Day 793 - Mind Superior Royalty

“I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to lock myself up within my word relationships in such a sneaky and deceptive manner of self-trickery that I resist to even speak or write about it....because the pain of self-condemnation as an Inferior and an Imbecile is heart breakingly embarrassing to myself as Mind Superior Royalty who is Superior to such characterizations and behaviours.”

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize nor understand the significance of my words and world.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to resist taking authority for my world and words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to abdicate direction to misalignment within and as my word and world relationships.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to dismiss the extent of my errors and suppression within and as my relationships.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize nor really extensively investigate myself within and as my words as the science and structured signs of myself here as how I have specifically created myself to be exactly as I am in this moment here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize nor understand how I created my world through and as the specific impressions i created within and as the words within myself and how it is my words that are in fact very questionable always as my words are the explanation to why my world is exactly the way it is. I realize my words are not valid as an excuse of justification for why and how I am here within and as the world. I realize who and how I have existed within and as the world as been an excuse and justification, in a way, my ignorance and incompetence, a lack of Life regard.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for seeking stimulation externally to charge myself internally as how I have conditioned my preferences within my mind for feeding off of my physical body from day to day.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to trust within my thinking as how to best feed off my body for energetic highs and lows as to give me the perfect chemical concoction i desire in the moment to satisfy a seemingly internal and external craving for more and more consumption.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand the addiction i have created within and as my mind to feed off myself, my life, all life as an energetic kick back. Conflict.

Tension for the attention.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to crave the continuous pulsation of tension within my body to feel something, because without a constant stressing and straining in way of engagement i have an experience of being unfulfilled.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for desiring to get my fill of consumption, a point of tension in creating rifts, conflict, as various forms of self-abuse.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize how extensively integrated my conditioned behavior and personality is for destructive self-abuse...and therefore world abuse.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to get real, make the daily commitment to deconstruct my constructions of word/world relationships that i exist in and as separation to.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fuck around with actually living words for real and creating myself and world as I would like.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to make believe that really investigating myself within and as Words is something that is not totally necessary....is entertaining and enjoyable but at the same time a lot of effort and work and therefor avoidable and personally i rather go about this process of word/world entanglement in a less than organized and structured manner because the task and process is overwhelming to me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to become overwhelmed with the process of word and world entanglement.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think that i must think of everything before i can really do anything.\

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for holding myself back from playing and working on Potential developments.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand how One in fact goes about Creating.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to resist being totally self-honest with myself here and that I haven't understood Creation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear looking inferior to others in my understanding, knowledge and application of myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to penalize myself within and as a result of conditioning myself to be controlled through fear of not Knowing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize the process of Know thy Self, is to in fact stand in the face of Not Knowing, and to from here, Walk, take the steps to: Investigating, Learning, Asking Questions, play and work with things so that I know.

Day 791 - Inferiority and Money

 I found some self-forgiveness writing I had done some time ago on "Inferiority and Money".  Interesting, I had some resistance to sitting with my words here.  So here they are:



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create and superimpose this sort of inadequate self-acceptance in relationship towards money and activities.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to put pressure onto myself to explain my financial situations.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to question being vulnerably open about money and expenditures.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to to brag about wealth.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create a sort of inferiority/superiority character construction play out in regards/relationship to money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into an experience of inferiority within myself where i experience a sort of needing desire to explain myself to another in a way where they see me as all sorted out...well put together and well taken care of.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be very concerned about how others regards and perceive me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have created a Want,.....specifically a Want to be regarded and perceived in a certain manner.....a manner where I am generally regarded as Superior to others....especially in regards to matters of Money, and quality of Life, and overall Well Being, and Intelligence/Awareness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to project competition outside of myself from a starting point of separation where I create a want to explain myself to others from a a starting point of separation.....where within this, I go into the experience of justification as an outflow form of belief...in believing i must say this and this so that so and so knows this and that about me...and so they can perceive me in this way.

Asking myself what comes up...why the resistance here?

The Fear of Seeing myself within acceptances and allowances that are less than admirable in my own mind.

In my own mind I am great, the most superior, even in points of skill development i haven't yet developed, the belief is there that i can if i want to, that i can do whatever I want, that i really don't have many limits or walls on my physical ability....and for me it is simply a matter of making a decision to do whatever it is I want to do.

My general Attitude is that I get what I want. If I want it, I got it. My will is my way. I can figure out any problem.

To Investigate myself acceptances within Inferiority is an Unmasking of myself as the hiding I created as a sort of defense mechanism within my mind...to in a way, keep me locked within an Elitism mentality of Self-Righteousness where I keep the Fight for Survival alive where I am always superimposing myself as a Winner in relationship to the deep down self-acceptance of myself as a Loser.

This goes deep into myself here, and the seriousness of competition I place upon myself as like the pressure and buildup i carry around and let loose....though it's interesting because it's like I have held myself back from being One and Equal as Life here, as my Potential to be a Real Team Player, because of this point of Inferiority....Inferiority to such an extent where i dismiss and discount myself. So much of this has been hidden from me in really seeing clearly, because I always deflected self-responsibility, self-reflection away from myself and built up a wall of self-denial in so many ways....where it's like I've always been trying to be clever in building up my defenses within myself where I can mess around.

