Day 775 - In Fear You're It

 




Inferiority - In fear you are it. You are it in fear. Inferior I tied to the why of the fear I fear. Inferior it is why. A less than experience and acceptance and allowance.  Often masked and projected externally as superiority.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize how I have existed as the Inferiority character construction within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not even believe it possible that I could exist within and as the point of Inferiority.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear my very own inferiority.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hide and deny acknowledging points/moments/reactions within and as Inferiority.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to regard inferiority as such a bad thing, like one of the worst things a person could be.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that inferiority is a choice and a decision so much so and that if you are ever faced within and as the point of inferiority, you should hide it by presenting a false front, lie and deny it, as a way to not accept it within yourself.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realizes how I created coping defense mechanisms within my mind as ways to 'survive' within and as the moments of inferiority. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing how recognition of moments of inferiority is a great point of strength in seeing how and where you are not measuring up to par within and as a point/application/ability.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having made inferiority a perpetuated weakness within myself, by being afraid to admit points of inadequacy within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to regard inferiority as wrong.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to understand and really know inferiority.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating a preference towards hiding from my inferiority within and as the outward projection of superiority.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to compound the existence of inferiority within myself as a result of believing myself to be high, mighty and powerful within the character reaction of superiority.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create abuse within myself internally and externally as a result of fearing to face myself within the full spectrum of polarized characterizations.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing how I constructed a primary character throughout my life as Inferiority who reacts in fear and projects superiority as a coverup job and operation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to live a lie as my very own self-deception and self-manipulation as the reactionary inferiority character that created and energetic addiction towards channeling a high and might experience within myself as my energetic release for the built of layers of shit that I would compound within myself as my mind activity here in defense and conflict with myself and world as everyone here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing the extent and scope to which I created clever coping mechanisms to induce a positive energy high experience and escape for myself as a result of fearing to get real with myself and acknowledge/face/know/understand my weakness as Inferiority and Inadequacy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to associate vulnerability and sensitivity to being undesirable forms of weakness connected to inferiority and that it is my choice to disregard and deny the reality of these words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to construct myself in and as inferiority.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for suppressing my potential as a result of fearing to get real.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be on the run from myself...as like constantly being on the move within fear as my accepted and allowed mind.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating all sort of beautiful words and ideas and concepts as various ways of my word patterned communications to perpetuate a false front....a false flag operation..a lie, a veil, a misrepresentation of the actuality of what I am accepting and allowing within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have thought that is what you are suppose to do with points of inferiority and any other sort of weakness that comes up within one's mind and body experience here...as to make something up that you like better.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realizing and understanding how to substantiate my vocabulary effectively as a structurally sound foundation within myself, as the words existing within me here in and as equality and oneness, from the perspective that words are innocent and do not require me to make up charges held against the words as them being polarized within the scope of positive, neutral and negative energies.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to support a world of impotence, as a sort of powerlessness that is governed and controlled, ruled through and as my accepted and allowed fear...a sort of self-inflicted spitefulness as the lack of understanding of what Inferiority in fact means.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding the sense of irony existed within and as word and world relationships here, within and as our oneness and equality, as that is the one point always here...our oneness and equality...and the irony of course is within and as our self-definition as how we imprison our very cells here at a resonant level as the scope of the entirety of ourselves as all of existence within and as our sound.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize that my potential to exist here as sound, has been suppressed, that I have been existing here within and as a sort of noise, a derivative of sound, a less than experience...the epitome of inferiority...rooted in and as self-abuse, being in conflict with myself and not even realizing how I am in fact perpetuating and prolonging a war within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize the propaganda I would create in and as various forms of reaction/fear of myself being here within and as a point of reaction....where I would then create a disinformation agenda to quickly move into another character to hide the scope of the truth of myself, which has been the very initial reaction/fear within myself, as fear it self.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear fear itself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create a battle/conflict of epic proportions with Fear...believing Fear to be the ultimate enemy and point of separation that I must fight against as the very quick moving reactionary defense systems within my mind.  I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how extensively I have been on the attack and the defense at the same time...the complete reflection of and as the military war machine here in all ways, penetrating the totality of my existence here.


