Day 731 - Golden Ticket

Continuing from my previous post, "Day 730 - Coming Out of Retirement"


"A realization that has become clear to me is that Yes, Indeed I do have a Golden Ticket and this Golden Ticket is in fact my Potential Here...and the thing is...I Require to Use My Golden Ticket...and I cannot just save it away and avoid it for a long time later.....that is foolish....My Golden Ticket has the Most Value Now...and The Value Of My Golden Ticket Gets More Valuable every day I Exercise it....like a card I got to pay/play with as the decisions I make." (Day 730 - Coming out of Retirement)


Within this and continuing from my post yesterday there is much self-forgiveness I would like to share.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting long term commitment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing long term commitment to get in the way of short term commitments and my overall ability to have fun.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for regarding "long term commitment" as burden and something that is tedious in a way i don't want to deal with.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing long term commitment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for making a conflict of sorts between "short term commitment" and "long term commitment".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have created my life from the starting point of self-interest linked to my emotions and feelings.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting movement if I am not experiencing a positive energy about doing such movement

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for defining retirement living as the enthrallment within feed positive energy pursuits.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting overwhelmed within the point of long term planning.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to actually really sit with myself and take the time to look at what I would like as some long term plans.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for always kind of reacting to the point of long term planning and being quit to judge and dismiss the point as being limiting and taking away from my day to day living.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the purposeful living within creating long term plans.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the flexibility and adaptability within long term planning that it can be a fun thing and isn't a prison sentence,,,but in fact the complete opposite.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having spent many years not really caring or daring to push the development of long term planning.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how this past decade has been like a testing phase of sorts where I have been investigating and looking at possible avenues to take myself within as a point of long term planning.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for desiring some structure and order in my life from the perspective of creating long term plans for myself to be able to move into fruition/actualization.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding how to create long term plans for myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for placing long term and short term goals within conflict with each other and for not realizing how I can utilized these two opposite points as being complimentary in bringing to fruition both the short term plans and the long term plans.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understand how ridiculous it is pit things against one another that can very easily be complementary.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to regularly check my maps as the plans i create for myself in both the short term and the long term.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not taking my life seriously from the perspective of long term planning.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for kind of neglecting myself as the creator of my life from and as the perspective that My Wish is My Command...and that I am capable of being very specific and exact within my life planning and also at times be quite adaptable.

Day 728 - The Easy Attitude and Outlook

The other day I was talking to someone about the attitude and perspective One adapts within the work was in doing as being a critical component to the success/enjoyment/ability One has within a point. My reflection on this point comes as a result of my experience from going from a relatively easy attitude about the point of work to a somewhat increasingly difficult attitude about the point of work...and back to re-establishing a relationship gentleness of general regard and consideration as the relationship attitude being the Easy and Obvious Best choice to make and take on as the support for me within and as my participations.

So, I noticed when and as I take an Easy attitude approach to particular work applications...it is a lot more effortless to actually move myself within the point.

I mean, thing about it...how an attitude can influence participation. For example, taking the attitude of being extremely difficult and burdensome...to the point of hate.  This type of approach to doing a particular work is going to be pure hell every time you participate within in...best case scenario is somewhat manageable level of coping within the point...which to a certain extent still is less than optimum...and actually kind of sucks...in a way that it is brutal. Where is the enjoyment within this approach? I recall adapting this type of attitude before through justification and ego superiority where I defined myself as more than the work I was doing and thus...it was even difficult to get myself to actually do the work. So, not only was the experience of myself within the work kind of shitty...getting myself to actually show up for work was an arduous task...a real constant every day battle.


So in looking at this point...I can see bits of my day to day living where maybe I am not embracing my full potential enjoyment.

An important point to examine here is a person's natural learning ability. The natural learning ability is the fact that we have a natural ability to learn with effortless ease.

Interesting point about the Natural Learning Ability is that typically as a person gets older, the natural learning ability gets suppressed. I mean this is total nonsense. Well, if you have a look at typically people accumulate stress as they age. Stress of the body and stress of the mind. This compounds the suppression of and as the Natural Learning Ability. I mean, consider even the very simplicity of stress on your vocabulary...where the words you know have particular energetic triggers that link to specific memories within your life of different emotional outbursts of stressful times. Looking here at this accumulation of words within oneself as being potential stresssors...its like having a kind of genetically modified food/nutrient within ourselves that is actually devoid of quality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent of self-responsibility within and as the creation of attitude as like a point of setting the stage,,,or priming the engine for the vehicle i will be moving around in. I mean, looking at this hear...it's a matter of planting intent...as what you want to eat as a result of being specific in picking what/how you want to grow up and mature. I mean think about it...typically we grow up...that;s the design...So wouldn't it make the most sense to continue growing always all ways as a result of always continuing to plant with the fortitude of purpose to best structure the specifics of one's gardening. I mean, to really, actually make the most out of One Self here.