Ironically, this messing around and avoiding the deep seated truths of myself has been anything but easy. Sure, I've made things look easy at times, but it's been an act of sorts to play down an effortful performance. It's like I've become an expert in deception. Specifically specializing in self-deception, Masking myself disregard, accepted inadequacy with Superiority, and self-imposed greatness as a sort of religious belief about myself that was logically justified one day as a result of the thinking, 'this makes sense, if i am to be great, i must believe myself to be great, i must say it” Within this, there is some coolness....but, not all the way there, because i didn't totally own these words as myself, where i didn't totally live this as me...it's like i just took on a glossed on the top attitude and persona of greatness to cover up how I've really felt about myself for a long long time....so long that i didn't even understand how I could accept and allow myself to be Inferior. I didn't even know what Inferiority was, but I took it on. I accepted it within my mind....and from that moment it's like I've been in an internal conflict of Inferiority versus Superiority where Superiority must triumph over Inferiority to self-validate the experience of worth while and valuable. To be wealthy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize nor understand the irony of Inferiority versus Superiority where Superiority must win because it's like the experience of Inferiority is Superimposed within Superiority to existing as Super Inferior, where it's the experience of being Better, Winning, feeling more than that which you define as Less than. Which, is quite funny in and of itself because it's like hey, “I'm going to fight for my limitation here....see I've defined myself as 'less than' this particular thing...and so I am going to fight to become even less than this particular thing....but I will feel mighty and powerful over this point i accept and allow myself to be Less Than....So much so, I will trick myself into existing as 'more than'...and it will be gloriously victorious”

I forgive myself to suppress myself within self-definitions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize the extent to which i suppress myself within my words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to superimpose suppression upon myself as a result of resisting to investigate and in fact purify my word and world relationships where I see I exist in some sort of Inferiority or Superiority.

I realize all forms of Inferiority and Superiority are essentially the same thing as points of self-suppression and that it's like Inferiority is less suppression than superiority....where superiority is superior suppression. Funny to see the irony of suppression within Inferiority and Superiority where it's Inferior suppression and Superior Suppression.....like fucked and double fucked.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having resistance to being less fucked than I previously was.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having become so used to being royally fucked that I experience myself as uncomfortable in being less than royally fucked. Where being less than royally fucked, feels strange and almost embarrassing and shameful...where i should want to fuck around more so i can get back to being royally fucked. The irony is profoundly fucked, lol.

To Be Continued with: “Royally Fucked ....Maybe, Just, Royally Screwed”

Day 787 - Creating Structure(s)

Lets have a look at Structure:

Our time is structured....whether we like it or not. Obviously depending on our time management and regard for our responsibilities and allotment of time...will reflect in the quality of our minute to minute structuring of our days within time.

Activities are structured.  Say you play a sport...there's a certain structure to it that makes it the very sport/game you play.  Television is structured into a specific amount of time....same with movies.  Also consider here the stories are structured in a way of a timeline.

Money Is Structured. What do I mean?  I mean lets say you use a bank, there's banking structure.  Also, how much money you receive from work that you do is often structures by an hourly wage, an annual wage, a commission per sale, and or by specific contract.  Each point showcasing a particular structured design.

Our Thoughts/Feelings/Emotions are structured. What? Have a look...if you investigate the details into one of your thoughts....you can see that it corelates to much about yourself in one way or another. Same with the feelings and emotions.  They have been conditioned into ourselves in very specific ways as a result of how we have acted and reacted in response to stimuli in our environment.  Basically how we have been conditioned to process information from the time we were born.  Interesting investigation into the structure of our thoughts/feelings/emotions....because in using our words as a point of source identification....we can explore further by seeing what connector words are associated to the core words that come up in relation to a thought/feeling/emotion.

Point I am getting at here is:  Everything exists within and as Structure. Notice how something that is well built is checked by the engineer to make sure that it is Structurally Sound.


Creation is therefore all about Structure.  Anything we do has that point of structure to it.  Even within the regard that we create new structures by learning and knowing...understanding old structures.  Because with this insight we are able to fine tune the structuring of things in ways that are great.  Though ironically enough if we look at the world of business, many products are being made more and more inferior in and as the quality/durability of their structure.

I have started Playing with the creation of Structures in my day to day living.  How so?  Specifying specific amounts of time to begin new projects.  I am keeping it super simple. So i've decided to test these specifc structures over the course of 1 year. Yup one year.  The structures I have set up are small investments of time on a daily basis. 5 minutes or more.  I set the stop watch and I immerse myself within the point for 5 minutes...or a bit more if i decided to do so.  Though the point here is in seeing for myself how many things I can create with very small investments of time on a daily basis.


See the interesting thing here is that the learning compounds everyday.  So, lets look more closely at the 5 minute investment each day.  Lets take 7 points of Interest. that's 35 minutes.  Each day for 365 days. That's  1825 minutes per point. now say you pushed yourself and you did 7 minutes on each point.  Keep in mind, you dont have to do these things, one after another.....you could have 7, 7minute blocks spread out throughout your day.  That doesn't seem all that difficult. That would equal 2555minutes on each project/investigation point of discovery.  Now the interesting thing here is obviously you could push it further if you wanted to.  Say you get 10 minutes on average....because you just can't help but want to do more once you've started this fun structure setup you've created for yourself.

The emphasis here is that their is tremendous growth potential when and as you create a structure where you build on your own momentum on a daily basis.  It's a cool discipline in short term focus for long term benefit.

So just figured I would share some of my structured investments that i've embarked upon. 



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to resist creating structured supports in my day to day living. 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize how supportive it is to create many structured points of support for myself in my day to day living.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand my tremendous creative potential within creating specific structures within my day to day living.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to forget about Play in relationship to Structure.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have forgotten about being a small child who was extremely satisfied to spend time on the Play Structures.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand how setting up specific structures within my day is allowing me to Create Structured Play Time in a variety of ways.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand how creating specific structures within my day to day living creates and supports the harmony of a balanced work/play creation.