When and as I see myself reacting in Inferiority/inadequacy, I stop and breathe, I take a moment to correctly identify the specifics of my reactionary defense/weakness.  I realize this is a weakness that requires specific self-correction because it is being revealed to me in my mind as a form of military defense and offense upon myself and all of existence here.  I realize it is my self-responsibility to come to terms within myself as a removing myself from the field of battle, where I release myself from participation within and as the enemy construct here. I see, realize and understand the solution of myself here at peace with all of existence as a point of agreement within and as my word relationships here, where I in fact am at ease with my word and world relationships here, where I mean no offense or defense.  I commit myself to the process of settling the terms of negotiation within myself as the vocabulary that exists within myself as a form of energetic dissonance.  I realize and understand the process of self-transformation as the self-direction of my existence within and as energetic information, to that of physical sound substance here as the physical universe here.  I realize, understand, and know the process of status correction here to be a labored physical process of nurturing myself back together again, from disharmony and disease to harmony here as the sound of music at ease.  I realize the substance of self-expression here is in fact our sound.  I commit myself to birthing myself as sound/life here.

Day 759 - What Word is Synonymous with, "The Mother of all Fuckup's?"

 


ASSUME


ASSUME - is so much so the mother of all fuckup's

So much bullshit, as unnecessary consequence is created through the participation within and as the relationship to the word "ASSUME".

To put assume loosely is a guessing game of sorts.

In many instances Assume can take the role responsibility of abdication of labor....as the avoidance of making an inquiry into the actual truth of a matter.  A slippery slope within this...is to logically justify one's very own assumptions.  Which is a 'making sense of a sort of non-sense....making none sense real....I am that is really consequentially in and of it self.

If we have a moment of self-reflection here as the status of our collective shared reality, there is a lot of assumption at play.....because so much so the pillar systems that makeup the rules/laws of our functioning of our overall global society here is a making sense of non-sense.

So much so to participate in assumption and the making of sense of things is to believe into a lie to see if it can work...which is very questionable in and of itself...as like to make a lie work....I mean talk about the art of a con.  Making a lie real through the acceptance into and as the assumption and making sense of things.

I see also there is a sort of apathy about this here....because it's like justifying that it is not relevant to really know, because one has subscribed to the notion that it seems to make sense...or buys into it further with a strong conviction of believing it to make sense.  Whatever the point it.


Initially when I started writing my blog posts in relation to ASSUME/ASSUMPTION....I wanted to make sense of the words in a way that is not commonly perceived...I was curious to see if I could see something else within and as ASSUME/ASSUMPTION, that I was missing all Along...and that maybe there is some practical benefit/use within and as the word ASSUME/ASSUMPTION.

Ironically, what i ended up doing was sort of twisting my perception about the core point of the word as a speculative point and sort of superimposing the practical benefits to making assumptions when trying to figure something out....as like the guessing game.
Though I do see a bit of a distinct difference here from a sort of guessing game of trial and error and the the use of the word assume/assumption....because i see a guessing game of sorts as a point to actually get to the truth of a matter....where an assumption is often more aligned within the point of make believing that particular assumption to be the truth of the matter based upon degrees of speculative logic.

The irony of participating within assumption is that it as as sort of appearance of avoidance of investigation / labor.....but what in fact exists within assume/assumption is the labor of living a lie....the art of deception if you will.  Because it is a sort of deliberate avoidance to actually look into things further when and as there is potential to do so...so it's like holding onto this weight onto oneself as s believed necessity when the very point itself is not being question...and it's right there with you the whole time.

