Day 789 - TRUST and SELF-TRUST

TRUST and Self-Trust

In Asking myself how do I define Trust, What comes up within me is Honesty, meaning my truth and responsibility. I take the meaning of Trust a step further into myself as Self-Trust...myself as It....and so Here is where my Self-Honesty and Self-Responsibility are.

In opening up my investigation into Trust, I questioned whether or not there was any other Key words to support myself within and as Trust. What came up is: Confidence, Ability, Strength and, The Assured Reliance on the Character.

The Assured Reliance on the Character; Confidence, Ability, and Strength.

What Jumps Out at me Here is STRENGTH

In Questioning: Why have I had moments of difficult within and as Trust/Self-Trust?

The Answer: Moments of Weakness. I did not allow myself the truth of myself in moments of weakness. Meaning, I did not completely understand the dimension of Strength within and as my Trust. I resisted allowing myself to really face myself as How I am Living Who I am.

This lack of regard for my Strength became a massive point of suppression within myself. See, without Strength it is difficult to turn weaknesses into strengths.

What has now opened up for me is Understanding and Realizing the Complimentary Nature of: Self-Trust, Self-Honesty, Self-Responsibility, and Strength. Self-Strength.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize nor understand what it means to live Self-Strength.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to dismiss any regard for Strength within and as Trust and Self-Trust.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize nor understand the complimentary structured support within and as Strength.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize nor understand how I've abdicated Strength of Character as Who I Am as Self-Strength.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to suppress myself here as Strength.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize nor understand how my mind has been showing me my Weakness within and as Strength. I realize my mind has shown me my weakness within and as Strength/Self-Strength as a result of how i've been accepting and allowing relationship judgments of Characters as either Inferior or Superior.

I realize the polarity game of Inferiority and Superiority, reveals self-accepted and allowed Inferiority. This is so, regardless of whether or not You believe yourself to be Superior or Inferior in relationships. Stop it.

I commit myself to stand within as Self-Trust. Self-Trust being my self-assurance in who I am here as self-honesty, self-responsibility and Self-Strength.

I realize my ability to live words effectively as Who I Am, is a result of How I Give meaning to the words I speak. I realize I must first question and understand the meanings of my words if I am to ever establish Clarity and Purity within myself here as Life.

I realize the process of word investigation is a process of self-intimacy that is unique to each individual.

I realize and understand the self-satisfaction within purifying....fine-tuning an imperfection within my Word and World Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize nor understand that when I struggle within making decisions, it is a result of have conflicting charges existing within my words. I realize and understand the solution is within investigating the specifics of each word in regards to the problem. What I mean by Problem...is the Decision that has become stuck within a point of Indecision. Ironically, I realize that Indecision is also in fact a Decision.

When and as I see myself making a decision to exist within Indecision, I stop and breathe, I Ask myself, “Is this practical for me to make the decision of Indecision?” I realize that taking the time to make a decision is in fact a decision for indecision. This is so, in the sense that I am allowing myself to test things out, take time to sort things out...to see and investigate all considerations involved within the Focal Point of being faced with a Decision.

I commit myself to simplicity within and as my word and world here.

I realize, Life Simplicity is the Key to Me. Life Simplicity is Specificity. Specificity is Self/Life Regard.

Day 772 - Life is a StandUp Comedy

 



It's funny you know, when you really get something, like you totally got it. I mean it's that moment of aha that can turn into a real hahahaha ohhh man that's funny, that's rich, that's just so great. pure gold. So money.

See, our lives are like an ever evolving learning process of self-expansion and recognition here, and we are all ways the butt of the joke. I mean we are the source of it all. We are in the house of mirrors and everything exists within ourselves and is mirrored outward as our external reality.

It's interesting to see, when we go for prolonged amounts of time without any relief... I mean, like, just perpetuating a build up of our own self-induced stress that we blame and judge and really believe it's all out there, outside of ourselves. So in a lot of ways, this is not so funny...and that is precisely the point....the knot in the funny....the knot in the fun, because we are too tightly wound, taking ourselves way too seriously, not recognizing the jokes, the points, the learning lessons, the mistakes, the problems and the solutions.

See, it's interesting; Self-honesty through accepting and allowing ourselves to be vulnerable with ourselves here,...our self-in-to-me-I-see...our self-intimacy, the taking the time to look, to care, to in fact recognize the bits of things that are happening within ourselves here.

See, these 'bits' are the jokes....and it's interesting, because everybody has so many bits here, I mean, we are always working with bits of information, and so much so it's in these moments of working with information...and there's a plethora of ways in which this is so...the amounts of varying relationship dynamics is tremendous.  The jokes, the fun, the funny, is the balancing act of not taking ourselves too seriously within and as the work we are engaged within, because we are at work all the time so to speak...our very design is as a working body here,  i mean our body doesnt take a vacation every few days,.., it's an all the time thing.

