Day 792 - Royally Fucked

Royally Fucked

“I realize all forms of Inferiority and Superiority are essentially the same thing as points of self-suppression and that it's like Inferiority is less suppression than superiority....where superiority is superior suppression. Funny to see the irony of suppression within Inferiority and Superiority where it's Inferior suppression and Superior Suppression.....like fucked and double fucked.”

“I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having become so used to being royally fucked that I experience myself as uncomfortable in being less than royally fucked. Where being less than royally fucked, feels strange and almost embarrassing and shameful...where i should want to fuck around more so i can get back to being royally fucked. The irony is profoundly fucked lol.”

The Fact that within our world we have the word “Royalty” and “Royal” is an indication of the ingrained Debt Servitude relationship as Inferior and Superior. This is showcased well as the basis of energetic conflict within and as Mind. Polarization. Friction. Battle. War. Slave Mentality.

What do I mean when I say, “Debt Servitude”?

Servicing and Creating Debt. In Service of Debt. Like Debt is the Superior and the Service is Inferior. Where the Debt and the Service need each other to exist...because it's like a point of both being incomplete without the other one...and so each is bound, bonded to the other.

Relation Fucked. Meaning, the basic framework in which relationships are designed is within and as this debt based construction of More than and Less than. Money has become the medium to support the servicing of charges. Energy is another expression and outflow of money. Meaning, Our positive feelings and negative emotions as our relationships to everything here.

Why Relation Fucked?

Relation Fucked, because the basic mode of conditioning, our behaviour within and as mind set up has been, Royally Fucked. Ironically, it is because of our own Accepted and Allowed Royal Acclaim. And our own accepted and allowed Royal Servants. Where each is a manifested representation of ourselves here in all ways and our reaction/impression about it, is like valid confirmation for mind justification in continuing to mine and mind the feeling and emotion about what we see....because what we see is what we are...and it's been going on for so long as the Specificity in Definition Impressions. Where it's like we just layer and layer and layer the Self-Deception. Only, we don't regard our behaviour necessairly as draconian...but more of a sort of human evolution of our greatness...and that our greatness is just very complex and sophisticated like our intelligence...I mean deception. Cough Cough.

Where am I going with this bit, “Royally Fucked”

It's a point of self-reflection for me in and as the world here. Where I am in the process of taking responsibility for all characterizations of myself here. Removing the Separation existent within myself as how I separated myself from all characters here by believing myself to be an individual character that is totally a Separate Setup from all other characters here. See, it's interesting because we have the whole spectrum of characterizations within ourselves...and it's a range of vocabulary and a range of feelings and emotions...just as we have a range of colour here that makes up the spectrum of colour. Point of Investigation is ourselves here as Life.....What is Life...Life is Sound. So in really investigating through words the structure of myself and the world, word by word in a way where I can specifically investigate how I have articulated...made my artistry into the point of ecstasy excretion through perpetually suffering and torture,  making slave labour by keeping my Body and Beingness in a state ingrained debt servitude to my mind.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand how I created the design and definition of Royalty within my mind.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand how the definition of royalty existent within my body and mind as supported the world as a whole being exactly the way it is.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to really go into myself to see who and how I am existing within and as my mind as Royalty.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to face myself as Royally Fucked.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to deny and suppress myself here as Royalty.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying the suppression of myself as Inferior to Royalty because of various phrases such as: “its just the way things are”, “there's just royalty and non royalty”, “our family just isn't the royal one”, “not everyone can be royal”, “Royalty wouldn't exist if everyone was royalty”, “royalty is a necessary position and part of our world and society”.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into conflict with “Royalty” where I would be angry and frustrated with the status of the world, my words, myself here....while most of the time, only projecting my disgust outwards onto others I define as Superior to Me here in this world as for instance the Queen of England and her Royal Family.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to blame people in this world who are regarded as Royalty for the problems within and as the class system of inequality existent within humanity.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want to fight against the world out of frustration for my understanding of the relationships that exist within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to really take the time to place myself as each individual thing here....to really stand in and as each One here in this world.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having created a preference towards conflict and destruction over collaborative structured creations. I realize the ridiculousness of fighting for my limitation. I realize that working together is to get things done...is to actually move as the point of democracy here...in making things happen as a result of weathering the weather as a result of creating the ripple that is the momentum that moves the current which is currency which is our weather system which is our water which is our weather, which is our environment.

