Day 757 - The Flick of the Con

 


I've learned some ironically funny things about Conflict.  Specifically, myself relationship within and as conflict...how primarily so much so it is a decision of myself to accept and allow such relationship ridiculousness as the particular dynamics of various degrees of contextual relationship dynamics.

To place this simplistically,...the point is this....Being at war/odds with things is so much a choice within and as the accepted and allowed word relationships that exist within oneself as the particular feeling/emotional charges one holds onto as a debt bond.  Fascinating it is to see the word relationships as debt bonds...the specifics of particular relationship information contexts as carrying so called charges which are essentially a sort of zing I have been doing onto myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to slow down in such moments where it is in fact possible for myself to see and realize what I am in fact allowing....and to from here actually change the very nature of my word contractual relationships.

I realize the absurd ridiculousness of creating debt for myself within and as my word relations.

I realize how ridiculously absurd it is to bond myself to debt as like making myself dependent upon charges held against myself that I am so much so at the mercy of.

I realize the absurd ridiculousness of drafting such absurd contractual relationships within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extensive nature of each and every moment as an opportunity to so much so check myself within and as my word relationships...as I see and realize my words are my bonds.  Within this, I see and realize my words as the best bonds are that which are based within and as the frame work of equality and oneness...that exist free from conflictual feeling/emotion charges against myself that create a trigger as a reoccurring and perpetuating reactionary debt bond.

I commit myself to absolving myself from debt/conflict within and as my word/world relationships Here.

I realize this is a word by word process.

I commit myself to living the self-correction of and from conflicting contractual terms of word/world relations to substantially beneficial terms of word/world agreements.

Day 737 - Who's Responsible When Somebody You Know Dies?

This is a topic that doesn't really get all that much attention...it's like it's just something that is dealt with after the fact. Yes there are precursors you can take to prepare your estate/affairs for one you are dead...but ultimately somebody close to you has got a bunch of labor to do....and maybe...just maybe is on the hook for settling your debts.

There's a really cool blog that talks about the meticulous preparations a father took for his son. I suggest checking out this blog here.

Now there is other points i want to share with you that a friend brought up in regards to this topic:

"The fear of death is so strong that even those who have gone through the ordeal of dealing with someone's remaining affairs can easily turn around and leave behind the same mess for their next of kin. 

You can ask yourself if someone in your family dies today and you are the sole person to deal with it, would you know what do do? How would you go about it? Do you know what documents you need when someone dies, how to register a death? If the deceased leaves property behind - are you aware of the taxation, paying bills etc? What if there is no liquid money - are you able to pay for any expenses? Even paying for the funeral arrangements can cost in the thousands. What about others in the family, consider family feuds that ensue when someone dies and there is no will, or secrets that suddenly see the light of day... 

So what is the solution? How can we take responsibility for life after our death - by planning for it? - by making it an educational item? What are practical steps? Let's open this point up and come up with solutions."

Interesting topic isn't it?

Some questions come to mind:

Would this really be a big deal if the way our society was structured wasn't built around a lack of money. Like, for example would it be a big deal if lets say everybody was born with a bank account that would last a lifetime and that at death the account along with the person simply ceases to exist. There is no carry over. So in this regard nobody is going to profit off another person's death. Because if we have a look...there is much expense attached to sorting out somebody's death. What comes to mind specifically is the taxation...and the legalities around Law where typically a lawyer is required to substantiate the legality/legitimacy of things...and if you looked at the above link i posted...the lawyer fees can be quite extensive...and really do things have to be somewhat complicated.

Obviously the way money and law exists is entirely interwoven within the checks and balances of dealing with somebody's death....specifically if you are the appointed family member or you are the closest too them kind of thing...and there's a family connection and no other family exists. I mean here...there can be really shitty situations where, for instance...even though you did not even associate with this particular family member and you are the only two related family members left and person A dies...and they have a mountain of debt....Guess where the liability is directed? Isn't that kind of ridiculous?

Though, if we look closely at the specifics of dealing with someone's death...we get a closer look at the ridiculousness of the way our economic and legal system function.

I think if we developed a monetary system where there was a regard and consideration for all Life here.,..we would have laws that support the facilitation of such points.

In a way the way our human behavior exists is rooted in and around our relationships with money, It's  kind of like a behavior regulation because Money is attached to our ability to survive here...and the interesting thing about this is that we created a competition about who get;s to survive....which if we really think about it...is quite dumb. Now, it is popular to make sense out of nonsense when it comes to the economics and the laws of our society...where we justify the absurd ridiculousness of things...as like saying things like, "this is just the way things are".