When and as I see myself resisting one of my specific structures I have setup to support my day to day living, I stop and breathe, I realize that moving into the structure and playing and working with it will be fun.  That the time commitment is short and totally doable.  I realize that these specific structures i have setup in my day to day living are long term investments that yield a rich harvest.

I commit myself to the fruits of my labor.

I commit myself to using Structures to support my best potential.

I commit myself to using structures as a platform to Create and develop myself in ways in which i would like to expand and grow.

I realize by creating structures for myself I am creating a sort of recipe book of my own success.

I commit myself to living passion within the specific structures i have set up.

Day 772 - Life is a StandUp Comedy

 



It's funny you know, when you really get something, like you totally got it. I mean it's that moment of aha that can turn into a real hahahaha ohhh man that's funny, that's rich, that's just so great. pure gold. So money.

See, our lives are like an ever evolving learning process of self-expansion and recognition here, and we are all ways the butt of the joke. I mean we are the source of it all. We are in the house of mirrors and everything exists within ourselves and is mirrored outward as our external reality.

It's interesting to see, when we go for prolonged amounts of time without any relief... I mean, like, just perpetuating a build up of our own self-induced stress that we blame and judge and really believe it's all out there, outside of ourselves. So in a lot of ways, this is not so funny...and that is precisely the point....the knot in the funny....the knot in the fun, because we are too tightly wound, taking ourselves way too seriously, not recognizing the jokes, the points, the learning lessons, the mistakes, the problems and the solutions.

See, it's interesting; Self-honesty through accepting and allowing ourselves to be vulnerable with ourselves here,...our self-in-to-me-I-see...our self-intimacy, the taking the time to look, to care, to in fact recognize the bits of things that are happening within ourselves here.

See, these 'bits' are the jokes....and it's interesting, because everybody has so many bits here, I mean, we are always working with bits of information, and so much so it's in these moments of working with information...and there's a plethora of ways in which this is so...the amounts of varying relationship dynamics is tremendous.  The jokes, the fun, the funny, is the balancing act of not taking ourselves too seriously within and as the work we are engaged within, because we are at work all the time so to speak...our very design is as a working body here,  i mean our body doesnt take a vacation every few days,.., it's an all the time thing.

So, in having some laughs while we work, while we share, while we converse, while we play, we allow ourselves to learn and grow...we are creating a natural learning environment for ourselves within ourselves by allowing ourselves to recognize our accepted and allowed moments of ridiculousness. I mean wow, if we really have a look...it's like so often we are missing out on the fun and the funny because we are not being self-honest with ourselves here. Faking to be cool when in fact that isn't really cool.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to play it cool when shit is not all cool.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating a too prolonged build up within myself without getting to the punch line, the joke recognition, seeing the ridiculousness that i have accepted and allowed.

I realize it's kind of funny to exist as a living joke and to within and as the joke, forget that,.. Tag, I am It.  Like, oh shit, I totally forgot what the fuck i was doing.....what i have been doing....oh man...fuck.  Looking back at my set, as my acceptances and allowances that are ridiculously unacceptable it's like wow talk about bombing. Wait no, don't say bomb if you are being recorded....oh shit is this blog being recorded....lolol.  But seriously, butt butt butt...we are the shit....the whole spectrum of it, it's like we got a giant ball of shit here, the planet and it's a matter of shit management, i mean shit, take a regard of the fact that if you don't move the shit through your body on a regular basis, you are going to fucking die,...maybe through explosion, maybe not.  Point being here, is that I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to forget that I am always working and playing with a bit of some sorts, because that's the standup comedy life process here.

I realize it isn't to say, we must deliberate be fuckup's in order to be funny and have fun....no that would be dumb. Everyone is already a fuckup, Obviously myself included.  It's to self-honestly allow ourselves to recognize our weakness and to turn them into strengths, and to allow ourselves to play with these points of self-development.  Allowing ourselves to be cool in walking a point of weakness into a strength. Allowing ourselves to enjoy the journey/ride/adventure within and as our natural learning abilities here.

It's funny,

When we allow ourselves to be too hard on ourselves,

It's like we are deliberately creating a Hard-On within our minds,

You know,

A throbbing erection to mind fuck the shit out of ourselves with...

and it's like,

every time we allow ourselves to be hard on ourselves about something, it's like we are creating a new big dick inside ourselves,

as another big dick example to fuck ourselves with.

Excuse my Dick humor here,

I'm just dicking around.

Because you know,

it's kind of funny,

I mean realizing the extent to which we fuck ourselves is tragic,

Tragic comedy,

A divine comedy if you will,

because there is so much learning in store,

I mean we are all such a wealth of storage...

and it just so happens that sharing our realizations has the capacity to be both fun and funny.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold back on showing myself the funny here, as the moments/points of ridiculousness that I have accepted and allowed.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to forget to look at the ridiculousness of myself within my acceptances and allowances as the source of funny.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to suppress the fun and funny I have within myself that is at the core of my being here.  I realize and understand that the fun and the funny are here for everyone, we are all a part of it, and it is in fact best shared as like we are each the story teller, and what's cool about a good story is the fun and the funny along the way.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to take it easy within recognizing difficult things I have accepted and allowed.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for choosing to create a fearful frame of mind when I am faced with points that are challenging.  I realize that is ridiculousness, because going into a fearful mind state when things are difficult and unfamiliar, does not really assist and support oneself to move with a sort of effortless ease as the presentation of our in fact developed response abilities as the ways in which we are skilled and versed in movement.