Another angle of assumption is to utilize assumption as a way to create particular energetic experiences for oneself...whether positive or negative....as a sort of propping oneself up or down in a particular matter as a result of laboring the ink of thinking down a rabbit hold of assumption about something..this showcases a sort of mental masturbation that doesn't really serve and practical purpose.

Though the point of Assume within and and as a sort of Hypothesis....as like a looking point....like assume this....than this happens.....i mean that is a sort of consideration point....but it is not really a living/deliberate holding onto of assumption about things...that is more a point of considering/accounting for future possible playouts as the work/play neccessary in and as a sort of responsibile way.

Generally with regards to the point of Assume/assumption, i think it is good practice to avoid automatically accepting and allowing assumptions as points of definition about oneself/others from moment to moment....because it's unnecessary  labored ink on the canvas of life if you will....that is just kind of making a mess as the writing on the wall....because it is not really so much so directive as it is more so leaning on the reactive reaction playout of just making sense of things from a mind conflicted perspective of dissonance that perpetuates a conflicted consequential playout of disastrous proportions.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I would go into the point of making sense of assumptions as a reactionary playout to reading information in my environment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I made habbit of makkng sense of things through the logical justification of assumption without really knowing for sure...but believing to know as placing faith within and as my assumption as my make believe reality that in so many instances...I forgot I even made sense of.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the labored effort within and as making sense of nonsense.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent of ridiculousness that exists within and as the assumption / making sense of non-sense.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having in many instances assumed Learning to be the making sense of things here....When in fact there is a distinct difference between making sense of things here and the common sense truth of the matters here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which i placed faith and trust within my mind to sort of automate the making of sense of things based upon my foundation of beliefs/biases/information....and within this...not really considering if there is in fact any efficiencies in the foundation of my basis here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have created and contributed directly and indirectly to the creation of chaos in our shared reality as the result of participating in and as assumptions as the making sense of non sense.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the self-deception within and as ASSUME/ASSUMPTION as a point of self-interest that is a sort of harbored/labored play to perpetuation a sort of feeling/emotion indoctrination type experience about something.


When and as I see myself automatically making sense of something as like going into the assumption about something I don't in fact know, I stop and breath, I see and realize the ridiculousness of making sense out of non sense. I commit myself to stop making wanting/desiring to make sense of non-sensical points as a sort of mind justification.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for desiring to define/limit myself and others within and as the point of assuming and making assumptions about things...as a sort of believed in peace of mind experience I believe I am creating as a sort of religion of self.

I commit myself to stop self-sabotaging myself within and as the word Assume/Assumption by making sense of not sense and creating storylines of make believe to support a particular conflictual bias that exists within me that is being reflected as a point of dissonance that i am required to remediate as a practical forgive and forget.

I commit myself to share insight into and as the ridiculousness of assume and assumption.

I commit myself to showcase the consequence of particiapting within and as assumption.

I commit myself to move from assumption to practical investigate queries.  I realize that in many instances, all that is neccessary for me to do is stop participating in and as the reactionary assume/assumption energy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the energy of and as sort of self-righteous inferiority masked/draped in a veil of superiority as the general makeup of and as Assumption and when one deliberately participation's in the reactionary energy playout of going into ASSUME....about whatever the particulars of the information are in fact.

I commit myself to expose the bullshit that is manufactured deception through the art of deception within and as the logical justification of making sense of things that are otherwise non-sense in and as a sort of forced effort to simulate a knowing experience.

I commit myself to stopping to participate in shit...bullshit...consequence ...as participating in and as assumptions about things in my world here.

I realize and understand the consequence of assumption...and I see practical value in stopping all participation in and as the habbit of making assumptions about things here...as the self-deception of making sense of things here.

I do realize that the phrase "making sense" or the question, "make sense?" is somewhat synonymous with the learning process of seeing new points/dimensions of things here.  I see realize and understand the practical contexts of makes sense and common sense...and the self-sabotage within surperimposing a making sense of otherwise nonsense.
I realize there is so many dimensions to the structured relationship beginnings of words here.

