Day 788 - Attitude

The Tune of where You are at.  It's like a status update. Attitude in it's fullest sense is a complete range of expressions....from high to low in octave...or the other way round....or any other which way for that matter.  From pleasant to scary to everything else in between.

The Gratitude of Attitude is to live Great your Attitude.  What does this in fact mean?  It means simply,  to own it.....because guess what, You are It.  Tag, each is always it....whether you like it or not.  And in the recognition of realizing that sometimes you will not like things, it is more than OK to express that disgust in a moment.  In fact it is a reality check into one's own self-honesty....a genuine point of self-intimacy.

A point of attention here is the culture of minimizing and perpetuating conflict....where it's like people love to hate conflict...yet perpetuate conflict as a means of trying to minimize it....as like,  'just let me drop the last bomb and then I'll stop'.  So much so this has become the narrative within our Words to each other, as so much so, This is a reflection of our inner narrative expressed externally.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to take Conflict personally as an act of War where I either go into Defense or Offense.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to marginalize Attitude.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to disregard myself as Attitude.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to limit myself within and as a Positive Attitude.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to resist a Negative Attitude.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to manipulate my Best Words as a result of being possessed within and as a Positive Attitude.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to Fear a Bad Attitude.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to take a Bad Attitude personally.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to Separate myself from the totality of Attitude.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to control my Attitude...and to Fear my Attitude getting out of control if I let go of Control over my Attitude.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to Inferiorize myself within Control of Myself.

Let's Look at that last sentence here again:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to inferiorize myself within Control of Myself.

How am  I controlling myself....my attitude? Fear.  
How So? Conditioning my attitude to my wants based upon my desires which are rooted in the fact that I have knots within myself...as the things i don't want to experience as myself here...and so enter in the attitude and overall nature of Control.

I see Attitude as like the Weather, our Expression through our body from moment to moment as Our Stand here.  It is a point of Self-Confidence and Individuality. Someone who is a Self-Confident Individual, does not fear the Expression of themselves here.  This is where the enjoyment in sharing comes in.  I mean really have a look at what prevents the living of Attitude.  It is the Fear in and as Vulnerability.  Why?  Because you are exposed completely. Who, how and what you are in a moment is Here.  It is the Judgement we have conditioned to our Structured Sentencing that Fucks Ourselves into Oblivion, Because our Words have been abused like Codes we haven't taken the time to fully understand or realize.  Consequently resulting in and perpetuating our own Bullshit and a Greater World of Bullshit.  How can this Be?  It's because of our capacity to be Deceptive. We've dressed up and hidden our own Bullshit to such an extent that we Gloss over it and Misinterpret Ourselves and Others as a Result of Our Own Hiding and Fearing the Brutality of our very worst Disguise. Ironically, here lies the Design of Demise.

Day 775 - In Fear You're It

 




Inferiority - In fear you are it. You are it in fear. Inferior I tied to the why of the fear I fear. Inferior it is why. A less than experience and acceptance and allowance.  Often masked and projected externally as superiority.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize how I have existed as the Inferiority character construction within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not even believe it possible that I could exist within and as the point of Inferiority.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear my very own inferiority.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hide and deny acknowledging points/moments/reactions within and as Inferiority.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to regard inferiority as such a bad thing, like one of the worst things a person could be.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that inferiority is a choice and a decision so much so and that if you are ever faced within and as the point of inferiority, you should hide it by presenting a false front, lie and deny it, as a way to not accept it within yourself.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realizes how I created coping defense mechanisms within my mind as ways to 'survive' within and as the moments of inferiority. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing how recognition of moments of inferiority is a great point of strength in seeing how and where you are not measuring up to par within and as a point/application/ability.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having made inferiority a perpetuated weakness within myself, by being afraid to admit points of inadequacy within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to regard inferiority as wrong.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to understand and really know inferiority.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating a preference towards hiding from my inferiority within and as the outward projection of superiority.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to compound the existence of inferiority within myself as a result of believing myself to be high, mighty and powerful within the character reaction of superiority.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create abuse within myself internally and externally as a result of fearing to face myself within the full spectrum of polarized characterizations.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing how I constructed a primary character throughout my life as Inferiority who reacts in fear and projects superiority as a coverup job and operation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to live a lie as my very own self-deception and self-manipulation as the reactionary inferiority character that created and energetic addiction towards channeling a high and might experience within myself as my energetic release for the built of layers of shit that I would compound within myself as my mind activity here in defense and conflict with myself and world as everyone here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing the extent and scope to which I created clever coping mechanisms to induce a positive energy high experience and escape for myself as a result of fearing to get real with myself and acknowledge/face/know/understand my weakness as Inferiority and Inadequacy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to associate vulnerability and sensitivity to being undesirable forms of weakness connected to inferiority and that it is my choice to disregard and deny the reality of these words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to construct myself in and as inferiority.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for suppressing my potential as a result of fearing to get real.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be on the run from myself...as like constantly being on the move within fear as my accepted and allowed mind.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating all sort of beautiful words and ideas and concepts as various ways of my word patterned communications to perpetuate a false front....a false flag operation..a lie, a veil, a misrepresentation of the actuality of what I am accepting and allowing within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have thought that is what you are suppose to do with points of inferiority and any other sort of weakness that comes up within one's mind and body experience here...as to make something up that you like better.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realizing and understanding how to substantiate my vocabulary effectively as a structurally sound foundation within myself, as the words existing within me here in and as equality and oneness, from the perspective that words are innocent and do not require me to make up charges held against the words as them being polarized within the scope of positive, neutral and negative energies.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to support a world of impotence, as a sort of powerlessness that is governed and controlled, ruled through and as my accepted and allowed fear...a sort of self-inflicted spitefulness as the lack of understanding of what Inferiority in fact means.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding the sense of irony existed within and as word and world relationships here, within and as our oneness and equality, as that is the one point always here...our oneness and equality...and the irony of course is within and as our self-definition as how we imprison our very cells here at a resonant level as the scope of the entirety of ourselves as all of existence within and as our sound.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize that my potential to exist here as sound, has been suppressed, that I have been existing here within and as a sort of noise, a derivative of sound, a less than experience...the epitome of inferiority...rooted in and as self-abuse, being in conflict with myself and not even realizing how I am in fact perpetuating and prolonging a war within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize the propaganda I would create in and as various forms of reaction/fear of myself being here within and as a point of reaction....where I would then create a disinformation agenda to quickly move into another character to hide the scope of the truth of myself, which has been the very initial reaction/fear within myself, as fear it self.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear fear itself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create a battle/conflict of epic proportions with Fear...believing Fear to be the ultimate enemy and point of separation that I must fight against as the very quick moving reactionary defense systems within my mind.  I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how extensively I have been on the attack and the defense at the same time...the complete reflection of and as the military war machine here in all ways, penetrating the totality of my existence here.


