Monday, 4 May 2015
A point came up earlier as a point of of our individual lives from the perspective of House's here. This is a cool perspective. What is interesting about this perspective is that those of us who are adults....have to a certain extent or another....fixer uppers from the perspective that there is things within our life developments that we have accepted and allowed to exist within our House/Self here that is less than what is best for our Self/House. So with this perspective in mind, we can't just collapse/destroy our House and start over....because that's like giving up and dieing kind of thing....so we Are the fixer upper's and renovator's. Now this is quite interesting because the potential end result is the same as a blank slate fresh start creation....yet the process journey in getting to that fruition is a different path/harvest/renovation.
So, the question comes up:
How much focuses attention do you spend renovating/restoring your House/Self on a Daily Basis?
This was kind of like a wow question for myself....because the point comes up that I have been coping to a certain extent with my house/self here and not really pushing my house/self total potential. There's been a certain amount of complacency...as like existing within it it...and, kind of dwelling to a certain extent. Which is ironic, because the point does exist within me where I do want to renovate and expand my potential here. The point of preoccupation i see that I have given to much attention to is dwelling within myself/house as like making a big deal and giving to much attention to things that don't really need so much attention from the perspective of renovating and expanding my House/Life.
Let's look at one of the definitions of Dwelling :
Think, speak or write at length about (a particular subject, especially one that is a source of unhappiness, anxiety or dissatisfaction)
I bring attention here because it's a point of recognition to the ridiculousness in perpetuating the existence within Dwelling as a point of unhappiness, anxiety or dissatisfaction. The irony here is that that the more one gives attention/thinking about that which is unhappy/anxiety/dissatisfaction.....the more one writes the story as the ink in which you think that stains you as the window panes that be your life vision as your in house / self insight as the very actual television programming that was told to oneself....day after day after day.
What do You tell yourself Everyday?
This is a point of practical consideration and regard. The game plan if you will. The live action movie script and direction. The plans for the renovation....whether they are the day plans...or the grad plans of many days.
When do you take the time to write/plan/create the incoming days possibilities?
See there is a certain amount of advantage to having a game plan when you are here to get a job done. One is able to be more precise with the days movements and moments when and as one has already created and walked the simulation as the do it yourself how to.
Is the self-regard and consideration clear as to the actual benefit in taking the time for oneself to plan and in-vision the upcoming work to be done...and specifically creating the way in which to do it and actually seeing how to do it...so that the actual doing gets done...and it;s not like this stutter step that you don't want to take because you don't know because you didnt take the time to create a way for you moving play...
Can you treat the time like accounting?
Yes, have a look....time is creation potential here....and that is cash money.....because have a look....everything is life here....and to get basically anything here is cash/money....and yes....even the words within me are cash/money because it's the proficiency in the usage of my words that dictates my ability to receive cash/money....because very much so...the sewing of my labor as how I move is in and as the relationship to my words as the song that is sung within myself here from moment to moment as my ongoing movement.
What's interesting to consider here about this time like treat of accounting for the moment to moment management....is the recognition that the internal going on is a regulator of the external going on....and so it begins within to extend without. So, knowing this....it's in what one accepts and allows to play within oneself...as like the music workings going on...if the think as the thought is one's you wouldn't want to be caught with....destroy the evidence....delete it from the memory history as like get rid of it...so there;s no more repeating repeats that aren't worth repeating. In this way we can forgive ourselves for playing over and over a song that shouldn't be sung as like a waste of space....because really to think about the stink of a stench over and over and like sit within it without getting rid of it is....like, what the fuck....not cool....so face the heat or get cooked like a bad burn because you didn't recognize the chore in farming the manure or putting on the sunscreen of flipping over to even out the tan....you know things are all about a matter or timing...which brings me back to the starting point and the time management and regard recognition as like to support the specific implementation of points of planned responsible time from day to day as a way to for sure the proper cognition as sound mind music maker moving as the dance of live that is lived when you already know the verse as to how this responsibility can be conversed.
