Day 788 - Attitude

The Tune of where You are at.  It's like a status update. Attitude in it's fullest sense is a complete range of expressions....from high to low in octave...or the other way round....or any other which way for that matter.  From pleasant to scary to everything else in between.

The Gratitude of Attitude is to live Great your Attitude.  What does this in fact mean?  It means simply,  to own it.....because guess what, You are It.  Tag, each is always it....whether you like it or not.  And in the recognition of realizing that sometimes you will not like things, it is more than OK to express that disgust in a moment.  In fact it is a reality check into one's own self-honesty....a genuine point of self-intimacy.

A point of attention here is the culture of minimizing and perpetuating conflict....where it's like people love to hate conflict...yet perpetuate conflict as a means of trying to minimize it....as like,  'just let me drop the last bomb and then I'll stop'.  So much so this has become the narrative within our Words to each other, as so much so, This is a reflection of our inner narrative expressed externally.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to take Conflict personally as an act of War where I either go into Defense or Offense.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to marginalize Attitude.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to disregard myself as Attitude.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to limit myself within and as a Positive Attitude.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to resist a Negative Attitude.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to manipulate my Best Words as a result of being possessed within and as a Positive Attitude.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to Fear a Bad Attitude.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to take a Bad Attitude personally.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to Separate myself from the totality of Attitude.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to control my Attitude...and to Fear my Attitude getting out of control if I let go of Control over my Attitude.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to Inferiorize myself within Control of Myself.

Let's Look at that last sentence here again:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to inferiorize myself within Control of Myself.

How am  I controlling myself....my attitude? Fear.  
How So? Conditioning my attitude to my wants based upon my desires which are rooted in the fact that I have knots within myself...as the things i don't want to experience as myself here...and so enter in the attitude and overall nature of Control.

I see Attitude as like the Weather, our Expression through our body from moment to moment as Our Stand here.  It is a point of Self-Confidence and Individuality. Someone who is a Self-Confident Individual, does not fear the Expression of themselves here.  This is where the enjoyment in sharing comes in.  I mean really have a look at what prevents the living of Attitude.  It is the Fear in and as Vulnerability.  Why?  Because you are exposed completely. Who, how and what you are in a moment is Here.  It is the Judgement we have conditioned to our Structured Sentencing that Fucks Ourselves into Oblivion, Because our Words have been abused like Codes we haven't taken the time to fully understand or realize.  Consequently resulting in and perpetuating our own Bullshit and a Greater World of Bullshit.  How can this Be?  It's because of our capacity to be Deceptive. We've dressed up and hidden our own Bullshit to such an extent that we Gloss over it and Misinterpret Ourselves and Others as a Result of Our Own Hiding and Fearing the Brutality of our very worst Disguise. Ironically, here lies the Design of Demise.

Day 776 - The Ink in my Thinking as Personified Television

 



Thinking is something i have given much credence to.  I have placed so much value in thinking that it has been to my own detriment.  I'd like to make a distinction here between 'thinking' and 'looking', where thinking is a sort of random behavior without direction that we give attention to as like thoughts, things just pop up within our mind and as we give attention to it our mind continues to move and build momentum and increase it's activity production output as going deeper and deeper.  Where as 'Looking' is a self directed point of seeing into something that will often stem from a form of questioning. the question may be direct or indirectly asked within oneself as a sort of examination like process within getting to know/investigate a particular point.

For myself, i can see i have very much allowed myself to blur the lines between self-directed 'looking' and 'thinking'....where the looking and the thinking can be very much regarded as the same thing....but also within the mix is the random reactionary thought that i have gotten into the patterned habit of examining, where it's like I stop what i am solely focused on and begin a sort of juggling act by giving a certain amount of attention to this 'new thought application'.  This 'thought application' is like a random virus in the sense that my connection to it is emotional/feeling based where it typical starts off with a very small charge/pulse about it....and i form a specific impression as a 'new thought/feeling-emotion/action-reaction' and from there do a sort of spiral inward into layering the point, where it's like a sort of zap/zing suppression that is kind of like lightening in a bottle in that it is is so intense yet small yet quick, yet powerful.

Fortunately I have the tools to sort out....self-correct such conditioned behavior.

Why would I want to correct such behavior / application within myself?
What's the point?

The point is Specificity and Accountability.  Meaning, to live and create the best version of myself here.

To elaborate,  My expression and ability to perform tasks to the best of my abilities is tainted within allowing myself to be very much 'distracted/possessed' within my own Thinking.

I have seen first hand how much my mobility is limited/halted within allowing myself to drift/wander/watch my thoughts brew about a particular topic.  For example, In tree planting...a job i have done for many years, my ability to move/flow with effortless efficiency is in direct correlation with presence/thoughtlessness of the moment, where i am so committed to my physical movement and am just so here within the expression of me moving, that there is no room for any other activity, nor need.   However...sometimes i would allow myself to be preoccupied with points of thought/ideas while moving/tree-planting...and the longer i allowed myself to focus on the thinking while moving/working, the more my performance suffered as tree-planting effortless efficiency, meaning my ability to plant a tree quickly slowed down...sometimes this slowing down in movement was only a fraction of a second, and sometimes it was more.  Ironically, I was typically more exhausted at the end of a tree-planting day when i had planted fewer trees and thought more.


To be Continued

Day 768 - Lame Communication

 


I am working on developing my effectiveness in communication.  I see communication as Paramount.  Communication is Life. Communication is integral in building the best quality Life Here. Communication is Everything.


