Day 337 Price Tag

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding who I am today is the result of a price tag as like my whole life as been dependent upon money.

I forgive myself fro accepting and allowing myself for not realising and considering that all my memories are reflected within money as like the price tag associated with my experiences.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the influence money has on who each human being is here as character persona's.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being a slave to money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having separated myself form and as money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking about money at work as like how much money I will make today.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having a polarized relationship with money as like either positive or negative depending upon the amount of money I have at my disposal.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding how good feelings are connected with having lots of money and how bad feelings are associated with not having very much money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding how my whole Life from birth till now has been dependent upon money and that it is my self responsibility to calculate the price tag as to account for all instances how money has determined who and how I am Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understand how my Life has been in slavery despite having privileges within getting to make choices as a consumer as how I will spend the money I do have.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for playing the role of a grateful slave...as like feeling grateful that I've had a better Life than people with less money.....I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being grateful that I wasn't born into a family who has no money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for comparing my fortune to the less fortunate and regarding myself as lucky because I've been able to play while the majority of humanity struggle to survive by trying to get money to exist.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking this is just the way things are...some people will always have lots of money and many people will not have much money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding that it is each person's responsibility who has money to speak up about the ridiculousness of our slave money system and that a new perfect system is possible where all Life is valued.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting lost within the bliss and joy...as like believing that things are ok in the world because I have money and have experienced the High Life as being like an energy slut/whore...as thirsting on positive energy experiences as like just worrying about entertaining myself...and neglecting the fact that my good times are coming at the expense of others slavery.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the extent of our shared reality as like a prison planet...as like a slave world....as like everyone is enforcing the situation of slavery...and therefore it will take everyone Here to stop slavery....because all is enslaved or none is enslaved there is no middle ground.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to talk and joke about the ridiculousness of the slavery situation Here,,,as like a brutal joke everyone is a part of.

I commit myself to show that a way out of slavery is possible through collective agreement in bringing into fruition an Equal Money System that supports and values all Life Here.

Day 336 Managing Self Responsibilities

Day 336 Managing Self Responsibilities

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding that all the little moments make up the big moments so to speak as like all the little bits of time make up big chunks of time and therefore it is myself responsibility to realise the significance of each moment as an opportunity here to do work from and as the starting point as what is best for all Life…and within this I realise that a working expression as what is best for all Life is cool.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking moment as seconds and minutes of time for granted throughout my day as like neglecting moments of time management and discipline to wandering within my mind as backchat participation's and losing touch with physical reality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having been overwhelmed with the amount of self-responsibilities I am face with and the amount of time I have to complete myself responsibilities on a daily basis.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having many times neglected putting in my best efforts to complete a task I don’t think I will have enough time to complete….and therefore within this I realise and understand the absurd ridiculousness of wasting moments of time because of the thinking “oh it’s too late I’m not going to have time to get that done anyways…I might as well not even bother starting that process of work responsibility”.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having given up on self-responsibilities before I have even attempted walking self-responsibilities.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to budget time like money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not utilising my time to my fullest potential/capabilities.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for becoming frustrated/irritated/angered/annoyed/stressed with the amount of time it takes me to operate in completing tasks as part of my present day self-responsibilities and within this I realise that as I keep the discipline in moving through my tasks as daily self-responsibilities, I will become more effective and efficient at moving through daily tasks/responsibilities.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for trying to rush through tasks/responsibilities from the perspective of just wanting to get it done without regard for the quality of my work.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having many many times compromised the quality of my work for the sake of just getting things done…as like not really caring about the work I do but just wanting to make sure I keep doing my work quickly.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to neglect self-responsibilities in favour of things I find more relaxing…as like a break from work/responsibility as like giving me a release from stress/pressure of having tasks to complete and wanting to complete my tasks as quick as possible as to make sure I always beat the deadline.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising I can be careful and carefree within the work I do as tasks/responsibilities in daily living and actually enjoy myself within the process and step out of controlled automation as consciousness thinking and emerge myself within the moment as physical participation that I am in direct contact/touch with.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understand the discipline and diligence required to not accept and allow time for backchat to influence daily living participations. I realise I am in process of removing mind consciousness system character weakness’s as influence in my daily living.

