Day 790 - Addiction

What Do You Know About Addiction?

Addiction:

Addition of Diction. Diction is the choice and use of words. Notice with any Addiction there is a specific Affinity about a particular Action. Within the Action which is a form of participation, there is a specific choice and use of words...about the particulars within and which make up the activity.

What makes Addiction difficult to Stop?

Not realizing the specific definitions giving to the experience that results from feeding the addiction.

See: The definitions of the experience is within our words and our emotions and feelings.

The way the relationship is fuelled is from a starting point of Internal Conflict. The Addiction, meaning the action and participation within a certain type of behaviour, is perpetuated by having created a Need to get this Fix. “A need to get this Fix”.

How an Addiction becomes Itself in reality?

Repetition. Repeating the same actions over and over within oneself to generate a very specific Experience. Scientifically, it is a form of Suppression and Depression.

Why is Addiction a form of Suppression and Depression?

Because the Life-force of the body is being hosted by the mind relationship to get an Experience. Specifically, Chemically...it is a form of self-created custom designed Ecstasy Heroin, which is completely individualized as your preferred High.

Why is Stopping Difficult?

Not understanding How. What do I mean by that? How to actually give yourself permission to do what you want. See: when your relationship towards moving and doing things is from the starting point of Addiction....being compelled from an experience within yourself....you just do it without any effort....because you are motivated unconsciously to chase that feeling.

Judgement. Stop the Judgement. Judging yourself within your addiction just perpetuates the build up.....build up, meaning the energy friction conflict within yourself that has become dependent on getting this fix.....this fix being a very specific experienc.

Notice this dimension: “getting a fix”

Deep Deep down within yourself is the acceptance and allowance of yourself as 'Just Not Good Enough', 'Inadequate', 'Inferiority', 'Anger', 'Frustration' and 'Irritation'. (there may also be other specific words deep down....but these are core words that fuel this self-created problem)

Someone who recognizes they have an addiction is usually somewhat aware of these core points mentioned above.

However what is difficult to do...and is often missed and over looked is the flip side of the coin. Meaning all the positive experiences inside yourself. The energetic Highs. Positive energy. See: It is actually this desire to get a High...whether the High experience comes in the Form of an Upper or Downer or Trip-Out experience is irrelevant. It's a specific individualized self-created custom high experience.

How to Take Care of Yourself in Stopping Your Addiction?

It's a matter of getting a divorce. A divorce, meaning, putting a stop to the agreement that's been created about the Addiction.

See it's all in the words.

Start with writing about How much You Love the Addiction. Why you Started Doing it. Your experience right now, may be experienced more Like Hate....that you Hate the Addiction....But if you self-honestly look back to when you started, You Loved It!

So, No judgment.

Write out what you love/loved about it.

Take your time, Go into it. Make Notes.

From Here, You start understanding the relationship you have created....that in it's very nature it's extremely charged. See the real test of character....self-honesty here is the willingness to go into the Positive....what you like about it.....because, it's easy to want to sort of Hide and Deceive and Delude and Justify with words.

Understand that many people look for reasons outside of themselves as to how they can stop. It's interesting, because this can be effective....but it isn't the recommended way to go....because you go further into Inferiority inside yourself through self-projected Superiority....you know, being a Hero, or a Martyr...A real “Good Person”. And the fascinating thing, is that people will recognize you as that point.....so now it's like you've just transmutated the addiction into another channel/avenue to continue feeding the fix experience. Ironically enough....it's like even more secret...and less obvious to even yourself....because the point is now further layered into you.

So,

The way out of the addiction is a matter of Word Regard. Go all the way within opening up the Good and the Bad. In doing this, One can remove the HYPE...the energetic build up....See it's a Balance of the Good and the Bad....The positive energy and the negative energy.

Day 787 - Creating Structure(s)

Lets have a look at Structure:

Our time is structured....whether we like it or not. Obviously depending on our time management and regard for our responsibilities and allotment of time...will reflect in the quality of our minute to minute structuring of our days within time.

Activities are structured.  Say you play a sport...there's a certain structure to it that makes it the very sport/game you play.  Television is structured into a specific amount of time....same with movies.  Also consider here the stories are structured in a way of a timeline.

Money Is Structured. What do I mean?  I mean lets say you use a bank, there's banking structure.  Also, how much money you receive from work that you do is often structures by an hourly wage, an annual wage, a commission per sale, and or by specific contract.  Each point showcasing a particular structured design.

Our Thoughts/Feelings/Emotions are structured. What? Have a look...if you investigate the details into one of your thoughts....you can see that it corelates to much about yourself in one way or another. Same with the feelings and emotions.  They have been conditioned into ourselves in very specific ways as a result of how we have acted and reacted in response to stimuli in our environment.  Basically how we have been conditioned to process information from the time we were born.  Interesting investigation into the structure of our thoughts/feelings/emotions....because in using our words as a point of source identification....we can explore further by seeing what connector words are associated to the core words that come up in relation to a thought/feeling/emotion.

Point I am getting at here is:  Everything exists within and as Structure. Notice how something that is well built is checked by the engineer to make sure that it is Structurally Sound.


Creation is therefore all about Structure.  Anything we do has that point of structure to it.  Even within the regard that we create new structures by learning and knowing...understanding old structures.  Because with this insight we are able to fine tune the structuring of things in ways that are great.  Though ironically enough if we look at the world of business, many products are being made more and more inferior in and as the quality/durability of their structure.

I have started Playing with the creation of Structures in my day to day living.  How so?  Specifying specific amounts of time to begin new projects.  I am keeping it super simple. So i've decided to test these specifc structures over the course of 1 year. Yup one year.  The structures I have set up are small investments of time on a daily basis. 5 minutes or more.  I set the stop watch and I immerse myself within the point for 5 minutes...or a bit more if i decided to do so.  Though the point here is in seeing for myself how many things I can create with very small investments of time on a daily basis.


See the interesting thing here is that the learning compounds everyday.  So, lets look more closely at the 5 minute investment each day.  Lets take 7 points of Interest. that's 35 minutes.  Each day for 365 days. That's  1825 minutes per point. now say you pushed yourself and you did 7 minutes on each point.  Keep in mind, you dont have to do these things, one after another.....you could have 7, 7minute blocks spread out throughout your day.  That doesn't seem all that difficult. That would equal 2555minutes on each project/investigation point of discovery.  Now the interesting thing here is obviously you could push it further if you wanted to.  Say you get 10 minutes on average....because you just can't help but want to do more once you've started this fun structure setup you've created for yourself.

The emphasis here is that their is tremendous growth potential when and as you create a structure where you build on your own momentum on a daily basis.  It's a cool discipline in short term focus for long term benefit.

So just figured I would share some of my structured investments that i've embarked upon. 



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to resist creating structured supports in my day to day living. 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize how supportive it is to create many structured points of support for myself in my day to day living.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand my tremendous creative potential within creating specific structures within my day to day living.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to forget about Play in relationship to Structure.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have forgotten about being a small child who was extremely satisfied to spend time on the Play Structures.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand how setting up specific structures within my day is allowing me to Create Structured Play Time in a variety of ways.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand how creating specific structures within my day to day living creates and supports the harmony of a balanced work/play creation.

