Day 442 Black Mirrored

An interesting point was presented to me today.

I suggest checking out Why Words Aren’t Free - Reptilians - Part 219 and How Information Processing Disempowers - Reptilians - Part 221


This evening I was downtown around 2am picking my brother up who had been boozing. The environment downtown as the bars were beginning to close was rather chaotic as it was like the night of the living dead...alcohol fueled zombies everywhere....stumbling, slurring their words, yelling, screaming, reacting intensely, fighting, and prancing around....and blabbering the same things over and over again as like they forgot what they said to the person 3 seconds ago so they're saying the same thing again...like a broken record repeating itself over and over...and that's just describing some of what I witnessed this evening...

 What I want to share is that as I initially took in so much information within the environment as what I was hearing and seeing...I almost started projecting an emotional reaction of words to my brother...as like taking it personally everything that I am seeing and hearing...and then I realised and understood...what's the point of doing that...how does that make me any different to all the other zombies I see if I react to seeing zombies doing all sorts of zombie things...

On the car ride home this evening I said something to my brother about one of the zombies we saw this evening...his response was interesting...as he thought it was funny that what I said was so casual and without any emotion or feeling. I had said to him that the guy we encountered was just really boozed and was maybe under the influence of a little cocaine...but more boozed than cocaine induced...

The point of me mentioning the above point is that later when I got home after having listened to the above interviews I had reflected upon the point of how so often in the past I would take the knowledge and information I see and hear personally...as like I couldn't help myself from reacting to the knowledge and information...and it's like it was always justified because I was generating feelings and emotions about what I saw/heard/learned...and therefore it seemed valid for me to have a feeling/emotion/judgement about whatever it was I was seeing because I was exercising my minds right to have a moral compass of right or wrong...


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the absurd ridiculousness of emotion and feelings in any context...as like I realise and understand the mind fuck of such participation as like just activating an internal moral compass based upon self righteousness positioning as like a mind gps system that has been set up to react in alarm as feeling/emotion to every sort of stimulation...which i mean is pretty absurd and ridiculousness...because it's like making oneself weak...like no stability can exist within a person when being hardwired to react to everything...I realise and understand how easy it is for people to be controlled and manipulated as a result of feelings/emotions/reactions and judgments.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how much I manipulated and form of self control within myself as result of participating in and as reactions as thoughts/feelings/emotions/judgments.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding myself as a zombie as like being so susceptible to reaction as the various forms of energetic impulses as the range of emotions and feelings as like forms of self righteous judgement that have been wired within me as a moral compass that can always be justified as my logic.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the mind fuck of reaction as like perceiving it as logically justified because it is what I am experiencing within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having so many times said, fuck it...Im just gonna go with this emotion and or feeling I am experiencing within myself..as like I just wanted to make my point...as like give my opinions...as let people know what I believe...as like what I am experiencing within myself...

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding how abusive I have been to myself and others within speaking from a point of emotion and feeling...as like I see and realise this to be a form of verbal diarrhea..as like spraying venom...

So many of the sounds I heard amongst the crowd of zombies this evening was piercingly intense...as like very unpleasant to hear...

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding that every feeling/emotion that I accept and allow within myself is in fact this piercing sound of conflicted abuse...and I realise and understand that I don't like the sounds of conflicted abuse and that it is my self responsibility to make sure I stop and remove all sounds of conflicted abuse within myself because it is not cool and I wouldn't want anyone to accept and allow the sounds of conflicted abuse to exist within them...so I realise and understand the point of integrity and dignity within taking accountability for my zombie like behaviour mannerisms..so that I can stop being a zombie...and actually be living live...as alive...like aware and accountable for my physical sounds as sound expression as equality and oneness...as like like beyond energetic friction.

When and as I see energetic friction within myself, I stop and breathe...I hold the point of energetic friction within myself and examine the energetic friction until I am clear in understanding as to the origin of the particular energetic friction...and then I release the energetic friction...by dissipating it within myself...as like directing the stop to the conflict...as a result of standing within and as the conflict and remedying the solution as the solution as I realise and understand myself as the starting point source of accountability.  I realise and understand the absurd ridiculousness of letting energetic friction linger within myself as like chore that I am avoiding taking responsibility for me...because wow is that every stupid....I realise and understand the point of getttrrrr done

Day 441 Commitment No Doubt is Key!!!

