Day 744 - Doing Fucked Up Shit Because Authority Said So

Are you familiar with the Milgram experiment?  Click the link to read about how average people will kill people because Authority told them so.

To watch a video showcasing the influence and susceptibility of humans to following along with bad advice because an Authority figure told them so...See this Derren Brown Video on the Milgram Experiment. 

Who are the the firs main points of Authority in you Life?

Your Parents

Have you ever asked yourself what qualified your parents to be Parents?

Should you have to qualify to be a parent?

Did you trust in your parents as a child?

Do you see any parallel's with how society is structured with various institutions of Authority?

See, Parents, Government, Medical Profession, Doctors, Scientists, Teachers, Lawyers, Judges, Psychologists, Psychiatrists, Police/Military, Media, Celebrities, Popular Journals/Magazines, and Television

Did you know that when you seek the support and assistance of a Professional in any of the above fields of expertise...the support is but a Professional Opinion. Meaning that based upon the knowledge and information they have collected...the believe a particular way forward to be the best for you.  This doesn't mean that it is true or not true. It means that is an Opinion as to what you should do based upon how the were in fact giving professional opinions about what they should do...and now they have been trained to give those opinions as an occupation based upon following and abiding by so many previous opinions.

What I find interesting here is the point of Trust.  Where thee is often a rational justification to believe what You hear to be true or worthy of your attention because someone who within our world society is defined as being an Authority on Knowledge and Information within that particular field of study.

Is it possible that nobody really knows much about anything and that we have been for a very long time...perpetuating a conditioned behavior response where we mimic our elders and so trust/believe them and shape our Life as a result of what they have said.  How valid is anything that has ever been said, when you consider that so much of whatever has been said, has been regurgitated from somewhere else that was passed on and carried on because of the Trust within the person who said it so.

Are we programmed and conditioned from an early age to make sense of non-sense?

Would you dare to really consider the possibility that who you are today is something totally different than Who You would be if You didn't ever make sense of non-sense...I mean,  trust or believe anyone ever and that for anything to hold true, the point would actually require to be verifiable through self-testing and cross-referencing? A measure of Self-Authorization if You will. What have we Self-Authorized here that is totally fucked up. Who's responsible for the whackness Here?

Maybe this is not the most practical approach...or is it? Does it mean that in order to know that fire is hot you must get burned by the fire? The answer is no. Becoming introduced to Fire for example, you will see and feel the warm of the fire...You do not require to touch the fire to know it is Hot. What about that Fire can burn your skin? if one person is burned by fire as a result of making a mistake and getting to close to the fire, Everyone is able to learn from that mistake and see the consequence of that action....that if you are too close for too long to the fire, You will get burned.

Have You really considered the design of Education in our world? Typically beginning by the parents in the home...and then when you leave the home and go to school....and, every other person encounter.

What is also fascinating is that much of the exchanges of information that take place...come as like forms of commands...where somebody is Telling someone something...often it is an Opinion...which in a way is really a form of gossip...as like the spreading of Wild Fire....and it spreads and spreads and spreads...as you share what they said...and they share what they said...and all the while...just kind of operating within and as this perpetuating infections disease in a way....where most of the information that is being exchanged is not of the best benefit to anyone.

Is it any wonder that we are familiar with words like Rape, Molestation, Poverty, Murder, Torture, Punishment, War, Famine, Starvation, Suffering, Disease, Disability, Deceit, Deception, Slavery, Prisoner, Prison, Military, Weapons, Abuse, Fraud, Terrorism, Enemy, Fighting, Survival, Combat, Defense, Offense, Guns, Slaughter, Profit, 3rd World, Sweatshop, Injustice, Crime, Psychopath, Convict.....and the list goes on....

We are directly and indirectly supporting such conditioned behaviors/environments/circumstances as result of how we are accepting Authority to exist here. When you think of AUTHORITY, Do you think of Yourself First and Foremost...or is the point/words separate from You as like the examples I gave above as particular points of "recognized established Authorities"?

Is it interesting to consider and regard that in order to stop the rampant wild fire here, we need to actualize ourselves here as Self-Authority and Question the knowledge and information we have subscribed to whether passively or actively...because We are on Fire here...and The Fire is Burning up the Earth.  Is this Hell? Have we become in such denial that we would not believe and know what Hell on Earth is despite being slowly burnt alive?