The point of compassionate care comes to mind. If there was a real regard within society...there would be tremendous support for the assistance to those who have lost a love one.  I mean...think of the possibilities if we all agreed on supporting the best support?  It seems like a far out of this world concept...doesn't it? Which is quite telling of the times we live in....isn't it?

Imagine there was a whole team of people who are staffed to assist and support a smooth moving along of being available as support for all people who have lost someone who is very dear to them.  In thinking about this....it comes to mind that we low ball the greatness here...as like we cut corners on how great things could be within mind set mentalities of like, "good enough"....when in reality the perceive "good enough" is not what you would really want for yourself...but deem it acceptable for somebody who you regard as less than yourself...and see it as "good enough".

This is quite the topic really....because it gets us to look at also the housing and the possession of the person who died....some people will have lots of stuff....others nothing at all....I mean if we think about the various people who die...and we look at how there is a dissonance in life regard from the perspective of comparing how well different individuals survived here...as like how much money did the acquire....it's brings the question to mind as like "why do we accept and allow ourselves to function in this survival mentality frame of mind?"

I see the potential for a great future where the movement of humanity shifts from that of disregard to that of regard...and self-expression instead of self-suppression as a result of coping in the survival mentality frame of mind. The easiest way to bring about great change in this regard is through the democratic process....where there is a shift in what we accept and allow as valid here. We re-write the law and economics of the world. We change the game essentially as the operating procedures and capacity of human life here. Which if we really look at the lack of regard for human life at the moment....it is easy to see how there is much room for great improvement to the functionality of Life support and assistance here. 

I implore you to ask questions about the functionality of the various points within our shared existence. To look at the practicality of the way things in fact exist. To learn about the laws and the economics...and the politics...of our world.  The main area of focus in discussion in bringing about the most immediate change that is great for all life here is in establishing economic policy that supports the sustainability of the best qualities of Life for all Life here....a real Equality here in and as the regard for the One Life here we are all within and sharing....because like it or not we are all connected to this world.

Day 674 - The Fee Our

This blog is a continuation from my previous blog, "Day 673 - Fear is the Fare we Pay".

My sharing today is a presentation of my creative investigation....a work and play with my writing focused on "Fear"....the word....the relationship.....Fear itself.....an entity....a structured being here....

Note: this is a work in play:

"Liberated from our fear".....this is a quote I heard....which I questioned....???

If You are not Afraid of

Fear itself...You

Can do Anything

You can only Fear-less

When You Stop Fearing More...

Be Fear less

Fee Our

You can only pay less

When you Stop Paying More

What We accept and allow is our Measure of Fear...Life...Death...Value...Vote...Democracy...Creation

--> ONE MAN ONE VOTE...VOTE FOR WHAT'S BEST

TO FEAR LESS IS THE PRACTICAL LIVING APPLICATION OF SELF-FORGIVENESS... BECAUSE!

TO LIVE FEAR LESS is Self-Perfection process because this is practical living self-forgiveness...Where You Face Fear and remediate by continuing on into and as the Creation and Manifestation of Sound without the bounds of resistance...The point of "till here no further" do I allow myself to be bound and restrained by the experience of Fear.

Who Am I With Fear?

Who Am I Without Fear?

Have I Created Fear Itself? Hasn't Everything Created itself as a result of Everything Itself?

How do I Practically Value/Support/Assist Fear as what is best for myself/All Life Here?

Is there a difference between me supporting Fear and Fear Supporting Me?

Can Disharmony only exist within an Unbalanced Relationship?

Meaning:

If I stand One and Equal with Fear Here...and Fear stands One and Equal with me Here...We are managing a relationship that doesn't require management...Because here We Stand together individually accountable for Our Standing Arrangement here.

So, My standing Arrangement here is that I stand Alone as One and Equal...means... Standing in Agreement together with/as Life All One and Equal Here....Which is the Natural order of Learning the Accounting Responsibility of Harmonious Work/Play/Sound...Expression...Orgasm...Agreement...Unification...Creation...Heaven and Earth Here together as One

The testaments of time are the Living Words that can be repeated again and again as the Song and Sound that goes On and On and On as the Eternal Here that is Always All Ways Best for All. Here Hear.

To Be Continued

Day 661 - Debt Servitude in Word and World Relations.

So, I noticed some interesting points that were buried within myself in relationship to Money...and so here I outline the specifics and specifically rectify my misfortune and lay a new foundation of structured support to assist and support the expansion and creative development of myself in ways that are best.

Stress about Money…fear of failure to Pay….Fear of debt…Bankruptcy…Getting Screwed…Being Fucked Over…Getting into a Jam…bills…taking on increased financial responsibility…bank emptying out…not enough money coming in… bankrupt..