I forgive myself for not realising and understanding that it is better and easier to give a few moments of time to a project over many days than it give a few big chunks of time on a few days…and that I am capable and able to work on more projects at one time when I allow myself to make sure I do a little bit of work on each project every day,…even if it is just for a few moments…because every little bit of focused attention counts…and all the moments of time add up…and if there is all sorts of focused small moments of time….than you get a picture of clarity in time as efficient time management…because the big reflect the small…and therefore I see and realise the importance of making the most of a few moment here and there…as like wherever I am, I have moments opportunity to utilize as a point of assistance and support as what is best…and within this I am grateful for the present/presence moment Here.

When and as I see myself experiencing myself as overwhelmed in time, I stop and breathe, I realise what it is I am doing…what it is I require to do…how much time I have…and I budget my time as assistance and support that is always awesome/best/cool.

When and as I see myself having thoughts of neglecting care for time, I stop and breathe…and I realise the importance/power/gift of time as like money movement and myself responsibility in becoming a representation of an equal money system as like perfect money movement.

Day 335 Some Greedy Considerations

Day 335  Some Greedy Considerations

In the last post I talked about the point of utilizing greed as a tool of support in taking every opportunity self-forgiveness. Within this point I didn't consider that I was thinking I could use greed as a point of support so that self-forgiveness becomes more automated within myself because it is always work for me…as like I got to choose to apply myself. The fact that I have to choose to apply myself kind of exposes myself dishonesty because if I was totally self-honest than there wouldn't be a choice as to whether or not I would apply myself in speaking self-forgiveness…it would be just what I do because that’s the best thing to do. I see the correlation with greed here from the perspective that within self-honesty to always do/take/give what is best for all Life as like having no choice because I operate from the principle of equality and oneness as what’s best for all Life.

I realise I am in the process of getting to the point of equality and oneness within myself as constant consistency and establishing myself as self-honesty. I think greed is like a short cut perhaps….yet I see that there is no real short cuts….more actually I see that I was hoping greed to be a short cut in the sense that if I pronounced myself as greedy and connecting greed to the application of self-forgiveness than I would/could create an energy buzz within my mind consciousness that made self-forgiveness self-automated as like creating a system of correction within my mind consciousness system as like a virus cleaner. Within this too, I see that I was making greed out to be a separate entity from myself as like would be taking responsibility for self-forgiveness for me as like I would be here just observing the process of self-forgiveness application without directly laboring self-forgiveness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for trying to make self-forgiveness automated within myself as like operating through my mind consciousness as like greed energy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being self-dishonest within existing as choice as to whether or not I will apply self-forgiveness in the moment a point comes up within my mind.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking of greed to be a short cut within process as like giving me a jolt within myself as like creating an energy buzz within my mind consciousness that makes self-forgiveness automated.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe myself to exist in separation of greed.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding how my whole starting point of trying to make the labored process of self-forgiveness easier as like becoming self-automated within myself has been from a point of greed within myself as like wanting and desiring the best results without having to do the work.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that it is possible to be taking self-responsibility with self-forgiveness while just observing the process of self-forgiveness application without directly laboring self-forgiveness….as like believing that I can remain within consciousness and use a consciousness system to do the work for me so to speak.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the physical labored process to make self-forgiveness self-automated and for not realising and understanding that the automation of self-forgiveness is not just like a magical pooof abra kadabra I proclaim self-forgiveness to be self-automated within myself as a mind consciousness virus cleaner.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging myself for using and believing I can use the word greed as a point of support and assistance in increasing my application of self-forgiveness within daily living.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging the use of the word greed to be a possible short cut within process….I realise and understand there is no real short cuts so to speak within process and there is in fact only short circuiting mind consciousness systems as character weakness’s.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not capitalizing on all the opportunities within my day to apply self-forgiveness after making a point of utilizing self-forgiveness from a starting point of greed from the perspective of taking every opportunity I can to apply self-forgiveness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the conflict within greed as like being a point of self-interest separate from others…as like consequently gaining something from greed while another loses something as a result of one’s greed.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for misinterpreting the word greed from agreed because greed is within agreed…and would start looking at agreed from within greed as a opposed to starting with the agreement of agreed to see the best greed as like one greed that is all ways best as equality and oneness as the basis of agreement and coming together as having agreed on an outcome that is all ways best for Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding what it means to have agreed as like reached a point of terms which is accepted and allowed.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for accepting and allowing separation from the word greed as like making it to be a stigma within my mind and something that is just not good.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for wanting and desiring to make greed good.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for polarizing greed within myself as like flip flopping within my mind consciousness as a positive and negative energetic charge.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing for having resisted the fact that I want to make greed to be something that is good because within myself I can keep secret points of self-interest indulgences/desires alive under the disguise of goodness because of making believe greed to be good and therefore neglect self-responsibility.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding that the point of self-forgiveness application conflicts with greed within myself because greed as it exists within myself is to protect mind consciousness systems within myself as like holding onto conflict/friction energies without letting them go but to consciously participate within them from time to time as like mind consciousness self-interest indulgence to be under the influence of an energetic buzz experience at the expense of my physicality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing greed to exist within myself as a way to protect mind consciousness systems within myself as like holding onto conflict/friction energies without letting them go but to consciously participate within them from time to time as like mind consciousness self-interest indulgence to be under the influence of an energetic buzz experience at the expense/loss of my physicality.

