Day 795 - I Manipulate with Justification

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to manipulate myself in my world through Justification where I am existing in and as a sort of Ignorance of my living of and as the word JUSTIFICATION.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to self-sabotage myself and my participation within my world within and as the execution of JUSTIFICATION to make sense of my accepted and allowed abdications of my best potential living here as Life made manifest as the realization of myself as All as One as Equal.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand how I create JUSTIFICATION as a form of Defense and Offense I administer regularly to aggressively hold myself within a state of Suppression. I realize this shows to me how deceptive I am, because within this I play dumb as a point of Inferiority, pretending I do not know what I am really doing to myself and others as I use and abuse my words specifically for a sort of reactionary play out of the truth of myself acceptances and allowances.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to resist slowing down within and as Vulnerability and Patience to investigate the usage of my words to be sure that I am standing clear in and as the meaning and the specificity of my share.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be so careless within and as JUSTIFICATION.


I realize the shame within and as the way I have lived Justification.


I realize the travesty of my living and understanding of how to best express Justification.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to Weaponize Justification within myself where it's always been used from the starting point of me existing here on the field of battle, playing out my inner conflict and superimposing my suppression/depression onto the world as how I manipulate myself and others into the point of Inferiority.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand the fear within and as my usage of Justification, where it has been my accepted and allowed, Inferiority and Inadequacy in me that has kept me Justifying....where I created this Need within myself to Explain my Reactions as my actions, to Justify my self-righteousness as someone who is ok, or even better than ok, someone who is good and is even in fact admirable.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to superimpose deceit within my structuring of words.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand the origins of the trauma from my childhood as the source memories of myself physically integrating/learning how to Defend and Attack myself with Justification.



I commit myself to exposing the ridiculousness of Justification used from the starting point of making sense and rationalizing the explanations of failure without being asked and or questioned about such things.



I commit myself to question myself and others in and as the usage of Justification.


I commit myself to show how Justification is an effective tool in and as Manipulation.


I commit myself to use Justification as a tool of self-support in questioning my acceptances and allowances....and to from here be Vulnerable and Intimate with myself in going deep into the discomfort within and as my body...and from here, access the memories of my past where i accepted and allowed suppression as a result of not realizing nor investigating the specificity of my reactions.

Day 793 - Mind Superior Royalty

“I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to lock myself up within my word relationships in such a sneaky and deceptive manner of self-trickery that I resist to even speak or write about it....because the pain of self-condemnation as an Inferior and an Imbecile is heart breakingly embarrassing to myself as Mind Superior Royalty who is Superior to such characterizations and behaviours.”

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize nor understand the significance of my words and world.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to resist taking authority for my world and words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to abdicate direction to misalignment within and as my word and world relationships.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to dismiss the extent of my errors and suppression within and as my relationships.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize nor really extensively investigate myself within and as my words as the science and structured signs of myself here as how I have specifically created myself to be exactly as I am in this moment here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize nor understand how I created my world through and as the specific impressions i created within and as the words within myself and how it is my words that are in fact very questionable always as my words are the explanation to why my world is exactly the way it is. I realize my words are not valid as an excuse of justification for why and how I am here within and as the world. I realize who and how I have existed within and as the world as been an excuse and justification, in a way, my ignorance and incompetence, a lack of Life regard.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for seeking stimulation externally to charge myself internally as how I have conditioned my preferences within my mind for feeding off of my physical body from day to day.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to trust within my thinking as how to best feed off my body for energetic highs and lows as to give me the perfect chemical concoction i desire in the moment to satisfy a seemingly internal and external craving for more and more consumption.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand the addiction i have created within and as my mind to feed off myself, my life, all life as an energetic kick back. Conflict.