I commit myself to specificity in and as my world relationship expressions here as my work and play creation.

Day 739 - The Terms of Determination and The Education of Dedication

Continuing from my previous posting:

"So what I see here is cool....is the practical structuring of and as my Dedication...because within and as my dedication is the Determination....and within my determination is the Law of my being here as my Obligation. Dare i say moral obligation from and as the perspective and realization that the best morals are the one's within and as the realization and understanding that there is more for all here within and and as the understanding of what's best for all is Moral as More All here...as the essence of momentum in a continuous expansion of greatness in and as Creation Here."


Since my writing yesterday the Seeing of Education within and as Dedication has become apparent. Also the correlation between Dedication and Determination. It is interesting because in looking at Determination, I find myself within and as the point of Dedication. And it's interesting because if you really regard the terms as the words as the meanings and values which shape Determination...you very much have an education of principles within and as the Dedication required in and as the effective living of Determination.

It's interesting because I never really saw the interconnectedness between these two words before...and what is so fascinating to me is that it's like you can't have one without the other. I mean sure you can disregard one and focus on the other....but then it's like there is a missing link...a missing stability in assisting and supporting the substantiation of interwoven support. I see these two words as like Oneness and Equality....they are complimentary and integral as like the perfect fucking...they fit together perfectly.

Lets play with the word Dedication for a moment here to support the seeing of the meaning within and as Dedication...so it becomes more obvious:

Dedication is the the education of I....the commitment of Self.

Dedication is the education of I....Dedication is the Education with I.

Dedication is the education in relationship to U and I.

Determination is what shapes the education of You and I as Dedication.

Dedication is the giving meaning of words to something.

Determination is the the practical application of Dedication.


I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding the correlation between Dedication and Determination.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding the value of connector words as like complimentary unions of assistance and support to substantiate the best of one another.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent of profound multidimensionality of interconnectedness here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I can effectively leverage strong support and assistance for myself within and as the meaning of words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which Words act as the building blocks that structure the building of creation here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which complimentary actions and assistance and support open up as an outflow of self-directed action/determination/dedication.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to See the pathways I create within and as Word relationships.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself fo resisting in moments to examine the history of my word relationships as like the specific structural engineering of why the path I am on is exactly the way it is.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the specific answers within questions are the very Words themselves.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to examine the interconnection between various word relationships as I specifically define the experience of myself that comes up from time to time as state of reaction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent of specificity that goes into and as the various states of reaction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for never really considering states of reactions as like types/kinds of locations within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for never really regarding various states of being as a point in relationship regard to water....as specifically defined Relationships.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate within various reactionary states without really asking myself, "what am I doing?"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to create my state and status from moment to moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being conditioned/educated to just accept and allow reactionary states to happen as like thinking that is just the way things are.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how control is manipulated through reactionary states...as the consequence of accepting and allowing oneself to be in a sort of hypnotic trance in relationship with oneself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which one exists in a hypnotic trance is a result and relationship to the very and varied methods and points of entertainment that exist here as a sort of distraction as like a take away slip and slide out of balanced stability...as like a going to sleep while you are awake kind of thing where the application is just happening without really thinking about it....programmed self-automation....

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the holistic approach to Determination and Dedication as the harmonious symphony that is the complimentary union of Work and Play which assists and support the Awesome balance of Serious Working Playing Time....as a great combination collaboration where All parts aid in the expansiveness of Greatness as a result of and as a combined group effort for More All as All for One and One for All as the Best Morale.


