Day 789 - TRUST and SELF-TRUST

TRUST and Self-Trust

In Asking myself how do I define Trust, What comes up within me is Honesty, meaning my truth and responsibility. I take the meaning of Trust a step further into myself as Self-Trust...myself as It....and so Here is where my Self-Honesty and Self-Responsibility are.

In opening up my investigation into Trust, I questioned whether or not there was any other Key words to support myself within and as Trust. What came up is: Confidence, Ability, Strength and, The Assured Reliance on the Character.

The Assured Reliance on the Character; Confidence, Ability, and Strength.

What Jumps Out at me Here is STRENGTH

In Questioning: Why have I had moments of difficult within and as Trust/Self-Trust?

The Answer: Moments of Weakness. I did not allow myself the truth of myself in moments of weakness. Meaning, I did not completely understand the dimension of Strength within and as my Trust. I resisted allowing myself to really face myself as How I am Living Who I am.

This lack of regard for my Strength became a massive point of suppression within myself. See, without Strength it is difficult to turn weaknesses into strengths.

What has now opened up for me is Understanding and Realizing the Complimentary Nature of: Self-Trust, Self-Honesty, Self-Responsibility, and Strength. Self-Strength.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize nor understand what it means to live Self-Strength.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to dismiss any regard for Strength within and as Trust and Self-Trust.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize nor understand the complimentary structured support within and as Strength.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize nor understand how I've abdicated Strength of Character as Who I Am as Self-Strength.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to suppress myself here as Strength.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize nor understand how my mind has been showing me my Weakness within and as Strength. I realize my mind has shown me my weakness within and as Strength/Self-Strength as a result of how i've been accepting and allowing relationship judgments of Characters as either Inferior or Superior.

I realize the polarity game of Inferiority and Superiority, reveals self-accepted and allowed Inferiority. This is so, regardless of whether or not You believe yourself to be Superior or Inferior in relationships. Stop it.

I commit myself to stand within as Self-Trust. Self-Trust being my self-assurance in who I am here as self-honesty, self-responsibility and Self-Strength.

I realize my ability to live words effectively as Who I Am, is a result of How I Give meaning to the words I speak. I realize I must first question and understand the meanings of my words if I am to ever establish Clarity and Purity within myself here as Life.

I realize the process of word investigation is a process of self-intimacy that is unique to each individual.

I realize and understand the self-satisfaction within purifying....fine-tuning an imperfection within my Word and World Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize nor understand that when I struggle within making decisions, it is a result of have conflicting charges existing within my words. I realize and understand the solution is within investigating the specifics of each word in regards to the problem. What I mean by Problem...is the Decision that has become stuck within a point of Indecision. Ironically, I realize that Indecision is also in fact a Decision.

When and as I see myself making a decision to exist within Indecision, I stop and breathe, I Ask myself, “Is this practical for me to make the decision of Indecision?” I realize that taking the time to make a decision is in fact a decision for indecision. This is so, in the sense that I am allowing myself to test things out, take time to sort things out...to see and investigate all considerations involved within the Focal Point of being faced with a Decision.

I commit myself to simplicity within and as my word and world here.

I realize, Life Simplicity is the Key to Me. Life Simplicity is Specificity. Specificity is Self/Life Regard.

Day 783 - Real Time Learning/Movement is Always Here...Where Have I Been?

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create resistance and hesitance within my mind.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand how much opportunity and support is available for me in every moment here in so many ways.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to suppress Learning within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize nor understand my potential to Learn and for Learning.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create judgements about learning particular things.....like thinking I can and cannot learn from so and so or such and and such.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself  to inferiorize my Learning and movement.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand how I created stagnation within and as my learning as a result of accepting and allowing myself to Fear moving myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how synonymous Learning and Movement are.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to lose sight of myself within and as Inferiority.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand the conditioning of inferiority as a built up resistance towards movement/participation within activities in this world.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand the irony of Inferiority......where inferiority exists as a result of not physically moving oneself into a direction of self-accountability for one's acceptances and allowances in regards to a particular point....and therefore by choosing to 'not move', knot one's movement potential and response-ability...and therefore submit into the status of mind movement activity of inferiority as like creating one's own inner turmoil.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand my capacity to play and work effectively is very much directly related to my enjoyment and openness to Learning.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be closed minded with regards to Learning.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be self-righteous about Learning...and therfore ironically suppress my learning ability and potential.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for existing in conflict about Learning new things....where I have a resistance and hesitance to actually dare myself to move myself and play for the fun of it.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to suppress the fun within Learning.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to suppress the play within Learning.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to suppress my creativity.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear my creativity.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself within learning.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear my appearance and vulnerability within learning something new.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to self-sabotage myself.

