Day 782 - Learning - Relationship Awareness

 



Some cool Insights here:

It is possible to get tremendous insight from someone who is not well versed in the technical mechanics and advanced vocabulary of a subject you are well versed and studied within. Here exists a tremendous opportunity that is often over looked, in favor or 'professional' opinion.   See, everyone has a natural learning ability and has the grounding basis of common sense reasoning with them.  You know, the point of "keep it simple".

I had a first hand experience with opening up and regarding the input of others who i may have previously disregarded because they didn't fit the 'pro' status and necessary accreditation i've been conditioned and accustomed to seeking out as a point of Authority to validate and reason about a sense of clarity within myself.   Ironically, the waters within myself as the information about the particulars of a point often become more muddied within seeking out the info from the 'pro'.

Note: my example i am going into here, is in specific relationship to golf....however it can be reflected and regarded in many different relationships and activities. Note, I am not dismissing the practical support in seeking a professionals opinion in whatever field you are investigating.  I am moreover, bringing awareness to the 'flip side' of the same coin....the support of the 'amateur'.

So for instance, with Golf as an example here:  It is a common thing to get one's own swing rather discombobulated within the process of "trying/wanting to fix it".  The irony and kicker here is of course, not realizing and understanding the mechanics of one's patterned conditioned behavior. The awareness of one's movement. Meaning, the input and the output.  When I accept and allow myself to do this, the resulting outflow is this. When you understand how to do something, you can also, equally understand how to do something else.  However it can be extremely frustrating, and massively irritating when You do not take the time to understand what you are doing (accepting and allowing)....but at the same time you have defined it as a problem/bad/wrong....and you want to fix/correct it.  See, how can you correct something that you don't know what it is? Funny isn't it?  Here we have the frame work into structuring our plans/goals/wants/desires. The Creation recipe book in a way. 

See, it's within and as our understanding of what we got/have that we are able to create new complimentary additions for ourselves and others here. The Fine tuning of our movements/relationships here, enables us to work and play with the development of our best results.  It's like a a regard for stretching into our potential.  See, improvement is made with regard for little movements. The awareness here for both the big and the small.  The big movement is a result of many small points in motion. Take walking as an example.  It's something we can easily do. We learned it through playing/working on it, and balancing ourselves out within the process, where we had to become aware of all of our stabilizing points....you know, our equilibrium. "Our Feels"...the physical feels of our physical movements here.


To Be Continued

Day 739 - The Terms of Determination and The Education of Dedication

Continuing from my previous posting:

"So what I see here is cool....is the practical structuring of and as my Dedication...because within and as my dedication is the Determination....and within my determination is the Law of my being here as my Obligation. Dare i say moral obligation from and as the perspective and realization that the best morals are the one's within and as the realization and understanding that there is more for all here within and and as the understanding of what's best for all is Moral as More All here...as the essence of momentum in a continuous expansion of greatness in and as Creation Here."


Since my writing yesterday the Seeing of Education within and as Dedication has become apparent. Also the correlation between Dedication and Determination. It is interesting because in looking at Determination, I find myself within and as the point of Dedication. And it's interesting because if you really regard the terms as the words as the meanings and values which shape Determination...you very much have an education of principles within and as the Dedication required in and as the effective living of Determination.

It's interesting because I never really saw the interconnectedness between these two words before...and what is so fascinating to me is that it's like you can't have one without the other. I mean sure you can disregard one and focus on the other....but then it's like there is a missing link...a missing stability in assisting and supporting the substantiation of interwoven support. I see these two words as like Oneness and Equality....they are complimentary and integral as like the perfect fucking...they fit together perfectly.

Lets play with the word Dedication for a moment here to support the seeing of the meaning within and as Dedication...so it becomes more obvious:

Dedication is the the education of I....the commitment of Self.

Dedication is the education of I....Dedication is the Education with I.

Dedication is the education in relationship to U and I.

Determination is what shapes the education of You and I as Dedication.

Dedication is the giving meaning of words to something.

Determination is the the practical application of Dedication.


I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding the correlation between Dedication and Determination.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding the value of connector words as like complimentary unions of assistance and support to substantiate the best of one another.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent of profound multidimensionality of interconnectedness here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I can effectively leverage strong support and assistance for myself within and as the meaning of words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which Words act as the building blocks that structure the building of creation here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which complimentary actions and assistance and support open up as an outflow of self-directed action/determination/dedication.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to See the pathways I create within and as Word relationships.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself fo resisting in moments to examine the history of my word relationships as like the specific structural engineering of why the path I am on is exactly the way it is.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the specific answers within questions are the very Words themselves.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to examine the interconnection between various word relationships as I specifically define the experience of myself that comes up from time to time as state of reaction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent of specificity that goes into and as the various states of reaction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for never really considering states of reactions as like types/kinds of locations within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for never really regarding various states of being as a point in relationship regard to water....as specifically defined Relationships.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate within various reactionary states without really asking myself, "what am I doing?"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to create my state and status from moment to moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being conditioned/educated to just accept and allow reactionary states to happen as like thinking that is just the way things are.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how control is manipulated through reactionary states...as the consequence of accepting and allowing oneself to be in a sort of hypnotic trance in relationship with oneself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which one exists in a hypnotic trance is a result and relationship to the very and varied methods and points of entertainment that exist here as a sort of distraction as like a take away slip and slide out of balanced stability...as like a going to sleep while you are awake kind of thing where the application is just happening without really thinking about it....programmed self-automation....