To be continued

Day 694 - Freedom

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating positive energy about the word "freedom".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating a negative energy definition as reaction to realizing and understanding how I created a positive energetic definition about "freedom".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get stuck within and as my word relationships by polarizing them within energies as either being positive/negative/neutral.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing how I have perpetuated the polarity play of words within myself as an outflow and energetic reaction of myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not recognizing the extent to which freedom exists as kind of an ironic term from the perspective that no real freedom exists within and as the acceptance of a polarized vocabulary from the perspective of having words charged with emotion and or feeling.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent of programming that exists within and as my mind consciousness system as a result of and as my individual self-defined emotion and feeling associations to words as the various energetic attachments onto words which perpetuate a polarized disharmony.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the simplicity of freedom existing within and as responsibility...as the ability to express oneself here from and as the starting point of responding and or directing creation as what is best for Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and recognizing myself as the starting point of creation here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for separating myself from and as the word "creation"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent of the cosmic joke that is 'fighting for freedom'...because this perpetuates the peace/war polarity...where one perpetuates the other...and is really anything but harmonious.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for denying to investigate all energetic word relationships that exist within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for making up blame as a defense to why freedom doesn't really exist. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have perpetuated conflict within myself as a result of participating within blame and holding onto the belief that freedom cannot exist.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from and as "freedom"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding freedom from the perspective of freeing myself from my own accepted and allowed enslavement.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for looking to create an energy about freedom as a way to generate some sort of feeling or emotion in relation to the experience of myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing how the seemingly natural reaction when investigating word relationships is to take on the opposite polarity as the believed to be correct/right adjustment and new way of seeing. I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of jumping back and forth between positive and negative energy.

When and as I see myself faced with a reaction, I first allow myself to take a breath and actually stop the energetic movement that is existing within myself as the reaction energy...I look at the energy specificity and I see/realize the word associations in relationship to the specific reaction I just experienced....I purify my word relationships here by first recognizing the impurity and then by forgiving the impurity and the particular energetic charge attached to the impurity and then I allow myself to play with the word for a moment as I work out an agreement to live as the word...from and as the perspective of substantiating the best potential for myself and the word here. I commit myself to living words as the best structures of support. I commit myself to specificity with my word selection.

When and as I see myself resisting responsibility.....responsibility from the perspective of seeing and realizing a potential opportunity here.....I take a moment to focus on my breathing a 4 count breath and actually stop my thoughts/feelings/emotions and take a self-honest look at the opportunity of responsibility that is available here for me to jump into and as a point of self-direction. I allow myself the opportunity to move within and as the moment of self-responsibility. I see realize and understand my potential abilities and skills are developed effectively as the outflow of my living and directing myself responsibilities. I realize and understand the ridiculousness of holding back on potential as a result of resisting to push self-responsibility.

I commit myself to living self-responsibility.

I commit myself to developing my talents/skills/abilities as a result of living self-responsibility.

I realize Freedom to exist within and as the living of self-responsibility/self-honesty.

I commit myself to practically living self-responsibility and self-honesty.

When and as I see myself faced with a moment of thought that seems so right, I stop and breathe, I allow myself to forgive my thought...as I see realize and understand the righteousness of thought is a hindrance to a holistic perspective here....I realize and understand the the self-responsibility in directing each and every thought through the application of self-forgiveness.

I commit myself to living self-forgiveness as an expression of Freedom here. I realize and understand self-forgiveness is a tool that is fun to use....when and as oneself realize the awesomeness potential of and as self-forgiveness as the gift giving tool that it is.

Day 682 - Reading into Reactions

Continuing from my previous post, Day 681 - Reading Ability


Have you ever questioned your Reactions?

Questioning your reactions is a way to Read into the explanation of your Reaction. What I find interesting about our Reactions is the opportunity that exists for a split second where we can actually see, understand, and realize within a point of awareness as to why we are in fact reacting. This is a split second moment. However, what is most fascinating, is the fact that following this split second of seeing why it is we in fact reacting to a particular situation....We have the opportunity to remediate the situation within ourselves. This is what I call real time self-correction.

How is this real-time self-correction practically applied?