Let me begin with providing a few links to some gifts that will further clarify and expand upon the title of this blog:

The Key to Life - 2013 - The Future of Consciousness - Part 24

Time and Money - Life Review

Commitment - Relationship Success Support



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having feared putting both feet forward within making commitments.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to allow hesitation within commitments as like a possible escape and backing out of commitments...as like making a commitment but not really totally fully trusting myself within the commitment...and therefore creating a hesitance within the commitment as a reflection of accepted and allowed doubt and lack of self-trust.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to rationalize doubt within my mind as like a form of logical manipulation that is a necessary precaution that is perpetuated by worrying as like self induced fear energies on the body that is a totally self created mind fuck.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding how I perpetuated doubt within myself as a manifested outflow time loop of obsessing about wants, needs and desires.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to mentally masturbate myself with wants, needs and desires.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for questioning commitments as like a form of accepting and allowing an escape route from self responsibilities within myself as like an ego defense mechanism of hiding as like a way to keep myself in a state of self suppression as like a refusal to grant myself full access to living life from and as the principle starting point of creation as Equality and Oneness as what's best for all Life is best for me because I am a part of all Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fuck within myself and avoid taking ownership of my life here as accountability and responsibility as that which is best for all Life....as like realising and understanding myself as a living Life representative of that which is always best for Life...as like realising everything here as a part of me/Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being unnecessarily rough and difficult on myself by and as a result of doubting my capabilities and commitments within and as a result of neglecting practical living application of my response abilities.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for holding back self-expansion.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding how that any and all points of doubt within my relationships are in fact detrimental to that which is best for all Life...and therefore act as like a self induced handicap on Life...as like a form of mental retardation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understand my full capacity to change as what's best for all Life within committing myself without any doubt and slack within and as my commitments to myself as Life as what is best for Life/myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for waiting to let go of limitations I am aware of.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for validating self imposed limitations. I realise and understand the absurd ridiculousness of validating self imposed limitations...as like various forms of doubt/fear/separation.  When and as I see myself doubting my abilities without testing my abilities, I stop and breathe...and I direct myself to make sure I test my abilities and to also expand my abilities in always possible as I realise and understand what is implies within the living of the word responsibility.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to slack off on responsibility.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to neglect and put off responsibilities.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the consequences of suppressing response abilities.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding life as like a relationship agreement of responsibilities.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the connection between self-expansion and responsibility

When and as I see myself neglecting responsibility, I stop and breathe and I direct myself to action as accountability as like to remedy the situation at hand as a means of self nourishment as like practical living life support sustenance as the gift giving contribution to and as Life...as like the epitome of existing within and as the principle of living to give...as like giving without expecting to receive...as the giving I like to receive.

When and as I see myself validating doubt within myself, I stop and breathe and I realise and understand the absurd ridiculousness of such actions. I have an aha moment as I realise and see the how I saved myself from being wasted and disregarded.


I commit myself to no doubt within and and myself self-creation here as Life being birthed from the physical.

I commit myself to the the living word "responsibility"

I commit myself to the word "commitment"

I commit myself to and as "accountability" as the basic mathematics of 1+1=2

I commit myself to continue birthing myself as Life until the changes within me are absolute as like me standing here as the epitome of and as the physical living Life birthed from and as the fruits of my labored process of self-forgiveness and self corrective statements walked in real time application as the testaments to and as my living words as that which is always best for Life.

Day 440 Black Mirror

Investigative writing here as what comes up within me in regards to watching a couple episodes of Black Mirror.

I just watched the show Black Mirror where there was a situation where a princess was kidnapped and the one demand for her safe return was that the prime minister has sex with a pig on live television.....

this got me thinking about all sorts of things:

how many kidnapping deals are made all the time....

thought about poor people all over the world who are suffering...

thought about the point that a person's life is only valued if people with money value the person....or the person themselves has lots of money...

what real accountability is there for world leaders...

Should all the injustices of the world be in the face of a world leader...

do our world leaders reflect the general public's attitude about everything....like generally people aren't doing too much about social injustices and therefore world leaders are just a reflection of the general apathy existent within humanity

are world leaders a reflection of human apathy...as like disregard for the well being of humanity

is it possible for news stories to really pressure social change...like a transformation of social injustices

it would be cool for world leaders...national leaders to take accountability in addressing the major problems that exist in the world...and pointing out that everyone is responsible for remedying the situation

it would be cool if there was a news network that was constantly covering the story about what is being done to create a perfect world where life isn't disregarded.