I commit myself to sharing my process of life standup comedy.

I commit myself to encouraging others to share their life process of standup comedy.

I commit myself to share points of relationship that are easily relate-able, so that the fun and funny can be had by all.

I commit myself to educating through sharing stories/jokes of trials and tribulations.

I commit myself educating myself about others by being interested in listening to their stories of trials and tribulations.

I commit myself to being open minded.

When and as I see myself having difficulty communicating with someone, I stop and breathe, I have a giggle as I recognize I have been fucking myself unintentionally....which is pretty ridiculous....i mean to fuck yourself and not realize how you are fucking yourself is pretty fucking questionable...I mean what the fuck is going on!  SO, I recognize the specifics of the mind fuck, and I forgive myself and correct the discrepancy within myself as the point of conflict/friction/blockage that i had been brewing/building within myself.  I let it go.  I open up my ability to relate here. I see for real what is here,  I allow myself to return into and as Flow Here, by being completely open and at ease within myself here.


I commit myself to being a pillar of support in communicating with others.

I commit myself to gratitude within and as the process sharing of words here.

I commit myself to many daily word exchanges.

I commit myself to treasuring each and every word exchange.

I realize word exchanges are kind of like the stock exchanges...because words are instruments here of tremendous value.

I commit myself to cherishing my words and the words of others.

I commit myself to see the assistance and support in words always all ways.

Day 761 - The Flow of Money Reflects the Brutality of Our Everday Flow

 

 

 

 

 

The "making of money" within and as how things exist now is so much so the art of war...the manifestation of separation, constantly and consistently perpetuating dissonance as our information relationship definitions....evolving and upgrading the rules of law/war as the reactionary playout monopolizing/monetizing the profits and prophets of all Life/Labor here. Everyone is a television/satellite/antenna sound system..uprooted from a ground sound stability...so the flow of the go forward as what is best is in and as redefinition and living of words, as each here is a one in the collection and accounting for everyone. Obviously, self responsibility starts and stems from the core of our being here as the best structurally sound manifestations. Word, thought and deed all count in the accounting of what is best for all. Investigate all things and keep what is good.

 

 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding that the brutality that I see throughout the world is a result of the brutality that exists within myself and each individual being here.

 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the disharmony of blame as a complete abdication and dis-empowerment of self-actualization as the status standing self-authorized self-empowerment here.

 

I forgive myself for wanting to look at how I am responsible for Everything Here.

 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for making assumptions about things here as a deliberate apathetic vote of lack of confidence and regard within myself.

 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding myself Worth as a refelction and embodiment of all life here as the entire Universe.

 

I forgive myself for resisting to examine the extent of the dissonance within and as the flow of words within and as myself here.

 

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how my mind as an ongoing chatter box of sorts is a reflection of and as the less than stellar flow that exists here as the Money flow throughout existence.

 

I realize and understand I am responsible for the flow of my words and the flow of my money.

 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having regarded the flow of money as separate from myself and within this projecting outward particular dynamics of blame and abdication of self-responsibility.

 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the real power and forceful flow here exists within and as Our Sound.

 

I fogive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting the labored effort to actual create my sounds in a way for the first time in this life...as a result of so much so existing as less than the truth of myself as Sound Here.

 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for abdicating the words as the building blocks and musical notes as the harmonies to my expression so much so as an ongoing continuous waterfall of effortless flow as the best giving here as a purpose life contribution.

 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting to account for the flow of myself here in and as the living/sharing/expressing of myself here as a word/sound foundation.

 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the struggle and strife within and as deliberately resisting to labor my best efforts as my working word and world expressions here.

 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to flow and frolic about as sound freestyle waterfall flow as an essential life support aid that perpetuates the existence of what is best for Life.

 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding myself as sound self-responsibility in and as the words I speak/share/life/Live/Create

 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being lazy with my word and world movements here.  I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how I have deliberately restricted my own greatness of profound flow in and as my moment to moment expression, as a resulting consequence of negliglecting the profound significance of and as Myself as Living Words here.

 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for destroying life as a consequence of not realizing and understanding how to effectively sow my words so as the best support for myself and All Life here.

 

I commit myself to be authentic within and as my word usage here.

 

I commit myself to labor my play within and as my word and worldly expressions here.

 

I commit myself to relish in and as the knowing fact that I have great flow, as I realize and know myself as the source core of and as Life flow.  Within and as this, I commit myself to give as I would like to receive...and to Live the best of myself as the story of me that is worth reliving.

 

I commit myself to the process labor and play of Living Words.

I commit myself to share the flow of know thyself...as a reflection and outflow thanksgiving of the best of ourselves Here....which stems from within the well of our well being.

 

 

 

The "making of money" within and as how things exist now is so much so the art of war...the manifestation of separation, constantly and consistently perpetuating dissonance as our information relationship definitions....evolving and upgrading the rules of law/war as the reactionary playout monopolizing/monetizing the profits and prophets of all Life/Labor here. Everyone is a television/satellite/antenna sound system..uprooted from a ground sound stability...so the flow of the go forward as what is best is in and as redefinition and living of words, as each here is a one in the collection and accounting for everyone. Obviously, self responsibility starts and stems from the core of our being here as the best structurally sound manifestations. Word thought and deed all count in the accounting of what is best for all. Investigate all things and keep what is good. - See more at: http://michaelwilliammcdonald.blogspot.com/2015/11/day-760-restricted-flow-of-money-as.html#sthash.Rp2UlE4A.dpuf

Day 757 - The Flick of the Con

 


I've learned some ironically funny things about Conflict.  Specifically, myself relationship within and as conflict...how primarily so much so it is a decision of myself to accept and allow such relationship ridiculousness as the particular dynamics of various degrees of contextual relationship dynamics.