Tension for the attention.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to crave the continuous pulsation of tension within my body to feel something, because without a constant stressing and straining in way of engagement i have an experience of being unfulfilled.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for desiring to get my fill of consumption, a point of tension in creating rifts, conflict, as various forms of self-abuse.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize how extensively integrated my conditioned behavior and personality is for destructive self-abuse...and therefore world abuse.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to get real, make the daily commitment to deconstruct my constructions of word/world relationships that i exist in and as separation to.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fuck around with actually living words for real and creating myself and world as I would like.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to make believe that really investigating myself within and as Words is something that is not totally necessary....is entertaining and enjoyable but at the same time a lot of effort and work and therefor avoidable and personally i rather go about this process of word/world entanglement in a less than organized and structured manner because the task and process is overwhelming to me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to become overwhelmed with the process of word and world entanglement.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think that i must think of everything before i can really do anything.\

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for holding myself back from playing and working on Potential developments.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand how One in fact goes about Creating.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to resist being totally self-honest with myself here and that I haven't understood Creation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear looking inferior to others in my understanding, knowledge and application of myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to penalize myself within and as a result of conditioning myself to be controlled through fear of not Knowing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize the process of Know thy Self, is to in fact stand in the face of Not Knowing, and to from here, Walk, take the steps to: Investigating, Learning, Asking Questions, play and work with things so that I know.

Day 773 - DOUBT

 

DOUBT:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which I have dis-empowered myself within and as a result of holding onto an energetic 'doubt' within myself, ...as the 'damned if I do and damned if i don't experience'....perpetuating a sort of stagnation, see sawing back and forth within myself...thinking maybe this way is best, maybe this way is best...a sort of stressful restlessness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the irony within holding onto an energetic doubt within myself....is that what results is a whole lot of nothing...but a lot of humming and hawing...as like maaaaaaaybe......a lot of wasted time and energy into thinking about things, but never really actually doing anything. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear making a wrong decision to such an extent that I would rather avoid making a decision all together. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not recognizing the the ridiculousness of this behavior.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing my existence to be a sort of doubt filled dwelling. As like just thinking of the possibilities without ever really pushing myself to act swiftly and promptly within and as my decision making process.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand the time wasted within and as the fear of making a bad decision...like by deliberately allowing more and more time to think about it.....that the point in question could in fact have been faced by making a decision one way or the other way....but by allowing such postponement on decision making, just allows one's life to compound in limbo....like a sort of state of purgatory....where it's like being fucked on both sides...as like being mind fucked out of the potential good and bad consequence of the situation. A great travesty/deception really.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the travesty and deception of allowing doubt to linger as a reason for indecision and postponement on decision making.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be cowardly in my thoughts/words/deeds as a result of resisting to take self-responsibility for the doubt inside myself.

When and as I see myself accepting and allowing myself to wait on making a decision, I stop and look at why this is in fact what I am doing. I self-honestly assess what is holding me back. I realize that in some instances there is much accounting to do before making a decision on particular matters. I realize it's not to push a polarized self-sabotage by superimposing that one must always be quick on decisions. I realize it's a point of practicality within and as the decision making process here. I realize it is a matter of being self-honest about the points that are here within myself...as this is the real accounting here....See the accounting here is the specifics of and as my word recognition's....because each word of consideration as like the main points is a sort of conglomeration of relationships being put together within myself...and so a key starting point is to write all the words down so to get clarity on the specifics of the accounting.

When and as I see myself wanting to postpone looking at things/decisions here, I stop and breathe, I make note of the specifics that i am deliberately looking to postpone/avoid. I recognize these points as the key points of the matter here...as the main points that need to be accounted for...as like there is some balancing required here...because these points...which can be represented by specific word relationships are out of alignment as how I am existing in relationship to them. So what is cool here, is that sorting myself out is a matter of vocabulary. Word recognition is the key to being effective in and as the world here. I realize there's no valid reason to take my acceptances and allowances personally from the perspective of punishing myself for what i have realized, but to actually move one.....'moving on' is key here...as the taking of self-responsibility in restructuring my life word/world relationships in ways that are best for all life. I realize in identifying the problem/issue, I in fact empower myself within and as self-responsibility to create/direct/develop a solution.

I commit myself to being bold in facing my accepted and allowed doubt.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for using doubt as an excuse and justification for non participation within my world.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to abdicate self-responsibilities within and as the acceptance and allowance of self-doubt as a reason and excuse to justify accepting and allowing inferiority within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to look and see how in fact the ego of superiority is glossed within and as the doubt of inferiority.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the correlation between doubt, ego, and blame as like a trinity of fuckedness as different angled ways in which one can create a mind fucked prison for oneself. I realize that there is other key words in which I have fucked myself in perpetuating a sort of doubtful existence, like justification, reasoning, logic, manipulation, self-sabotage....I realize that in a lot of ways, I exhibited a lot of ways to remain stuck within the core point here...and that being a real lack of self-independence and self-trust as the care taker and authority of me here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize how I have in fact forgot about living my life in so many instances as a result of accepting and allowing myself to exist as the very fear which permeates a doubt filled mind.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how a doubt filled mind is one of such fear, though ironically the fear of massive amounts of inferiority is so deeply hidden behind the surface layer of bullshit which is known and regarded as the positive back chat of super ego superiority where one asserts one's self-righteousness without actually really doing anything but scaring/separating the shit out of oneself, and ultimately missing out on a lot of awesome potential moments of shared enjoyment here. I realize and understand the isolation within and as the ego superiority of self-doubt. I realize the ridiculousness of perpetuating such an extensive bullshit story.