Final thought thinking's here as my celebration good bye as the great buy gold nugget to take away here......is the:
"Your Wish is Your Command"
and check it out....Realize...See for real....the Wish.....the Command....is Your Living Words! So Abracadabra is the meaning of Life here as the I speak what I create as the sound is sewn as the seeds that grow.....Abracadabra....Your wish is Your Command.....So, be filled with Care for What you wish for...and cultivate the caring regard for yourself daily as giving attention to the seeds you See as what you planted as the focused planning and remember you are the farmer/cultivator and curator of said results...so knowing this is like the great potential to fine tune greatness as enabling a certain level of room for adaptability for results that were not previously seen that are beyond the initial wish or planning but are in alignment with the sound structured greatness that you are....as it is all ours...Each Got it to give....so Give it to Yourself...the music ...the words....the talk...the walk...to make and create that which is great.
To Be Continued
Sunday, 3 May 2015
Writing is a very cooooooooooooooooooooooooool platform for playing with the decision making and creating process as the specific expression of oneself here.
In a way whether or not we are physically writing or typing words...we are very much in accordance with the language of information....as the information is within ourselves here...and each and every moment we are working with information and are making decisions as to how to express or suppress....which is interesting in and of itself because the suppression is just kind of an reactionary play out that just sort of happens as like the nothingness taking over....i say the nothingness taking over from the persepective of being influenced and governed by momentary blips of energetic information coming up within oneself as consciousness containment so to speak as like a shock/buzz that dictates the sail of and as One's ship as how One will be in and as a Relationship here.
The interesting thing to look at here is ourselves as the master programmer...and in saying this....SEE the Mast within and as the point of Master....meaning, the Sailor hear.....the Director/Captain/Leader....the One Giving the Commands.
What I have noticed is that sometimes I forget just how much ability I have in dictating the expression of myself from moment to moment. I mean the ability to express oneself from moment to moment is really something quite marvelous. The play of Today I say that is always here is in and as the moment of and as self-direction here as the who/how/what possibility and opportunity to make the play working as a resulting commitment to playing as the live live acting/expressing Director Here.
It really does boggle me from time to time when I catch myself in the funk of the wrath of self-authorized confinement as like the victim of a terrorist attack that was my own doing onto myself as a result of accepting and allowing an energetic reaction to engulf the Mast of my Mastery and kind of take me for a swirl into a temporary disarray as like a momentary confusion that requires the simplicity in self authoritative direction within and as the simplicity of sorting out the cross wires as like the hiccup within and as the electricity connection...the seeing the unnecessary strain and drain I was putting onto myself as a result of an energetic dissonance in and as the accepted and allowed polarization of myself within and as a self-reflection being missed and seen as totally separate and distant from myself...kind of like a mirage in the sense...of being caught in the energetic allure of seeing what I want to see even though it's not really here but I'm kind of force fighting it here as an outward suppression of the inward suppression.
Obviously the point is to not get caught within the hiccup...nor sweat or dread a potential hiccup...as the momentary challenges that come as like the changing windy conditions that will most certainly affect the positioning of the Mast of and as Self-Leadership if and as Self-Leadership is not quick to exercise the expression of Response Abilities. I mean, even with the quickness and steadfastness of approach in adjusting the sail to compliment the adjusting conditions...the influence is here...as like each is a point of influence here as influence is who/how/what we are. The Question is what Kind of Influence are You? Consider all kinds of Everything Here....that is the makeup of Influence we are working with. Obviously the practicality is in Knowing and Trusting in the Mechanics of Expression through and as the Creative decisions We Make as Our Know and Understood Response Abilities Here.
Let me bring more attention to the Known and Understood Response Abilities Here. This is a fascinating area of focus...you see because whether we like it or not we are always at work and play together as one as the same image and likeness here as equality and oneness here together as whatever the weather there is the solidity of substantial fusion and an interwoven connection as the source center of and as What Life is within and as the simplicity of principle and law of creation here.
