day 800 - Integrity of Sharing

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Day 784 - "Let me Tell You"

Communication is a really fascinating endeavor, Isn't it?

I mean, an Endeavor can be regarded in a Plethora of ways, can't it?

Where am I going here with my focal point?

Let me tell You:

I've become aware that in many instances I have communicated from a starting point of "Let me Tell You", with a specific emphasis on the positive feeling or negative emotion that comes up within me connected to a desire to say my piece about whatever the point in question happens to be.  In many instances, my telling is a suppressed form of sharing....because my starting point has often been conflicted to some extent.  Not always, but in many instances...Like, specifically when there is an urge to say something...You know, that experience of I got to tell you this now...like oh man, i was triggered by something you said and now i got to let you know what i think about that.

And within this starting point of "let me tell you", there's a whole range of emotion and feeling reactions.  Some of them are subtle and some are intense, and some are somewhere in between subtle and intense.

Who really cares about the quality of communication anyways?  I mean, isn't the most important thing that we just say whatever it is that comes up within ourselves?  You know, like, we are all just shit shooters....shooting shit at each other and making a big deal about shit that isn't really substantial but is just inflated shit that has no real core depth about it...you know, that surface and petty bullshit being flung around.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to speak from a starting point of being worked up within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to thing the importance of what i have to say is determined by the energetic build up inside myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to disregard the quality of my communication.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to self-sacrifice quality of words for quantity of words...as like in a way sexualizing my vocabulary and just wanting to get a rise in a way....so it's like how many times times can i get off, a rise, feel an energetic high and get a release with what i say.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand the extent to which i have justified speaking a sort of venom within my words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to justify spewing shit/venom because of the experience within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to recycle participation within energetic mindfucks within myself.  I realize my capacity to effectively live the accounting for my words here, because i am here within and as my words everyday.  I realize my responsibility to investigate the purity of my words and sounds.

I commit myself to purity in thoughts, words and deeds.

I commit myself to investigatng the purity of my thoughts, words and deeds.

I commit myself to listening to the quality of my sound.

I commit myself to substantiating the equality and oneness of myself here.  I realize my sound in and as my words is a cool cross reference check point.

Day 745 - Supple

Continuing from the post: Day 743 - The Irony of Effort

"One cannot work effectively well for a consistently long amount of time with a strong stamina to have excellent output performance if One isn't at ease within and as the work/play.

Isn't it fascinating that we often take this approach to stress even within our recreational activities?

Like for instance Golf:

The golf swing takes about 2 seconds to complete.  There has been soooo much information published about it.  Most golfers or people who have ever played golf....really really struggle with the game. The interesting thing about this...is a correlation to much effort...as like a point over exertion....and increased tension due to the mind chatter within the body while attempting to move through the swing.

The golf analogy is something i will open up more in blogs to come...this is somewhat of a teaser as to what is to come.

Stay tuned, Much to look at here:

Some key words of examination will be: Tension, Strain, Effort, Agreement, Logic, Emotion, Feeling, Golf, Irony, CoIncidences"

I find it interesting to look at the beginning above statement I made about working well for a long time...and i proceeded to give an example of how even within leisurely/recreational pursuits such as golf, where the swing takes about 2 seconds....the same point is true.  It's about our relationships within ourselves.  Now, perhaps this consideration and example, garners perspective into the questioning of "what is a long time?"  Because, 2 seconds is kind of a long time...when you consider that for example you can make a golf swing...and that such movement can move a ball 300 meters.


Some self-forgiveness in relationship to the points at hand:


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which Tension, Strain, Stress, Emotion, Feeling can in fact impede upon physical activity within as little or less than 2 seconds.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding to what an effect the thoughts/feelings/emotions I participate in have on my physical body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding that so much of the Effort about Work is created as a result of having a build up of emotion/feelings conflictual relationships within the body as One's vocabulary that is energetically polarized that contributed to the status standing of conflict/friction/tension/stress....which equates to less than one's actual living potential to express oneself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding the seemingly quick moments of thought and or feeling and emotion that comes up within my mind in relationship to participating within any activity/work/play/movement here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the supple quickness of myself here.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how my mind has been assisting and supporting me as a tool of self-support in showing to me many, many examples of "subtle quickness".

I see, realize and understand how I can direct myself in and as a moment as supple quickness.

