Day 795 - I Manipulate with Justification

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to manipulate myself in my world through Justification where I am existing in and as a sort of Ignorance of my living of and as the word JUSTIFICATION.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to self-sabotage myself and my participation within my world within and as the execution of JUSTIFICATION to make sense of my accepted and allowed abdications of my best potential living here as Life made manifest as the realization of myself as All as One as Equal.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand how I create JUSTIFICATION as a form of Defense and Offense I administer regularly to aggressively hold myself within a state of Suppression. I realize this shows to me how deceptive I am, because within this I play dumb as a point of Inferiority, pretending I do not know what I am really doing to myself and others as I use and abuse my words specifically for a sort of reactionary play out of the truth of myself acceptances and allowances.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to resist slowing down within and as Vulnerability and Patience to investigate the usage of my words to be sure that I am standing clear in and as the meaning and the specificity of my share.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be so careless within and as JUSTIFICATION.


I realize the shame within and as the way I have lived Justification.


I realize the travesty of my living and understanding of how to best express Justification.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to Weaponize Justification within myself where it's always been used from the starting point of me existing here on the field of battle, playing out my inner conflict and superimposing my suppression/depression onto the world as how I manipulate myself and others into the point of Inferiority.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand the fear within and as my usage of Justification, where it has been my accepted and allowed, Inferiority and Inadequacy in me that has kept me Justifying....where I created this Need within myself to Explain my Reactions as my actions, to Justify my self-righteousness as someone who is ok, or even better than ok, someone who is good and is even in fact admirable.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to superimpose deceit within my structuring of words.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand the origins of the trauma from my childhood as the source memories of myself physically integrating/learning how to Defend and Attack myself with Justification.



I commit myself to exposing the ridiculousness of Justification used from the starting point of making sense and rationalizing the explanations of failure without being asked and or questioned about such things.



I commit myself to question myself and others in and as the usage of Justification.


I commit myself to show how Justification is an effective tool in and as Manipulation.


I commit myself to use Justification as a tool of self-support in questioning my acceptances and allowances....and to from here be Vulnerable and Intimate with myself in going deep into the discomfort within and as my body...and from here, access the memories of my past where i accepted and allowed suppression as a result of not realizing nor investigating the specificity of my reactions.

Day 794 - FaceOff "JUSTIFICATION"

I've been facing the characters of myself as how I have conditioned myself to respond in a plethora of scenarios.  What's interesting to see is myself as the array of characters and also to within various forms of interactions/engagements where sometimes i have a particular resistance towards a certain type of character and it's like i want to move on and away from that character as quickly as possible because I see something in them that I don't like.

Lets look at this point of seeing something in another person that i don't like.

The things i see in other people at times are ugly, undesirable, awkward, overcompensation, fake, fucked, bullshit, superiority, inferiority, volatile, scripted, Routine, justification and excuses.

These are all points of myself that i am working through.

for practical purposes here: I am going to take one word:

JUSTIFICATION


I've been getting so angry when reading and speaking with others and Justification comes up.  Like this up sets me very much. The irony of this is it is showing a deeply embedded point within me.

What I have noticed about myself within and as my day to day living as JUSTIFICATION, is that it has been a point of self-suppression, a form of accepted and allowed defense system that I use as a form of Offense and Attack on myself that is projected outward onto others to compensate with a form of suppression/depression existent within myself.

Let me further clarify:

Justification has been used by me as a sort of Self-narration to Explain myself to others my Point of View as in why I am Right within my Living as the decisions I am making and have made.  Justification is the Excuses I create as the ways to validate Inferiority within myself as Accepting less than my Best Potential.

I've been using Justification as a form of aggressive Offense where I would instantly go into an automated reactionary response where I experience the urgency to Explain myself and my actions to others.  Fucked up in a lot of ways, because what this reveals upon further investigation is how I am manipulating myself in participation through others.  Meaning, I use my participations with others to validate my behavior and pattern where i superimpose a sort of Validating and Accepting response/reaction in others the way i position my sharing of information as JUSTIFICATION.

SEE:

Justification has been my way to say, " Just If I see a Tie On".  Meaning also: Just if  I/Me/You can see the connection I am making here and accept it as the terms of the Contract I am presenting here as my word scheme as my Pyramid layered self-deception.

Vulnerability has been a support word for me in going deeper into investigating JUSTIFICATION within myself.

Vulnerability is cool because I within and as Vulnerability I am strong in standing in and as Weakness.  I move past my dissonance and stand as the point of accounting for my acceptances and allowances that are not cool.

The experiences I encounter within and as my vulnerability are very challenging at times as there is often a certain amount of intensity that comes up and that has manifested in a myriad of ways in my body in various moments...and so I've made a sort of game and challenge for myself in being my own DETECTIVE in making a play and work of Identifying the Specifics of the experience that surfaces and comes up within myself.  What is very fascinating about this detective process of self-investigation for me is that my behavior and patterns are Learned over time, Layered within and as Specific Memories of past acceptances and allowances. So much fun and excitement in a way of creating the path of self-discovery with going into the seemingly Unknown of myself.  Unknown from the point of not realizing and understanding how exactly i self-sabotaged, self-suppressed myself in the first place!

This process of self-exploration as taking on the staring point responsibility here as an Existential Detective has been a journey and an adventure for each and everyone.  My ability to relate and share and teach and learn has improved immensely.  The quality of my life is a continued improvement because I Keep letting go of baggage that is unnecessary to hold onto as impressions of suppression as the points and moments in memory as Not Understanding and Realizing myself here as Life, One and Equal.

I enjoy learning so much.

I encourage each and everyone to dare to go deep within and as your participation's with others and the activities you participate within alone...and really see what you think about others and the activities you participate within ,,,and really get to know your weaknesses, you know, The Justifications.....the Just if I see a Tie On.

Remember:

Justification in and of itself can be a cool tool to see where we work to create explanation in our actions...and actually understanding the nature of justification as why we are wanting to manipulate our information in a particular way.

Do we see how Manipulation is Complimentary in action to Justification?

Day 782 - Learning - Relationship Awareness

 



Some cool Insights here:

It is possible to get tremendous insight from someone who is not well versed in the technical mechanics and advanced vocabulary of a subject you are well versed and studied within. Here exists a tremendous opportunity that is often over looked, in favor or 'professional' opinion.   See, everyone has a natural learning ability and has the grounding basis of common sense reasoning with them.  You know, the point of "keep it simple".