I realize I like to use synonyms for words, as this is like this and this is like this and this is like this....I realize this is a support in seeing how words are capable and able of supporting and assisting each other in working and playing together as a form of compliment and complimentary action.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge my usage of words and how I create the flow of my words in sentence structure.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear the judgment and condemnation of others for the flow and presentation of myself here in and as Word.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to become apathetic within and as my Words...specifically the structuring and the sounding placement of how I lay things out. I realize I created an apathy towards practically structuring my reality. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create Apathy within myself....and within this, justify the suppression of my ability to structure and create new Potential.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to lock myself up within my word relationships in such a sneaky and deceptive manner of self-trickery that I resist to even speak or write about it....because the pain of self-condemnation as an Inferior and an Imbecile is heart breakingly embarrassing to myself as Mind Superior Royalty who is Superior to such characterizations and behaviours.

To be continued

Day 744 - Doing Fucked Up Shit Because Authority Said So

Are you familiar with the Milgram experiment?  Click the link to read about how average people will kill people because Authority told them so.

To watch a video showcasing the influence and susceptibility of humans to following along with bad advice because an Authority figure told them so...See this Derren Brown Video on the Milgram Experiment. 

Who are the the firs main points of Authority in you Life?

Your Parents

Have you ever asked yourself what qualified your parents to be Parents?

Should you have to qualify to be a parent?

Did you trust in your parents as a child?

Do you see any parallel's with how society is structured with various institutions of Authority?

See, Parents, Government, Medical Profession, Doctors, Scientists, Teachers, Lawyers, Judges, Psychologists, Psychiatrists, Police/Military, Media, Celebrities, Popular Journals/Magazines, and Television

Did you know that when you seek the support and assistance of a Professional in any of the above fields of expertise...the support is but a Professional Opinion. Meaning that based upon the knowledge and information they have collected...the believe a particular way forward to be the best for you.  This doesn't mean that it is true or not true. It means that is an Opinion as to what you should do based upon how the were in fact giving professional opinions about what they should do...and now they have been trained to give those opinions as an occupation based upon following and abiding by so many previous opinions.

What I find interesting here is the point of Trust.  Where thee is often a rational justification to believe what You hear to be true or worthy of your attention because someone who within our world society is defined as being an Authority on Knowledge and Information within that particular field of study.

Is it possible that nobody really knows much about anything and that we have been for a very long time...perpetuating a conditioned behavior response where we mimic our elders and so trust/believe them and shape our Life as a result of what they have said.  How valid is anything that has ever been said, when you consider that so much of whatever has been said, has been regurgitated from somewhere else that was passed on and carried on because of the Trust within the person who said it so.

Are we programmed and conditioned from an early age to make sense of non-sense?

Would you dare to really consider the possibility that who you are today is something totally different than Who You would be if You didn't ever make sense of non-sense...I mean,  trust or believe anyone ever and that for anything to hold true, the point would actually require to be verifiable through self-testing and cross-referencing? A measure of Self-Authorization if You will. What have we Self-Authorized here that is totally fucked up. Who's responsible for the whackness Here?

Maybe this is not the most practical approach...or is it? Does it mean that in order to know that fire is hot you must get burned by the fire? The answer is no. Becoming introduced to Fire for example, you will see and feel the warm of the fire...You do not require to touch the fire to know it is Hot. What about that Fire can burn your skin? if one person is burned by fire as a result of making a mistake and getting to close to the fire, Everyone is able to learn from that mistake and see the consequence of that action....that if you are too close for too long to the fire, You will get burned.

Have You really considered the design of Education in our world? Typically beginning by the parents in the home...and then when you leave the home and go to school....and, every other person encounter.

What is also fascinating is that much of the exchanges of information that take place...come as like forms of commands...where somebody is Telling someone something...often it is an Opinion...which in a way is really a form of gossip...as like the spreading of Wild Fire....and it spreads and spreads and spreads...as you share what they said...and they share what they said...and all the while...just kind of operating within and as this perpetuating infections disease in a way....where most of the information that is being exchanged is not of the best benefit to anyone.

Is it any wonder that we are familiar with words like Rape, Molestation, Poverty, Murder, Torture, Punishment, War, Famine, Starvation, Suffering, Disease, Disability, Deceit, Deception, Slavery, Prisoner, Prison, Military, Weapons, Abuse, Fraud, Terrorism, Enemy, Fighting, Survival, Combat, Defense, Offense, Guns, Slaughter, Profit, 3rd World, Sweatshop, Injustice, Crime, Psychopath, Convict.....and the list goes on....

