day 800 - Integrity of Sharing

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Day 693 - Freedom of Denial

Is there anything that You are denying self-responsibility for?


In looking at the word "Deny", the definition that comes to my attention is: Refuse to give or grant (something requested or desired) to (someone).

This opened up the point of self-reflection on change here that is great and the application of self-forgiveness as a pivotal tool in supporting the forward movement and commitment statements to actually manifest great physical changes here.

The point also became more obvious that I am the starting point of giving here, as I am Forgiving...and this is such a cool realization in recognizing that we get to gift to ourselves that which we actually want, need and desire because we are the starting point of what it is in fact we accept and allow ourself to be given...as we are forgiven by our self here...self-responsibility to actually give to ourselves here.

We are here to give as to give is to live...and it starts with understanding how to self-forgive....because this is a basic tool in and as Self Living Here.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for denying myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for choosing to deny self-responsibility here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the absurd ridiculousness of denial that is perpetuated as a result of accepted and allowed fear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for hiding from my potential as a result of accepting and allowing myself for choosing to deny the living of my utmost potential always.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging my potential.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for denying myself the privilege and opportunity to forgive myself for my acceptances and allowances that are less than the best.  I commit myself to follow up on my self-forgiveness statements with self-commitment statements as I realize and understand that forgiving myself is a stepping stone in actually enabling myself to move for real change that is best.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting change that is best for me and all Life here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for denying myself access to Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting my Life and therefore the Lives of others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the regard that I live for myself reflects the regard that I have for others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to bullshit myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for denying the facts of physical reality here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying and perpetuating deniability within myself by deliberately choosing to distract myself from and as the self-corrections I would like to make in my life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for sabotaging myself within and as self-denial.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding self-denial.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for going along with the attitude of "deny, deny, deny"....."protect the lie at all costs...can't get in trouble when and as you don't admit fault"...it's always best to deny deny deny"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for denying myself from myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to neglect and deny self-responsibility for all of my thoughts/feelings/emotions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for choosing to believe that I am free to deny taking accountability for which ever thoughts/feelings/emotions I decide I don't want to deal with.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing there is freedom in avoiding self-responsibility / self-accountability for my acceptances and allowances here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having some anger in seeing points of self-denial within myself.

I realize that actually seeing points that I was previously denying is cool from the perspective of OK, now I see what I was missing before...so no need to cause myself any harm....best to actually be grateful for what it is I see and realize and commit myself to change that is best.

I commit myself to stop taking offense to new information I am realizing.

I commit myself to self-correcting points of self-denial.

I commit myself to stop self-denial.

I commit myself to facing and stopping every point of self-denial within myself.

I commit myself to stop fearing the truth of my acceptances and allowances.

Day 641 Tree Planting Chapter 5 Moving Myself

 

Tree Planting Chapter 5 Moving Myself

So, In order to move myself effectively whether I am tree planting or not...I have noticed the self-commitment required as a point of determining   the focus concentration and self expression of the movement. I have noticed that when I would allow myself to move from a starting point of having judgement within myself about a particular point of participation....that my ability to function and move at my best ability within the moment is so suppressed as a result of holding onto the emotion and then not wanting to really move...because there is this emotion and judgement about the point...and so there is a hindrance within the ability to really express self in and as the moment.

So, I see/realize and understand the practical living support in creating goals/challenges

Like for instance within tree planting...as l allowed myself to motivate myself within the point of wanting to actually do the work...I was eager to actually be as efficient and effective within the work I was doing.

I see realize and understand the value of efficient effective and diligent work.

I see the practically in moving myself within specific applications despite my mind desires of wanting to do something else when I have a specific application that I would actually like to get done. 

I see/realize and understand the decision within the moment, as my "will" to make it happen...despite the momentary thought that comes up within my mind as resistance to getting'r done.