To place this simplistically,...the point is this....Being at war/odds with things is so much a choice within and as the accepted and allowed word relationships that exist within oneself as the particular feeling/emotional charges one holds onto as a debt bond.  Fascinating it is to see the word relationships as debt bonds...the specifics of particular relationship information contexts as carrying so called charges which are essentially a sort of zing I have been doing onto myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to slow down in such moments where it is in fact possible for myself to see and realize what I am in fact allowing....and to from here actually change the very nature of my word contractual relationships.

I realize the absurd ridiculousness of creating debt for myself within and as my word relations.

I realize how ridiculously absurd it is to bond myself to debt as like making myself dependent upon charges held against myself that I am so much so at the mercy of.

I realize the absurd ridiculousness of drafting such absurd contractual relationships within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extensive nature of each and every moment as an opportunity to so much so check myself within and as my word relationships...as I see and realize my words are my bonds.  Within this, I see and realize my words as the best bonds are that which are based within and as the frame work of equality and oneness...that exist free from conflictual feeling/emotion charges against myself that create a trigger as a reoccurring and perpetuating reactionary debt bond.

I commit myself to absolving myself from debt/conflict within and as my word/world relationships Here.

I realize this is a word by word process.

I commit myself to living the self-correction of and from conflicting contractual terms of word/world relations to substantially beneficial terms of word/world agreements.

Day 736 - Cat Punching on Facebook

I learned of the phenomena of "Cat Punching on Facebook" a little while ago. Cat punching on Facebook is just as it sounds.

Now, obviously it is common sense that Punching a Cat in the Face is not a Cool thing to do to a Cat. Nor is it considerate or appropriate behavior for any Human Being. So, Yes, this is mostly common sense to most people. Despite how bad we humans treat one another with our laws and the way we have structured a monetary system....where everyone is a wage slave to one degree or another...and we have a devalued labor system....where there is a lack of regard.....We typically agree that we shouldn't blatantly abuse animals as a point of schadenfreude.

However, Obviously the way our shared reality is structured reflects the ugly truth that we humans as a whole...collectively, don't really give a shit about animals. And in fact we are directly responsible for countless amounts of the most heinous animal abuse.

We do some much chemical testing on animals in the name of science as like a martyr type mentality where it's believed to be for the greater good....because the attitude and idea of humanity is that we are far superior to all other species on planet earth....and therefore everything is for our sacrifice. Now what's interesting within this very blunt perspective of humanity....is that most Humans I have found from my own personal interactions, to be somewhat defensive about such labeling...and ironically enough...an individual human's defense systems kick in and they literally profess their own self-appointed greatness and how there is unfortunately problematic humans but only a certain bunch...and that it's surely not them....and what is so ridiculous about the propagated self-defense is that in point out a blatantly some what obvious in terms of the amount of facts here....this isn't really a threatening point....but the typical human responds in self-defense because in a way...by talking shit about the Human as a generalization...it brings into question One as an individual's very existence and the meaning...and how each individual is a contribution to the collective of humans here...and it's like Humanity moves as One voice as each is the One voice and it is a majority rule as how things operate here. Ironically within this mentality....there is a lot of dismissiveness...the blame game that i mentioned earlier....and so we have a system of a lack of accountability....You Know, toooooo much deniability.  Deny, Deny, Deny, is the ingrained and educated shock doctrine police mentality television lesson to protect your innocence and survival.

Now, lets look at the specific humans who deliberately engage themselves within heinous acts....such as for example cat punching on facebook. Perhaps the reasoning behind such activity....is they think it is funny....it makes them feel good....they think it's cool....it's a rebellious thing to do and they're looking for ways to rebel in a world that doesn't make sense.  Now these are obviously just some of the possibilities....obviously there is a tremendous amount of possibilities within the psyche of an as one individual.

So, let's look closer here at the point of Education.

Within, looking at the possibilities I outlined as potentials forms of reasoning in and as how/why particular individuals participated in the Facebook cat punching.

So, notice that there is particular and specific relationship definitions in relation to the actions. This goes to show the relationship of words and actions. Have you ever heard anybody ever say anything about "Living Words"?  Well, whether you have or haven't, it's in the words as who and how we are in action. See the Action here is the Act I on. Each is in the act...or in the Reaction....meaning there is a cause and effect relationship sequence at play all of the time.

So, looking scientifically at things here as a point of logical computing of systematic data....we can deduce that Input is related to Output...as the source of input is in someway related to the output. So, to see how we have sewn ourselves sown....so to speak as the very specific ways in which we speak/think/behave....as what we have in and as our behaviour is a result and reflection of and as the extent of our education. World and Word Relationships. Now this isn't a blame game because the blame is a be lame game and nobody likes to be lame...I mean really...nobody wants to be lame...yet we do blame...because it's a defense...a Mistake...an error....due to a false positive....a result of faulty computing....crossed wires if you will.