We are directly and indirectly supporting such conditioned behaviors/environments/circumstances as result of how we are accepting Authority to exist here. When you think of AUTHORITY, Do you think of Yourself First and Foremost...or is the point/words separate from You as like the examples I gave above as particular points of "recognized established Authorities"?

Is it interesting to consider and regard that in order to stop the rampant wild fire here, we need to actualize ourselves here as Self-Authority and Question the knowledge and information we have subscribed to whether passively or actively...because We are on Fire here...and The Fire is Burning up the Earth.  Is this Hell? Have we become in such denial that we would not believe and know what Hell on Earth is despite being slowly burnt alive?

Let Manifest Heaven on Earth Forever, Wouldn't that be better than Hell on Earth? Are things in Reverse? Each is the Author in the Creation of Heaven On Earth Here. Note, this does not mean You create your own little bubble Heaven where everything is all good for you...is a start sure....but what about everyone else....is this a competition where some get Heaven at the expense of many getting Hell. What kind of fucked up game/idea is that?

Lets Share the Best of Ourselves Here, and Question what the fuck is going On and ask ourselves what the fuck are we really doing to ourselves as Everything Here?


"It's Hell on Earth, Whose Next or Going to Be First" Mobb Deep, Hell On Earth, from the Album HELL ON EARTH


Oh, did I mention that the Authority is You and has Always All Ways Been You?

So about all that Fucked up Shit....

Day 740 - Self-Responsibility within Dedication and Determination

Continuing from previous blog entry.

Self-Responsibility is a gift in and as self-empowerment. It is a gift you give give to yourself. Self-responsibility is part of the epitome of practically living any and all words. It's the Authority self-authorization to move and express oneself here however you see fit.

I am looking at Self-Responsibility here in relationship to Dedication and Determination.  What I am doing is clarifying the way to create certainty within and as the development of my full potential.

Some, Self-forgiveness I see relevant here:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding that the commitment to and as the practical living of Dedication and Determination is enshrined within and as the giving and living Self-Responsibility.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for many times shying away from taking on self-responsibility within point I would like to be dedicated and determined within.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how if the Self-responsibility one bestows to oneself is not clear...it is easy to get lost/muddled within effectively living commitments to the best of one's ability.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which Passion exists within and as Relationship to the words: Self-Responsibility, Dedication and Determination.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself having resisted many times how to really establish a structural sound foundation within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which investigation of the Vocabulary in Relationships is of tremendous support and assistance in being able to know how to live self-responsibility within and as specific relationships.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the complexity of relationships as a result of and as the extent of vocabulary existent.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to always utilize a simplistic approach within and as self-investigation...where I start with a word and i examine the relationship interconnectedness that exists and myself reflection within it all.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to actually give myself the Authorization to create Self-Responsibility for myself as a a Live of Dedication and and Determination within and as the work/play that I do.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting self-responsibility/dedication/determination within many moments of movement of myself here as like lacking the clarity of purpose within and as my movement.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which I Authorize the Establishment of Self-Responsibility within myself as my Dedication and Determination.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the substantial Life I can create for myself within understanding and knowing how to live the words: Self-Responsibility, Dedication, Determination, Authority, and Passion.

To Be Continued

Day 696 - Discipline

Throughout my life I have had mixed emotions in relationship to the word "Discipline."


Discipline started out as something to be feared. My parents were the Administrators of Discipline. As far as I understood....Discipline was only something terrible as a form of punishment that I would associate as being like a kind of torture that would be done unto me in some capacity as a result of my "misbehavior" according to the Administrators of Discipline....aka....my parents.


So, Discipline and I did not get a long. I did not like Discipline. As far as I was concerned, Discipline could go fuck itself and die...for I would have been satisfied with no more dispensing of Discipline from the Administrators of Discipline...aka...my parents.


Note, for the record here....No blame is being pointed at the Administrators of Discipline Here...this is a Story about my Relationship with Discipline. The Word...


So, not until I became wayyyyyyyyyyyyy older than my first receiving of Discipline as an apparent method of Torture employed by my parents...aka...my Authorities...

Now in all fairness, I do not recall my Authorities....I mean my parents ever once mentioning that they were Disciplining me as a method of Torture. No, the informed me that I was receiving Discipline as a form of Punishment as a method to instill in me regard/respect for the behavior/actions that was required and to be expected of me from my parents....

