Day 781 - Go for It - The Movement and Moment of Doing

Taking the Time Here to Recognize the Act of Making something Happen....You know, that moment of Doing, That moment where you make the decision to move yourself for yourself....you know, because you see a possible play here and you want to make it work.....So, You go for it.

Now, timing is a funny thing in the act and moment of doing...because we play/work in time and it's the fine tuning of our actions in time that assists us in seeing the results of our creations here.  See, there is so many ways for us to move ourselves and some ways are more efficient and others are less efficient...and some just are not in relation to being efficient or inefficient....they just are simply what they are and there is no competition or friction about the play and working of oneself in motion here.

I'm recognizing a correlation within myself with regards to my attitude in mind and my ability to move myself physically. Like, specifically....what I mean is the me here within and as my Beingness here as the Player who exists within and as both Body and Mind...but is also the decision maker...and word regulator.....sound technician..the story writer author of my movement/physical life here.

Writing with this regard towards physical movment, sounds kind of strange and sort of obscure....because it's like a mind fuck of sorts that comes up within me...like this conscious thinking that i've always been moving myself this whole time...this whole life of mine.....But the reality  and truth of myself is in fact a lie of sorts, because I have come to understand that me as the Being Player here hasn't always been calling the shots and making the plays for myself here....it's like I've been taking orders from myself as my mind as consciousness/ego, a lesser version of the best of myself here as my Beingness Signature and Expression in every movement and moment.

I had a my weakness come through in my mind this evening as the thoughts about how I could let slide my writing of my blog this evening.  The fact of the matter here as me from the core of my Being here, is that I really do enjoy expressing myself through writing....I enjoy the flow of connecting my sounds through the addition of words in and as the formation of sentences coming together to share the flow that exists within and as the inside of me outside as like a sort of weather and temperature thing....the waterfall that is me. Hmmm, maybe i need to play and work within this temperature thing as the water that is me....that sounding of how that came out doesnt seem quite right....but hey maybe that's because there is an inkling of an inclination to stop myself and censor myself from actually moving myself within and as my words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to stop myself from moving/living my potential as a result of not realizing and understanding the mechanics of  my mind consciousness programming where I talk myself out of doing/moving and continue within and as thinking within and as mind consciousness. I realize I am in the process of getting to know myself for real....because it's like to a certain extent as I aged throughout my life here...i learned to cover myself up and hide the truth of myself as like my Beingness sound signature here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear being made fun of and being embarassed as a result of sounding unfamiliar and or out of tune with what is typically already known and obvious within and as basic programmed predicatable behavior.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to resist stepping outside of my comfort zone from the perspective of expanding my potential and my life as my home here...as like the movement of myself here within and as how i challenge myself-development here.  I commit myself to learning.  I commit myself to making improvements within and as my work and play time here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to understand and know the truth of myself here as words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to sabotage myself within and as my words from and as the perspective of Ego Mind Consciousness as the real disregard for my well Being Here in and as my physical Body.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to neglect awareness for myself within and as word and world here as my vocabulary and my physicality here...as like all is part of my self/flesh here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge the amount of times I make a mistake before I got the point within myself as a complete knowing and understanding that I can share and explain the various relationship dynamics/mechanics of and as the various states of motion that one can experience within and as the mistake where one reacts within  one of the many realms of intenseness as a result and consequence of our emotional outflow....where we are in fact allowing ourselves to be self-victimized by our very own reactions of Ego.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to Fear letting my ego go.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not now what it is like to live always without  the thoughts of self-sabotage as the thinking my way out of doing something.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing nor understanding how the trap of my mind as ego within and as consciousnesses energy was to over think things for myself...as the specifics of talking my way out of actually doing anything....because you see...I am quite capable and able to talk my walk as i write myself here...and the fact of the matter is....that as I write...I see myself here for real...is like as I write...I can hear myself loud and clear...as like the me that has always been here...yearning to be heard as the voice that has been suppressed in favor of self-suppression as the fear ego mantra of submission in energy patterned behavior of various dimensions of polarized constructions, also know as the war between good and evil picked from the tree of knowledge.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand myself as the Tree here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to pick on myself and others from and as the starting point of bullying where I cut myself down as like not allowing myself to grow and develop where I have the potential to branch out and blossom in a whole assortment of ways that are seemingly unimaginable.  I realize myself here as a tree. I realize to see myself as what I previous could not perceive myself as, is a great assistance in expanding my perspective and perception of and as my capacity for developing my very own personal self-responsibility.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing nor understanding the terror of self-inferiorization....as the parasitic vampire like self-inflicted condition of twisting and turning words around within the mind to reflect the feeling and or emotion of the moment...and to be so convinced that is the totality of myself ability in the moment that I don't want to even question my status update, because the fear of not being real is so real that desire and urge to be accepted by anyone other than myself is so great....because ironically, the definition of authority has been transmuted outside of self...myself here.  I commit myself to re-establishing myself here as Authority and Author of myself here as the Director of myself here,,,and I commit myself to share with others how self-direction is a matter of self-regard and the willingness to speak for real on behalf of yourself here making a stand for all life here as one and equal.