So, in having some laughs while we work, while we share, while we converse, while we play, we allow ourselves to learn and grow...we are creating a natural learning environment for ourselves within ourselves by allowing ourselves to recognize our accepted and allowed moments of ridiculousness. I mean wow, if we really have a look...it's like so often we are missing out on the fun and the funny because we are not being self-honest with ourselves here. Faking to be cool when in fact that isn't really cool.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to play it cool when shit is not all cool.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating a too prolonged build up within myself without getting to the punch line, the joke recognition, seeing the ridiculousness that i have accepted and allowed.

I realize it's kind of funny to exist as a living joke and to within and as the joke, forget that,.. Tag, I am It.  Like, oh shit, I totally forgot what the fuck i was doing.....what i have been doing....oh man...fuck.  Looking back at my set, as my acceptances and allowances that are ridiculously unacceptable it's like wow talk about bombing. Wait no, don't say bomb if you are being recorded....oh shit is this blog being recorded....lolol.  But seriously, butt butt butt...we are the shit....the whole spectrum of it, it's like we got a giant ball of shit here, the planet and it's a matter of shit management, i mean shit, take a regard of the fact that if you don't move the shit through your body on a regular basis, you are going to fucking die,...maybe through explosion, maybe not.  Point being here, is that I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to forget that I am always working and playing with a bit of some sorts, because that's the standup comedy life process here.

I realize it isn't to say, we must deliberate be fuckup's in order to be funny and have fun....no that would be dumb. Everyone is already a fuckup, Obviously myself included.  It's to self-honestly allow ourselves to recognize our weakness and to turn them into strengths, and to allow ourselves to play with these points of self-development.  Allowing ourselves to be cool in walking a point of weakness into a strength. Allowing ourselves to enjoy the journey/ride/adventure within and as our natural learning abilities here.

It's funny,

When we allow ourselves to be too hard on ourselves,

It's like we are deliberately creating a Hard-On within our minds,

You know,

A throbbing erection to mind fuck the shit out of ourselves with...

and it's like,

every time we allow ourselves to be hard on ourselves about something, it's like we are creating a new big dick inside ourselves,

as another big dick example to fuck ourselves with.

Excuse my Dick humor here,

I'm just dicking around.

Because you know,

it's kind of funny,

I mean realizing the extent to which we fuck ourselves is tragic,

Tragic comedy,

A divine comedy if you will,

because there is so much learning in store,

I mean we are all such a wealth of storage...

and it just so happens that sharing our realizations has the capacity to be both fun and funny.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold back on showing myself the funny here, as the moments/points of ridiculousness that I have accepted and allowed.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to forget to look at the ridiculousness of myself within my acceptances and allowances as the source of funny.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to suppress the fun and funny I have within myself that is at the core of my being here.  I realize and understand that the fun and the funny are here for everyone, we are all a part of it, and it is in fact best shared as like we are each the story teller, and what's cool about a good story is the fun and the funny along the way.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to take it easy within recognizing difficult things I have accepted and allowed.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for choosing to create a fearful frame of mind when I am faced with points that are challenging.  I realize that is ridiculousness, because going into a fearful mind state when things are difficult and unfamiliar, does not really assist and support oneself to move with a sort of effortless ease as the presentation of our in fact developed response abilities as the ways in which we are skilled and versed in movement.

I commit myself to sharing my process of life standup comedy.

I commit myself to encouraging others to share their life process of standup comedy.

I commit myself to share points of relationship that are easily relate-able, so that the fun and funny can be had by all.

I commit myself to educating through sharing stories/jokes of trials and tribulations.

I commit myself educating myself about others by being interested in listening to their stories of trials and tribulations.

I commit myself to being open minded.

When and as I see myself having difficulty communicating with someone, I stop and breathe, I have a giggle as I recognize I have been fucking myself unintentionally....which is pretty ridiculous....i mean to fuck yourself and not realize how you are fucking yourself is pretty fucking questionable...I mean what the fuck is going on!  SO, I recognize the specifics of the mind fuck, and I forgive myself and correct the discrepancy within myself as the point of conflict/friction/blockage that i had been brewing/building within myself.  I let it go.  I open up my ability to relate here. I see for real what is here,  I allow myself to return into and as Flow Here, by being completely open and at ease within myself here.


I commit myself to being a pillar of support in communicating with others.

I commit myself to gratitude within and as the process sharing of words here.

I commit myself to many daily word exchanges.