I realize that keeping the fearful doubt experience alive within myself is like deliberately trying to waste myself away here. I commit myself to stop wasting myself away.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to invalidate myself to such an extent that I am searching and seeking for validation, and direction as some sort of answer as to what i should do....and ironically within all this, i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand my self-authority, myself actualization, myself realization here, myself-honesty, myself-trust, myself-responsibility here...myself as the creator of myself here.

Day 761 - The Flow of Money Reflects the Brutality of Our Everday Flow

 

 

 

 

 

The "making of money" within and as how things exist now is so much so the art of war...the manifestation of separation, constantly and consistently perpetuating dissonance as our information relationship definitions....evolving and upgrading the rules of law/war as the reactionary playout monopolizing/monetizing the profits and prophets of all Life/Labor here. Everyone is a television/satellite/antenna sound system..uprooted from a ground sound stability...so the flow of the go forward as what is best is in and as redefinition and living of words, as each here is a one in the collection and accounting for everyone. Obviously, self responsibility starts and stems from the core of our being here as the best structurally sound manifestations. Word, thought and deed all count in the accounting of what is best for all. Investigate all things and keep what is good.

 

 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding that the brutality that I see throughout the world is a result of the brutality that exists within myself and each individual being here.

 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the disharmony of blame as a complete abdication and dis-empowerment of self-actualization as the status standing self-authorized self-empowerment here.

 

I forgive myself for wanting to look at how I am responsible for Everything Here.

 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for making assumptions about things here as a deliberate apathetic vote of lack of confidence and regard within myself.

 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding myself Worth as a refelction and embodiment of all life here as the entire Universe.

 

I forgive myself for resisting to examine the extent of the dissonance within and as the flow of words within and as myself here.

 

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how my mind as an ongoing chatter box of sorts is a reflection of and as the less than stellar flow that exists here as the Money flow throughout existence.

 

I realize and understand I am responsible for the flow of my words and the flow of my money.

 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having regarded the flow of money as separate from myself and within this projecting outward particular dynamics of blame and abdication of self-responsibility.

 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the real power and forceful flow here exists within and as Our Sound.

 

I fogive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting the labored effort to actual create my sounds in a way for the first time in this life...as a result of so much so existing as less than the truth of myself as Sound Here.

 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for abdicating the words as the building blocks and musical notes as the harmonies to my expression so much so as an ongoing continuous waterfall of effortless flow as the best giving here as a purpose life contribution.

 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting to account for the flow of myself here in and as the living/sharing/expressing of myself here as a word/sound foundation.

 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the struggle and strife within and as deliberately resisting to labor my best efforts as my working word and world expressions here.

 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to flow and frolic about as sound freestyle waterfall flow as an essential life support aid that perpetuates the existence of what is best for Life.

 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding myself as sound self-responsibility in and as the words I speak/share/life/Live/Create

 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being lazy with my word and world movements here.  I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how I have deliberately restricted my own greatness of profound flow in and as my moment to moment expression, as a resulting consequence of negliglecting the profound significance of and as Myself as Living Words here.

 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for destroying life as a consequence of not realizing and understanding how to effectively sow my words so as the best support for myself and All Life here.

 

I commit myself to be authentic within and as my word usage here.

 

I commit myself to labor my play within and as my word and worldly expressions here.

 

I commit myself to relish in and as the knowing fact that I have great flow, as I realize and know myself as the source core of and as Life flow.  Within and as this, I commit myself to give as I would like to receive...and to Live the best of myself as the story of me that is worth reliving.

 

I commit myself to the process labor and play of Living Words.

I commit myself to share the flow of know thyself...as a reflection and outflow thanksgiving of the best of ourselves Here....which stems from within the well of our well being.