I bring up these seemingly obvious points about Communication here because I am taking a moment here to give regard to my accepted and allowed communication:

Some cool self reflection opened op for me today in hosting, "Desteni Movie Night Hangout -Cheech and Chong's Up in Smoke."
 My guest cancelled last minute / confused the start time.  This presented me with the opportunity to go it alone, and that I did.  I wasn't expecting to talk for 52 minutes, doing a monologue, I was expecting to have a conversation with my guest, asking and directing the response of questions, while making some comments here and there.

About 10 minutes or so in...and i think also sooner than that, the point came into mind that i am sort of bombing this hangout...like a little bit stumbling and bumbly with my word flow sharing expression and knowing where i want to go and take things....and also kind of placing a little bit of pressure/judgement upon myself as like I am doing this live without any preparation and nobody is tuning in live....'what's the point....my performance is kind of lame...not nearly as tight and polished as I could be...my flow is less than what I would regard as stellar...the experience of myself within this is somewhat challenging...as like bailing out would stop the bleeding, as like i am experiencing the wounds of my accpeted and allowed discomforts within expressing/communicating myself here unconditional on the spot without a preprogrammed rehearsal so that i can give a sort of automative predicatable performance that i know already.

So in looking at these points and having a real Care to push myself to continue on with the show, I showcased myself some weakeness in my communication.  This was really cool for myself as it was like a wow moment and an aha, as towards the end of the hanging there was a bit of a shit that happened within me as like finally coming into my confidence and and my flow/trust/expression was coming through a bit more.  I do see that this showing here on a whole was a bit of a flop from my perspective of being a solo performer doing a big set.  I mean how often is it that we put ourselves out there and monologue for 52 minutes? I found this to be a real tipping point for myself in my process here, as someone who is committed to the development and mastery of the law of my being here, as the practical living sound embodiment of words.  A word smith if you will...

I see the tremendous value in committing myself to vlogging as a process point of support for myself and others here.  I see that not doing this is a real know within the process of self-purification here.  I speak from experience as I created a sorted of justified censorship on speaking/sharing my voice publically out of concern for public judgment/ridicule/consequence.  Ultimately my reasoning was very much logical within my mind as the programming of my conditioned thinking...and this state of mind, kept me from noticing deficiencies within my word expressions here, and really has been a tragic comedy of sorts because my effectiveness in communication is less than my best potential at the moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the profound support within vlogging.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for dismissing the value within vlogging as a result of my accepted and allowed ego defense systems.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying a sort of self sacrifice of my potential out of fear for survival here, as like ways to prevent possible conflicting engagements that may require my response capable communication.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to see the points within myself that are lame.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing to hide from what I have accepted and allowed that is lame.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for suppressing my self-regard to such an extent that I would justify remaining lame within points that could be development into a practical living potential.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for censoring myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have resisted to engage myself on points of self-suppression.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not wanting to appear less than well developed within a point.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting the learning/birthing process here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding that paying attention here is the epitome of patience, and that to really pay attention is to in fact practically live the word care....and within the word care is where the fun is.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to mindfuck myself within and as how i think my communication should go.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to trust myself unconditionally here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying self-censorship as a means of avoiding and adverting conflict.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how i have accepted and allowed myself to perpetuate the existence of conflict within myself by 'trying' to avoid conflict in communication with others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding my flexibility as self-responsibility here to actually and practically create solutions that are awesome in all ways here. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to live the patience required to actually Care to be here in this world.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for pushing through my life without taking the time to care about what it is i am accepting and allowing within my thoughts/words/deeds.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying the reliance of others to stimulate my movement and communication here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which I have allowed myself to be dependent on existing in reaction here....as like mostly being moved as a result of the positive or negative i experience within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to really challenge my acceptances and allowances.  I realizing that engaging myself is a real practical way to live patience and self-intimacy here.  I realize that this is actually a lot of fun!

I commit myself to the process of developing myself in communication as thought, word and deed.

I commit myself to working and playing with my words.

I commit myself to trusting myself in thought/word/deed/

I commit myself to investigating my thoughts/words/deeds/

I realize the process of self-investigation as thoughts/words/deeds is a very fruitful opportunity, and I am grateful to give myself this opportunity that has so much potential.  I realize the potential is a result of my dedicated labor here.  I realize and understand the balance between work and play as like how the to can exist together complimentary and also as opposites in focused specificty...and i see how the words are in me always and that my fine tuning of moment to moment management is where my expression is as i get to direct the specifics of myself here.

I commit myself to vlogging.

I commit myself to sharing the self-realization that vlogging is a tremendous tool of profound support that is like one of the best gifts one can give to oneself here.

I commit myself to engaging myself to face the difficult points within myself and to from here, forgive myself and to create solutions for myself as new pathways of self-development in my personal process walking here.

I commit myself to using my voice as a point of self-reflection here.  I commit myself to self-investigation.

I commit myself to sharing Life regard.

I commit myself to engaging myself within and as Communication.

When and as I see myself resisting to do a vlog, I stop and breathe, I allow myself to make one.  I realize that making vlogging a regular part of my process here is awesome in all ways always.

I commit myself to the process of developing my self-expressions within vlogging.

I commit myself to stop fearing what other people think of me.

I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing myself to suppress my voice here.

I commit myself to developing and enhancing my voice here as a result of working and playing with my voice here.

I commit myself to practically living my voice here.