Let Manifest Heaven on Earth Forever, Wouldn't that be better than Hell on Earth? Are things in Reverse? Each is the Author in the Creation of Heaven On Earth Here. Note, this does not mean You create your own little bubble Heaven where everything is all good for you...is a start sure....but what about everyone else....is this a competition where some get Heaven at the expense of many getting Hell. What kind of fucked up game/idea is that?

Lets Share the Best of Ourselves Here, and Question what the fuck is going On and ask ourselves what the fuck are we really doing to ourselves as Everything Here?


"It's Hell on Earth, Whose Next or Going to Be First" Mobb Deep, Hell On Earth, from the Album HELL ON EARTH


Oh, did I mention that the Authority is You and has Always All Ways Been You?

So about all that Fucked up Shit....

Day 740 - Self-Responsibility within Dedication and Determination

Continuing from previous blog entry.

Self-Responsibility is a gift in and as self-empowerment. It is a gift you give give to yourself. Self-responsibility is part of the epitome of practically living any and all words. It's the Authority self-authorization to move and express oneself here however you see fit.

I am looking at Self-Responsibility here in relationship to Dedication and Determination.  What I am doing is clarifying the way to create certainty within and as the development of my full potential.

Some, Self-forgiveness I see relevant here:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding that the commitment to and as the practical living of Dedication and Determination is enshrined within and as the giving and living Self-Responsibility.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for many times shying away from taking on self-responsibility within point I would like to be dedicated and determined within.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how if the Self-responsibility one bestows to oneself is not clear...it is easy to get lost/muddled within effectively living commitments to the best of one's ability.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which Passion exists within and as Relationship to the words: Self-Responsibility, Dedication and Determination.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself having resisted many times how to really establish a structural sound foundation within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which investigation of the Vocabulary in Relationships is of tremendous support and assistance in being able to know how to live self-responsibility within and as specific relationships.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the complexity of relationships as a result of and as the extent of vocabulary existent.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to always utilize a simplistic approach within and as self-investigation...where I start with a word and i examine the relationship interconnectedness that exists and myself reflection within it all.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to actually give myself the Authorization to create Self-Responsibility for myself as a a Live of Dedication and and Determination within and as the work/play that I do.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting self-responsibility/dedication/determination within many moments of movement of myself here as like lacking the clarity of purpose within and as my movement.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which I Authorize the Establishment of Self-Responsibility within myself as my Dedication and Determination.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the substantial Life I can create for myself within understanding and knowing how to live the words: Self-Responsibility, Dedication, Determination, Authority, and Passion.

To Be Continued

Day 710 - Legging go of the Knee'd for Ego

Read this blog here that is a transcription of the video "Revenge of the Ego". Read the words, Hear the words. Take your time.

In writing the title for my blog here, the thoughts that came into my mind were "wait, hold on, I don't want to let go of the Ego do? Don't I maybe need it...or like is it possible for me to exist without it....what are other people saying about the ego....isn't there something about just kind of managing your ego....maybe I should investigate the ego more before I decide to commit to a title that supports the notion of letting go of the need for Ego."

I see my knee injury that I am facing as coming at a very pivotal time in my life. I have been utilizing this is a point of support. Support from the perspective of reflecting upon the consequential build up of my mind consciousness system acceptances and allowances.

I see this knee injury as being a wake up call of sorts from the perspective of like, "hey my body is telling me something....my mind has been telling me lots of things that I have been buying into as idea's that is like contributing to me existing here as Ego...Dare I say Super Ego....as a being who has been influenced and controlled by energy, the very energy i have given credence to...as the ego....the motivation...the motive to do or not do in so many instances...as the pull/push...why....the purpose having been the energy as the what I believed came natural to me as what I wanted...and my belief in being devout in giving myself everything I want...as like creating this compromising position of sorts...a self-sabotage...self-manipulation if you will....where the wants become congruent with the needs to such an extent that there is like a blur between what is actually what...and just become an auto-pilot drifter of sorts as following the code....the code i created within myself as the ego markings...the map of how I respond to stimuli...how I am able to function....like an addict....doing whatever it takes to feed the want that has become a believed need...and making this a purpose of sorts as kind of enveloping within myself create black hole.

