Day 769 - Exploring the Word "Lame"

 


I have a little bit of a negative tinge towards the word "Lame" as like arghh, ahhh,, fuck, god damn, not cool, cannot look, must look away, beyond embarrassing, uncomfortable....and, unfathomable to continuously think about.

So, that is what comes to mind in relationship to the word Lame.

I was investigating the word Lame recently and had made a general concerted effort to remove the negative energetic charges I had been holding onto in regards to Lame.  I missed these points....ironically enough, it's like i got caught in my own lameness and didnt want to look at my Lame acceptances and allowances. LOL. ridiculous indeed.  I appreciate a good laugh at myself, so I see the points here and I direct.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have a negative tinge like reaction to the word lame.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for superimposing words upon myself with energetic charges.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing the tragic and ironic comedy within my relationship towards the word Lame.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to within a negative tinge like reaction, regard Lame as: arghh, ahhh, fuck, god damn, not cool, cannot look, must look away, beyond embarrassing, uncomfortable, and unfathomable to continuously look/think about.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how points can be missed as a sort of self-sabotage within deliberately being vague/overly-general about the investigation into a word relationship.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how Irony can be a rather specific tool for investigating words, where you can use the word Irony as a sort of cross reference where you have a look to see if you are being ironically stuck within the very word you are making a concerted effort to investigate.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing how cool a tool Irony is within investigating words as like a fun and funny play to aid in and as the word investigation/exploration.


To Be Continued

Day 763 - What Moves You?

 


Have you ever noticed a pull or a push inside yourself towards or away from something....like a motivation or a lack of motivation to move/participate within something? Like for instance; to get up off the couch and clean the dishes....or getting out of bed and getting going.....or joining in for an activity you've been invited to participate within.

Have you ever noticed that you can actually take a moment and look at the pull/push that exists within you towards or away from participation within a particular point.....This Looking is a Real time Living in the Moment Look....And, within this seeing Here, there exists an opportunity to step out of the polarity flip flop of push/pull energetic definition.  How does this opportunity exist? The first step is in identifying, being honest about the push/pulll bias that exists....and then from here, deliberately challenging oneself to in the moment go beyond the barrier/control of the push/pull resistance that has been created in one's own mind as the programming definition.  It's interesting, because is like a point of swimming, because you are moving into new waters so to speak....it's funny because the water has always been here....and you've always had access to this area of swimming....yet due to the self imposed restraints....self has had restricted access and an accepted and allowed inability to actually express that response and ability and navigate through that space in time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I self-censor my response abilities to express myself and to create a world that is best for all life.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding that every time i submit myself into an accepted and allowed self-submission, as a real self-suppression....by resisting to stand out and direct myself out of being pulled or pushed into or out of something as like a sort of accepted and allowed fight and conflict within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being very very defensive about getting involved within things and participating within things that i am being asked to join in, and take part within.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing how defensive i can be within my mind of thoughts/feelings/emotions, and how so much so this has hindered my ability to really listen, look, and hear what is here....because of the accepted and allowed Fear/Defensiveness nature of my accepting and allowed mind conditioning.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for tricking myself into my own self-victimization through a sort of buying into the belief of and as my very own justified self-righteous indignation that i have professed to myself as gospel as the making sense of the push/pull experience i find myself in.....and within this...I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not really even making sense of myself within my experiences...but rather contain myself in a sort of self-censorship bubble of my very own comfort zone.

I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of fearing to face my own discomfort.

I realize and understand how I have conditioned myself through my mind to self-censor my potential by defining my comfort zone within the spectrum of fear energy knowing control.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to lose control...I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how out of control this world/my life is within and as a result of being influenced to move only be a polarity friction.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing that this very movement is a grand statement of accepted and allowed suppression...lack of understanding.....fear.....self-victimization......mind control.

I commit myself to examining/investigating my self-defined boundaries as like the basis of my self-created bubble shield from all of existence here.

I commit myself to equalizing myself with all Life here.  I commit myself to removing the the conflict from myself as the walls/boundaries i have created as my defense system.

I commit myself to challenge and engage others to break through their self-created bubbles.