I realize and understand my voice to be a fantastic tool here to express myself within/as/without.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging/fearing lame communication.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing vulnerability in developing weaknesses into strengths.


I commit myself to stop resisting to face points that are difficult/awkward.  I commit myself to seek out points of resistance, that are lame and awkward within myself to in fact take these points on as seeds I will nurture into a practical living potential here.

I commit myself to word and world regard here as what is best for all Life.



'Lao Tzu, the ancient father of Taoism, put it: “Time is a created thing. To say ‘I don't have time,’ is like saying, ‘I don't want to.’”  Make the time to communicate'

Day 761 - The Flow of Money Reflects the Brutality of Our Everday Flow

 

 

 

 

 

The "making of money" within and as how things exist now is so much so the art of war...the manifestation of separation, constantly and consistently perpetuating dissonance as our information relationship definitions....evolving and upgrading the rules of law/war as the reactionary playout monopolizing/monetizing the profits and prophets of all Life/Labor here. Everyone is a television/satellite/antenna sound system..uprooted from a ground sound stability...so the flow of the go forward as what is best is in and as redefinition and living of words, as each here is a one in the collection and accounting for everyone. Obviously, self responsibility starts and stems from the core of our being here as the best structurally sound manifestations. Word, thought and deed all count in the accounting of what is best for all. Investigate all things and keep what is good.

 

 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding that the brutality that I see throughout the world is a result of the brutality that exists within myself and each individual being here.

 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the disharmony of blame as a complete abdication and dis-empowerment of self-actualization as the status standing self-authorized self-empowerment here.

 

I forgive myself for wanting to look at how I am responsible for Everything Here.

 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for making assumptions about things here as a deliberate apathetic vote of lack of confidence and regard within myself.

 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding myself Worth as a refelction and embodiment of all life here as the entire Universe.

 

I forgive myself for resisting to examine the extent of the dissonance within and as the flow of words within and as myself here.

 

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how my mind as an ongoing chatter box of sorts is a reflection of and as the less than stellar flow that exists here as the Money flow throughout existence.

 

I realize and understand I am responsible for the flow of my words and the flow of my money.

 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having regarded the flow of money as separate from myself and within this projecting outward particular dynamics of blame and abdication of self-responsibility.

 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the real power and forceful flow here exists within and as Our Sound.

 

I fogive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting the labored effort to actual create my sounds in a way for the first time in this life...as a result of so much so existing as less than the truth of myself as Sound Here.

 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for abdicating the words as the building blocks and musical notes as the harmonies to my expression so much so as an ongoing continuous waterfall of effortless flow as the best giving here as a purpose life contribution.

 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting to account for the flow of myself here in and as the living/sharing/expressing of myself here as a word/sound foundation.

 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the struggle and strife within and as deliberately resisting to labor my best efforts as my working word and world expressions here.

 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to flow and frolic about as sound freestyle waterfall flow as an essential life support aid that perpetuates the existence of what is best for Life.

 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding myself as sound self-responsibility in and as the words I speak/share/life/Live/Create

 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being lazy with my word and world movements here.  I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how I have deliberately restricted my own greatness of profound flow in and as my moment to moment expression, as a resulting consequence of negliglecting the profound significance of and as Myself as Living Words here.

 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for destroying life as a consequence of not realizing and understanding how to effectively sow my words so as the best support for myself and All Life here.

 

I commit myself to be authentic within and as my word usage here.

 

I commit myself to labor my play within and as my word and worldly expressions here.

 

I commit myself to relish in and as the knowing fact that I have great flow, as I realize and know myself as the source core of and as Life flow.  Within and as this, I commit myself to give as I would like to receive...and to Live the best of myself as the story of me that is worth reliving.

 

I commit myself to the process labor and play of Living Words.

I commit myself to share the flow of know thyself...as a reflection and outflow thanksgiving of the best of ourselves Here....which stems from within the well of our well being.

 

 

 

The "making of money" within and as how things exist now is so much so the art of war...the manifestation of separation, constantly and consistently perpetuating dissonance as our information relationship definitions....evolving and upgrading the rules of law/war as the reactionary playout monopolizing/monetizing the profits and prophets of all Life/Labor here. Everyone is a television/satellite/antenna sound system..uprooted from a ground sound stability...so the flow of the go forward as what is best is in and as redefinition and living of words, as each here is a one in the collection and accounting for everyone. Obviously, self responsibility starts and stems from the core of our being here as the best structurally sound manifestations. Word thought and deed all count in the accounting of what is best for all. Investigate all things and keep what is good. - See more at: http://michaelwilliammcdonald.blogspot.com/2015/11/day-760-restricted-flow-of-money-as.html#sthash.Rp2UlE4A.dpuf

Day 740 - Self-Responsibility within Dedication and Determination

Continuing from previous blog entry.

Self-Responsibility is a gift in and as self-empowerment. It is a gift you give give to yourself. Self-responsibility is part of the epitome of practically living any and all words. It's the Authority self-authorization to move and express oneself here however you see fit.

I am looking at Self-Responsibility here in relationship to Dedication and Determination.  What I am doing is clarifying the way to create certainty within and as the development of my full potential.