 

 

 

The "making of money" within and as how things exist now is so much so the art of war...the manifestation of separation, constantly and consistently perpetuating dissonance as our information relationship definitions....evolving and upgrading the rules of law/war as the reactionary playout monopolizing/monetizing the profits and prophets of all Life/Labor here. Everyone is a television/satellite/antenna sound system..uprooted from a ground sound stability...so the flow of the go forward as what is best is in and as redefinition and living of words, as each here is a one in the collection and accounting for everyone. Obviously, self responsibility starts and stems from the core of our being here as the best structurally sound manifestations. Word thought and deed all count in the accounting of what is best for all. Investigate all things and keep what is good. - See more at: http://michaelwilliammcdonald.blogspot.com/2015/11/day-760-restricted-flow-of-money-as.html#sthash.Rp2UlE4A.dpuf

Day 745 - Supple

Continuing from the post: Day 743 - The Irony of Effort

"One cannot work effectively well for a consistently long amount of time with a strong stamina to have excellent output performance if One isn't at ease within and as the work/play.

Isn't it fascinating that we often take this approach to stress even within our recreational activities?

Like for instance Golf:

The golf swing takes about 2 seconds to complete.  There has been soooo much information published about it.  Most golfers or people who have ever played golf....really really struggle with the game. The interesting thing about this...is a correlation to much effort...as like a point over exertion....and increased tension due to the mind chatter within the body while attempting to move through the swing.

The golf analogy is something i will open up more in blogs to come...this is somewhat of a teaser as to what is to come.

Stay tuned, Much to look at here:

Some key words of examination will be: Tension, Strain, Effort, Agreement, Logic, Emotion, Feeling, Golf, Irony, CoIncidences"

I find it interesting to look at the beginning above statement I made about working well for a long time...and i proceeded to give an example of how even within leisurely/recreational pursuits such as golf, where the swing takes about 2 seconds....the same point is true.  It's about our relationships within ourselves.  Now, perhaps this consideration and example, garners perspective into the questioning of "what is a long time?"  Because, 2 seconds is kind of a long time...when you consider that for example you can make a golf swing...and that such movement can move a ball 300 meters.


Some self-forgiveness in relationship to the points at hand:


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which Tension, Strain, Stress, Emotion, Feeling can in fact impede upon physical activity within as little or less than 2 seconds.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding to what an effect the thoughts/feelings/emotions I participate in have on my physical body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding that so much of the Effort about Work is created as a result of having a build up of emotion/feelings conflictual relationships within the body as One's vocabulary that is energetically polarized that contributed to the status standing of conflict/friction/tension/stress....which equates to less than one's actual living potential to express oneself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding the seemingly quick moments of thought and or feeling and emotion that comes up within my mind in relationship to participating within any activity/work/play/movement here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the supple quickness of myself here.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how my mind has been assisting and supporting me as a tool of self-support in showing to me many, many examples of "subtle quickness".

I see, realize and understand how I can direct myself in and as a moment as supple quickness.

I see, realize and understand how I can correct myself within a moment with supple quickness....because it's just as easy to correct/remediate a point of dissonance that is revealed to me in my mind...as it is for the point to come up...so in this regard...I see the practicality in balancing myself within time as like to make the decision to no longer linger in time as a continuously perpetuating build up of tension...as a result of resisting to live as "subtle quickness" within myself from and as the perspective of immediate application when and as I see a movement of dissonance within myself that reflects the accumulation of past moment acceptances and allowances that i have stored within my body/mind as moments/points of tension/stress/strain/dissonance


To Be Continued

Day 729 - Self-Regard

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding what is in fact self-regard always all ways a point of practical living common sense.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to disregard self-regard in moments where I am faced with the intensity of an emotion or feeling in a moment as a movement within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to examine and investigate each and every single acceptance and allowance within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how the mind works as like a tool and gps system of sorts that is replaying to me that which I have accepted and allowed within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get caught up in my own disregard in moments.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to regard the recognition and realisation of self-regard being a point of best wishes and within and as the best wishes for myself here as the carefulness in and as what I wish for myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the significance of and as self-regard being a sound expression of myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding self-regard as that which I accept and allow for myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting moments of self-responsibility within and as self-regard. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the absurd ridiculousness of looking at thing and not responding to what I see in the best possible ways as the realization of and as the self-regard to live/express/exercise self-responsibility.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the self-responsibility within and as self-regard.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding my effectiveness in sharing self-regard is an indicator of and as my accepted and allowed self-regard as like a mirrored image of myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking offense and therefore getting stuck in moments of seeing the disregard I have accepted and allowed within myself