I see, realize and understand how I can correct myself within a moment with supple quickness....because it's just as easy to correct/remediate a point of dissonance that is revealed to me in my mind...as it is for the point to come up...so in this regard...I see the practicality in balancing myself within time as like to make the decision to no longer linger in time as a continuously perpetuating build up of tension...as a result of resisting to live as "subtle quickness" within myself from and as the perspective of immediate application when and as I see a movement of dissonance within myself that reflects the accumulation of past moment acceptances and allowances that i have stored within my body/mind as moments/points of tension/stress/strain/dissonance


To Be Continued

Day 685 - The interconnectedness of the Good and Bad

What's interesting and is often neglected is the correlation of events and the influence and impact that different events/actions cause as a rippling effect and outflow in seemingly far away places...where one could think that nah it's all good here....the problems over there are totally non related to the good here....that's their problem....I don't have to really regard it over here because all is "civilized" orderly.

I was reflecting upon the interconnectedness of Countries and Money...and within this trade relationships...the buying and selling of things....from, human trafficking,...to the vegetable trade...to literally Everything else you could possibly think of!

I've noticed a general point of dissonance in accountability, regard,the consideration, care, thought, and responsibility towards the inhumane acts that happen seemingly so far away from a person's doorstep.

I recall myself as a young child doing some math on accountability in this world in regards to how things function at a global level. My assumptions and understandings at the time of my questioning in to the functioning of whole earth here....meaning, how all human activity exists...and nature and everything else....And the answer I got....was that there are Scientists...and Professionals in Every field of study...and they are working in these areas to maintain and to further the develop of these areas of study. So, from that perspective at this early age in my life....I was like OK,...So, I don't really require to busy myself in any of these particular areas of study...because there is so many people on the job and lining up for the jobs....So, I rather just focus on myself and playing....because it seems as though everything is covered,...and is being taken care of. I mean, I was quite happy about telling myself, "OK, everything is taken care of...I am therefore free to do whatever I want".

Though what is interesting about this perspective and outlook is that a new question came up in regards to the poverty conditions throughout the world.

This point of questioning was never able to be explained to me in a way I could believe. From my perspective, Nobody really knew why exactly things were the way they are....Like nobody could really explain to mean the benefits of not fixing the poverty problem, Lots of people informed me that the conditions that exist here as the most unfortunate and the most favorable...is just a result of the way things are....and that getting people to change the way things are is not really practical or possible because this is how things are. Or, best not to concern yourself with such frustrating questions/issues and rather focus on something that is more enjoyable to you.

Today I saw a story about sex trafficking in Thailand. I also saw a story about a tremendous amount of Tires found in the bottom of the Waters in the United States of America.

As of result of reflecting upon these stories....I got to thinking about how life is valued/devalued...disregarded....and the whole costs of living within this perspective...where there is such a dissonance about human functioning here as an actual worth being....I mean, looking at the point of Profit Here and Money...and how we value or de-value substance here....whether it be a "Tire" or a "child" or anything else that is here...as a matter of fact.

What's interesting to regard is the question, and answer: "How to effectively accommodate the best living habitat for all Life Here" and "What is required for each species to thrive here",,,"what labor agreements are required for each species to effectively contribute to the total collective of Species Harmonious Symphony/Orchestra....the potential exists for the human species to take a governing role as Conductors of the Symphony....perhaps more appropriately titles Guardians of the Orchestra...or Regulators...or Sound enablers....or Support Workers....."

Interesting to regard a correlation with the Human Species of Government here on Earth where each Human is in fact a member of the Government...and the correlation with the established relationships with Country's of Government....where it is accepted as a most amazing disgrace in terms of general levels of approval and satisfaction....from both people within a particular country and people outside of a particular country.

Interesting the control among our own human species...in relationship to our movement into generating/creating global solutions to the the problems that exist.... I mean the shape of consideration and regard in many instances doesn't exist beyond the sphere of one's immediate family relationships....which, in and of itself reflects a point of dissonance in education as the general self-reflective regard and appreciation of what in fact Life entails here.

This education process reflects the recycling we are typically born into...as the history repeating itself....where there is the tradition of keeping up with the beliefs of the authorities/parents....or a complete rebellion and disregard....a generally accepted and allowed war ensues and has continued through our timing here.... I mean, isn't it interesting that a means of wealth creation is through the perpetuation and re-creation of conflict....stimulating conflict....temporary short sighted conflict resolutions which are more like a re-loading of ammunition and fire power to only strengthen and upgrade the battle royal...as the expansively expensive defense mechanisms as the fight/war has been bought and sold as the propaganda worth dieing for....the disposal and consumption of human life....factory farming....human serving...much like the nature of all life here....so much in regards to the established Human Species hierarchy of disregard.....where a Harmonious togetherness has been educated as that which we must fight against at all costs...though the core curriculum is one of confusion through fear...as a dazed and confused manipulation through tremendously layered deception as the latest advancements in human inception....the great deception...our very acceptance and allowance into clever manipulation at the expense of Life regard and acceptance....the spoiling of our gifting inheritance opportunities here.

