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Saturday, 19 April 2014

Day 629 Information Transaction




 It's interesting how we live here in and as Information. Like the happenings here are a result of and as Information. Like We are here in and as an Information transference...Like All the time Transactions are happening. Have a look at how money moves as a point of Transactions...I mean look at how we communicate, essentially our sharing as how our communication is received and regarded is like an on going transaction...where and how we are always in the process of Buying and Selling.

Why do I see we are Always in the process of Buying and Selling? Well I see this as the way our sharing exists because there is a point of Choice Acceptance and Allowance. Meaning, we can willing accept and allow particular transactions to take place or we can stop particular transactions/transference's from happening.

What I am in the process of doing is taking accountability and individual self-responsibility for and as my every Acceptance and Allowance Here.

Why?

Because I see the Value in and as Life Equality and Oneness Here. I see how it is in and as the Best Interest of Life Accountability Here to Forgive the Debt I have accrued in Buying into bad Acceptances and Allowances? What is a bad acceptance and allowance? This is where I have accepted and allowed myself to invest in and as the development of a Word Association Relationship that is defined as Less than What is the Best Standing Representation of Life Here. It's Interesting to see here how I am the Ultimate Share Holder of and as My Sharing of Words Here...and thus I see that it is an Individual Personal Self-Responsibility to make sure that the standing presentation and representation of and as our every communication of Our Word's is Aligned within and as the Life Interest of and as Equality and Oneness...as this is the Understanding Self-Trust within and as the Self-Honesty of What is Best for All Life is Always the Best Gift Here.

Our Presentation, Practical Living Self-Expression as Our Self-Movement from Moment to Moment is Easy to be Well Received as an Insured Agreement Guarantee when and as there is absolute clarity within and as what is being Shared. Like there is no mystery in being straight forward...as it is clear to see what is being presented to you. Nothing Hidden.

Interesting how I became aware of how disagreement and uncertainty comes about within our Confidence in Agreement Transactions Here as a result of Fear...as the Fee we Pay as the consequential Fare of and as Self-Doubt which is a resulting factor of and as the inherent history of our track record of deceitful actions with and as our track record of receipts. Interesting to see here how we hold the key's/Tools to releasing Our-Self Here from and as Our Own Indebted Servitude. This Here I speak is in fact the Process Tool and Key which I call Self-Forgiveness.

To change our Status Standing Here from Citizen Debtor to Real Life Living Creditor as The Life Source Giving/Gifting Our-Self Life Credit. I mean, How are we suppose to be in Service of and as what is Best for all Life Here, If we do not Start by Utilizing the Taking of the Opportunity Here with and as our Time to Give Our-Self the Best Life Here?

The Process of Gifting/Giving Our-Self the Best Life Here, Starts within and as the Practical Living Application of and as Self-Forgiveness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent of and as my debt within and as my participation within Information Transactions...as the sharing/Speaking of Words from and as a Starting point of and as Conflict/friction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for perpetuating a debt within myself as a result of speaking words from within and as the starting point of debt/conflict/friction/dissonance.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the amount of support that exists here within and as the Living of Words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the self-reflection and self-expression that exists within and as the practicality of Living Words effectively within and as the greatest meaning/value/potential/support/assistance/possibility possible Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding my potential ability to express myself here within and as the practical living of words within and as the greatest value.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the value of Life Equality and Oneness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist as less than the Highest/Greatest/Supreme Value of and as Life Equality and Oneness.

I realize and understand the Magnificence of and as Self-Expression Here.
I realize and understand the Equality and Oneness within and as the practical living of Words Here as what is Best for all Life.
I realize and understand the self-responsibility, self-trust, self-honesty required within and as the Self-Expression of and as Our-Self Creation Here as Living Words.
I see/realize and understand the process of Self-Correction as a result of and as the accumulation of Self-Forgiveness Here.

I commit myself to the practical living process of Self-Forgiveness and Self-Correction.
I commit myself to Self-Direction within and as the process of Self-Forgiveness and Self-Correction.

When and as I see a point of conflict/fear existing/moving within myself, I stop and breathe, I locate the word within myself that represent the particular cognitive dissonance I am experiencing within Myself...As I face/see/Understand/realize the word relationship association that exists within myself that is out of alignment within and as Life Equality and Oneness, I take the time to remediate the word relationship association to it's self-corrective positioning as what is best for all Life.

I Commit Myself to the Status Standing Creditor and Beneficiary of and as What is Best for All Life Here.

Thursday, 17 April 2014

Day 628 Conceited





It's Fun Funny and Cool to play with the sounding of words to see what is sometimes missed within and as the actuality of what is here in and as a word relationship as how the letters come together in producing a structured sound expression.