Greed Definition:

An excessive desire to acquire or possess more than what one needs or deserves, especially with respect to material wealth: "Many . . . attach to competition the stigma of selfish greed" (Henry Fawcett).

Source: The Free Dictionary

After looking at the definition of greed a few considerations came to mind:

Wouldn't it be a cool shared a-greed situation if everyone was operating from a point of unity as realising that our inherent greed as our inheritance is best served when all is in service of our shared agreed reasoning that what is best for all Life is best for me because I am a part of all Life? YES

Greed from the perspective of consciousness individuality as like perceiving self to be separate from everything else and existing here from a point of survival as like trying to make sure one has more than enough resources to satisfy ones survival to one’s desire….is ridiculous because it places everyone in conflict/friction and is like a less than perfect way of existing….when a perfect way of existing would be for everyone to have everything.

Playing with the word ‘greed’:

Degree….grede….like grade….a-greed…deer-g….gree-d…gr-ee-d….g-r-e-e-d…..gre-ed...grenede

Greed is like a deer in the headlights if there is no unity in realising all as one as equal because a grading system results where there are degrees of determining Life worth as how valuable you are to the system and according to your degree you are placed with an assigned value as like your money worthiness and therefore how much access you have to Life.

Greed can be all consuming as like destroying everything because of the tunnel vision of greed as like being deer stuck in the head lights and facing destruction as consequence of being stuck in the head lights…as like blinded by the light…yet mesmerized by the light.

Greed as like a competition for money

Greed results from various points of conflicting self-interests as like survival of the fittest and fuck the rest.

Greed does not exist when all is agreed because a-greed implies no separation and therefore it is realised that is all of us that is responsible for contributing to the whole that is here as like each of us get more than we need from the whole universe because everyone share Life entitlement to all Life resources and therefore there is no hoarding/blocking access to Life entitlement because all is agreed within our birthright that we are all shareholders of the same inheritance because our inheritance is best maintained and regarded as a shared inheritance that is always being monitored and cared for and tended to as the best inheritance possible as the true expression of the equality and oneness of ‘giving and receiving’ Agreement.