See here, and also consider how the body is a chemical concoction...a potion if you will....always stewing and brewing....real alchemy here...kind of interplay and relationships are very much a chord of the ongoing accordion...meaning everything relates and reflects and influences and impacts...as like we are all here within a container so to speak...so the movement has influence....meaning....if you are moved in a particular energetic way about something...that may compound over time with particular triggers...triggers that you are not even consciously aware of.....so you are moving in a direction that to a certain extent is beyond your conscious choosing because you may not even realize the extent to which every decision you make has been influenced by One's very own emotional disposition and fortitude.  Which is quite the realization in and of itself...I mean look at advertising...it impulses off of emotions....particularly primal emotions...and also consider subliminal messaging....many people know the concept....but do you really know to the extent in which you have been programmed beyond you conscious, subconscious and even unconscious mind? how many minds are there even really? Popular scientific rhetoric says there;s 3 minds a conscious and subconscious and unconscious....that information is somewhat regarded as credible because of the Authority that is given to it as being valid....Scientists Professional Opinion...
Do you see how someone' who is regarded to be of authority and a "professional opinion" could potentially negatively influence another individual unintentionally? what if the professional opinion is invalid....it was just an opinion right?.,...well what about the credence give to authoritative opinion?  Do You see how this all relates to Education? Everyone is educated....the fact that you are here reflects education....now the quality of education is something of a horror story....because SEE, there is really only One Class of Life here...and that is the Life Class....but the Human within it's authoritative reach within the sciences and our classifications...amongst our own species and our habitat's we have created a grandiose Mind Fuck...which reflects...as problematic reactionary viruses spreading...meaning problems perpetuate and compound when and as nobody is standing within and as Self-Responsibility within and as the starting point Life regard and consideration as All is One and Equal Here.

Stop the blame game and reflect upon yourself how we are all equally responsible for the Mind Fuck we have here.

If you see yourself as less Mind Fucked than others....a question for you...."what are you doing to assist and support your peers to be less Mind Fucked?....who assisted and supported You?...You couldn't be totally not mind fucked without the assistance and support of others here....So, if you were more mind fucked...wouldn't you want the support and assistance of someone who is less mind fucked....?

But hey....forget about the judgement comparison analysis of who is less or more mind fucked...and notice the main point of regard within the consideration,....which is,.."Mind Fucked"

Education and Money are Keys here and we all need both as the words are money building blocks as to how to shape structure a most excellent co-existence of regard and consideration for all inhabitants,,,Compassion is the Compass in daring to care enough to look at the ugly truth and Begin the Journey to Life as the All Ways Best Direction and Decision for Life.

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Day 735 - Self-Forgiveness

Self-forgiveness is a Profound tool of and as creation here. It's the epitome of self-actualization. A noble application. A mark of greatness, compassion, consideration and the highest regard. The greatest gift really.

Let me explain.

All Life, is Self-Forgiveness.


What?


Where is the Life?


If all Life is Self-Forgiveness....what the fuck is going on?


Humans are running a muck in the what the fuck fear control and scare tactic programming that prevents the living actualization of Self-Forgiveness Integration.

The interesting thing here is that We Got it to Give.

The interesting thing is that typically our shared world reflects that we have been conditioned to not want to Give...even though we got it to give. There is a lot of irony within this reflection....

Lets look at Money for a moment as a reflection of human reflection on the understanding and realization of self-forgiveness. If you look at all the money in the world and each countries expenses and the standard of living and quality of life of all people here....it is easy to see that as a whole, the world is in Debt.  What is debt really but the charges against Life...the burden as like how things have been overdrawn....as like making laws on top of laws that perpetuate a dissonance that is a sort of self-perpetuating motion.

Obviously Debt Forgiveness is a real thing. Obviously the starting point regard for Money can change from that being of debt/slavery/suffering/overdrawn....to, Life excellence in the best of possible ways always all ways...with, an emphasis on creative potential development and encouragement as the what we got to give contribution that perpetuates itself as a constant fine tuning of a fine design that is complimentary in and as the greatest regard for Life as All Existence Here. A caring is sharing if you will....

Lets look at Self-Forgiveness....Why Self-Forgiveness? what's the deal with Self? who is Self? How many Selves are there here? Notice any sound similarity to Cells within and as the Selves? Is their Life potential always all ways within and as the various Selves? Does the starting point of any and all Selves originate from and as the same source of Self Here?  Is Self Everything?  How many reflections of Everything are there? Is that a specific number? Would it be easy for the practicality of Life regard to reflect the total number of Everything back to number One? All as One?  All is One? One and Equal? Oneness....One nest and Equal It Why?  Equal I's Here as Everything is I?  But Why?  Why Not?

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the canvass of self acceptances and allowances that are less than what is best for all life here, represent the debt we are accepting and allowing here as our self-defined canvass being as overdrawn...and it is in fact our very own self-responsibility to Forgive the debt that we have created within ourselves as the markings that have been overdrawn on our canvass here as the think in which we think that has stained our accountability to the practicality in living as Self-Responsibility.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and and understanding the tax system relationship here and self-forgiveness as like a parallel reflection of human regard/disregard for and as our actual Life and the Lives of each One here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding myself as a Life accountant so to speak as like each word being a sound foundation in sewing the regard necessary in and as the garden which is our planet we in fact are plants on planning the ways in which we grow and spread ourselves out over space and time as a result of and as the sewing seeds as the sound foundation which reflects our networking communications here as our place here within and as the community which is Our Self Here in the Garden/Heaven which begins within and as our Self/Life as our very substance and creation here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for at times deviating away from the profound simplicity in and as the magnificence of seeing and looking at the principle starting point law of Creation as, "Oneness and Equality"

I commit myself to the starting point law of Creation as "Oneness and Equality"

I commit myself to share the simplicity within as as the garden of Oneness and Equality.