The focal point of my sharing here today is within the careful Planning whether it be in the moment as the momentary freestyle play as the live action and direction of character presentations here...and also within regards to future moments that are of possibility....and of future moments that One wish to bring into specific manifestation as a certain result. There's a lot we can do....there's a lot we are doing....the question/answer/solution is in the investigation of of the past so that we can know how to manifest the destiny of the future that is Best.
To Be Continued
Saturday, 25 April 2015
A really good movie for young people to watch. It really encourages the point of self-reflection into what one is doing with their life. What kind of potential oneself has...and how if we don't really challenge ourselves to move then we will just go through the movement moments of emotion and remain stuck in the same dead end until we die.
The movie showcased different character dynamics amongst young people and also the fact that immigrants to the western world are the ones often getting their shit together...working hard so that they can make something more for themselves....it shows the point of apathy rather well...also the point of openness and how an open attitude can yield opportunity and potential development for oneself...regardless of where one it is at currently...it's like there is always room for improvement and when one is open and willing to improve their position and status and positioning in life...well the opportunity might just open itself up externally as a reflection of the internal attitude. Also showcases rather well the point of self-victimization and the destruction within self-talk as like kicking one's own ass within one's emotional disposition.
The movie is also an eye opener into self-responsibility...i would say this because it showcases the attitude of despair as kind of like bumbling along and not really having a high regard for oneself as a consequence really of being somewhat of a scatter brain from the perspective of thinking about so much stuff outside the scope of oneself here...and really if the starting point isn't first the regard and consideration for oneself...than the regards and consideration for others is futile...because really it's at your own expense and it is thought of as a like a distraction and a sort of preoccupation to avoid actually taking responsibility and directing the main problem which is oneself and the fact that one isn't really doing anything for themselves to their betterment and therefore is also in fact a detriment to everyone else because if one doesn't take regard and consider oneself to the highest degree...the likely hood of being able to give and contribute effectively to the lives of others is very much suppressed...so much so that the individual may in fact be a drain on the lives of others as a result of their own self inflicted abuse.
This movie kind of reflects into the psyche of a young adult and really is a point of recognition towards the self-reflection in asking the question "do I have my shit together"...what am I doing for myself....what am I making for myself....what purpose am I giving to my life? These questions I am learning are critical in the development of oneself here and also within having the ability to critically give responsibly here. Responsibility starts with self and that is something worth repeating...daily...from moment to moment...responsibility starts with self.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for wanting to wallow at the end of the movie at the harsh reality of the fact that it is up to self whether or not one gets self-honest with oneself and takes self-responsibility as the Director of One's Life here...and this is it...You got to put in the effort to yourself to really get the life You want...the Life You are worth...it's a point of and as our Potential Here....I mean this is something that is labored into ourselves....it's like we have to cultivate and develop our potential....Yes we have a natural ability within and as the expression of our potential....the reality is to effectively exercise and express that Potential of ours...we need to be self-honest in and as the self-evaluation of our acceptances and allowances here..as the way to maintain a clean body/mind relationship where just like we shit out the shit from the body...we take care to release the shit from our minds so as to make sure we keep farming the greatness which is in fact our true potential here....and keep growing developing new branches of our potential as the ways in which we allow ourself to connect and contribute to the lives of others so that they too can compliment in contribution to the lives of others...as like the epitome understanding and realization to how in fact it is possible for the Merry go Round to function as our shared play ground working together reality here.
When and as I see myself looking at a harsh truth as like a deep rooted acceptance and allowance within myself....I take a moment to really look at what it is I have been accepting and allowing that I had not previously been really acknowledging. I face the emotion that comes with seeing something that I had been avoiding to look at. I look at the emotion that is connected to what I have accepted and allowed. I realize the gratitude in gifting myself the privilege and patience to actually take the time to self-examine the extent of my accepted and allowed conditioning. I really face myself as it...I see myself clearly within and as the point...I realize myself as the potential expansion from and as this accepted and allowed limitation. I realize and understand how to move beyond such a mistake. I make the decision to stop accepting and allowing myself to be enveloped within such a character condition of suppression. I embrace the change I see possible.