I'm looking at the word "Conceited" Because this is a self-defensive word I have utilized as a tool to propagate the religion of myself as being Superior in competition/comparison/judgement to others. Interestingly enough, this reveals low/inflated self-worth. I believed that it was necessary to sell/promote my self-proclaimed greatness as a way to in fact achieve self-proclaimed greatness. Motivated within and as the desire to be be famous and regarded as Royalty in Superiority, I presented my beliefs/opinions whole heartily, triggering others to fuel my proclamations and stand with my behaviour/programming/words as a result of having the very same desires existent within themselves, however, not necessarily actively engaging desire to the extent in which I have been advocating/living.

CON-SEATED !!!

Notice also how the word "Cite" and "Cited" exists within and as the word "Conceited" and how the spelling of "Cited" is rearranged to spell "Ceited"...as "Con + Ceited = ConSeated"

It's Funny to see the actual play out of Conceited behaviour because it's like trying to encourage a hypnotic trance into getting what you want...Like instead of Asking for what it is that You would Like to Receive, there is this belief that if I deceive and I believe in what is is I am deceiving about...I will Achieve the result I am seeking without being direct in my asking for it...interestingly enough this behaviour is like a "beating around the bush" type of mentality that is the direct result of self-manipulation as a result of the accepted and allowed Fear of Inferiority.

OK, Let's look at a very specific example here:

"Let me tell You how great I am. I am the Best at Everything. Everything I do, I am so good at...I have accomplished this and this and that and this...and let me go on and on about all the things I am capable of...Also that I am not not afraid of this and this and this...which is actually quite impressively and truly remarkable because pretty much everyone is afraid and I am not...I am actually so much better than You..."

OK, the point of my example here is to illustrate the specific nature of "Conceitedness", where a specific desire exists to be regarded/perceived/judged/worshiped/proclaimed/complimented in a particular manner...as like to specifically tell someone what it is You want to hear. I find this really funny, because the ridiculous absurdity of it is not heard at all within the speaker...as like there is a cognitive dissonance towards the joke/funny being parlayed here because of the serious nature of the speaker...as like the roots of the situation are seriously fucked...as Fear...is like fucking our Ears ability to Hear...and so, Fear, is like the price/FARE we pay/speak without realizing and understanding the seriousness and severity of and as our own current situation/problem...and thus we miss the Joke that we are, which in truth is Soooooooo Ridiculously Absurd that it is Funny. Albeit and Arguably So, the truth of Our-self is the Most Unfortunate Tragic Comedy Existence as a Whole has in fact ever Witnessed. Ironically enough, Seeing that our finger pointing judgement/comparison/competition has all been in vain, as the reality of the situation is that we've really just been finger blasting our own Asshole as we did not realize and understand our Equality and Oneness and therefore consequently became the manifestation of and as total fucking assholes here...Not realizing how we've proliferated the belief in our own BULLSHIT by finger fucking our own asshole within our self-judgement/comparison/competition believed and propagated inferiority/superiority complex conditioning behaviour mentality frame of mind.


To Be Continued

Wednesday, 16 April 2014

Day 627 Self-Obsession and Mastery

For Context for my writing today, please check out, "Activist's Journey to Life - Day 525 Self-Obsession and Mastery"

Most people are completely obsessed with one thing and live their entire lives within the pull of this massive force of gravity that is their obsession. That obsession is SELF - me, myself and I. Becoming very good at something - mastering a skill - is hard work and often requires that you rise above yourself and become something else - whether it is the music, the art, the job - whatever. What seems to happen with people who have experienced a really traumatic event that involves loss is that they shift their focus from themselves to someone, or something else. That shift of obsession seems to cause a change in their motivation, the force that drives them forward in life. It is no longer the "I" that drives them, but some "other" force that allows for the opportunity for them to develop themselves and dedicate themselves completely to something outside of themselves. Let's face it - most of us never develop that kind of dedication, where we completely lose ourselves in something. Losing yourself implies that you are willing to let go of YOU and become something else - most of us are clinging on far too tightly to "Who I am" and the likes that we would never be willing to let go like that. In a sense it is the act of giving up control absolutely - that is a scary idea for most.

The point I am looking at here specifically is:

"Let's face it - most of us never develop that kind of dedication, where we completely lose ourselves in something. Losing yourself implies that you are willing to let go of YOU and become something else - most of us are clinging on far to tightly to "Who I am" and the likes that we would never be willing to let go like that. In a sense it is the act of giving up control absolutely - that is a scary idea for most."