I had a first hand experience with opening up and regarding the input of others who i may have previously disregarded because they didn't fit the 'pro' status and necessary accreditation i've been conditioned and accustomed to seeking out as a point of Authority to validate and reason about a sense of clarity within myself.   Ironically, the waters within myself as the information about the particulars of a point often become more muddied within seeking out the info from the 'pro'.

Note: my example i am going into here, is in specific relationship to golf....however it can be reflected and regarded in many different relationships and activities. Note, I am not dismissing the practical support in seeking a professionals opinion in whatever field you are investigating.  I am moreover, bringing awareness to the 'flip side' of the same coin....the support of the 'amateur'.

So for instance, with Golf as an example here:  It is a common thing to get one's own swing rather discombobulated within the process of "trying/wanting to fix it".  The irony and kicker here is of course, not realizing and understanding the mechanics of one's patterned conditioned behavior. The awareness of one's movement. Meaning, the input and the output.  When I accept and allow myself to do this, the resulting outflow is this. When you understand how to do something, you can also, equally understand how to do something else.  However it can be extremely frustrating, and massively irritating when You do not take the time to understand what you are doing (accepting and allowing)....but at the same time you have defined it as a problem/bad/wrong....and you want to fix/correct it.  See, how can you correct something that you don't know what it is? Funny isn't it?  Here we have the frame work into structuring our plans/goals/wants/desires. The Creation recipe book in a way. 

See, it's within and as our understanding of what we got/have that we are able to create new complimentary additions for ourselves and others here. The Fine tuning of our movements/relationships here, enables us to work and play with the development of our best results.  It's like a a regard for stretching into our potential.  See, improvement is made with regard for little movements. The awareness here for both the big and the small.  The big movement is a result of many small points in motion. Take walking as an example.  It's something we can easily do. We learned it through playing/working on it, and balancing ourselves out within the process, where we had to become aware of all of our stabilizing points....you know, our equilibrium. "Our Feels"...the physical feels of our physical movements here.


To Be Continued

Day 763 - What Moves You?

 


Have you ever noticed a pull or a push inside yourself towards or away from something....like a motivation or a lack of motivation to move/participate within something? Like for instance; to get up off the couch and clean the dishes....or getting out of bed and getting going.....or joining in for an activity you've been invited to participate within.

Have you ever noticed that you can actually take a moment and look at the pull/push that exists within you towards or away from participation within a particular point.....This Looking is a Real time Living in the Moment Look....And, within this seeing Here, there exists an opportunity to step out of the polarity flip flop of push/pull energetic definition.  How does this opportunity exist? The first step is in identifying, being honest about the push/pulll bias that exists....and then from here, deliberately challenging oneself to in the moment go beyond the barrier/control of the push/pull resistance that has been created in one's own mind as the programming definition.  It's interesting, because is like a point of swimming, because you are moving into new waters so to speak....it's funny because the water has always been here....and you've always had access to this area of swimming....yet due to the self imposed restraints....self has had restricted access and an accepted and allowed inability to actually express that response and ability and navigate through that space in time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I self-censor my response abilities to express myself and to create a world that is best for all life.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding that every time i submit myself into an accepted and allowed self-submission, as a real self-suppression....by resisting to stand out and direct myself out of being pulled or pushed into or out of something as like a sort of accepted and allowed fight and conflict within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being very very defensive about getting involved within things and participating within things that i am being asked to join in, and take part within.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing how defensive i can be within my mind of thoughts/feelings/emotions, and how so much so this has hindered my ability to really listen, look, and hear what is here....because of the accepted and allowed Fear/Defensiveness nature of my accepting and allowed mind conditioning.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for tricking myself into my own self-victimization through a sort of buying into the belief of and as my very own justified self-righteous indignation that i have professed to myself as gospel as the making sense of the push/pull experience i find myself in.....and within this...I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not really even making sense of myself within my experiences...but rather contain myself in a sort of self-censorship bubble of my very own comfort zone.

I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of fearing to face my own discomfort.

I realize and understand how I have conditioned myself through my mind to self-censor my potential by defining my comfort zone within the spectrum of fear energy knowing control.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to lose control...I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how out of control this world/my life is within and as a result of being influenced to move only be a polarity friction.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing that this very movement is a grand statement of accepted and allowed suppression...lack of understanding.....fear.....self-victimization......mind control.

I commit myself to examining/investigating my self-defined boundaries as like the basis of my self-created bubble shield from all of existence here.

I commit myself to equalizing myself with all Life here.  I commit myself to removing the the conflict from myself as the walls/boundaries i have created as my defense system.

I commit myself to challenge and engage others to break through their self-created bubbles.

I commit myself to the process of self-movement.
I realize myself movement to by like an ongoing stretching of sorts as like it is challenging at times to push myself through my own stiffness/stubbornness/rigidness....and it;s actually like a labored stretch to move beyond the boundary i created myself to be stuck within....so the stretching i see is like a sort of climbing for myself....climbing up and out of self-created suppression/depression in various ways.

I realize this climbing within myself here as like the stretching movement, is so much so a self-direction in the moment....because i notice my body is always telling me where i am sort of out of alignment/strained within myself...and so the stretching movement...and directing myself into participating in different actions in my world, is like a sort of ironing out the kinks/dissonance within myself, as like the making and unfolding of actual potential here.  I commit myself to work/play with the process here of self-movement/self-direction.

Day 752 - Consistency and Moderation

Moderation:  Is the process of eliminating or lessening extremes. It is used to to ensure normality throughout the medium on which it is being conducted.

Being within reasonable limits; not excessive or extreme

The state or an instance of being moderate; mildness; balance

The act of moderating

The quality of being moderate; restraint; temperance

Ensuring consistency and accuracy in the marking of student assessments.

A way of life emphasizing perfect amounts of Everything, not indulging too much in one thing, hence moderation.



Consistency: A degree of density, firmness, viscosity, etc...

Steadfast adherence to the same principles, form, course, etc...

Agreement, Harmony, or Compatibility. especially Correspondence or Uniformity of the parts of a complex thing.