The irony of course is being careless and negligent within heir of superiority as the super ego stronghold....which is like a beingness lock down into suppression where the ability to see and breathe is often negated as like an unfortunate result of being so engulfed within a state of one's own personality possession. I see this as the consequence of bad Accounting...meaning, the neglect of my words/actions/deeds....where the pile-up/build-up became a pressure point crystalization that was just too much....a tipping point. a breaking point if you will....an explosion of sorts was the experience of my knee in a moment of physical activity where it seemed like I should be able to bend and contort my body into such a position without consequence.  And reflecting on past instances...I see that I was in fact able to make such pivoting maneuvers without pain and injury....but in looking back, I did not have the accumulation buildup that I had when I went into this particular fall....it's like the pressure buildup was just too much....there was no escaping it.

This consequential fall is quite interesting in and of itself and I am grateful to be here reflecting on the points as I see here this is all part of me Learning, expanding my realization of what in fact Self-responsibility is. Seeing here how my neglect of responsibility manifested and revealed itself in my physical body as me participating in an activity without the ability to immediately bounce back up and recover...it's like I had the idea/belief that I should be able to..and that nothing will happen to me....yet I see I didn't even consider why I wasn't able to...as like initially my Ego was too much to even see what I have been doing to myself in and as my thought/word and deed without and even realizing the severity of how creation in fact works as the working of words as the put together manuals and instructions for how things are to be formed as the information used to build the structures. No, I didn't think it of any paramount importance for me to be so disciplined that I accounted for Everything within myself...each and every single thing.

So, Oopsie, I have had a slip up a mighty great fall...due to some seriously neglected...disregarded and regarded accounting...as my self valuation...self-evaluation....and the irony here...is in and as how I have been living my-self-created-evaluation...and so the results are specific to me here...as my relationship reflection of me here as/with/within Everything here...and fuck....it is clear that the moment to moment application of practical living self-responsibility has been less than effective..and therefore I am facing the consequences of believing Life to be the Kneed for Ego...as like the only way to function here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the kneed for Ego I created within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that if everyone here is an ego, than might as well be a super ego.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to trap myself within ego.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I've fucked myself so hard within ego.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having continuously fucked myself within and as ego.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting lost within my own ego.  I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding the trick of ego in being for getting and the forgetting that ensues within the starting point of being all for getting...as like not seeing and realizing the togetherness of words as complimentary players here...but just abusing words as instruments of consumption.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for abusing words as a result of accepting and allowing myself to often regard words as meaningless...and to therefore never really care about myself or take myself as the living words seriously.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for seriously fucking within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for seriously fucking Everyone, Everything up.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to face myself and take responsibility for fucking everything up.....like....always believing to such an extent...that I do not require to be totally accountable as being the One here who is responsible for Everything being fucked up.

I forgive myself for fearing my own judgement within placing myself in a position of standing accountable for Everything here. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging myself as being too big an Ego to actually stand as a self-responsibility completely, embodying self-ownership for the total fuckup that exists here as everything.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get fearful in talking about Everything as a point of Existing and Life regard.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking of myself as Everything...and that being like too much.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist as too little from the perspective of my potential ability to live self-responsibility here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to substantiate myself for real with my acceptances and allowances.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting stuck in personality character constructions that are less than Who I really am.


To Be Continued

13/03/2015 ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- >>> 01/01/21

THE JOURNEY CONTINUES,

Picking up where I last left off here:

"TOO LITTLE" and "TOO MUCH" is EGO.

Equality and Oneness Together as One WORKS WELL to  Prevent the possibility of self-compromising.

PROCESS is for the PROS TO SAY ------- > PRO SAYS #worldclassplayer

To Be Continued

Day 694 - Freedom

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating positive energy about the word "freedom".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating a negative energy definition as reaction to realizing and understanding how I created a positive energetic definition about "freedom".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get stuck within and as my word relationships by polarizing them within energies as either being positive/negative/neutral.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing how I have perpetuated the polarity play of words within myself as an outflow and energetic reaction of myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not recognizing the extent to which freedom exists as kind of an ironic term from the perspective that no real freedom exists within and as the acceptance of a polarized vocabulary from the perspective of having words charged with emotion and or feeling.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent of programming that exists within and as my mind consciousness system as a result of and as my individual self-defined emotion and feeling associations to words as the various energetic attachments onto words which perpetuate a polarized disharmony.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the simplicity of freedom existing within and as responsibility...as the ability to express oneself here from and as the starting point of responding and or directing creation as what is best for Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and recognizing myself as the starting point of creation here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for separating myself from and as the word "creation"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent of the cosmic joke that is 'fighting for freedom'...because this perpetuates the peace/war polarity...where one perpetuates the other...and is really anything but harmonious.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for denying to investigate all energetic word relationships that exist within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for making up blame as a defense to why freedom doesn't really exist. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have perpetuated conflict within myself as a result of participating within blame and holding onto the belief that freedom cannot exist.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from and as "freedom"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding freedom from the perspective of freeing myself from my own accepted and allowed enslavement.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for looking to create an energy about freedom as a way to generate some sort of feeling or emotion in relation to the experience of myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing how the seemingly natural reaction when investigating word relationships is to take on the opposite polarity as the believed to be correct/right adjustment and new way of seeing. I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of jumping back and forth between positive and negative energy.