What's interesting is that Discipline often arose as a result of my unexpected behavior and was seen as a method of remediating behavior that my parents did not like...that was not appropriate in and as their judgement. Granted....perhaps some of my behavior was outlandish...

So Discipline had become quite the resistance movement within me....to the point where my mobility was in rebellion to my parents in and as Defense of Discipline...meaning, my relationship with my parents developed to a point of no regard....no regard from the perspective that I stopped listening to them. Sort of. I would hear what they would say....and I would deliberately side with the point that they were in opposition towards. Meaning if they thought some idea was particularly good....it was therefore bad to me. 

What is fascinating about the playout of my reactionary defensive conflicted relationship with my parents is that I wasn't really consciously aware of how I was existing in a perpetual state of reaction in relationship to the existence of my parents.



To Be Continued

Day 519 Reason Treason Self-Governance

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for reasoning treasonous acts within myself as acceptances and allowances that create conflict within and as a myself standing here as the point of self-directed self-governor of and as what is best for all Life....Realizing and understanding that what is best for all Life starts with and as what I accept and allow within myself. I realize and understand that perpetuating reasons within myself to justify self-imposed discomfort within and as the belief that blame is a necessary reason for placing myself to be governed in accordance to allowing myself to get worked up within myself by reasoning the validity of blame as like being somebody else's fault for the way I am governing the law of my being here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have made decisions within myself that are directly contradictory to my ability to creatively express and enjoy myself from moment to moment.  I realize the ridiculous absurdity of holding onto treasonous attitudes within myself as like a form of abdicating myself as the best self-governance as like what I would like to see within and as all Life here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for validating compromise within and as myself as the epitome of self-governance.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the full time commitment to myself here as self-governance.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to spite myself in moments of abdication of self-responsibility of myself here within going into a a point of emotion that I accepted and allowed to be valid as a form of reason to commit treason against myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have dis-empowered myself by choosing to validate reasoning within myself as an accepted mental frame work that does not support me in operating at my fullest potential.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for validating reasoned treason within myself as a form of coping mechanism for the anger and frustration that surfaces from within myself that has remained buried for some time due to the nature of myself having accepted and allowed self-suppression throughout my history here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding my time here as the standing body of self-governance within choosing to entertain distraction as reasoned justifiable emotional reactions as like being worthy of my attention and time. I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of spiting myself within time by giving my attention to proliferating abuse within myself as emotional reaction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for wanting to escape self-responsibility for the treasonous reasons I have accepted and allowed to exist within myself as how I have spited myself from and as the opportunity to stand as the self-embodiment of and as all as One and Equal.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the reasoned treason within desiring to be angry as a point of emotional reaction that is fueled and charged within myself as a result of choosing/deciding to participate within and as an initial energetic triggered reaction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have been conditions throughout time to accept and allow myself to validate and justify treasonous acceptances and allowances within myself that deliberately spite my ability to stand as what is best for all Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have accepted and allowed myself to be my own worst enemy and within this refused to take accountability for my particpations by choosing to believe that blame is the game as to protect me in the fight against myself and therefore keep myself hidden suppressed from seeing what I am really doing to myself in every moment here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have made others out to be my enemy as like that which I am mad at and disappointed with because I have been afraid of seeing that which pisses me off within others is that which I refuse to take full self-responsibility for within myself and therefore by me being pissed off at another for even 1 second reflects the disregard I have accepted and allowed within myself and therefore I see and realize how I have justified the disregard for unconditional compassion within myself. I see and realize and understand the awesomeness of utilizing myself here in and as how my mind exists as the compass/tool/point of reference and way for me to be self-investigating and reclaiming self-responsibility and accountability for All of myself here as what is best for Life as the living realization and understanding of myself as Equality and Oneness birthed in and as physicality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for abusing myself as All Life here within being greedy about sharing my time here, as like taking my time personally as like not wanting to be flexible in my capacity to respond within a moments notice because that contradicts myself from living in the planned expectations I created for myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to commit treason against the law of my being here as self-governance within and as valuing my time as being more valuable than any other beings Life time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to de-value Life Time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting angry with having to share more of my time than I was initially willing to share to assist and support fellow beings in a moment where I am able to assist and support another in a way that I would like to be assisted and supported.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have been treasonous against self-governance as what is best for all Life within de-valuing my time and the principle of giving as I would like to receive.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to place expectations and reasoned judgement on what I am willing to give and share within a moment, as like taking offense when an opportunity arises for me to stand as a point of support for another in a situation that resulted unexpectedly that I would not ever expect myself to be in.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating reasoned expectations within myself that create and dictate non-action within myself as like creating the platform for myself to be deliberately stiff, rigid, and stubborn when in fact the capability and capacity exists within me to be flexible and creative in directing the problem into and as a solution which is best for Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be an enemy of what is best for all Life by allowing myself to be stiff and rigid and limited in and as my ability to respond within a moments notice to share as a point of caring for and as living life as what is best for all Life always all ways within and as the starting point principle of creation as Oneness and Equality,...realizing and understanding separation to be the greatest self-imposed deception/treason against myself as the starting point authority of self-governance.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have committed treason against Life within spiting the equality and oneness within time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for manipulating and self-sabotaging my relationship with time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist in a relationship to time as a point of debt I am always falling behind within while always trying to get ahead in time as like trying to catch this carrot on a stick that is dangling in front of myself that is always just out of reach.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for committing treason against myself as All Life within judging myself in time as like creating a comparison to myself according to time...as like making the time to be a point of debt servitude and then to generate a particular reaction towards the debt as time....as like how I am feeling/experiencing myself within and as reaction to the debt/time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for abdicating self-governance within myself by becoming frustrated with time and within this going into as a a form of rebellion towards time and then deliberately spiting the nature of my relationship with time by going into a 'fuck it' experience as like being so fed up with always being behind in the race against time to say I no more care to compete here in time and that I'm not even going to regard time as a point of practical self measuring tool because the extent to which I have allowed myself to kick my own ass with regards to time is shameful.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to commit treason against myself as Life here within and as I refused to direct the labored points of repair/self-correction...and within this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating more damage and thus more repairs/self-correction required by accepting and allowing myself to choose to ignore/delay the labored responsibility of self-remediation as self-directing the purification of my acceptances and allowances in every moment I am here....realizing that I am here as a laborer to facilitate care and regard for myself as Life, piecing myself back together, realizing and understanding the self-direction within taking responsibility to create myself here as the masterpiece which is the labored results of my efforts from and as the principled self-commitment of what is best for all Life is all ways the best.