I commit myself  to stop slacking off in regard for my words here...and within this i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to isolate myself into inaction as a result and consequence of fearing  the moment of moving myself within and as the practical application of myself living words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand my creative capacity for self-developing solutions that are great.

 I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear my potential here as a creative solution developer.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to disregard...and really disassociate myself with the word "Developer"

I commit myself to playing and working with the word  "Developer".

I commit myself to delving...and diving into and as the practical living of my potential within and as the word "developer"


To Be Continued

Day 753 Consistency and Moderation - A Complimentary and Practical Living Arrangement,,,Like a Fine Tune

 



When you take two things that are good and you pair them together, the potential increases....like a good investment....You know this...and I mean the song gets better....it's like adding depth to the pool you are swimming in.  It's fun to begin wading around in shallow waters...like a wading pool....I mean it's a cool place to play around within....though, that is not all there is.  Potential exists beyond the shallow waters of the wading pool.

Word Relations are a lot like the 'wading pool' analogy I present here. Though, that is not all they are.  Like for instance when you pair words together to create the specificity of your sentencing...the potential to increase the depth of your pool exists.  I mean words are like the water to swim with and within. And the words are like the giving ourselves depth to move about in so many ways as the expressions of ourselves that exist within and as ourselves here.

The better we trust ourselves to work and play with our words here....the more expansive our swimming pool gets...and ironically enough our response ability to play and work as our sound expression here, becomes more clear, as a finely tuned clearly defined shape....as we exercise/drive/sculpt/draw our formations together as a reflection of and as our-self standing here as Collaborator...a worker and player here.

So much so, the way I like to look at things here is from the perspective of expansive potential possibility.  This I see is the depth of the water to swim in that exists our Expression/Flow/Opportunity here as Creation Creators.

Movement is Dynamic.

There is a definite momentum to movement.

Words are movement.

Words are moving and standing still as sounds structurally sound. A fascinating surety here indeed. I mean there is a reflexive responsibility about words and at the same time there is a firmness holding on together about words. This seeing about words stems from the branches/roots that are parts/pieces of the Tree of Self/Life here as who we are as Sound.

There is so much more to say....

The orchestra of word arrangements is a timeless classic.


For the moment here, lets pay particular attention and regard to the acknowledgement and appreciation of:

Consistency and Moderation....together in unison....as the complimentary relationship pairing here that bodes well for the composer who combines these harmonies here in playing and working out various notes that make up the masterpiece that is the inevitable Greatness of Life living arrangements Here.



To Be Continued as I provide more specific direction into and as the diving board for the deep dive.