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the holistic approach to Determination and Dedication as the harmonious symphony that is the complimentary union of Work and Play which assists and support the Awesome balance of Serious Working Playing Time....as a great combination collaboration where All parts aid in the expansiveness of Greatness as a result of and as a combined group effort for More All as All for One and One for All as the Best Morale.


To be continued

Day 730 - Coming Out of Retirement

I can recall on more than one occasion, declaring that I was taking an early retirement. The idea of an early retirement is something I was looking into at the end of my teenage years and the beginning of my twenties. My attitude was that I am ready to commit to full time leisurely pursuits. The consideration was that perhaps I would not make it to old age or that I would be less mobile, less flexible, less capable or less able bodied. From my perspective, I was of the notion that I should give as much time to myself now as possible....even if I have to pay for it later....that giving myself tremendous amounts of time now, would pay dividends later...as like actually gifting myself with the privilege to slow down and seize the day.  This was regarded as somewhat of a radical notion because all my peers were looking to position themselves into life long careers so that they had the potential to secure their retirements.  I also figured that I could have a retirement now...and perhaps I could still have one later. I mean, initially I kind of regarded that my adulthood would be a lifelong retirement of sorts and that it would be focused on  my individual self-interests in the now of consciousness...without real longtime planning from the perspective and principle of Be Here Now.

Well, it's been perhaps just over a decade since i first declared myself taking an early retirement.

There's been many times throughout this past decade where i forgot that I had many times declared and wished for myself an early retirement and within this not really considered the fabric of my wishes. My immediate regards were that of fulfilling my immediate and moment to moment desires. a lot of very treats from the day to day and month to month retirement living management.

What also appealed to me about this approach is not really having wanted to get serious about long term planning...committing to any long term plan.

I would say also within this was the concern that I would have to give up my childhood for adulthood.  My thinking was that I will carry my childhood into adulthood and I will take the senior approach very childishly...from the perspective that I will skip the typical young adult middle age mentality and go right for retirement kind of living....from the perspective of my focus being on the shortsightedness of daily pleasures and leisurely pursuits.  My thinking about recreation was that perhaps I will want to play more now then when I am older...maybe I wont want to play so much when I am really old...and then I would rather focus on work....because from my perspective old people don't seem all that playful...I mean sure there's a lot of them that are cheerful and good spirited but they also kind of sit around a lot...and isn't there a lot of young people in jobs where they sit around a lot....wouldn't it be better to take a sit around type of job when I am old...

I also have had the attitude that I have a Golden Ticket.

I remember this steady girlfriend I had for some years and she was finishing her schooling up and was prepared to get into career mode and begin a family.,..and at that time I was not at all interested in that approach for myself..I was in full out retirement mode...thinking that my living leisurely as my recreational pursuits were my investments for my future and that I have a  Golden Ticket that I can cash in when I so desire....and the thing about my thinking was that my golden Ticket has so much potential like the realization within myself that I can in fact do what ever I want....like I am the will and the way and so realizing this is like a wow realization because it is a point of self-comfort within and as self-empowerment. At the same time...there can be almost an urgency within self that comes up as like wanting to make something happen because potential exists...and at the same time a hesitance of not wanting to rush things....kind of a indecision between getting going and postponing....

A realization that has become clear to me is that Yes, Indeed I do have a Golden Ticket and this Golden Ticket is in fact my Potential Here...and the thing is...I Require to Use My Golden Ticket...and I cannot just save it away and avoid it for a long time later.....that is foolish....My Golden Ticket has the Most Value Now...and The Value Of My Golden Ticket Gets More Valuable every day I Exercise it....like a card I got to pay/play with as the decisions I make.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how the wishes and declarations I make for myself shape my reality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to take on long term planning as point of self-directed commitment and responsibility I bring into fruition

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that typically people fall apart when they get old.


To Be Continued

Day 728 - The Easy Attitude and Outlook

The other day I was talking to someone about the attitude and perspective One adapts within the work was in doing as being a critical component to the success/enjoyment/ability One has within a point. My reflection on this point comes as a result of my experience from going from a relatively easy attitude about the point of work to a somewhat increasingly difficult attitude about the point of work...and back to re-establishing a relationship gentleness of general regard and consideration as the relationship attitude being the Easy and Obvious Best choice to make and take on as the support for me within and as my participations.

So, I noticed when and as I take an Easy attitude approach to particular work applications...it is a lot more effortless to actually move myself within the point.