I commit myself to treasuring each and every word exchange.

I realize word exchanges are kind of like the stock exchanges...because words are instruments here of tremendous value.

I commit myself to cherishing my words and the words of others.

I commit myself to see the assistance and support in words always all ways.

Day 767 - Maleficient

 


Ma-Lef-i-Cent....Mal-ef-i-cent..Maleficent...


I first recall seeing this word when the movie came out with the title "Maleficent".  I was kind of intrigued by this word because I was not familiar with it...at the time, I did a quick look of the word and found it to be synonymous with evil and wicked.  I stopped consciously investigating the word at that point...However, when I would see this word in the poster for the movie, there was a sort of curiosity about it.  Words we do not really know are so much so a mystery.  I did not know if i knew how to in fact pronounce 'maleficent' correctly.  I was kind of reading it like 'male-ficent'..or 'male-ficient'...this didn't quite sound right to me...but I believed myself to not care anymore about it, and it would be just a word I would kind of disregard, and not really know all that well, while kind of justifying that I know enough about it because I connected it to 'evil and wicked'.

Maleficent

"causing or capable of producing evil or mischief; harmful or baleful. malefic, adjective. maleficence, noun. C17: from Latin maleficent-, from maleficus wicked, prone to evil, from malum evil."


Maleficent came up in discussion earlier today while sorting out perceptions of ego that I have been sorting out.  In my mind, so much so, I have regarded myself as, 'Magnificent'. Which, ironically is so much so Maleficent, from the perspective of playing the polarity flip flop in perceptions and deliberately choosing to pick the 'positive' associations to hold in mind as Being 'It' as the form and information that creates my character personality.

Ironically, what is missed within seeking out and defining oneself within the positive light, even with the best of intentions...is the split decision that results as outflow consequence of the accepted and allowed word relationships.  Let me further explain this:  See, if you deliberate take a word and you superimpose it onto yourself for all time, as like this is my form here, this is who I am...You are influencing your form here with the information you are using....which is an act of self-manipulation in so many ways as a result of not really understanding oneself here and how to in fact be capable of expressing words without limitation from moment to moment.  See, so longs as there are these formed impressions/definitions about oneself here as the character you are here...as the who you are completely defined....you are predictably trapped withing your own self-created mind construct.  A self-imprisonment if you will.

Why is this seemingly bad when it sounds like such a good idea to be specific with the words to define yourself as? Well, it's bad from the perspective, that it re-enforces the programming of  oneself being an automatic robot...predictable programming...and then just kind of playing out the various consequences of such a construction, because over time, the programming becomes more and more rooted in as what was accepted and allowed....it's so much more substantiated and self validated as what it means to be here.....All the While, Ironically, the ability to actually Express oneself in any given moment as any particular Word, Showcasing a complete range of flexibility in one's creative capacity to Act and Express what it means to live Responsibility.

See, if i look back into my earlier days, I figured I might as well self-define myself as the Best in the World.  My initial starting point perspective was definitely rooted in survival here, thinking that my greatness is in what I believe, as the rhyming of "what Believe, I can Achieve".  Interestingly enough, I didn't really question why I would really need to create this sort of ongoing Belief within myself...to me, it just seemed like a sort of trick to give myself a competitive edge here, from the perspective that it's up to me to create the best for myself.  Ironically, at that time I did not understand myself in relationship to others here, as like being various points of mirror reflection here...so, so much so I was well on my way in created dissonance within my perception of my shared reality here.  Ironically, with good intentions. 

To give some overall clarity in word relationships:

I've come to realize my capacity to express myself is within and as moments here.  So much so, the moment is a result of and as myself here as a complimentary player and action directing my response ability. 

The interesting thing here, and it is still a continuous process I am opening up, Is in taking the Care to see where I went into an Automatic Reaction in relationship to the relationships in my environment.  What is fascinating about this, is that by investigating the automated behavior which is reaction based, is just a going through the motions without really being an active living participant here...not too mention the play out, isn't really a self-directive play at all....though, ironically, within one's own mind, the reactions as one's actions, make total sense....complete total sense, because that is the very logic/programming that was authorized, whether consciously or unconsciously...the behavior characterization was consented and scripted into one's very own self-personified his/her story.

Words are creative tools for ourselves to express ourselves here.  Our ability to express ourselves effectively here is within our knowing how creative tools work in shaping our form as information from moment to moment.  The irony of course is that holding onto some words all the time, with particular charges about the word...as like it being energetically negative;y charged or positively charged...creates this wedge within oneself where our ability to move as the expression of our Potential is compromised within and as our very own Spelling.  