Looking at this, this seems rather obvious doesn't it?

Some consideration comes up within myself:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I create the attitude of myself from moment to moment.

I realize and understand my self-responsibility within and as the building development of my attitude.

I realize and understand how a fantastic attitude can be grown and exercised just as easily as a less than fantastic attitude can be produced.

I realize and understand myself as the determining factor of as as the development of practical living attitude from moment to moment. I realize and understand the correlation within and as movement/exercise and the ability to live/express greatness in attitude consistently and constantly from moment to moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to accept less than the greatness of attitude in a single moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing a less than optimum attitude within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the stress and strain of creating a hard attitude for oneself as less than great support and assistance for oneself as living word potential.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to play within and as the point of and as my very own greatness from moment to moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to accept and allowing myself here as greatness, Always all ways.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to adopt an attitude mentality of myself existing here as less than greatness and that just being part of the dealings with the stress and strain of life as a human being and that Life is suppose to be hard and that if things were always easy than they wouldn't be enjoyable or rewarding. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the absurd ridiculousness of such accepted and allowed notions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for actually resisting the greatness of myself here. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how being hard on myself by having a less than great attitude is in fact actually very deliberate abuse.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for abusing myself and all life here as a result of and as the dissing of myself here...as like the acceptance and allowance of and as myself here as disgusting dismissal of sorts where the rational in mind is that I am less than worthy of and as the greatest possible value.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for devaluing myself within and as a result of having anything but the best attitude.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for devaluing myself and all life within and as the acceptance of myself as less than the greatest living attitude.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent of my success within and as anything and Everything I do is a result of my willingness of attitude as greatness....as like the open mindedness of Gratitude and Gratefulness as the words embodying the Greatness that is Life self-realized.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how easy it is to work well by taking it easy while you work well.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having though it necessary to stress myself out as the point and mentality of believing that I got to be hard on myself in order to live great results.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the taxing non sustainability of believing that one must be hard on oneself in order to create greatness as the work that one does.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the Passion of myself Here from and as Moment to Moment...as the Passion for Life...the realization and understanding of myself as Life,...Everything Here....the recognition and regard for the creation process Being rooted in and as the togetherness of Oneness and Equality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for allowing myself to feel guilty when and as I don't stress myself out about things...because then it's like I am not trying.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being disillusioned within the belief that I require to try in order to succeed in anything and everything I do. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the absolutely absurd ridiculousness of this approach.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to buy into the act of "trying" as like an unnecessary physical body stress and strain that taxes my ability within an accumulation that is compounding with age.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for buying into beliefs and attitude that getting old is less than great.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for never totally embracing the greatness of sustainable growth and development as the continued self-improvement of myself as the only possible option for myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing anything less than greatness within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to practical Live Greatness from moment to moment.

I forgive myself for actually having fear towards the word Greatness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to harbor a fearful comparative judgement rooted in inferiority towards Greatness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing Greatness to be a conflicted point within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the illogical attitude and self-sabotaging acceptance and allowance of and as myself fearing Greatness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself fearing the spot light of greatness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing all eyes on me. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how the fear of all eyes on me develops as a result of and as not realizing and understanding oneself here as a unique individualized expression of all I's here as the embodiment of Everything.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have actually feared to constantly and consistently feared to live Greatness as who I am in every breath.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have created a self-fulfilling prophecy as the specifics of who and how I am here....as the specifics of my acceptances and allowances....and within examining the specifics of myself, see and realize how I have rooted my acceptances and allowances in and as a conspiracy of self...where there is a more/less than supportive doubt within me to actually Play from day to day always all ways as the expression and creation that I am working on from moment to moment as the recognition and regard for the gratitude of myself giving greatness attitude developed with the fortitude of purpose as the Passion in an as Being Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing the manifestation of ego as a result of and as the Living of Greatness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that it is a sort of taboo to even look and regard myself as the epitome of and Greatness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for regarding the practical living embodiment of Greatness as deceptive.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for mind fucking the shit out of myself within and as the make belief mentality of greatness being a point One can work and try real hard to achieve but never actually reach in living because of the idea that Greatness is always more than oneself here.

To Be Continued

Day 635 Perseverance

Perseverance sounds kind of like "personal endurance"...though it is not exact, yes, I realize that, however I do see the similarities in the sounding of the words here. Also, let me look here at Perseverance some more:

Per Severance.