Day 493 Questions Today

I asked myself questions this evening....the question are;



When did I first give up on myself ? 

When did I quit/give up on myself ? 

When did I first decide that I can slack off on self-willed commitment ?

When did I decide it was OK to stop learning something that was difficult for me to comprehend/master ?

When did I first become Frustrated ?

When did I first become Angered ? 

When did I first become Annoyed ? 

When did I first become Upset ? 

When did I first become Disappointed ?

What was my first Justification ?

When did I first learn what is Best ?

When did I first learn what is Great ?

When did I first learn what is Happy ?

When did I first learn what is Joy ?

When did I first learn to Lie ?

When did I first learn Manipulation ?

When did I first learn what is Awesome?

When did I first learn Hate ?

When did I first learn Hurt ?

When did I first learn Pain ?

When did I first learn Funny ?

When did I first learn to Laugh ?

When did I first learn Want ?

When did I first learn to Share ?

When did I first learn to Cheat ?

When did I first learn Strength ?

When did I first learn Bravery ?

When did I first learn Courage ?

When did I first learn Honor ?

When did I first learn to Play ?

When did I first become Scared ?

When did I first learn Worry ?

When did I first learn Thinking ?

When did I first learn Fear ?

When did I first learn Question ?

When did I first learn Become ?

When did I first learn Story ?



There are many more questions to ask myself. I am seeing and realizing it is important to understand what I have learned. I see and realize I learned things without understanding things. I see and realize I never questioned the consequences of what I learned ?

Right Now, I am Questioning How it is I Learn ?


What is Learning ?

What is Understanding ?

What is Comprehension ?


What was the first mistake I made ? Was it the first thing I learned ? Can I learn without Mistakes ?


Do I need Mistakes to Learn ?


Can I Learn without making Mistakes?


How do I Make Mistakes ?

Did I learn to Make Mistakes ?

Are Mistakes Learned Behavior ?


When did I first learn Behavior ?

Is a Mistake something I don't Know ?

Can I know what I don't Know ?

Can I Learn what I don't Know

Why am I asking so many Questions ?

