Day 733 - The Decision to Create Specific Expressions from Moment to Moment

Writing is a very cooooooooooooooooooooooooool platform for playing with the decision making and creating process as the specific expression of oneself here.

In a way whether or not we are physically writing or typing words...we are very much in accordance with the language of information....as the information is within ourselves here...and each and every moment we are working with information and are making decisions as to how to express or suppress....which is interesting in and of itself because the suppression is just kind of an reactionary play out that just sort of happens as like the nothingness taking over....i say the nothingness taking over from the persepective of being influenced and governed by momentary blips of energetic information coming up within oneself as consciousness containment so to speak as like a shock/buzz that dictates the sail of and as One's ship as how One will be in and as a Relationship here.

The interesting thing to look at here is ourselves as the master programmer...and in saying this....SEE the Mast within and as the point of Master....meaning, the Sailor hear.....the Director/Captain/Leader....the One Giving the Commands.

What I have noticed is that sometimes I forget just how much ability I have in dictating the expression of myself from moment to moment.  I mean the ability to express oneself from moment to moment is really something quite marvelous. The play of Today I say that is always here is in and as the moment of and as self-direction here as the who/how/what possibility and opportunity to make the play working as a resulting commitment to playing as the live live acting/expressing Director Here.

It really does boggle me from time to time when I catch myself in the funk of the wrath of self-authorized confinement as like the victim of a terrorist attack that was my own doing onto myself as a result of accepting and allowing an energetic reaction to engulf the Mast of my Mastery and kind of take me for a swirl into a temporary disarray as like a momentary confusion that requires the simplicity in self authoritative direction within and as the simplicity of sorting out the cross wires as like the hiccup within and as the electricity connection...the seeing  the unnecessary strain and drain I was putting onto myself as a result of an energetic dissonance in and as the accepted and allowed polarization of myself within and as a self-reflection being missed and seen as totally separate and distant from myself...kind of like a mirage in the sense...of being caught in the energetic allure of seeing what I want to see even though it's not really here but I'm kind of force fighting it here as an outward suppression of the inward suppression.

Obviously the point is to not get caught within the hiccup...nor sweat or dread a potential hiccup...as the momentary challenges that come as like the changing windy conditions that will most certainly affect the positioning of the Mast of and as Self-Leadership if and as Self-Leadership is not quick to exercise the expression of Response Abilities. I mean, even with the quickness and steadfastness of approach in adjusting the sail to compliment the adjusting conditions...the influence is here...as like each is a point of influence here as influence is who/how/what we are. The Question is what Kind of Influence are You? Consider all kinds of Everything Here....that is the makeup of Influence we are working with. Obviously the practicality is in Knowing and Trusting in the Mechanics of Expression through and as the Creative decisions We Make as Our Know and Understood Response Abilities Here.

Let me bring more attention to the Known and Understood Response Abilities Here. This is a fascinating area of focus...you see because whether we like it or not we are always at work and play together as one as the same image and likeness here as equality and oneness here together as whatever the weather there is the solidity of substantial fusion and an interwoven connection as the source center of and as What Life is within and as the simplicity of principle and law of creation here.

The focal point of my sharing here today is within the careful Planning whether it be in the moment as the momentary freestyle play as the live action and direction of character presentations here...and also within regards to future moments that are of possibility....and of future moments that One wish to bring into specific manifestation as a certain result. There's a lot we can do....there's a lot we are doing....the question/answer/solution is in the investigation of of the past so that we can know how to manifest the destiny of the future that is Best.

To Be Continued

Day 727 - Planting

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding my physical body and Beingness as the soil for my mind.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding the gardening of my physical body, beingness and mind as the specifics of what I accept and allow to plant within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the practical support within uprooting the plants within myself that are less than what is best for life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding the specifics of my mind as gardening tool for my body and beingness here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having disregarded the simplicity of gardening.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the Earth as One Garden Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding myself within and as a Garden Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the interconnectedness of all Life Here within and as the Garden/Earth

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the Mind as Specific Tool that is designed to assist and support the best potential growth of myself/body/beingness/garden growth as the epitome of Creation here from the perspective of Oneness and Equality existing together as the starting point of Creation Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for dismissing points within my mind, without questioning the practical living application of such things.  I realize and understand the self-responsibility within and as tool maintenance...as the self-responsibility to direct my mind from the starting point of Oneness and Equality as the realization and knowing that what is best for all Life is always best.