Day 720 - Income Tax

I think Income Tax is total fucking bullshit.  From my perspective it is a total scam.  This blog here today is not an investigation of the law in which exists in regards to Income Tax.  This blog here today is in regards to the emotions I have accepted and allowed to exist as a Reaction to Income Tax.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get angry about "Income Tax".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for projecting blame in regards to the existence of "Income Tax".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting frustrated about "Income Tax".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting emotionally frustrated with people who believe "Income Tax" makes sense.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to experience myself as being victimized by "Income Tax".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being self-righteous in regard to "Income Tax".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being impatient within communicating with others about "Income Tax".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking offense to people who do not give a shit about "Income Tax" and just pay somebody to take care of it for them.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that "Income Tax" is total fucking bullshit.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking "Income Tax" is a scam.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding that forgiving myself for something doesn't make the point more or less true but in fact it is a point of self-responsibility in removing the dissonance between oneself and the point. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to let go of the negative energy within myself in regards to Income Tax.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having created difficulty for myself in releasing the negative energy associated with things that are negative.  Within this, I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that if I were to get rid of the negative energy about such points than perhaps the point would be mistakenly disregards as not negative anymore.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for conditioning myself to think and see in and as reactions where it's like I have become accustomed to associate a positive or negative energetic value with the words/things I see.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing making mistakes as a result of releasing myself from negative or positive energetic possession.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding the absurd ridiculousness of fearing to let go of the positive/negative energy experience/reaction to things in this world because then things would no longer be the same. Within this, I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have been fearing change.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to change energetic relationships out of fear that I don't know what will come of them and to a certain extent all I have ever known is relationships from the starting point of reaction as energetic experience.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I allowed the words "income tax" to exist as negative energy triggers within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for placing myself in conflict with the words "income tax".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the absurd ridiculousness of placing myself in and as a war of words....where I am in a state of flux with regards to words as either a positive or negative or neutral reaction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for defining reaction to exist as something that is bad that is negatively charged, even though reactions can be positive energy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having a neutral energetic reaction towards "Income"...and I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having a negative energetic reaction towards "tax".


To Be Continued

Day 705 - Knee Injury and the Inner Jury

This is an introductory post into what will be a series of writing's about myself in relationship to a most recent knee injury I have suffered.

A few points I would like to make note of here that will be focus topic areas of investigation:



Looking at the word Injury...and Inner Jury....and the Inner Journey required as self-reflection upon the build up of acceptances and allowances.


The vocabulary of the knee. There is much vocabulary about the knee that is somewhat foreign to me from the perspective of not being well versed in the specific words/parts of the Knee and Knee area.


Looking more closely at the functioning of the knee as a whole and as the make up of all the individual parts.


The Knee and Structural Resonance Alignment. What does the knee signify in relationship to the Mind...specifically the consequence of an accumulation of energy as Mind Consciousness Systems.


Healing my Knee with Self-forgiveness and Self-responsibility.

Note: I have looked at the structural resonance documents on more than one occasion and my self-forgiveness will be supported directly by the support and assistance I have received within reading the documents. See the link here for specific document in regards to the knee.

I will begin here at the end and work with the beginning in taking care of all points of consideration that require attention. Beginning with a general opening of self-forgiveness as the initial support and assistance recognition to allow the aid in and as my self-corrective process.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the "inner jury" within and as an Injury.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the consequences of unnecessary physical body suffering as a result of accumulated memories within myself from the starting point of feelings and or emotions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding the impact of holding onto the memories of the past within my body with the particular charges of emotion and or feeling.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for nor realizing and understanding how in fact memories can in fact crystallize in the body as an accumulation of accepted and allowed energetic possession that kind of like leaches off of the physical body.

