resistance to writing about this particular point/topic.

Why?

Seeing self imposed limitation as separation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowin gmyself for fearing seeing self imposed limitation as separation.

Ok, so what is ideal relationship to me?

>sharing >brutal self honesty>open/great communication >understanding >fun >orgasmic >everlasting > playful >relaxing > eventful >amazing > compassion >appreciation >gratitude >no bullshit >laughter >excitement > suspense >calm >enjoyment.

Ok so the realisatation came forth that I am each of these words,,,however they come up as important to me because I am not totally accepting myself as each of these words and also I do not need to search for a relationship with an individual who matches these words because I am these words and as I forgiuve myself for accepting and allowing myself for separating myself form and as each of these words,,,I allow and accept myself to live these words as who I am here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having separated myself from and as:
>sharing >brutal self honesty>open/great communication >understanding >fun >orgasmic >everlasting > playful >relaxing > eventful >amazing > compassion >appreciation >gratitude >no bullshit >laughter >excitement > suspense >calm >enjoyment.

I forgive myself for not realising that I created beliefs, ideas and perceptions within myself about what is an ideal relationship based on my accepted and allowed suppressions and therefore I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having not accepted myself as:
>sharing >brutal self honesty>open/great communication >understanding >fun >orgasmic >everlasting > playful >relaxing > eventful >amazing > compassion >appreciation >gratitude >no bullshit >laughter >excitement > suspense >calm >enjoyment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having doubted and suppressed myself as:
>sharing >brutal self honesty>open/great communication >understanding >fun >orgasmic >everlasting > playful >relaxing > eventful >amazing > compassion >appreciation >gratitude >no bullshit >laughter >excitement > suspense >calm >enjoyment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising me as the key ingredient in creating and establishing ideal relationship.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that establishing an ideal relationship was about finding/searching/locating 'the specific one' as like special soul mate to align with specific personality design and establish likes/dislikes.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to doubt the fact that I am capable of great relationships with everyone.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having doubted myself as always being the key to me as absolute greatness always!

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging myself in competition/comparison within with and as myself.

I forgive myself for not realising the wholeness of myself as absolute awesomeness as standing as oneness and equality starting point origin and that I am the key to me in all ways as a point of Ideal partner and Ideal relationship because I accept and realise myself as Ideal and therfore I stand in and as agreement with myself as oneness and equality merged together forever.

I realise that I created beliefs, ideas and perceptions within myself about what is an ideal relationship based on my accepted and allowed suppressions and therefore I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having not accepted myself as:

>sharing >brutal self honesty>open/great communication >understanding >fun >orgasmic >everlasting > playful >relaxing > eventful >amazing > compassion >appreciation >gratitude >no bullshit >laughter >excitement > suspense >calm >enjoyment.

When and as I see myself accepting and allowing myself to judge partners/relationships...I stop and breathe and I let go of accepted and allowed separation as limited seeing and I face myself in all ways as starting point origin of and as oneness and equality merged together.