I realize and understand the ease of existing here within and as the standing commitment of self-regard as like the acceptance of myself as what;s best here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the self-honesty within and as self-regard as the practical living common sense principle.."what's best for all Life is best for me".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to create my best wishes as the knowing application of self-regard in and as my daily practical living.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having at times chosen to want to float along within and as a point of self-regard where there is no real regard present within and as the moment of myself here.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the absurd ridiculousness of choosing to hide from and as self-regard.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for avoiding the self-responsibility as self-regard.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to distract myself from and as the attention to myself-regard here as what is in fact best for all life, starting with myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get caught up hiding from self-regard when and as I accept and allow a point that I see and I am in fact able to direct as the knowing self-responsibility that would be best for all life here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the commitment required within and as what it really means to in fact live self-regard as a principle of and as the desteni of self here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the patience within and as self-regard.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the principle of self-regard here as a point of support and assistance here that exists beyond accepted and allowed survival mentality frame of mind where the thinking is limited within the box of suppression through fear...and the ability to play and express and create is thwarted as a result.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the Greatness of and as Self-Regard.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the comfort within and as self-regard.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the discomfort within and as self-regard.


To Be Continued

Day 721 - Is Embracing the Cold a Key in Physical Body/Mind Awareness Here?

I've been exploring Cold Water therapy.  It's a fascinating process. I suggest googling, "Wim Hof" aka, "The Ice Man".

The focus of this blog here today is to remove any energy within myself with regards to "Cold".