I commit myself to self-direction and self-investigation within and as my mind as what I have accepted and allowed. I commit myself to utilize my mind as a tool to support my body and beingness here.

I realize the my body, beingness and mind as a trinity of self-support here from the perspective of Oneness and Equality as what is best for all Life here.

I am grateful for my Body, Beingness and Mind Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which I can utilize my Mind as Creative Tool here to support me within and as my Creative Potential here.

I commit myself to exercising/expressing my creative potential here as what is best for Life.

I commit myself to stand as an example of and as Creative Potential Here.

I commit myself to Creating a Life for myself as Heaven on Earth.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having resisted the Creation of Myself as Heaven on Earth Here...manifested as Physical Togetherness Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the birthing of myself here as Heaven on Earth as the Physical process where my mind is merged within and as physicality here as the physical world....where it's like there is no more mental dissonance....that the birthing of Oneself as Heaven on Earth is the end of mental dissonance.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having at times judged the birthing process here. I commit myself to breath by breath birth myself as the physical movement manifestation of Heaven on Earth Here.

I commit myself to creative enjoyment within both work and play

Day 724 - Complimentary Opposites

In having studied a little bit the teaching's of Wim Hof, One of the phrases he would say is, "The Cold is Your Warm friend".  And I found that to be a very fascinating statement.  I've been playing with the temperature of water within having my showers. It's been most enjoyable! Today I was finding that I couldn't get the hot water hot enough from my perspective...it's like I still experienced a slight chill within myself...and what is interesting about this..is that I have been playing with the point of getting into a cold shower...and sometimes I feel what I believe is "too cold" before I get in the shower...and so my rational is that I'll start warm/hot and then move to cold. Anyways, today I am just not satisfied with the warm of the shower, even though I got the temperature turned up all the way. Though for perspective on the temperature of heat...I think there is a safety function on the shower where it will not heat up too hot to the point where the water could actually burn you. Anyways...I'm about ready to get out of the shower...and I'm thinking that I can't do the cold water today, because I am just not warm/hot enough. I then decide to play with the temp as I go to turn the shower off...like deliberately turn the temperature dial very slowly as to kind of stop the turning of the dial on the cold temperature setting. This moment is very refreshing for me. I have a laugh as an aha moment as I am reminded of the words, "The cold is Your Warm Friend". I'm really enjoying myself and the expression of the water as it feels so nice on my body. It's like my body was craving the cold water all along by I wouldn't believe it because of how I was experiencing myself within my body...believing that the cold would be detrimental to my health.  fascinating turn of events here as I further reflect on this point as I am thoroughly enjoying this cold water flowing on me....I am stretching my body as I am present with the touches of water on my body. I am reminded of the words of another friend who recently told me about how she is always cold...and doesn't like the cold....and she said who would of thought that the cold has been the answer all along...like that I use the cold to warm up. Now I have slightly paraphrased her words but that was the message. I had been telling her about my playing with the cold and also I told her to check out Wim Hof.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to doubt methods of support because they do not make sense and are arguably illogical from the knowledge and information I have accepted and allowed to exist within myself....as like what I remember to be the truth.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the self-expansion process from and as the perspective of realizing and understanding that to grow, One has to be open to new possibilities and ways to grow that One doesn't currently already know.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have limited my growth in many moments as a result of my judgement/belief about what is possible.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to stunt my growth from the perspective of creating judgements as a form of suppression on and as my potential here as the all ways possible to perceive/see the possibilities of expansion within a point.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how subtle the experience I am having within myself can drastically influence my best functioning abilities and ability to learn and grow as the expression of and as my natural learning ability here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the questioning involved within and as the investigation of an experience one is having...as like really checking/examining the movement within self...and within this....the willingness to further examine the point and not to allow oneself to be further engulfed within the point from the perspective of choosing to react rather than respond...because of the desire to chase after the desired feeling experience energy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for suppressing my natural learning potential from the perspective of coping within and as the survival mentality of feeling/emotion chasing and justification. Where, what I mean by this...is that there is an engulfment within and as like fire management...where the fire as frictional energy within oneself is never stopped...but is just rather monitored and accepted and thus instead of directing responses....reactions are participated within as judged to be rational actions...when all the while a self-perpetuation is happening as a coping within and as the survival experience of being regulated by the experience of and as oneself....where the behavior is totally related to the experience of oneself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting methods of practical living support because this contradicts my survival coping mechanisms of existence as how I have come to be comfortable with what I believe to be good for me and right as like the only way here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent of limitation as a result of getting stuck within and as a "one way" of thinking about things...and really the staunch and righteousness of this approach that is really debilitating to the sustainable development and maintenance of oneself here.