I mean, thing about it...how an attitude can influence participation. For example, taking the attitude of being extremely difficult and burdensome...to the point of hate.  This type of approach to doing a particular work is going to be pure hell every time you participate within in...best case scenario is somewhat manageable level of coping within the point...which to a certain extent still is less than optimum...and actually kind of sucks...in a way that it is brutal. Where is the enjoyment within this approach? I recall adapting this type of attitude before through justification and ego superiority where I defined myself as more than the work I was doing and thus...it was even difficult to get myself to actually do the work. So, not only was the experience of myself within the work kind of shitty...getting myself to actually show up for work was an arduous task...a real constant every day battle.


So in looking at this point...I can see bits of my day to day living where maybe I am not embracing my full potential enjoyment.

An important point to examine here is a person's natural learning ability. The natural learning ability is the fact that we have a natural ability to learn with effortless ease.

Interesting point about the Natural Learning Ability is that typically as a person gets older, the natural learning ability gets suppressed. I mean this is total nonsense. Well, if you have a look at typically people accumulate stress as they age. Stress of the body and stress of the mind. This compounds the suppression of and as the Natural Learning Ability. I mean, consider even the very simplicity of stress on your vocabulary...where the words you know have particular energetic triggers that link to specific memories within your life of different emotional outbursts of stressful times. Looking here at this accumulation of words within oneself as being potential stresssors...its like having a kind of genetically modified food/nutrient within ourselves that is actually devoid of quality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent of self-responsibility within and as the creation of attitude as like a point of setting the stage,,,or priming the engine for the vehicle i will be moving around in. I mean, looking at this hear...it's a matter of planting intent...as what you want to eat as a result of being specific in picking what/how you want to grow up and mature. I mean think about it...typically we grow up...that;s the design...So wouldn't it make the most sense to continue growing always all ways as a result of always continuing to plant with the fortitude of purpose to best structure the specifics of one's gardening. I mean, to really, actually make the most out of One Self here.

Looking at this, this seems rather obvious doesn't it?

Some consideration comes up within myself:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I create the attitude of myself from moment to moment.

I realize and understand my self-responsibility within and as the building development of my attitude.

I realize and understand how a fantastic attitude can be grown and exercised just as easily as a less than fantastic attitude can be produced.

I realize and understand myself as the determining factor of as as the development of practical living attitude from moment to moment. I realize and understand the correlation within and as movement/exercise and the ability to live/express greatness in attitude consistently and constantly from moment to moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to accept less than the greatness of attitude in a single moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing a less than optimum attitude within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the stress and strain of creating a hard attitude for oneself as less than great support and assistance for oneself as living word potential.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to play within and as the point of and as my very own greatness from moment to moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to accept and allowing myself here as greatness, Always all ways.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to adopt an attitude mentality of myself existing here as less than greatness and that just being part of the dealings with the stress and strain of life as a human being and that Life is suppose to be hard and that if things were always easy than they wouldn't be enjoyable or rewarding. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the absurd ridiculousness of such accepted and allowed notions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for actually resisting the greatness of myself here. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how being hard on myself by having a less than great attitude is in fact actually very deliberate abuse.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for abusing myself and all life here as a result of and as the dissing of myself here...as like the acceptance and allowance of and as myself here as disgusting dismissal of sorts where the rational in mind is that I am less than worthy of and as the greatest possible value.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for devaluing myself within and as a result of having anything but the best attitude.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for devaluing myself and all life within and as the acceptance of myself as less than the greatest living attitude.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent of my success within and as anything and Everything I do is a result of my willingness of attitude as greatness....as like the open mindedness of Gratitude and Gratefulness as the words embodying the Greatness that is Life self-realized.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how easy it is to work well by taking it easy while you work well.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having though it necessary to stress myself out as the point and mentality of believing that I got to be hard on myself in order to live great results.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the taxing non sustainability of believing that one must be hard on oneself in order to create greatness as the work that one does.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the Passion of myself Here from and as Moment to Moment...as the Passion for Life...the realization and understanding of myself as Life,...Everything Here....the recognition and regard for the creation process Being rooted in and as the togetherness of Oneness and Equality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for allowing myself to feel guilty when and as I don't stress myself out about things...because then it's like I am not trying.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being disillusioned within the belief that I require to try in order to succeed in anything and everything I do. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the absolutely absurd ridiculousness of this approach.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to buy into the act of "trying" as like an unnecessary physical body stress and strain that taxes my ability within an accumulation that is compounding with age.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for buying into beliefs and attitude that getting old is less than great.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for never totally embracing the greatness of sustainable growth and development as the continued self-improvement of myself as the only possible option for myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing anything less than greatness within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to practical Live Greatness from moment to moment.