Day 334 Living Self-Forgiveness Works

Day 334 Living Self-Forgiveness Works

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand the inner workings of self-forgiveness as the gift giving that I give to myself as like daily nutrition so to speak as like the way to take care of myself here and within this caring for myself, enabling myself to care for others beings effectively.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having initially started self-forgiveness processes from the perspective of just trying to better myself from a point of self-interest as like to improve my positioning within the world system so that I could better exist as an expert manipulator as like removing self-imposed realised weakness’s.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding how I change my whole world perspective with the application of self-forgiveness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having initially wanted to keep my limited world perspectives and just use self-forgiveness as a way to enhance my positioning within limited world perspectives from and as the starting point of survival here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking on the application of self-forgiveness to just think of this as a way to manipulate the energetic experience of myself as like to create a way for myself to always be living the high Life as like always feeling good and being happy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for accepting and allowing myself for having been self-righteous within my initial applications of self-forgiveness as like trying to assert and expand self-righteous indignation within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for applying self-forgiveness as a self defense mechanism as like to try and create myself as a superior being that can’t be fucked with.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking of self-forgiveness as like spell casting so to speak as like the way to just better myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding that I have never known the end results of effective application of self-forgiveness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the extensiveness of self-forgiveness required as like to move through all my memories as release the energetic charges that I possess within myself as like character perceptions based on polarity charged friction energy perceptions as like operating as less than a complete whole character Here of Life Equality and Oneness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding the opportunities I have Here in my physical body to all the time be walking the applications of self-forgiveness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having been so resistant to multi-tasking my living within accordance with self-forgiveness…as like to make self-forgiveness as pre-cursor…as like a necessary element/tool in my day to day functioning…with whatever I find myself participating within.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking and believing that self-forgiveness can only been done in isolated incidents where I can focus only on the task of writing or speaking self-forgiveness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being reluctant to keep pushing the point of applying self-forgiveness at all aspects throughout my day because that would mean I have to direct my mind at all times as like being in control of what I am doing within my mind…and have to give up my mind automation that takes place as backchat when I am engaged within various activities.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for relying upon backchat within my daily participation's as like the way to keep me tuned into how I am experiencing myself as emotions/feelings.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting letting go of being tuned into thoughts/feelings/emotions/memories as like how I experience myself from moment to moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for moments when I am physical engaging myself in some sort of physical activity to resist the application of multi-tasking the physical activity with the physical labored application of self-forgiveness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not knowing if I can actually automate the application of self-forgiveness through consistent and constant efforts…that as a result of my labor and commitment to self-forgiveness… the physical labor of self-forgiveness becomes self-automated and effortless so to speak as the expression of who and how and why I am Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having thought many times in many moments ‘ok I am taking a mental note of this point now and I will investigate and apply self-forgiveness later…I can’t do it now.’

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for postponing the physical labored application of self-forgiveness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking some moments to just be too difficult to apply self-forgiveness within.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having made many excuses as to why I will do self-forgiveness later and not right now.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having tried to just do the bare minimum of self-forgiveness within my day to day living as like keeping the attitude of as long as I just do at least a little bit of self-forgiveness than I am fulfilling myself responsibilities as moving within my process of self-realisation and self-corrective application Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for holding onto the attitude of as long as I just do at least a little bit of self-forgiveness than I am fulfilling myself responsibilities as moving within my process of self-realisation and self-corrective application Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking and wondering and considering whether I can become more effective at applying self-forgiveness all the time if I develop the attitude wherein I am greedy about self-forgiveness from the perspective of wanting to forgive myself for every point that presents itself within my mind and have a strong yearning within myself as like being committed to forgive myself for every point that exist within myself as thought/feeling/emotion.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that I can’t be greedy about the application of self-forgiveness because to be greedy is bad and I don’t want to be bad and I regard myself as good.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for regarding myself as too good to be greedy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding that it is good to be greedy about the application of self-forgiveness from the perspective of utilizing taking every opportunity to apply self-forgiveness as a moment of giving to myself as like the way for me to equalize the give and take relationship…as like I am taking the opportunity to give to myself because I am committed to being a greed as like operating as the best greed meaning that I will utilize wanting what is best for Life as my principle point of movement Here…so as to make sure I will always do what is best because I use greed as a point of support to assist myself in practically living the application of self-forgiveness to my fullest potential.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to experience uncertainty within myself as to whether it is good idea for me to speak about self-forgiveness and the application of utilizing greed from the starting point of and as the best greed as like a singular greed where all is agreed as like what is best is the best as equality and oneness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that I am being creative in seeing a point in greed as a way to assist and support myself with incorporating self-forgiveness into my beingness as like an all the time application so as to create self-regulating automation as self-forgiveness labored within myself as a result of constant and consistent application because I thirst self-forgiveness like water as like eternal Life everlasting.

I commit myself to a-greed agreed self-forgiveness.

I commit myself to utilizing greed as a point of support in practical application of self-forgiveness.