I commit myself to the process of self-movement.
I realize myself movement to by like an ongoing stretching of sorts as like it is challenging at times to push myself through my own stiffness/stubbornness/rigidness....and it;s actually like a labored stretch to move beyond the boundary i created myself to be stuck within....so the stretching i see is like a sort of climbing for myself....climbing up and out of self-created suppression/depression in various ways.

I realize this climbing within myself here as like the stretching movement, is so much so a self-direction in the moment....because i notice my body is always telling me where i am sort of out of alignment/strained within myself...and so the stretching movement...and directing myself into participating in different actions in my world, is like a sort of ironing out the kinks/dissonance within myself, as like the making and unfolding of actual potential here.  I commit myself to work/play with the process here of self-movement/self-direction.

Day 735 - Self-Forgiveness

Self-forgiveness is a Profound tool of and as creation here. It's the epitome of self-actualization. A noble application. A mark of greatness, compassion, consideration and the highest regard. The greatest gift really.

Let me explain.

All Life, is Self-Forgiveness.


What?


Where is the Life?


If all Life is Self-Forgiveness....what the fuck is going on?


Humans are running a muck in the what the fuck fear control and scare tactic programming that prevents the living actualization of Self-Forgiveness Integration.

The interesting thing here is that We Got it to Give.

The interesting thing is that typically our shared world reflects that we have been conditioned to not want to Give...even though we got it to give. There is a lot of irony within this reflection....

Lets look at Money for a moment as a reflection of human reflection on the understanding and realization of self-forgiveness. If you look at all the money in the world and each countries expenses and the standard of living and quality of life of all people here....it is easy to see that as a whole, the world is in Debt.  What is debt really but the charges against Life...the burden as like how things have been overdrawn....as like making laws on top of laws that perpetuate a dissonance that is a sort of self-perpetuating motion.

Obviously Debt Forgiveness is a real thing. Obviously the starting point regard for Money can change from that being of debt/slavery/suffering/overdrawn....to, Life excellence in the best of possible ways always all ways...with, an emphasis on creative potential development and encouragement as the what we got to give contribution that perpetuates itself as a constant fine tuning of a fine design that is complimentary in and as the greatest regard for Life as All Existence Here. A caring is sharing if you will....

Lets look at Self-Forgiveness....Why Self-Forgiveness? what's the deal with Self? who is Self? How many Selves are there here? Notice any sound similarity to Cells within and as the Selves? Is their Life potential always all ways within and as the various Selves? Does the starting point of any and all Selves originate from and as the same source of Self Here?  Is Self Everything?  How many reflections of Everything are there? Is that a specific number? Would it be easy for the practicality of Life regard to reflect the total number of Everything back to number One? All as One?  All is One? One and Equal? Oneness....One nest and Equal It Why?  Equal I's Here as Everything is I?  But Why?  Why Not?

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the canvass of self acceptances and allowances that are less than what is best for all life here, represent the debt we are accepting and allowing here as our self-defined canvass being as overdrawn...and it is in fact our very own self-responsibility to Forgive the debt that we have created within ourselves as the markings that have been overdrawn on our canvass here as the think in which we think that has stained our accountability to the practicality in living as Self-Responsibility.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and and understanding the tax system relationship here and self-forgiveness as like a parallel reflection of human regard/disregard for and as our actual Life and the Lives of each One here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding myself as a Life accountant so to speak as like each word being a sound foundation in sewing the regard necessary in and as the garden which is our planet we in fact are plants on planning the ways in which we grow and spread ourselves out over space and time as a result of and as the sewing seeds as the sound foundation which reflects our networking communications here as our place here within and as the community which is Our Self Here in the Garden/Heaven which begins within and as our Self/Life as our very substance and creation here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for at times deviating away from the profound simplicity in and as the magnificence of seeing and looking at the principle starting point law of Creation as, "Oneness and Equality"

I commit myself to the starting point law of Creation as "Oneness and Equality"

I commit myself to share the simplicity within as as the garden of Oneness and Equality.

I commit myself to substantiating myself here within and as the Garden of Oneness and Equality Here.

Day 704 - Perfection

I noticed that I had created a polarity play within myself in regards to effectively living "perfection" without a bias and conflict.