Day 637 Tree Planting Introduction and Chapter 1

OK, So, I am here in Vanderhoof British Colombia at the moment in a motel apartment.  I am tree planting for the next three months. Staying in a motel apartment while tree planting is considered luxurious accommodations. Most people who go tree planting stay in a bush camp somewhere in the middle of nowhere...meaning when you get home from work...you got to your tent...camping...camping sounds cool when you doing it in the middle of somewhere or when it is somewhat short lived as like a little vacation....but, when it is snowing off and on the first couple of weeks of the season...camping loses some of it's appeal...not to mention the shower setup in a bush camp...where maybe the first dozen...if that...get a warm shower...from the make shift shower trailer...and then everyone else is stuck with cold water...or just neglect the shower point all together because it's cold outside at night..and you just are soooooo tired that you cant be bothered. Oh ya, I mentioned I am in motel apartment...this is somewhat of a dream tree planting contract...the kind of contract...I heard rumors about in my earlier seasons...that just seemed almost too good to be true.

It's been said before that your body goes through a sort of metamorphosis in the beginning of a tree planting season...as a result of the fact that you will be repetitively using all sorts of muscles that you would otherwise not ever really exert to the extent that you do while tree planting all day.

I believe it was in the late 1950's in Canada, There was a, I believe a Supreme Court ruling that stated tree planting was cruel and unusual punishment for prisoners...(I will verify the facts here if I decide to publish...a book deal about tree planting...)

This is my tenth year tree planting.

I tree plant for the money.

What's funny about after finishing a tree planting season is that you feel fantastic...like strong as ever...beaming with a sense of accomplishment as a result of persevering through the various weather elements and encountering everything nature has to offer...pushing and expanding your physical body limits...socializing with all sorts of people...sharing the tree planting experience....OK, so this isn't the funny part....what's funny about all these things...is that..after having faced adversity so to speak...lol...I am calling tree planting adversity...and...OK..so after you walk/move through tree planting/adversity...you kind of want to do it again...well I have...and I have seen many others experience this very same tendency...I have seen people absolutely commit to finishing the season and then being like that's it that's all, declaring that they will never do it again...only to come around...and and by the end of the season kind of wanting to do it again...

The interesting thing about tree planting is that it really illustrates lots of life lessons:

Some of the lessons include:

Self-discipline

Self-determination

Self-Worth

Self-trust

Self-honesty

Self-forgiveness

Time-management

Master of Efficiency

Master of Emotions

How to Co-exist with others

Self-Confidence

Sharing Words of Support

Laughter

Story telling

Being Silly

There are so many life lessons that I have garnered as a result of tree planting...I am making note here as a a way to stimulate/instigate my memory and also give you an idea of the kind of support I have garnered from the work that I have done and am doing...Also...and this is a big Also...because here, the main point of my sharing here is to illustrate the point and fact that it is within whatever you participate within on a daily basis for some consecutive time that you are able to garner such assistance and support and life lessons if you will...I mean class is in session everyday we are here within the lesson that is always referred to as "Today"

OK, let me tell you what's going on with me at the moment:

"I am sore as fuck"

"I am experiencing new muscle soreness that I have not previously experience before"

I just finished my second day of tree planting...I forced myself to make a note of writing a sharing here as what is going...I took a little cat nap before I began this sharing here because my hands and fingers were too sore/tired earlier to type...I gotta get going soon to bed here...well I am in bed...but I know my body needs as much time as possible to rest as I very strained/sore all over the place.

Oh ya, it snowed out today. I was working for about 10 hours outside today. The temperature was kind of warm for snowy weather...I was actually quite pleased that it was snowing and not raining because...the snow was melting pretty immediately...and it being cold enough for snow...seemed to me that I would get less wet from the snow...than I would have been getting had it been a few degrees warmer and a very cold rain...fascinating what a difference a few degrees makes...nature really exemplifies this point well...the minute difference make all the difference.....as like it is an accumulation of all the minutes that make the day..its funny how I say "mi-nute"..and minute..yet I initially spell them the same way...

So, I did not want to go to work today at all...when I woke up this morning new body parts were sore that weren't sore when I went to bed. I had all the excuses/reasons/justifications lined up as to validate myself in not requiring to show up for day 2 of tree planting.