I thought about how prime minister of canada doesnt speak with the press...how he has censored himself from the press...like there is no real press about him...unless it's some sort of sanctioned story by his people

it would be cool if being a president or prime minister meant that you had to have live discussions with members of the public without any form of censorship as a way of creating a connection between general public and leadership within a nation.

The fact that there is a total disconnect between prime minister Stephen Harper and Canadian public exposes the disconnect between there being any real leadership and/or accountability in Canada

everyone's movement is so scripted according to money.

what if all the movie scripts stopped and all the money from Hollywood and all the money from the entertainment industryy including professional sports was pooled together as like a start up fund as like the initial start up costs of establishing a new world order that is to the benefit of all life....what about getting all those who have profited from entertainment/sports/politics to do free labor volunteered work to assist and support the transformation of a world of injustice to a world of justice.

I'd like to see drastic change in accountability as like what happens in a day on planet earth...

Is it possible that there is an actual total of the money here on planet earth and some considerations could be done as like to consider all the functionality of things...like seeing the money as electricity...and how the electricity is needed everywhere....and how a stable supportive flow that is mutual beneficial to everyone can be established.

I like radical change

what about changing the starting point of why things happen...like not about just making profits...but to about making changes for the betterment of humanity...

the situation is quite extensive and needs to be deeply penetrated through all media networks....like the holy shit what the fuck of humanity...as like a total do over of humanity....like changing the operating rules...like the ways in which commerce/business work....I mean the value of Life within this ....you know what is the real value of life....where is life...acknowledging the dumb ass game we have created with all the rules and laws in place that set the parameters of our life experiences so to speak....realising the democracy of change...how it is a collective group effort....

I just watched the show black mirror-episode 15  million merits

The premise of the episode was that the majority of the population slaves away riding a stationary bicycle for credit and while riding the bicycle you are existing as an avatar in a virtual world as well...as like your avatar represents who you are in this world...and you are bombarded with various forms of entertainment...and everything is a consumer based society around entertainment...and the ultimate goal...dream...is to earn yourself 15million credits/merits...to go onto an American idol type show...where you showcase your talent in hopes that the judges will green light you for an opportunity to do something that is seen as better than riding the stationary bicycle day in and day out.

some points that came up within me while watching this episode:

What if fitness facilities throughout the world were set up as a point of harnessing energy to power the grid...like maybe you even get paid for your workout...like a percentage of the energy/work you created/did for the greater good functioning of the human grid....I mean maybe this is not really even necessary labor at all...as I was reflecting upon Niklas Tesla and how he had developed ways to harness energy that is existent here...so that energy is made available to all people...as like energy is kind of abundant here...and it's more about aligning a way to tap into the energy so to speak....and then I thought about sound as like energy and that people speaking harnesses energy.,..like the physical world is a sound environment...and the changing of sounds is like energy changes...so to speak...but energy/sound remains a constant...so to speak...

This type of thinking, lead me to consider that there is so much potential for humanity...and that human potential is being suppressed because of greed...and various forms of fear which are totally ridiculous....I mean have a look at how money functions as the energy that determines a beings life force value so to speak...and the money system is designed as a debt trap...like all of humanity is indebted to this debt trap...perpetuating the slave labor of humanity...as like total energy whores...I mean this is the unfortunate case...because there is no real regard for Life...and therefore the cost is mining humanity for gold so to speak...you know...like an energy based society...as the money represents the energy...and things are done in a less than what's best way...and the situation has become so severe that there are excuses and justifications like change is to expensive...it would cost too much to have a perfect world...everyone would be broke in a perfect world...like its apparently just not feasible to fund human excellence....like what the fuck....oh wait a second all life prospers in a perfect world system...anything less has costly consequences

Self-forgiveness and self corrective statements to follow, stay tuned, cheers.

Day 439 Food for Thought

So, I've been looking at the point of eating things because I like the taste and sometimes having a feeling/craving for a particular thing because of the taste...not really considering the overall health benefits/nutritional value.

I'm asking myself, "why even bother indulging in foods/snacks that are very low in nutritional value"? "why pick something to eat that would be less than the best pick available to me with regards to having nutritional value and being supportive for my body?"

I see how I have programmed certain preferences about tasty foods/snacks...as like making them to be a comfort to me...as like feeling good eating them because they taste good.