Within reflecting upon my upbringing, I noticed I developed to a certain extent, the fear of making mistakes....or being wrong....and not wanting to be exposed as someone who doesn't know something or isn't very good at something. And on the flip side of this, existed the desire to be the best...perfection....being right....not making mistakes.

And if you look at the nature of this relationship interplay in regards to perfection...Fear is the root cause of such dissonance within myself, In seeing such fear within myself as like fear being on both sides of myself...it's kind of a paralyzing situation where there becomes a real stuckness. An example of this is like saying I'll go to the gym once I'm fit.....or, I'll start yoga once I'm flexible.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for defining perfection within and as a positive energy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating fear within and as an extension of perfection.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist as less than perfection.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create an experience of stuckness for myself in relationship to the point of perfection.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing failure and desiring success.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself as less than success and perfection within and as being the best within and as points of participation here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating self-sabotage in relationship to my perception of perfection...and within this the fear of failure/mistakes and the desire for greatness/success.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for impairing my mobility...as like paralyzing my mobility in particular points of participation as a result of allowing myself to fear consequence and at the same time desiring to perform well within participations/performances.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I would create a stuckness for myself as like a non movement within points as a result of and as the acceptance and allowance of fear within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be limited in movement as a result of and as the experience of fear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding my mobility and responsibility to actually in fact live perfection from and as a point of allowing myself to participate and perform tasks...and within this actually develop and hone my skills within particular areas of focus that are points of new development.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have impeded learning growth and development within myself as a result of accepting and allowing myself to be stuck within fear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for choosing to be stuck within fear.

When and as I see myself stuck within and as my ability to effectively move within a point, I stop and breathe, I face the fear that I am accepting and allowing....I dare myself to move beyond the stuckness experience and actually participate....I see/realize and understand that I can in fact let go of the stuckness experience by making the decision to move myself within a moment and actually participate here within a particular area of focus where I have resistance towards...and that by doing so, I actually in fact remove the resistance and develop myself within the point...where in fact I open up the potential to live self-perfection....because by allowing myself to participate in movement here, I am able to fine tune my abilities by learning from my participations here.

I commit myself to participating here. I commit myself to movement here. I realize and understand life to exist within movement and growth. I commit myself to movement and growth.
I commit myself to develop and self-perfect myself within movement here.

Looking at the word Perfect.....

Perfect Ion....

Perfect I On....

Perfection sounds kind of like perception....and perfect reminds me of performance....and perception is in regards to seeing...and performance is in regards to the movement/participation within and as a point...and therefore by actually allowing myself to be the perfection within and as the moment of myself here...I am allowing myself to see as the self-realization of myself here...which is in fact my self-honesty.....which I in fact live and in fact am able to exercise as my expression within and as the self-trust to actually move/apply myself here within and as specific point of participation/expression here.

I realize the commitment in fact within and as the word perfection...as it's a total immersion within and as a point of participation ....and so it's like perfection is always here within and as everything...as like everything is perfectly in fact exactly what it is as each and everything thing is behaving/operating the way that it in fact is....because it is perfectly that.

Perfect can be in regards to good or bad. As like that is a perfect example of what to do....or that is a perfect example of what not do . Either way, you see both example of perfect here...as being perfect in regards to what exactly they were.

I understand that in point of self-development that one can in fact learn to expand points of perfection....and I see this as the process of self-perfection as the natural learning process....where one's best is able to become better...as an improvement where you become better than your best....

In looking up the dictionary definition of perfection...I see it is in relationship to the quality of being free from flaw...as like flawless....and what is interesting to regard about this is the interdependence upon flaws...to in become flawless...because flawless is to have less flaws than what you previously did...or to be without flaws...and to get to a point of being without flaws is the process of and as self-perfection...where one enables oneself to move freely within participation and therefore one in fact can remedy a flaw/mistake by enacting a self-correction which is really the epitome of living practically self-perfection...because this is where self-realization is lived physically...as it's taking the seeing of a point and moving and transforming the ability as like the effective usage and understanding of one's very own response abilities....and here is how it all comes together within and as self-responsibility.