Day 740 - Self-Responsibility within Dedication and Determination

Continuing from previous blog entry.

Self-Responsibility is a gift in and as self-empowerment. It is a gift you give give to yourself. Self-responsibility is part of the epitome of practically living any and all words. It's the Authority self-authorization to move and express oneself here however you see fit.

I am looking at Self-Responsibility here in relationship to Dedication and Determination.  What I am doing is clarifying the way to create certainty within and as the development of my full potential.

Some, Self-forgiveness I see relevant here:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding that the commitment to and as the practical living of Dedication and Determination is enshrined within and as the giving and living Self-Responsibility.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for many times shying away from taking on self-responsibility within point I would like to be dedicated and determined within.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how if the Self-responsibility one bestows to oneself is not clear...it is easy to get lost/muddled within effectively living commitments to the best of one's ability.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which Passion exists within and as Relationship to the words: Self-Responsibility, Dedication and Determination.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself having resisted many times how to really establish a structural sound foundation within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which investigation of the Vocabulary in Relationships is of tremendous support and assistance in being able to know how to live self-responsibility within and as specific relationships.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the complexity of relationships as a result of and as the extent of vocabulary existent.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to always utilize a simplistic approach within and as self-investigation...where I start with a word and i examine the relationship interconnectedness that exists and myself reflection within it all.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to actually give myself the Authorization to create Self-Responsibility for myself as a a Live of Dedication and and Determination within and as the work/play that I do.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting self-responsibility/dedication/determination within many moments of movement of myself here as like lacking the clarity of purpose within and as my movement.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which I Authorize the Establishment of Self-Responsibility within myself as my Dedication and Determination.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the substantial Life I can create for myself within understanding and knowing how to live the words: Self-Responsibility, Dedication, Determination, Authority, and Passion.

To Be Continued

Day 738 - Determination

Determination - "A firmness of Purpose"


Let's play with the word "determination' for a moment here:

Determine a tie on.....like to make the connection.....de terms in at ion.....the terms of agreement.....de term in a shun......determination.....deter mind nation.....de-terms-mind-nation....de-term-my-nation....de-term-in-my-nation....the words in my being...the-words in my life....the meaning i give me....Determination is the terms as the  meaning of words i give myself to live.

The specifics of determination is in and as the precise focus of purpose....as a firmness....

Determination is the solid commitment one makes to get it done.

Determination is the set of terms one gives as the guideline principles in walking a point/goal into completion.

Determination is a key tool in and as the solidity of creation here because it's the "I got it" point where the I know this kicks in.,.The decision in I am doing this....I am committed to this...I realize that there will be obstacles along the way....But....Is the Determination factor...as like using the but...as, Yes I am the Solution and my Determination is in and as the Will of as as my way..a path to work and walk to bring about the way forward solution into and as the harvested fruition.

Determination is taking on a point to make work...as become the life force within and as the Will to Grow/live/create...as the Making it happen.

Determination: A decision to in-act potential ability as a new becoming responsibility that is developed and fine tuned.

Determination: The I Get it....I got it Done Attitude.

Determination...a self-willed and self-motivated movement that is cultivated through the roots of firmly planted principles.



The point "Determination" comes up within me here this evening as i am looking at my total blog writing's thus far....and I ask myself the question. "is it possible for me to improve upon my output?"

I would like to improve my blogging output. Yes I realize that this is very possible. I see the value in my blogging contributions. I garner specific support with every word i write. I care to share for myself and for others as myself.