I  forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking the value of my knee for granted.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking the totality of my physical body for granted.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting to a point of regard as a result of unfortunate consequence.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being responsible for injuring me knee.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for hurting myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being insincere with the practical living daily regard for my physical body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to abuse my physical body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding all the parts of my knee and how all the parts of my knee relate to all the rest of the parts of my physical body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being inconsiderate and believing myself to have too many physical body parts to be able to in fact regard and consider all my parts.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having thought about regarding all my body parts from the perspective of getting to know all the names of the physical body parts...but to within this regard,  have a reaction of doubt and of the thought/thinking that it is not possible for me to get familiar with the vocabulary of all my body parts...or that it's not practical....even if I would like to know all the vocabulary of which I am made of.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that it is just too difficult for me to be aware of all my body parts.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for dismissing making the effort to get to know all my body parts because there is so many body parts I have taken for granted within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking the physical body for granted.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that my physical body is just to complicated to really know and understand absolutely.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for making excuses as to why it is not likely that I can know and understand myself completely here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be impaired by vocabulary.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting the patients required to integrate and develop vocabulary that I am not familiar with.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not really know and understand myself/physical body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having the idea and attitude that it's just kind of impossible to really know and understand everything about the human physical body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying and distracting myself with excuses as to why I do not need to work as much as I am able to on a daily basis in getting to know my physical body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting daily regard, appreciation, gratitude and consideration for my physical body.l

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to specifically know and understand the totality of my physical body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing the self-intimacy required in actually getting to know my whole physical body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating conflict with my body as a result of how I am participating within my mind.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to mistreat my body as a result of not taking self-responsibility for my mind.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not taking self-responsibility for my body with the support and assistance of my mind.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to mistreat my mind as a result of not taking self-responsibility for my body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to disregard myself with a mind and body that require regard and consideration equal and one as what is best for all Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding what regard and consideration for Everything as Oneness and Equality in fact means.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding the physicality of words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to self-correct my misuse of words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the physical self-direction as living actions within as the words as sound here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having conflict within belief about what is possible within and as the Living Words Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for polarizing potential with disbelief, as like making sense out of non sense.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the irrationality within arguing/disagreeing with myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the impact of having even just one point out of physical alignment as Oneness and Equality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how consequences are perpetuated as the fear of more consequences existing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating hardship for myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being negligently unaware and dare I say oblivious to the stress and strain I have done onto my physical body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for struggling with the living of specific regard.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding things within being lazy as like not wanting to live the patience required to investigate the detailed specifics of a point.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for glossing over specific points.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having a prefference for generalizing information as opposed to being specialized in detail as like really specific with information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that it is better to be more specific with information than it is to be less specific with information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to compare and contrast the point of generalizing information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting the patience required to see the detailed specifics of all things here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for glossing over the detailed specifics with regards to the specialized vocabulary about the knee parts in and around the knee as that which contributes to the knee existing here as the knee.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being lazy with language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that I do not require to be a specialized authority of words as the authority of knowing myself here because there exists so many different kind of doctors that specialize in different sections/parts/areas of expertise...and since most people are not master specialists of themselves as like know it alls....why should I be one?

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for dismissing self-responsibility for myself here as the physical authority of myself here. I forgive myself for justifying a lack of accountability for self-actualization of myself here. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for making sense of not taking self-responsibility for the authority of knowing myself here because there exists so many different kinds of specialists here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that I am not required to be an authority here because there already exists so many different types of authority figures here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having created an idea of myself as being anti-authority....and I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding the absurd ridiculousness of such a notion as like creating a fight with myself internally that is perceived externally within other types of authority here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for dismissing the practical possibilities of self-actualization as self-authorization here. Meaning, that self-responsibility is a knowing how to physically direction one self here as all as equals.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand the complications that are created within and as the acceptance and allowance of inequality..,,and that accountability and consideration is much easier to process from the starting point of equality and oneness together here as what is best for all Life.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to write myself free everyday.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding the consequences of passing up even just one opportunity to write.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the motivation within and as self-forgiveness from and as the perspective of fostering and facilitating the development of new growth...as like creating something that wasnt here before....as like a new opportunity is born.