I commit myself to the development and expansion of my Potential.
I commit myself to learning from self-evaluation.
I commit myself to creating a life for myself.
I commit myself to contributing to the lives of others.
I commit myself to the regard and consideration of self-responsibility being a daily repetition from moment to moment.
I commit myself to sharing my realizations of self-responsibility as the Merry go Round as as the gratitude and grateful attitude in and as our shared play ground working reality here...and within this realizing and understanding that this starts with myself regards here as the working play ground.
I commit myself to taking care of my body and my mind and within this realizing and understanding the necessity in giving myself everything I need to cultivate the full development of my potential here.
I commit myself to branching out my potential.
I commit myself to opening up my mind to new opportunities to develop my potential and then later share my creations and supportive contributions to the lives of others.
I commit myself to making the most out of my Life here.
Wednesday, 22 April 2015
Continuing from my previous post, "Day 730 - Coming Out of Retirement"
"A realization that has become clear to me is that Yes, Indeed I do have a Golden Ticket and this Golden Ticket is in fact my Potential Here...and the thing is...I Require to Use My Golden Ticket...and I cannot just save it away and avoid it for a long time later.....that is foolish....My Golden Ticket has the Most Value Now...and The Value Of My Golden Ticket Gets More Valuable every day I Exercise it....like a card I got to pay/play with as the decisions I make." (Day 730 - Coming out of Retirement)
Within this and continuing from my post yesterday there is much self-forgiveness I would like to share.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting long term commitment.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing long term commitment to get in the way of short term commitments and my overall ability to have fun.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for regarding "long term commitment" as burden and something that is tedious in a way i don't want to deal with.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing long term commitment.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for making a conflict of sorts between "short term commitment" and "long term commitment".
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have created my life from the starting point of self-interest linked to my emotions and feelings.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting movement if I am not experiencing a positive energy about doing such movement
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for defining retirement living as the enthrallment within feed positive energy pursuits.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting overwhelmed within the point of long term planning.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to actually really sit with myself and take the time to look at what I would like as some long term plans.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for always kind of reacting to the point of long term planning and being quit to judge and dismiss the point as being limiting and taking away from my day to day living.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the purposeful living within creating long term plans.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the flexibility and adaptability within long term planning that it can be a fun thing and isn't a prison sentence,,,but in fact the complete opposite.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having spent many years not really caring or daring to push the development of long term planning.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how this past decade has been like a testing phase of sorts where I have been investigating and looking at possible avenues to take myself within as a point of long term planning.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for desiring some structure and order in my life from the perspective of creating long term plans for myself to be able to move into fruition/actualization.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding how to create long term plans for myself.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for placing long term and short term goals within conflict with each other and for not realizing how I can utilized these two opposite points as being complimentary in bringing to fruition both the short term plans and the long term plans.
I forgive myself for not realizing and understand how ridiculous it is pit things against one another that can very easily be complementary.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to regularly check my maps as the plans i create for myself in both the short term and the long term.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not taking my life seriously from the perspective of long term planning.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for kind of neglecting myself as the creator of my life from and as the perspective that My Wish is My Command...and that I am capable of being very specific and exact within my life planning and also at times be quite adaptable.
Tuesday, 21 April 2015
I can recall on more than one occasion, declaring that I was taking an early retirement. The idea of an early retirement is something I was looking into at the end of my teenage years and the beginning of my twenties. My attitude was that I am ready to commit to full time leisurely pursuits. The consideration was that perhaps I would not make it to old age or that I would be less mobile, less flexible, less capable or less able bodied. From my perspective, I was of the notion that I should give as much time to myself now as possible....even if I have to pay for it later....that giving myself tremendous amounts of time now, would pay dividends later...as like actually gifting myself with the privilege to slow down and seize the day. This was regarded as somewhat of a radical notion because all my peers were looking to position themselves into life long careers so that they had the potential to secure their retirements. I also figured that I could have a retirement now...and perhaps I could still have one later. I mean, initially I kind of regarded that my adulthood would be a lifelong retirement of sorts and that it would be focused on my individual self-interests in the now of consciousness...without real longtime planning from the perspective and principle of Be Here Now.