I commit myself to the support here.

I realize and understand the "Support Here" is Always All Ways, I realize and understand the starting point of creation as Equality and Oneness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being apprehensive towards unexpected possibilities that I have not fathomed as possible.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for making excuses and justifications from a perspective of ego about the process journey to life here, as Always All Ways,...from and as the perspective of allowing backchat within mind to fester...that, Process would be too easy...if One accepts and allows oneself to garner assistance and support from everything as Always All Ways. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for rationalizing and justifying the making sense of things that don't really make sense to me...so that I can believe to understand things in a way that makes sense,..without actually further asKing Questions and thoroughly investigating the point for and as Myself Here.

I realize the tremendous support here as King Questions..as the self-empowerment of our Self Substantiation is within and as our very own Authorization as the Questions we give ourselves access to and as....for we are the very Journey/Question/Answer/Solution and the perspective and support as the dimensions of consideration are Always All Ways here as Our Very Own Self-Reflection.  The irony is Self-Profound.

I commit myself to the Self-Profound Irony Here.

I commit myself to expressing myself as King Questions...from and as the perspective that I take Self-responsibility for myself here and the process Journey to Life as the birthing/blossoming/growing/development/Creation Process Here.

I commit myself to Self-Authorization.

I realize and understand the endless possibilities here as I allow myself to look and see what is here and within looking and seeing...Allow myself to ASK Questions.

I realize the Gift within and as the Self-Acceptance as Allowing myself to Investigate Self Here as What One has accepted and allowed. I realize the effectiveness of this process is a matter of fact...as moment to moment management.

I commit myself to the micro managing of my moments.

I commit myself to self-perfection within and as micro managing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing nor regarding the significance as the point of Self-Profoundness within as a Micro Management.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the complimentary nature of polarities here from the perspective of opposites attract as like the even and the odd fit together to make the whole picture as whole puzzle pieces....perspectives.....points of consideration fit together as the compass that is always all ways here.

I commit myself to the Profound support I have allowed myself access to.

I realize that the support and assistance all ways always here is Profound.

I am grateful for the Profound Support and Assistance Here always All ways.

I commit myself to practically living self-profound assistance and support as the dedication and commitment to self-perfection of myself here.

I am grateful to be here.

The process journey to Life is Awesome. Grateful indeed.

I commit myself to gratitude as indeed/word/thought a self-profound way to Live/Grow/Play/Work here as what is in fact best for Everything.

Day 687 - Natural Learning Abilities

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding nor really considering that it is possible that I have tremendous natural learning abilities that I have not in fact yet developed.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that my natural learning abilities appear and come naturally without any effort on my part.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing there to be special talents in this world that are beyond my ability to comprehend.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that I exist within and as limited comprehension towards and as the potential to understand and realize everything here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for finding it difficult to process information beyond a conscious level of programming.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing the self-trust that is required in existing in awareness beyond consciousness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that I am separate from all the information that exists here in the universe.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that to understand and realize all the information that exists....that I must primarily look and understand everything that exists outside of myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and considering the fact that everything that exists outside of myself also in fact exists inside myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not really taking the time to question my potential abilities to excel in various capacities in a plethora of areas and abilities.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for blindly trusting in others information as being the source codes of authority...and therfore within taking such an approach....placing myself as less then the information of others that I believe to be beyond my comprehension.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing it possible for information to exist infinitely beyond my comprehension.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to intimately acquaint myself with my unlimited access to information here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not really taking the time to question my potential by looking within the depths of myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for sometimes trusting in others more than I am williing to trust within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the ridiculous absurdity of placing my self-trust outside of myself...as like being separate from inside myself....I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for separating myself from others here...and within that creating a dissonance in self-trust relationship here,