When and as I see myself resisting one of my specific structures I have setup to support my day to day living, I stop and breathe, I realize that moving into the structure and playing and working with it will be fun.  That the time commitment is short and totally doable.  I realize that these specific structures i have setup in my day to day living are long term investments that yield a rich harvest.

I commit myself to the fruits of my labor.

I commit myself to using Structures to support my best potential.

I commit myself to using structures as a platform to Create and develop myself in ways in which i would like to expand and grow.

I realize by creating structures for myself I am creating a sort of recipe book of my own success.

I commit myself to living passion within the specific structures i have set up.

Day 779 - Names and the Fit of Descriptions as Our Words in Motion

I enjoy playing golf.   At times, golf can trigger a whole bunch of emotions within myself. It's interesting to even listen to myself say that.  "golf can trigger a whole bunch of emotions within myself."  I mean, it's me as golf and the specifics of the relationships dynamic particulars from moment to moment....as like how I specifically name/defined the particulars of any given moment and situation on the the golf course.  Like for instance and example here:  Approaching my golf ball and looking at the potential shot I can hit here and then thinking about my ability to do it....like a sort of judgment and value created belief in my capacity to do the shot...where it's like the whole nature of the thinking is sometimes glossed in a fear of fucking up the moment, missing the shot, not performing the result I see that is needed/best....and then from here, taking myself into a sort of self-talk pep talk as like a sort of self-religion of pep-talk, as like a self-believed comfort talk in focus on performing the motions that are needed.  But in questioning this automotive conditioning that comes up from time to time with regards to various moments, is the very fact and nature of this 'fear' hidden beneath this 'self-talk' at like the very core of myself as who I am in relationship to the moment.  And this 'Fear', essentially rooted into my core being belief structured thinking is justified logically within and as my conscious mind of thought, which comes out seemingly natural as who I am...and thus, seemingly very believable.  Believable, yes, because  it is the very self-reflection of my self-created belief systems.  And the kicker and the irony is that it is entirely fucked up....like in a way that I would not like for myself or for anyone...because the starting point as has been mentioned earlier is Fear.  Fear being a sort of paralyzing function in and as complete self-trust....the ability to move oneself in and as a state of confidence.

In taking regard here for myself within and as the layering conditioning of the psychology of myself within and as Fear as the resulting process which triggers the conscious self-talk / pep-talk as like how to move myself through a motion of action,....Is a very interesting point of Question and Investigation...Because I see this being a sort of self-created disharmony in the music that is me here as harmony.   What do I mean by this?   I mean, it's like I am creating a rift in my ability to naturally perform a specific motion and movement with effortless ease, power, precision, clarity and exact specificity.  See, I see myself and everyone having a natural learning ability....and our naturally learning ability is innate, a given that all life has been gifted with.  Now, this is where the story gets interesting, See, we all have this extraordinary....extra-ordinary ability...yet our knowing and understanding of ourselves as it gets complicated and confusing throughout time, due to the extensive nature of how we have allowed ourselves to play/work/develop our abilities here.  See, I see that our playing here as a grand generalization has been to a certain extent, very lackluster...where we sort of write ourselves off in one way or another,...Ironically and totally not realizing ourselves as the very narrator and authority who ultimately decides and designs the results of our actions/reactions/non-actions.

To be continued Here:

note:  I wanted to open this up to get the ball rolling and really get into the best swing of things as starting the momentum within and as a topic of profound awesomeness in so many ways that really is the epitome of and as our ability to create ourselves  as our lives in ways that are fun, enjoyable, and all ways Best here.

Cheeeeers :)

Day 771 - The Sloooooooooow Down Secret

"Slow down, so you can see more of what is here"

Hanging out with family and friends is a great opportunity to test yourself.  The emotional feedback you get from family and friends will in most instances be stronger than that of strangers. Note: by emotional feedback, i am specifically referring to the reactions that come up in our own mind, as like what gets to us in one way or another where we are triggered.

When you allow yourself to slow down enough to specifically identify the reactions/triggers that come up in the mind, there is great potential to change the relationship dynamics in the moment, a real time change. What is interesting here is that it is a matter of self-recognition as our mirrored self-reflection here within and as our word and world.  See, traditionally within and as points of mind ego, We are reacting to the information we see.....what is interesting about this, is that we are in fact so close to the point of self-correction......self-identifying our own bullshit here.  See, in seeing bullshit about another, so much so, this bullshit that is getting to us, is a reflection of our own bullshit we are hiding from.

So,  in recognizing what points cause stimulation within ourselves...as like a sort of emotional or feeling reaction, where we are desiring to act out our release.....like we just got to say or do something....like, we are possessed to do so....the experience of we just got to do it.

Now in some instances, we can see and recognize the experience within ourselves and we stop our selves from playing out the bullshit, but we leave it there.  This is a cool starting point...the stopping the play out of the reaction...BUT, it is cool to keep on with the slow down approach and actually go into the specifics of the self-recognition here....the particulars of the vocabulary/points that are a bothersome/burden/stress/conflict.

See, in slowing down enough to look at the scope of the relationship dynamics of a situation, one's whole world changes....because it's like going from a tunnel vision perspective to a holistic perspective. Reconnecting, Remembering a piece of ourselves here.

A practical support point in looking at things is this:  Identify a point of friction, specifically see the judgement that comes up as a particular word or words dictating/defining a frame of mind.  In seeing our shit come up within ourselves...we can in the moment forgive ourselves, and so Learn the point in real time...because what opens up when we self-forgive a point of accepted and allowed separation, is that we realize and see things that have always been here that we just couldn't/didn't/wouldn't/weren't getting to See here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for holding onto judgments that come up within my mind within social situations that keep me in a state of possession and limit my ability to be sensitive and receptive to others in a way that is complimentary and gentle as the best support here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to speak bullshit as a result of speaking form the starting point of feeling/emotion possession.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how my own thinking is what perpetuates conflict in my world, because my thoughts present to me my accepted and allowed thought patterns..., the specifics of what i have built up over time within my body as the emotions and feelings i have formed impressions about in my body as the specifics of the self-definition picture frame of mind.   I realize and understand the self-corrective process in taking the time to see the High definition picture formation relationships i have constructed within my world through various lenses of ego superiority/inferiority relationship acceptances and allowances.  I commit myself to equalizing myself with all Life here, by purifying my thoughts/words/deeds.  I commit myself to self-forgiving and self-correcting points of ego that come up within my mind.  I realize my mind and environment are fantastic support structures here.  I commit myself to utilizing all the support and assistance I have here to in fact develop and create the best version of myself here.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how I miss the humor of my own accepted and allowed ridiculous, my mistakes, when and as i resist slowing down to look at things for real, and in fact, take my time here.  I realize the irony of not taking my time, is that fact that i do not have any time, that my life has no substance.  Ironically, i see how it is an individual self-responsibility to make time for ourselves here. I see and realize our time as a shared commodity/privilege/potential here.  I realize our creation potential and learning capacity is within making time here, because it is within slowing down and taking the time to look and see, that we can actually recognize what is here, what is going on, and how best to contribute to the world here.