Let's together here, take a moment and explore the Self-responsible Play of Self-Forgiveness:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding what it really means to express myself as living words from moment to moment as the movement of myself here as a sound.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I created my own self-authorized hypnosis within and from the starting point of wanting to be the best in the world.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how my thinking is so much so a reactionary play out of the making of sense of what I have accepted and allowed myself to believe.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the restrictions I have created upon my capacity to express myself and to see and hear what is here with clarity as a result of what I have self-authorized within myself as my thoughts/feelings/emotions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to really go in depth into looking at my starting point for wanting to be positive.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding that my status standing capacity to express myself from moment to moment is within and as my ability to self-correct my reactions from moment to moment and to create self-corrective solutions as an expression of me standing here from the starting point of Life - Oneness and Equality.  I realize and understand that this is a process of creative play and work as there is much to be done in seeing the errors of our ways and to seeing how we can move beyond accepted and allowed restrictions/limitations.  I realize that our a world is so much so a reflection of our words and our ability / inability to take accountability for our words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for nor realizing and understanding how each and every word is a multi dimensional tool and expression here and our ability to naturally play with the potential that exists here, is a result of our willingness to stop polarizing our accepted and allowed self-definitions here.  I realize our creative capacity is within our ability to remove the energetic charges from our words as this is so much so the key to a real world debt forgiveness, where we are no more enslaved to our own accepted and allowed bullshit.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to thoroughly question What it is I am accepting and allowing,..I realize that is complete bullshit.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for logically self-manipulating myself into believing myself to be separate from the bullshit that exists here in our world,...and for believing myself to be not responsible for all the bullshit here.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing how I have had a tendency to discount my capacity for change that is best for myself and others here.

I forgive myself for unwittingly accepting and allowing myself to be at war with the world.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the profound ironies within and as the military systems of control in this world and the amount of defenses/justifications and excuses I have created within myself as necessary as a result of how I am within and as my thoughts/emotions/feelings.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for defining myself as Magnificent in opposition of of Maleficent.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying myself to be better than others within my thinking from a point of egoistic superiority as a result of believing that I am just better and more committed to self-defining my own greatness.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing the self-compromise within making believe character personalities for oneself as like the consequential outflow of self-definition from the perspective of focusing on building up a positive self regard rooted in a conflict.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding that the more one polarizes oneself here in language, the more difficult it is to in fact have effective relationships here.  I realize our real potential here in this world is within harmonizing the points of dissonance within our language/vocabulary.


I commit myself to sounding through the process of word and world accountability, by taking the time to investigate myself and world here and to in fact utilize all the different mirrors of self-reflection that exist here.

I commit myself to sharing my process or word and world relationships.

I commit myself to expressing my process of self-investigation here.

I commit myself to the moment by moment word movement and expression of myself here.

I commit myself to play with the development of my word and world potential here.

I commit myself to assist and support others to develop there creative capacity to play with what they say and to unlock the moment by moment potential of ourselves here as practical living word and world participants Here.

I commit myself to continue to share myself in writing.

I commit myself to stop flip flopping myself within the realms of positive and negative reactions as like absolute belief systems within myself.  

When and as I see myself becoming stuck within a moment, as like having a resistance to moving myself and taking directive responsibility for my participation, I stop and breathe, I have a look at my momentary accepted and allowed bullshit...i allow myself to sit within my shit for a moment, and really see what i am doing/accepting and allowing for myself here....I also acknowledge and realize that what I am accepting and allowing for myself here, I am in fact accepting and allowing for all of existence...I face my shit...and realize that enough is enough...time to play..time to move...time for fun...time for self expression.  I see the ridiculous absurdity in deliberately accepting and allowing self-suppression.  I commit myself to the process of practical living here.  I realize that this is a process unfoldment here, and that sometimes my movements may be lame and less than graceful.  I realize there is so much fun potential here in allowing myself permission to express myself from moment to moment.  I realize my capacity to live and express words from moment to moment, develops organically as I allow myself to work with my play here in all that I say and do.

Day 766 - Complimentary Word Exchanges?

 


CHECK OUT THE VIDEO LINK HERE FOR MORE CONTEXT


Cool remarks Here by Sanders, as he rather eloquently takes a stand on addressing the typical conflictual rhetoric that is stimulated and instigated so often in our everyday discussion.


Isn't it kind of weird how common it is to be talking shit in one way or another? It's like word and world discussions, especially at the political level are fantastic examples of showcasing the everyday communication practice of Shitting on one another with our words....where it's like en epic battle royal...and everybody wants' to be the Holy Shit...but but but, Everybody is blasting off Inferior Shit...and for some misguided reason, there's a not so often talked about addiction to producing and sharing Bullshit.