If we regard our reactions as mistakes, the opportunity exists to learn from our mistakes immediately, so that we do not require to repeat the same mistake over and over.

The quick and easy solution to sorting out our mistakes/reactions in real-time is to take a split second...maybe even a couple of seconds after realizing the extent of why it is you in fact reacted....and Forgive yourself for 'accepting and allowing yourself to react in the way that you specifically realized'.......being specific here is key...because in specifically seeing the mistake you made....you are correcting this particular patterned program within yourself....that has been essentially running within you realizing it...and or not understanding how to actually circumvent the reactive continuation playout of a particular programmed script within yourself.

What I do, after I have forgiven myself in the moment, Is I create a script as a practical living solution...application that I can utilize when I am faced with a similar moment where I previously reacted.

For example, the other day I was in my backyard with my dog and I was looking towards one of the neighbors houses. I have not met this particular neighbor. Anyways, the neighbor opened the door and he was looking back at me...I think, he too was letting his dog outside...however from where I was looking I couldn't see his dog...though fairly certain he has a dog. Anyways, he was looking at me for a moment....and then I considered waving...and then I just reacted and looked away....and then he closed his door and that was that. I could see here in that moment that I had a resistance towards waving to my neighbor....that I want into a fear reaction and turned away...as to avoid a moment of confrontation...funny...because had I actually waved...I may have been faced with a smile and a wave looking back at me...possibly a friendly comment....or perhaps the neighbor would not even have noticed because he wasn't wearing his glasses and he can't see anything without them.

What I did, was recognized....read my reaction....see the mistake/suppression of my potential expression. Then I forgave myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to wave at somebody who is looking at me who I am also looking at.

I forgive myself for reacting in fear when and as I was faced with the opportunity to wave at my neighbor.

I forgive myself for reacting in fear to waving at my neighbor and turning my head away to avoid eye contact.

When and as I am faced with an opportunity to wave at my neighbor, where we are both looking at each other from a distance, I take a breath, smile and hold my hand up high and wave at my neighbor. I realize it is fun and enjoyable to acknowledge my neighbors and say Hi.

I commit myself to being friendly.



So here is an example template solution as how to effectively read into a reaction....remediate the reaction...and see how one is able to unlock the potential for self-expression in a future moment as a result of taking responsibility for the reaction in the moment. A practical living learning from our mistake if you will.

Best Regards.

Day 615 Creation and Reaction?

So in looking at the word "Creation" I noticed that the word "Reaction" is within and as the word "Creation" when and as you move the letters around. It is interesting to see also the correlation and connection that Creation is in fact within and as the word, "Reaction".


This is interesting to me because I have been regarding my reactions as less than creation here. What I have neglected to understand and realize completely is how in fact my every reaction reveals to me my manifested accepted and allowed creation here that has become so much so automated. It's interesting because reactions reflect what has already been created...and I have been looking at reactions as the suppression of the in the moment opportunity/possibility for new creation/expression to be born/lived.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the equality and oneness within and as the words "Creation" and "Reaction".


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for regarding my reactions as less than creations.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the self-reflection in seeing and realizing and understanding how and why my reactions are in fact my creations here.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I in fact created limitation for myself in defining particular behaviour patterns for myself as a points of reaction as a result of personalizing a definition of a specific word that stimulates/triggers/generates a point of conflict/friction within myself.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I created conflict/friction/reactions within myself.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for defining reactions as bad and creations as good.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for giving a positive polarity charge to the word "creation" and a negative polarity charge to the word, "reaction"


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting mixed up within myself as a result of bouncing back and forth within positive and negative energies.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating particular relationships towards words with positive and negative energies.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have fucked with my ability to play with words as a result of creating personalized definitions of words with specific and particular energetic associations.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating reactions towards words as a result of creating energetic relationships with words.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have been passively creating my reality within having reactions. 