I see how I am capable and able to change my food programming as like to re-align my eating to that which is of best support for me...like moving away from eating because of a feeling experience...and moving into eating a point of practical physical body support.

I see how I have justified indulging with goodies because I don't do it all the time. I question why even bother indulging in goodies/deserts at all if there not really a best pick option for physical nourishment support.

It's ridiculous that I would want to eat or not eat something based on my feelings/emotions about the particular food...like what a mind fuck really...like mind fucking my body about getting the best stuff...because I have stronger love feelings for the stuff with less nutritional value.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for holding onto emotions and feelings about eating particular foods.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be guided/controlled by emotions and feelings when it comes to eating.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having found it difficult at times to not indulge in a particular snack that has no real nutritional value....like being loaded with sugar, fat, and salt characteristics.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not really challenging myself to investigate all thoughts/feelings/emotions in relationship to eating food.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having said "fuck it, I'll push the point next time" when I see myself questioning a point of food indulgence...like asking myself do I really need this...is this the best option I can give myself right now...Is there better alternatives.

I commit myself to investigating my food relationships.

I commit myself to eating from the starting point of giving my body the best physical nourishment assistance and support.

I commit myself to cutting out deserts.

I commit myself to letting go of feeling and emotional attachments to food.

I commit myself to re-programming myself to eating the foods that are most beneficial to my physical body.

Day 438 Sound Play with How You Say Words

I'd like to make a point of playing more with sound as I speak words.  Sometimes I noticed my words seemed rushed within speaking like I am not present within myself enough...and am missing out on really expressing myself within and as how I sound out the words I speak/say within communication.

The other day I noticed how I was speaking so quick and so much that I became out of breath and my mouth was all dried out...like I was a little charged up with excitement energy within speaking...and as a result I see how I missed out the opportunity of really taking the time to play with how I say what I say as the sound expressions I am within words.  I see that it is necessary for me to slow down within communication to really allow myself to be effective with playing with the sounds of words and to actually make the most out of each word I speak as a living expression of who and how I am as a physical being.

I realise and understand that if I am too much in my mind while communicating that there is virtually no physical sound play within myself....that the words I speaking are just a result of an energetic charge as a feeling/emotion outflow based up the reactions I am accepting within myself.

So, I'd like to move into more sound awareness as embodying the living of words as like a taking self responsibility for how I direct the saying of each word.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to neglect the awesomeness of playing with sound as I communicate/speak/say words as who and how I am expressing myself in the moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising that I must not rush myself in speaking/communicating/saying things, as I realise that I am not in a rush to get my words out as like I realise myself as the point of sound/music and that I require to be patient within myself...as like it is from within as as self-stability that I really enable myself to play and have fun with and as communicating words/sounds.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having limited the playing with what and how I say what I say within and as a result of existing within my my mind as thoughts/feelings/emotions...as like various forms of energetic possessions.  I realise and understand that being possessed within the mind as accepted and allowed thought/feelings/emotions, takes me out of self awareness as the ability to play with what I say as the physical sound play that I am....and therefore, when and as I see myself speaking without an inner enjoyment within my expressing myself through and as words....I stop and breathe...and I realise and understand that a lack of inner enjoyment/satisfaction within and as communication, reflects to me/is an indication that I am lost within my head and am accepting and allowing myself to be moved by energy friction within myself...as opposed to me directing me as sound physical movement as the play of me within and as what I say...as like realising and understanding myself as the music/musician/orchestra/conductor/singer/speaker/professional orator, as self-responsibility as the living words here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding how a lack of total self fulfillment within and as the speaking of words is a result of accepting and allowing myself to be inhibited/suppressed...like tied down within myself...as a result of allowing myself to choose to be focused on feelings/emotions as various forms of fear...because feelings/emotions are the reflection of fear energies...as the spectrum between the positive and the negative...and within accepting and allowing energetic possession within myself as feeling/emotion...it's like a strain on my physical body...as opposed to playing/directing/moving sound within myself as how I make the sounds within and as the words I speak....as like this is in fact a point of self nourishment and is in fact no strain/stress as to play is like an effortless joy from the perspective and consideration that an effortless joy is without the conflict/friction-ed energy

I commit myself to stop holding myself back in communication sound play as how I say words from moment to moment.