Day 333 Doubting My Work

So today, I had some doubts about my work planting trees, in the sense that it’s like I got extra cautious about my quality of trees I’m planting. There was mention this morning about making sure everyone is planting good trees…and I took extra time today while planting my trees as to double check to make sure I’m planting good trees….It’s like I reacted in fear to the words this morning and doubted my trees and worried/feared that if my trees weren't good I’d have to rework my land/trees and make sure everything was good. It’s ridiculous how my reaction this morning seemingly subtle…influenced my entire day. I know how to plant good trees and this is my 9^th season planting trees…so like doubting my planting abilities and fearing to have re-work my trees as consequence of not planting at my potential is ridiculous.  I planted a lot less trees today than I planted yesterday. It was a bit hotter today…like 5 degrees hotter than yesterday…for a 28 degrees Celsius. I planted just a little bit more than half what I planted the day before…I realise it’s the beginning of the season and I’m still building endurance and strength…but definitely notice how if my attitude was different…I working result would have been different. I get paid by the tree so it’s in my interest to plant good trees as efficient as possible.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for mind fucking myself today by reacting in fear/worry/doubt of my planting abilities.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to allow words spoken to scare me…as like today when the management mentioned about the importance of good quality trees and that people will have to re-work poorly planted trees….I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be influenced by these words and react in fear and worry as like not wanting to have to re-plant…and therefore take extra pre-cautions because of having lots of worry/fear about having to re-work my trees/land.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for slowing myself down planting trees when I am capable and able to move faster and work more efficiently.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself compromising myself trust within and as worrying about and entertaining the idea that people will have to re-plant their trees if the trees are not planted properly.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging and comparing my tree planting performances.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for attaching emotions and feelings to tree planting, specifically because the amount of trees I plant determines the amount of money I make.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having a fearful and paranoid attitude about the quality of trees I plant.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for suppressing my capability to plant excellent trees very very very fast and efficiently.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having allowed my day of tree planting to be influenced by words I hear in the morning as like determining the attitude I will hold within myself during the day.

When and as I see myself being worried and paranoid about the trees I am planting, I stop and breathe and I realise the absurd ridiculousness of carrying on this way. I adjust my attitude to planting greatness as I realise my great tree planting abilities…and I move as the expression of tree planting greatness.

I commit myself to great tree planting.

I commit myself to trusting in my planting abilities and capabilities.

I commit myself to exercising my planting abilities and capabilities.

I commit myself to stop emotions/feelings attached to the amount of money I make.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being really happy when I make lots of money and disappointed and upset when I have days where I made less than I did on other days.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to compare myself against other tree planter…and I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for wanting to know how many tree’s other people planted when I know I worked really hard and planted possibly more than anybody else.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for comparing my tree planting numbers when I know I was capable of planting more trees but didn’t.

When and as I see myself making comparisons about trees planted, I stop and breathe..I realise the absurd ridiculousness of creating energetic frictioned energies within myself as either positive or negative about trees planted.

Day 332 The Ridiculousness of Going into a Wave of Emotion at Work

The Ridiculousness of Going into a Wave of Emotion at Work

Today there was a few moments where I kind of distracted myself from focusing on my work. When I daydream or go into some sort of thinking/backchat while I am working like just randomly because a thought pops up in my head and I indulge within it…my work suffers… I'm not as effective…it’s like I can still do the work…it’s just that I’m not as efficient…as it’s like allowing multi focuses…which really compromises giving all my attention to the work I am doing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to distract myself from my work when a thought comes up in my mind and I give attention to it…as like to enable myself to now be multi tasking my work and thinking as like a form of entertainment that can be automated if I allow myself to not stop the thoughts by going into self forgiveness on the thought that comes up in the moment it comes up.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting applying self forgiveness at moments when a thought comes up and I am aware that this thought just came up within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand how by allowing myself to indulge in even one thought while I am working, I am compromising my best work performance because my awareness becomes compromised within giving attention to thinking and the working I’m doing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand that I am limited my ability to be real successful with my work when I accept and allow myself to participate in thinking/backchat while I work.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for choosing to indulge within backchat/thinking that I have a positive reaction towards as like get an energetic high…and therefore keep focusing on the thinking/backchat automation because of the quick reaction I had and wanting to continue within the reaction as a feeling high.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for wanting to feel high within thought/backchat reactions…as like choosing to keep alive within myself memories that are energetic charged as character weaknesses….which are accepted and allowed forms of self suppression.

I realise it is not cool to compromise my best work production for a feeling or emotion as play out of keeping a backchat/train of thought rolling within my mind.