Well, it's been perhaps just over a decade since i first declared myself taking an early retirement.
There's been many times throughout this past decade where i forgot that I had many times declared and wished for myself an early retirement and within this not really considered the fabric of my wishes. My immediate regards were that of fulfilling my immediate and moment to moment desires. a lot of very treats from the day to day and month to month retirement living management.
What also appealed to me about this approach is not really having wanted to get serious about long term planning...committing to any long term plan.
I would say also within this was the concern that I would have to give up my childhood for adulthood. My thinking was that I will carry my childhood into adulthood and I will take the senior approach very childishly...from the perspective that I will skip the typical young adult middle age mentality and go right for retirement kind of living....from the perspective of my focus being on the shortsightedness of daily pleasures and leisurely pursuits. My thinking about recreation was that perhaps I will want to play more now then when I am older...maybe I wont want to play so much when I am really old...and then I would rather focus on work....because from my perspective old people don't seem all that playful...I mean sure there's a lot of them that are cheerful and good spirited but they also kind of sit around a lot...and isn't there a lot of young people in jobs where they sit around a lot....wouldn't it be better to take a sit around type of job when I am old...
I also have had the attitude that I have a Golden Ticket.
I remember this steady girlfriend I had for some years and she was finishing her schooling up and was prepared to get into career mode and begin a family.,..and at that time I was not at all interested in that approach for myself..I was in full out retirement mode...thinking that my living leisurely as my recreational pursuits were my investments for my future and that I have a Golden Ticket that I can cash in when I so desire....and the thing about my thinking was that my golden Ticket has so much potential like the realization within myself that I can in fact do what ever I want....like I am the will and the way and so realizing this is like a wow realization because it is a point of self-comfort within and as self-empowerment. At the same time...there can be almost an urgency within self that comes up as like wanting to make something happen because potential exists...and at the same time a hesitance of not wanting to rush things....kind of a indecision between getting going and postponing....
A realization that has become clear to me is that Yes, Indeed I do have a Golden Ticket and this Golden Ticket is in fact my Potential Here...and the thing is...I Require to Use My Golden Ticket...and I cannot just save it away and avoid it for a long time later.....that is foolish....My Golden Ticket has the Most Value Now...and The Value Of My Golden Ticket Gets More Valuable every day I Exercise it....like a card I got to pay/play with as the decisions I make.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how the wishes and declarations I make for myself shape my reality.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to take on long term planning as point of self-directed commitment and responsibility I bring into fruition
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that typically people fall apart when they get old.
To Be Continued
Thursday, 9 April 2015
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding what is in fact self-regard always all ways a point of practical living common sense.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to disregard self-regard in moments where I am faced with the intensity of an emotion or feeling in a moment as a movement within myself.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to examine and investigate each and every single acceptance and allowance within myself.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how the mind works as like a tool and gps system of sorts that is replaying to me that which I have accepted and allowed within myself.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get caught up in my own disregard in moments.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to regard the recognition and realisation of self-regard being a point of best wishes and within and as the best wishes for myself here as the carefulness in and as what I wish for myself here.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the significance of and as self-regard being a sound expression of myself here.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding self-regard as that which I accept and allow for myself here.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting moments of self-responsibility within and as self-regard. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the absurd ridiculousness of looking at thing and not responding to what I see in the best possible ways as the realization of and as the self-regard to live/express/exercise self-responsibility.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the self-responsibility within and as self-regard.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding my effectiveness in sharing self-regard is an indicator of and as my accepted and allowed self-regard as like a mirrored image of myself here.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking offense and therefore getting stuck in moments of seeing the disregard I have accepted and allowed within myself
I realize and understand the ease of existing here within and as the standing commitment of self-regard as like the acceptance of myself as what;s best here.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the self-honesty within and as self-regard as the practical living common sense principle.."what's best for all Life is best for me".