To Be Continued

Day 678 - Effort

Continuing from, Day 677 - Effort-full


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting caught within the polarization of the word Effort from the perspective of trying to decide which is better of worse...things to require effort or without effort....like effort-full or effortless.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for associating effort with movement...and within this attaching a negative charge...where I have created a resistance to actually moving myself within points as a result of believing and experience negative emotion towards requiring effort to actually move myself within things.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having polarized my effort participations....where I have been effort-full in various applications....working very hard. And, in many other instances....doing almost nothing...virtually putting in no effort into particular relationship developments and living responsibilities. The contrast of doing my best work and my worst work....where it's like maximum effort in some applications and a most minimal effort in other applications....as like the very bare minimum.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have created a fight or flight type of survival relationship with the word "effort"...where it's like...OK...I will live/give effort if I believe it is absolutely necessary from the perspective of my immediate and relatively near future depends upon it....so like if I believe my survival is threatened....than it;s like I thrive in doing what I believe to be necessary. Otherwise....I believe...what is the bother....I don't really require to move....because no imminent threat/consequence that will jeopardize my immediate and relatively soon future survival.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for participating in a relationship with Effort from the perspective of short sightedness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the difficulty within actually and practically living a word effectively, when and as the word has emotional connotations rooted in the fear for survival.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I had impaired my full potential to express and live my best efforts as a result of justifying whether or not I should exercise my best efforts within my sharing and caring for myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the sharing and caring that encompasses the practical daily living application of Effort.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being negligent in my relationship towards practically living Effort.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being shocked with the absurd ridiculousness of actually seeing how I make believed a condition of learning impairment....where my actual effectiveness in learning and expressing myself was dependent upon my emotional disposition.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having resistance to living Effort as always best for Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for abusing myself and others as a result of neglecting to live Effort in always Best always all ways.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the absurd ridiculousness of actually making an effort to avoid effort in life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing the irony within making a big Effort about Effort.

When and as I see myself faced with a moment where I am resisting to apply Effort, I stop and breathe....I see/realize and understand that I am faced with a moment where I have the opportunity to learn from my mistake and actually correct/remediate a contaminated relationship towards a particular point. I create the perfect correction as a result of giving forth my best effort in taking responsibility to do what needs to be done.

I commit myself to sharing my realizations about Effort and my past relationship suppressions within and as the point of Effort.

I commit myself to expanding my practical living application of Effort.

I commit myself to growing my expression of Effort.

I realize my Effort is the strength of my overall character here, both inside and outside.

I realize my self-responsibility to live/give my best Efforts...And, I realize Sharing and Caring are Paramount for Life Sustainability Here.

I commit myself to Life Sustainability as the Effort required to practically live/express/give as I would like to receive the realization that Sharing and Caring is Paramount Here.

I commit myself to Sharing and Caring as Paramount Here.

I commit myself to practically live to give....realizing that Life self-expression as who I am here is in and as the gifting.

I realize a strong depth of gratitude for the effort I have put into writing Self-Forgiveness.

Day 656 - Old Boy - Revenge

Please read the following post before reading my post.

http://viktorpersson.com/2014/09/day-168-old-boy-the-revenge/

This is a great post here about the Korean Movie entitled, "Old Boy".


My sharing here will act as an addition to the sharing within the post that I urge you to read before following along with my writing here.


Revenge.....the re-play of vengeance.


In actually examining the point of  Revenge, No Revenge is Valid and or Acceptable from and as the starting point of what is best for all Life.

This I see here is a point of most unfortunate consequence.

The interesting thing here is that revenge is never without reason...and is therefore always justifiably valid within the eye of the beholder...as the one who seeks vengeance.

What is interesting about vengeance is the force within in it...as this, most perfectly illustrates the misalignment of Life Force Essence/Spirit/Integrity within a human being.