I realize and understand the sound foundation that accumulates through the writing process as practical living support. The cultivation of firmly planted principles if you will.  Taking on the 7 year journey to life is a point of dedication. I would like to give myself more from my writing. Meaning greater consistency. I realize that there is many days where my timeline is more packed with things to do than it is other days. I see the point of writing as something that is just so valuable....that even a little bit is better than letting it slide.  I've played this game with myself before where i have looked at this point of writing consistency and wanting better results for myself here. The question is, Have i ever really Dedicated myself to better results? Can i dedicate myself to making a blog writing every day? Can i do this...even if i require to share multiple days writing's at one time as a matter of maximizing my tine efficiency within my days? Can i dedicate myself to finishing out the month with a blog every day? If i can finish out the month with a blog every day...can I go the next month with a blog every day?  If I can do that....can I go the rest of the year without missing a day in my blogging/writing as Process support here? I want this. Right now i am fearing to say, "I got this"...because then I am committed...and if I commit I know i can do it...and that doesn't leave room for me to fail.....which is an interesting thing...because it's like I have grown accustom to failure...and it's like I have taken on the approach of not giving myself as much as I am able out of a point of greed which is rather ironic...because what comes up in the mind is that I giving up excuses/justifications/rational as to logically make sense of non-sense as the how to way to talk myself out of best potential. The word Obligation comes up...as like without committing myself within the "I got it" point...I am free of the Obligation to get it...because it's like saying i don't totally Got it...and so whether I get it or I don;t get it...oh well...maybe...maybe not....a lack of intensity as the firmness of purpose...the narrowness in focus in completing a goal....the art of self-perfection really.

Let's look closer at the creation of "Obligation" within making a "dedication".

What's fascinating about the word "Obligation" is that it is synonymous with Responsibility and Agreement and Commitment....which are all specific points of and as 'a course of action'.

What is also very interesting and fascinating about "Obligation" is the connection to legality or morality.

So what I see here is cool....is the practical structuring of and as my Dedication...because within and as my dedication is the Determination....and within my determination is the Law of my being here as my Obligation. Dare i say moral obligation from and as the perspective and realization that the best morals are the one;s within and as the realization and understanding that there is more for all here within and and as the understanding of what's best for all is Moral as More All here...as the essence of momentum in a continuous expansion of greatness in and as Creation Here.

To be Continued

Day 737 - Who's Responsible When Somebody You Know Dies?

This is a topic that doesn't really get all that much attention...it's like it's just something that is dealt with after the fact. Yes there are precursors you can take to prepare your estate/affairs for one you are dead...but ultimately somebody close to you has got a bunch of labor to do....and maybe...just maybe is on the hook for settling your debts.

There's a really cool blog that talks about the meticulous preparations a father took for his son. I suggest checking out this blog here.

Now there is other points i want to share with you that a friend brought up in regards to this topic:

"The fear of death is so strong that even those who have gone through the ordeal of dealing with someone's remaining affairs can easily turn around and leave behind the same mess for their next of kin. 

You can ask yourself if someone in your family dies today and you are the sole person to deal with it, would you know what do do? How would you go about it? Do you know what documents you need when someone dies, how to register a death? If the deceased leaves property behind - are you aware of the taxation, paying bills etc? What if there is no liquid money - are you able to pay for any expenses? Even paying for the funeral arrangements can cost in the thousands. What about others in the family, consider family feuds that ensue when someone dies and there is no will, or secrets that suddenly see the light of day... 

So what is the solution? How can we take responsibility for life after our death - by planning for it? - by making it an educational item? What are practical steps? Let's open this point up and come up with solutions."

Interesting topic isn't it?

Some questions come to mind:

Would this really be a big deal if the way our society was structured wasn't built around a lack of money. Like, for example would it be a big deal if lets say everybody was born with a bank account that would last a lifetime and that at death the account along with the person simply ceases to exist. There is no carry over. So in this regard nobody is going to profit off another person's death. Because if we have a look...there is much expense attached to sorting out somebody's death. What comes to mind specifically is the taxation...and the legalities around Law where typically a lawyer is required to substantiate the legality/legitimacy of things...and if you looked at the above link i posted...the lawyer fees can be quite extensive...and really do things have to be somewhat complicated.

Obviously the way money and law exists is entirely interwoven within the checks and balances of dealing with somebody's death....specifically if you are the appointed family member or you are the closest too them kind of thing...and there's a family connection and no other family exists. I mean here...there can be really shitty situations where, for instance...even though you did not even associate with this particular family member and you are the only two related family members left and person A dies...and they have a mountain of debt....Guess where the liability is directed? Isn't that kind of ridiculous?

Though, if we look closely at the specifics of dealing with someone's death...we get a closer look at the ridiculousness of the way our economic and legal system function.

I think if we developed a monetary system where there was a regard and consideration for all Life here.,..we would have laws that support the facilitation of such points.

