Day 723 - When and As I See Myself

When and as I see myself competing with myself as like being split within points of perspective as like having an energy within one direction and also an energy within another direction, I stop and breathe, I see realize and understand the friction that is done onto myself as like an unnecessary heating up within myself that is not really practical and best for my optimum physiology here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being negligent of all the things I see in which I participate within that are not cool as various moments of thought, word and deed.

When and as I see myself resisting to embrace a point/moment here, I stop and breathe, I realize that this resistance towards directing the moment in an optimum way as what is best...is the pivot point so to speak...because this is moment of truth as how I make my vote....as...a vote for what's best for Life...or something less. I commit myself to living the vote for life as what is best for life. I realize that what I have come to accept and allow in many instances is less than what is in fact best for life. I realize it is counterproductive to allow myself to get hung up about my misfortunes...and that in fact by facing all point of myself I turn my weaknesses into strengths....and within this I see and realize how these moments and acceptances and allowances of misfortune can be leverage to assist and support my overall Life fortune here as It is a most definite fortunate thing to take responsibility for my very own misfortune. I realize as I am more and more proficient in sorting through my very own misfortune....the opportunity presents itself as like a renewal point of farming here, where I have the opportunity to give as I would like to receive...and within this, obviously I live to give, as the caring and sharing I am capable of giving because I have first proven the point to be well planted in myself as the seeded solution that has grown into fruition as I embrace myself as the fruits of my own labor.

I commit myself to sharing the fruits of my labor.

I realize and understand that sharing the fruits of our labor is an enormous point of responsibility within consideration and regard for Life as what is best for Life.

When and as I see myself going into a reaction about temperature, I stop and breathe, I see realize and understand myself here as temperature. I realize and understand there is a whole spectrum of temperature. I commit myself to fine tuning my applications of working with various relationship dynamics of myself here.

When and as I see myself reacting to the word Cold, I stop and breathe, I see realize and understand that I am one and equal with the word cold...and to react to myself is in fact a silly way to exist...as a most ridiculously unfortunate experience really.  I commit myself to stopping the war/conflict within myself as a friction to moment of facing/encountering myself here on an external level as words. I realize and understand my self-responsibility here as living words. I commit myself to self-perfection within and as the usage of living words. I commit myself to remediating the misfortunes I have created through incorrect usages of words and the specific associations to words that were out of structural alignment with and as what is in fact best for me as a presentation of all Life here.

I commit myself to letting go of positive energetic reactions in regards to the word Cool.

When and as I see myself creating a buzz within myself as the word cool from the perspective of leveraging a point of dissonance within myself to induce an artificial high, I stop and breathe, I see realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of choosing to play out the reactionary tale of going along for the accepted and allowed ride of Positive energy possession. I see, realize and understand that it is less than what is best to perpetuate oneself existing in positive energy...as I see realize and understand that the positive energy reactionary playout is the unfortunate consequence of so much accepted and allowed shit/waste to exist within and as my potential here.  I commit myself to the exercising of my potential here as the process in expanding the possibilities of my potential here.


To be continued

Day 705 - Knee Injury and the Inner Jury

This is an introductory post into what will be a series of writing's about myself in relationship to a most recent knee injury I have suffered.

A few points I would like to make note of here that will be focus topic areas of investigation:



Looking at the word Injury...and Inner Jury....and the Inner Journey required as self-reflection upon the build up of acceptances and allowances.


The vocabulary of the knee. There is much vocabulary about the knee that is somewhat foreign to me from the perspective of not being well versed in the specific words/parts of the Knee and Knee area.


Looking more closely at the functioning of the knee as a whole and as the make up of all the individual parts.


The Knee and Structural Resonance Alignment. What does the knee signify in relationship to the Mind...specifically the consequence of an accumulation of energy as Mind Consciousness Systems.


Healing my Knee with Self-forgiveness and Self-responsibility.

Note: I have looked at the structural resonance documents on more than one occasion and my self-forgiveness will be supported directly by the support and assistance I have received within reading the documents. See the link here for specific document in regards to the knee.

I will begin here at the end and work with the beginning in taking care of all points of consideration that require attention. Beginning with a general opening of self-forgiveness as the initial support and assistance recognition to allow the aid in and as my self-corrective process.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the "inner jury" within and as an Injury.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the consequences of unnecessary physical body suffering as a result of accumulated memories within myself from the starting point of feelings and or emotions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding the impact of holding onto the memories of the past within my body with the particular charges of emotion and or feeling.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for nor realizing and understanding how in fact memories can in fact crystallize in the body as an accumulation of accepted and allowed energetic possession that kind of like leaches off of the physical body.