Some, Self-forgiveness I see relevant here:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding that the commitment to and as the practical living of Dedication and Determination is enshrined within and as the giving and living Self-Responsibility.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for many times shying away from taking on self-responsibility within point I would like to be dedicated and determined within.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how if the Self-responsibility one bestows to oneself is not clear...it is easy to get lost/muddled within effectively living commitments to the best of one's ability.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which Passion exists within and as Relationship to the words: Self-Responsibility, Dedication and Determination.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself having resisted many times how to really establish a structural sound foundation within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which investigation of the Vocabulary in Relationships is of tremendous support and assistance in being able to know how to live self-responsibility within and as specific relationships.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the complexity of relationships as a result of and as the extent of vocabulary existent.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to always utilize a simplistic approach within and as self-investigation...where I start with a word and i examine the relationship interconnectedness that exists and myself reflection within it all.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to actually give myself the Authorization to create Self-Responsibility for myself as a a Live of Dedication and and Determination within and as the work/play that I do.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting self-responsibility/dedication/determination within many moments of movement of myself here as like lacking the clarity of purpose within and as my movement.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which I Authorize the Establishment of Self-Responsibility within myself as my Dedication and Determination.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the substantial Life I can create for myself within understanding and knowing how to live the words: Self-Responsibility, Dedication, Determination, Authority, and Passion.

To Be Continued

Day 733 - The Decision to Create Specific Expressions from Moment to Moment

Writing is a very cooooooooooooooooooooooooool platform for playing with the decision making and creating process as the specific expression of oneself here.

In a way whether or not we are physically writing or typing words...we are very much in accordance with the language of information....as the information is within ourselves here...and each and every moment we are working with information and are making decisions as to how to express or suppress....which is interesting in and of itself because the suppression is just kind of an reactionary play out that just sort of happens as like the nothingness taking over....i say the nothingness taking over from the persepective of being influenced and governed by momentary blips of energetic information coming up within oneself as consciousness containment so to speak as like a shock/buzz that dictates the sail of and as One's ship as how One will be in and as a Relationship here.

The interesting thing to look at here is ourselves as the master programmer...and in saying this....SEE the Mast within and as the point of Master....meaning, the Sailor hear.....the Director/Captain/Leader....the One Giving the Commands.

What I have noticed is that sometimes I forget just how much ability I have in dictating the expression of myself from moment to moment.  I mean the ability to express oneself from moment to moment is really something quite marvelous. The play of Today I say that is always here is in and as the moment of and as self-direction here as the who/how/what possibility and opportunity to make the play working as a resulting commitment to playing as the live live acting/expressing Director Here.

It really does boggle me from time to time when I catch myself in the funk of the wrath of self-authorized confinement as like the victim of a terrorist attack that was my own doing onto myself as a result of accepting and allowing an energetic reaction to engulf the Mast of my Mastery and kind of take me for a swirl into a temporary disarray as like a momentary confusion that requires the simplicity in self authoritative direction within and as the simplicity of sorting out the cross wires as like the hiccup within and as the electricity connection...the seeing  the unnecessary strain and drain I was putting onto myself as a result of an energetic dissonance in and as the accepted and allowed polarization of myself within and as a self-reflection being missed and seen as totally separate and distant from myself...kind of like a mirage in the sense...of being caught in the energetic allure of seeing what I want to see even though it's not really here but I'm kind of force fighting it here as an outward suppression of the inward suppression.

Obviously the point is to not get caught within the hiccup...nor sweat or dread a potential hiccup...as the momentary challenges that come as like the changing windy conditions that will most certainly affect the positioning of the Mast of and as Self-Leadership if and as Self-Leadership is not quick to exercise the expression of Response Abilities. I mean, even with the quickness and steadfastness of approach in adjusting the sail to compliment the adjusting conditions...the influence is here...as like each is a point of influence here as influence is who/how/what we are. The Question is what Kind of Influence are You? Consider all kinds of Everything Here....that is the makeup of Influence we are working with. Obviously the practicality is in Knowing and Trusting in the Mechanics of Expression through and as the Creative decisions We Make as Our Know and Understood Response Abilities Here.

Let me bring more attention to the Known and Understood Response Abilities Here. This is a fascinating area of focus...you see because whether we like it or not we are always at work and play together as one as the same image and likeness here as equality and oneness here together as whatever the weather there is the solidity of substantial fusion and an interwoven connection as the source center of and as What Life is within and as the simplicity of principle and law of creation here.

The focal point of my sharing here today is within the careful Planning whether it be in the moment as the momentary freestyle play as the live action and direction of character presentations here...and also within regards to future moments that are of possibility....and of future moments that One wish to bring into specific manifestation as a certain result. There's a lot we can do....there's a lot we are doing....the question/answer/solution is in the investigation of of the past so that we can know how to manifest the destiny of the future that is Best.

To Be Continued

Day 728 - The Easy Attitude and Outlook

The other day I was talking to someone about the attitude and perspective One adapts within the work was in doing as being a critical component to the success/enjoyment/ability One has within a point. My reflection on this point comes as a result of my experience from going from a relatively easy attitude about the point of work to a somewhat increasingly difficult attitude about the point of work...and back to re-establishing a relationship gentleness of general regard and consideration as the relationship attitude being the Easy and Obvious Best choice to make and take on as the support for me within and as my participations.

So, I noticed when and as I take an Easy attitude approach to particular work applications...it is a lot more effortless to actually move myself within the point.

I mean, thing about it...how an attitude can influence participation. For example, taking the attitude of being extremely difficult and burdensome...to the point of hate.  This type of approach to doing a particular work is going to be pure hell every time you participate within in...best case scenario is somewhat manageable level of coping within the point...which to a certain extent still is less than optimum...and actually kind of sucks...in a way that it is brutal. Where is the enjoyment within this approach? I recall adapting this type of attitude before through justification and ego superiority where I defined myself as more than the work I was doing and thus...it was even difficult to get myself to actually do the work. So, not only was the experience of myself within the work kind of shitty...getting myself to actually show up for work was an arduous task...a real constant every day battle.