I commit myself to realising myself as the conductor/self director of words...as like realising myself/ my body as a musical instrument so to speak...as I have many organs of self expression as I am an organism...note that an organ is a musical instrument....and looking at the point of organisms...it's like here as a an organism is a result of the accumulation of many organisms/organs working together as like the synchronization/complimentary sound relation agreements to play and make the best sounds possible...as my self stability as a physical body is and as the reflection to a unification within and as the parts that exist within me all working together as like a sound alignment.

I commit myself to enjoying myself as sound self expression.

I commit myself to the realisations of playing within and as sound.

I commit myself to stop...Like, capital STOP participating in mind energy possessions that suppress my ability to play with and as sound.

I commit myself to harmonizing all words within myself as Oneness and Equality.

I commit myself to expanding my effectiveness as communicating as the living words...as like the sounds that I am within what and as I say...so that what I say is clear and to the point and is so fucking obvious...because it easy to see what I mean because if you listen to what I say it will enable you to see clear because the way I say what I say is clear as like clear sound self expression as specific and to the point as like very precise and accurate as being on point/on key as like the key is me within and as the words/sounds I make and how I make and create the expressions that I am from moment to moment.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having worried so much about playing with and as what I say and how I say what I say as a result of accepting and allowing self-judgement within myself...and I see and realise and understand the absurd ridiculousness of such behaviour as like wow why the fuck hold on to fear as like a self imposed kicking my own ass from the inside out...as like worrying about what others think of me sounds because of me thinking about me sounds as the various energetic possession states of consciousness as like the spectrum of feeling and emotion from the highest high energy to the lowest low energy....and I realise and understand that till here no further is this how I choose to live...as I realise it is not real living to exist within and as an energetic spectrum of emotions and feelings...but more like a self induced prison sentence that is determined by the wrath of self-judgement.

When and as I see myself looking at another...and reacting within fear within myself....I stop and breathe...and I realise I'm not interested in fucking myself in a way that I would not like to fuck myself...as like I realise and understand the total fuckedness of fear as a vast spectrum or polarized energies as emotions from the lowest of the low to the highest of the high. I realise and understand that expressing myself as a low sound or a high sound within and as self awareness is not in fact energy induced/charged within and the result of friction within my body...because I am in fact playing within myself as the starting point of creation as sound manifest physicality.


I suggest taking this opportunity to play with and as sooooooooooooounnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnd!

Also, I express gratitude for the gift I received from Eqafe...which is The Crucifixion of Jesus - Part 39

Day 437 Menace to Society Part 3

Do You consider yourself a menace to society? 

What does a menace to society mean to You?

Do You have to commit a crime as breaking a law within the legal system to be considered a menace to society?

Is Everyone born as a menace to society, created  by menaces to society?

How is it possible to believe You are not a menace to society?

What kind of process is required to be walked to stop existing as a menace to society?

If Everyone here is not a menace to society, why is this so, and how is this possible?  Is it because these individuals have in fact become aware of the nature of themselves as menaces to society and have in fact committed themselves to stop and breathe and change themselves by investigating every part of themselves in all ways possible so as to correct the problem and stand as an example of self-responsibility in showing their peers/fellow menaces to society that change that is best for all Life is in fact possible?

Do You realise how hard it is to not be a menace to society when in fact You were conditioned and programmed to be a menace to society who doesn't even question or try to change the nature of the program?

To what extent would You go to create a World that is best for all Life?

Have You considered that creating a world that is best for all Life, starts with Yourself as the embodiment of the whole world as that which is best for Life?

Have You considered that the process of self correction is so difficult because the process of self correction is at an individual level, being by being and each being is walking their own timeline and therefore no 2 beings are walking the exact same timeline....yet we are all part of the end time as completing the process of self correction...as each part plays a role in the end of time as the process of self correction...as the time it will take to labor a world which is best for all Life here in all ways at all times...which therefore makes that which is best timeless, as like eternal greatness because we become the law that cannot be broken, as the law of our beingness here is Life sound creation equality and oneness?

Have You considered that laws are only made to be broken until that which is best cannot be broken?

Does a society where laws are constantly broken indicate a problem with law makers?

Is our society a reflection of a menace to society as a result of our own self reflection?

Is it ridiculous that we just create more and more laws that can be broken?

Why are we continuing to exist as menaces to society?

Note:

A branch of support and a breath of fresh air within the opportunity to take a free course that will assist and support You to see what has been missed.