The everyday addiction to participate in the practice of bullshitting is the very design of our world economy here....take a look at the symbolic BULL of Wall Street, presenting and representing the everyday Bullshit of our casino stock market.


Ironically, our words to each other, so often mimic the stock market in one way or another....because we are so full of it.....yes, Bull....but what makes this tragic story so epic....is that we fully Believe our Bull....and so much so we really Feel it...i mean these are the emotions that we are experiencing today....I mean the story of how we manufactured our very own Bull is quite a fascinating journey of Investigation.


Ironically, just like the extensive amount of alphabet agencies of Regulation, our mind has the same Bull in place...only we generally call our various Security Exchange Commission's, names like, "excuse, justification, belief, and opinion"...but rarely do we identify the specifics of it...as it is usually a mere protocol in the "making of sense" of our everyday Bull....


Sander's here showcased a rare public moment of holy shit by having a regard for his fellow mate and speaking words of a complimentary nature. Imagine a world of words of a complimentary nature....sounds Epically Awesome in all ways. Way Cool.
Word.


What is another interesting take away here today... Is how we can in fact talk about issues and it can be about the issues and not so much of a VERSUS master debate.  Ironically enough our communication conditioning seems to be rooted in this sort of Versus one another as like a master debate...ironically, quite ridiculously absurd way to to masturbate.

Day 757 - The Flick of the Con

 


I've learned some ironically funny things about Conflict.  Specifically, myself relationship within and as conflict...how primarily so much so it is a decision of myself to accept and allow such relationship ridiculousness as the particular dynamics of various degrees of contextual relationship dynamics.

To place this simplistically,...the point is this....Being at war/odds with things is so much a choice within and as the accepted and allowed word relationships that exist within oneself as the particular feeling/emotional charges one holds onto as a debt bond.  Fascinating it is to see the word relationships as debt bonds...the specifics of particular relationship information contexts as carrying so called charges which are essentially a sort of zing I have been doing onto myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to slow down in such moments where it is in fact possible for myself to see and realize what I am in fact allowing....and to from here actually change the very nature of my word contractual relationships.

I realize the absurd ridiculousness of creating debt for myself within and as my word relations.

I realize how ridiculously absurd it is to bond myself to debt as like making myself dependent upon charges held against myself that I am so much so at the mercy of.

I realize the absurd ridiculousness of drafting such absurd contractual relationships within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extensive nature of each and every moment as an opportunity to so much so check myself within and as my word relationships...as I see and realize my words are my bonds.  Within this, I see and realize my words as the best bonds are that which are based within and as the frame work of equality and oneness...that exist free from conflictual feeling/emotion charges against myself that create a trigger as a reoccurring and perpetuating reactionary debt bond.

I commit myself to absolving myself from debt/conflict within and as my word/world relationships Here.

I realize this is a word by word process.

I commit myself to living the self-correction of and from conflicting contractual terms of word/world relations to substantially beneficial terms of word/world agreements.

Day 751 - Word Consumption

We live in the Information Age....Information is at our finger tips. More then ever before, arguably, access to information exists.


At the same time, there is so much information everywhere...all over...good information, bad information...misleading information, disinformation, hidden information, classified information, secret information, sensitive information, personal information, public information.....etc, etc...


Let's have a self-reflection here, and reflect the starting point relationship of In Form a connection to ourselves...as our cells here as the make of ourselves here is a universe of individual cellular activity...existing as a sort of complex conglomerate network that defines the overall formation of Our Body Here.


Pardon me, if my generalization and some what vagueness used to paint the picture here doesn't resonate well with you.  Perhaps it has to do with how I specifically "worded" something Here?


There is much discussion these days about diet, you know, like what we eat....what's good and what's bad and our overall rates of consumption.


I find it very fascinating that there is not a lot of discussion within popular culture about the diet of our education...or more specifically, Our Information Diet...and specifically the ways in which we process and store information within ourselves and our cells.


What I find most fascinating is the History of substantiation of Information beliefs that become facts through a sort of authoritative science fiction regulatory body.  Ironically enough, the starting point of this Science Fiction Regulatory Body is in Fact Ourselves....Our Cells.  The point is often seen from a point of dissonance within the eyes of blame where it's the "Government Body" out there away from our cells and the "Evil Corporations" and the "Secret Cabal" that are Responsible for the status of Our Cells Here.  This is somewhat Ironic, Isn't it?


Ironic I say?


Blame is Being Lame...to Be Lame is Blame...as like it's a sort of "giving up and death like experience".  Because if You Look at Blame...and observe your participation within and as a point of Blame you will see that there was an abdication of Self-Here....where there is a consent that is given outside of yourself...as like you existing outside of your body and not also within the body...as like to be an empty vessel of sorts. This is so, because there is a disconnect in relationship between yourself and another cell/self as a point of networking connection.