So in looking at this point...I can see bits of my day to day living where maybe I am not embracing my full potential enjoyment.

An important point to examine here is a person's natural learning ability. The natural learning ability is the fact that we have a natural ability to learn with effortless ease.

Interesting point about the Natural Learning Ability is that typically as a person gets older, the natural learning ability gets suppressed. I mean this is total nonsense. Well, if you have a look at typically people accumulate stress as they age. Stress of the body and stress of the mind. This compounds the suppression of and as the Natural Learning Ability. I mean, consider even the very simplicity of stress on your vocabulary...where the words you know have particular energetic triggers that link to specific memories within your life of different emotional outbursts of stressful times. Looking here at this accumulation of words within oneself as being potential stresssors...its like having a kind of genetically modified food/nutrient within ourselves that is actually devoid of quality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent of self-responsibility within and as the creation of attitude as like a point of setting the stage,,,or priming the engine for the vehicle i will be moving around in. I mean, looking at this hear...it's a matter of planting intent...as what you want to eat as a result of being specific in picking what/how you want to grow up and mature. I mean think about it...typically we grow up...that;s the design...So wouldn't it make the most sense to continue growing always all ways as a result of always continuing to plant with the fortitude of purpose to best structure the specifics of one's gardening. I mean, to really, actually make the most out of One Self here.

Looking at this, this seems rather obvious doesn't it?

Some consideration comes up within myself:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I create the attitude of myself from moment to moment.

I realize and understand my self-responsibility within and as the building development of my attitude.

I realize and understand how a fantastic attitude can be grown and exercised just as easily as a less than fantastic attitude can be produced.

I realize and understand myself as the determining factor of as as the development of practical living attitude from moment to moment. I realize and understand the correlation within and as movement/exercise and the ability to live/express greatness in attitude consistently and constantly from moment to moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to accept less than the greatness of attitude in a single moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing a less than optimum attitude within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the stress and strain of creating a hard attitude for oneself as less than great support and assistance for oneself as living word potential.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to play within and as the point of and as my very own greatness from moment to moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to accept and allowing myself here as greatness, Always all ways.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to adopt an attitude mentality of myself existing here as less than greatness and that just being part of the dealings with the stress and strain of life as a human being and that Life is suppose to be hard and that if things were always easy than they wouldn't be enjoyable or rewarding. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the absurd ridiculousness of such accepted and allowed notions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for actually resisting the greatness of myself here. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how being hard on myself by having a less than great attitude is in fact actually very deliberate abuse.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for abusing myself and all life here as a result of and as the dissing of myself here...as like the acceptance and allowance of and as myself here as disgusting dismissal of sorts where the rational in mind is that I am less than worthy of and as the greatest possible value.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for devaluing myself within and as a result of having anything but the best attitude.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for devaluing myself and all life within and as the acceptance of myself as less than the greatest living attitude.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent of my success within and as anything and Everything I do is a result of my willingness of attitude as greatness....as like the open mindedness of Gratitude and Gratefulness as the words embodying the Greatness that is Life self-realized.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how easy it is to work well by taking it easy while you work well.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having though it necessary to stress myself out as the point and mentality of believing that I got to be hard on myself in order to live great results.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the taxing non sustainability of believing that one must be hard on oneself in order to create greatness as the work that one does.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the Passion of myself Here from and as Moment to Moment...as the Passion for Life...the realization and understanding of myself as Life,...Everything Here....the recognition and regard for the creation process Being rooted in and as the togetherness of Oneness and Equality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for allowing myself to feel guilty when and as I don't stress myself out about things...because then it's like I am not trying.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being disillusioned within the belief that I require to try in order to succeed in anything and everything I do. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the absolutely absurd ridiculousness of this approach.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to buy into the act of "trying" as like an unnecessary physical body stress and strain that taxes my ability within an accumulation that is compounding with age.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for buying into beliefs and attitude that getting old is less than great.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for never totally embracing the greatness of sustainable growth and development as the continued self-improvement of myself as the only possible option for myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing anything less than greatness within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to practical Live Greatness from moment to moment.

I forgive myself for actually having fear towards the word Greatness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to harbor a fearful comparative judgement rooted in inferiority towards Greatness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing Greatness to be a conflicted point within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the illogical attitude and self-sabotaging acceptance and allowance of and as myself fearing Greatness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself fearing the spot light of greatness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing all eyes on me. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how the fear of all eyes on me develops as a result of and as not realizing and understanding oneself here as a unique individualized expression of all I's here as the embodiment of Everything.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have actually feared to constantly and consistently feared to live Greatness as who I am in every breath.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have created a self-fulfilling prophecy as the specifics of who and how I am here....as the specifics of my acceptances and allowances....and within examining the specifics of myself, see and realize how I have rooted my acceptances and allowances in and as a conspiracy of self...where there is a more/less than supportive doubt within me to actually Play from day to day always all ways as the expression and creation that I am working on from moment to moment as the recognition and regard for the gratitude of myself giving greatness attitude developed with the fortitude of purpose as the Passion in an as Being Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing the manifestation of ego as a result of and as the Living of Greatness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that it is a sort of taboo to even look and regard myself as the epitome of and Greatness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for regarding the practical living embodiment of Greatness as deceptive.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for mind fucking the shit out of myself within and as the make belief mentality of greatness being a point One can work and try real hard to achieve but never actually reach in living because of the idea that Greatness is always more than oneself here.