If you have a look at the determination within revenge it is absolute.  There is sound commitment here. In the movie 'Old Boy', you see the main character move through seemingly impossible challenges/conflicts in order to fulfill his Wish of extracting his revenge/vengeance,

Now, I mention the point of revenge being a point that perfectly showcases the misalignment of Human Life Force/Spirit/Integrity....because each of us has such tremendous potential to do good here...and revenge is a misguided calculation that committing harm and doing more harm is a necessary evil to bring about a greater good....which is kind of a tragic comedy here....because note the irony in fighting for peace....I mean that example should be painstakingly obvious...pardon the pun Jesus...I mean shit...what bullshit we have created within and as our own distorted justification as the means to our end.

The irony of revenge is that it's like chasing after a mirage....it's an imagined distortion really...a cognitive dissonance...an inability to do basic mathematics within and as the starting point of All as One as Equal.

This reflection on Revenge here has assisted and supported me to see and realize the strength of Self-Willing Determination. I see and realize the principle of Oneness and Equality. What is best for all Life is best for Me...because I am in fact a presentation of All Life Here. I see and realize each being is in fact a presentation of All Life Here.  The most unfortunate tragedy within our shared presentation here is our mistreatment of ourself here. I mean, have a look....humanity throughout history has been cycling within Revenge/Vengeance....Justification...always arguable so....the irony here is the cowardice behavior within ourselves in seeking revenge/vengeance....I say this is pure irony here....because have a look at how glorified revenge/vengeance is within our world culture as being heroic and patriotic...

So, what is really heroic and brave? Self Forgiveness.

I dare you!


Why do I say this?

Because it takes a real courage and honor to actually face the consequences of one's actions without making plans to perpetuate the consequence of one's actions....one in fact has to stop oneself from cycling out of control and for the first time ever...exercise some real self-willing control...to actually take control of One's Life...to actually give back control to One Self here to actually Create for Real...A Real Life worth Living...and I mean this is a bold task...because to face this point is to actually realize and understand Self-Forgiveness as a Practical Living Self-Responsibility....that it's beyond a choice...it's at the depth of our actual Life Force Here....Self-Forgiveness is the Force....It is the point....This is not Violence....this is in fact saying, 'till here no further will I abuse myself'....Now this is a difficult point because our programmed control logic/reasoning....is Fear/Violence....and I mean this is just the consequence of intelligent design being designed to be most clever in out witting one another...as like who can be the most nasty sly fucker....which is a total reversal to how things in fact are really suppose to be here on our play ground planet....which is most unfortunately looking like a prison from a global perspective...because we have not dared to really ever stand as those who really ever fully cared.

This I am seeing here is what Self-Forgiveness really in fact is....

Self-Forgiveness is the capacity to Care for Yourself as All Life and to In fact Give Yourself the Best Support and Assistance Possible as a reflecting example of Treating Yourself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have lived out cycles upon cycles of Revenge and Vengeance upon myself and all of Existence Unknowingly.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding my cowardice actions within and as the acceptance and allowance of Revenge/Vengeance as a behavior I believed to be a necessary justification.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which I have harmed myself and all of existence as myself within and as my justified fearful mindset.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the personality split and distortion between loving someone and hating someone.  I realize the confusion and delusion within such a mindset.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having perpetuated confusion and distortion within myself as a result of allowing myself to be possessed by fear energy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I suppressed my creative control of Life by choosing to abide to irrational fears/justifications/judgments/beliefs/perceptions/ideas/words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I miscalculated the value of words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I miscalculated the value of myself here as All Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the value of all Life Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for making believe the value of all Life to be too complicated to actually figure out and there for impossible.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having thought and believed that valuing all Life as One and Equal is impossible.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how it is in fact possible to have regard for All Life Here.

I see, realize and understand that regard for all Life here starts within and as myself here. I see, realize and understand myself here as the self-responsibility to present myself as All Life here...as You is Me and Me is You....as I see, realize and understand that we are all here within the same process of  Presenting Ourselves to each other as All as One as Equal and the opportunity and Present is Ours in and as how we Present Our Self here in each and every moment as the Presentation and Expression of that which is Best for all Life.

I see, realize and understand that this process of presenting Our Self Here as Oneness and Equality is in fact our sharing and caring here.

When and as I see myself resisting to share and or care, I stop and breathe, I dare myself to share and care....I see, realize and understand the practicality of living caring and sharing as a principle embodiment of who/how/why I am here. I commit myself to practically living the principle of caring is sharing from and as the starting point of what is best for all Life.

When and as I see myself thinking about justification....I stop and breathe,...i see, realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of justification.

I commit myself to stop participation within and as the manufacturing of justification/bullshit.