Day 694 - Freedom

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating positive energy about the word "freedom".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating a negative energy definition as reaction to realizing and understanding how I created a positive energetic definition about "freedom".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get stuck within and as my word relationships by polarizing them within energies as either being positive/negative/neutral.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing how I have perpetuated the polarity play of words within myself as an outflow and energetic reaction of myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not recognizing the extent to which freedom exists as kind of an ironic term from the perspective that no real freedom exists within and as the acceptance of a polarized vocabulary from the perspective of having words charged with emotion and or feeling.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent of programming that exists within and as my mind consciousness system as a result of and as my individual self-defined emotion and feeling associations to words as the various energetic attachments onto words which perpetuate a polarized disharmony.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the simplicity of freedom existing within and as responsibility...as the ability to express oneself here from and as the starting point of responding and or directing creation as what is best for Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and recognizing myself as the starting point of creation here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for separating myself from and as the word "creation"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent of the cosmic joke that is 'fighting for freedom'...because this perpetuates the peace/war polarity...where one perpetuates the other...and is really anything but harmonious.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for denying to investigate all energetic word relationships that exist within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for making up blame as a defense to why freedom doesn't really exist. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have perpetuated conflict within myself as a result of participating within blame and holding onto the belief that freedom cannot exist.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from and as "freedom"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding freedom from the perspective of freeing myself from my own accepted and allowed enslavement.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for looking to create an energy about freedom as a way to generate some sort of feeling or emotion in relation to the experience of myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing how the seemingly natural reaction when investigating word relationships is to take on the opposite polarity as the believed to be correct/right adjustment and new way of seeing. I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of jumping back and forth between positive and negative energy.

When and as I see myself faced with a reaction, I first allow myself to take a breath and actually stop the energetic movement that is existing within myself as the reaction energy...I look at the energy specificity and I see/realize the word associations in relationship to the specific reaction I just experienced....I purify my word relationships here by first recognizing the impurity and then by forgiving the impurity and the particular energetic charge attached to the impurity and then I allow myself to play with the word for a moment as I work out an agreement to live as the word...from and as the perspective of substantiating the best potential for myself and the word here. I commit myself to living words as the best structures of support. I commit myself to specificity with my word selection.

When and as I see myself resisting responsibility.....responsibility from the perspective of seeing and realizing a potential opportunity here.....I take a moment to focus on my breathing a 4 count breath and actually stop my thoughts/feelings/emotions and take a self-honest look at the opportunity of responsibility that is available here for me to jump into and as a point of self-direction. I allow myself the opportunity to move within and as the moment of self-responsibility. I see realize and understand my potential abilities and skills are developed effectively as the outflow of my living and directing myself responsibilities. I realize and understand the ridiculousness of holding back on potential as a result of resisting to push self-responsibility.

I commit myself to living self-responsibility.

I commit myself to developing my talents/skills/abilities as a result of living self-responsibility.

I realize Freedom to exist within and as the living of self-responsibility/self-honesty.

I commit myself to practically living self-responsibility and self-honesty.

When and as I see myself faced with a moment of thought that seems so right, I stop and breathe, I allow myself to forgive my thought...as I see realize and understand the righteousness of thought is a hindrance to a holistic perspective here....I realize and understand the the self-responsibility in directing each and every thought through the application of self-forgiveness.

I commit myself to living self-forgiveness as an expression of Freedom here. I realize and understand self-forgiveness is a tool that is fun to use....when and as oneself realize the awesomeness potential of and as self-forgiveness as the gift giving tool that it is.

Day 625 Human Stupidity

Perhaps the most profound stupidity of Humanity is our detrimental reliance upon feelings and emotions within making decisions. Logically rationalizing the justification of our actions/reactions as being right and righteous within and as the makeup of our moral convictions. What is so fascinating about this, is that the basis of our emotions and feelings is rooted in and as our opinion. Like; how we choose to make believe our perception of things...Like; a forced justification as to why our perception is veiled with a particular cloth. 

What I find fascinating about about the detrimental reliance upon feelings and emotions within making decisions...is that there is a form of self-abdication of personal self-responsibility within giving credence to the existence of feelings and emotions within one-self. I see this as an excuse/justification...and a form of blame...which is a perpetuated consequence of fear/trauma within one-self. 

Now, what to do about all the feelings and emotions that exist within one-self?