In a way the way our human behavior exists is rooted in and around our relationships with money, It's  kind of like a behavior regulation because Money is attached to our ability to survive here...and the interesting thing about this is that we created a competition about who get;s to survive....which if we really think about it...is quite dumb. Now, it is popular to make sense out of nonsense when it comes to the economics and the laws of our society...where we justify the absurd ridiculousness of things...as like saying things like, "this is just the way things are".

The point of compassionate care comes to mind. If there was a real regard within society...there would be tremendous support for the assistance to those who have lost a love one.  I mean...think of the possibilities if we all agreed on supporting the best support?  It seems like a far out of this world concept...doesn't it? Which is quite telling of the times we live in....isn't it?

Imagine there was a whole team of people who are staffed to assist and support a smooth moving along of being available as support for all people who have lost someone who is very dear to them.  In thinking about this....it comes to mind that we low ball the greatness here...as like we cut corners on how great things could be within mind set mentalities of like, "good enough"....when in reality the perceive "good enough" is not what you would really want for yourself...but deem it acceptable for somebody who you regard as less than yourself...and see it as "good enough".

This is quite the topic really....because it gets us to look at also the housing and the possession of the person who died....some people will have lots of stuff....others nothing at all....I mean if we think about the various people who die...and we look at how there is a dissonance in life regard from the perspective of comparing how well different individuals survived here...as like how much money did the acquire....it's brings the question to mind as like "why do we accept and allow ourselves to function in this survival mentality frame of mind?"

I see the potential for a great future where the movement of humanity shifts from that of disregard to that of regard...and self-expression instead of self-suppression as a result of coping in the survival mentality frame of mind. The easiest way to bring about great change in this regard is through the democratic process....where there is a shift in what we accept and allow as valid here. We re-write the law and economics of the world. We change the game essentially as the operating procedures and capacity of human life here. Which if we really look at the lack of regard for human life at the moment....it is easy to see how there is much room for great improvement to the functionality of Life support and assistance here. 

I implore you to ask questions about the functionality of the various points within our shared existence. To look at the practicality of the way things in fact exist. To learn about the laws and the economics...and the politics...of our world.  The main area of focus in discussion in bringing about the most immediate change that is great for all life here is in establishing economic policy that supports the sustainability of the best qualities of Life for all Life here....a real Equality here in and as the regard for the One Life here we are all within and sharing....because like it or not we are all connected to this world.

Day 731 - Golden Ticket

Continuing from my previous post, "Day 730 - Coming Out of Retirement"


"A realization that has become clear to me is that Yes, Indeed I do have a Golden Ticket and this Golden Ticket is in fact my Potential Here...and the thing is...I Require to Use My Golden Ticket...and I cannot just save it away and avoid it for a long time later.....that is foolish....My Golden Ticket has the Most Value Now...and The Value Of My Golden Ticket Gets More Valuable every day I Exercise it....like a card I got to pay/play with as the decisions I make." (Day 730 - Coming out of Retirement)


Within this and continuing from my post yesterday there is much self-forgiveness I would like to share.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting long term commitment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing long term commitment to get in the way of short term commitments and my overall ability to have fun.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for regarding "long term commitment" as burden and something that is tedious in a way i don't want to deal with.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing long term commitment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for making a conflict of sorts between "short term commitment" and "long term commitment".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have created my life from the starting point of self-interest linked to my emotions and feelings.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting movement if I am not experiencing a positive energy about doing such movement

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for defining retirement living as the enthrallment within feed positive energy pursuits.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting overwhelmed within the point of long term planning.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to actually really sit with myself and take the time to look at what I would like as some long term plans.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for always kind of reacting to the point of long term planning and being quit to judge and dismiss the point as being limiting and taking away from my day to day living.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the purposeful living within creating long term plans.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the flexibility and adaptability within long term planning that it can be a fun thing and isn't a prison sentence,,,but in fact the complete opposite.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having spent many years not really caring or daring to push the development of long term planning.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how this past decade has been like a testing phase of sorts where I have been investigating and looking at possible avenues to take myself within as a point of long term planning.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for desiring some structure and order in my life from the perspective of creating long term plans for myself to be able to move into fruition/actualization.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding how to create long term plans for myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for placing long term and short term goals within conflict with each other and for not realizing how I can utilized these two opposite points as being complimentary in bringing to fruition both the short term plans and the long term plans.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understand how ridiculous it is pit things against one another that can very easily be complementary.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to regularly check my maps as the plans i create for myself in both the short term and the long term.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not taking my life seriously from the perspective of long term planning.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for kind of neglecting myself as the creator of my life from and as the perspective that My Wish is My Command...and that I am capable of being very specific and exact within my life planning and also at times be quite adaptable.