Are Questions Like Mistakes ?

Do I need Mistakes and Questions to Learn ?


Why do I not like making Mistakes ?

When did I learn to not like Making Mistakes ?


When did I first fear asking Questions ? Was it because I feared being exposed as not Knowing ?


When did I first place importance on Knowing ?


Did I trap and confuse myself within my own Knowing ?

Why do I say My Own Knowing ?

Is Knowing a point of Individuality ?


Is Knowing a Secret ?


What is a Secret ? When did I first learn a Secret ? Is Knowing a Secret

Is Knowledge and Information the Secret Programming Code ?

Is Knowing and Understanding Words the Key to Understanding the Secret Programming Code ?

Did I Create My Own Secret Programming Code ?

Am I The Only One Who Has the Key to UnLocking My Secret Programming Code.

Are Complications forms of Mistakes as like Mis and Dis Information ?

Are Complications Failures to be Simple ?

Can Complications be Simplified ?

Are Simple Complications Easy to Correct ?

When did I first Learn Corrections ?

What is Correct ? Is it that which is not Wrong ? Is Something always what It is Not ?

By Having Something, Do We Not Have Something ?

Can We Be Everything and Nothing ?

Does Nothing Come from Everything ? Does Everything Come From Nothing ?

Where is the Beginning of Nothing ? Is there and End to Nothing ?

If Nothing Has No Beginning and Nothing Has No End, Does That Mean Nothing Is All That There Is ?

Is Nothing the Source of Life ?

Did Life Come from Nothing ? 

Is Life Make Believe ?

Is Life What always Is ?

If Life Has No Beginning and Life Has No End, When Does One Become Life ?

Does One Become Life when One Gets Together with One to Make another One?

Is Life Just 1 + 1 = 2 

Is Life 1 and =

Is Life 1 and = Together

Can Life be One and Not Equal ? Would the Math work in the 1 + 1 = 2 Equation if One and One are not Equal.

Is Life as Simple as 1 + 1 = 2 

If 1 is Life and there are many many many many many 1's and 1 doesn't count all the 1's can Life be Accounted for ?

Is the Accounting for Life 1+1 repeatedly till all 1's are accounted for ?

Can I become 1 ?

Am I already 1 ?

Do I need to see and Realize Every 1 So I really Know and Understand that I am 1.

In the beginning was the word and the word was with God and God was the Word ?

Becoming Creation is with Words ?



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the simplicity of myself within and as words within and as the understanding of the passage " In the beginning was the word and the word was with God and God was the Word"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting lost within Word, and I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding myself within as as the living Word.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding myself as the living words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting my creation as the living words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for negating myself responsibility within the living of my words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding myself within the words that I speak.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how my thinking thoughts is the automation of the accepted and allowed programming code that Is keeping me lost from living words for real ?

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding thinking as the system for not knowing myself as the source of living words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having resisted to question what it is I Know.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for trying to figure myself out within thinking instead of just looking at myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the support within looking at and questioning my thinking ?

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the point of self-support as self-direction within asking the questions I need to know?

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the purpose and point of asking questions on a Need to Know Basis?

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to ask myself what it is I Need to Know?

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not pushing myself to ask the right questions as the right questions being the questions that I need to Know.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent of my needs.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for limiting and suppressing my needs within the fear of asking the wrong questions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understand that there are no wrong questions because all questions are all right.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing my righteous authority.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that my righteous authority must be wrong and that I am to blame for existing as a righteous authority here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the difference between self-righteous and righteous.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging self-righteousness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get lost within and as self-righteous judgement.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for trying to escape self-righteous judgement.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting the self responsibility to correct all my self-righteous judgments.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to stop self-righteous judgement.

I commit myself to the understanding myself.

I commit myself to knowing thy self.

I commit myself to understanding words.

I commit myself to becoming words.

I commit myself to living words.

I commit myself to remediation as the solution to purifying my vocabulary.



When and as I see that I do not know a word, I stop and breathe and I question the meaning of the word. I look at the meaning of the word. I look at each letter of the word. I look at how the word sounds. I play with the meaning and the sound of the word. I sound out word. I make connections within the word. I learn the dictionary definition of the word.  I see if I can expand the meaning of the word within looking at the word. I realise the living of words. I realise the living of words as the living of gods.


When and as I see myself resisting to ask a question, I stop and breathe, I ask the question and I realise and understand the tremendous assistance and support within asking questions.