Obviously, It is important to acknowledge the existence of such feelings and emotions that exist within one-self. Denying and deflecting the existence of the actuality of one's creation is not suggested nor recommended as the compounding interest of consequences will continually compound in order to facilitate the learning process as one creates more mistakes/misfortune/trauma in order to accelerate understanding/insight/clarity. This is obviously some what ironic...because it is a tragic comedy...a really really bad joke...if you can even call it that...as it is totally self-induced. The ridiculousness is completely absurd.

Here exists the opportunity to investigate the nature of one's self-definition. What is interesting within this self-investigative discovery and self-reflection is that we are faced with seeing our accepted and allowed inequality here...and how the nature of our internal cognitive dissonance has shaped our external inequality as the world horror story that exists here.

So, by daring to stand equal with every point of inequality that exists here, the opportunity is born/garnered/granted to purify/birth the nature of our very being here within and as the starting point principle of Creation(equality and oneness)...as we give like we would like to receive...realizing and understanding that the best support and assistance is always the best support and assistance. In this, here, we are able to see through all acts of deception/self-dishonesty...because we have committed our self here to and as the self-trust and self-honesty required within and as the practical living character who lives and breathes self-forgiveness as the founding principle of Life-Self-Expression-Here.

Day 615 Creation and Reaction?

So in looking at the word "Creation" I noticed that the word "Reaction" is within and as the word "Creation" when and as you move the letters around. It is interesting to see also the correlation and connection that Creation is in fact within and as the word, "Reaction".


This is interesting to me because I have been regarding my reactions as less than creation here. What I have neglected to understand and realize completely is how in fact my every reaction reveals to me my manifested accepted and allowed creation here that has become so much so automated. It's interesting because reactions reflect what has already been created...and I have been looking at reactions as the suppression of the in the moment opportunity/possibility for new creation/expression to be born/lived.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the equality and oneness within and as the words "Creation" and "Reaction".


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for regarding my reactions as less than creations.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the self-reflection in seeing and realizing and understanding how and why my reactions are in fact my creations here.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I in fact created limitation for myself in defining particular behaviour patterns for myself as a points of reaction as a result of personalizing a definition of a specific word that stimulates/triggers/generates a point of conflict/friction within myself.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I created conflict/friction/reactions within myself.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for defining reactions as bad and creations as good.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for giving a positive polarity charge to the word "creation" and a negative polarity charge to the word, "reaction"


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting mixed up within myself as a result of bouncing back and forth within positive and negative energies.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating particular relationships towards words with positive and negative energies.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have fucked with my ability to play with words as a result of creating personalized definitions of words with specific and particular energetic associations.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating reactions towards words as a result of creating energetic relationships with words.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have been passively creating my reality within having reactions. 


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how having reactions is a point of creation from and as the starting point of passive acceptance and allowance.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for abdicating creation within passive acceptance and allowance from and as the starting point of having reactions and not knowing and understanding what to do about reactions.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking reactions personally.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing reactions.


To Be Continued

Day 611 Emotional Attachment to Money Self-Corrections

When and as I see myself stressing myself out about money, I stop and breathe, I say I am here, and I see/realize/understand that stressing myself out about money does not in fact support me at all. I see/realize/understand the harm/strain I do to my body within stressing my body as a result of fearing not having enough money. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear not having enough money to survive. I commit myself to seeing the humor as the absurd ridiculousness of justifying the need to stress myself out as a result of requiring/needing more money and not knowing how I am going to get it. I see/realize/understand that stressing myself out will not support and assist me within obtaining the money. I commit myself to stop stressing myself out. I commit myself to stop justifying the experience of stress upon my physical body in relationship to dealing with money.

When and as I see myself experiencing disharmony within myself in and as relationship to money, I stop and breathe, I say I am here, I investigate why and how it is that I am in conflict with regards to my starting point within and as Money. I commit myself to resolving conflict/disharmony within and as money. I commit myself to taking immediate self-responsibility in self-correcting a disharmony within and as money relationship when in fact I see the point. I commit myself to stop fearing to see for real what is here. I commit myself to stop fearing and doubting my future here on earth. I commit myself to the future here on earth.