I realize that, in taking the time to investigate the specifics/particulars of our word/world relationships here,..., the more we do so, the more we have to share/give.  Ironically, we have more to share when we take the time to look and see what we got to give...and within this, it is quite fascinating to see how awesome it is to share something we really worked on make real here.  This is a fascinating realization of our self-development here, because it is taking the time to develop the particular dynamics of ourselves here, the more easily we can relate and share the best possible support with others here.  I mean, giving the best gifts, is fucking awesome, nobody wants a terrible gift. so it's a  matter of taking our time, slowing down to see for real.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which i have skewed my ability to see for real here in every moment.  I realize that my perception is skewed when i allow my point of view to be tainted within and as the energy of reactionary thought.  I realize and understand how the moment of  reactionary thought can be a sort of tipping point to getting to the point of focus and clarity within and as myself here.  I see and realize the focal pivot point of the energy of thought, a stepping stone of support in identifying the specifics of a personal weakness that is here in and as opportunity to become a real strength of my character/expression in Life here.  I commit myself to the identification process of the specifics of the energy movements that come up within me as thought.  I commit myself to utilizing all my thoughts as tools of support in strengthening my vision here in seeing the world with real eyes here, without filters as particular energetic biases that are self-destructive.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize the self-destruction within and as Ego.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to let go of ego.

I forgive myself for not realizing the irony within resisting to let go of ego, the fact and point of Slowing Down,..taking the time to see what I am doing here.

I commit myself to slowing down and looking at what I am doing here.

I commit myself to seeing what I am accepting and allowing here.

I commit myself to taking the time to learn from what I see here.

I commit myself to taking the time to relate to everything here.

I commit myself to listening to everything here.

I commit myself to sharing the best of myself here.

I commit myself to taking the time to create the best of myself here.

I commit myself to living the slow down realization of creation here as a point of slowing down in order to move more quickly as the self-direction of myself here in all ways.

I commit myself to slowing down and taking my time with family and friends,  I realize reactions are an indicator of being insensitive to slowing down and seeing family/friends as me here in another life.  I commit myself to facing the truth of myself in my participation's with family and friends.

I commit myself to sharing the results of my realizations within slowing down and taking the time to look at things for real.  I commit myself to letting my sharing of my realizations come through as part of my living expressions here.

Day 743 - The Irony of Effort

It's interesting how we make something to be particularly effort-full in our mind...like the way the relationships have taking shape...things become a regular regulating the state of flux that is taking place within ourselves as a sort of emotion and feeling disposition.  What's fascinating I have found within learning and incorporating a new skill or ingraining a new pattern...is that the experience doesn't have to be so effort-full from the perspective of making the effort to try so hard...as like within the mind being over thinking...and exerting oneself within a point of stress because of the emotion and feeling one has created in relationship to and as the point.

Does a child create such an effort-full relationship to learning a new language....or does an adult typically place  more emphasis on the try hard effort...more likely the adult...whereas the child is just more effortlessly absorbing the material in many cases because they are at total ease within working out the point...they are literally playing within the point.

What I have noticed is that playing is key in process.

There is a definite seriousness to playfulness.

One cannot work effectively well for a consistently long amount of time with a strong stamina to have excellent output performance if One isn't at ease within and as the work/play.

Isn't it fascinating that we often take this approach to stress even within our recreational activities?

Like for instance Golf:

The golf swing takes about 2 seconds to complete.  There has been soooo much information published about it.  Most golfers or people who have ever played golf....really really struggle with the game. The interesting thing about this...is a correlation to much effort...as like a point over exertion....and increased tension due to the mind chatter within the body while attempting to move through the swing.

The golf analogy is something i will open up more in blogs to come...this is somewhat of a teaser as to what is to come.

Stay tuned, Much to look at here:

Some key words of examination will be: Tension, Strain, Effort, Agreement, Logic, Emotion, Feeling, Golf, Irony, CoIncidences

Day 741 - When The Going Gets Tough – The Moment You're Tired

When The Going Gets Tough – The Moment You're Tired

So I am Here in this moment pushing myself to share a bit of myself here in further establishing a new consistency in writing my blogs. I have been looking at the dedication and determination within and as the Self-responsibility to actually walk appoint as the Self-Authority on making what happens Best…Best as in for myself and all others as myself here.

The point is clear here…that sharing is caring through writing antidotes of support as words that assist myself and others as myself. Therefore I see it is paramount that I push myself to make this writing happen on a daily basis.

I looked at the point of time practicality and that somebody's will be much more of a squeeze than other days. This is the nature of learning how to juggle the effectiveness of time management. I mean things wouldn’t bee challenging ever at times if there wasn’t any resistance to walk through.

This evening for instance am I quite tired and would like to get to sleep earlier than is usual. This is somewhat of a consequence of my previous day time management where I stayed on later than expected and had to get up quite early…and I had a full day of activity today. This here is like a point of parenting in a way….I mean if you have a child and the child needs attention and you are tired or were sleeping and the child is calling for you…..you may want to go to sleep but the self-authority point of self-responsibility as that which is always best is to tend to the child in the best practical ways.

I see myself as taking on the parental guidance of my own individual application. I mean I am an adult…yet I see and recognize the child within me as like I am an adult child in a way…as I very much am still intact within and as the playfulness that is a child. I see that we are all children in a way…where even though we grow old…there is still a childish nature about ourselves. This I see here where the harmony is key in and as the balance of self seriousness and self playfulness.

I am quite enjoying myself here as I flow out words a like a fountain of support that is me here taking step by step word by word to substantiate the strength of my character here in ways that are Best for myself and Everyone as myself here.

This writing here today is the push …as like I was facing the pull of the tiredness energy within myself and all the excuses were coming into my mind as like I need to go to sleep now…there’s not enough time for me to write today…I’ll just write double tomorrow as a way to make up for today….these points of immediate thoughts coming up within myself as a solution of sorts that I wasn’t even really looking for are a disguise and a veil of sorts….a trap …an entrapment…where it’s like subtle suggestions in a way to submit to less than the potential I am to stick to the dedication and determination that I am to write myself Here.

I see realize and understand how to push myself through a pull experience in the mind when and as the going gets tough and the mind wants a shutdown experience of suppression as like the overwhelming experience of tiredness where one can easily justify the death of self in a moment…where it’s like believed to be logically rational that one just physically can’t go on any further. I mean here is the self-honesty…this is the equation ….the solution….the Solution as what is best in fact…and here the support I utlize in the moment is the questions as point of assisted and supported guided direction as my moral compass if you will where I see if and as I am in fact capable and able to do more than what my mind as my internal gps system is suggesting for me as the direction for my Life.

I realize and understand that my potential ability and capability exists beyond what comes up in my mind. It is not to say that I can not have a cool supportive thought…or that all thoughts cannot be supportive in one way or another….the point I am emphasizing is the self-honesty within and as the assessment of moment management as the recognition of what is in fact my potential ability in this very moment as Me Here the standing epitome of and as Self-Responsibility.