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that my access to communicating and relating to all things here is mostly restricted and is not in fact possible.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for regarding all Life that is not human as like a sort of inferior life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding I how restricted my communication access to all life here as a result of believing myself to be superior to all other sorts of life here...as a result of my inherent design programming.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking on common beliefs and perceptions about my reality as absolute truths...without actually really investigating such points for myself....but within this...just kind of copying and mimicking the basic general perceptions about how in fact existence is here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have been careless in creating beliefs/perceptions about how life in fact exists.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to explore the depths of my abilities.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for becoming some what complacent within my beliefs and general accepted and allowed programming/conditioning.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to be an actual real living individual here on this planet as a being that really, critically thinks and speaks for oneself from the starting point of and as the regard for what is best for all life...as the realization and understanding that what is best for all Life...includes myself within and as the best equation....programming.....creation here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for blindly agreeing with people just for the sake of agreeing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding my magnificent teaching abilities....and that I am in fact, first and foremost a student of myself here....as like my relationship and agreement to myself here exists as both a teacher and a student....and that I have in fact a profound ability to educate and inform myself through and as the process of self-investigation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that only some people are in fact able to develop....or have the girt of a photographic memory.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not really questioning my ability to utilize my mind for maximum benefit and ability.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not really investigating my mind....specifically my mind existing here as a physical thing....which is a vastly profound technology that I am able to play and work with in and as my creative expression of myself here to the benefit of and as what is best for Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for dismissing most amazing abilities and potential as a resulting form of justification and excuse....because most people are not exercising such marvelously tremendous abilities.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying many things as impossible because I am not currently able to excel within these particular point effectively at the moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating a sub-servant relationship towards information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to perceive myself as less than information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the practicality of standing equal with all information existing here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating particular dissonances within myself in regards to various types of information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for complicating the realization of myself within and as my relationship with "Information"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing information that I am not consciously well versed within...as like having committed many hours to consciously verbalizing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that to become a professional within any particular area of study must take at least 10 000 hours.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not really utilizing and applying the realization that within knowing how to do any particular thing extraordinarily well....that knowing and ability can in fact be related into any and all areas as a way to accelerate self-mastery in other less play/worked with points...and that the potential for self-master...development...skill is really rather quite limitless.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding my learning potential exists within and as my relationship with my self here....and that extends to all parts of myself here....as like all of my cells....all of everything here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to explore various pathways of potential connections.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how profound our capacity to learn is in fact....and that we are in fact able to make profound and magnificent connections from all sorts of points...words...things...as like everything is relative here...and all ways all ways...the support is here...in and as everything here.

When and as I see myself being dismissive of being able to in fact learn how to be effective within a point, I stop and breathe, I check myself before I perpetuate a suppression of myself....I realize and understand I have tremendous capabilities and a strong ability to learn and and expand my ability. I commit myself to stop creating limitations on my learning potential.

I commit myself to developing my natural learning potential.

I commit myself to exploring my natural learning ability.

I commit myself to questioning the possibilities of myself here.

I commit myself to playing and working with my potential abilities/skills here.

I commit myself to to work and play with the sharing of my realizations here.

I commit myself to my utmost potential.

I commit myself to learning from the starting point of work and play.

I commit myself to allowing myself to enjoy my work and my play.

I commit myself to self-enjoyment here.

I commit myself to challenge myself in expanding my abilities and skills.

I commit myself to the regard as what is best for all life is in fact best for me.

I commit myself to substantiate myself as One and Equal with all Life here.

I commit myself to stand one and equal with all information here.

I commit myself to work and play with Information in all ways best for all Life here.

I commit myself to working and playing with my creative self-expression within and as the structured and unstructured use of information here.

I commit myself to self-trust.

I realize self-trust is paramount in and as my natural learning abilities.

I commit myself to my natural learning abilities.

I commit myself to developing....working and playing with my photographic memory potential.

I commit myself to assisting and supporting the advent of profound education in and as the  development and expression of awesome living potential.

Day 635 Perseverance

Perseverance sounds kind of like "personal endurance"...though it is not exact, yes, I realize that, however I do see the similarities in the sounding of the words here. Also, let me look here at Perseverance some more:

Per Severance.

What is a Severance?  What first comes to mind is a "severance package" or "severance pay" which comes as a result of being laid off, or the terms of compensation for an employee ending services rendered for an employer.

Severance can also more bluntly be regarded as the "severing" of something. Severance also means the ending of a relationship. It can mean a "breaking off of a friendship"...like to sever the ties of the relationship and or agreement. In law it can be referred to as a "a division into parts, as of liabilities or provisions; removal of a part from the whole."