Day 727 - Planting

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding my physical body and Beingness as the soil for my mind.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding the gardening of my physical body, beingness and mind as the specifics of what I accept and allow to plant within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the practical support within uprooting the plants within myself that are less than what is best for life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding the specifics of my mind as gardening tool for my body and beingness here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having disregarded the simplicity of gardening.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the Earth as One Garden Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding myself within and as a Garden Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the interconnectedness of all Life Here within and as the Garden/Earth

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the Mind as Specific Tool that is designed to assist and support the best potential growth of myself/body/beingness/garden growth as the epitome of Creation here from the perspective of Oneness and Equality existing together as the starting point of Creation Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for dismissing points within my mind, without questioning the practical living application of such things.  I realize and understand the self-responsibility within and as tool maintenance...as the self-responsibility to direct my mind from the starting point of Oneness and Equality as the realization and knowing that what is best for all Life is always best.

I commit myself to self-direction and self-investigation within and as my mind as what I have accepted and allowed. I commit myself to utilize my mind as a tool to support my body and beingness here.

I realize the my body, beingness and mind as a trinity of self-support here from the perspective of Oneness and Equality as what is best for all Life here.

I am grateful for my Body, Beingness and Mind Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which I can utilize my Mind as Creative Tool here to support me within and as my Creative Potential here.

I commit myself to exercising/expressing my creative potential here as what is best for Life.

I commit myself to stand as an example of and as Creative Potential Here.

I commit myself to Creating a Life for myself as Heaven on Earth.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having resisted the Creation of Myself as Heaven on Earth Here...manifested as Physical Togetherness Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the birthing of myself here as Heaven on Earth as the Physical process where my mind is merged within and as physicality here as the physical world....where it's like there is no more mental dissonance....that the birthing of Oneself as Heaven on Earth is the end of mental dissonance.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having at times judged the birthing process here. I commit myself to breath by breath birth myself as the physical movement manifestation of Heaven on Earth Here.

I commit myself to creative enjoyment within both work and play

Day 704 - Perfection

I noticed that I had created a polarity play within myself in regards to effectively living "perfection" without a bias and conflict.

Within reflecting upon my upbringing, I noticed I developed to a certain extent, the fear of making mistakes....or being wrong....and not wanting to be exposed as someone who doesn't know something or isn't very good at something. And on the flip side of this, existed the desire to be the best...perfection....being right....not making mistakes.

And if you look at the nature of this relationship interplay in regards to perfection...Fear is the root cause of such dissonance within myself, In seeing such fear within myself as like fear being on both sides of myself...it's kind of a paralyzing situation where there becomes a real stuckness. An example of this is like saying I'll go to the gym once I'm fit.....or, I'll start yoga once I'm flexible.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for defining perfection within and as a positive energy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating fear within and as an extension of perfection.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist as less than perfection.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create an experience of stuckness for myself in relationship to the point of perfection.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing failure and desiring success.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself as less than success and perfection within and as being the best within and as points of participation here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating self-sabotage in relationship to my perception of perfection...and within this the fear of failure/mistakes and the desire for greatness/success.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for impairing my mobility...as like paralyzing my mobility in particular points of participation as a result of allowing myself to fear consequence and at the same time desiring to perform well within participations/performances.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I would create a stuckness for myself as like a non movement within points as a result of and as the acceptance and allowance of fear within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be limited in movement as a result of and as the experience of fear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding my mobility and responsibility to actually in fact live perfection from and as a point of allowing myself to participate and perform tasks...and within this actually develop and hone my skills within particular areas of focus that are points of new development.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have impeded learning growth and development within myself as a result of accepting and allowing myself to be stuck within fear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for choosing to be stuck within fear.