The condition of Cohering or holding together and retaining form; solidity or firmness

Agreement or accordance with facts, form, or characteristics previously shown or stated.




To be Continued as I showcase the complimentary practical living support existent within and as Consistency and Moderation.

Stay tuned

Day 750 - Is Share A Dare?

The Dare to Share....
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The Dare to Care.....



Truth or Dare?





Why would I say such things?



Well, let me tell You!





I have noticed that sharing what I have to share has been a definite dare of sorts at times....because what I have noticed is that there exists Fear at times to actually really Share what it is I would like to Share.





This fear comes up in various dimensions at different times that is presented as particular feelings and or emotions about things...and these particular feelings and emotions towards or away from a point...dictate the decision making process to varying degrees.


Now this is fascinating isn't it?





I mean, See for yourself if you have any "conditioned" responses within yourself. Dare I call these "conditioned responses". programmed reactions?  Which is interesting...because a "programmed reaction" is a particular code one has substantiated over time...with specific consent...whether that was done actively or passively is irrelevant because the code is the code.





So, The Dare Here, is in challenging your programmed conditioning....because these "programmed reactions" as the Truth of one's acceptances and allowances here have been educated into and as our Being, here in always.....so it is rooted into our core.





Now, what is very cool to see here, is how solutions exist to such an issue...because like anything that is rooted...the potential exists to up root such a point when and as one gets to the roots. Now, that might seem like a daunting task of sorts....But actually, No, it's not....because it's already Knotted here in and as the point...the main points within ourselves here. So, We already Got it! The point here is a simple matter of looking at what we Got.





"The Point Here is a Simple Matter of Looking at what We Got"





In any moment, the point here is asking yourself, "What Do We Got Here?"





The interesting thing about such a Specific Question, is that, "We Got Here to the Very Point in and as the Asking of the Question". This showcases and illustrates how it is possible to learn in every moment here and see new dimensions/perspectives of something here. This is in fact possible because We Source ourselves here as the very Question, Standing One and Equal with the Answer and also the Solution.




 Interesting forward movement and creation development is possible within asking 'Follow Up' Questions from a point of specificity into the initial matter. This aids in and as the expansive development of Response Abilities...as the avenues/paths/ways in which One can Move oneself here as the Self-Directed Expression....the Manifested Self-Willed and Realized Solution as the King of the Quest from and as the Perspective of taking Initiative to Source Self Here as the Authority in the Matter As King....See, as King, One has the rule to Make the Ruling Here...and the best rules are one's that are Just....and so Asking the Right Questions is Imperative into as as such Justice. Ironically the Justice is Cool when and as One accepts and allows Oneself to Rule!





Yes you can say, that you have an "edge"....like an advantage in Movement and Results of Actions Here....as the House always Rules....the House Advantage if You Will...and As King, You Dictate the terms within and as Your Self Definition....the Irony here of course is Seeing how we are currently sentenced to the Service of Our Own Self-definitions Here.





The Sentencing if You Dare to Look is most Profound.  Dare I say the truth of our sentencing is ironically tragic in the most comedic sense of the ways to play and work here?


Dare I say, Our Words are most Specific in Always Here.  Whether we realize the weather we create or not...


Weather Influence and Modification Stems from our very Roots.



Is it Possible the very essence of Planet Earth is a Seed of Potential that is a reflection of our True Heart...the Pulse and Beat as the Flow of our Going,...the very Doing as that in which we are in Fact or are Not Living....


The Caring here is Planting in What we want to Grow...as the Creation point of focused self-willed direction....the Creative play of Planting and the Plans within Making the best things Happen.



Ironically enough....the whole Plant point of the Heart of Matters here, starts with Ourselves as the very cells that make up our Selling as what we have bought and sold ourselves as our particular beliefs. The interesting thing here is the Questions that come up.





The Questions take One from from Believing in possibilities to Knowing the specifics of  Possibilities...to fine tuning the Best Possibilities....to Living as the Loving Work and Play Response Abilities as the Most Responsible Way to Live/Love Here as the Visible action and example of Sharing and Caring.


Be careful what you believe...because a belief in a lot of ways is like a Wish and you might just get what you Wish for.....

Day 746 - Supple Play Works

Take a Moment to work and play Here with Supple:

"Supple" is the ease of movement which is Graceful. Bending and Flexibility.

When you Look at Supple...there is a sort of Supply to It.,,Isn't there? Like if you are not supple than you're ability to apply responsibility is rather limited, isn't it

What about the supplement within and as supple...or rather the Supple within and as Supplement?

With these regards and considerations is it Seen that the ease of movement which is graceful is a rather complimentary act...and self-responsibility if you will....a sort of glad to be of service approach....whether the service is self-service or other as the service of another self-here....in this regard....Isn't the service of self always all ways to be regarded here?  I mean, really who else is Here, other than Self? All of ourselves here.....all of our cells here....all the individualized parts of self here.

Supplement like the add in point...the play in the move as the natural way not such a forcefulness but more of a grace.

There is a tremendous amount of effort within and as Supple quickness...It is very focused and specific...and so there is a grace about the movement and motions...however, excellency within and as such supple quickness in application is a result of Practiced Efforts...and so the powerful practice efforts appear to be effortless as the grace about them...but the truth of the matter is....is much work goes into that which is seen as easy....like walking for instance....all of us who can walk now, spent a long while practicing it before we perfected it...and there was a constant and consistent everyday effort that went into the mastery of walking....

I commit myself to the utilizing the words Supple and Quickness as process points of support and assistance in aiding in my development and substantiation of response abilities that are great.

Day 732 - Movie Review SubUrbia

A really good movie for young people to watch. It really encourages the point of self-reflection into what one is doing with their life. What kind of potential oneself has...and how if we don't really challenge ourselves to move then we will just go through the movement moments of emotion and remain stuck in the same dead end until we die.

The movie showcased different character dynamics amongst young people and also the fact that immigrants to the western world are the ones often getting their shit together...working hard so that they can make something more for themselves....it shows the point of apathy rather well...also the point of openness and how an open attitude can yield opportunity and potential development for oneself...regardless of where one it is at currently...it's like there is always room for improvement and when one is open and willing to improve their position and status and positioning in life...well the opportunity might just open itself up externally as a reflection of the internal attitude. Also showcases rather well the point of self-victimization and the destruction within self-talk as like kicking one's own ass within one's emotional disposition.