I commit myself to self-willed determination as what is best for Myself as the presentation of All Life Here.

I commit myself to the physical embodiment of the words, "Integrity" , "Responsibility", "Spirit", "Strength", "Honor", "Courage", "Bravery", "Commitment", "Will", "Determination", "Creativity", "Here", "Home", "Play", "Work", "Extraordinary", "Performance" , "Sharing", "Care" , "Love", "Self:". "Trust", "Word"

I commit myself to practically living the physical integration of words as the practical living realization that I am the Living Words.

I commit myself to breathing Life into Words as the sounds I make as I speak the talk of my walk.

I commit myself to sharing my sounds as practical living words of support and assistance as what is best for all Life here.

Day 646 Response I Bill it Why

"You Get What You Pay For"....Responsibility

"You Cannot Get What You are Not Willing to Pay/Give For"........Responsibility

"You Got what You Give"...."What You Give is What You Live"...Responsibility

Responsibility...."We Got It to Give"

Responsibility..."It's Ours for the Taking"

Responsibility...."It's a Decision"

"The Epitome of Creation"....Responsibility

"If You don't get what You pay for...there was a Breach in Responsibility"

Responsibility..."The Ability to Care"

Responsibility..."Response Ability"

"Our Ability to Respond"...Responsibility

"With Great Power comes Great Responsibility"


So, "RESPONSIBILITY" Is Awesome!

I Implore You to take on More Responsibility!



Responsibility is Life



Self-Responsibility....."A Give and Take Relationship"

Self-Responsibility...."What's best for all Life"



Responsibility is Everything



Live Responsibility



Responsibility...."The Secret to Life"

Day 637 Tree Planting Introduction and Chapter 1

OK, So, I am here in Vanderhoof British Colombia at the moment in a motel apartment.  I am tree planting for the next three months. Staying in a motel apartment while tree planting is considered luxurious accommodations. Most people who go tree planting stay in a bush camp somewhere in the middle of nowhere...meaning when you get home from work...you got to your tent...camping...camping sounds cool when you doing it in the middle of somewhere or when it is somewhat short lived as like a little vacation....but, when it is snowing off and on the first couple of weeks of the season...camping loses some of it's appeal...not to mention the shower setup in a bush camp...where maybe the first dozen...if that...get a warm shower...from the make shift shower trailer...and then everyone else is stuck with cold water...or just neglect the shower point all together because it's cold outside at night..and you just are soooooo tired that you cant be bothered. Oh ya, I mentioned I am in motel apartment...this is somewhat of a dream tree planting contract...the kind of contract...I heard rumors about in my earlier seasons...that just seemed almost too good to be true.

It's been said before that your body goes through a sort of metamorphosis in the beginning of a tree planting season...as a result of the fact that you will be repetitively using all sorts of muscles that you would otherwise not ever really exert to the extent that you do while tree planting all day.

I believe it was in the late 1950's in Canada, There was a, I believe a Supreme Court ruling that stated tree planting was cruel and unusual punishment for prisoners...(I will verify the facts here if I decide to publish...a book deal about tree planting...)

This is my tenth year tree planting.

I tree plant for the money.

What's funny about after finishing a tree planting season is that you feel fantastic...like strong as ever...beaming with a sense of accomplishment as a result of persevering through the various weather elements and encountering everything nature has to offer...pushing and expanding your physical body limits...socializing with all sorts of people...sharing the tree planting experience....OK, so this isn't the funny part....what's funny about all these things...is that..after having faced adversity so to speak...lol...I am calling tree planting adversity...and...OK..so after you walk/move through tree planting/adversity...you kind of want to do it again...well I have...and I have seen many others experience this very same tendency...I have seen people absolutely commit to finishing the season and then being like that's it that's all, declaring that they will never do it again...only to come around...and and by the end of the season kind of wanting to do it again...