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to associate fear and a general resistance towards the cold as like not wanting to get cold when and as I am warm.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for regarding Cold as separate from myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating a energetically polarized relationship between Hot and Cold,...where Hot is a positive thing and Cold is a negative thing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for associating Warm with a mild positive energy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for associating the word Chilly with the word bad and also 'not being good' and with a generally accepted negative energetic charge.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having positive energetic experiences within myself as a general point in regards to warm and hot temperatures and also a generally negative energetic experience towards cold temperatures....or as like a bit less good than warm/hot temperatures.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself dismissing the therapeutic support for the body within working with Cold.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the generally accepted ironies within society/cultural-norms about temperature and specifically the words, "Cold" and "Hot".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the Irony about the specifics accepted within North America culture about catching a "Cold" as like a type of sickness/flu...and not realizing the irony within a typical "Cold" where one may get "Hot" in the process....which is kind of funny in the process....because it seems like a bit of a balancing act here.....where it's like You have a Cold and thus You get Hot in the process as like the body's way of balancing out the internal temperature within oneself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I am able to have influence on my body's ability to regulate temperature as a result of and as my connection here with breath.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the self-investigation into the nature programming conditioning of the mind consciousness as a result of seeing the extent of my automatic bodily reactions to Cold as like an ingrained Fear point that has been developed and conditioned overtime as a result of and as the way I have conditioned my mind and body here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having a survival mentality relationship towards temperature and the specifics of weather...where there is a point of dissonance within myself with regards to the specifics of Temperature and Weather Conditions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for accepting and allowing Weather and Temperature to exist as points that are separate from me to a certain extent as like regarding myself as somewhat inferior to Temperature and Weather.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having been somewhat conditioned throughout the years in my environment to fear the elements to a certain extent as like a matter of survival.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how self-expression can in fact be suppressed in regards to the Elements here as a result of and as the specifics of our emotion/feeling about things and also as a result of accepting and allowing particular points of knowledge and information about things, without actually questioning it for oneself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent of the suppression that exists here in our world as a result of and as Word Relationships.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for conditioning my perspective about reality based upon what other people say.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to blindly accept points as truth because many people believe them to be truth.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having subscribed to the logical rational that if many people are saying something is so, than it must be true and that I do not really require to investigate the point myself because clearly it is true....otherwise so many people wouldn't believe it to be so.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the fuzzy logic at play within and as the general acceptances and allowances of just following along with the crowd....as like not really considering that everyone within the herd is potentially also using this exact same fuzzy logic....which in a way makes everyone within the group a kind of lemming where it's like the blind leading the blind all the way into and as their very own self-demise.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to face the Herd mentality in society/culture here,...even when as as I have tested a point and proven it for myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for conditioning myself to not like to have to deal with directing the Herd on points of realization that are not commonly realized or understood.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being rather self-righteous in keeping my self-realizations and insights to myself as like a sort of coping mechanism with the patience required to communicate points effectively to people who currently do not understand said things/points.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be impatient in word/though/deed as like reacting to the Weather/Temperature of myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having a hard time fathoming the interconnectedness with bodily well being and breath awareness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having a negative energetic reaction towards the words "meditate" and "meditative"...and also for associating these words with various mental masturbation practices...and generally thinking that anyone who meditates is engaging in the egoistic practice of stroking one'es own ego...and that the whole meditation thing is always rooted in the desire for more positive energetic experiences.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the physical body/mind process of self-awareness as Everything Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for assuming that in being born here in this shared reality of ours, that everything is taken care of for me and that I don't really have to do anything...and that I can do whatever I want because Everything is taken Care of.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for blindly assuming that the authorities of Science are accurate in and as what they say to be true.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for separating myself from and as Science.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to doubt the validity of and as myself as here as the very empirical evidence of and as Science.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having created dissonance and opposition in regards to the words Science and Scientists...as like making believe these words to be points of and as self-righteous governing authority.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the scientific process of and as my mind/body relationships here as like the signs and symbols that exist within and as me here that are working together in playing their parts.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for dismissing and disregarding the creative ability of and as each individual part/life that makes up and supports the inner-workings of my Body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent of support always all ways available here within as as the serendipitous interconnectedness of and as the willingness and openness to investigate the possibilities that open up within and as the king of Questions....meaning, where Oneself realizes and understands the self-regard within and as the AsKing...asking of Questions here...as the Self-Authority Governmental Science Investigation and Discovery Journey here...as the growing prosperous potential expansion and development.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the interconnectedness of and as Structural Resonance Alignment within and as the AsKing of QuestIons here as being a point of self-reflection of as as the tune that I am sounding/reflecting here....and how within this process....the answer/solution/question is being mirrored back at me within and my participations within our Shared External Reality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating a dissonance between my internal reality and my external reality here....where there has been a generally accepted disregard and cover-up operation of avoidance as like a procrastinating neglect of exercising the daily practical living of the extent of self-responsibility required to exist here as a constant and continuous Life Force.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the blockage from and as the extent of oneself existent within and as the air of Ego...as the colorful energetic spectrum of feeling/emotion energy as the range from Inferiority to Superiority.....

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the temperature exchange within oneself as the participation within and as as energetic reactions, from the shortness of breath to the ineffective blood circulation of various degrees of accepted and allowed fear.


To Be Continued

Day 720 - Income Tax

I think Income Tax is total fucking bullshit.  From my perspective it is a total scam.  This blog here today is not an investigation of the law in which exists in regards to Income Tax.  This blog here today is in regards to the emotions I have accepted and allowed to exist as a Reaction to Income Tax.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get angry about "Income Tax".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for projecting blame in regards to the existence of "Income Tax".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting frustrated about "Income Tax".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting emotionally frustrated with people who believe "Income Tax" makes sense.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to experience myself as being victimized by "Income Tax".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being self-righteous in regard to "Income Tax".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being impatient within communicating with others about "Income Tax".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking offense to people who do not give a shit about "Income Tax" and just pay somebody to take care of it for them.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that "Income Tax" is total fucking bullshit.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking "Income Tax" is a scam.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding that forgiving myself for something doesn't make the point more or less true but in fact it is a point of self-responsibility in removing the dissonance between oneself and the point. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to let go of the negative energy within myself in regards to Income Tax.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having created difficulty for myself in releasing the negative energy associated with things that are negative.  Within this, I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that if I were to get rid of the negative energy about such points than perhaps the point would be mistakenly disregards as not negative anymore.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for conditioning myself to think and see in and as reactions where it's like I have become accustomed to associate a positive or negative energetic value with the words/things I see.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing making mistakes as a result of releasing myself from negative or positive energetic possession.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding the absurd ridiculousness of fearing to let go of the positive/negative energy experience/reaction to things in this world because then things would no longer be the same. Within this, I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have been fearing change.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to change energetic relationships out of fear that I don't know what will come of them and to a certain extent all I have ever known is relationships from the starting point of reaction as energetic experience.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I allowed the words "income tax" to exist as negative energy triggers within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for placing myself in conflict with the words "income tax".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the absurd ridiculousness of placing myself in and as a war of words....where I am in a state of flux with regards to words as either a positive or negative or neutral reaction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for defining reaction to exist as something that is bad that is negatively charged, even though reactions can be positive energy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having a neutral energetic reaction towards "Income"...and I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having a negative energetic reaction towards "tax".