I am noticing that great questions for myself are somewhat rhetorical as like a question and an exclamation because I see here within and as this regard…that I am so much more than what I have ever believed that I am…and this is fascinating because I am beginning to recognize myself Authority as the writer/player/director that has so many solutions in any given moment as always all ways…and there is a lot of good ways/routes of assistance and support to aid in myself pushing myself as the resistance strength training where I prove to myself that I am in fact here as Substantial Endurance and Stamina and that physical ability far exceeds my thoughts and that I am just learning to get comfortable with the recognition that I am capable of more than I ever thought was possible for myself and all Life as myself here.

Life is remarkable as we are the writers that make the marks as how we exclaim ourselves to be so as the sewing things so as to how to have sown in the best possible ways the assistance and support that is substantially great to aid in the best development of Ourselves…our cells and the whole body of everyone here as to make the self-honest contribution to Life as the realization recognition and understanding of what it means for expression to exist as “I live to Give” At Your service as the best service to myself is the best service to You…as You is me in another Life and I am You in and as this Life.” Together we are both Here. Alone Here and All One together Individuals put together to share as the “I am Here to Give to Life as I am Life.”

To Be Continued J

Day 740 - Self-Responsibility within Dedication and Determination

Continuing from previous blog entry.

Self-Responsibility is a gift in and as self-empowerment. It is a gift you give give to yourself. Self-responsibility is part of the epitome of practically living any and all words. It's the Authority self-authorization to move and express oneself here however you see fit.

I am looking at Self-Responsibility here in relationship to Dedication and Determination.  What I am doing is clarifying the way to create certainty within and as the development of my full potential.

Some, Self-forgiveness I see relevant here:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding that the commitment to and as the practical living of Dedication and Determination is enshrined within and as the giving and living Self-Responsibility.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for many times shying away from taking on self-responsibility within point I would like to be dedicated and determined within.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how if the Self-responsibility one bestows to oneself is not clear...it is easy to get lost/muddled within effectively living commitments to the best of one's ability.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which Passion exists within and as Relationship to the words: Self-Responsibility, Dedication and Determination.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself having resisted many times how to really establish a structural sound foundation within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which investigation of the Vocabulary in Relationships is of tremendous support and assistance in being able to know how to live self-responsibility within and as specific relationships.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the complexity of relationships as a result of and as the extent of vocabulary existent.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to always utilize a simplistic approach within and as self-investigation...where I start with a word and i examine the relationship interconnectedness that exists and myself reflection within it all.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to actually give myself the Authorization to create Self-Responsibility for myself as a a Live of Dedication and and Determination within and as the work/play that I do.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting self-responsibility/dedication/determination within many moments of movement of myself here as like lacking the clarity of purpose within and as my movement.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which I Authorize the Establishment of Self-Responsibility within myself as my Dedication and Determination.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the substantial Life I can create for myself within understanding and knowing how to live the words: Self-Responsibility, Dedication, Determination, Authority, and Passion.

To Be Continued

Day 738 - Determination

Determination - "A firmness of Purpose"


Let's play with the word "determination' for a moment here:

Determine a tie on.....like to make the connection.....de terms in at ion.....the terms of agreement.....de term in a shun......determination.....deter mind nation.....de-terms-mind-nation....de-term-my-nation....de-term-in-my-nation....the words in my being...the-words in my life....the meaning i give me....Determination is the terms as the  meaning of words i give myself to live.

The specifics of determination is in and as the precise focus of purpose....as a firmness....

Determination is the solid commitment one makes to get it done.

Determination is the set of terms one gives as the guideline principles in walking a point/goal into completion.

Determination is a key tool in and as the solidity of creation here because it's the "I got it" point where the I know this kicks in.,.The decision in I am doing this....I am committed to this...I realize that there will be obstacles along the way....But....Is the Determination factor...as like using the but...as, Yes I am the Solution and my Determination is in and as the Will of as as my way..a path to work and walk to bring about the way forward solution into and as the harvested fruition.

Determination is taking on a point to make work...as become the life force within and as the Will to Grow/live/create...as the Making it happen.

Determination: A decision to in-act potential ability as a new becoming responsibility that is developed and fine tuned.

Determination: The I Get it....I got it Done Attitude.

Determination...a self-willed and self-motivated movement that is cultivated through the roots of firmly planted principles.



The point "Determination" comes up within me here this evening as i am looking at my total blog writing's thus far....and I ask myself the question. "is it possible for me to improve upon my output?"

I would like to improve my blogging output. Yes I realize that this is very possible. I see the value in my blogging contributions. I garner specific support with every word i write. I care to share for myself and for others as myself.

I realize and understand the sound foundation that accumulates through the writing process as practical living support. The cultivation of firmly planted principles if you will.  Taking on the 7 year journey to life is a point of dedication. I would like to give myself more from my writing. Meaning greater consistency. I realize that there is many days where my timeline is more packed with things to do than it is other days. I see the point of writing as something that is just so valuable....that even a little bit is better than letting it slide.  I've played this game with myself before where i have looked at this point of writing consistency and wanting better results for myself here. The question is, Have i ever really Dedicated myself to better results? Can i dedicate myself to making a blog writing every day? Can i do this...even if i require to share multiple days writing's at one time as a matter of maximizing my tine efficiency within my days? Can i dedicate myself to finishing out the month with a blog every day? If i can finish out the month with a blog every day...can I go the next month with a blog every day?  If I can do that....can I go the rest of the year without missing a day in my blogging/writing as Process support here? I want this. Right now i am fearing to say, "I got this"...because then I am committed...and if I commit I know i can do it...and that doesn't leave room for me to fail.....which is an interesting thing...because it's like I have grown accustom to failure...and it's like I have taken on the approach of not giving myself as much as I am able out of a point of greed which is rather ironic...because what comes up in the mind is that I giving up excuses/justifications/rational as to logically make sense of non-sense as the how to way to talk myself out of best potential. The word Obligation comes up...as like without committing myself within the "I got it" point...I am free of the Obligation to get it...because it's like saying i don't totally Got it...and so whether I get it or I don;t get it...oh well...maybe...maybe not....a lack of intensity as the firmness of purpose...the narrowness in focus in completing a goal....the art of self-perfection really.

Let's look closer at the creation of "Obligation" within making a "dedication".

What's fascinating about the word "Obligation" is that it is synonymous with Responsibility and Agreement and Commitment....which are all specific points of and as 'a course of action'.

What is also very interesting and fascinating about "Obligation" is the connection to legality or morality.

So what I see here is cool....is the practical structuring of and as my Dedication...because within and as my dedication is the Determination....and within my determination is the Law of my being here as my Obligation. Dare i say moral obligation from and as the perspective and realization that the best morals are the one;s within and as the realization and understanding that there is more for all here within and and as the understanding of what's best for all is Moral as More All here...as the essence of momentum in a continuous expansion of greatness in and as Creation Here.