The interesting thing about tree planting is that it really illustrates lots of life lessons:

Some of the lessons include:

Self-discipline

Self-determination

Self-Worth

Self-trust

Self-honesty

Self-forgiveness

Time-management

Master of Efficiency

Master of Emotions

How to Co-exist with others

Self-Confidence

Sharing Words of Support

Laughter

Story telling

Being Silly

There are so many life lessons that I have garnered as a result of tree planting...I am making note here as a a way to stimulate/instigate my memory and also give you an idea of the kind of support I have garnered from the work that I have done and am doing...Also...and this is a big Also...because here, the main point of my sharing here is to illustrate the point and fact that it is within whatever you participate within on a daily basis for some consecutive time that you are able to garner such assistance and support and life lessons if you will...I mean class is in session everyday we are here within the lesson that is always referred to as "Today"

OK, let me tell you what's going on with me at the moment:

"I am sore as fuck"

"I am experiencing new muscle soreness that I have not previously experience before"

I just finished my second day of tree planting...I forced myself to make a note of writing a sharing here as what is going...I took a little cat nap before I began this sharing here because my hands and fingers were too sore/tired earlier to type...I gotta get going soon to bed here...well I am in bed...but I know my body needs as much time as possible to rest as I very strained/sore all over the place.

Oh ya, it snowed out today. I was working for about 10 hours outside today. The temperature was kind of warm for snowy weather...I was actually quite pleased that it was snowing and not raining because...the snow was melting pretty immediately...and it being cold enough for snow...seemed to me that I would get less wet from the snow...than I would have been getting had it been a few degrees warmer and a very cold rain...fascinating what a difference a few degrees makes...nature really exemplifies this point well...the minute difference make all the difference.....as like it is an accumulation of all the minutes that make the day..its funny how I say "mi-nute"..and minute..yet I initially spell them the same way...

So, I did not want to go to work today at all...when I woke up this morning new body parts were sore that weren't sore when I went to bed. I had all the excuses/reasons/justifications lined up as to validate myself in not requiring to show up for day 2 of tree planting.

My girlfriend insisted on turning the lights on this morning before I was ready to get up. That kind of pissed me off.

I am sharing a place with my girlfriend and another dude...living quarters are a little tired.

My girlfriend is mildly annoyed with me at the moment as I type here in bed...understandably so,,its 1030 pm and we gotta be in the truck ready to go at 645am..and she is sore as fuck and tired as fuck...

Patience is key, especially in tree planting environment...not taking offense to any body;s emotions...because oh did they happen from time to time...it;s like...well...you know what it;s like when you or somebody you know gets all fired up about something.

So, while I was working today, I recalled how a good buddy of mine, his dad mentioned that we should write a book about our tree planting adventures/stories...something or other along those lines...and ya...that's a great idea....so my plan here is to write every day for the next 90 days or so as however long the tree planting season ends up going...

SO, i took some video footage in camp a few years ago...well maybe a few years ago...plus a another one or so...anyways I wanted to put a tree planting reality show together...so I had so much interviews done with people...also so much camp lifestyle and culture footage...it was a bush camp that I was in...pretty big camp...some wild parties...some time off in the city in between contracts...young and old people...all sorts of shenanigans...

Someone I was in contact with earlier this year was seemingly real close to aligning with a tv production company to make the reality show happen...don't know what happened...I was waiting to receive my contract in the mail actually...because apparently deals had been mad...and ya...I was picked to be one of the "characters profiled in the show"...it was joked about in all seriousness that doing this show...would get me my own action figurines in walmarts across north america...and that it would make it a lot easier for me to book stand up comedy gigs..

Anyways this was more of an opening of things up introduction than a chapter one...though I will stick with my title heading for now...

And stay tuned for more story development and insightful sharing/caring/laughter/intrigue...and so much more...

Oh, ya before I say good night...allow me to say "welcome" and "your welcome" as I bring you inside the world of tree planting without actually having to go through the experiences yourself...yet hopefully I will give you much support in the process here for you to employ in your own persona daily doings...as you know...well maybe you don't know yet...but everything in life is a lot like tree planting...there i said it...and I'm sure I'll say it again...anywho...tonight I bid you adieu.

Day 542 Planet Time Share

If you look at earth as Everyone's home here....we have a great big Time Share. Like everyone here existing within and as a Time Sharing. Like how things are done are within physical space and Time. Now the question is...why is it that our time is not talked about? Like why is it that most unfortunate times are allowed to exist? I mean were all here together making up the rules and regulations for our Planet Time Share. It seems so obvious that it is our due diligence and personal self-responsibility to make sure we are effective with our Time Sharing. Obviously there is much improvement required with regards to our Time Sharing. If you look at and regard Life, the purpose is obviously about providing the greatest service....as that which is best for Life. Life service....at Your Service...how can I help You...You help and I help You...and together we exist in agreement of Life assistance and support. How Awesome is this? This is the most awesomeness...the realization and understanding of Life Service Assistance and Support. Isn't this what the self-responsibility of a Creator is. To Create that which is Great?