To Be Continued

Day 720 - Income Tax

I think Income Tax is total fucking bullshit.  From my perspective it is a total scam.  This blog here today is not an investigation of the law in which exists in regards to Income Tax.  This blog here today is in regards to the emotions I have accepted and allowed to exist as a Reaction to Income Tax.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get angry about "Income Tax".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for projecting blame in regards to the existence of "Income Tax".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting frustrated about "Income Tax".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting emotionally frustrated with people who believe "Income Tax" makes sense.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to experience myself as being victimized by "Income Tax".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being self-righteous in regard to "Income Tax".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being impatient within communicating with others about "Income Tax".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking offense to people who do not give a shit about "Income Tax" and just pay somebody to take care of it for them.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that "Income Tax" is total fucking bullshit.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking "Income Tax" is a scam.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding that forgiving myself for something doesn't make the point more or less true but in fact it is a point of self-responsibility in removing the dissonance between oneself and the point. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to let go of the negative energy within myself in regards to Income Tax.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having created difficulty for myself in releasing the negative energy associated with things that are negative.  Within this, I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that if I were to get rid of the negative energy about such points than perhaps the point would be mistakenly disregards as not negative anymore.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for conditioning myself to think and see in and as reactions where it's like I have become accustomed to associate a positive or negative energetic value with the words/things I see.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing making mistakes as a result of releasing myself from negative or positive energetic possession.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding the absurd ridiculousness of fearing to let go of the positive/negative energy experience/reaction to things in this world because then things would no longer be the same. Within this, I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have been fearing change.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to change energetic relationships out of fear that I don't know what will come of them and to a certain extent all I have ever known is relationships from the starting point of reaction as energetic experience.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I allowed the words "income tax" to exist as negative energy triggers within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for placing myself in conflict with the words "income tax".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the absurd ridiculousness of placing myself in and as a war of words....where I am in a state of flux with regards to words as either a positive or negative or neutral reaction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for defining reaction to exist as something that is bad that is negatively charged, even though reactions can be positive energy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having a neutral energetic reaction towards "Income"...and I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having a negative energetic reaction towards "tax".


To Be Continued

Day 700 - Fortitude of Purpose

Purpose.

Fortitude.


Purpose plus fortitude is a formula strong in nature. I see purpose and fortitude together as one and equal as the infusion of Life all ways always in and as the movement of self here.

The question has come to my attention, "If you lack purpose, do you in fact lack quality of Life?"

"What is the fortitude of purpose?"

"Does having any purpose guarantee a high quality of life....or is there a certain fortitude required in order to insure creation of a high quality Life?"

"Is life meant to be high quality,,,and is it in fact a point of becoming aware of our fortitude of purpose...as like it's in us to give...as a result of what has been given to us?"



At different times in my life I have briefly reflected on what it is I want to do with my life. Interestingly enough, every time I had asked myself such a question and or reflected about such a question...my thinking was in an absolute sense...and I often had difficulty with this...the commitment aspect of making a decision that I felt I would be bound to once in fact I made it....and what was interesting is that it's like I've been looking for sometime throughout my life as something I can give to myself as a responsibility to walk indefinitely...a Purpose of Fortitude of You will as the Meaning I give to my Life Living daily application and expression of myself here.

Now, what has been peculiar within my process of self-reflection throughout the years is that I have allowed myself to get distracted and preoccupied with things. And in this doing, kind of allowed a procrastination to ensue about activating fully the Fortitude of Purpose I wish to give to myself.

Entertainment has been my primary source of distraction from and as the development of and as my self willed purpose of fortitude. Ironically enough, I have seeked  a plethora of avenues within entertainment as a means to finding what it is I would like to find...and that ultimately being my self-expression. What do I mean by my self-expression? Many many many things. Looking for substantial greatness in all things....Ironically this thirst for greatness in various modes of entertainment has been a result of holding myself back as great entertainer.

It's interesting, my writing here...because even as have just written the above paragraph...I faced immediate reaction, where, specifically I turned away and did not even want to look at the words I have written. Me a great entertainer? But why? Why is this I see as a point worthy of my attention...and to such an extent where I can claim a fortitude of purpose?

I see tremendous value in Education. This is a rather obvious point for many I am sure...in that most would agree with the tremendous value within and as Education.  I mean education is a point where really, I think everyone can agree upon the importance in and as it's value. I see Entertainment as a a medium of Education. Within this, I see that there is great responsibility in standing as an entertainer within this world....because not only is one providing entertainment as a point of fun to be had....but first and foremost the entertainer is an educator...a teacher.

I have been looking to lots of teacher's in this world....lots of entertainers to be what I think they can be...and this is not fair to any of them....for in this regard...I have placed expectations on others as separate from myself to be operating and performing of a high quality particular standard of greatness that I have not even consistently held myself accountable to. In a way...I have been afraid to actually commit myself to the fortitude of purpose....as like actually existing here as the strength of character that does not give up or bow down to anyone. This is not to say that I must be fighting or welcoming to conflict...but at the same time being open to dancing with conflict that I am presented with...you know...in a way like a ninja master....where the problems/issues are directed into and as solutions.