The movie is also an eye opener into self-responsibility...i would say this because it showcases the attitude of despair as kind of like bumbling along and not really having a high regard for oneself as a consequence really of being somewhat of a scatter brain from the perspective of thinking about so much stuff outside the scope of oneself here...and really if the starting point isn't first the regard and consideration for oneself...than the regards and consideration for others is futile...because really it's at your own expense and it is thought of as a like a distraction and a sort of preoccupation to avoid actually taking responsibility and directing the main problem which is oneself and the fact that one isn't really doing anything for themselves to their betterment and therefore is also in fact a detriment to everyone else because if one doesn't take regard and consider oneself to the highest degree...the likely hood of being able to give and contribute effectively to the lives of others is very much suppressed...so much so that the individual may in fact be a drain on the lives of others as a result of their own self inflicted abuse. 

This movie kind of reflects into the psyche of a young adult and really is a point of recognition towards the self-reflection in asking the question "do I have my shit together"...what am I doing for myself....what am I making for myself....what purpose am I giving to my life?  These questions I am learning are critical  in the development of oneself here and also within having the ability to critically give responsibly here. Responsibility starts with self and that is something worth repeating...daily...from moment to moment...responsibility starts with self.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for wanting to wallow at the end of the movie at the harsh reality of the fact that it is up to self whether or not one gets self-honest with oneself and takes self-responsibility as the Director of One's Life here...and this is it...You got to put in the effort to yourself to really get the life You want...the Life You are worth...it's a point of and as our Potential Here....I mean this is something that is labored into ourselves....it's like we have to cultivate and develop our potential....Yes we have a natural ability within and as the expression of our potential....the reality is to effectively exercise and express that Potential of ours...we need to be self-honest in and as the self-evaluation of our acceptances and allowances here..as the way to maintain a clean body/mind relationship where just like we shit out the shit from the body...we take care to release the shit from our minds so as to make sure we keep farming the greatness which is in fact our true potential here....and keep growing developing new branches of our potential as the ways in which we allow ourself to connect and contribute to the lives of others so that they too can compliment in contribution to the lives of others...as like the epitome understanding and realization to how in fact it is possible for the Merry go Round to function as our shared play ground working together reality here.

When and as I see myself looking at a harsh truth as like a deep rooted acceptance and allowance within myself....I take a moment to really look at what it is I have been accepting and allowing that I had not previously been really acknowledging. I face the emotion that comes with seeing something that I had been avoiding to look at. I look at the emotion that is connected to what I have accepted and allowed. I realize the gratitude in gifting myself the privilege and patience to actually take the time to self-examine the extent of my accepted and allowed conditioning. I really face myself as it...I see myself clearly within and as the point...I realize myself as the potential expansion from and as this accepted and allowed limitation. I realize and understand how to move beyond such a mistake. I make the decision to stop accepting and allowing myself to be enveloped within such a character condition of suppression. I embrace the change I see possible.

I commit myself to the development and expansion of my Potential.

I commit myself to learning from self-evaluation.

I commit myself to creating a life for myself.

I commit myself to contributing to the lives of others.

I commit myself to the regard and consideration of self-responsibility being a daily repetition from moment to moment.

I commit myself to sharing my realizations of self-responsibility as the Merry go Round as as the gratitude and grateful attitude in and as our shared play ground working reality here...and within this realizing and understanding that this starts with myself regards here as the working play ground. 

I commit myself to taking care of my body and my mind and within this realizing and understanding the necessity in giving myself everything I need to cultivate the full development of my potential here.

I commit myself to branching out my potential.

I commit myself to opening up my mind to new opportunities to develop my potential and then later share my creations and supportive contributions to the lives of others.

I commit myself to making the most out of my Life here.

Day 729 - Self-Regard

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding what is in fact self-regard always all ways a point of practical living common sense.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to disregard self-regard in moments where I am faced with the intensity of an emotion or feeling in a moment as a movement within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to examine and investigate each and every single acceptance and allowance within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how the mind works as like a tool and gps system of sorts that is replaying to me that which I have accepted and allowed within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get caught up in my own disregard in moments.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to regard the recognition and realisation of self-regard being a point of best wishes and within and as the best wishes for myself here as the carefulness in and as what I wish for myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the significance of and as self-regard being a sound expression of myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding self-regard as that which I accept and allow for myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting moments of self-responsibility within and as self-regard. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the absurd ridiculousness of looking at thing and not responding to what I see in the best possible ways as the realization of and as the self-regard to live/express/exercise self-responsibility.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the self-responsibility within and as self-regard.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding my effectiveness in sharing self-regard is an indicator of and as my accepted and allowed self-regard as like a mirrored image of myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking offense and therefore getting stuck in moments of seeing the disregard I have accepted and allowed within myself

I realize and understand the ease of existing here within and as the standing commitment of self-regard as like the acceptance of myself as what;s best here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the self-honesty within and as self-regard as the practical living common sense principle.."what's best for all Life is best for me".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to create my best wishes as the knowing application of self-regard in and as my daily practical living.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having at times chosen to want to float along within and as a point of self-regard where there is no real regard present within and as the moment of myself here.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the absurd ridiculousness of choosing to hide from and as self-regard.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for avoiding the self-responsibility as self-regard.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to distract myself from and as the attention to myself-regard here as what is in fact best for all life, starting with myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get caught up hiding from self-regard when and as I accept and allow a point that I see and I am in fact able to direct as the knowing self-responsibility that would be best for all life here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the commitment required within and as what it really means to in fact live self-regard as a principle of and as the desteni of self here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the patience within and as self-regard.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the principle of self-regard here as a point of support and assistance here that exists beyond accepted and allowed survival mentality frame of mind where the thinking is limited within the box of suppression through fear...and the ability to play and express and create is thwarted as a result.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the Greatness of and as Self-Regard.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the comfort within and as self-regard.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the discomfort within and as self-regard.