It is rather fascinating and most intriguing to examine the extent of One's self-created relationships here.  What do I mean by this? Many things. Everything really. OK, to be more specific and simple, take for example your 'personal relationships' and how they exist. Write about them. Look at the words you use to define and describe them. Notice the particulars of the various relationships.  Chances are there is varying degrees of Like and Dislike and perhaps even some particular positive feelings or negative emotions about such person's.


Have you ever stopped to consider that the entire makeup of the World is a Self-Reflection of Our Science fiction Regulatory Body. OK, pardon me, I really wanted to say "Science Fiction Regulatory Body"...it was a fun and funny moment to do so. Moving on, more specifically; Have you ever stopped to consider that the entire makeup of the World is a Self-Reflection of Our Cells Here? A self-reflection of Ourselves Here? Always in All Ways?




?To Be Continued!

Day 699 - Discipline

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have mixed emotions/feelings about "discipline"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating a friction about Discipline from the perspective where I crave/desire discipline and at the same time I resist and revolt against discipline.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating uncertainty within my daily responsibilities as a result of and as my relationship within and as the point of Discipline.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself fore resisting to actually purify my relationship and expression within and as the living embodiment of Discipline as I see is in fact best for Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to suppress myself as the living full potential of and as the word Discipline.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create contradictions within myself as the word embodiment of Discipline.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the paramount importance of and as the purity of each living word definition within myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to exercise the living of and as Discipline within and as my decisions/movements here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to forego disciplined principles in and as my applications for preferred preferences.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to stay committed and determined to stick with a particular discipline as a point of purpose in and as my day to day living.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not even considering the practical living support in making a decision as to enact a practical living purpose for my life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how giving myself a practical living purpose can in fact support the development and effectiveness within and as myself as embodiment of Discipline here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating conflict about discipline to such an extent that I created conflict for my life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the irony within and as reactionary and conflicted word relations.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how reactionary and conflicted word relationships reveal to me points of accepted and allowed suppression in my overall character potential ability here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting the daily discipline of being specific within and as my word investigations as like my daily barometer in and as the purification of myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for realizing and understanding the quality of my life here exists within and as my effectiveness with my words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how my relationship within and as Discipline ties into and as the quality of my life here as my effectiveness with my vocabulary here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding my vocabulary to exist as like nutrients of self-support.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not really considering or being systematically diligent in  and as daily investigating the extent of and as my word relationships.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for make believing that my word relationships are all good.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing the Discipline required to practically live for real.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have in fact feared the practical living of Discipline....and the irony within this as the absurd ridiculousness because I have perpetuated that which I in fact would not like to experience.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the specification of our world as our words we know...as specifically as how we have accepted and allowed our words and world to exist.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to examine the negativity within and as my word acceptances and allowances as the emotion that exists within my body about particular words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to investigate the positivity within and as my word acceptances and allowances as feelings that exist within my body about particular words because they feel good.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing the investigation of and as the positive and negative word associations that I have accepted and allowed within and as my mind/body/being relationship here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the change of our mind/body/being exists within and as our word relations....as it is in fact our word relationships that shape this world relationship...and it is therefore our sound signature in and as what is we accept and allow to exist here...as like our resonant signature and vote of what is and is not acceptable.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to be a standing example of and as what is best for all Life in all ways.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for suppressing my spoken/written/living word potential.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the absurd ridiculousness of suppressing my spoken/written/living word potential.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding the tremendous amount of support that opens of as a result of and as the investigation and purification process of One word.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for coping with words that have been devoid of optimum value and nutritional sustenance.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for limiting the assistance and support within and as my word relations.


I commit myself to the purification of my word relationships.

I commit myself to living the purification of my word relationships.

I commit myself to the support and assistance within and as the purification of word relationships.

I commit myself to live the embodiment of practical living word relationships as the epitome of self-living support and assistance as what is in fact best for Life.

I commit myself to share words of support and assistance.

I commit myself to assist and support others to practically live words effectively.

I commit myself to the embodiment of living words.

I commit myself to giving myself purpose within and as the sharing of words here as solutions that can assist and support others to gift themselves access to the development and enactment of untapped potential creation here.

Day 685 - The interconnectedness of the Good and Bad

What's interesting and is often neglected is the correlation of events and the influence and impact that different events/actions cause as a rippling effect and outflow in seemingly far away places...where one could think that nah it's all good here....the problems over there are totally non related to the good here....that's their problem....I don't have to really regard it over here because all is "civilized" orderly.