When and as I see myself valuing money more than I value myself/others, I stop and breathe, I say I am here, I direct myself in forgiving myself for devaluing myself/others in relationship to over-inflation within and as the value of my relationship to money/currency. I commit myself to stop perpetuating a world money system of abuse. I see/realize/understand my relationship with money and other beings is a reflection of why and how the world exists today.

To be Continued

Day 609 Emotional Attachment to Money Self-corrections

When and as I see myself having an emotional attachment towards money, I stop and breathe and say, 'I am here', I see/realize/understand the impracticality and detrimental reliance upon having a an emotional attachment towards money. I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing myself to have an emotional attachment to money. I commit myself to having a physical relationship with money within and as the self-realization that money exists as a primary point of assistance and support for my well being here.


When and as I see myself existing within a polarized relationship with money where I am being competitive from and as the perspective of existing in a win/loss relationship with money, I stop and breathe and say 'I am here'. I see/realize/understand the absurd ridiculousness of having a polarized relationship within and as my relationship to money. I commit myself to equalizing my relationship with money to existing within and as a win/win relationship. I commit myself to utilize my relationship with money as a point of assistance and support.



When and as I see myself desiring to have more money and fearing to lose all my money, I stop and breathe and say 'I am here'. I see/realize/understand the absurd ridiculousness of of existing within and as energetic highs and lows within relationship to money. I see/realize/understand that it is in no way supportive for myself to exist within an energetic relationship towards money. I see/realize/understand how it is equally ridiculously absurd to exist in a positiveenergetically charged relationship towards money, as it is to exist within a negative energetically charged relationship towards money. I commit myself to stop allowing even a brief moment of energetic friction to exist within and as my relationship to money here. I direct myself to stop suppressing my potential within and as the practical living of and as the word money.



when and as I see myself thinking to make decisions from and as a starting point of fearing to lose all my money, and or desiring to make more money, I stop and breathe, I say, "I am here". I see/realize/understand the impracticality and the absurd ridiculousness of making decisions from the starting point of fear of losing all my money and or the the desire to make lots of money. I commit myself to making practical decisions that are in the best interest of supporting myself as All as One as Equal here. I commit myself to making decisions from within and as a point of personal self-responsibility. I commit myself to stop fearing money. I commit myself to stop desiring money. I commit myself to taking on more responsibility with money, I see/realize/understand the correlation with money and self-responsibility. I commit myself to to self-movement within and as the point of self-responsibility here.


When and as I see myself defining my physical comfort in relationship to how much money is in my bank account, I stop and breathe and I say, "I am here". I see/realize/understand how ridiculously absurd and irrational it is to go through experiences of emotional highs and lows within having more or less money than I previously did. I commit myself to stop stressing my physical body about money. I commit myself to stabilizing my physical body relationship with money. I commit myself to self-correcting a point within a moment where I see my relationship to money is out of alignment as Oneness and Equality. I see/realize/understand the danger/abuse within charging up words with emotion and feeling as I see/realize/understand how this is in fact causes stress/strain/tension upon my physical body. I commit myself to stop straining/stressing and putting added tension on my physical body as a result of accepting and allowing words to exist within myself from within and as a starting point of disharmony. I see/realize/understand how and why words can exist within and as a point of disharmony. I see/realize/understand how and why words can exist within and as Life Harmony Here. I see/realize/understand how and why it is a point of self-responsibility within and as how I Live/Express/Accept Words to exist within myself. I commit myself to living/expressing Life Harmony.



When and as I see myself limiting my practical living creative expression within garnering an emotional attachment to money, I stop and breathe, I say, "I am Here". I see realize/understand that my ability to direct my practical living from within and as a point of what is best for all Life is self-sabotaged within accepting and allowing myself to garner an emotional attachment to money. I direct myself to let go of an emotional attachment to money. I commit myself to stop garnering an emotional attachment to money. I commit myself to sharing/exposing the absurd ridiculousness of garnering an emotional attachment to money.

To Be Continued

Day 606 Emotional Attachment to Money

Why is it that I have an emotional attachment to Money?