To Be Continued

Day 719 - Information Automation and Integration

Information is Everything.  We are It. Tag.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating feelings and or emotions as reactions to seeing/reading particular bits of information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for categorizing information within myself within and as a spectrum of energy as like an aura/field that I artificially invested into as a sort of belief/idea/judgement that spawned out of my initial reactions within and as my first meeting/introduction to said bit of information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how much opportunity exists in every moment to face my acceptances and allowances as the particular energy dynamics I exist within as Information/Word relationships.  I realize and understand that I can specifically feel the energetic definitions within myself.  I realize and understand that as I participate in my day to day living my reactions to and from particular points of information is automated as like the why or why not of point's of attraction....like/dislike...energy feedback,

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging the energy feedback I experience within myself as I am discovering parts of myself that I wasn't really aware of what and how I was existing within and as the point. I realize vulnerability is required in opening self up to see what one has kept hidden from awareness.

I forgive myself forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to resist slowing myself down at times when the potential exists for me to go into deeper investigations within myself and garner new insight and awareness about what I have been accepting and allowing within and as mind.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the process from consciousness to awareness is not a sometimes things, but is in fact here always in and as all ways.

I realize that by listening to my voice in each moment of participation I can hear exactly what it is I am accepting and allowing within myself as I speak each word...and that the sound is specifically structured as a direct point of feedback which indicates any particular energetic energies/mind possessions.

I realize that my body movements are indicators of the acceptances and allowances within myself and that specifically the unconscious body movement in relation to participating with others in my environment are very revealing into and as the nature of my acceptances and allowance.  I realize there is so much communication support available here to read.  I realize the support within reading the information existent here as various dynamics of physical body support. I realize and understand that information also exists here as like the energy body....where it's like from the body this energy has been manufactured as particular resonances that are rooted in the pain/conflict/abuse/friction/trauma of not realizing and understanding oneself here as One and Equal with Everything.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the absurd ridiculousness of trying to hide and or distract myself from specific acceptances and allowances that I know I can investigate/explore more and that will lead to new found awareness within myself that I have been resisting to be/become/exercise/express/live as part of my individual response abilities here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I create and perpetuate confusion within myself and restrict my ability to excel in and as self-mastery in managing/directing my reality as a result of splitting my focus from time to time...where I accept and allow a resistance to totally commit to looking at and opening up one point....and moving through that one point completely, before I go into the next point.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking and believing and fearfully living within and as the automation of having many things on my mind from time to time...and within this allow myself to get discombobulated in my ability to function at an elite level of mastery and performance as an expression of excellence in and as each application/participation/task/activity I direct myself within and as.

I realize and understand the simplicity of focus on one point at a time as the Key to excellence in the specifics of performance of the activity/task/sport/work/play/writing...

I realize and understand the support we give to our self-development as the point of awareness and self-mastery when and as we commit ourself to existing within and the one point.  Meaning, if we are giving a lecture....we are immersed within and as the sharing of ourselves as the lecture...present within the point completely...here for everyone participating in receiving the lecture you are giving.  Another example is in playing a sport...where you commit yourself to moving within and as the point as response abilities to perform where the mind is engaged as a tool/map of support to aid in looking/seeing what is the best move/play to perform/exercise...and this is, with practice becomes a continuous dance and flow where it's a total working play...where you playing is a result of the work that you are doing as the player working here as the one reading/process/seeing/looking/directing the point at hand here.

I commit myself to enhancing my specificity in working with One point at a time.