Day 607 Expectation

The word "Expectation" is a word in which I have flipped flopped within as a result of creating and projecting conflicting thought/feelings/emotions about future projections. It's interesting to look at how I have in many instances defined an upcoming potential experience/participation with positive or negative energy. I have associated the positive and or negative energy upon the word 'expectation'.

It's interesting to see how my particpations within particular events/activities/possibilities/opportunities have in fact been compromised as a result of how I have accepted and allowed the word "expectation" to exist within myself. Like, I have moved myself within an positive energetic buzz towards things that I have defined as having a positive energetic expectation. Also, there has been a hesitance/resistance for myself to participate within events/activities/opportunities where I have created a negative energetic charge towards my expectation within a particular point.

It's absurdly ridiculous to see and realize how I have created a reliance upon forming opinions as my self-defined expectations about future potential happenings. What is interesting about this is that I have justified expectations based upon my current relationships towards particular things within my reality. 

What is interesting is that it's total bullshit....like I do not require to have positive or negative energetic expectations prior to participating within a particular point.

I see/realize/understand how I can examine potential expectations for future endeavors as like calculating different possible play-outs within future events...but even within doing so...it is just a belief and or an assumption...which is a guess...a form of prediction...a kind of justification...a reasoned explanation as why it could be this particular way...

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing I require to be dependent upon creating justifications as a way to validate my movement within and as a point of self-righteousness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how it is in fact a point of self-sabotage and self-rightouesness to move towards or away from points of participation based upon creating an emotion/feeling about the particular point.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that I need emotions and feelings to move myself within physical reality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be pulled and pushed by the feelings/emotions I have created within myself about particular things.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being self-righteous in my conviction and affinity for my thoughts/feelings/emotions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing myself to be bound to my thoughts/feelings/emotions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting to consider and regard the impact each and every single thought/feeling/emotions has upon my physical participation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to experience limitation within my physical body movement as a resulting consequence of accepting and allowing myself to be possessed by various thoughts/feelings/emotions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the ridiculous absurdity of building upon the future with positive energetic expectations/projections. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the psychological mentality of why I would give attention and focus upon projecting positive or negative energetic feelings/emotions. 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for compromising the well being of myself within subscribing to positive or negative energetic expectations.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying positive energetic expectations within and as a point of desire/want..

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying negative energetic expectations within and as a point fear of loss/consequence.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying negative energetic expectations within and as a point of blame/anger/hate/frustration/irritation/confusion/neglect.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the cognitive dissonance that exists within me when and as I react to a particular point with either positive or negative energetic expectation as to how the particular point will play out.