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to stress about money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to be in the position where I cannot pay/play.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear “failure to pay”...failure to play.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear debt.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear bankruptcy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear getting screwed…specifically, financially..

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to be fucked over.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear getting into a financial jam.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to take on increased financial responsibility.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing my bank emptying out.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing not enough money coming in.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear going bankrupt.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for attaching my lively hood to money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not wanting to participate in the money slave game.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to be burdened with financial responsibilities…as like a form of debt obligations.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to not be given enough money from others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing my value and self-worth.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for compromising my value and self-worth within and as the fear of losing money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself ot fear losing money and not having enough money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for doubting my ability to actually have too much money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself ofr desiring to have too much money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting to write as daily as a point of self-support which in and of itself is money…life…value…creation here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting myself as life/money/words/world/creative/creation here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself of fearing to live/move/express myself here as wealthy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting the point of being wealthy in self-expression.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting the point of being rich in vocabulary.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to wide open to sharing my wealth in words with others in my community.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to use my words in the best ways possible….as like fearing to commit my money to the best possible decisions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being cheap with my words and my money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing an impoverished vocabulary within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which an impoverished vocabulary wreaks havoc on the overall character well-being of an individual being here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for negating my fortune within and as the development of my vocabulary here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being resistant and apprehensive towards giving myself the gift of words…and knowing how to play with words and use them effectively in ways that are most excellent.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for complicating my capacity to learn within skewing the values of my relationship with words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for wanting/desiring/hoping to gloss over and just kind of forget about the misfortunes I have developed within my vocabulary.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting the process of self-correction….remediation of my vocabulary…as the creation of and as my structural resonance alignment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting to actually rectify problems with solutions to the foundational issues within my vocabulary.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing the investment in time/labor required to do something the correct way.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to be at a loss financially within taking the necessary time to learn something effectively.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself of hindering/fucking with my learning capacity within rationalizing/justifying fear about how long a point will take to learn/get/live….and the money I need now.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting taking full accountability as the creditor and authority of my words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to doubt the potential success that is able to be brought into fruition through and as my creative capacity to structure my words in ways that are self-supportive.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for choosing to dwell and try to escape the debt of a situation of circumstance I am in…by avoiding to actually direct the point…and instead busy myself within another activity that I define as being more fun and enjoyable to participate within.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having developed a relationship with fun and enjoyment where I juxtaposition myself in and as point of comparison…where my actually focus and expression is split…and therefore not an actual total commitment…because of the skewed starting point of trying/attempting/manipulating my starting point….from that of self-honesty,…self-trust…to that of fear….hiding…coping.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for limiting my capacity for fun and enjoyment within creating self-defining limitations on my ability to in fact live fun and enjoyment as expressions of who and how I am here in every moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for looking to separate and distance fun and enjoyment from and as the word responsibility.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for postponing the expression of myself here….as a result of believing that I just need/want to cope with misfortune for a little while first.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself ot get overwhelmed within facing the debt of my acceptances and allowances here…as the specific nature of my word relationships.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to limit the development of my words here within and as the fear/control/influence/addiction to feelings and emotions as the spectrum between the energetic field of love and hate.

When and as I see myself faced with fear/resistance in a moment to actually do something that I see is cool to do…is in fact wealthy…rich in self-expression…shows a cool character here….I stop and breathe…I make the decision to move myself into and as physical action/application in the moment and actually dare to live for real beyond the confinements or programmed restraints.

I commit myself to re-programming….re-creating…-re-structuring myself here as Life without debt.

I commit myself to create myself here as the process journey of self-correction….into and as living example of the Journey to Life…Heaven as Earth birthed from and in/out of the physical here.

I commit myself to Sharing my fortune/wealth in words here.

I see, realize and understand how my wealth/fortune/opportunity exists within and as my creative play/sharing/giving of my words/time/labor here.

I commit myself to living/sharing/giving/gardening profound substance within and as the structured placement/movement of my words/sounds here.

I commit myself to expanding my effectiveness/wealth/creation/correction of and as my vocation and vocabulary here.

I commit myself to living words effectively and efficiently.

I commit myself to exist within and as the life substance of my words.

I commit myself to living a concerted effort to make the most of my ability to structure my living words in the best possible ways.

I commit myself to take the time to care for the wealth of my life here.