I forgive myself for actually having fear towards the word Greatness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to harbor a fearful comparative judgement rooted in inferiority towards Greatness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing Greatness to be a conflicted point within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the illogical attitude and self-sabotaging acceptance and allowance of and as myself fearing Greatness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself fearing the spot light of greatness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing all eyes on me. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how the fear of all eyes on me develops as a result of and as not realizing and understanding oneself here as a unique individualized expression of all I's here as the embodiment of Everything.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have actually feared to constantly and consistently feared to live Greatness as who I am in every breath.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have created a self-fulfilling prophecy as the specifics of who and how I am here....as the specifics of my acceptances and allowances....and within examining the specifics of myself, see and realize how I have rooted my acceptances and allowances in and as a conspiracy of self...where there is a more/less than supportive doubt within me to actually Play from day to day always all ways as the expression and creation that I am working on from moment to moment as the recognition and regard for the gratitude of myself giving greatness attitude developed with the fortitude of purpose as the Passion in an as Being Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing the manifestation of ego as a result of and as the Living of Greatness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that it is a sort of taboo to even look and regard myself as the epitome of and Greatness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for regarding the practical living embodiment of Greatness as deceptive.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for mind fucking the shit out of myself within and as the make belief mentality of greatness being a point One can work and try real hard to achieve but never actually reach in living because of the idea that Greatness is always more than oneself here.

To Be Continued

Day 727 - Planting

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding my physical body and Beingness as the soil for my mind.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding the gardening of my physical body, beingness and mind as the specifics of what I accept and allow to plant within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the practical support within uprooting the plants within myself that are less than what is best for life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding the specifics of my mind as gardening tool for my body and beingness here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having disregarded the simplicity of gardening.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the Earth as One Garden Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding myself within and as a Garden Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the interconnectedness of all Life Here within and as the Garden/Earth

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the Mind as Specific Tool that is designed to assist and support the best potential growth of myself/body/beingness/garden growth as the epitome of Creation here from the perspective of Oneness and Equality existing together as the starting point of Creation Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for dismissing points within my mind, without questioning the practical living application of such things.  I realize and understand the self-responsibility within and as tool maintenance...as the self-responsibility to direct my mind from the starting point of Oneness and Equality as the realization and knowing that what is best for all Life is always best.

I commit myself to self-direction and self-investigation within and as my mind as what I have accepted and allowed. I commit myself to utilize my mind as a tool to support my body and beingness here.

I realize the my body, beingness and mind as a trinity of self-support here from the perspective of Oneness and Equality as what is best for all Life here.

I am grateful for my Body, Beingness and Mind Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which I can utilize my Mind as Creative Tool here to support me within and as my Creative Potential here.

I commit myself to exercising/expressing my creative potential here as what is best for Life.

I commit myself to stand as an example of and as Creative Potential Here.

I commit myself to Creating a Life for myself as Heaven on Earth.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having resisted the Creation of Myself as Heaven on Earth Here...manifested as Physical Togetherness Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the birthing of myself here as Heaven on Earth as the Physical process where my mind is merged within and as physicality here as the physical world....where it's like there is no more mental dissonance....that the birthing of Oneself as Heaven on Earth is the end of mental dissonance.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having at times judged the birthing process here. I commit myself to breath by breath birth myself as the physical movement manifestation of Heaven on Earth Here.

I commit myself to creative enjoyment within both work and play

Day 717 - The Order of Things

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having a warped sense of order from the perspective of disregard for and as the Equality and Oneness of all Life here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that if things are ordered in a particular way than they cannot be regarded and ordered in another way that is equally great.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating orders as like codes and commands within my mind from a starting point of conflict and friction where the point of war is encouraged as a polarized energetic work and play that is out of sync.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for dismissing my ability to remediate myself as the words that exist within me and that come up inside me from moment to moment as thoughts, words, deeds.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being selective in establishing a value order of worth to the words/thoughts/deeds that come up within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to over value and under value the equality and oneness of the relationships as words/thoughts/deeds that exist within and as me here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself play out bodily reactions as my thoughts/words/deeds as like having a mind and personality of their own as like separate from who I really am...which is kind of interesting in and of itself, because for a dissonance to exist in thought/word/deed as mind/body//being relationship here than this is quite ridiculously absurd. I mean it's like a triangle trying to move in one direction together by always pulling and pushing against each point as like never creating a continuous harmonious and melodic flow.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to delay my continuous application on points of self-regard as the responsibilities that are mine to deal with.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting the order of my things.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating disorder in myself and this the world as a result of being poorly informed and having consequences manifest as a result of my very own acceptance and allowances of misinformation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating disorder within myself here as a result of misinformation and disinformation.