To be Continued

Day 734 - House Boat...Life Boat...Daily Applications at SEE

A point came up earlier as a point of of our individual lives from the perspective of House's here. This is a cool perspective. What is interesting about this perspective is that those of us who are adults....have to a certain extent or another....fixer uppers from the perspective that there is things within our life developments that we have accepted and allowed to exist within our House/Self here that is less than what is best for our Self/House. So with this perspective in mind, we can't just collapse/destroy our House and start over....because that's like giving up and dieing kind of thing....so we Are the fixer upper's and renovator's. Now this is quite interesting because the potential end result is the same as a blank slate fresh start creation....yet the process journey in getting to that fruition is a different path/harvest/renovation.

So, the question comes up:

How much focuses attention do you spend renovating/restoring your House/Self on a Daily Basis?


This was kind of like a wow question for myself....because the point comes up that I have been coping to a certain extent with my house/self here and not really pushing my house/self total potential. There's been a certain amount of complacency...as like existing within it it...and, kind of dwelling to a certain extent. Which is ironic, because the point does exist within me where I do want to renovate and expand my potential here. The point of preoccupation i see that I have given to much attention to is dwelling within myself/house as like making a big deal and giving to much attention to things that don't really need so much attention from the perspective of renovating and expanding my House/Life.

Let's look at one of the definitions of Dwelling :

Think, speak or write at length about (a particular subject, especially one that is a source of unhappiness, anxiety or dissatisfaction)


I bring attention here because it's a point of recognition to the ridiculousness in perpetuating the existence within Dwelling as a point of unhappiness, anxiety or dissatisfaction.  The irony here is that that the more one gives attention/thinking about that which is unhappy/anxiety/dissatisfaction.....the more one writes the story as the ink in which you think that stains you as the window panes that be your life vision as your in house / self insight as the very actual television programming that was told to oneself....day after day after day.

Next questions:

What do You tell yourself Everyday?

This is a point of practical consideration and regard.  The game plan if you will. The live action movie script and direction. The plans for the renovation....whether they are the day plans...or the grad plans of many days.


When do you take the time to write/plan/create the incoming days possibilities?

See there is a certain amount of advantage to having a game plan when you are here to get a job done. One is able to be more precise with the days movements and moments when and as one has already created and walked the simulation as the do it yourself how to.

Is the self-regard and consideration clear as to the actual benefit in taking the time for oneself to plan and in-vision the upcoming work to be done...and specifically creating the way in which to do it and actually seeing how to do it...so that the actual doing gets done...and it;s not like this stutter step that you don't want to take because you don't know because you didnt take the time to create a way for you moving play...


Can you treat the time like accounting?

Yes, have a look....time is creation potential here....and that is cash money.....because have a look....everything is life here....and to get basically anything here is cash/money....and yes....even the words within me are cash/money because it's the proficiency in the usage of my words that dictates my ability to receive cash/money....because very much so...the sewing of my labor as how I move is in and as the relationship to my words as the song that is sung within myself here from moment to moment as my ongoing movement.


What's interesting to consider here about this time like treat of accounting for the moment to moment management....is the recognition that the internal going on is a regulator of the external going on....and so it begins within to extend without. So, knowing this....it's in what one accepts and allows to play within oneself...as like the music workings going on...if the think as the thought is one's you wouldn't want to be caught with....destroy the evidence....delete it from the memory history as like get rid of it...so there;s no more repeating repeats that aren't worth repeating. In this way we can forgive ourselves for playing over and over a song that shouldn't be sung as like a waste of space....because really to think about the stink of a stench over and over and like sit within it without getting rid of it is....like, what the fuck....not cool....so face the heat or get cooked like a bad burn because you didn't recognize the chore in farming the manure or putting on the sunscreen of flipping over to even out the tan....you know things are all about a matter or timing...which brings me back to the starting point and the time management and regard recognition as like to support the specific implementation of points of planned responsible time from day to day as a way to for sure the proper cognition as sound mind music maker moving as the dance of live that is lived when you already know the verse as to how this responsibility can be conversed.

Final thought thinking's here as my celebration good bye as the great buy gold nugget to take away here......is the:

"Your Wish is Your Command"


and check it out....Realize...See for real....the Wish.....the Command....is Your Living Words! So Abracadabra is the meaning of Life here as the I speak what I create as the sound is sewn as the seeds that grow.....Abracadabra....Your wish is Your Command.....So, be filled with Care for What you wish for...and cultivate the caring regard for yourself daily as giving attention to the seeds you See as what you planted as the focused planning and remember you are the farmer/cultivator and curator of said results...so knowing this is like the great potential to fine tune greatness as enabling a certain level of room for adaptability for results that were not previously seen that are beyond the initial wish or planning but are in alignment with the sound structured greatness that you are....as it is all ours...Each Got it to give....so Give it to Yourself...the music ...the words....the talk...the walk...to make and create that which is great.


To Be Continued

Day 733 - The Decision to Create Specific Expressions from Moment to Moment

Writing is a very cooooooooooooooooooooooooool platform for playing with the decision making and creating process as the specific expression of oneself here.

In a way whether or not we are physically writing or typing words...we are very much in accordance with the language of information....as the information is within ourselves here...and each and every moment we are working with information and are making decisions as to how to express or suppress....which is interesting in and of itself because the suppression is just kind of an reactionary play out that just sort of happens as like the nothingness taking over....i say the nothingness taking over from the persepective of being influenced and governed by momentary blips of energetic information coming up within oneself as consciousness containment so to speak as like a shock/buzz that dictates the sail of and as One's ship as how One will be in and as a Relationship here.

The interesting thing to look at here is ourselves as the master programmer...and in saying this....SEE the Mast within and as the point of Master....meaning, the Sailor hear.....the Director/Captain/Leader....the One Giving the Commands.

What I have noticed is that sometimes I forget just how much ability I have in dictating the expression of myself from moment to moment.  I mean the ability to express oneself from moment to moment is really something quite marvelous. The play of Today I say that is always here is in and as the moment of and as self-direction here as the who/how/what possibility and opportunity to make the play working as a resulting commitment to playing as the live live acting/expressing Director Here.

It really does boggle me from time to time when I catch myself in the funk of the wrath of self-authorized confinement as like the victim of a terrorist attack that was my own doing onto myself as a result of accepting and allowing an energetic reaction to engulf the Mast of my Mastery and kind of take me for a swirl into a temporary disarray as like a momentary confusion that requires the simplicity in self authoritative direction within and as the simplicity of sorting out the cross wires as like the hiccup within and as the electricity connection...the seeing  the unnecessary strain and drain I was putting onto myself as a result of an energetic dissonance in and as the accepted and allowed polarization of myself within and as a self-reflection being missed and seen as totally separate and distant from myself...kind of like a mirage in the sense...of being caught in the energetic allure of seeing what I want to see even though it's not really here but I'm kind of force fighting it here as an outward suppression of the inward suppression.