When and as I see myself faced with a reaction, I first allow myself to take a breath and actually stop the energetic movement that is existing within myself as the reaction energy...I look at the energy specificity and I see/realize the word associations in relationship to the specific reaction I just experienced....I purify my word relationships here by first recognizing the impurity and then by forgiving the impurity and the particular energetic charge attached to the impurity and then I allow myself to play with the word for a moment as I work out an agreement to live as the word...from and as the perspective of substantiating the best potential for myself and the word here. I commit myself to living words as the best structures of support. I commit myself to specificity with my word selection.

When and as I see myself resisting responsibility.....responsibility from the perspective of seeing and realizing a potential opportunity here.....I take a moment to focus on my breathing a 4 count breath and actually stop my thoughts/feelings/emotions and take a self-honest look at the opportunity of responsibility that is available here for me to jump into and as a point of self-direction. I allow myself the opportunity to move within and as the moment of self-responsibility. I see realize and understand my potential abilities and skills are developed effectively as the outflow of my living and directing myself responsibilities. I realize and understand the ridiculousness of holding back on potential as a result of resisting to push self-responsibility.

I commit myself to living self-responsibility.

I commit myself to developing my talents/skills/abilities as a result of living self-responsibility.

I realize Freedom to exist within and as the living of self-responsibility/self-honesty.

I commit myself to practically living self-responsibility and self-honesty.

When and as I see myself faced with a moment of thought that seems so right, I stop and breathe, I allow myself to forgive my thought...as I see realize and understand the righteousness of thought is a hindrance to a holistic perspective here....I realize and understand the the self-responsibility in directing each and every thought through the application of self-forgiveness.

I commit myself to living self-forgiveness as an expression of Freedom here. I realize and understand self-forgiveness is a tool that is fun to use....when and as oneself realize the awesomeness potential of and as self-forgiveness as the gift giving tool that it is.

Day 658 - Creating the Success of Ourselves Here

I just watched a Ted Talk called, "Programming Your Mind For Success".

In the beginning of the video, the presenter asked for a volunteer to come up on stage. There was resistance amongst the audience for anyone to just jump up and go up to the stage. The presenter said a few more words of encouragement and someone eventually came up to the stage and the presenter gave them 20 pounds.

The point the presenter was demonstrating was "Fear" in and as our Mind Programming.

Lets look at the simplistic definition of Success:

"The accomplishment of an Aim or Purpose"

Notice the relationship similarity/likeness of "Success" to "Succeed"

The simplistic definition of Succeed:

"Achieve the desired Aim or Result"

"Take over a throne, inheritance, office or other position from."

"Come after and take the place of"

"To come next in time or succession"

See the "Seed" within what it means to in fact "Succeed".

Hear the "Seed" within and as the word "Succeed"

Be the Seed in what it means to "Succeed"

Hear the "suck" in "Success"

See and hear the sound "says" like the sounding of the word "said" in the ending of the spelling of the word "Success".

This is walking the talking.

Breathing into Being the Creation of Life.

We are the Planter and the Seed.

Look and "See" within the "Seed" as What it is in Fact/Word You would like to create/develop/participate/expand upon.  

OK, Question: 

If I see and realize and actually know the words "Success" and "Succeed"....Why is it that actually living/manifesting "Success" and the response ability to "Succeed" is seemingly so difficult to achieve?

Answer:

Because we have created the reasoned justifications, excuses...as to why our word/world relationships with "Success" and our response ability to succeed to be so "difficult"

To put things simply.....'We have complicated things for ourselves"

To sort out our difficulties....our complications....problems....we must specifically identify with our words what it is that is in fact so difficult/complicated/problematic.