To Be Continued

Day 719 - Information Automation and Integration

Information is Everything.  We are It. Tag.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating feelings and or emotions as reactions to seeing/reading particular bits of information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for categorizing information within myself within and as a spectrum of energy as like an aura/field that I artificially invested into as a sort of belief/idea/judgement that spawned out of my initial reactions within and as my first meeting/introduction to said bit of information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how much opportunity exists in every moment to face my acceptances and allowances as the particular energy dynamics I exist within as Information/Word relationships.  I realize and understand that I can specifically feel the energetic definitions within myself.  I realize and understand that as I participate in my day to day living my reactions to and from particular points of information is automated as like the why or why not of point's of attraction....like/dislike...energy feedback,

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging the energy feedback I experience within myself as I am discovering parts of myself that I wasn't really aware of what and how I was existing within and as the point. I realize vulnerability is required in opening self up to see what one has kept hidden from awareness.

I forgive myself forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to resist slowing myself down at times when the potential exists for me to go into deeper investigations within myself and garner new insight and awareness about what I have been accepting and allowing within and as mind.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the process from consciousness to awareness is not a sometimes things, but is in fact here always in and as all ways.

I realize that by listening to my voice in each moment of participation I can hear exactly what it is I am accepting and allowing within myself as I speak each word...and that the sound is specifically structured as a direct point of feedback which indicates any particular energetic energies/mind possessions.

I realize that my body movements are indicators of the acceptances and allowances within myself and that specifically the unconscious body movement in relation to participating with others in my environment are very revealing into and as the nature of my acceptances and allowance.  I realize there is so much communication support available here to read.  I realize the support within reading the information existent here as various dynamics of physical body support. I realize and understand that information also exists here as like the energy body....where it's like from the body this energy has been manufactured as particular resonances that are rooted in the pain/conflict/abuse/friction/trauma of not realizing and understanding oneself here as One and Equal with Everything.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the absurd ridiculousness of trying to hide and or distract myself from specific acceptances and allowances that I know I can investigate/explore more and that will lead to new found awareness within myself that I have been resisting to be/become/exercise/express/live as part of my individual response abilities here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I create and perpetuate confusion within myself and restrict my ability to excel in and as self-mastery in managing/directing my reality as a result of splitting my focus from time to time...where I accept and allow a resistance to totally commit to looking at and opening up one point....and moving through that one point completely, before I go into the next point.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking and believing and fearfully living within and as the automation of having many things on my mind from time to time...and within this allow myself to get discombobulated in my ability to function at an elite level of mastery and performance as an expression of excellence in and as each application/participation/task/activity I direct myself within and as.

I realize and understand the simplicity of focus on one point at a time as the Key to excellence in the specifics of performance of the activity/task/sport/work/play/writing...

I realize and understand the support we give to our self-development as the point of awareness and self-mastery when and as we commit ourself to existing within and the one point.  Meaning, if we are giving a lecture....we are immersed within and as the sharing of ourselves as the lecture...present within the point completely...here for everyone participating in receiving the lecture you are giving.  Another example is in playing a sport...where you commit yourself to moving within and as the point as response abilities to perform where the mind is engaged as a tool/map of support to aid in looking/seeing what is the best move/play to perform/exercise...and this is, with practice becomes a continuous dance and flow where it's a total working play...where you playing is a result of the work that you are doing as the player working here as the one reading/process/seeing/looking/directing the point at hand here.

I commit myself to enhancing my specificity in working with One point at a time.

When and as I see myself attempting to work with too much at once, I stop and breathe, have a smile as the realization of knowing what uselessness it is in trying to do too much at once...especially from the perspective of fear....where the application of fucking yourself by taking on too much at once becomes a sort of righteous justification that is motivated through fear.  I look at the various points that I am trying to juggle that is causing this confusion of how to best move myself...I simplify the mathematics of the points within myself and establish a clear specific number one point and then I begin with it and from there into the next point...and so with this approach I create a plan as how to best move through a series of points that were initially regarded as a big conglomeration of points all variously connected without any specific structured ordered direction for best application.  I realize I am capable of accomplishing many more tasks and performing the specifics of each and every task at a level of greatness that cannot be achieved within myself when I don't commit myself completely to the narrowness of focus, from and as the perspective of staying present in the moment with just the one point.  I realize my effectiveness in moving points becomes an acceleration point where I am able to begin directing the next point as I finish the previous one....where there is a relationship from going from one thing to the next and as I get detailed into my awareness specificity as i go from one move to the next I can enjoy the detailed specifics of my application.

I commit myself to enjoying the detailed specifics of my application/process here from consciousness to awareness.

Day 711 - New Path Every day

Important Note:

  Sometimes in my blog writing I kind of go a little all over the place in bringing together connections and I realize that sometimes points of practicality can be a bit of a stretch as it's like not always systematically straightforward.  This doing and sharing of mine here in writing is a freestyle in the moment expression where I face  myself as the music/sound that is me and I connect my words together unrehearsed without hesitating between verses as like a come together reflection of my writing/riding/driving/living freestyle expressive ability and mobility in the moment as where I am at within and as my birthing myself here and my creative responsibility.

If you see a verse of words that you really like or a verse that just seems a little too discombobulated...please share your feedback with me as fellow life Rider Sharing through feedback in the form of Insight as Question or Statement.


This writing has been influenced by the support and assistance garnered in the Eqafe Interview entitled, "Path of the Initiate - Reptilians - Part 380"


reminded of fear skiing new terrain through the trees that quickly....

skiing is life....

driving a car....life is like being a car....and the road/direction/comes out of you as the pathway to take/go along....always on a New path/trail...because what's going to happen and is possible is Unknown...

An Uncertainty experience within oneself.

Walking around on eggshells.

Each One is creating the path/journey Every Moment.  Funny thing is that Don't have a map. Driving in anticipation/waiting for something to happen...Looking to see if something will happen. This is a result of having been accustomed to things happening to Us. It's like knowing some shit is going to happen eventually...and then kind of getting a little pissy when shit happens. It isn't necessary to have a fear/worry about bad shit happening.

This type of experiences is what is preventing Oneself from actually CREATING the Living of One's Life. Irony here is that one is creating the Shit/things One doesn't even want.

How are we RESPONDING to these type of Mistakes/accidents/Unfortunate circumstances?
How we RESPOND Says a Lot about ourselves as a Creator Here. SEE the Opportunity existent within and as RESPONSIBILITY.