I forgive  myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how my full living potential has been out of order and it is my self-responsibility to put myself back in order as the restoration of and as my full potential ability and response ability as the love made visible as become the working action as the play write right rite here as the hearing is clear in and as the sound that is me. I realize and recognize the sound that is me is rooted in and as the epitome of me as Oneness and Equality....a sound so here that is always here no matter what...a sound so here that is always sewing and is sown here that this sound as who and how I am here exist beyond a physical body yet the sound is express as the physical body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and regarding my Sound mind here as who I am beyond a quantum mind and body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the pulse of my sound here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent of the embodiment of sound within and as the form in information.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for suppressing and fearing my sounds. I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding the absurd ridiculousness of fearing my sounds....because I am my Sound...and to make a statement acceptance and allowance of existing in fear of my own sounds is to accept the sound/disharmony resonance as like a less than wholeness of myself as sound here....this is like to break myself into pieces...as to accept myself as less than who I am....to make myself but a derivative of myself...that is continuously conditioned into new conditioned restraints which make the derivative of the derivative less and less...as a cycle of confinement within and which the belief is perpetually justified that escape is a valid option...when in physical fact you all it...as everything here...so to create a separateness as like a great big mess is a bit of a discombobulated message as like not realizing how and why oneself deconstructed/constructed oneself here.

I see realize and understand the irony of not realizing what you are doing in the moment as you flow in the moment doing what you are doing...and here I see how great potential and great consequence exists...because from the perspective of certainty and uncertainty working here at the same time...and what is real is always a point of self-honesty...the question as the king....because the king is asking....so in asking you stand as the self-authorization for total regard or disregard...and either way the starting point of creation/self-here is Oneness and Equality, so TAG we are always It...and learning/studying our action and participation and looking at ourselves always, makes what is clear clear...because we always make it...because we are the one's that made everything up in the first place. And therefore each has already won as firts place...so as the king of asking the question you are right and wrong in the moves we make and regardless of the amount of right turns or wrong turns it is a matter of reading the words here and looking and sounding the in form as the information here as the self-reflection as who and what we are.

I commit myself to working and playing with myself/world here as what is best for myself/Life/world/earth/Mind/Body/Being Here.

Day 693 - Freedom of Denial

Is there anything that You are denying self-responsibility for?


In looking at the word "Deny", the definition that comes to my attention is: Refuse to give or grant (something requested or desired) to (someone).

This opened up the point of self-reflection on change here that is great and the application of self-forgiveness as a pivotal tool in supporting the forward movement and commitment statements to actually manifest great physical changes here.

The point also became more obvious that I am the starting point of giving here, as I am Forgiving...and this is such a cool realization in recognizing that we get to gift to ourselves that which we actually want, need and desire because we are the starting point of what it is in fact we accept and allow ourself to be given...as we are forgiven by our self here...self-responsibility to actually give to ourselves here.

We are here to give as to give is to live...and it starts with understanding how to self-forgive....because this is a basic tool in and as Self Living Here.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for denying myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for choosing to deny self-responsibility here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the absurd ridiculousness of denial that is perpetuated as a result of accepted and allowed fear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for hiding from my potential as a result of accepting and allowing myself for choosing to deny the living of my utmost potential always.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging my potential.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for denying myself the privilege and opportunity to forgive myself for my acceptances and allowances that are less than the best.  I commit myself to follow up on my self-forgiveness statements with self-commitment statements as I realize and understand that forgiving myself is a stepping stone in actually enabling myself to move for real change that is best.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting change that is best for me and all Life here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for denying myself access to Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting my Life and therefore the Lives of others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the regard that I live for myself reflects the regard that I have for others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to bullshit myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for denying the facts of physical reality here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying and perpetuating deniability within myself by deliberately choosing to distract myself from and as the self-corrections I would like to make in my life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for sabotaging myself within and as self-denial.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding self-denial.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for going along with the attitude of "deny, deny, deny"....."protect the lie at all costs...can't get in trouble when and as you don't admit fault"...it's always best to deny deny deny"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for denying myself from myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to neglect and deny self-responsibility for all of my thoughts/feelings/emotions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for choosing to believe that I am free to deny taking accountability for which ever thoughts/feelings/emotions I decide I don't want to deal with.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing there is freedom in avoiding self-responsibility / self-accountability for my acceptances and allowances here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having some anger in seeing points of self-denial within myself.

I realize that actually seeing points that I was previously denying is cool from the perspective of OK, now I see what I was missing before...so no need to cause myself any harm....best to actually be grateful for what it is I see and realize and commit myself to change that is best.

I commit myself to stop taking offense to new information I am realizing.

I commit myself to self-correcting points of self-denial.

I commit myself to stop self-denial.

I commit myself to facing and stopping every point of self-denial within myself.

I commit myself to stop fearing the truth of my acceptances and allowances.