I was reflecting upon the interconnectedness of Countries and Money...and within this trade relationships...the buying and selling of things....from, human trafficking,...to the vegetable trade...to literally Everything else you could possibly think of!

I've noticed a general point of dissonance in accountability, regard,the consideration, care, thought, and responsibility towards the inhumane acts that happen seemingly so far away from a person's doorstep.

I recall myself as a young child doing some math on accountability in this world in regards to how things function at a global level. My assumptions and understandings at the time of my questioning in to the functioning of whole earth here....meaning, how all human activity exists...and nature and everything else....And the answer I got....was that there are Scientists...and Professionals in Every field of study...and they are working in these areas to maintain and to further the develop of these areas of study. So, from that perspective at this early age in my life....I was like OK,...So, I don't really require to busy myself in any of these particular areas of study...because there is so many people on the job and lining up for the jobs....So, I rather just focus on myself and playing....because it seems as though everything is covered,...and is being taken care of. I mean, I was quite happy about telling myself, "OK, everything is taken care of...I am therefore free to do whatever I want".

Though what is interesting about this perspective and outlook is that a new question came up in regards to the poverty conditions throughout the world.

This point of questioning was never able to be explained to me in a way I could believe. From my perspective, Nobody really knew why exactly things were the way they are....Like nobody could really explain to mean the benefits of not fixing the poverty problem, Lots of people informed me that the conditions that exist here as the most unfortunate and the most favorable...is just a result of the way things are....and that getting people to change the way things are is not really practical or possible because this is how things are. Or, best not to concern yourself with such frustrating questions/issues and rather focus on something that is more enjoyable to you.

Today I saw a story about sex trafficking in Thailand. I also saw a story about a tremendous amount of Tires found in the bottom of the Waters in the United States of America.

As of result of reflecting upon these stories....I got to thinking about how life is valued/devalued...disregarded....and the whole costs of living within this perspective...where there is such a dissonance about human functioning here as an actual worth being....I mean, looking at the point of Profit Here and Money...and how we value or de-value substance here....whether it be a "Tire" or a "child" or anything else that is here...as a matter of fact.

What's interesting to regard is the question, and answer: "How to effectively accommodate the best living habitat for all Life Here" and "What is required for each species to thrive here",,,"what labor agreements are required for each species to effectively contribute to the total collective of Species Harmonious Symphony/Orchestra....the potential exists for the human species to take a governing role as Conductors of the Symphony....perhaps more appropriately titles Guardians of the Orchestra...or Regulators...or Sound enablers....or Support Workers....."

Interesting to regard a correlation with the Human Species of Government here on Earth where each Human is in fact a member of the Government...and the correlation with the established relationships with Country's of Government....where it is accepted as a most amazing disgrace in terms of general levels of approval and satisfaction....from both people within a particular country and people outside of a particular country.

Interesting the control among our own human species...in relationship to our movement into generating/creating global solutions to the the problems that exist.... I mean the shape of consideration and regard in many instances doesn't exist beyond the sphere of one's immediate family relationships....which, in and of itself reflects a point of dissonance in education as the general self-reflective regard and appreciation of what in fact Life entails here.

This education process reflects the recycling we are typically born into...as the history repeating itself....where there is the tradition of keeping up with the beliefs of the authorities/parents....or a complete rebellion and disregard....a generally accepted and allowed war ensues and has continued through our timing here.... I mean, isn't it interesting that a means of wealth creation is through the perpetuation and re-creation of conflict....stimulating conflict....temporary short sighted conflict resolutions which are more like a re-loading of ammunition and fire power to only strengthen and upgrade the battle royal...as the expansively expensive defense mechanisms as the fight/war has been bought and sold as the propaganda worth dieing for....the disposal and consumption of human life....factory farming....human serving...much like the nature of all life here....so much in regards to the established Human Species hierarchy of disregard.....where a Harmonious togetherness has been educated as that which we must fight against at all costs...though the core curriculum is one of confusion through fear...as a dazed and confused manipulation through tremendously layered deception as the latest advancements in human inception....the great deception...our very acceptance and allowance into clever manipulation at the expense of Life regard and acceptance....the spoiling of our gifting inheritance opportunities here.

To Be Continued

Day 684 - Profound

What I find interesting is that everything here is really rather profound. I mean the fact that I am here typing on the computer as an accumulation of networking relations really... I mean how many relationships are networking within the physical body?

What I find interesting is everything here. There is so much here! I really enjoy communication!

Communication is like a communion of sorts as like a common I see a connection or tie on...
Well, maybe communication isn't always portrayed and express as a sharing of a connection....In some particular instances it is the exact opposite of such circumstances.