To Be Continued

Day 565 Decision to Self-Investigate Self-Interest

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having polarized ideas about 'self-interest'.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having feared to meticulously examine/investigate my self-defined self-interests.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for associating 'self-interests' with individuality and self-expression.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing a cognitive dissonance to exist in relationship to the word 'self'.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how my perception is skewed and distorted within the belief and acceptances and allowances of different individual self-interests.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having a hard time to see a collective self-interest here...as like this One Life Here in which we are all a part of.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being defensive in wanting to protect and defend and keep myself occupied within my individual character persona defined self-interests.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to keep investigating the question what will I do and how will I exist if I let go of my individual self-interest.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for connecting individual self-interests to my personal entertainment/desired stimulation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being addicted to my established preferred forms of personal entertainment/desired stimulation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to see how I can expand my potential influence here within our shared physical reality by letting go of personal entertainment/desired stimulation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for connecting my personal satisfaction and happiness to be dependent upon having the ability to exercise at my leisure the various forms of personal entertainment/desired stimulation that I have a my disposal. 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for choosing to resist seeing that if I let go of the illusion/veil of ignorance that I myself am separate from all Life here...that I can begin to recreate myself here within and as the understanding of myself as Life as Equality and Oneness and therefore I would move out of the arena of free choice and the ability to choose to focus my attention on gratifying particular preferred methods of stimulation/entertainment. I realize and understand the point of personal self-responsibility that exist within myself to stand in and as support for all Life here. I realize and understand focusing my attention on having particular desired experiences doesn't really take into account my personal self-responsibility to all Life here. I realize and understand it is extremely selfish for me to focus my the starting point of my Life on the individual pursuit of having as many positive stimulating experiences as possible.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for associating the relationship with self-interest to be based upon generated particular positive energetically stimulated experiences within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for choosing to be numb within the desire to be stimulated constantly with a positive energetic charge.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding the consequences of focusing my attention upon indulging within my individual defined self-interests based upon the point of stimulating me in a positive manner of enjoyment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be controlled and regulated by positive energetic stimulation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have built up a dependency upon existing within the focal point of having my particularly preferred forms of external stimulation as to induce my personal experience of comfort and relaxation without regard for the consequences of my participations because the positive feeling experience I illicit within my indulgences dehydrates me and makes me thirsty for more in like a never ending pursuit of trying to quench my thirst/appetite within my addiction to positive energetic stimulation that perpetuates the pattern of self-destruction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being reluctant to see how I can in fact step out of the behaviour patterned program of self-destruction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how my individual pursuit of self-interested indulgences/entertainment has perpetuated the behaviour patterned program of self-destruction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to lose the individual pursuit of desired forms of stimulation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have perpetuated the pursuit of desired stimulation through and as the fear of loss...as like the fearing to miss out on a particular opportunity. I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding the irony within the fear of loss...as like the loss that is accelerated indefinitely through the perpetuation and and starting point roots of fearing to loss. I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how I have programmed myself to lose as a result of being/becoming the very embodiment of what I fear. I realize and understand my abilities and capabilities to reverse engineer the win/loss relationship which is rooted in and as the fear of loss...to a relationship agreement rooted in and as win/win relationship of life and death...where Life and death no more have to be polarized within and as a win and a loss. I realize and understand the fear of death as like the ultimate loss is ridiculously absurd.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that I can become lost within death.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having feared death.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for regarding death as the ultimate loss.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have a polarized relationship association with Life and Death. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for regarding Life as positive and Death as Negative.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I programmed a veil of ignorance within my perception within the belief conditioning that death is bad and Life is good. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for polarizing existence.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how self-interest is less than what is the best interests of all Life here when and as one exist within the mind frame of polarity based energetic relationship associations with a spectrum of judgement of Life value. I realize and understand the disharmony that is created within and as the result of existing within a skewed value scale of personalized self-interest were some aspects of Life are given VIP status and some aspects of Life are regarded with a diminished less than value. I realize and understand the insanity of disregarding the Equality and Oneness of All Life Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to investigate the self-defined values I have given to the various points of self-interest that exist within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the shame in neglecting to take self-responsibility for the skewed energetic valued relationships I have accepted and allowed to remain hidden from self-responsibility and self-accountability within and as the process of purifying my being here as Equal and One with All Life Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to stop fearing myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having become dependent upon stimulating an energetic experience through the perpetually accepted and allowed fear/conflict/friction that exists within myself as a result of choosing to be polarized within indecision.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing the change that is possible within myself as a result of dropping my focus attention of pursuits of individual pursuits of self-interest to practical living solutions that are best for all Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for subscribing to the belief and idea that what is best for all Life is me pursuing my individual desires.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting to see the consequence that exists within the designed nature of our shared reality as a resulting pursuit of self-interested desires at the expense of another losing their self-interested desires because of the polarized relationship of one winning at the expense of another losing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having been apathetic to the co-existence of all Life here within and as the perfect harmony of individual self-expression as what is best for all Life here because within and as the consideration of what is best for all Life here, each individual benefits and prospers exponentially because of the massive compounding interest of sharing the same valuation of Life as being of the highest/greatest value.

Day 514 Branding and Marketing Stigmatization

Continued from previous blogs. Quote here from initial blog on "branding and marketing":

"With the word Stigmatization coming up I reflect back to elementary school and I recall not getting invited to this girl's birthday party that was a boy/girl party in like grade 5 or 6 where pretty much every body in the grade at the school was invited but I wasn't invited because I had been exploring body parts with this particular girl a little while earlier...and the girl's mother found out and told my parents....and this was made to be this big deal and secret bad thing that wasn't to be talked about...and I was regarded as a bad apple/influence by the girl's mother...and thus I was outcasted from going to this boy/girl party where there would be things happening like spin the bottle and getting locked in the closet.   Anyways, I was kinda sad/disappointed about not being allowed to go to party...but I at that age accepted that I was the bad apple...and believed to understand why I couldn't go because the girls mom feared me as being a bad influence.