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to create my best wishes as the knowing application of self-regard in and as my daily practical living.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having at times chosen to want to float along within and as a point of self-regard where there is no real regard present within and as the moment of myself here. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the absurd ridiculousness of choosing to hide from and as self-regard.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for avoiding the self-responsibility as self-regard.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to distract myself from and as the attention to myself-regard here as what is in fact best for all life, starting with myself here.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get caught up hiding from self-regard when and as I accept and allow a point that I see and I am in fact able to direct as the knowing self-responsibility that would be best for all life here.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the commitment required within and as what it really means to in fact live self-regard as a principle of and as the desteni of self here.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the patience within and as self-regard.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the principle of self-regard here as a point of support and assistance here that exists beyond accepted and allowed survival mentality frame of mind where the thinking is limited within the box of suppression through fear...and the ability to play and express and create is thwarted as a result.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the Greatness of and as Self-Regard.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the comfort within and as self-regard.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the discomfort within and as self-regard.
To Be Continued
Wednesday, 8 April 2015
The other day I was talking to someone about the attitude and perspective One adapts within the work was in doing as being a critical component to the success/enjoyment/ability One has within a point. My reflection on this point comes as a result of my experience from going from a relatively easy attitude about the point of work to a somewhat increasingly difficult attitude about the point of work...and back to re-establishing a relationship gentleness of general regard and consideration as the relationship attitude being the Easy and Obvious Best choice to make and take on as the support for me within and as my participations.
So, I noticed when and as I take an Easy attitude approach to particular work applications...it is a lot more effortless to actually move myself within the point.
I mean, thing about it...how an attitude can influence participation. For example, taking the attitude of being extremely difficult and burdensome...to the point of hate. This type of approach to doing a particular work is going to be pure hell every time you participate within in...best case scenario is somewhat manageable level of coping within the point...which to a certain extent still is less than optimum...and actually kind of sucks...in a way that it is brutal. Where is the enjoyment within this approach? I recall adapting this type of attitude before through justification and ego superiority where I defined myself as more than the work I was doing and thus...it was even difficult to get myself to actually do the work. So, not only was the experience of myself within the work kind of shitty...getting myself to actually show up for work was an arduous task...a real constant every day battle.
So in looking at this point...I can see bits of my day to day living where maybe I am not embracing my full potential enjoyment.
An important point to examine here is a person's natural learning ability. The natural learning ability is the fact that we have a natural ability to learn with effortless ease.
Interesting point about the Natural Learning Ability is that typically as a person gets older, the natural learning ability gets suppressed. I mean this is total nonsense. Well, if you have a look at typically people accumulate stress as they age. Stress of the body and stress of the mind. This compounds the suppression of and as the Natural Learning Ability. I mean, consider even the very simplicity of stress on your vocabulary...where the words you know have particular energetic triggers that link to specific memories within your life of different emotional outbursts of stressful times. Looking here at this accumulation of words within oneself as being potential stresssors...its like having a kind of genetically modified food/nutrient within ourselves that is actually devoid of quality.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent of self-responsibility within and as the creation of attitude as like a point of setting the stage,,,or priming the engine for the vehicle i will be moving around in. I mean, looking at this hear...it's a matter of planting intent...as what you want to eat as a result of being specific in picking what/how you want to grow up and mature. I mean think about it...typically we grow up...that;s the design...So wouldn't it make the most sense to continue growing always all ways as a result of always continuing to plant with the fortitude of purpose to best structure the specifics of one's gardening. I mean, to really, actually make the most out of One Self here.
Looking at this, this seems rather obvious doesn't it?
Some consideration comes up within myself:
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I create the attitude of myself from moment to moment.
I realize and understand my self-responsibility within and as the building development of my attitude.