The Question to ask Oneself is, "How Creative is Your Response Ability?"
Are You Practically and Effectively Living CREATIVE RESPONSIBILITY ???

DO YOU SEE "CREATIVE RESPONSIBILITY" AS THE WAY....ALWAYS HERE....ALL WAYS HERE....DO YOU SEE "CREATIVE RESPONSIBILITY" ALWAYS?

SEE, 'CREATIVE RESPONSIBILITY' IS ALWAYS HERE AS WHO AND WHAT AND HOW AND WHY AND WHERE AND WHEN of and as OURSELVES HERE. SEE WE ARE THE VEHICLE/DRIVING/MOVING EXPRESSION THAT DESIGNS/DECIDES OUR LIFE HERE.

OBVIOUSLY DESIGNING AND DECIDING UPON A LIFE THAT IS BEST FOR ALL LIFE HERE IS WHAT IS ALWAYS BEST. BECAUSE HERE YOU SEE GIVE AS YOU LIKE TO GET.  IMPORTANT TO NOTE....THAT YOU GIVE BECAUSE YOU GOT IT...NOT BECAUSE YOU ARE HOPING OR WANTING TO GET....BUT BECAUSE YOU HAVE THE POTENTIAL TO GIVE..AND YOU REALIZE THAT EXERCISING YOUR POTENTIAL SUPPORTS THE WELL BEING OF LIFE HERE AS THE FRUITS OF ONE'S LABOR AS THE MANIFESTED EXPRESSION OF LIVING TO GIVE.

CREATING A ROAD MAP GUIDELINE FOR A NEW DAY....A NEW ADVENTURE....A NEW JOURNEY IS A COOL POINT OF SUPPORT TO HAVE WITH ONESELF FOR THE TRIP.  IT'S FUNNY FUN AND COOL TO REALIZE THE EXTENT OF ONESELF AS THE TOUR GUIDE PROFESSIONAL ON ONE'S TRIP....THE CAPTAIN FLYING THE PLANE...OR THE SNOWBOARDER OPERATING THE SNOWBOARD, OR THE DRIVER OF THE CAR....YOU KNOW BECAUSE IN THIS REGARD IT IS POSSIBLE TO PLAY AS YOU MOVE ABOUT CREATING THE NEW TRAIL/PATH/ROAD/WAY AS THE SUCCESSFUL RESULT OF LIVING/WORKING/BEING HERE TODAY.
IN KNOWING THAT YOU ARE RESPONSIBLE FOR THE TRIP...IT MAKES IT EASY TO NOT GET HUNG UP.....STUCK ON A BAD TRIP....BECAUSE WE KNOW WE CAN MOVE THROUGH IT AND THAT BAD TRIPS ARE LIKE TEMPORARY BLIPS IN THE WAY AS LIKE THE OBSTACLES/PROBLEMS IN OUR LIFE TO OVERCOME/SOLVE AS WE DISSOLVE OUR SELF INTO EVERYTHING...AS LIKE THE REALIZATION THAT WE ARE WITHIN EVERYTHING HERE...AND IT'S LIKE A PROCESS PLAY WORK WITH GETTING TO KNOW HOW TO GIVE WHAT IS BEST FOR OURSELVES HERE IN ALWAYS BEST. SEEING HOW TO SKI IN THE BEST POSSIBLE WAYS/STYLES...AND WITHIN THIS, CREATING OUR OWN INDIVIDUAL AMAZINGLY AWESOME STYLE THAT IS PRACTICAL AND EFFECTIVE IN AND AS OUR COOLNESS/AWESOMENESS HERE.

SEE, WE EACH CREATIVE OUR OWN MOMENTUM AND RHYTHM AS LIKE THE FLOW OF HOW WE HANDLE THE CONDITIONS OF THE TERRAIN WE ARE WORKING/PLAYING UPON. THIS HERE IS PART OF THE FUN AND FUNNY POTENTIAL AS THE COOL HERE IN AS AS OURSELVES STANDING AS THE FREESTYLE FLOW OF LINKING TURNS TOGETHER AS THE MASTER OF RESPONSIBILITY...RECOGNIZING THE TIMING REQUIRED TO MANEUVER AND EXECUTE SOUND PRECISION AND PRECISE MOVEMENT/TIMING AS THE ORGASM OF ONESELF HERE AS LIVING CREATIVELY AS THE FREESTYLE FLOW OF MOMENT TO MOMENT MANAGEMENT AS A MANAGER OF WHAT IS BEST FOR LIFE.

I FORGIVE MYSELF FOR ACCEPTING AND ALLOWING MYSELF OT FEAR TO DRIVE A NEW PATH EVERY DAY.

I FORGIVE MYSELF FOR ACCEPTING AND ALLOWING MYSELF FOR NOT REALIZING HOW AWESOME IT IS TO CARVE A NEW TRAIL EVERY DAY.

I FORGIVE MYSELF FOR ACCEPTING AND ALLOWING MYSELF FOR FEARING THE UNKNOWN.

I FORGIVE MYSELF FOR ACCEPTING AND ALLOWING MYSELF FOR RESISTING TO LIVE FOR REAL

When and as I see myself hung up about something, I see/realize/recognize the point being a temporary obstacle that in fact requires my attention and that it is my self-responsibility to navigate the obstacle/problem into and as a practical living solution....where I maneuver myself in such a way as to CREATE the way in which Is Best...what I didn't totally know until I did it....Until I lived it...Until I moved myself Beyond it...like the freestyle self-responsibility flow of and as self-direction as the Creation principle in flowing/riding/driving/skiing/Living Here.

I commit myself to using the the flow movement metaphor as Life Being the Journey Here and each is the The Driver/Rider/Hiker/SpaceShip Operator here and that the path is always unknown as to the potential possibility of happenings...Yet what is known is that it is our Duty to Make our Best Path.

I see/realize/understand the self-responsibility in making creating paths from day to day as the self-leadership support understanding and realization of Living to Give as the support and assistance within Sharing while Caring.



Important End Note:

I see here how in reflecting back upon my freestyle flow I can fine tune my movement understanding and realization of myself here.

I commit myself to the vulnerability and humbleness required to live self-reflection and self-correction.