When and as I see myself attempting to work with too much at once, I stop and breathe, have a smile as the realization of knowing what uselessness it is in trying to do too much at once...especially from the perspective of fear....where the application of fucking yourself by taking on too much at once becomes a sort of righteous justification that is motivated through fear.  I look at the various points that I am trying to juggle that is causing this confusion of how to best move myself...I simplify the mathematics of the points within myself and establish a clear specific number one point and then I begin with it and from there into the next point...and so with this approach I create a plan as how to best move through a series of points that were initially regarded as a big conglomeration of points all variously connected without any specific structured ordered direction for best application.  I realize I am capable of accomplishing many more tasks and performing the specifics of each and every task at a level of greatness that cannot be achieved within myself when I don't commit myself completely to the narrowness of focus, from and as the perspective of staying present in the moment with just the one point.  I realize my effectiveness in moving points becomes an acceleration point where I am able to begin directing the next point as I finish the previous one....where there is a relationship from going from one thing to the next and as I get detailed into my awareness specificity as i go from one move to the next I can enjoy the detailed specifics of my application.

I commit myself to enjoying the detailed specifics of my application/process here from consciousness to awareness.

Day 717 - The Order of Things

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having a warped sense of order from the perspective of disregard for and as the Equality and Oneness of all Life here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that if things are ordered in a particular way than they cannot be regarded and ordered in another way that is equally great.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating orders as like codes and commands within my mind from a starting point of conflict and friction where the point of war is encouraged as a polarized energetic work and play that is out of sync.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for dismissing my ability to remediate myself as the words that exist within me and that come up inside me from moment to moment as thoughts, words, deeds.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being selective in establishing a value order of worth to the words/thoughts/deeds that come up within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to over value and under value the equality and oneness of the relationships as words/thoughts/deeds that exist within and as me here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself play out bodily reactions as my thoughts/words/deeds as like having a mind and personality of their own as like separate from who I really am...which is kind of interesting in and of itself, because for a dissonance to exist in thought/word/deed as mind/body//being relationship here than this is quite ridiculously absurd. I mean it's like a triangle trying to move in one direction together by always pulling and pushing against each point as like never creating a continuous harmonious and melodic flow.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to delay my continuous application on points of self-regard as the responsibilities that are mine to deal with.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting the order of my things.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating disorder in myself and this the world as a result of being poorly informed and having consequences manifest as a result of my very own acceptance and allowances of misinformation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating disorder within myself here as a result of misinformation and disinformation.

I forgive  myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how my full living potential has been out of order and it is my self-responsibility to put myself back in order as the restoration of and as my full potential ability and response ability as the love made visible as become the working action as the play write right rite here as the hearing is clear in and as the sound that is me. I realize and recognize the sound that is me is rooted in and as the epitome of me as Oneness and Equality....a sound so here that is always here no matter what...a sound so here that is always sewing and is sown here that this sound as who and how I am here exist beyond a physical body yet the sound is express as the physical body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and regarding my Sound mind here as who I am beyond a quantum mind and body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the pulse of my sound here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent of the embodiment of sound within and as the form in information.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for suppressing and fearing my sounds. I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding the absurd ridiculousness of fearing my sounds....because I am my Sound...and to make a statement acceptance and allowance of existing in fear of my own sounds is to accept the sound/disharmony resonance as like a less than wholeness of myself as sound here....this is like to break myself into pieces...as to accept myself as less than who I am....to make myself but a derivative of myself...that is continuously conditioned into new conditioned restraints which make the derivative of the derivative less and less...as a cycle of confinement within and which the belief is perpetually justified that escape is a valid option...when in physical fact you all it...as everything here...so to create a separateness as like a great big mess is a bit of a discombobulated message as like not realizing how and why oneself deconstructed/constructed oneself here.

I see realize and understand the irony of not realizing what you are doing in the moment as you flow in the moment doing what you are doing...and here I see how great potential and great consequence exists...because from the perspective of certainty and uncertainty working here at the same time...and what is real is always a point of self-honesty...the question as the king....because the king is asking....so in asking you stand as the self-authorization for total regard or disregard...and either way the starting point of creation/self-here is Oneness and Equality, so TAG we are always It...and learning/studying our action and participation and looking at ourselves always, makes what is clear clear...because we always make it...because we are the one's that made everything up in the first place. And therefore each has already won as firts place...so as the king of asking the question you are right and wrong in the moves we make and regardless of the amount of right turns or wrong turns it is a matter of reading the words here and looking and sounding the in form as the information here as the self-reflection as who and what we are.

I commit myself to working and playing with myself/world here as what is best for myself/Life/world/earth/Mind/Body/Being Here.