I commit myself to substantiating myself here within and as the Garden of Oneness and Equality Here.

Day 731 - Golden Ticket

Continuing from my previous post, "Day 730 - Coming Out of Retirement"


"A realization that has become clear to me is that Yes, Indeed I do have a Golden Ticket and this Golden Ticket is in fact my Potential Here...and the thing is...I Require to Use My Golden Ticket...and I cannot just save it away and avoid it for a long time later.....that is foolish....My Golden Ticket has the Most Value Now...and The Value Of My Golden Ticket Gets More Valuable every day I Exercise it....like a card I got to pay/play with as the decisions I make." (Day 730 - Coming out of Retirement)


Within this and continuing from my post yesterday there is much self-forgiveness I would like to share.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting long term commitment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing long term commitment to get in the way of short term commitments and my overall ability to have fun.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for regarding "long term commitment" as burden and something that is tedious in a way i don't want to deal with.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing long term commitment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for making a conflict of sorts between "short term commitment" and "long term commitment".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have created my life from the starting point of self-interest linked to my emotions and feelings.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting movement if I am not experiencing a positive energy about doing such movement

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for defining retirement living as the enthrallment within feed positive energy pursuits.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting overwhelmed within the point of long term planning.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to actually really sit with myself and take the time to look at what I would like as some long term plans.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for always kind of reacting to the point of long term planning and being quit to judge and dismiss the point as being limiting and taking away from my day to day living.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the purposeful living within creating long term plans.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the flexibility and adaptability within long term planning that it can be a fun thing and isn't a prison sentence,,,but in fact the complete opposite.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having spent many years not really caring or daring to push the development of long term planning.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how this past decade has been like a testing phase of sorts where I have been investigating and looking at possible avenues to take myself within as a point of long term planning.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for desiring some structure and order in my life from the perspective of creating long term plans for myself to be able to move into fruition/actualization.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding how to create long term plans for myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for placing long term and short term goals within conflict with each other and for not realizing how I can utilized these two opposite points as being complimentary in bringing to fruition both the short term plans and the long term plans.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understand how ridiculous it is pit things against one another that can very easily be complementary.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to regularly check my maps as the plans i create for myself in both the short term and the long term.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not taking my life seriously from the perspective of long term planning.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for kind of neglecting myself as the creator of my life from and as the perspective that My Wish is My Command...and that I am capable of being very specific and exact within my life planning and also at times be quite adaptable.

Day 692 - Free Dumb of Speech....I Mean Free Doom....Freedom...

We live in interesting times. A time where we are faced with the question of, "what is and isn't acceptable behavior?"

It's interesting in looking at the topic of Freedom of Speech.  It's somewhat of a complex subject...yet the potential exists for it to be relatively simple.

I heard someone say that Freedom of speech is so controversial, because what is regarded as offensive and abusive to One person isn't necessarily abusive to another person.

It's like punching or slapping someone....some people might actually want you to do it....some might not really want you to do it, but they'll take it... and some will dish out a punch or slap of their own as a justified tit for tat kind of thing.An

What's interesting about this topic is the standards people have...as what is regarded as acceptable and not acceptable.

You may have heard the saying, "so and so has no filter"

Interesting to regard the fact that most water needs a filter to drink...if you didn't have a filter there would be too much non supportive things in the water....too much shit.

The point seems obvious about provisions of Freedom of Speech in regard to "Hate". Hate I see is and as where abuse originates from in speech. Hate is associated with violence...where the ends are believed to justify the means...or retribution and retaliation.

I am questioning here the general basics of how we typically communicate with one another. Like for instance, in specific regards to communication....the usage of opinion. I have generated some opinions within my writing here...and they are my statements of fact so to speak....but they are not actually absolute in terms of being this is this and only this kind of thing....I mean there is room for interpretation.

Do our opinions really matter when and as they are subjective?

Is this how Hate is created? Is Hate only ever Subjective? An Emotion?

Is this polarized also with Love? Is this subjective outlook of Love and Hate, problematic?

In choosing to Hate and choosing to Love....are we not less than our potential ability?

Is it a point of deception in choosing whether or not You will Love or Hate?

Why is a choice presented as a polarization of sorts...where it's like you either choose this or you choose this....either way you must make a choice?


Looking at "Freedom" and what does it really mean?  Isn't it interesting that when I look up the definition of freedom, there are so many definitions listed.....does this suggest that the very word relationship accepted within humanity in regards to freedom is complicated? Isn't war simply a result of complications? Isn't disease manifested as a result of physical body complications?

1.

the state of being free or at liberty rather than in confinement or under physical restraint:

He won his freedom after a retrial.

2.

exemption from external control, interference, regulation, etc.

3.

the power to determine action without restraint.

4.

political or national independence.

5.

personal liberty, as opposed to bondage or slavery:

a slave who bought his freedom.

6.

exemption from the presence of anything specified (usually followed byfrom):

freedom from fear.

7.

the absence of or release from ties, obligations, etc.

8.

ease or facility of movement or action:

to enjoy the freedom of living in the country.

9.

frankness of manner or speech.

10.

general exemption or immunity:

freedom from taxation.

11.

the absence of ceremony or reserve.

12.

a liberty taken.

13.

a particular immunity or privilege enjoyed, as by a city or corporation:

freedom to levy taxes.

14.

civil liberty, as opposed to subjection to an arbitrary or despotic government.