Desteni I Process Lite....also known as "DIP LITE"

Day 436 Menace to Society Part 2

So I see this menace to society blog series as being at least a few more blogs to come and I would like to take the opportunity here to jump into self-forgiveness in seeing and realising myself as having been a menace to society within not realising and understanding the consequences of my past participation and how I had accepted and allowed myself to contribute to the menacing of society.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding myself as a menace to society.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the influence that my words as physical action examples have upon others within society.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding how my words/actions have shaped the menacing within society and how my words and actions have been a reflection of myself within and as a part of a menacing society.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that the menacing of society and human behaviour has to be that of being a complete menace as like without complete regard and compassion in all moments.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having lacked the compassion and consideration and sympathy within myself to actually stop all forms of menacing behaviour within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for holding onto beliefs about others within society as like not being able to be trusted and like having no faith within others in society…and like totally accepting and allowing the menace to society mentality….and within this I see and realise the change starts within myself and that as I walk and honor the change as what is best for all Life, I realise and understand that I am able and capable of assisting and supporting the change of all menacing behaviour within society because of the faith and trust I place within myself and therefore within my fellow man/mates as the self-realisation that each is within and as the process of Life as equality and oneness as that which is always best here…and that the process of self-realisation into and as living self-perfection will be completed and fulfilled in always possible as like the manifestation of heaven on earth as like the purification of our sins as like all our inhumane actions so that the future of mankind as humanity is secured as living greatness always as like the eventual stop to all perpetuated abuse which will enable Life on earth to become a place of unconditional assistance and support as like the complete and total unification of man as living words as what is always best.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding that when a point of doubt comes up within me about my fellow man that this is an indicator attention activation of a point that requires self-correction within myself so that I can stand as the point of self-responsibility in purifying the law of my being here to that which is always best for life as the epitome of equality and oneness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having thoughts that are less than what is best for Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being a menace to society/myself within and as holding on to thoughts/feelings/emotions that are less than the image and likeness of heaven on earth as Life equality and oneness as the living words which are always best.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking anything personal about the process of self-realisation into self-correction as self-perfection…as I realise that getting the process of self-transformation as less than Life to the whole body of Life is a process of steadfast diligence as the commitment and dignified integrity to honor and cherish every moment as Life here as what is always best as oneness and equality…meaning and realising the significance of every moment as self-honesty without a choice for self-dishonesty…and therefore Life simplicity as what is always best for Life is awesome as awe so me.

I commit myself to utilise the word awesome in its fullest capacity as a point of assistance and support to learn and realise the total potential and capabilities of myself as that which is awesome as the living self-reflection of what is always best for Life.

I commit myself to creating myself as complete awesomeness as the living realisation that myself as complete awesomeness is already here…it’s just that who I am as complete awesomeness has been buried within suppression and hiding as the consequence of my past acceptances and allowances that were less than what is best for Life and therefore I commit myself to the process of stopping all actions, that are less than what is best for Life as the epitome as complete awesome….and within this I realise and understand the point of investigating all things and keeping what is good and releasing what is bad as the base foundation of practical living assistance and support from moment to moment.

I commit myself to the embodiment of self-responsibility as an ambassador of awesome as that which is best for life from and as the starting point of oneness and equality as I realise and understand that oneness and equality is the starting point of creation.

Day 435 Menace to Society

This Young kid asked me if I had a cellphone that he could use. This was at night time while I was cutting through a park while walking my dog.  I had just  heard the kid/maybe teenager if his friend had a lighter…I was thinking to myself that they were going to smoke a joint…as this was something I use to do and just the general impression I got from the kids who were kind of loitering in the park after in the dark.  I said sorry to the kid as I pulled out my phone and was about to make a phone call.  I thought to myself…I don’t want to lose my cell phone cuz this kid runs off with it…I don’t want to have to chase this kid down because he tries to steal my phone…after I said sorry I felt pretty bad…like I had free minutes and I could have potentially helped this kid out…like maybe he really needed some help…and I thought after how I could of said that I’d make the call and put it on speaker phone for him or something…inform him that I’m concerned that he might try and run off with my phone.

Why is it that I thought that this kid might run off with my phone? Well, it’s something that I've done before…and I've done other similar brutal things…and I’, ashamed for having been so disrespectful to myself and others as like having participated in countless acts where I did not consider myself and others as Life equals both being here without conflict/friction…it’s like so much so the attitude perception I had a kid/teenager/young adult has been that it’s all about me…I got to do whatever I can for me…and taking care of me the way I want to be taken care of may come at the expense of others…as I really didn't consider others to much…it’s like I would be nice to others most of the time…though it was easy for me to not be nice to someone if I didn't know them per se…as like it was a justification/excuse that I could act in inappropriate ways and disregard common courtesy etiquette as like the teachings of Jesus as love thy neighbor as thy self.