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for abdicating myself responsibility here as my due diligence to provide the best Life support and assistance I am capable of.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the concept of Planet Time Share.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to become separated and confused within space and Time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing my ability to give as I would like to receive in every moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for suppressing my giving capabilities.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for separating giving and receiving.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing a disconnect to exist within giving and receiving.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the importance and dependency required for what is best for all Life on and in Planet Time Share.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding my real estate of being on and in Planet Time Share within every moment of myself Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for suppressing and neglecting my real estate self-responsibilities here as the living maintenance assistance and support required for providing the best Life services Possible.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding all inhabitants of Our Planet Time Share. I realize and understand the interconnectedness of all inhabitants of Planet Time Share.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting caught in thought webs of confusion as manifested cognitive dissonance on and in planet time share.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for misplacing myself trust, self-confidence, self-integrity, self-honesty, self-esteem, self-regard, self-love,......I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for misplacing physical dimensions of myself here. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for forgetting about the totality of myself. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for misplacing myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for avoiding the questions required answering as to enabling myself to see and realize the totality of myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being impatient with the labor required to physically create that which is great on and in and throughout Planet Time Share.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating that which is less than great on Planet Time Share here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for planting seeds/words that are less than what is the best support and sustenance.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for planting/speaking words without sustenance/substance.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself causing havoc to our Planet Time Share.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting my capabilities as a care take and custodian of Our Planet Time Share. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for abdicating my self-responsibilities as a care taking custodian and guardian of our Planet Time Share.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to justify and perpetuate moments of greed on our Planet Time Share. 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing moments of weakness to exist within Our Planet Time Share.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to choose to be influenced by weakness of character personalities on and in and throughout Our Planet Time Share.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for choosing in moments to neglect giving myself the strength of Character to stand unconditionally as constant consistent unwavering physical stability as the Best Life Support and Assistance Always.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having dismissed and disregarded myself as One and Equal within and without Our Planet Time Share.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to question the greatness potential of myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not fully equalizing myself within greatness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing the self-responsibility that comes with and as greatness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to disservice myself as Life through fearing to exist within and as the responsibilities that come with and as the embodiment of greatness...as that being that which is always Best for All Life....as like the living realization of Equality and Oneness.

I commit myself to greatness.

I commit myself to questioning greatness.

I commit myself to returning to the great nest where all things great are born.

I commit myself to birthing myself as Life Living Greatness...as the realization and understanding of the magnificent perfection of Equality and Oneness.

I commit myself to removing all fear as the temporary road blocks to servicing and enabling greatness.

I commit myself to Planet Time Share as that which is always the best planet time sharing.

I commit myself to Life Giving Greatness.

I commit myself to turning weakness into strength.

When and as I see myself resisting to share my time in ways that are best for Life, I stop and breathe, I realize my practical living self-responsibility in caring to share. I direct myself to share that which I resist sharing. I commit myself to sharing. 

When and as I see myself speaking from a point of superiority/inferiority, I stop and breathe and I realize and understand the self-responsibility within planting/speaking words from and as the starting point of equality and oneness. I direct myself to speaking from within and as the starting point of oneness and equality.

Day 541 Christmas Elite

In my last post a few points came to surface where I see that I have had the attitude of a super elitist. I made point of things like"I don't want to be vacationing when everyone else is vacationing"...thinking about over crowding within doing activities like skiing or snowboarding for example. Looking further into the point I questioned the point...and see the fun in sharing holidays with lots of other people...well basically sharing time in general with lots of others is cool...it doesn't have to be holidays/vacation...just sharing time together is cool. The point comes up like attention, attention this is the situation here on earth,,,All Life Time is shared here together. I mean WOW. We are all sharing this lifetime here on earth together.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the significance of sharing a Life Time with All Life Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding the fact that all Life Time is shared.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting to share my Life Time in Service of what is Best for all Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the interconnectedness of Life Time here on Earth.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be selfish with my time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking and believing that my time is separate from your time and that this is no real interconnectedness within all our Life Time here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being reluctant to share my Life Time here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for treating my Life Time as like mine and deliberately focusing on my self-interests with my time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding my Life Time responsibilities.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for harboring a super elitist attitude of believing I deserve more free time than others and that I should just be grateful and happy that I have more free time than others within our shared reality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging how people spend their Life Time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being angry at how I have spent my Life Time thus far.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging my Life Time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being ashamed of my Life Time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for hiding from the shame in my Life Time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not wanting to face the Shame within my Life Time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding that if I do not face every point of shame within my Life Time then I cannot in fact change for real in this Life Time.