Day 488 Undermining My Own Authority

So, the point has surface this evening with regards to this law paper I am writing about justice and dominance with regards to distributive means.

The point being, that I am doubting myself as source authority within writing.  Like, I doubt the validity of my own words, well not really doubting the validity of my own words directly,....but more so doubting and questioning how my essay will be received by professor/teaching assistance who is grading my paper. I doubt the teacher/teaching assistant.....like I see here that I have accepted and allowed myself to be in conflict with school professor/teaching assistant from the perspective that I regard myself as superior intellect, yet I am trying to qualify my intellect to them, and I worry sometimes that the grading of my paper will reflect their reaction to my reading, as like I will get a really good grade if they agree with what I said and how I said it, and I will will get a less than stellar grade if my point if not agreed with.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for separating myself from my professor and teaching assistant.  I realize and understand that writing university papers is like writing papers to myself in another life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging myself in polarity based comparison to my professor/teaching assistant.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for playing the self righteous superiority/inferiority game.  I realise and understand what a mind fuck it is to accept and allow the polarity energy game of self righteous superiority/inferiority.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how I was indirectly doubting my own words as the resulting consequence of accepting and allowing myself to judge myself in relationship to my professor and Teaching Assistant. I realize and understand how I mind fucked myself within entertaining polarized judgement within myself.  I realize the ridiculousness of accepting and allowing myself to exist within doubt as a result of accepted and allowed self-judgement.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing I need to regulate my doubts as like a form of control methodology within my mind based upon ascertaining a polarized degree of self-righteousness within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for doubting my professor/teaching assistant's ability to comprehend my words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for assuming that my words will be received in conflict.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for assuming and obsessing about worst possible scenario's with regards to the submission of my writing assignment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that I must dumb my writing down in order to not cause problems within my school assignments.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that it is safer for me to dumb my writing down, as like to not cause any reactions within my university evaluators...and like just kind of produce a mediocre paper that doesn't really challenge the system structures and operating platforms.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that I should really minimize my thoughts and perspectives within writing university papers and just focus on utilizing the course material readings, and basically regurgitate the curriculum back to the evaluator as the way of illustrating my basic comprehension of course material.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing failure within utilizing my own observations and critical analysis/examination of scholars words who I happen to disagree with.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding my authority within having the ability to effectively illustrate that I disagree with scholarly work....and being able to do so in a manner that is eloquently phrased and well regarded by the professor and or teaching assistant.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to be too creative within my essay writing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to be penalized and poorly graded for being creative in garnering fresh and unique insights/perspective/consideration that are not commonly expressed within course assignments.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be a copy cat within writing university essays within the perspective of fearing to be totally unique and creative within my responses....like fearing to be too different from my peers...and therefore, as a result of the fear, thinking and believing that I must tailor my responses to be in uniform alignment with what I believe to be the "correct generic response" that has already been considered and regarded as "the answer".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to be penalized and poorly graded/marked within creating new answers to questions I see as challenging and expanding upon the scholarly sources within the course curriculum.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for doubting my ability to articulate obvious common sense in such a way that it is so apparent and clear to whoever is reading or listening to my words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for doubting my ability to be coherent within writing and verbal communication.

When and as I see myself writing my school papers and I react/judge/fear a thought about how my paper will be graded/received, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand my ability to communicate coherently and my strong ability to articulate obvious common sense. I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of mind fucking myself with self induced judgement within hypothetical what if scenarios from the perspective of reacting to the particular outcomes of hypothetical what if scenarios.

When and as I see myself doubting my words, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand the fear within doubt as a form of ridiculousness. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing myself.  I direct myself to stand one and equal with the words I speak.  I realize and understand the ridiculousness of separating myself within my words.

When and as I see myself placing myself in conflict with professor/teaching assistant, I stop and breathe, I realise and understand the absurd ridiculousness of deliberately believing myself to be in conflict with professor/teacher.

When and as I see myself creating conflict within my mind about completing school assignment, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of polarizing the relationship towards completing school assignments. I realize the ridiculousness of perpetuating conflict within myself.

I commit myself to completing my school assignment within and as a starting point of authority.

I commit myself to standing as authority.

I commit myself realizing and understanding the authority of Equality and Oneness.

I commit myself to self-direction as an authority of what's best for all Life.

I commit myself to removing all conflict from within myself.