My girlfriend insisted on turning the lights on this morning before I was ready to get up. That kind of pissed me off.

I am sharing a place with my girlfriend and another dude...living quarters are a little tired.

My girlfriend is mildly annoyed with me at the moment as I type here in bed...understandably so,,its 1030 pm and we gotta be in the truck ready to go at 645am..and she is sore as fuck and tired as fuck...

Patience is key, especially in tree planting environment...not taking offense to any body;s emotions...because oh did they happen from time to time...it;s like...well...you know what it;s like when you or somebody you know gets all fired up about something.

So, while I was working today, I recalled how a good buddy of mine, his dad mentioned that we should write a book about our tree planting adventures/stories...something or other along those lines...and ya...that's a great idea....so my plan here is to write every day for the next 90 days or so as however long the tree planting season ends up going...

SO, i took some video footage in camp a few years ago...well maybe a few years ago...plus a another one or so...anyways I wanted to put a tree planting reality show together...so I had so much interviews done with people...also so much camp lifestyle and culture footage...it was a bush camp that I was in...pretty big camp...some wild parties...some time off in the city in between contracts...young and old people...all sorts of shenanigans...

Someone I was in contact with earlier this year was seemingly real close to aligning with a tv production company to make the reality show happen...don't know what happened...I was waiting to receive my contract in the mail actually...because apparently deals had been mad...and ya...I was picked to be one of the "characters profiled in the show"...it was joked about in all seriousness that doing this show...would get me my own action figurines in walmarts across north america...and that it would make it a lot easier for me to book stand up comedy gigs..

Anyways this was more of an opening of things up introduction than a chapter one...though I will stick with my title heading for now...

And stay tuned for more story development and insightful sharing/caring/laughter/intrigue...and so much more...

Oh, ya before I say good night...allow me to say "welcome" and "your welcome" as I bring you inside the world of tree planting without actually having to go through the experiences yourself...yet hopefully I will give you much support in the process here for you to employ in your own persona daily doings...as you know...well maybe you don't know yet...but everything in life is a lot like tree planting...there i said it...and I'm sure I'll say it again...anywho...tonight I bid you adieu.

Day 624 Writing My Journey to Life

Writing my Journey to Life blog is cool. I enjoy it. I enjoy reading other people's Journey to Life blogs. 

What I do not enjoy, is when I miss a day of writing my Journey to Life Blog.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having excused myself from being as diligent as possible within writing my Journey to Life Blog's on a daily basis.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having neglected to make the time for my Journey to Life Blog writing every single day. I realize and understand that sometimes I have less available time than I do other days...and that sometimes I am in remote locations...or away from the computer all day...and within these particular instances...I do see/realize/understand that there usually exists the opportunity for me to take a few moments to write in a note pad or pieces of paper and transcribe my writings at a latter date an time into and as online post in sharing my writing my Journey to Life Blog. I see/realize/understand the assistance and support in sharing my writing my Journey to Life Blog.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having chosen to resist pushing myself to write my Journey to Life blog every single day.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging and comparing my writing my Journey to Life blog to others who are writing the Journey to Life Blog.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for withholding assistance and support for myself and others as a result of missing days of writing my Journey to Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for postponing My Journey to Life within the very point of neglecting the daily constant consistency within writing my Journey to Life Blog.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for giving credit and credence to excuses and justifications as to why I did not complete my Writing my Journey to Life blog on any particular day.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding the cool factor within and as My Writing My Journey to Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding the Awesomeness within and as my Commitment to Writing my Journey to Life Blog Here.

When and as I see myself having thoughts come up within my mind as like reasons/excuses/justifications as how I can rightfully negate the point of writing my Journey to Life Blog, I stop and breathe, I say, "I am here", I see/realize/understand the self-deception within my thoughts...I commit myself to writing my Journey to Life blog.

I commit myself to making time for my daily participation within writing my Journey to Life Blog.

I commit myself to stop negating self-responsibility towards the importance, historical significance, magnificence, coolness, and awesomeness of daily movement within and as Writing My Journey to Life Blog Here.