In doing this, we begin to actively take a part....remove our difficulty....because we get to Know the problem....and when we specifically Know the problem....we can in fact create the Solution....because in Knowing the problem...We can utilize the tool of "prevention as the best cure"...in creating the solution based on the starting point of Stopping/preventing the problem from occurring.

So, lets look at the point of Fear:

In seeing how we prevent our movement/success/achievement/purposes from being achieved because of our Fear....We can in fact forgive Our Fear as the point of making the effort to actively talk/walk/work through the fear by making the decision to 'When and as I am faced with the fear,...to, no more accept and allow myself to be bound/controlled/indebted to this "Fear".

What is interesting to see here is how I Created My Fear Here...and so, I in fact KNOW My Fear Here....So I achieve what I believe...I get what I give...one and equal....I do what I know...I can learn to do what I don't yet know how to do.

Back to the question of Why, 'even though we know the words "Success" and "Succeed" is it in fact so difficult to achieve....? ? ?

Because it's Hardly Easy...I mean it isn't without effort/work...though I do see/know that great work can become effortless as a Natural Ability and true physical self-expression.

What's interesting about achievement I've found, is that "Making things happen is as easy or as difficult as we make it"....

Why would we ever create difficulty/hardship for ourselves here? Not realizing and understanding the scope of our ability....response ability here....

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing my very best results.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting nervous about achieving new goals and accomplishments.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to make a mistake when I am playing for the win.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to lose and desiring to win.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for making success/winning/being the best to be a competition of conflict I am in with myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for carrying around stress/tension/strain as a result of desiring to win and fearing to lose.  

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the absurd ridiculousness of superimposing stress/strain/tension upon myself as like a believed necessary motivation tool to kick my ass into being better...a winner....a success...

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself that best results only come through as a result of perpetuated self-inflicted abuse/trauma.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get excited and emotional unstable about success.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being too hard/difficult with myself at times and forgetting to laugh at myself as a point of knowing how to physically live aloud self-forgiveness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to neglect the practical living application of "leadership" within and as "success" and my ability to "succeed" in achieving my goals.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to stand as "leadership" here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having desired to follow somebody.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for desiring to look up to somebody.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating an addiction to fear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I created an addiction to fear/energy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how my response capable abilities have been suppressed as a result of feeding/perpetuating an energetic/fear relationship within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to standing as a leader.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to make bad mistakes.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for looking for answers/solutions outside of myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for negating/neglecting the specificity required in practically living self-trust in every moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for wanting to be able to just copy someone else instead of expressing myself for real and creating a practical living example.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself self-dishonesty within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding self-dishonesty to be irrational fear.

When and as I see myself faced with an opportunity to succeed as a result of my specific movement/performance in a specific moment, I stop and breathe, I see what is required to be done in order for me to succeed.....I accept and allow myself to know and trust the success of myself here...I commit myself to moving/performing as a self-created success story here.

I see/realize and understand myself as the author and authority that dictates my success here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the association between Expression and Success.....I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding myself as a self-success because of my response-ability in living/sharing my self-expression here.

I see/realize and understand the relationship between success and self-expression.

I commit myself to practically living the words "success" and "self-expression" and "succeed" in and as the creation or my Life Here.

I commit myself to practically living "integrity", "perseverance", "compassion", "passion", "stewardship". "like-able", "skillful", "natural talent", "keen" , "focus", "awareness", "comprehension", "reading", "mathematics", "bold", "daring", "fearlessness", "calm", "cool", "collected", "Money", "Extraordinary", "Stupendous", "excellent", "Greatness", "Flow", "breath", "garden". "plant", "growth", "relate-ability", "regard", "structure", "creation", "creativity", "ideas", "Words", "direction".

Day 500 Self-Righteous Authority

It's been so easy for me to talk a little bit of shit about another person. Like you know, just a little bit, whether it be to them directly or indirectly through a form of self talk or gossip with another.

This type of behaviour in any capacity in simply unacceptable.

I see how I have in many instances felt the need to say something from within the believed justification/reasoning as that I am "just being honest".  Just being honest ? What the fuck ?
Just being honest from the perspective of exposing myself within and as the self-righteous Authority character persona.