Day 678 - Effort

Continuing from, Day 677 - Effort-full


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting caught within the polarization of the word Effort from the perspective of trying to decide which is better of worse...things to require effort or without effort....like effort-full or effortless.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for associating effort with movement...and within this attaching a negative charge...where I have created a resistance to actually moving myself within points as a result of believing and experience negative emotion towards requiring effort to actually move myself within things.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having polarized my effort participations....where I have been effort-full in various applications....working very hard. And, in many other instances....doing almost nothing...virtually putting in no effort into particular relationship developments and living responsibilities. The contrast of doing my best work and my worst work....where it's like maximum effort in some applications and a most minimal effort in other applications....as like the very bare minimum.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have created a fight or flight type of survival relationship with the word "effort"...where it's like...OK...I will live/give effort if I believe it is absolutely necessary from the perspective of my immediate and relatively near future depends upon it....so like if I believe my survival is threatened....than it;s like I thrive in doing what I believe to be necessary. Otherwise....I believe...what is the bother....I don't really require to move....because no imminent threat/consequence that will jeopardize my immediate and relatively soon future survival.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for participating in a relationship with Effort from the perspective of short sightedness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the difficulty within actually and practically living a word effectively, when and as the word has emotional connotations rooted in the fear for survival.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I had impaired my full potential to express and live my best efforts as a result of justifying whether or not I should exercise my best efforts within my sharing and caring for myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the sharing and caring that encompasses the practical daily living application of Effort.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being negligent in my relationship towards practically living Effort.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being shocked with the absurd ridiculousness of actually seeing how I make believed a condition of learning impairment....where my actual effectiveness in learning and expressing myself was dependent upon my emotional disposition.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having resistance to living Effort as always best for Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for abusing myself and others as a result of neglecting to live Effort in always Best always all ways.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the absurd ridiculousness of actually making an effort to avoid effort in life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing the irony within making a big Effort about Effort.

When and as I see myself faced with a moment where I am resisting to apply Effort, I stop and breathe....I see/realize and understand that I am faced with a moment where I have the opportunity to learn from my mistake and actually correct/remediate a contaminated relationship towards a particular point. I create the perfect correction as a result of giving forth my best effort in taking responsibility to do what needs to be done.

I commit myself to sharing my realizations about Effort and my past relationship suppressions within and as the point of Effort.

I commit myself to expanding my practical living application of Effort.

I commit myself to growing my expression of Effort.

I realize my Effort is the strength of my overall character here, both inside and outside.

I realize my self-responsibility to live/give my best Efforts...And, I realize Sharing and Caring are Paramount for Life Sustainability Here.

I commit myself to Life Sustainability as the Effort required to practically live/express/give as I would like to receive the realization that Sharing and Caring is Paramount Here.

I commit myself to Sharing and Caring as Paramount Here.

I commit myself to practically live to give....realizing that Life self-expression as who I am here is in and as the gifting.

I realize a strong depth of gratitude for the effort I have put into writing Self-Forgiveness.

Day 670 - What Choice?

The question about Choice has become more and more self-evident.


What choice do I have?


The idea that Free will is the Choice between Good and Evil. How stupid is that?  Stupid from the perspective that to even consider evil is quite alarming. I mean...the free will to do stupid shit...like to be unpredictable when it comes to choosing Life Support or Life Suffering....like, hmm what am I feeling today...am I experiencing positive feelings or negative emotions?


What's interesting about making stupid choices is that these stupid decisions are often believed to not be so stupid...because of the fact that they are validated within one's mind as being right....because it just feels right....believing that positive feeling and negative emotion are the eternal compass to making sound movement/decisions...


Have You every really question why it is You do what You do?


Have You ever considered Who You would be if You never made the decisions You made?


Isn't it interesting and somewhat tragic to hear that there's many people here professing that they have no regrets about their life?  I would say that is most unfortunate....wouldn't you?


I'm not saying that the point is to hold yourself hostage within one's own regret....far from it....however I do see the key to me Being here is in letting go of feeling and emotion within and as self-direction here...so that One can See the One direction that is best for all life here....


Holding Oneself Accountable for Mistakes Prevents Continuous Loops Within the Same Behavior Pattern, Doesn't It?


It's interesting to see the relationship dynamics of word and world relations.  Like and Hate....Positive/Negative...and the Neutral in between.......How to move?

If most people are operating in a survival mindset when we in fact live in a world of abundance...What are the consequences?


What are the consequences for choosing to frolic about within a stupor of Intoxication...because you feel like it...and just want to have a good time....when the majority of the inhabitants on the planet are in survival mode...stuck in a bad spot...not knowing what to do...lacking access to the best education?


Should there really be a choice Here?


Why is there a portrayed conception that if we don't have choice, Life is Boring?
Do we even really know Life...and what it means to Live? How can we say we are alive when we do not consider all Lives....and what is best for all life?


But what about excitement within having the choice to follow stimulation...being stimulated to do this or being stimulated not to do this....Isn't it interesting that fairly recently within the world economic system there was a number of stimulus packages?


Interesting it is, I find it, to actually question the nature of my conditioning here....You Know, to actually challenge oneself in examining what it is I am accepting and allowing myself to think...or not think about....what it is that scares me, what is it I am reacted to.....what is it I am deliberately avoiding...why am I the way I am?


"Why am I the way I am"?