I garner much support from looking at these words here. Notice how our physical expression here is linked to our ability to breathe here. Notice how often we exists within some shortness of breath...like maybe we hold our breath for a bit...but then need to gasp for air...as like clinging on for dear life....like fearing the death of our-self....this I find is quite an interesting parallel to the actual practical living of our-self here...and when I say practical living of our-self here...I imply the point of understanding that to practically live here...is to express oneself unconditionally...not holding our-self back...like...meaning that we will let go of our-self always...

This is a point I have played with much...very much like a piano in a lot of ways..in terms of my tone within myself...as like the attitude of the strangle hold I place upon myself..from the perspective of how much I restrict myself from doing particular things or how much I refrain myself from restriction and give myself unbounded access to any and all possible direction by not trying to control my direction from the perspective of fearing and worrying that I cannot respond/recover from a mistake...or basically like keep myself a float with my own self perpetual motion...like trusting my self movement...as the working with myself here as what I got to work with from moment to moment.

It's interesting here because our mind as thought/feeling/emotion is in a way the control...it's how we regulate....and interesting here because as we allow ourselves to step beyond our own self-hypnotic mind control...we dare to change our programming here... I mean really...stepping out of a pre-defined self-programming perception/perspective reality and into an unbound limitless potential reality from a certain perspective as we open up a plethora of mathematical potential ability and capability because our course of action as our ability to respond and act in particular manners is not regulated and pre-determined...pre-programmed based upon a time looping mind construction that just runs laps all day on auto repeat. Kind of bizarre really.

So, For instance there are instances where I have pushed myself to move beyond the curtains of control and into the unknown within and as the point of communication...basically pushing myself to trust myself in speaking and to allow myself to flow...and play with what I say while sharing here.

Also however...I have played the tailored opposite here where I am quite restricted within the strangle hold of fear over what I say...this is a frustratingly terrible way to go about communicating I must say...and why...because of the fear to let loose...lose control of the fear....controlling and regulating a fear...is kind of a bizarre approach and consideration...it's like seeing something is fucked and shouldn't really be here...isn't really here...but making believe it to be here.. and keeping it here and making a point of fucking with it. Mind mentality as fear...moving in fear...as the control methodology...


To be Continued



Monday, 14 April 2014

Day 626 Procrastination Energy




Problem:

Having an energetic experience of "I don't feel like doing this now...even though I know I have the time and opportunity to do this particular thing I need to get done"

Prolonging inner-turmoil as a result of allowing a point to be lingering as a result of non action. The point lingers on an emotional level and physical level because the energetic experience related to avoiding the point is not effectively dealt with...and the actual physical act of doing the work/deed/task hasn't been taken care of..

Not immediately directing an energy that comes up within me...is like perpetuating a bad debt/loan...that is just accumulating within interest/stress/strain...meaning that ultimately I am paying a greater price for a point that I could have put in less time/labor to initially deal with effectively in supporting myself.

Solution:

When and as I see myself having a particular energetic experience come up within me with regards to doing a particular task, I realize this energetic charge is a self-induced mind fuck that I can choose to in fact stop...as I see realize that this is not in fact a valid point of support for me here. I stop and breathe, I give attention to my breath awareness here...I see/realize/understand myself here within my physical body and that I am capable and able to move myself beyond the restraints of self-inflicted reactionary energies that come up within me. As I give attention to my breath awareness, I begin to see how the particular energetic experience wasn't really valid from the perspective that I cannot really be possessed within energy when and as I give attention to my breathing here. I direct myself to moving myself within the physical task that requires my participation.

Reward:

By not delaying to get the job/task/responsibility/work done immediately without postponed delay because of an energetic emotion/feeling as not wanting to do it....I have more time that is stress free...I have more time to accomplish/create more things...I am able to relax...I am able to play...I am able to stand within and as the starting point of self-responsibility in and as my expression here...I am able to express myself for real, as what is best for Life....My practical living becomes the epitome of Awesome.

It's interesting to see here how my best interests compound from and as the starting point of physically moving myself to get the work done without allowing any procrastination energy to get in my way of what it is I would like to do.


Saturday, 12 April 2014

Day 625 Human Stupidity




Perhaps the most profound stupidity of Humanity is our detrimental reliance upon feelings and emotions within making decisions. Logically rationalizing the justification of our actions/reactions as being right and righteous within and as the makeup of our moral convictions. What is so fascinating about this, is that the basis of our emotions and feelings is rooted in and as our opinion. Like; how we choose to make believe our perception of things...Like; a forced justification as to why our perception is veiled with a particular cloth. 