I've noticed how subtle I would be in talking shit in some particular moments.  Like there being so much disdain within myself, it's like I felt compelled to just sprinkle a little bit of diaper mouth here, a little bit of diaper mouth there, having no regard for the fact that I don't even like hearing and seeing diaper mouth behaviour.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing myself to be "just being honest" within talking shit about another being.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent of self-righteous authority persona.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for letting self-righteous authority slide within my thoughts, as like just seeing and dismissing the separation forged and formed towards others within accepting and allowing myself to avoid/abdicate self responsibility in removing the accepted and allowed separation that exists within my mind consciousness system as a form of cognitive dissonance.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for for desiring to tell people things from the point of separation as like having an energetic movement within myself and wanting to jump into and as the character that is represented by the particular energy charge that the reaction represents.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the degrees of self-righteous authority within acting out any particular reaction....as like acting out any particular reaction is a point of self-righteous authority...as like being possessed within and as my accepted and allowed mind fuck.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for allowing myself to become dependent upon acting out various characters from within the realm starting point of self-righteous authority.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing self-righteous authority.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding how I have always been that which I fear most and that is the really irony within and as the process of self-forgiveness, self-realization and self-correction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having desired to tell people how fucked they are.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that in telling someone how fucked they are, they will respond to me with immediate feedback of a transcendental self-realisation and an in the moment practical real time living change of character from that which is totally fucked to that which is the epitome of greatness as that which is best for all Life as an actual living character standing as an exampled expression of and what is best for all Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for wishing others to be that which I would like to see within myself....and within that I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for focusing upon others before myself.  I realize and understand that I can ever only see others as I see myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself dismissing the point of self-first within process of self-forgiveness and self- realisation and self correction....because of wanting to play some sorta savior Christ like character persona of feeling high and mighty within myself and reigning down upon another with and as my accepted and allowed self-righteous authority because I got a particular itch unexpectedly in a moment as a reaction that just came up within me that I am interpreting and perceiving to be a a form of attack the I will call blame as like me deflecting the apparent responsibility onto another.,,and there for believing that I must give them the ownership of fault and failure as like designating them as a fuck up.  I realise and understand that this type of behaviour is totally ridiculously absurd as it totally fucked up and that acting this out whether verbally aloud to another....or just within the mind as like a thought wheel....train of though kind of thing....is unacceptable.

When and as I see myself having a thought about how I see another person as this or that, I stop and breathe, I direct myself to forgive myself for that which I see about the particular person as a way to show myself that I can release the reigns of self-righteous authority.

I commit myself to stopping self-righteous authority.

I commit myself to realising and understanding that even the littlest subtle little bit of self-righteous authority is unacceptable.

When and as I see myself feeling the need to say something as like an energetic movement within myself as like an instability as having formed a momentary reaction to something in my environment, I stop and breathe, I direct myself in forgiving myself for the momentary reaction that created an energetic movement of instability within myself. I piece myself back together by utilizing this momentary energetic reaction within myself as a key to see a point of accepted and allowed separation within myself...so I use this point to release my accepted and allowed delusion, I look within myself to see the earliest memory connection to this point, and I forgive myself for creating the particular energetic charged relationship within myself, I commit myself to stopping and this pattern within myself. I see and realise the ridiculous absurdity of the point.  I realise and understand the practicality of self-correcting myself in the moment a point comes up.

 When and as I see myself desiring to act out a particular character as a result of experiencing a momentary reaction within myself, I stop and breathe, I face the point of reaction, I identify the energy, I see the connection to earliest memories, I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for desiring to go into energy possession play out, I correct/remedy the situation in real time.

I commit myself to stop being a diaper mouth.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being a diaper mouth.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding my own shit.


I commit myself to providing practical living support and assistance to facilitate the stopping and prevention of self righteous authority character persona participation's.

 I commit myself to reflecting point of understanding back to myself as way to showcase myself as the point example and so that when I am communicating with another I am not making an example out of them by pointing the finger at them and saying your so this...I see and realize that within taking this approach I give individuals the opportunity to realize their own fuckedness and avoid the misfortune of cycling through an offense/defense reaction of me telling them what they are as opposed to enabling another to realize and understand what they are in fact accepting and allowing through placing myself as the living story/example/self-realisation.....I see and realize within this approach that it's like I am walking with a person through the point...like walking them to the door of understanding and realization and enabling them the opportunity to move through the door on their own as a point of self-responsibility and self direction as an individual labored process of self-accountability, self-integrity and self-dignity in facing self-reflection.