So, when I first started looking at the word severance I had a small reaction, "as like oh shit...I was looking to see the awesomeness in Perseverance...and now I have found "Severance" which can easily be regarded as something that is seemingly so much less than awesome"

What's interesting about this initially observed reaction I faced...is that I took the opportunity to investigate the extent of it...which yielded some insight I would like to share.

So, in facing the fact of the matter that relationships do in fact end...that people do in fact lose their jobs...that death is a very real matter of our existence here...I began to wonder why it is that I regard the "end" of various forms of relationships as "bad". Within this self-reflective examination I noted how I have been conditioned within the tendency to immediately classify information with a particular connotation of being either "good" or "bad"....and within this it is not to say that "good" and "bad" do not in fact both exist here...but to see the interdependence of both "good" and "bad" here and that good and bad is really beyond the relationship association of my feelings and or emotions attached to information.

OK, so to bring more clarity to my investigation here, I became aware of the fact that I wasn't able to see the "Good"within the apparent "bad"...in this particular situation...how specifically it could be "good" for Severances to occur. So, this lead me on another Quest as the Question brought through the answer here for me to see...and that being, "aha, hey, look, it is in fact really supportive in one's process of development to remediate the mistakes that have been made"...Which infers that in order to live "Perseverance" One must in fact Sever relationships that are contradictory to the well being of one's ambition, goals, process of learning and expanding a particular skill set. For example, and this is a very elementary example:

"Bobby wants to be a writer but spends all his time playing video games"....See, for Bobby to begin writing here, he has to "change" the nature of his relationship to playing video games all the time. Within this relationship here, "See" that he does not require to cut out video games from his life completely...he just needs to change the dynamics of his relationship with video games...so that he can enable himself the Time to cultivate a new relationship with Writing."

So, this is an interesting example here because this reflects to me a point of fine-tuning "Change"...and also the point of "Recognition"...where there is a sort of re-alignment happening within One's cognition/awareness Here.

So, Obviously I am illustrating but 1 example of an "Adjustment" required within and as a point of understanding "Perseverance" as the changing nature of our relationships here.

So, also note here, that it is not to say that in practically living the effectiveness of "Perseverance" that some relationship connections will  be seemingly deleted/cut-off completely.  I say here "seemingly" because of for instance the "stopping" and or "breaking" of a particular habit. However, if you look closely here,even though you stopped your particular relationship association with the habit here....does it in fact mean that lets say You cut-off/cut-out video games completely from your participation....it doesn't in fact mean that video games are now non existent within the greater shared reality which we are all in fact a part of. So, see here how it is basically always the relationship dynamics that change of a point in Question...as like "What is the starting point of and as Our Association Here?"

Oneness and Equality is the Starting point of and as Our Relationship/Agreement Here. Obviously here, within this understanding and insight is "where" in fact Our "Perseverance" is required and practically able to be lived as the self-correction of cognitive-dissonance into and as the "Joy" to the World/Words in and as the restoration of Life Being and Meaning Precious and Premier Value that will be protected, supported, regarded, recognized as what is Creative and Structured Assistance and Support as the Best Giving and Receiving Relationship Agreement.

What's so cool in various degrees/dimensions of "Awesomeness" here is the fact that each One of us is a self-reflection of and as the "terms" of and as "Our" "Agreements/Relationships" here. So, Here, I again emphasize the importance in understanding Our Word/World Relationships Here as the basic tenants in and as our ability/capacity to cultivate the development of harmonious gift givings.


Note: to "Play" with what we "Say" is how we "Service" Our "Work" and "World" from day to day as the meaning of "Life Gift-Giving" as Our "Today" which is always Our "Present" Sharing the Life of Our Words Here...as Our Creative Structured Support In "Walking" Our "Talking" as What it means to in fact practically live Our "Words"


I commit myself to living Perseverance within facilitating a Practical Living World that is Best for All Life.


Perseverance is steadfastness in doing something despite difficulty or delay in achieving success.

Words synonymous with Perseverance include:

persistence, tenacity, determination, staying power, indefatigable, steadfastness, purposefulness; patience, endurance, application, diligence, dedication, commitment, doggedness, assiduity, tirelessness, stamina; intransigence, obstinacy; informal stick-to-it-iveness; formal pertinacity; "in a competitive environment perseverance is an invaluable asset"