What I find fascinating about about the detrimental reliance upon feelings and emotions within making decisions...is that there is a form of self-abdication of personal self-responsibility within giving credence to the existence of feelings and emotions within one-self. I see this as an excuse/justification...and a form of blame...which is a perpetuated consequence of fear/trauma within one-self. 

Now, what to do about all the feelings and emotions that exist within one-self?

Obviously, It is important to acknowledge the existence of such feelings and emotions that exist within one-self. Denying and deflecting the existence of the actuality of one's creation is not suggested nor recommended as the compounding interest of consequences will continually compound in order to facilitate the learning process as one creates more mistakes/misfortune/trauma in order to accelerate understanding/insight/clarity. This is obviously some what ironic...because it is a tragic comedy...a really really bad joke...if you can even call it that...as it is totally self-induced. The ridiculousness is completely absurd.

Here exists the opportunity to investigate the nature of one's self-definition. What is interesting within this self-investigative discovery and self-reflection is that we are faced with seeing our accepted and allowed inequality here...and how the nature of our internal cognitive dissonance has shaped our external inequality as the world horror story that exists here.

So, by daring to stand equal with every point of inequality that exists here, the opportunity is born/garnered/granted to purify/birth the nature of our very being here within and as the starting point principle of Creation(equality and oneness)...as we give like we would like to receive...realizing and understanding that the best support and assistance is always the best support and assistance. In this, here, we are able to see through all acts of deception/self-dishonesty...because we have committed our self here to and as the self-trust and self-honesty required within and as the practical living character who lives and breathes self-forgiveness as the founding principle of Life-Self-Expression-Here.

Friday, 11 April 2014

Day 624 Writing My Journey to Life





Writing my Journey to Life blog is cool. I enjoy it. I enjoy reading other people's Journey to Life blogs. 

What I do not enjoy, is when I miss a day of writing my Journey to Life Blog.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having excused myself from being as diligent as possible within writing my Journey to Life Blog's on a daily basis.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having neglected to make the time for my Journey to Life Blog writing every single day. I realize and understand that sometimes I have less available time than I do other days...and that sometimes I am in remote locations...or away from the computer all day...and within these particular instances...I do see/realize/understand that there usually exists the opportunity for me to take a few moments to write in a note pad or pieces of paper and transcribe my writings at a latter date an time into and as online post in sharing my writing my Journey to Life Blog. I see/realize/understand the assistance and support in sharing my writing my Journey to Life Blog.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having chosen to resist pushing myself to write my Journey to Life blog every single day.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging and comparing my writing my Journey to Life blog to others who are writing the Journey to Life Blog.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for withholding assistance and support for myself and others as a result of missing days of writing my Journey to Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for postponing My Journey to Life within the very point of neglecting the daily constant consistency within writing my Journey to Life Blog.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for giving credit and credence to excuses and justifications as to why I did not complete my Writing my Journey to Life blog on any particular day.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding the cool factor within and as My Writing My Journey to Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding the Awesomeness within and as my Commitment to Writing my Journey to Life Blog Here.

When and as I see myself having thoughts come up within my mind as like reasons/excuses/justifications as how I can rightfully negate the point of writing my Journey to Life Blog, I stop and breathe, I say, "I am here", I see/realize/understand the self-deception within my thoughts...I commit myself to writing my Journey to Life blog.

I commit myself to making time for my daily participation within writing my Journey to Life Blog.

I commit myself to stop negating self-responsibility towards the importance, historical significance, magnificence, coolness, and awesomeness of daily movement within and as Writing My Journey to Life Blog Here.

Thursday, 10 April 2014

Day 623 Information Assessment




When and as I see myself looking at information where I have a particular formed relationship connection/impression, I stop and breathe, I say, "I am here", I see/realize/understand the impracticality of taking personally the information I am examining/investigating. I see/realize/understand how forming a reaction to a point/question of self-realization is ridiculously absurd. I see/realize/understand how I can in fact look at information within myself without being consumed/possessed/influenced by the information within myself. I commit myself to rigorously self-investigating myself here as something I am passionate about. I commit myself self-enjoyment within the process of self-reflection and self-correction. 

When and as I see myself going into the particular energy that is associated with the information that I am looking at that exists within my mind, I stop and breathe, I say, "I am here", I direct myself to respond in a way where I give myself the best support and assistance in changing my ingrained acceptances and allowances. I commit myself to changing my acceptances and allowances that are not in alignment with what is best for all Life here. I commit myself to operating/existing/expressing from within the starting point of and as what is best for all Life here.

I commit myself to becoming more and more specific within and as my process of self-investigation.

I commit myself to Specificity within my communication...and I commit myself to Specificity within and as my Journey to Life.

I commit myself to developing Specificity as a Cool point of and as Self-Expression.