The irony of course within everything is myself.  So often I have reflected outwards about irony as a seemingly separate entanglement that only loosely relates back to me and is not really knotted deeply in attachment to my particular acceptances and allowances. This perception being a scapegoat defense mechanism where I ultimately excused the deep seated self-reflection required in really getting to the origins of myself here as who and what I am really all about.  It's fascinating to examine the conspiracies of my acceptances and allowances if you will. I sure each and everyone can relate to the conspiracies within and as our very acceptances and allowances...as this is an area that can be easily dismissed from the giving patience and time as the necessary ingredients required to actually look at the story of self here...and the questioning of Fortitude of Purpose.

Anytime I would come across something that would reveal a depth of character....or be rich in substance...I would yearn for more and more exposure to such things....whether it be a show or production, a book, a person, a sport,...it's like all the while...I was always missing the core of myself within and as it....where full appreciation was not quite grasped...because I don't think I have ever really fully appreciated myself to the fullest extent of and as the meaning of appreciation. Reflecting back on my various modes enthrallment from the perspective of entertainment interests...my satisfaction and thirst for more was never ending...and within this...the reflection to me is clear on the point of enjoyment...self-enjoyment....where it is an alone and together thing....where it's a shared thing between two or more.

I am reminded of the court jester....the joker if you will...as the comedic relief to the absurd ridiculousness of aristocracy and monarchy. Within and as such a position...the joker is like the master educator...world teacher in a sense...where his immunity is granted for him alone because of his chosen profession...and the reasoning that this is the joker...and no matter how serious the reflection may be...this is the court jester...the joker...who is permitted...authorized to ridicule the ridiculousness of the accepted and allowed crown rule.  I think of this in terms relatable to stand up comedy and movie and television entertainment. Where there is potential within such a position to me an intermediary role player bridging the gaps of dissonance with common sense critique. Exposing the absurd ridiculousness in absurdly ridiculous ways with cleverly creative points of comparison and association...making a mockery of a mockery while at the same time, giving the antidote...the formula....the recipe....the solution as to how the absurd ridiculousness can be solved...as being no longer relevant and therefore remedied,,,because after having the aha moment of a laugh and seeing for real...it is clear...crystal clear like water...the perfect solution as the how to do....I get it, I got it...I  do it...I am doing it attitude that is contagious in and as itself being a point that is addictively spread as the messages worth repeating.

What's interesting within as a my moments of reflection here is...that I as each I is the gate keeper of I...for it is for I...and I for an I that make everything to I...as to grant to I...is to for real be to I...as Realized...as aha...yes...I see it is all to and for I...as to and from I ...as the perfect relationship...I Give and Get Given here for it is the Gift of me/you/life here.
Meaning the play is in and as our permission authority to play...as like will allow ourselves to play...will we ask others to play....will we show others how to play...will we talk about our play...and to such a point where our work can become the play..in such a way where the play is a work in progress..as like a continued play day...play date that can stand the testaments of time as like...yes playing and working with what is here will stand the testaments of time...in and as the way to educate and entertain effectively....because education and entertainment together as a point of enjoyment shared between two or more is something rather harmoniously marvelous as the simplistic euphoria of the warmth of touch. This is life awareness here. This is who I am ....this is who we are. This is what I am about. This is how I choose to express and share the expression/creation of myself here.

,...it seems daunting and far to easy to actually be the way forward here...that trauma and suffering is not actually required...that simplicity is key in self exploration and creation. That really we can have a lot of fun in creating our fortitude of purpose and within this enacting a self-responsibility that will insure the future well being for generations to come as the knowing that this is substantial support that is fostering the facilitation of greatness in all ways always. It's important to note that obviously this enactment of purposeful living of and as self-responsibility will be a challenge in and of itself...because I realize I have been conditioned to operate in a way that is less than beneficial to all life here....so in breaking the restraints of my conditioned limitations may in fact very well be somewhat traumatically challenging....though I see here...the way in which I remove the layers of deception from myself as being related to me and my investigative digging...meaning that my willingness to pull off the layers of my deceit self-willing will be a challenge yes...but far less traumatic if I avoid doing so and therefore require to only realize through the consequence of my programmed planning conditioning playing out.