....the way I am?.....has me thinking of the Eminem song..."the way I am".....however I first came across this song called "the way I am" by Ingrid Michaelson


Whoa.......just went through a plethora of Eminem music videos.....how/why....i didnt really have a choice....did I ?....I mean I was curious....Cure I use....Cure us....Cure I Us....Curious....You know wanting to see what something is all about...wanting to look into something....Wanting to Investigate....Wanting to listen....Wanting to Learn....Looking to See...Self-reflective.....the Key to Self-Directive....Natural Learning Process....Self-Discovery through self-investigation....Leads to Self-expression within and as Great Self-Creation....Know-thy-Self Styles...You Know...We all Know to a certain extent....and it's funny and interesting that we all know to a certain extent....Because what is this "Extent" really....Extent?,,,,,Existence.....

Our Exit Stance....? Existence....No more, No less than an Exit Dance....Existence....How We Put Out the Fire on Earth....Starting with ourselves...Our cells....Our Life Here...and from Our Life...we create a Fire and Grace....funny that this just came to mind...and so I decided to look up what video came up...because I had no choice really....I just wanted to see....I figure that in daring to go there you got to take a look at yourself and what your saying and seeing the relationships within and how you are saying and sharing what it is that has come up within Yourself....Now the interesting thing here I see....Is to actually get to such a point of expression and exploration....Learning ability....is the self-trust...to not care....as like being infused and embedded within care...as a result of the commitment. work, devotion You have paid tribute as Your trials and tribulations as the hours of effort into getting to that moment of clarity which in reality is the simplicity of common sense.....More than a feeling and less than an emotion.....it's our Ocean of Locomotion...as the drivers and divers as the universal explorers stand as Self-Responsibility Directors....developing the Script....Programming In What's Best for all....So the Rest...Can be Had by the majority...So that their Estates and Status's can be corrected....as the Equalization of Elitist Status Here....raising the bar as the quality control standard commission...Making Only the best Picks....i mean it;s not even really a choice at all when we see for real with common Sense...and we don;t fear the hiccup in investigating our surrondings...Internal and External...So that we can Decorate in a way as like the Recreation...of Re-Creating the House Dealer....Assuming the Position as an In-House Dealer....I Mean Leader...not to be Mean...in a way that;s so bad...but to Mean what I say...so that it;s clear as can be, despite the array of confusion within and as our current vocabulary relationship definitions and associations....You Know...Our Word.....and World Relationships.....

Invest....in the Investigation....which is the Sound...Within and as the Word...Which shapes and Shifts as the formatting Structure which is here in so many physical molds...isn't it interesting that all this Word and World Shape Shifting has Created a Maze of Confusion....

And That's an Amazing....Am a Zing....Am A Sing Song Confession Here...as I tell it so...So You Know....as The Wonk...Walky Talky Here....Wonky Wonky....Ride a Donkey.....

LOL


Jackass


FYI,

pardon me but I wanted to be silly....I had no choice really....I said what I said...without getting ahead of myself....staying here in the present as I presented myself....making me the president of my Words...and You the President of Reading me Here...We the Presenters...presidenters....press identificators......Precedent Setters...Word and World Record Holders....Each and Every-One of us as Your Story is One of a Kind....a Word and World Record of Events.


Great Job....You're a Gold Medalist....and You totally forgot....You know....medalling gold.....medailling for gold....the quest for everlasting greatness....the same old story....how long have we been here man?,,,,What's a Number anyways but the latest/oldest method of counting/tracking our Word/World Record...recordings Here....The testing Testaments of Time exists within and as Our testimonial here...as our testimony indicates the status standing of and as our exam....X-am Testing....the Signature Sound Testing Here....to determine and distinguish what is Structurally Sound...and is Worthy of and as the Bountiful Glory In and as Life Equality and Oneness Here.



OH, ya,....I should mention that what supported my writing endeavor here today was the movie I watched called Snowpiercer....and if you click on the link I attached, you can read a cool write up blog I found in relation to the movie...a gemstone of a find....much like the Gemstone University and the Desteni Universe....some real pillars of excellence In standing I say...Here, Hear...


OK, Talking and Relating is Fun....I mean there is no real choice....is there?

Lol!



To be Continued

Paradoxical = Par a Do X 'ical....Par-a-Do-Signature-I-See-All.......Equal A Doing Signature I see All.....the standing agreement of common sense....

Word Play is Everywhere...as is Suppose to Be World Play...So let's get to Work on Structuring Our Creative Play....Because after all Life is A working Play....though...unfortunately it;s been more of a fight than a play....tis what happens when play gets out of controlll.....the child imaturity...the lack of balance in the work and the play.....meaning the work as the maturity and seriousness within and as the ability to have foresight and insight as to the extent of existence here....Being a Creator and All....

end all...

Peace


To Be Continued



Our Creative Work...

Day 669 - Work and Play

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having a negative energetic charge in relationship to Work.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having a positive energetic charge in relationship to Play.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that I can counteract Work having a negative energetic charge by attaching Play to work with a positive energetic charge.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating a sort of neutral energetic relationship with regards to work and play.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having a preference towards play over work.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating opposition towards work in play...as like having these words existing within me as opposing forces.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for desiring Work to be Play.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for struggling to always have a harmonious balance between work and and play.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to give up play time in order to take on more work time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing the responsibility of creating more work for myself and less play.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that for work to exist without play is for work to exist without enjoyment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to require to work without having enjoyment within the work that I am doing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating conflict within my effectiveness in maximizing my working potential as a result of having a preference towards spending my time playing sports/games.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having always the idea that I should look to minimize the amount of work I do and maximize the amount of time I play.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to resist exercising my working potential.