Well, I feel safe and secure when I have lots of money in my bank account. Money provides me with a sense of comfort and security of well being. Have I created a false sense of security within myself that is relative to the amount of money I have? I mean, money is a point of practicality within the word in which we live. Money supports our well being here. I need and require money in order to buy food and be able to pay for a place to live. I need money to survive. So, I see that within this desire to survive/fear of not surviving I have derived comfort within having money to spend. I mean, I like spending money on points of luxury...like being able to travel, have a car, have toys to play with...the money to participate within activities. 

I was just looking at my bank account and calculated some upcoming expenses...and also I was looking at the price of the Canadian dollar in relation to the European dollar and the American dollar....and within doing so, I had some reactions of anger/frustration/irritation/annoyance/blame.

Also, I started questioning my initial plans for the upcoming months...I mean I started looking at things more and more because of the fear of loss...like losing the money that currently sits in my bank account...and within this...kind of fretting within my mind... so very concerned...in a slight state of panic/stress/strain upon myself...feeling uncomfortable within the thoughts that as my bank account shrinks and I move into new business ventures without an initial immediate return of income....what if I don't succeed? I mean, shit, the paranoia attached to my money relationship is a most tragic comedy.

So, 

As, I stabilized myself within taking a breath and realizing I am here, I was able to look with clarity at how I had created such an energetic buildup within myself in relationship to my money. 

Obviously it is not cool that the majority of the people on the planet most likely have some sort of emotional attachment to money.

It is not cool that my emotional attachment to money has been a result of competition mentality mind set as the 'desire to win and the fear of losing'...the epitome of a win/loss relationship. I mean, fuck, that type of relationship mind set sucks.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating an emotional attachment to money.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for existing within and as a competitive win/loss relationship with money...where I desire to have more money and I fear loosing all my money.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for defining my comfort and security in relationship to how much money is in my bank account.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create my existence to exist within and as an emotion/feeling state of energy that is directly related to how much money I have.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having suppressed my practical living creative expression and potential expression within garnering an emotional attachment to money.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating emotional stress/strain upon my physical body within fearing to lose my money and fearing to not have enough money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the money psychology of our shared reality...and how it exists within and as the fear of loss.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for suppressing my life potential within stressing/straining myself about money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for valuing money more than I value my physical well being.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for sacrificing and compromising my physical well being within forming an emotional attachment to money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have suppressed my relationship potential with money as a result of fearing to lose money...and desiring to have more money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having a conflicting relationship with money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have the opportunity to expand my relationship to and as money within letting go of my emotional attachment towards money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I am able to become more intimate within my expression with money as a result of stopping to accept and allow my money movement relationships to be rooted and influenced by fear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have the opportunity to develop creative expression with money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for separating myself from and as the money here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding myself as the point of self-determination in deciding and determining the level of connection I have with money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the money delusion of desire as like the beautiful mirage that is always just a little out of reach.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for mind fucking myself in and as a result of creating an emotional attachment to money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for becoming energetically stimulated by money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have moved through my life within a limited capacity as a result of having an emotional attachment to money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having reacted in a spiteful manner to the realization that I have existed within an emotional attachment towards money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being spiteful towards myself in trying to rebel against my emotional attachment to money...by deliberately being careless with my money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing my money movement.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for wanting to avoid spending my money as much as possible.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for suppressing my money movement.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having desired to be reckless with my money in hopes that I will get a big reward for taking a big risk.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for desiring big amounts of money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing big amounts of money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how ridiculously absurd it is to fear money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for treating money as separate from myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having defined money to be my artificial life force.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for restricting/resisting my access to money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having a relationship with money based upon self interest.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to let go of the desire for more money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that the desire for more money is the necessary motivation in order to make receiving more money possible.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding that I do not in fact require to desire having more money in order for me to be one and equal with receiving/inheriting more money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking I must be deceptively clever in order to receive more money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for doubting my ability to give myself more money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for running away from more money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for wanting to avoid the responsibility that comes with having more money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing the responsibility that comes with having more money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which my relationship with money has been ridiculously absurd.