What I have noticed is that it is so awesome in enjoyment to speak from the starting point of agreement. What do I mean when I say to speak from the starting point of agreement? Well, first of all it starts from within yourself and the starting point relationship you have with the words you are speaking. To speak words from beyond the energetic friction and conflict of a disharmony. This is an interesting conundrum of sorts at times...because as a result of participating with others in communication, sometimes we are faced with momentary reactionary energy that comes up within ourself...and the energy is like a pull/push experience where there is a somewhat of a learned conditioned tendency to want to push the energy out of ourselves as a sort of reactionary response within our communication dialogue...because it's justified within our mind as being of a particular validity because of the energy/emotion connection and connotation.

What I have personally found to be quite cool, is to actually recognize the moment the reactionary energy surfaces within myself and to then take a breath and speak from a point of self trust that exists beyond the energy emotion reaction...where I create a real time direction harmony agreement within and as the words I am speaking which are in relationship to the person I am communicating with.

I am learning about how effective this is in articulating any information effectively.

What I find fascinating about this process of communication that we are all networked within is that we are all so sensitive within our communications and our very communication indicates our particular points of sensitivity because everyone is essentially existing within the same basic operating systems....meaning that we are dealing with language...our base method of conversing with one another is through language. Our language can be verbal or non verbal. I have noticed specific correlations with our physical body postured positions and our internal body acceptances and allowances which I see are indicative of our word world relationships.

I was having a discussion today with a fellow and we are talking about the ridiculousness that its very uncommon...and quite rare really that anyone has the vocabulary of all the words that makeup that parts and the processes of our physical body. We were discussing how doctors are very much specialized experts into particular areas of understanding of the physical body...and how there are family doctors who have a general understanding of the overall functioning process of the body. And, of course there are nurses who have a general understanding of a bunch of the processes in the body...But the point we were looking at is...."who really knows everything about the human physical body?"  I mean this is quite a fascinating question in and of itself. Because, we are all existing within and as our physical bodies here...yet the detailed specifics of our complete realization of ourselves existing within our physical bodies is a mystery of sorts...because we haven't really been educated into the extensive nature of all the detailed specifics.

In looking at this discussion I was having and sharing....it seemed quite peculiar that this point of ourselves would be negated...as like a non consideration really....or a something that is easily dismissive because it seems to complicated in being able to do the mathematical accounting for all the vocabulary that is somewhat foreign from regular dialogue on a regular basis.

We got into talking about the magnificence of the physical body as like a representation of planet earth and how perhaps the best way to design a world that is best for all Life would be in accordance with actually studying and understanding the human physical body and it's effectiveness in existing here as a networking harmony of relationship agreements.

In looking at why I have neglected to dedicate much time into understanding all the vocabulary and processes of the human physical body...I see that I created resistance towards such an investigation because of the idea/belief/justification that this is just too complex of an undertaking and that I don't know how long it would take for me to effectively have complete comprehension of myself here as the human physical body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for making a belief/justification/idea that studying/realizing/knowing myself completely as the human physical body is just too complex of an undertaking and that because I don't know how long it will take for me to completely realize myself as the sum of all my parts here...I might as well forget about it.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having a tendency to dismiss and resistance participating within things I define as being "too complex or too complicated" and "I don't know how I will do will get to the point of completion of such a complex investigation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the simplicity and profoundness of the statement," a journey of profound magnitude begins with the first movement"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing vocabulary that I do not know.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being resistant towards investigating things where there is a structured vocabulary I know nothing or almost nothing about.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to investigate things that will take a committed effort of time and patience.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to gift myself the gift of "Investigation" into the areas that I do not know.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding that the "areas" I do not know are parts of myself I have yet to discover.

When and as I see myself being resistance and apprehensive about embarking upon new investigations and new discoveries, I stop and breathe, I see, realize and understand my profound potential to learn and explore effectively through the specific structured application of asking questions and doing the math within and as the deduction process in realizing the answer and solution to the question I asked....because I realize and understand myself to exist here as the question/answer/solution equal and one.

I commit myself to investigating all point I am resistant and apprehensive about.

I commit myself to stop making excuses and justifications as to why I need not expand my potential through self-investigative endeavors into that which I do not realize I know...but I am in fact questioning...

I commit myself to share myself.

I commit myself to seeing and realizing the profound insight that is always here

I commit myself to my best self constantly and consistently.

I commit myself to walk the process in expanding my relationship with words in learning through work and play with new vocabulary.

I commit myself to share my profound insights.

I commit myself to acknowledging profound insights.

I commit myself to profound greatness.

I commit myself to profound creation as the solution that is in all ways best for Life.