 I see how I rationalized, logically manipulating both sides of the same coin with regards to exploiting/taking advantage of others around me, whether it be people I know very well or people I don’t really know at all…it’s like my perception attitude was that of opportunity to feed and fulfill desired self-interests…as like how I could utilise another being for my service…or how I could capitalize on the service of another…as like getting something without giving anything...and I see the point that throughout time…I became totally oblivious to the actuality of my actions and the consequences of my actions…like I can recall many instances of automated negligent behaviour…and I can recall looking back at particular instances and being like what the fuck was I doing…why did I even do that…I didn't even realise what the fuck I was doing…it’s like in no way was I moving within a point of stability…but in an energetic hypnotic trance fueled by the desire to feed addiction to doing and getting what I feel like…as my actions were always based on feelings…like chasing after the win…or trying to maintain the winning experience of getting my way as a result of being a menace to society.

It’s interesting that I say menace to society…because I own that movie…and it’s one that I picked up as a teenager or maybe my early twenties…though there is many other similar movies that I fersure watched in my teenage years that I see now played an influence on me being a shit disturber. A movie that sticks out is ‘dazed and confused’

To be continued

Day 434 From Self Interest to What's Best for All

The point came up within me today where I saw how pushing the point of stand up comedy isn't really aligned with self interest. Like I see that I am able and capable of pushing this point...and within this...I see how I have resisted to really push this point as much as I am able to because it's like some work and effort...and I've accepted and allowed myself to be lazy, selfish and inconsiderate as like not realising and understanding the self responsibility in moving out of self interest from the perspective that it's just me and the rest of existence as separate from me...as like a form of disconnection.  I realise and understand that self interest as like a separate me from the rest of everything can't really exist because I see and realise the point of self responsibility as the interest of everyone as all Life...as like myself within and as everyone yet I see and realise each of us to be an individual one...making up everything together as the sharing together of Life/ourselves...as like no one really has more ownership over life than anyone else...and that Life is the gift that everyone has been bestowed with one and equal..,and that it is our responsibility as Life to recognize as real eyes ourselves in seeing ourselves as everything here and within this our movement and participation here can only be what's best for Life within consideration and realisation of our self as All Life/Everything here and that our accepted and allowed perceived separation is the grand illusion that has been our programmed self induced hypnotic trance that we've conditioned ourselves to...which is totally bogus.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to share myself within and as the artistic expression of stand up comedy. I realise and understand how I have been selfish and stubborn within holding myself back and doing a total disservice to Life...as I realise and understanding how ridiculous it is to dis Life...as like avoiding the opportunity to share and express myself realisations as living words as what is best for all Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting the point of taking on the self responsibility principle of living to give as like unconditionally giving to others that which I like to receive, without expecting or desiring anything in return.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having existed within a selfish frame of mind as like resisting to give to others as I like to receive.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having looked towards others within anticipation and hope that I could receive what I wasn't willing to give.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having hoped that someone else could just express the points I see I am capable and able to express within and as my point of creative artistic expression because then I could avoid living within responsibility.  I realise and understand the total nastiness within this behaviour....and I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be totally nasty within dissing myself as Life and not enabling myself to participate within sharing where I see I am capable and able to share within particular moments.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being stubborn within greed as a result of neglecting to give as I like to receive...and within this I realise and understand how I always holding myself as like a life hostage...as like refusing myself access to really living life and harnessing my potential to expand myself into and Life as what is always best.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to walk/breathe/participate/play with integrity and dignity within every moment as the point of honor and commit to Life as living what is best for all Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to stand within and as dedication to the service of Life as what is always best....and within this I realise and understand that compromise is not an acceptable option...and when and as I see myself looking at a point of compromise as like a form of self sabotage, I stop and breathe and immediately thrust myself into application as what is best for all Life...as like snapping myself out of a hypnotic trance of self imposed limitation,

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having resisted and neglected making vlogs/youtube videos as a point of support in sharing myself as a visible standing example as a being of integrity and dignity who supports what is best for all Life.


I commit myself to making vlogs/youtube videos as a way of sharing myself here as like a giving I would like to receive.

I commit myself to sharing myself as living words as that which is best for Life.