What is a Severance?  What first comes to mind is a "severance package" or "severance pay" which comes as a result of being laid off, or the terms of compensation for an employee ending services rendered for an employer.

Severance can also more bluntly be regarded as the "severing" of something. Severance also means the ending of a relationship. It can mean a "breaking off of a friendship"...like to sever the ties of the relationship and or agreement. In law it can be referred to as a "a division into parts, as of liabilities or provisions; removal of a part from the whole."

So, when I first started looking at the word severance I had a small reaction, "as like oh shit...I was looking to see the awesomeness in Perseverance...and now I have found "Severance" which can easily be regarded as something that is seemingly so much less than awesome"

What's interesting about this initially observed reaction I faced...is that I took the opportunity to investigate the extent of it...which yielded some insight I would like to share.

So, in facing the fact of the matter that relationships do in fact end...that people do in fact lose their jobs...that death is a very real matter of our existence here...I began to wonder why it is that I regard the "end" of various forms of relationships as "bad". Within this self-reflective examination I noted how I have been conditioned within the tendency to immediately classify information with a particular connotation of being either "good" or "bad"....and within this it is not to say that "good" and "bad" do not in fact both exist here...but to see the interdependence of both "good" and "bad" here and that good and bad is really beyond the relationship association of my feelings and or emotions attached to information.

OK, so to bring more clarity to my investigation here, I became aware of the fact that I wasn't able to see the "Good"within the apparent "bad"...in this particular situation...how specifically it could be "good" for Severances to occur. So, this lead me on another Quest as the Question brought through the answer here for me to see...and that being, "aha, hey, look, it is in fact really supportive in one's process of development to remediate the mistakes that have been made"...Which infers that in order to live "Perseverance" One must in fact Sever relationships that are contradictory to the well being of one's ambition, goals, process of learning and expanding a particular skill set. For example, and this is a very elementary example:

"Bobby wants to be a writer but spends all his time playing video games"....See, for Bobby to begin writing here, he has to "change" the nature of his relationship to playing video games all the time. Within this relationship here, "See" that he does not require to cut out video games from his life completely...he just needs to change the dynamics of his relationship with video games...so that he can enable himself the Time to cultivate a new relationship with Writing."

So, this is an interesting example here because this reflects to me a point of fine-tuning "Change"...and also the point of "Recognition"...where there is a sort of re-alignment happening within One's cognition/awareness Here.

So, Obviously I am illustrating but 1 example of an "Adjustment" required within and as a point of understanding "Perseverance" as the changing nature of our relationships here.

So, also note here, that it is not to say that in practically living the effectiveness of "Perseverance" that some relationship connections will  be seemingly deleted/cut-off completely.  I say here "seemingly" because of for instance the "stopping" and or "breaking" of a particular habit. However, if you look closely here,even though you stopped your particular relationship association with the habit here....does it in fact mean that lets say You cut-off/cut-out video games completely from your participation....it doesn't in fact mean that video games are now non existent within the greater shared reality which we are all in fact a part of. So, see here how it is basically always the relationship dynamics that change of a point in Question...as like "What is the starting point of and as Our Association Here?"

Oneness and Equality is the Starting point of and as Our Relationship/Agreement Here. Obviously here, within this understanding and insight is "where" in fact Our "Perseverance" is required and practically able to be lived as the self-correction of cognitive-dissonance into and as the "Joy" to the World/Words in and as the restoration of Life Being and Meaning Precious and Premier Value that will be protected, supported, regarded, recognized as what is Creative and Structured Assistance and Support as the Best Giving and Receiving Relationship Agreement.

What's so cool in various degrees/dimensions of "Awesomeness" here is the fact that each One of us is a self-reflection of and as the "terms" of and as "Our" "Agreements/Relationships" here. So, Here, I again emphasize the importance in understanding Our Word/World Relationships Here as the basic tenants in and as our ability/capacity to cultivate the development of harmonious gift givings.


Note: to "Play" with what we "Say" is how we "Service" Our "Work" and "World" from day to day as the meaning of "Life Gift-Giving" as Our "Today" which is always Our "Present" Sharing the Life of Our Words Here...as Our Creative Structured Support In "Walking" Our "Talking" as What it means to in fact practically live Our "Words"


I commit myself to living Perseverance within facilitating a Practical Living World that is Best for All Life.


Perseverance is steadfastness in doing something despite difficulty or delay in achieving success.

Words synonymous with Perseverance include:

persistence, tenacity, determination, staying power, indefatigable, steadfastness, purposefulness; patience, endurance, application, diligence, dedication, commitment, doggedness, assiduity, tirelessness, stamina; intransigence, obstinacy; informal stick-to-it-iveness; formal pertinacity; "in a competitive environment perseverance is an invaluable asset"