I commit myself to face the shame in my Life Time.
I commit myself to change for Real in this Life Time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that time is mine within and as my mind.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to work overtime to make the changes required for what is best for all Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for abusing time within focusing and desiring participation within self-interested pursuits.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for desiring to keep attention upon self interested pursuits of happiness and at the same time hope and wish that the labor required to manifest heaven on earth can just be magically done/completed like some sort of instant gratification.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how when I blame the super elite for not doing enough I am really blaming myself for not doing enough to make myself in and as the world a better place.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to do less than enough to make myself and the world that which is best for all Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself as less than what is best for all Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking of myself as better than the best.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be in conflict/friction with what is best for all Life Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the shame within deflecting responsibility and accountability for what is best for all Life here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for half assing Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for beating myself up within facing the brutality I have accepted and allowed.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for brutally abusing Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for wanting to think that I played no role in contributing to the brutal abuse here on Earth.

When and as I see myself disregarding the preciousness of time, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand that every moment of time counts within the accumulation of moments of time to see what is accepted and allowed within time. I realize the practicality in living the principle of what is best for all Life. I realize my self-responsibility in committing this Life Time to what is Best for All Life Time.

When and as I see myself blaming the super elite, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand this is the point of superiority I have accepted and allowed to exist within my ego frame of mind. I commit myself to stop suppressing my ability to see with real eyes what is here as Life.  I commit myself to dedicating my Life Time to what is best for all Life.

I commit myself to Life.

When and as I see myself resisting to work overtime for what is best for all Life, I stop and breathe, I commit myself to working overtime as what is best for all Life. I commit myself to working in service of what is best for all Life.

I commit myself to servicing Life assistance and support.

I commit myself to stop distracting myself from servicing Life assistance and support.

I commit myself to accepting and allowing myself to exist as what is best for all Life.

I commit myself to doing what is best for all Life.

When and as I see myself focusing my attention upon self interested activities, I stop and breathe, I make sure I am not distracting myself from any point of practical living assistance and support. I commit myself to aligning myself in and as the interests of what is best for all Life. I commit myself to stop separating myself from the best interests of all Life Here.

Day 509 Branding and Marketing Part 2

Continuing from my previous post entitled Branding and Marketing.


"Looking within myself with regards to the words branding and marketing I see how I have accepted and allowed some negative energy connotations with regards to these words as how they work in the the world system. Within this, I didn't regard or understand how I was taking a stance within these words and how my stance/position within these words has created a friction within myself about specifically branding and marketing myself." 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating negative energy connotations about the words "branding" and "marketing".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating a positive/negative relationship to the words "branding" and "marking".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how my relationship with words contributes to the functionality of the world system.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have been branding and marketing my acceptances and allowances.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing "branding" and "marketing" to be separate from me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how the words "branding" and "marketing" exists within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting to realize and understand the internal/external relationship of words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting to see how the words exist within myself and focusing on how the words exist outside of myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that it is easier to look outside of myself than it is to look inside myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for forming the habitat of seeing outside of myself all the time and only sometimes looking within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having friction within myself about how to market and brand myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing bad branding and bad marketing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for desiring good branding and good marketing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to stand as good branding and and good marketing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to divide myself within various brands of goodness and badness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have energetic reactions to branding and or marketing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for making judgement as forms of energetic opinions about marketing and branding.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking about branding and marketing in terms of like an ego competition, as like who wins the competition of of judgement as being more valuable.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to disregard all life here within and as ego based competitions of judgement.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire to win ego based competitions of judgment...like being the winning brand that can be successfully marketed.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to be the losing brand that cannot be successfully marketed.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being concerned about branding and marketing from and as the perspective of fear for survival.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging myself for placing importance within branding and marketing as a point of fear for survival.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking it is valid to neglect the fear for survival.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have conflicting fears of survival within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing for the survival of my ego....and I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for compromising the physical fear for survival of my physical body here within fearing for the survival of my ego.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to lose my ego.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to lose my physical body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting to really care for my physical body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for branding and marketing fear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for branding and marketing irrational fear as emotions and feelings.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding that the role of fear within branding and marketing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for connecting fear to sex within branding and marketing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which I have conditioned branding and marketing to exist within myself as being primarily about sex and fear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for connecting money, making money to branding and marketing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for correlating money, sex, and fear to be primarily related within myself with regards to the words branding and marketing.



To be continued