Obviously the point is to not get caught within the hiccup...nor sweat or dread a potential hiccup...as the momentary challenges that come as like the changing windy conditions that will most certainly affect the positioning of the Mast of and as Self-Leadership if and as Self-Leadership is not quick to exercise the expression of Response Abilities. I mean, even with the quickness and steadfastness of approach in adjusting the sail to compliment the adjusting conditions...the influence is here...as like each is a point of influence here as influence is who/how/what we are. The Question is what Kind of Influence are You? Consider all kinds of Everything Here....that is the makeup of Influence we are working with. Obviously the practicality is in Knowing and Trusting in the Mechanics of Expression through and as the Creative decisions We Make as Our Know and Understood Response Abilities Here.

Let me bring more attention to the Known and Understood Response Abilities Here. This is a fascinating area of focus...you see because whether we like it or not we are always at work and play together as one as the same image and likeness here as equality and oneness here together as whatever the weather there is the solidity of substantial fusion and an interwoven connection as the source center of and as What Life is within and as the simplicity of principle and law of creation here.

The focal point of my sharing here today is within the careful Planning whether it be in the moment as the momentary freestyle play as the live action and direction of character presentations here...and also within regards to future moments that are of possibility....and of future moments that One wish to bring into specific manifestation as a certain result. There's a lot we can do....there's a lot we are doing....the question/answer/solution is in the investigation of of the past so that we can know how to manifest the destiny of the future that is Best.

To Be Continued

Day 730 - Coming Out of Retirement

I can recall on more than one occasion, declaring that I was taking an early retirement. The idea of an early retirement is something I was looking into at the end of my teenage years and the beginning of my twenties. My attitude was that I am ready to commit to full time leisurely pursuits. The consideration was that perhaps I would not make it to old age or that I would be less mobile, less flexible, less capable or less able bodied. From my perspective, I was of the notion that I should give as much time to myself now as possible....even if I have to pay for it later....that giving myself tremendous amounts of time now, would pay dividends later...as like actually gifting myself with the privilege to slow down and seize the day.  This was regarded as somewhat of a radical notion because all my peers were looking to position themselves into life long careers so that they had the potential to secure their retirements.  I also figured that I could have a retirement now...and perhaps I could still have one later. I mean, initially I kind of regarded that my adulthood would be a lifelong retirement of sorts and that it would be focused on  my individual self-interests in the now of consciousness...without real longtime planning from the perspective and principle of Be Here Now.

Well, it's been perhaps just over a decade since i first declared myself taking an early retirement.

There's been many times throughout this past decade where i forgot that I had many times declared and wished for myself an early retirement and within this not really considered the fabric of my wishes. My immediate regards were that of fulfilling my immediate and moment to moment desires. a lot of very treats from the day to day and month to month retirement living management.

What also appealed to me about this approach is not really having wanted to get serious about long term planning...committing to any long term plan.

I would say also within this was the concern that I would have to give up my childhood for adulthood.  My thinking was that I will carry my childhood into adulthood and I will take the senior approach very childishly...from the perspective that I will skip the typical young adult middle age mentality and go right for retirement kind of living....from the perspective of my focus being on the shortsightedness of daily pleasures and leisurely pursuits.  My thinking about recreation was that perhaps I will want to play more now then when I am older...maybe I wont want to play so much when I am really old...and then I would rather focus on work....because from my perspective old people don't seem all that playful...I mean sure there's a lot of them that are cheerful and good spirited but they also kind of sit around a lot...and isn't there a lot of young people in jobs where they sit around a lot....wouldn't it be better to take a sit around type of job when I am old...

I also have had the attitude that I have a Golden Ticket.

I remember this steady girlfriend I had for some years and she was finishing her schooling up and was prepared to get into career mode and begin a family.,..and at that time I was not at all interested in that approach for myself..I was in full out retirement mode...thinking that my living leisurely as my recreational pursuits were my investments for my future and that I have a  Golden Ticket that I can cash in when I so desire....and the thing about my thinking was that my golden Ticket has so much potential like the realization within myself that I can in fact do what ever I want....like I am the will and the way and so realizing this is like a wow realization because it is a point of self-comfort within and as self-empowerment. At the same time...there can be almost an urgency within self that comes up as like wanting to make something happen because potential exists...and at the same time a hesitance of not wanting to rush things....kind of a indecision between getting going and postponing....

A realization that has become clear to me is that Yes, Indeed I do have a Golden Ticket and this Golden Ticket is in fact my Potential Here...and the thing is...I Require to Use My Golden Ticket...and I cannot just save it away and avoid it for a long time later.....that is foolish....My Golden Ticket has the Most Value Now...and The Value Of My Golden Ticket Gets More Valuable every day I Exercise it....like a card I got to pay/play with as the decisions I make.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how the wishes and declarations I make for myself shape my reality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to take on long term planning as point of self-directed commitment and responsibility I bring into fruition

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that typically people fall apart when they get old.


To Be Continued

Day 726 - Moment Management

I've noticed the Moment to often be a very Pivotal point.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be influenced and controlled by fear within the moment as a particular feeling/emotion that contradicts my Planning

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being consistently inconsistent with my commitments as a result of accepting and allowing momentary Fear as various dimensions of reaction to influence and regulate my movement.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to embrace all of my fears and actually move myself regardless of and as the excuse that is presented as coming up in the moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for making a big deal about moving through an accepted and allowed suppression I see within a moment. I realize that this is in fact no big deal here....and that the only way this would become a big deal is if I avoided taking self-responsibility for the point I see I have been suppressing.  Within this new realization...the moment is a very cool pivot point in and as the process of self-perfection, because the opportunity exists to become a better version of oneself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how Life works as a series of Moments put together....but that all there every is is the present moment here....which leads into new present moments here....and All the While from Present Moment to Present Moment, I am the Leader as My Life is My Self-Responsibility and The Creation of My Life is a Result of and as the Effectiveness of My Leadership Here. I realize and understand Leadership starts within and as Self-Responsibility here.  I realize I have Great Responsibilities and that Self-Responsibility is the Key within and as Self-Empowerment/Self-Creation Here as Heaven on Earth

I commit myself to Self-Creation Here as Heaven on Earth.

I commit myself to Self-Responsibility

I commit myself to Living the Self-Empowerment within and as Self-Responsibility

When and as I see myself faced with a moment where I experience a feeling of like "not wanting to participate within my self-responsibility", I stop and breathe, I see/realize/understand the self-sabotage within thinking oneself out of doing what is required to be done as the practical living of self-responsibility. I Move myself in Doing the point that I face resistance towards Doing. I realize the movement of my doing is the Key to Practical Living Creation here as the How To put the Plans in Motion. I see realize and understand the Planning and Planting that Happens within and as the Movement of Doing. I see, realize and understand the Commitment within and as The Decision to Do it....as the Moving Beyond thinking about doing It...and Just Doing It.  I realize the More I do it...the more I get Done.  I realize my potential existent here is within and as self-creation and that my self-creation comes from the act of doing things...as the building and development of Greatness within and as Always All Ways...as Always Great.

I commit myself to and as Greatness Here.