I  forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking the value of my knee for granted.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking the totality of my physical body for granted.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting to a point of regard as a result of unfortunate consequence.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being responsible for injuring me knee.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for hurting myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being insincere with the practical living daily regard for my physical body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to abuse my physical body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding all the parts of my knee and how all the parts of my knee relate to all the rest of the parts of my physical body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being inconsiderate and believing myself to have too many physical body parts to be able to in fact regard and consider all my parts.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having thought about regarding all my body parts from the perspective of getting to know all the names of the physical body parts...but to within this regard,  have a reaction of doubt and of the thought/thinking that it is not possible for me to get familiar with the vocabulary of all my body parts...or that it's not practical....even if I would like to know all the vocabulary of which I am made of.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that it is just too difficult for me to be aware of all my body parts.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for dismissing making the effort to get to know all my body parts because there is so many body parts I have taken for granted within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking the physical body for granted.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that my physical body is just to complicated to really know and understand absolutely.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for making excuses as to why it is not likely that I can know and understand myself completely here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be impaired by vocabulary.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting the patients required to integrate and develop vocabulary that I am not familiar with.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not really know and understand myself/physical body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having the idea and attitude that it's just kind of impossible to really know and understand everything about the human physical body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying and distracting myself with excuses as to why I do not need to work as much as I am able to on a daily basis in getting to know my physical body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting daily regard, appreciation, gratitude and consideration for my physical body.l

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to specifically know and understand the totality of my physical body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing the self-intimacy required in actually getting to know my whole physical body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating conflict with my body as a result of how I am participating within my mind.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to mistreat my body as a result of not taking self-responsibility for my mind.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not taking self-responsibility for my body with the support and assistance of my mind.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to mistreat my mind as a result of not taking self-responsibility for my body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to disregard myself with a mind and body that require regard and consideration equal and one as what is best for all Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding what regard and consideration for Everything as Oneness and Equality in fact means.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding the physicality of words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to self-correct my misuse of words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the physical self-direction as living actions within as the words as sound here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having conflict within belief about what is possible within and as the Living Words Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for polarizing potential with disbelief, as like making sense out of non sense.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the irrationality within arguing/disagreeing with myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the impact of having even just one point out of physical alignment as Oneness and Equality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how consequences are perpetuated as the fear of more consequences existing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating hardship for myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being negligently unaware and dare I say oblivious to the stress and strain I have done onto my physical body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for struggling with the living of specific regard.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding things within being lazy as like not wanting to live the patience required to investigate the detailed specifics of a point.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for glossing over specific points.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having a prefference for generalizing information as opposed to being specialized in detail as like really specific with information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that it is better to be more specific with information than it is to be less specific with information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to compare and contrast the point of generalizing information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting the patience required to see the detailed specifics of all things here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for glossing over the detailed specifics with regards to the specialized vocabulary about the knee parts in and around the knee as that which contributes to the knee existing here as the knee.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being lazy with language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that I do not require to be a specialized authority of words as the authority of knowing myself here because there exists so many different kind of doctors that specialize in different sections/parts/areas of expertise...and since most people are not master specialists of themselves as like know it alls....why should I be one?

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for dismissing self-responsibility for myself here as the physical authority of myself here. I forgive myself for justifying a lack of accountability for self-actualization of myself here. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for making sense of not taking self-responsibility for the authority of knowing myself here because there exists so many different kinds of specialists here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that I am not required to be an authority here because there already exists so many different types of authority figures here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having created an idea of myself as being anti-authority....and I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding the absurd ridiculousness of such a notion as like creating a fight with myself internally that is perceived externally within other types of authority here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for dismissing the practical possibilities of self-actualization as self-authorization here. Meaning, that self-responsibility is a knowing how to physically direction one self here as all as equals.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand the complications that are created within and as the acceptance and allowance of inequality..,,and that accountability and consideration is much easier to process from the starting point of equality and oneness together here as what is best for all Life.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to write myself free everyday.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding the consequences of passing up even just one opportunity to write.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the motivation within and as self-forgiveness from and as the perspective of fostering and facilitating the development of new growth...as like creating something that wasnt here before....as like a new opportunity is born.