When and as I see myself stuck within and as my ability to effectively move within a point, I stop and breathe, I face the fear that I am accepting and allowing....I dare myself to move beyond the stuckness experience and actually participate....I see/realize and understand that I can in fact let go of the stuckness experience by making the decision to move myself within a moment and actually participate here within a particular area of focus where I have resistance towards...and that by doing so, I actually in fact remove the resistance and develop myself within the point...where in fact I open up the potential to live self-perfection....because by allowing myself to participate in movement here, I am able to fine tune my abilities by learning from my participations here.

I commit myself to participating here. I commit myself to movement here. I realize and understand life to exist within movement and growth. I commit myself to movement and growth.
I commit myself to develop and self-perfect myself within movement here.

Looking at the word Perfect.....

Perfect Ion....

Perfect I On....

Perfection sounds kind of like perception....and perfect reminds me of performance....and perception is in regards to seeing...and performance is in regards to the movement/participation within and as a point...and therefore by actually allowing myself to be the perfection within and as the moment of myself here...I am allowing myself to see as the self-realization of myself here...which is in fact my self-honesty.....which I in fact live and in fact am able to exercise as my expression within and as the self-trust to actually move/apply myself here within and as specific point of participation/expression here.

I realize the commitment in fact within and as the word perfection...as it's a total immersion within and as a point of participation ....and so it's like perfection is always here within and as everything...as like everything is perfectly in fact exactly what it is as each and everything thing is behaving/operating the way that it in fact is....because it is perfectly that.

Perfect can be in regards to good or bad. As like that is a perfect example of what to do....or that is a perfect example of what not do . Either way, you see both example of perfect here...as being perfect in regards to what exactly they were.

I understand that in point of self-development that one can in fact learn to expand points of perfection....and I see this as the process of self-perfection as the natural learning process....where one's best is able to become better...as an improvement where you become better than your best....

In looking up the dictionary definition of perfection...I see it is in relationship to the quality of being free from flaw...as like flawless....and what is interesting to regard about this is the interdependence upon flaws...to in become flawless...because flawless is to have less flaws than what you previously did...or to be without flaws...and to get to a point of being without flaws is the process of and as self-perfection...where one enables oneself to move freely within participation and therefore one in fact can remedy a flaw/mistake by enacting a self-correction which is really the epitome of living practically self-perfection...because this is where self-realization is lived physically...as it's taking the seeing of a point and moving and transforming the ability as like the effective usage and understanding of one's very own response abilities....and here is how it all comes together within and as self-responsibility.

Day 694 - Freedom

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating positive energy about the word "freedom".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating a negative energy definition as reaction to realizing and understanding how I created a positive energetic definition about "freedom".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get stuck within and as my word relationships by polarizing them within energies as either being positive/negative/neutral.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing how I have perpetuated the polarity play of words within myself as an outflow and energetic reaction of myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not recognizing the extent to which freedom exists as kind of an ironic term from the perspective that no real freedom exists within and as the acceptance of a polarized vocabulary from the perspective of having words charged with emotion and or feeling.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent of programming that exists within and as my mind consciousness system as a result of and as my individual self-defined emotion and feeling associations to words as the various energetic attachments onto words which perpetuate a polarized disharmony.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the simplicity of freedom existing within and as responsibility...as the ability to express oneself here from and as the starting point of responding and or directing creation as what is best for Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and recognizing myself as the starting point of creation here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for separating myself from and as the word "creation"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent of the cosmic joke that is 'fighting for freedom'...because this perpetuates the peace/war polarity...where one perpetuates the other...and is really anything but harmonious.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for denying to investigate all energetic word relationships that exist within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for making up blame as a defense to why freedom doesn't really exist. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have perpetuated conflict within myself as a result of participating within blame and holding onto the belief that freedom cannot exist.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from and as "freedom"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding freedom from the perspective of freeing myself from my own accepted and allowed enslavement.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for looking to create an energy about freedom as a way to generate some sort of feeling or emotion in relation to the experience of myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing how the seemingly natural reaction when investigating word relationships is to take on the opposite polarity as the believed to be correct/right adjustment and new way of seeing. I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of jumping back and forth between positive and negative energy.

When and as I see myself faced with a reaction, I first allow myself to take a breath and actually stop the energetic movement that is existing within myself as the reaction energy...I look at the energy specificity and I see/realize the word associations in relationship to the specific reaction I just experienced....I purify my word relationships here by first recognizing the impurity and then by forgiving the impurity and the particular energetic charge attached to the impurity and then I allow myself to play with the word for a moment as I work out an agreement to live as the word...from and as the perspective of substantiating the best potential for myself and the word here. I commit myself to living words as the best structures of support. I commit myself to specificity with my word selection.