15.

the right to enjoy all the privileges or special rights of citizenship,membership, etc., in a community or the like.

16.

the right to frequent, enjoy, or use at will:

to have the freedom of a friend's library.

17.

Philosophy. the power to exercise choice and make decisions without constraint  from within or without; autonomy; self-determination.

Compare necessity (def 7).

See the Free within Freedom.....Notice the practical value of Free...I mean free is kind of synonymous with the number zero....because each represents/symbolizes Nothingness...a value is therefore absent in and as it's worth.

I find the whole notion of Freedom mildly entertaining as like there is all sorts of irony about it. This is a tragic comedy really.

Fighting for freedom is paradoxical....because it is like a dog chasing it's tail....the one is the other! Wait what? the dog is the tail and the tail is part of the dog....the tail and the dog are one?....Huh? Wait, what? Freedom and Fighting are the same thing? How so? Freedom is the choice to fight....freedom is in it's very nature a conflict of sorts...where decisions are made from and as the starting point of conflict....where there is a recognition of conflict and the decision to distance oneself from it...as like nah, not my problem....not going to take responsibility.....I choose self interest...I am free to do whatever I want....I want what I want.

Imagine if the sun was free to not work and and take vacations whenever?

What about your heart deciding to fuck off just because?

What about your legs decide to just stop working?

What about your eyeballs deciding they want to take a vacation and pop out of your skull?

Why should we humans be any different in and as our capacity for responsibility than the sum of our body parts?

Isn't it interesting that there is so much hoopla about freedom...when really this is a point that arguably contributes to the destruction of physical loving actions made visible as the acknowledgement and regard for the value of all life here.

Do you see how we humans have been conditioned to be in conflict with the regard and value for all Life here....beginning with our very self....cells here?

Notice the conflict that exists within and as the polarization of feelings and emotions.

Imagine the sun operating based on feelings and emotions that were always changing....like a bi-polar attitude flux of love/hate...where wanting to scorch and nurture...or like a good/bad duo....as like never really stable in and as its application? I mean what the fuck...right?

Is Freedom the enslavement to the acceptance and allowance of fear?

Think about it? Freedom....your free to feel how you want....free to do what you want....free to not listen to anyone else...free to choose....free ....free...free.....free dumb.....free doom..........fear is the freedom......it's like a control game really.....when you actually give up freedom you have freedom.....when you let go of desire you have desire.....when you give you get.....when you share you are cared for....when you live you in fact give.....in giving you get to live...

Freedom...in accepting and allowing anything and everything within yourself....freedom in chaos....freedom in an absence of principles/laws....order....harmony. Freedom in disharmony....freedom for disregard.....being free to regard...is not the same as practically living regard....because to practically live regard is beyond a choice....it's a commitment and responsibility....it's a realization.....what you see for real that is here.....it's passed the point of being able to choose whether or not you are able and or capable of seeing...you in fact in living your capability within and as your response ability...where responsibility is a loving action...where the physical actions are compassionately careful in nature as sharing is caring, a nurturing nourishment if you will. 

How have I been living freedom in the western world?  free to follow my desire that exists within my emotion/feeling predisposition as like giving all my attention to following along withing and as my train of thoughts....boarding and reboarding my thought trains when and as I feel like it...because the emotion and feeling act like the moral compass as the ultimate deciding factor as to how much I am interested in something is that buzz of the emotion and or feeling energy about the point...You know...like my focus is in relationship to my bliss....my energy....the memory relationships I have created in relationship to specific experiences as events therefore shaping and dictating my future governing of myself here. 

Isn't it interesting how specific events in history or perpetuating as landmark significance...and even celebrated on a yearly basis...as like to encourage a remembering and systematic upgrade coding and programming structure of perspective of how things are accepted and allowed to exist.

Isn't it interesting to actually investigate the very nature of our individual acceptances and allowances?

Isn't it interesting to see that our "programmed" self interest has been based on and in our mind consciousness freedom...where we as a mind consciousness system were free to choose....or shall I say free to believe in choice...as the thinking we have choice and freedom in particular matters...as like to believe that we exist here beyond the makeup of our information coding and actually dismissing the very facts of our acceptances and allowances that we fear to face about the history of self here...as an individual story that is collectively shared in various capacities...because each is a contributing player in and as the overall creation/structure here.

More Irony in relationship to Freedom....Nothing in this world is free.....funny statement here....because nothing is nothing...and this world is everything/everyone....and free is also a synonym of nothing...sharing/denoting the same value of zero in regard/relationship to money.

So this fighting for freedom has been like the destruction of life value and regard.  Freedom is such a word of abuse....does it really even need to exist....arguably one of the most abusive words to exist.....I mean really can greatness be practically lived when and as Freedom exists?  Well, I say No. Why? Look at the physical functioning of our body parts....does freedom exist there....no ....responsibility exists in replace of freedom....it's like being dumb is a choice and this is where the whole "freedom debacle" originated from....it's really a result of the information/education we bought into....it's like placing the value and regard outside of ourselves as a result of not realizing and understanding the extent of ourselves here and therefore our very mirrored reflections...self reflections have been negated and we have most unfortunately done harm unto ourselves and each other here.

Enough is enough....end the freedom brigade and take responsibility for the world system in which you are a part of....join the system and therefore empower yourself as actually being able to direct problems into solutions that are best....I mean this is real alchemy...where you can actually practically change the physical structure of the systems here to that which is best.

How we change our accountability and our actually grounding responsibility here within and as our practical living realization of words as the seeing for real what has always been here....this is in fact our awareness.

To Be Continued