Day 709 - The Greatness of Gratitude

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for polarizing the usage of Gratitude where I would believe that I can only be grateful for moment in which I have a positive reaction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how limiting my participation within Life is when one is within a state of reaction to events and situations whether they are positive or negative.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for defining gratitude with a positive energetic charge.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how to in fact practically live Gratitude Always.

I forgive myself for thinking that Gratitude is a selective thing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for associating gratitude with the giving of thanks and that I only need to give thanks sometimes...like when someone gives me something and they are expecting to hear thanks as like the social etiquette reciprocation appropriate response.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for learning about "thanks" from my parents from the perspective of being told to say "thank you" to people when the give me something...by kind of coercing me into it in the moment as a child.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I developed an apprehensiveness towards Gratitude and Giving/Living Thanks...'Thank You' as a result of experiencing a sort of coercion about the application of "thank you" and giving/living thanks...as like the implication that I am not it and that I have to become it.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how I developed a sort of rebellious attitude and resistance toward the practical living of "gratitude as the greatest attitude"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I copied my parents.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the gratitude in Always for my parents.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the gratitude for Everything in Always.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding the Gratitude of myself in Always Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the absurd ridiculousness of selective usage and application of gratitude as a great attitude.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for half assing gratitude within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding gratitude.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding the embodiment of myself as Gratitude.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for faking to live words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the significance of ALWAYS all ways Assistance and Support as What is Best for All Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for Judging ALWAYS.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the absurd ridiculousness of judging ALWAYS.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to question how to in fact Live words as the embodiment of myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the profound marvel that is here as the effective usage of words as the Potential existent within and as words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how the potential I see within words is in fact a reflection of the Potential that exists within Me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the difference between minimizing the application of Gratitude and maximizing the application of Gratitude as the Greatest attitude....and within this, I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding the profoundly absurd and ridiculousness of deliberately choosing to minimize the expression of Gratitude.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for going to great lengths in order to spite myself, as like justifying the suppression of greatness within myself...that I deliberately hid through blame and self-denial.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to make sense of non sense because of a particular energetic push or pull experience.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how my relationship development with words has been like a push or pull experience as like wanting to gravitate towards the word or away from the word...as like in both cases creating a sort of dissonance in myself regard towards the practical living of Words where the Words are either mostly positive/negative/neutral.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the Gratitude of Slowing down within myself to Stop the Energetic experience.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding the Gratitude of Grounding the experiences of Energetic reaction within real time moment to moment application, as the practical living realization and self-correction of self-forgiveness/love/gratitude here as who I am.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding gratitude within myself as a physical loving action...as like to see for real and care with careful consideration for all Life here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how great Gratitude is.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for separating myself from Gratitude.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing how Great Life is.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding the greatness of every moment here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying myself as less than the greatness of the moment Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing myself as One and Equal as the Greatness which is Life Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing less than Gratitude and Greatness for Life.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding the consequences of accepting and allowing less than Gratitude and Greatness for all Life here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting lost within self-righteousness as the result of not understanding or realizing Gratitude,

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing my words to exist as less than Gratitude.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the Gratitude for WORDS.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding Words.

I commit myself to the Greatness of Words.

I commit myself to Greatness.

I commit myself to Gratitude as the Greatest living Attitude.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the application of self-forgiveness is in fact an action of Gratitude.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to gift and give gratitude to myself here....and that this is in fact a practical living self-responsibility....because I need to live gratitude for myself in order to be able to give/share Gratitude with All Life Here.

I commit myself to living the Gift of Gratitude.

I am Grateful for Gifting myself Gratitude, the Greatest Attitude.

I commit myself to Gratitude, the Greatest Attitude.


To Be Continued

Day 707 - Fun Knee Forgiveness on Inner Jury

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to weigh myself down within holding onto memories/thoughts/feelings/emotions of the past that recycle within my mind that act as like a perpetuating strain and stress on my physical body and negatively influence my ability to walk.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how recycling through the same thoughts/feelings/emotions of and as the past perpetuates a strain on my ability to walk and move effectively here....and I forgive myself for not realizing how my knee injury accident correlates to a buildup of acceptances and allowances within myself that have not been properly dealt with.  I see realize and understand that allowing polarized energies to exist within my mind/body does not support the well being of my body/mind. I commit myself to releasing the energetic nature as conflict/polarity from the relationships that exist within my mind and body. I realize the absurd ridiculousness of holding charges against myself as specific positive or negative energetic resonances the support separation and dissonance from the starting point of Oneness and Equality

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting the fun within the injury I can have as like how to make light of the situation and make the best of the situation as what is best support and assistance for myself here.  I realize the absurd ridiculousness of being hard and heavy on myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for questioning the attitude of gratitude in relationship to having injured my knee. I mean this is not the situation that I would have knowingly chose for myself to experience but now that I am within it...I am grateful the opportunity and the chance of self-reflection. Living gratitude has been a process of sorts as I see I have sometimes had the tendency to want to justify an attitude of something less than gratitude...as like a form of disdain and suffering and self-victimization because it seems like that is what I should project in comparing my current situation to past situations.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how as a result of holding onto judgement about particular events in the past that I have justified particular attitudes based on an emotion and or feeling reaction as a result of perpetuating points of comparison within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have in the past talked myself out of gratitude as the great living attitude.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to live gratitude as the greatest attitude unconditionally.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have unconsciously superimposed my daily attitude from a starting point of energetic reaction. And within this I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how I can in fact stop the any and all energetic attitudes and actually create the living of gratitude of my attitude here.

I see realize and understand gratitude to be the greatest attitude because gratitude comes from giving and an appreciation for giving....and living gratitude unconditionally means to give to oneself unconditionally as the best giving support and assistance one can in fact give.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding Always in which gratitude as a great attitude is in fact the giving of self-support and assistance here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to have fun in every moment of my knee injury.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying believing that I must be serious and reserve because I have injured my knee.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not really knowing how I should express myself within having an injury.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to experience myself as discombobulated at moments when asked how I am doing within and as my day to day experience of myself within the process of recovering from a knee injury. I see have been confused from the perspective of believing that I shouldnt project myself as being to good or like in such good spirits because of the circumstances that I am dealing with...and because of this make believe fear I see I have created as like believing that if I enjoy my recovery process too much than maybe I will get injured again.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to enjoy the healing process within and as my knee injury.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that if I will be self sabotaging myself in some way if I make a good time out of a what I believe to be shouldn't be such a good time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying a less than my potential greatness experience for myself within and as a result of accepting and allowing myself to live less than "gratitude as the greatest attitude in every moment".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting the funny within and as the play time available to me within walking the injury recovery process.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to make the best of my time in every moment,

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to disregard my best efforts in every moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the playful ease of living gratitude as the greatest attitude in every moment as a the way to support and assist the best for oneself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not even considering all the opportunity and potential existent for me in walking the knee healing process.