Day 724 - Complimentary Opposites

In having studied a little bit the teaching's of Wim Hof, One of the phrases he would say is, "The Cold is Your Warm friend".  And I found that to be a very fascinating statement.  I've been playing with the temperature of water within having my showers. It's been most enjoyable! Today I was finding that I couldn't get the hot water hot enough from my perspective...it's like I still experienced a slight chill within myself...and what is interesting about this..is that I have been playing with the point of getting into a cold shower...and sometimes I feel what I believe is "too cold" before I get in the shower...and so my rational is that I'll start warm/hot and then move to cold. Anyways, today I am just not satisfied with the warm of the shower, even though I got the temperature turned up all the way. Though for perspective on the temperature of heat...I think there is a safety function on the shower where it will not heat up too hot to the point where the water could actually burn you. Anyways...I'm about ready to get out of the shower...and I'm thinking that I can't do the cold water today, because I am just not warm/hot enough. I then decide to play with the temp as I go to turn the shower off...like deliberately turn the temperature dial very slowly as to kind of stop the turning of the dial on the cold temperature setting. This moment is very refreshing for me. I have a laugh as an aha moment as I am reminded of the words, "The cold is Your Warm Friend". I'm really enjoying myself and the expression of the water as it feels so nice on my body. It's like my body was craving the cold water all along by I wouldn't believe it because of how I was experiencing myself within my body...believing that the cold would be detrimental to my health.  fascinating turn of events here as I further reflect on this point as I am thoroughly enjoying this cold water flowing on me....I am stretching my body as I am present with the touches of water on my body. I am reminded of the words of another friend who recently told me about how she is always cold...and doesn't like the cold....and she said who would of thought that the cold has been the answer all along...like that I use the cold to warm up. Now I have slightly paraphrased her words but that was the message. I had been telling her about my playing with the cold and also I told her to check out Wim Hof.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to doubt methods of support because they do not make sense and are arguably illogical from the knowledge and information I have accepted and allowed to exist within myself....as like what I remember to be the truth.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the self-expansion process from and as the perspective of realizing and understanding that to grow, One has to be open to new possibilities and ways to grow that One doesn't currently already know.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have limited my growth in many moments as a result of my judgement/belief about what is possible.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to stunt my growth from the perspective of creating judgements as a form of suppression on and as my potential here as the all ways possible to perceive/see the possibilities of expansion within a point.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how subtle the experience I am having within myself can drastically influence my best functioning abilities and ability to learn and grow as the expression of and as my natural learning ability here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the questioning involved within and as the investigation of an experience one is having...as like really checking/examining the movement within self...and within this....the willingness to further examine the point and not to allow oneself to be further engulfed within the point from the perspective of choosing to react rather than respond...because of the desire to chase after the desired feeling experience energy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for suppressing my natural learning potential from the perspective of coping within and as the survival mentality of feeling/emotion chasing and justification. Where, what I mean by this...is that there is an engulfment within and as like fire management...where the fire as frictional energy within oneself is never stopped...but is just rather monitored and accepted and thus instead of directing responses....reactions are participated within as judged to be rational actions...when all the while a self-perpetuation is happening as a coping within and as the survival experience of being regulated by the experience of and as oneself....where the behavior is totally related to the experience of oneself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting methods of practical living support because this contradicts my survival coping mechanisms of existence as how I have come to be comfortable with what I believe to be good for me and right as like the only way here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent of limitation as a result of getting stuck within and as a "one way" of thinking about things...and really the staunch and righteousness of this approach that is really debilitating to the sustainable development and maintenance of oneself here.

I commit myself to the support here.

I realize and understand the "Support Here" is Always All Ways, I realize and understand the starting point of creation as Equality and Oneness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being apprehensive towards unexpected possibilities that I have not fathomed as possible.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for making excuses and justifications from a perspective of ego about the process journey to life here, as Always All Ways,...from and as the perspective of allowing backchat within mind to fester...that, Process would be too easy...if One accepts and allows oneself to garner assistance and support from everything as Always All Ways. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for rationalizing and justifying the making sense of things that don't really make sense to me...so that I can believe to understand things in a way that makes sense,..without actually further asKing Questions and thoroughly investigating the point for and as Myself Here.

I realize the tremendous support here as King Questions..as the self-empowerment of our Self Substantiation is within and as our very own Authorization as the Questions we give ourselves access to and as....for we are the very Journey/Question/Answer/Solution and the perspective and support as the dimensions of consideration are Always All Ways here as Our Very Own Self-Reflection.  The irony is Self-Profound.

I commit myself to the Self-Profound Irony Here.

I commit myself to expressing myself as King Questions...from and as the perspective that I take Self-responsibility for myself here and the process Journey to Life as the birthing/blossoming/growing/development/Creation Process Here.

I commit myself to Self-Authorization.

I realize and understand the endless possibilities here as I allow myself to look and see what is here and within looking and seeing...Allow myself to ASK Questions.

I realize the Gift within and as the Self-Acceptance as Allowing myself to Investigate Self Here as What One has accepted and allowed. I realize the effectiveness of this process is a matter of fact...as moment to moment management.

I commit myself to the micro managing of my moments.

I commit myself to self-perfection within and as micro managing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing nor regarding the significance as the point of Self-Profoundness within as a Micro Management.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the complimentary nature of polarities here from the perspective of opposites attract as like the even and the odd fit together to make the whole picture as whole puzzle pieces....perspectives.....points of consideration fit together as the compass that is always all ways here.

I commit myself to the Profound support I have allowed myself access to.

I realize that the support and assistance all ways always here is Profound.

I am grateful for the Profound Support and Assistance Here always All ways.

I commit myself to practically living self-profound assistance and support as the dedication and commitment to self-perfection of myself here.

I am grateful to be here.

The process journey to Life is Awesome. Grateful indeed.

I commit myself to gratitude as indeed/word/thought a self-profound way to Live/Grow/Play/Work here as what is in fact best for Everything.

Day - 712 - Real Time Application...More than a Test Drive

Important Note:

 You may notice that the publication date here is later than blog Day 714. I had written Blogs Day 711- to 714 in Sequence but did not get around posting in that order. Anyways, now you know the flow of how it all came to writing in the structuring of my posts.

Also, the posts are a creative practice play in real time movement moment to moment without the hesitation stand still judgement and doubt. So without a doubt I face myself in the moment as I write and then come back and reflect on my written words to fine tune my garnering of support and assistance for myself as like making my self-nurturing regard a timeless application and process I commit to.

So, If you haven't checked the previous post...ch, ch, ch, check it out. 

Also, like the previous post this post was supported in being initiated by the words of Anu in "Path of the Initiate"

Isn't it interesting how we have so many participations throughout our Lives? I mean, even if you are someone who says they do Nothing all of the time, the reality is that you are actually doing some thing's....we are always participating in some thing's.  I mean, to do absolutely nothing here is really not physically viable...seeing how we live in a physical reality here where Everything is physically here. So, nothing is like a paradox of sorts because of Everything being here....but not really from the perspective that Nothing doesn't exist because Everything exists. I know, things are sounding even more paradoxical. Like multi-verses in the Universe. The mathematics of addition.