I realize and understand how a fantastic attitude can be grown and exercised just as easily as a less than fantastic attitude can be produced.
I realize and understand myself as the determining factor of as as the development of practical living attitude from moment to moment. I realize and understand the correlation within and as movement/exercise and the ability to live/express greatness in attitude consistently and constantly from moment to moment.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to accept less than the greatness of attitude in a single moment.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing a less than optimum attitude within myself.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the stress and strain of creating a hard attitude for oneself as less than great support and assistance for oneself as living word potential.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to play within and as the point of and as my very own greatness from moment to moment.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to accept and allowing myself here as greatness, Always all ways.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to adopt an attitude mentality of myself existing here as less than greatness and that just being part of the dealings with the stress and strain of life as a human being and that Life is suppose to be hard and that if things were always easy than they wouldn't be enjoyable or rewarding. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the absurd ridiculousness of such accepted and allowed notions.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for actually resisting the greatness of myself here. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how being hard on myself by having a less than great attitude is in fact actually very deliberate abuse.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for abusing myself and all life here as a result of and as the dissing of myself here...as like the acceptance and allowance of and as myself here as disgusting dismissal of sorts where the rational in mind is that I am less than worthy of and as the greatest possible value. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for devaluing myself within and as a result of having anything but the best attitude.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for devaluing myself and all life within and as the acceptance of myself as less than the greatest living attitude.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent of my success within and as anything and Everything I do is a result of my willingness of attitude as greatness....as like the open mindedness of Gratitude and Gratefulness as the words embodying the Greatness that is Life self-realized.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how easy it is to work well by taking it easy while you work well.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having though it necessary to stress myself out as the point and mentality of believing that I got to be hard on myself in order to live great results.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the taxing non sustainability of believing that one must be hard on oneself in order to create greatness as the work that one does.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the Passion of myself Here from and as Moment to Moment...as the Passion for Life...the realization and understanding of myself as Life,...Everything Here....the recognition and regard for the creation process Being rooted in and as the togetherness of Oneness and Equality.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for allowing myself to feel guilty when and as I don't stress myself out about things...because then it's like I am not trying.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being disillusioned within the belief that I require to try in order to succeed in anything and everything I do. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the absolutely absurd ridiculousness of this approach.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to buy into the act of "trying" as like an unnecessary physical body stress and strain that taxes my ability within an accumulation that is compounding with age.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for buying into beliefs and attitude that getting old is less than great.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for never totally embracing the greatness of sustainable growth and development as the continued self-improvement of myself as the only possible option for myself here.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing anything less than greatness within myself.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to practical Live Greatness from moment to moment.
I forgive myself for actually having fear towards the word Greatness.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to harbor a fearful comparative judgement rooted in inferiority towards Greatness.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing Greatness to be a conflicted point within myself.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the illogical attitude and self-sabotaging acceptance and allowance of and as myself fearing Greatness.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself fearing the spot light of greatness.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing all eyes on me. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how the fear of all eyes on me develops as a result of and as not realizing and understanding oneself here as a unique individualized expression of all I's here as the embodiment of Everything.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have actually feared to constantly and consistently feared to live Greatness as who I am in every breath.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have created a self-fulfilling prophecy as the specifics of who and how I am here....as the specifics of my acceptances and allowances....and within examining the specifics of myself, see and realize how I have rooted my acceptances and allowances in and as a conspiracy of self...where there is a more/less than supportive doubt within me to actually Play from day to day always all ways as the expression and creation that I am working on from moment to moment as the recognition and regard for the gratitude of myself giving greatness attitude developed with the fortitude of purpose as the Passion in an as Being Here.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing the manifestation of ego as a result of and as the Living of Greatness.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that it is a sort of taboo to even look and regard myself as the epitome of and Greatness.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for regarding the practical living embodiment of Greatness as deceptive.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for mind fucking the shit out of myself within and as the make belief mentality of greatness being a point One can work and try real hard to achieve but never actually reach in living because of the idea that Greatness is always more than oneself here.
To Be Continued