To be Continued

Day 699 - Discipline

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have mixed emotions/feelings about "discipline"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating a friction about Discipline from the perspective where I crave/desire discipline and at the same time I resist and revolt against discipline.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating uncertainty within my daily responsibilities as a result of and as my relationship within and as the point of Discipline.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself fore resisting to actually purify my relationship and expression within and as the living embodiment of Discipline as I see is in fact best for Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to suppress myself as the living full potential of and as the word Discipline.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create contradictions within myself as the word embodiment of Discipline.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the paramount importance of and as the purity of each living word definition within myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to exercise the living of and as Discipline within and as my decisions/movements here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to forego disciplined principles in and as my applications for preferred preferences.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to stay committed and determined to stick with a particular discipline as a point of purpose in and as my day to day living.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not even considering the practical living support in making a decision as to enact a practical living purpose for my life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how giving myself a practical living purpose can in fact support the development and effectiveness within and as myself as embodiment of Discipline here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating conflict about discipline to such an extent that I created conflict for my life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the irony within and as reactionary and conflicted word relations.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how reactionary and conflicted word relationships reveal to me points of accepted and allowed suppression in my overall character potential ability here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting the daily discipline of being specific within and as my word investigations as like my daily barometer in and as the purification of myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for realizing and understanding the quality of my life here exists within and as my effectiveness with my words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how my relationship within and as Discipline ties into and as the quality of my life here as my effectiveness with my vocabulary here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding my vocabulary to exist as like nutrients of self-support.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not really considering or being systematically diligent in  and as daily investigating the extent of and as my word relationships.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for make believing that my word relationships are all good.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing the Discipline required to practically live for real.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have in fact feared the practical living of Discipline....and the irony within this as the absurd ridiculousness because I have perpetuated that which I in fact would not like to experience.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the specification of our world as our words we know...as specifically as how we have accepted and allowed our words and world to exist.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to examine the negativity within and as my word acceptances and allowances as the emotion that exists within my body about particular words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to investigate the positivity within and as my word acceptances and allowances as feelings that exist within my body about particular words because they feel good.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing the investigation of and as the positive and negative word associations that I have accepted and allowed within and as my mind/body/being relationship here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the change of our mind/body/being exists within and as our word relations....as it is in fact our word relationships that shape this world relationship...and it is therefore our sound signature in and as what is we accept and allow to exist here...as like our resonant signature and vote of what is and is not acceptable.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to be a standing example of and as what is best for all Life in all ways.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for suppressing my spoken/written/living word potential.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the absurd ridiculousness of suppressing my spoken/written/living word potential.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding the tremendous amount of support that opens of as a result of and as the investigation and purification process of One word.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for coping with words that have been devoid of optimum value and nutritional sustenance.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for limiting the assistance and support within and as my word relations.


I commit myself to the purification of my word relationships.

I commit myself to living the purification of my word relationships.

I commit myself to the support and assistance within and as the purification of word relationships.

I commit myself to live the embodiment of practical living word relationships as the epitome of self-living support and assistance as what is in fact best for Life.

I commit myself to share words of support and assistance.

I commit myself to assist and support others to practically live words effectively.

I commit myself to the embodiment of living words.

I commit myself to giving myself purpose within and as the sharing of words here as solutions that can assist and support others to gift themselves access to the development and enactment of untapped potential creation here.

Day 694 - Freedom

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating positive energy about the word "freedom".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating a negative energy definition as reaction to realizing and understanding how I created a positive energetic definition about "freedom".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get stuck within and as my word relationships by polarizing them within energies as either being positive/negative/neutral.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing how I have perpetuated the polarity play of words within myself as an outflow and energetic reaction of myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not recognizing the extent to which freedom exists as kind of an ironic term from the perspective that no real freedom exists within and as the acceptance of a polarized vocabulary from the perspective of having words charged with emotion and or feeling.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent of programming that exists within and as my mind consciousness system as a result of and as my individual self-defined emotion and feeling associations to words as the various energetic attachments onto words which perpetuate a polarized disharmony.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the simplicity of freedom existing within and as responsibility...as the ability to express oneself here from and as the starting point of responding and or directing creation as what is best for Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and recognizing myself as the starting point of creation here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for separating myself from and as the word "creation"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent of the cosmic joke that is 'fighting for freedom'...because this perpetuates the peace/war polarity...where one perpetuates the other...and is really anything but harmonious.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for denying to investigate all energetic word relationships that exist within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for making up blame as a defense to why freedom doesn't really exist. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have perpetuated conflict within myself as a result of participating within blame and holding onto the belief that freedom cannot exist.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from and as "freedom"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding freedom from the perspective of freeing myself from my own accepted and allowed enslavement.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for looking to create an energy about freedom as a way to generate some sort of feeling or emotion in relation to the experience of myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing how the seemingly natural reaction when investigating word relationships is to take on the opposite polarity as the believed to be correct/right adjustment and new way of seeing. I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of jumping back and forth between positive and negative energy.

When and as I see myself faced with a reaction, I first allow myself to take a breath and actually stop the energetic movement that is existing within myself as the reaction energy...I look at the energy specificity and I see/realize the word associations in relationship to the specific reaction I just experienced....I purify my word relationships here by first recognizing the impurity and then by forgiving the impurity and the particular energetic charge attached to the impurity and then I allow myself to play with the word for a moment as I work out an agreement to live as the word...from and as the perspective of substantiating the best potential for myself and the word here. I commit myself to living words as the best structures of support. I commit myself to specificity with my word selection.

When and as I see myself resisting responsibility.....responsibility from the perspective of seeing and realizing a potential opportunity here.....I take a moment to focus on my breathing a 4 count breath and actually stop my thoughts/feelings/emotions and take a self-honest look at the opportunity of responsibility that is available here for me to jump into and as a point of self-direction. I allow myself the opportunity to move within and as the moment of self-responsibility. I see realize and understand my potential abilities and skills are developed effectively as the outflow of my living and directing myself responsibilities. I realize and understand the ridiculousness of holding back on potential as a result of resisting to push self-responsibility.

I commit myself to living self-responsibility.

I commit myself to developing my talents/skills/abilities as a result of living self-responsibility.

I realize Freedom to exist within and as the living of self-responsibility/self-honesty.

I commit myself to practically living self-responsibility and self-honesty.

When and as I see myself faced with a moment of thought that seems so right, I stop and breathe, I allow myself to forgive my thought...as I see realize and understand the righteousness of thought is a hindrance to a holistic perspective here....I realize and understand the the self-responsibility in directing each and every thought through the application of self-forgiveness.

I commit myself to living self-forgiveness as an expression of Freedom here. I realize and understand self-forgiveness is a tool that is fun to use....when and as oneself realize the awesomeness potential of and as self-forgiveness as the gift giving tool that it is.