The point I am pointing out here, with regards to Nothing, is Everything. Have a look at the process journey to Life here. Letting go of Everything for Everything. A return to nothingness, like a blank slate....fresh canvas. See that an Enormous amount of potential is possible when the starting point has been returned to Nothingness. Look at the self-direction potential. See Always! The support is moving in every direction! Always all ways. Think of like a ball of yarn or the spokes on a wheel. Point of thinking illustrations is to highlight the support and assistance within Always assistance and support as what is best for life. Talk about options and possibilities. Quite the opposite of things being restricted and restrained.

See here how each becomes the Driving operator of Always. This is the process journey to nothingness that supports the enactment of a New World Order....a Living World Order that You would really Like to Design. The manifestation of Heaven on Earth, to be explicitly precise.

The rhetorical question to creating and manifesting Heaven on Earth, is, "Why wouldn't You manifest yourself, the World Here as Heaven on Earth?"

Obviously when the regard for self is realized and the process commitments are clear....the creating and manifesting of Heaven on Earth becomes an Obvious Duh, Of Course....as this is the course/path/trail/kingdom/palace/house/Fortress/Compound/run/slide/jungle gym/play-ground/mountain climber/swimming pool/hot-tub/farm/ocean/golf-course/Ski-Hill/skating rink/obstacle course/PLANET to Plant it...as we Plan it. See the plant and the plan...and the planet here...as the playing with what is here...and using the similarities within things that are good for mutually beneficial and prosperous results. Planning and Planting our nature makes the fruition of our Labor specifically great...as the great nest here is spread far and wide...as the planet greatness...the great nest here for all to live and reside..as the practical living of love made visible as the truest truth of what is real desire..as like what it is to really live for real here. You know, creating the Here in which you are always...as like no matter what,,,You/We are Here as Everything. That's all there is. And the potential comes from nothing as like the return to self creation...as the innocence of self-realized here. The contact with self actualization here. as the hey hello hi I see me here...and I get in to me I see as self-intimacy,

Day 687 - Natural Learning Abilities

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding nor really considering that it is possible that I have tremendous natural learning abilities that I have not in fact yet developed.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that my natural learning abilities appear and come naturally without any effort on my part.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing there to be special talents in this world that are beyond my ability to comprehend.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that I exist within and as limited comprehension towards and as the potential to understand and realize everything here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for finding it difficult to process information beyond a conscious level of programming.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing the self-trust that is required in existing in awareness beyond consciousness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that I am separate from all the information that exists here in the universe.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that to understand and realize all the information that exists....that I must primarily look and understand everything that exists outside of myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and considering the fact that everything that exists outside of myself also in fact exists inside myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not really taking the time to question my potential abilities to excel in various capacities in a plethora of areas and abilities.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for blindly trusting in others information as being the source codes of authority...and therfore within taking such an approach....placing myself as less then the information of others that I believe to be beyond my comprehension.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing it possible for information to exist infinitely beyond my comprehension.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to intimately acquaint myself with my unlimited access to information here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not really taking the time to question my potential by looking within the depths of myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for sometimes trusting in others more than I am williing to trust within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the ridiculous absurdity of placing my self-trust outside of myself...as like being separate from inside myself....I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for separating myself from others here...and within that creating a dissonance in self-trust relationship here,

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that my access to communicating and relating to all things here is mostly restricted and is not in fact possible.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for regarding all Life that is not human as like a sort of inferior life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding I how restricted my communication access to all life here as a result of believing myself to be superior to all other sorts of life here...as a result of my inherent design programming.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking on common beliefs and perceptions about my reality as absolute truths...without actually really investigating such points for myself....but within this...just kind of copying and mimicking the basic general perceptions about how in fact existence is here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have been careless in creating beliefs/perceptions about how life in fact exists.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to explore the depths of my abilities.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for becoming some what complacent within my beliefs and general accepted and allowed programming/conditioning.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to be an actual real living individual here on this planet as a being that really, critically thinks and speaks for oneself from the starting point of and as the regard for what is best for all life...as the realization and understanding that what is best for all Life...includes myself within and as the best equation....programming.....creation here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for blindly agreeing with people just for the sake of agreeing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding my magnificent teaching abilities....and that I am in fact, first and foremost a student of myself here....as like my relationship and agreement to myself here exists as both a teacher and a student....and that I have in fact a profound ability to educate and inform myself through and as the process of self-investigation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that only some people are in fact able to develop....or have the girt of a photographic memory.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not really questioning my ability to utilize my mind for maximum benefit and ability.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not really investigating my mind....specifically my mind existing here as a physical thing....which is a vastly profound technology that I am able to play and work with in and as my creative expression of myself here to the benefit of and as what is best for Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for dismissing most amazing abilities and potential as a resulting form of justification and excuse....because most people are not exercising such marvelously tremendous abilities.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying many things as impossible because I am not currently able to excel within these particular point effectively at the moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating a sub-servant relationship towards information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to perceive myself as less than information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the practicality of standing equal with all information existing here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating particular dissonances within myself in regards to various types of information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for complicating the realization of myself within and as my relationship with "Information"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing information that I am not consciously well versed within...as like having committed many hours to consciously verbalizing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that to become a professional within any particular area of study must take at least 10 000 hours.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not really utilizing and applying the realization that within knowing how to do any particular thing extraordinarily well....that knowing and ability can in fact be related into any and all areas as a way to accelerate self-mastery in other less play/worked with points...and that the potential for self-master...development...skill is really rather quite limitless.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding my learning potential exists within and as my relationship with my self here....and that extends to all parts of myself here....as like all of my cells....all of everything here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to explore various pathways of potential connections.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how profound our capacity to learn is in fact....and that we are in fact able to make profound and magnificent connections from all sorts of points...words...things...as like everything is relative here...and all ways all ways...the support is here...in and as everything here.

When and as I see myself being dismissive of being able to in fact learn how to be effective within a point, I stop and breathe, I check myself before I perpetuate a suppression of myself....I realize and understand I have tremendous capabilities and a strong ability to learn and and expand my ability. I commit myself to stop creating limitations on my learning potential.

I commit myself to developing my natural learning potential.

I commit myself to exploring my natural learning ability.

I commit myself to questioning the possibilities of myself here.

I commit myself to playing and working with my potential abilities/skills here.

I commit myself to to work and play with the sharing of my realizations here.

I commit myself to my utmost potential.

I commit myself to learning from the starting point of work and play.

I commit myself to allowing myself to enjoy my work and my play.

I commit myself to self-enjoyment here.

I commit myself to challenge myself in expanding my abilities and skills.

I commit myself to the regard as what is best for all life is in fact best for me.

I commit myself to substantiate myself as One and Equal with all Life here.

I commit myself to stand one and equal with all information here.

I commit myself to work and play with Information in all ways best for all Life here.

I commit myself to working and playing with my creative self-expression within and as the structured and unstructured use of information here.

I commit myself to self-trust.

I realize self-trust is paramount in and as my natural learning abilities.

I commit myself to my natural learning abilities.

I commit myself to developing....working and playing with my photographic memory potential.

I commit myself to assisting and supporting the advent of profound education in and as the  development and expression of awesome living potential.