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how having reactions is a point of creation from and as the starting point of passive acceptance and allowance.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for abdicating creation within passive acceptance and allowance from and as the starting point of having reactions and not knowing and understanding what to do about reactions.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking reactions personally.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing reactions.


To Be Continued

Day 609 Emotional Attachment to Money Self-corrections

When and as I see myself having an emotional attachment towards money, I stop and breathe and say, 'I am here', I see/realize/understand the impracticality and detrimental reliance upon having a an emotional attachment towards money. I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing myself to have an emotional attachment to money. I commit myself to having a physical relationship with money within and as the self-realization that money exists as a primary point of assistance and support for my well being here.


When and as I see myself existing within a polarized relationship with money where I am being competitive from and as the perspective of existing in a win/loss relationship with money, I stop and breathe and say 'I am here'. I see/realize/understand the absurd ridiculousness of having a polarized relationship within and as my relationship to money. I commit myself to equalizing my relationship with money to existing within and as a win/win relationship. I commit myself to utilize my relationship with money as a point of assistance and support.



When and as I see myself desiring to have more money and fearing to lose all my money, I stop and breathe and say 'I am here'. I see/realize/understand the absurd ridiculousness of of existing within and as energetic highs and lows within relationship to money. I see/realize/understand that it is in no way supportive for myself to exist within an energetic relationship towards money. I see/realize/understand how it is equally ridiculously absurd to exist in a positiveenergetically charged relationship towards money, as it is to exist within a negative energetically charged relationship towards money. I commit myself to stop allowing even a brief moment of energetic friction to exist within and as my relationship to money here. I direct myself to stop suppressing my potential within and as the practical living of and as the word money.



when and as I see myself thinking to make decisions from and as a starting point of fearing to lose all my money, and or desiring to make more money, I stop and breathe, I say, "I am here". I see/realize/understand the impracticality and the absurd ridiculousness of making decisions from the starting point of fear of losing all my money and or the the desire to make lots of money. I commit myself to making practical decisions that are in the best interest of supporting myself as All as One as Equal here. I commit myself to making decisions from within and as a point of personal self-responsibility. I commit myself to stop fearing money. I commit myself to stop desiring money. I commit myself to taking on more responsibility with money, I see/realize/understand the correlation with money and self-responsibility. I commit myself to to self-movement within and as the point of self-responsibility here.


When and as I see myself defining my physical comfort in relationship to how much money is in my bank account, I stop and breathe and I say, "I am here". I see/realize/understand how ridiculously absurd and irrational it is to go through experiences of emotional highs and lows within having more or less money than I previously did. I commit myself to stop stressing my physical body about money. I commit myself to stabilizing my physical body relationship with money. I commit myself to self-correcting a point within a moment where I see my relationship to money is out of alignment as Oneness and Equality. I see/realize/understand the danger/abuse within charging up words with emotion and feeling as I see/realize/understand how this is in fact causes stress/strain/tension upon my physical body. I commit myself to stop straining/stressing and putting added tension on my physical body as a result of accepting and allowing words to exist within myself from within and as a starting point of disharmony. I see/realize/understand how and why words can exist within and as a point of disharmony. I see/realize/understand how and why words can exist within and as Life Harmony Here. I see/realize/understand how and why it is a point of self-responsibility within and as how I Live/Express/Accept Words to exist within myself. I commit myself to living/expressing Life Harmony.



When and as I see myself limiting my practical living creative expression within garnering an emotional attachment to money, I stop and breathe, I say, "I am Here". I see realize/understand that my ability to direct my practical living from within and as a point of what is best for all Life is self-sabotaged within accepting and allowing myself to garner an emotional attachment to money. I direct myself to let go of an emotional attachment to money. I commit myself to stop garnering an emotional attachment to money. I commit myself to sharing/exposing the absurd ridiculousness of garnering an emotional attachment to money.

To Be Continued

Day 573 Process of Change

I've been looking at the point of change. Specifically making new goals/patterns/habits/routines/commitments and within this seeing how to be most effective/efficient in implementing these changes.