When and as I see myself resisting responsibility.....responsibility from the perspective of seeing and realizing a potential opportunity here.....I take a moment to focus on my breathing a 4 count breath and actually stop my thoughts/feelings/emotions and take a self-honest look at the opportunity of responsibility that is available here for me to jump into and as a point of self-direction. I allow myself the opportunity to move within and as the moment of self-responsibility. I see realize and understand my potential abilities and skills are developed effectively as the outflow of my living and directing myself responsibilities. I realize and understand the ridiculousness of holding back on potential as a result of resisting to push self-responsibility.

I commit myself to living self-responsibility.

I commit myself to developing my talents/skills/abilities as a result of living self-responsibility.

I realize Freedom to exist within and as the living of self-responsibility/self-honesty.

I commit myself to practically living self-responsibility and self-honesty.

When and as I see myself faced with a moment of thought that seems so right, I stop and breathe, I allow myself to forgive my thought...as I see realize and understand the righteousness of thought is a hindrance to a holistic perspective here....I realize and understand the the self-responsibility in directing each and every thought through the application of self-forgiveness.

I commit myself to living self-forgiveness as an expression of Freedom here. I realize and understand self-forgiveness is a tool that is fun to use....when and as oneself realize the awesomeness potential of and as self-forgiveness as the gift giving tool that it is.

Day 693 - Freedom of Denial

Is there anything that You are denying self-responsibility for?


In looking at the word "Deny", the definition that comes to my attention is: Refuse to give or grant (something requested or desired) to (someone).

This opened up the point of self-reflection on change here that is great and the application of self-forgiveness as a pivotal tool in supporting the forward movement and commitment statements to actually manifest great physical changes here.

The point also became more obvious that I am the starting point of giving here, as I am Forgiving...and this is such a cool realization in recognizing that we get to gift to ourselves that which we actually want, need and desire because we are the starting point of what it is in fact we accept and allow ourself to be given...as we are forgiven by our self here...self-responsibility to actually give to ourselves here.

We are here to give as to give is to live...and it starts with understanding how to self-forgive....because this is a basic tool in and as Self Living Here.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for denying myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for choosing to deny self-responsibility here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the absurd ridiculousness of denial that is perpetuated as a result of accepted and allowed fear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for hiding from my potential as a result of accepting and allowing myself for choosing to deny the living of my utmost potential always.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging my potential.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for denying myself the privilege and opportunity to forgive myself for my acceptances and allowances that are less than the best.  I commit myself to follow up on my self-forgiveness statements with self-commitment statements as I realize and understand that forgiving myself is a stepping stone in actually enabling myself to move for real change that is best.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting change that is best for me and all Life here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for denying myself access to Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting my Life and therefore the Lives of others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the regard that I live for myself reflects the regard that I have for others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to bullshit myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for denying the facts of physical reality here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying and perpetuating deniability within myself by deliberately choosing to distract myself from and as the self-corrections I would like to make in my life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for sabotaging myself within and as self-denial.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding self-denial.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for going along with the attitude of "deny, deny, deny"....."protect the lie at all costs...can't get in trouble when and as you don't admit fault"...it's always best to deny deny deny"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for denying myself from myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to neglect and deny self-responsibility for all of my thoughts/feelings/emotions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for choosing to believe that I am free to deny taking accountability for which ever thoughts/feelings/emotions I decide I don't want to deal with.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing there is freedom in avoiding self-responsibility / self-accountability for my acceptances and allowances here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having some anger in seeing points of self-denial within myself.

I realize that actually seeing points that I was previously denying is cool from the perspective of OK, now I see what I was missing before...so no need to cause myself any harm....best to actually be grateful for what it is I see and realize and commit myself to change that is best.

I commit myself to stop taking offense to new information I am realizing.

I commit myself to self-correcting points of self-denial.

I commit myself to stop self-denial.

I commit myself to facing and stopping every point of self-denial within myself.

I commit myself to stop fearing the truth of my acceptances and allowances.

Day 685 - The interconnectedness of the Good and Bad

What's interesting and is often neglected is the correlation of events and the influence and impact that different events/actions cause as a rippling effect and outflow in seemingly far away places...where one could think that nah it's all good here....the problems over there are totally non related to the good here....that's their problem....I don't have to really regard it over here because all is "civilized" orderly.