I forgive myself for being in opposition towards work.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for connecting work to a point of survival that I have to do.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting upset that I live in a reality where work is required and to a certain degree enforced as a necessity...while at the same time play is not regarded as being an equal necessity.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging myself for creating so much play time for myself when in fact I live in a world where a tremendous amount of abuse and suffering exists...and that there is much work to be done in order to remediate the situation to an optimum/harmonious balance of both work and play.

I realize that in order for the World in which I live to get to a point of assistance and support for all life to have an optimum and harmonious balance of work and play requires a tremendous amount of work.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to let go of leisurely pursuits so that I can take on more Working responsibilities.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding the opportunity that exists for me to Work as a Leader within the Wold System.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having the attitude that I don't really want the responsibility of having to work very much and that I would rather focus on having free time for myself to be playing and learning how to play better.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having a procrastination attitude towards Work and within this directly comparing Work to Play...as like Work being of less value to me than Play time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being apprehensive about creating Work for myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having a preference for only engaging myself within Work that doesn't really seem like Work and could be definitely be regarded as Play.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having judgment about myself as being selfish from the perspective of only really regarding myself and no other life within not wanting to Work and and Wanting to Play as much as Possible.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that even looking at this point of creating more Work and Responsibility for myself is stupid...and like why would anyone want to create more work for themselves.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for dismissing the need for me to be a Working Professional within the World System and that I do not really require to be educated within the various professional fields of study because there is already so many professionals working within the various fields of study...and thus there is already, seemingly more than enough people Working.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for when I was a child, creating this idea about not really needing to contribute to society because there is already so many people contributing to the way society functions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for abdicating my self-responsibility for the ways in which I function/participate within society.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for logically reasoning as a child that I do not require to involve myself within a position of importance or significance within society because there is already so many people looking after these positions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having some shame and judgement about acknowledging my resistances to taking on Work and dedicating myself to laboring the facilitation of great change within Our World System that is best for all Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not pushing myself as hard as I am physically able to push myself within Laboring great change within the Word System.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist as a sort of outcast in the word system from the perspective of deliberately minimizing my Work/Labor within the world system.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to take responsibility for the World System that I participate within.


To Be Continued

Day 654 Forgiveness and Surprise

It's always interesting to see what can open up and develop when we utilize our potential .



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having neglected to to face problematic issues in moments because the outcome of such a situation is not certain.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the irony within fearing uncertainty. I see/realize and understand how ridiculous it is to accept and allowed uncertainty to exist as an excuse/reason/justification for non action within creating/developing solutions that are best for all.

I see, realize and understand how adjustments are often made to solutions as the process implementation of solutions/corrections is walked and that initial solutions/self-corrections are not necessarily concrete as the effective implementation of solutions/corrections is a process within space and time like that of concrete/cement which takes time to settle and dry once it's been positioned.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the surprises that often come out of and as a result of taking responsibility for situations of conflict...meaning, that when and as I see there is an opportunity for me to direct a situation of conflict, this in many instances is a cool point of support and assistance that is able to develop and evolve.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having neglected to face every instance of conflict that exists within my mind. I see/realize/understand how allowing a conflict to remain within my mind without immediate direction and response when I in fact see the scope of the situation...is in fact irresponsible.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting immediate responsibility for my thoughts/feelings/emotions in every moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the constant and consistent application of self-responsibility required in working through the depths of my mind.

I see, realize and understand that self-forgiveness is not really effective from the starting point of giving in order to get....even though that as you give to yourself you get to receive....which is really like a bonus in fact....because I see, realize, and understand that self-forgiveness is an actual self-expression we give/create for ourself here because it is a vital necessity within walking the process journey to Life as All as One as Equal.  Self-forgiveness is Self-Responsibility.  Self-Responsibility is Self-Expression. Self-Expression is Self-forgiveness. Sharing is Caring.

I commit myself to Sharing and Caring about myself as All Life Here.

I commit myself to perfecting my ability to live self-responsibilities.

I commit myself to practical living self-responsibility as who/how/why I am here.

I commit myself to daily self-reflection as a learning tool.

When and as I see myself resisting to look at a point, I stop and breathe...I see that this resistance that is coming up within me is actually like an alarm and siren going off within me as like a totally clear indicator that I have a situation within myself that requires and needs immediate attention and direction. I therefore take immediate responsibility for the resistance in the moment and create the solution to the problem/resistance. I see, realize and understand that obviously it is important to always take care when walking/working with resistance and that it is not in fact responsible to create unnecessary risk for individual well being and safety as a point of facing resistance. I see/realize/understand the practicality and common sense applications within working/walking through resistances.