I commit myself to living the self-realization that our ability and capacity to create and express as what is best for all Life here…exists within and as the concerted laborious effort we invest into and as our own vocabulary….because our effectiveness with words is in fact the dictating factor as to how our world will be…as like our spelling bee so to speak…because how we speak and move in co-ordination to how we speak…is in turn how we pollinate and develop the continuous operation and flourishing of potential expression here as a way to live that is epitomizing the highest value and regard for ourselves here as Life/Creation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing the time/moment of application…where in the moment I am faced with the consequential energy build up/debt I have accepted and allowed throughout time here….to actually take responsibility for wiping the debt clean and clear…and creating a new beginning fortune….trust….estate….standing for myself here.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how in facing physically demanding moments where moving myself in action seems difficult….that this is it….this is the here point…where I can in fact actually develop my ‘trust fund’….my future well-being here….by investing in the moment in and as my future development…by seeing what is in fact triumphantly awesome and most possible…and so moving myself within and as this accord…a chord…way…note…music….expression…I guarantee myself the status standing capacity and agreement in which I am most fortunate.

I commit myself to taking responsibility for the creation of and as my fortune here.

I commit myself to reclaiming my status standing as the beneficiary of Life birthed from and as physicality here.

I commit myself to flourishing in and as my capacity and potential.

I commit myself to supporting and assisting in the blossoming of creative potential here.

I commit myself to supporting and assisting the future well-being of Life.

Day 629 Information Transaction

 It's interesting how we live here in and as Information. Like the happenings here are a result of and as Information. Like We are here in and as an Information transference...Like All the time Transactions are happening. Have a look at how money moves as a point of Transactions...I mean look at how we communicate, essentially our sharing as how our communication is received and regarded is like an on going transaction...where and how we are always in the process of Buying and Selling.

Why do I see we are Always in the process of Buying and Selling? Well I see this as the way our sharing exists because there is a point of Choice Acceptance and Allowance. Meaning, we can willing accept and allow particular transactions to take place or we can stop particular transactions/transference's from happening.

What I am in the process of doing is taking accountability and individual self-responsibility for and as my every Acceptance and Allowance Here.

Why?

Because I see the Value in and as Life Equality and Oneness Here. I see how it is in and as the Best Interest of Life Accountability Here to Forgive the Debt I have accrued in Buying into bad Acceptances and Allowances? What is a bad acceptance and allowance? This is where I have accepted and allowed myself to invest in and as the development of a Word Association Relationship that is defined as Less than What is the Best Standing Representation of Life Here. It's Interesting to see here how I am the Ultimate Share Holder of and as My Sharing of Words Here...and thus I see that it is an Individual Personal Self-Responsibility to make sure that the standing presentation and representation of and as our every communication of Our Word's is Aligned within and as the Life Interest of and as Equality and Oneness...as this is the Understanding Self-Trust within and as the Self-Honesty of What is Best for All Life is Always the Best Gift Here.

Our Presentation, Practical Living Self-Expression as Our Self-Movement from Moment to Moment is Easy to be Well Received as an Insured Agreement Guarantee when and as there is absolute clarity within and as what is being Shared. Like there is no mystery in being straight forward...as it is clear to see what is being presented to you. Nothing Hidden.

Interesting how I became aware of how disagreement and uncertainty comes about within our Confidence in Agreement Transactions Here as a result of Fear...as the Fee we Pay as the consequential Fare of and as Self-Doubt which is a resulting factor of and as the inherent history of our track record of deceitful actions with and as our track record of receipts. Interesting to see here how we hold the key's/Tools to releasing Our-Self Here from and as Our Own Indebted Servitude. This Here I speak is in fact the Process Tool and Key which I call Self-Forgiveness.

To change our Status Standing Here from Citizen Debtor to Real Life Living Creditor as The Life Source Giving/Gifting Our-Self Life Credit. I mean, How are we suppose to be in Service of and as what is Best for all Life Here, If we do not Start by Utilizing the Taking of the Opportunity Here with and as our Time to Give Our-Self the Best Life Here?

The Process of Gifting/Giving Our-Self the Best Life Here, Starts within and as the Practical Living Application of and as Self-Forgiveness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent of and as my debt within and as my participation within Information Transactions...as the sharing/Speaking of Words from and as a Starting point of and as Conflict/friction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for perpetuating a debt within myself as a result of speaking words from within and as the starting point of debt/conflict/friction/dissonance.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the amount of support that exists here within and as the Living of Words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the self-reflection and self-expression that exists within and as the practicality of Living Words effectively within and as the greatest meaning/value/potential/support/assistance/possibility possible Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding my potential ability to express myself here within and as the practical living of words within and as the greatest value.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the value of Life Equality and Oneness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist as less than the Highest/Greatest/Supreme Value of and as Life Equality and Oneness.