I was reflecting upon the interconnectedness of Countries and Money...and within this trade relationships...the buying and selling of things....from, human trafficking,...to the vegetable trade...to literally Everything else you could possibly think of!

I've noticed a general point of dissonance in accountability, regard,the consideration, care, thought, and responsibility towards the inhumane acts that happen seemingly so far away from a person's doorstep.

I recall myself as a young child doing some math on accountability in this world in regards to how things function at a global level. My assumptions and understandings at the time of my questioning in to the functioning of whole earth here....meaning, how all human activity exists...and nature and everything else....And the answer I got....was that there are Scientists...and Professionals in Every field of study...and they are working in these areas to maintain and to further the develop of these areas of study. So, from that perspective at this early age in my life....I was like OK,...So, I don't really require to busy myself in any of these particular areas of study...because there is so many people on the job and lining up for the jobs....So, I rather just focus on myself and playing....because it seems as though everything is covered,...and is being taken care of. I mean, I was quite happy about telling myself, "OK, everything is taken care of...I am therefore free to do whatever I want".

Though what is interesting about this perspective and outlook is that a new question came up in regards to the poverty conditions throughout the world.

This point of questioning was never able to be explained to me in a way I could believe. From my perspective, Nobody really knew why exactly things were the way they are....Like nobody could really explain to mean the benefits of not fixing the poverty problem, Lots of people informed me that the conditions that exist here as the most unfortunate and the most favorable...is just a result of the way things are....and that getting people to change the way things are is not really practical or possible because this is how things are. Or, best not to concern yourself with such frustrating questions/issues and rather focus on something that is more enjoyable to you.

Today I saw a story about sex trafficking in Thailand. I also saw a story about a tremendous amount of Tires found in the bottom of the Waters in the United States of America.

As of result of reflecting upon these stories....I got to thinking about how life is valued/devalued...disregarded....and the whole costs of living within this perspective...where there is such a dissonance about human functioning here as an actual worth being....I mean, looking at the point of Profit Here and Money...and how we value or de-value substance here....whether it be a "Tire" or a "child" or anything else that is here...as a matter of fact.

What's interesting to regard is the question, and answer: "How to effectively accommodate the best living habitat for all Life Here" and "What is required for each species to thrive here",,,"what labor agreements are required for each species to effectively contribute to the total collective of Species Harmonious Symphony/Orchestra....the potential exists for the human species to take a governing role as Conductors of the Symphony....perhaps more appropriately titles Guardians of the Orchestra...or Regulators...or Sound enablers....or Support Workers....."

Interesting to regard a correlation with the Human Species of Government here on Earth where each Human is in fact a member of the Government...and the correlation with the established relationships with Country's of Government....where it is accepted as a most amazing disgrace in terms of general levels of approval and satisfaction....from both people within a particular country and people outside of a particular country.

Interesting the control among our own human species...in relationship to our movement into generating/creating global solutions to the the problems that exist.... I mean the shape of consideration and regard in many instances doesn't exist beyond the sphere of one's immediate family relationships....which, in and of itself reflects a point of dissonance in education as the general self-reflective regard and appreciation of what in fact Life entails here.

This education process reflects the recycling we are typically born into...as the history repeating itself....where there is the tradition of keeping up with the beliefs of the authorities/parents....or a complete rebellion and disregard....a generally accepted and allowed war ensues and has continued through our timing here.... I mean, isn't it interesting that a means of wealth creation is through the perpetuation and re-creation of conflict....stimulating conflict....temporary short sighted conflict resolutions which are more like a re-loading of ammunition and fire power to only strengthen and upgrade the battle royal...as the expansively expensive defense mechanisms as the fight/war has been bought and sold as the propaganda worth dieing for....the disposal and consumption of human life....factory farming....human serving...much like the nature of all life here....so much in regards to the established Human Species hierarchy of disregard.....where a Harmonious togetherness has been educated as that which we must fight against at all costs...though the core curriculum is one of confusion through fear...as a dazed and confused manipulation through tremendously layered deception as the latest advancements in human inception....the great deception...our very acceptance and allowance into clever manipulation at the expense of Life regard and acceptance....the spoiling of our gifting inheritance opportunities here.

To Be Continued