What I've noticed and realized is that big results and drastic change is the accumulation of a series of many very small steps.

I've noticed and realized how my success or failure within a point of change is specifically the result of my very small steps.

What's interesting to see here within and as the process of change is how steps can also be referred to as calculations or acceptances and allowances.

Each step/calculation/acceptance and allowance happens within a moment.

What I've come to realize and understand is how simple it is to re-align/self-correct myself when I lose my balance as a result of a miscalculated step.

What's interesting here is to see the equality within how easily we can support ourselves in a moment...or how easily we can fuck with ourselves in a moment....because the basic mathematics always applies as the accumulation effect/factor.

What I've found difficult about stopping a pattern/habit and creating a new pattern/habit is looking for the change to happen automatically within myself without any real self-directed effort/commitment and or challenge...like for instance making a plan...and just kind of expecting that my thoughts will walk me through the change...as like telling my body what to do in every moment.

What's interesting about this...is that I am faced with the particular thoughts/feelings/emotions that are linked/formed within myself as the accumulation that has been accepted and allowed within myself with regards to my oldpatterns/habits.

What's interesting to see here is that in order to effectively integrate a new pattern/habit/routine/change, I require a series of new steps and this series of new steps requires repeated repetition in/as order to/so be effectively integrated within myself.

What's interesting about this is that by questioning my every step within developing myself I can practically see and realize the effectiveness of each step. Within this, I can play with a series of steps/movements and within doing this I can establish rhythm and tempo and build upon my application.

What's interesting about this is that I am my own science experiment and I determine the science experiment.

What's interesting about this is that the science is all ways awe-so-me. Here is where things get interesting...because I am the starting point of determining my awesomeness in application. By realizing and understanding that anything that I do that is not cool/awesome is a misstep/miscalculation where I then forgive myself for accepting and allowing a point of less than awesomeness/cool to exist within myself. 

What's interesting about the process of change is that the more specific I get with my questioning of myself here, the more I enable myself to expand my practical living application of awesomeness/cool as that which is best for all Life. 

What's interesting about this is that by constantly and consistently being on the quest of question specificity within and as process of self-perfection in and as the science of awesome/cool practical living applications...it is clear here to see/hear and realize what the answers/solutions are as the ways to effectively and efficiently correct my momentary missteps/trips/falls/stumbles/bails.

It's interesting how within the realization and understanding that the question is one and equal with the answer/solution...and that we are here as the starting point of it...that it is really only a dare to care...a dare to see what is already here...which is fascinating because what's blocked me from seeing and realizing what is here is that I've been too damn scared.

And what is interesting about being scared...is that to really question the fears around why I could be so damn scared is to in fact see the scars that are burned into my memory as various emotional energetic traumas that burned me so bad I've created a self-automated defense system to circumvent any possible chance that I would have to face such a point again. 

What is interesting about such a scenario is that by being scared it's like I'm choosing to inject myself with a poison as the needed justification to prevent myself from getting poisoned again...which is really quite the tragic comedy if you will see the irony here in its profoundness of what I resist will persist because I am persistently enabling the resistance as the self-automated defense system to circumvent any possible chance that I would have to face the point again...and so it's not like I am facing the point again as a new time...but constantly keeping alive the old traumatic history of the past continuously repeating a predictable future again and again and again and thus making the change/self-correction to the future next to impossible because of the extensive nature of my self-automated defense systems as the ridiculously absurd rationality of placing an obstacle in front of myself as the means necessary to avoid facing an obstacle.

To see the ridiculous absurdity of perpetuating self-harm out of fear of being self-harmed...is to see our self-responsibility and self-accountability to stop harming our-self here.

The truth hurts when you step out of the lie, so embrace the pain and realize and understand the weakness of character is leaving the body as we build and strengthen our character as the image and likeness of that which is always best for all Life here. Awesomeness Cool.