When and as I see myself faced within a person asking me how I am doing today.....I see realize and understand that it is ridiculous absurd to fear giving an answer that is too great/awesome as like that would then result in potentially accepting future experiences that are less than great and awesome. I realize and understand the irony of trying to rationalize decisions through fear...as like they work out completely in the opposite manner and that which you don't want happens...and it's like a ridiculously absurd experience because it's logically sound to oneself in being illogical....yet one doesnt realize the mindfuck because one is engulfed within it....which is like a vortex of consumption until one is able to take a breath and step out of one's own very self defined entrapment and sentencing. It's funny and ridiculously absurd the trains of thought we ride without even regarding ourselves as the conductor of such a construction.

I commit myself to gratitude as the greatest living attitude.

I commit myself to giving myself the gift of gratitude as my living attitude here.

I see, realize and understand how gratitude is a great attitude enabling effective relationship development and creation..because in living gratitude one can in fact see greatness within oneself and others here.,,,which is key in creation process as one is able to see the value and worth...and the best ways possible.

I commit myself to greatness.

I commit myself to let go of worrying about consequences for being to good or behaving better than is expected of me based on the situations and or conditions I am within.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding my very own gratitude within seeing and realizing the energetic mind consciousness construction within and as my thoughts/feelings/emotions.

To Be Continued

Day 703 - Talking Shit

Talking Shit.

Is that my skill? Is that what I can do.....practically....effectively...physically talk shit. The relationship acceptances and allowances as to the daily functioning's of our shared reality are really really shitty aren't they. Yes/No? Do you prefer a more positive perspective and or message? It's best to be positive....right?

Being positive in a Negative reality is fucking bullshit. It's absolutely fucking crazy. Yet the crazy is part of what keeps a Negative reality a fucking bullshit story....it's the fake attitudes....You know, buying into acting and reacting particular ways and giving attention to that which doesn't deserve even a moments attention.

Look at all the shit that exists as entertainment....to keep you being positive while the planet/Life goes to shit.

Political system is Shit.
Legal system is Shit.
Economic system is Shit.
Medical system is Shit.
Education system is Shit.
Religious/Spiritual system is Shit.
World Relationships are Shit.
Media is Shit.
Oceans are filled with Shit.
Outer Space is filled with Shit.



There is so much about what is happening here as human activity on planet earth that is totally fucking stupid shit. And, it's like if you don't put a positive spin on all the stupid shit in some way or another...it's like the majority of the people around you in your environment will want to ignore you or fight you or kill you...or some other sort of stupid shit. Ever notice that?

Did you ever notice anyone ever saying something like, "You just gotta be positive.....or, Get rid of the Negative people in Your World....Only surround yourself with Positive people".

These types of statements are negative as fuck. Like negatively exponentially fucked. This attitude of of a war between positive attitudes and negative attitudes like some mother fucker's here are more righteous in their attitude than other's here type of ridiculous shit....and unless you are being positive in a buzz of gratitude about the shit that is here...it's like go fuck yourself you negative fucker....says the positive fuck wad to the negative fuck wad..or something like that. Sometimes this fuck you attitude is all non verbal.

The irony is that whether you are a negative or positive fucker here....You are still a fucker here.

So if you start to see shit for real....within yourself....and within others....and you start talking to people about it....what is interesting is that it's a real ugly situation....or maybe this is what beauty really is.....fugly. Because you may experience people trying to talk you out of seeing real shit for real....and or people don't want to know or here about the real shit that you see because it contradicts the lie that they have been investing into...and keeping a lie going on a daily basis is the long con...and it's like if you give up the long con, and dare to look beyond the long con....than you might see that your entire life has been a waste....a tragic comedy....that you having never been here would have probably been better for the earth. I mean that's some hard shit to regard. Because if you really look at the real shit here about ourselves and this earth....I mean, it is really fucking tragic. Saying it is a joke....a tragic comedy is a way to support and assist with the pain...catharsis...the psychological disposition you are...within realizing the trauma and fuckedness of yourself here in this world.


I was looking at all the airplanes in the air. You can check a live feed to see all the air planes in the air at any given moment via satellite imaging. Scientists have known for a long time that airplane travel is of great concern with regards to negatively impacting climate change.

Isn't it fucked how common it is for people to hop on a plane and fly across the world? I mean airplanes are buzzing around all the time everywhere. Air travel is a business built around self-interest...encouraging travel...to make money. This world is set up so backwards.  I find it quite peculiar that in wealthy areas of the world it is super common to take a flight somewhere far away from where you live and work normally, so that you can have a vacation and relax....what is strange to me about this...is that one needs/wants to take a vacation away from their home/community/environment. It seems to me that this is supporting the escape mentality mind set...where it's like your everyday life is so utterly fucked that you just want to remove yourself from it and get as far away as possible and just sort of zone out...until you are required to go back to auto pilot zombie mode and continue with the long con perpetuation.


To me, the way the vacation industry is set up, suggests that most people do not even live or work where they would like to live and work. I mean, wouldn't it be a sign of pride and regard of where you live to actually hangout and relax in the area in which you live?  Perhaps there would be more regard for the functioning of your immediate environment if you were required to live within it all the time...and the option to fuck off somewhere else didn't exist.


There's a lot of shit that needs to be questioned and answered. There's a tremendous amount of accountability required within each fucker living here. Let's face it, everyone living here is a fucker...and it's up to all us fucker's here to sort out the fucking mess.

Shit is fucking crazy.

shit is fucking ridiculous.


Can We Correct all this stupid shit? Is a Holy Shit purification process possible?


I vote to work on Correcting Shit.