I realise I am capable and able to stop a thought/backchat in one moment by choosing not to participate within it…and seeing the thought/backchat as a tool of support as what I have to work with here in the moment as the point that requires my attention as a problem I am aware of and therefore…going into self-forgiveness on the point/thought/backchat/problem that comes up within myself I create the solution by applying the tool of self-forgiveness in the moment and then I continue about and related points that are triggered in relation to the initial point….and therefore by doing this I establish moment to moment management,,,as I enable myself capable of doing my best work in the moment as a result of giving my undivided attention to my work and enabling myself to perfect my work…by alleviating issues that come up within myself as thought/backchat/emotion/feeling.

When and as I see myself giving attention to a thought and indulging within a thought, I stop and breathe and 

I realise myself responsibility in utilizing the tool of self forgiveness to correct character weaknesses that exist within myself. I realise that taking this approach enables myself to be a better worker as I become more focused on the task at hand.

Day 331 Communicating The Desteni Message

Communicating the Desteni Message

“I don’t like how the Desteni Message is regarded as the only way”

“You’re stubborn because You don’t accept that there can be other ways”

“You’re just being self righteous in thinking that the Desteni way is the only way”

“Nobody really knows the truth”

These are some of the types of comments that were coming towards me today from the 2 people I am sharing a motel apartment with for my tree planting contract that I am working for the next few months.

There was so much emotion and feeling being spoken in the words to me.

Later today I reflected back upon these word exchanges and was thinking about how I missed out on some stand up comedy opportunities to really expose points of accepted and allowed ridiculousness. I saw the point that if I allowed myself to slow down a little more I would have been able to direct the funny in exposing points of ridiculousness had having some laughs.

At the time, I noticed myself keeping busy physically while these words and many other words were being spewed at me as like an attack of opinions .I just focused myself on cleaning the dishes and listening to the words that were coming at me…and pointing out some considerations of fuckedness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding that I gotta slow down and breathe when things seem to be happening so quickly….like so many words coming at me…so that I can embrace the words and act with my best response abled capabilities…as like making jokes out of points of ridiculousness because I find this to be fun/enjoyable and I am quite good at it.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for suppressing my abilities to make jokes and expose points of ridiculousness because I did not slow myself down enough in breathing to embrace/access the funny in the moments as like I was just keeping myself physically engaged by doing the dishes so that I didn't spiral off with some emotional reactions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear spiraling off on an emotional tangent when faced with emotional tangents being spewed at me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding that I am capable and able to use the words that are shared with me as points of support always and that there is always jokes here because everything about how I've come to see our mind consciousness system operating is ridiculous…which is like fear based….which is ridiculous…which is funny….because funny is ridiculous and fear is ridiculous.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding how fear and funny are both ridiculous…I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having isolated funny from fear in that there both ridiculous but I cannot consider both fear and funny to be ridiculous at the same time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand that I block myself from accessing the funny that is here as consequence of being controlled by the fears that I accept and allow within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understand how unfunny things seem to me when I am in a state of fear possession as like stuck within fear energies.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to limit the sharing expression of myself as a funny practical joker within and as being directed and trying to regulate the fears within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding myself operating within fear as like desire to maintain law and order so to speak as like regulating emotion/feeling expressions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking personally all the funny that exists as like the fear forms as like the various degrees of emotion and feeling reactions from the starting point of polarized friction energy as either positive or negative.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the ridiculousness of trying to regulate emotions and feelings from and as the starting point of fearing emotions and feelings.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be in conflict with emotions/feelings.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to take offense/defense to emotions/feelings.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to face people’s emotions and feelings and assist and support emotions and feelings by exposing the fear which is ridiculously funny.

When and as I see myself feeling like I am being attacked as like what I am doing Here as a Destonian, I stop and breathe, and I allow myself to see the funny as I realise and understand the ridiculousness of fear.

When and as I see myself moving myself to keep myself physically busy because words are being spewed at me and I fear taking the words personally, I stop and breathe and I realise there is some comedy gold here. I seize the comedy gold and take all I can from the moment as unconditional assistance and support.

When and as I see myself being influenced by people’s feelings/emotions I stop and breathe…and I realise the ridiculousness of accepting and allowing myself to be mind-controlled/brainwashed by people in my environment as consequence of reacting to people’s feelings/emotions.