I see how I spawned the attitude from there that I am too cool, like too cool to be allowed to socialize with all my peers all the time because I'm such a strong influence...and a strong influence is an influence to be feared."

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for marketing and branding stigmatization.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to stigmatize myself within spawning the attitude that I am too cool, like to cool to be allowed to socialize with all my peers all the time because I'm such a strong influence...and a strong influence is an influence to be feared.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for holding on to such fear within myself that I projected the image of superiority as a false front imagined belief to make believe reality as a result of being petrified of facing the actuality of my accepted and allowed physical reality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for trying to comfort myself and make myself feel good within an unpleasant situation of being outcasted by my peers.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for trying to create comfort within myself through the belief of superiority.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for separating myself from myself through the make belief of superiority.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for coping with disappointment within myself by creating a logical-self manipulation as my reasoned justifications of why things are happening the way they are.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing for justifying self-stigmatization.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for subscribing to the belief and judgement of another.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to make sense out of belief and judgement.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to distort my perception of reality within making sense of things though judgement and belief.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how a memory that happened so early on within my Life could have had an influence on me up till today.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for desiring to be a good influence within accepting and allowing myself to exist as a bad influence.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist as a bad influence.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that I am a bad influence.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for opting out of participation within particular activities from the perspective of I'm too cool to associate within that particular activity or environment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for defining so many activities as less cool than me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging people extensively for participation within activities that I don see as being cool.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging people as like where there at and what they are doing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for avoiding to look at myself and see what I am accepting and allowing that is not cool.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for holding onto a friction within myself as a result of avoiding to correct the acceptances and allowances within myself that are not cool.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for holding onto points within myself that are not cool.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating separation within myself as like conflicting my perception of cool as a result of accepted and allowed self-judgement.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for blocking myself access to really understanding the totality of myself as cool.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to be cool.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for deciding that I can't be cool all the time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fragmenting my coolness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for making being cool a point of conditionality as like under only certain circumstances and contexts.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for suppressing the unconditional expression of cool.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to censor myself as cool.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing that others will not be able to handle me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to handle myself within situations where I am required to stand within and as stability as the point/example of self-direction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing people not understanding my expression in particular moments.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging myself expression in particular moments where I do not receive positive feedback and re-enforcement for my expression.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for assuming that no positive feedback for a particular situation is a form of negative feedback...as like believing that saying nothing is worse than saying something...saying nothing is like the worst review/feedback possible.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging no feedback on particular situations as like a form of receiving extensive negative judgement.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for desiring to receive lots of positive feedback from my peers.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for looking for positive feedback and re-enforcement of my particular expressions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking offense to not receiving feedback on my particular expressions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing negative judgement.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing negative feedback/criticism.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing no criticism as being worse than any publicly expressed negative criticism and or judgement.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire negative criticism.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel good when I receive positive criticism and bad when I receive negative or no criticism.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being dependent upon others for self-validation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing my worthiness is determined by the attention I get from others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting high off of receiving attention.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for experiencing a low off of receiving little attention.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for existing within low experiences and trying to get and remain in a high energetic experience.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being an energy whore within experiences as like always trying to channel a particular experience and making something more out of a particular physical moment of expression.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for suppressing moments of physical self-expression within creating definitions of self-judgement within particular moments...as like having a particular reaction within a moment which can exist within and as the form of a thought that comes up within my mind, and or a feeling or emotion that comes up within me...whether it seems to be triggered by a thought...or it comes up as a result of me being triggered by something within my environment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be triggered by things within my environment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extensive amount of assistance and support I have within my environment within seeing and realizing the triggers that exist within my environment are in fact the teachers here to support me in facing myself...as every point that triggers activity/reaction within my consciousness is a gifted opportunity for me to see the point of accepted and allowed manifested separation within myself as like a point of self-suppression...and that I can correct the situation in the moment...and piece myself back together as a point of expanding myself awareness here as like a point of increasing my presence/life force essence as my ability to exist here within and as physicality.




To Be Continued