Day 699 - Discipline

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have mixed emotions/feelings about "discipline"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating a friction about Discipline from the perspective where I crave/desire discipline and at the same time I resist and revolt against discipline.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating uncertainty within my daily responsibilities as a result of and as my relationship within and as the point of Discipline.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself fore resisting to actually purify my relationship and expression within and as the living embodiment of Discipline as I see is in fact best for Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to suppress myself as the living full potential of and as the word Discipline.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create contradictions within myself as the word embodiment of Discipline.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the paramount importance of and as the purity of each living word definition within myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to exercise the living of and as Discipline within and as my decisions/movements here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to forego disciplined principles in and as my applications for preferred preferences.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to stay committed and determined to stick with a particular discipline as a point of purpose in and as my day to day living.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not even considering the practical living support in making a decision as to enact a practical living purpose for my life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how giving myself a practical living purpose can in fact support the development and effectiveness within and as myself as embodiment of Discipline here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating conflict about discipline to such an extent that I created conflict for my life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the irony within and as reactionary and conflicted word relations.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how reactionary and conflicted word relationships reveal to me points of accepted and allowed suppression in my overall character potential ability here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting the daily discipline of being specific within and as my word investigations as like my daily barometer in and as the purification of myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for realizing and understanding the quality of my life here exists within and as my effectiveness with my words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how my relationship within and as Discipline ties into and as the quality of my life here as my effectiveness with my vocabulary here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding my vocabulary to exist as like nutrients of self-support.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not really considering or being systematically diligent in  and as daily investigating the extent of and as my word relationships.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for make believing that my word relationships are all good.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing the Discipline required to practically live for real.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have in fact feared the practical living of Discipline....and the irony within this as the absurd ridiculousness because I have perpetuated that which I in fact would not like to experience.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the specification of our world as our words we know...as specifically as how we have accepted and allowed our words and world to exist.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to examine the negativity within and as my word acceptances and allowances as the emotion that exists within my body about particular words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to investigate the positivity within and as my word acceptances and allowances as feelings that exist within my body about particular words because they feel good.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing the investigation of and as the positive and negative word associations that I have accepted and allowed within and as my mind/body/being relationship here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the change of our mind/body/being exists within and as our word relations....as it is in fact our word relationships that shape this world relationship...and it is therefore our sound signature in and as what is we accept and allow to exist here...as like our resonant signature and vote of what is and is not acceptable.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to be a standing example of and as what is best for all Life in all ways.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for suppressing my spoken/written/living word potential.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the absurd ridiculousness of suppressing my spoken/written/living word potential.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding the tremendous amount of support that opens of as a result of and as the investigation and purification process of One word.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for coping with words that have been devoid of optimum value and nutritional sustenance.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for limiting the assistance and support within and as my word relations.


I commit myself to the purification of my word relationships.

I commit myself to living the purification of my word relationships.

I commit myself to the support and assistance within and as the purification of word relationships.

I commit myself to live the embodiment of practical living word relationships as the epitome of self-living support and assistance as what is in fact best for Life.

I commit myself to share words of support and assistance.

I commit myself to assist and support others to practically live words effectively.

I commit myself to the embodiment of living words.

I commit myself to giving myself purpose within and as the sharing of words here as solutions that can assist and support others to gift themselves access to the development and enactment of untapped potential creation here.

Day 690 - What's Best for All: Guiding Me in Thought, Word and Deed

2. Living by the principle of what is best for all - guiding me in thought, word and deed to always in all ways direct problems to the best possible outcome for all. (The Desteni of Living - Declaration of Principles)

This is such a simple point...yet, what I noticed is that it is a point that I had neglected in many instances...because this very attitude and outlook was in direct conflict with my emotional disposition. My thoughts words and deeds did not actually exist in alignment with such a principle.

Regarding such a simplistic, common sense point is cool self-support. My life has changed as a result. Or is it more that I am opening myself up as Life here for real. To actually really live and regard myself and all Life here. 

I would say this is a point that is a work in progress for me as I am playing and working with the point here. I say a work in progress because everyday I am tested in my application of myself here...and I say I am tested, because I face movement within my mind as energetic reactions...where I require to take a split second and actually discern what is in fact best for all...it's not completely automatic...I am substantiating my consistency here as I create myself here as a Living Solution that is best for all.

What is fascinating about this substantiating of my consistency as I create myself here as a Living Solution that is best for all....Is, the fact that I am working my way through the questions that exist within myself...and I am doing this by playing with the answers that I see are best...now here I say is a play...and the work is in the question....because I am a student of my mind at this point...as like I am learning to understand the capacity and potential of my mind...and so I find myself here working and playing as like a complimentary relationship within and as the interconnectedness of questions and answers. The funny thing is, I realize and understand myself as the solution here which is like the trinity of and as "the question, the answer and the solution".  However, I see that I am in the process of self-perfection because I committed to working and playing with my application of What's Best for All.

I very much enjoy the process of working and playing with my self-development here. 

What I find very interesting is how much appreciation I have for playing and working with very basic simplistic points of application.

I see and realize profound greatness to exist within and as mastery of very basic simplistic points of application.

Taking on the point of what's Best for All, is a question, answer in and of itself.

I have realized this,
I am enjoying this,
I am perfecting this,
I am here as this.

What I find interesting is that I am so committed to the basics that I am so content in remaining within and as a constant working and playing here.

As a result of standing within and as the question the answer and the solution..."What's Best for All"

I have developed a level of regard for myself and other's I previously was not familiar with.

I am committed to Living by the principle of What is Best for All - Guiding me in thought, word and deed to always in all ways direct problems to the best possible outcome.



A few notes of interest I would like to jot down here:

Everyone is a problem solver.
Everyone is a Creator.
We create through and as our Questions.
Our problems are the first point in the creation process...because this is where direction and initiative takes form.
By regarding the questions/problems that exist we open up the second phase of our creation process which is in and as the answers...which is a cool work and play with our creativity here. 
See our answers here can be physically substantiated as solutions....solutions being the physical building phase of creation.
Commitment is paramount within the creation process.
Commitment exists in many important ways. Specifically what I would like to bring attention to is the "regard" in relationship to commitment. Commitment is like the substantiating of regard...or if you will, regard is the substantiating of commitment. Commitment within the context of principle here....as, What's best for All.

To Be Continued