I realize and understand the Magnificence of and as Self-Expression Here.
I realize and understand the Equality and Oneness within and as the practical living of Words Here as what is Best for all Life.
I realize and understand the self-responsibility, self-trust, self-honesty required within and as the Self-Expression of and as Our-Self Creation Here as Living Words.
I see/realize and understand the process of Self-Correction as a result of and as the accumulation of Self-Forgiveness Here.

I commit myself to the practical living process of Self-Forgiveness and Self-Correction.
I commit myself to Self-Direction within and as the process of Self-Forgiveness and Self-Correction.

When and as I see a point of conflict/fear existing/moving within myself, I stop and breathe, I locate the word within myself that represent the particular cognitive dissonance I am experiencing within Myself...As I face/see/Understand/realize the word relationship association that exists within myself that is out of alignment within and as Life Equality and Oneness, I take the time to remediate the word relationship association to it's self-corrective positioning as what is best for all Life.

I Commit Myself to the Status Standing Creditor and Beneficiary of and as What is Best for All Life Here.

Day 480 Exploiting and Manipulating the System

I've looked at law from the perspective of trying to figure out how I can exploit and manipulate the legal system. My justification has been that the legal system is totally fucked up, so if I can manipulate and exploit this totally fucked up legal system for my own personal benefit, I might as well do so.

I've come to realize a few things from having accepted and allowed such a starting point within myself:

1) I was disregarding my own inherent fuckedness within the legal system. I was not at all placing myself as one and equal with the legal system.  I was not seeing the legal system as myself and as a reflection of humanity as a whole.

2) I was placing myself as superior to the legal system, as like more clever, and therefor because of my superiority and cleverness, I deemed myself to be entitled to fucking with that which I deemed fucked because within my heir of self-righteous appointment, I'm looking to benefit and protect myself, as the expense of beating things...like in this particular scenario....my thinking was that I can beat the legal system of enslavement....note the punny pun here....."beating" the legal system....me kicking the legal systems ass....making the legal system my bitch....I mean what makes me so entitled to be a nasty fucker....when it is in fact this nastiness that I do not like in the first place.

3) I was perpetuating the existence of myself within the veils of self-righteousness that were in fact blinding me from seeing the actual laws of my being.  What is ironic about this is that the legal system reflected pure abuse to me, yet I didn't see the enslavement existing within myself. I didn't dare to consider the extent of self-reflection/self-investigation required to see how lame I was being within and as blame...as like all sorts of degrees of blame...like for example....seeing corporations and money to blame, and international bankers, and government, and everyone else who knew or didn't know about the extensive fuckedness of the legal system.

4)  I didn't realize and understand myself as a tyrant.

5) I was looking to leverage the current system...I figured if I could understand the complicated intricacies of the legal system than I could profit from knowing how to exploit and manipulate the current systems for my individual monetary benefit...and that I could show others how I had been prosperous in exploiting and manipulating the current systems....and then I could talk about creating a new system that would be to everybody's benefit.

6) I didn't consider the consequences of deliberately exploiting and manipulating the current systems for believed individual prosperity and liberty in the terms of gaining a monetary strong hold...as like insuring a wealth of entitlement within a world of debt and lack of entitlement.

7) I figured I must be able to manipulate the wealth and resources of the world in such a way where I become the great emancipator.

8) I didn't consider myself ever as one and equal with those who hold the majority of the wealth and resources in this world....from the perspective of treating others how I would like to be treated...I was quite within my own self-righteousness....believing that my way is the only way...that there are those who must pay at the cost of my expenses....and therefore be controlled and regulated by the debt I inflicted upon them.

9) I didn't realize and understand the oppression existent within the dominant oppressor.

10) I didn't see myself as 'Agent Smith' continuing to evolve and upgrade within and as the systems of exploitation and abuse.  I only regarded myself as "Neo" fighting against the systems.

11) I remember the point in the 3rd matrix movie where Neo takes on all the systems and brings them into himself...as like the standing of the embodiment of the systems....and destroys them within himself in order to make possible the beginning of a new world order. (would be cool point to watch the matrix movies again...especially the third one from the perspective of seeing how Neo say himself as one and equal with agent smith, yet agent smith couldn't see and realize himself one and equal with Neo, and Neo was able to direct the conflict with great ease, while agent smith increasingly became more agitated and enraged with anger...as like the frustration and irritation of not knowing thy self as the mirrored reflection. Anyways, such cool movies that show the point of self-direction within self-honesty and self-trust....and the conflict of self-dishonesty)


to be continued with self-forgiveness and self-corrective statements