When and as I see myself reacting in Inferiority/inadequacy, I stop and breathe, I take a moment to correctly identify the specifics of my reactionary defense/weakness.  I realize this is a weakness that requires specific self-correction because it is being revealed to me in my mind as a form of military defense and offense upon myself and all of existence here.  I realize it is my self-responsibility to come to terms within myself as a removing myself from the field of battle, where I release myself from participation within and as the enemy construct here. I see, realize and understand the solution of myself here at peace with all of existence as a point of agreement within and as my word relationships here, where I in fact am at ease with my word and world relationships here, where I mean no offense or defense.  I commit myself to the process of settling the terms of negotiation within myself as the vocabulary that exists within myself as a form of energetic dissonance.  I realize and understand the process of self-transformation as the self-direction of my existence within and as energetic information, to that of physical sound substance here as the physical universe here.  I realize, understand, and know the process of status correction here to be a labored physical process of nurturing myself back together again, from disharmony and disease to harmony here as the sound of music at ease.  I realize the substance of self-expression here is in fact our sound.  I commit myself to birthing myself as sound/life here.

Day 735 - Self-Forgiveness

Self-forgiveness is a Profound tool of and as creation here. It's the epitome of self-actualization. A noble application. A mark of greatness, compassion, consideration and the highest regard. The greatest gift really.

Let me explain.

All Life, is Self-Forgiveness.


What?


Where is the Life?


If all Life is Self-Forgiveness....what the fuck is going on?


Humans are running a muck in the what the fuck fear control and scare tactic programming that prevents the living actualization of Self-Forgiveness Integration.

The interesting thing here is that We Got it to Give.

The interesting thing is that typically our shared world reflects that we have been conditioned to not want to Give...even though we got it to give. There is a lot of irony within this reflection....

Lets look at Money for a moment as a reflection of human reflection on the understanding and realization of self-forgiveness. If you look at all the money in the world and each countries expenses and the standard of living and quality of life of all people here....it is easy to see that as a whole, the world is in Debt.  What is debt really but the charges against Life...the burden as like how things have been overdrawn....as like making laws on top of laws that perpetuate a dissonance that is a sort of self-perpetuating motion.

Obviously Debt Forgiveness is a real thing. Obviously the starting point regard for Money can change from that being of debt/slavery/suffering/overdrawn....to, Life excellence in the best of possible ways always all ways...with, an emphasis on creative potential development and encouragement as the what we got to give contribution that perpetuates itself as a constant fine tuning of a fine design that is complimentary in and as the greatest regard for Life as All Existence Here. A caring is sharing if you will....

Lets look at Self-Forgiveness....Why Self-Forgiveness? what's the deal with Self? who is Self? How many Selves are there here? Notice any sound similarity to Cells within and as the Selves? Is their Life potential always all ways within and as the various Selves? Does the starting point of any and all Selves originate from and as the same source of Self Here?  Is Self Everything?  How many reflections of Everything are there? Is that a specific number? Would it be easy for the practicality of Life regard to reflect the total number of Everything back to number One? All as One?  All is One? One and Equal? Oneness....One nest and Equal It Why?  Equal I's Here as Everything is I?  But Why?  Why Not?

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the canvass of self acceptances and allowances that are less than what is best for all life here, represent the debt we are accepting and allowing here as our self-defined canvass being as overdrawn...and it is in fact our very own self-responsibility to Forgive the debt that we have created within ourselves as the markings that have been overdrawn on our canvass here as the think in which we think that has stained our accountability to the practicality in living as Self-Responsibility.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and and understanding the tax system relationship here and self-forgiveness as like a parallel reflection of human regard/disregard for and as our actual Life and the Lives of each One here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding myself as a Life accountant so to speak as like each word being a sound foundation in sewing the regard necessary in and as the garden which is our planet we in fact are plants on planning the ways in which we grow and spread ourselves out over space and time as a result of and as the sewing seeds as the sound foundation which reflects our networking communications here as our place here within and as the community which is Our Self Here in the Garden/Heaven which begins within and as our Self/Life as our very substance and creation here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for at times deviating away from the profound simplicity in and as the magnificence of seeing and looking at the principle starting point law of Creation as, "Oneness and Equality"

I commit myself to the starting point law of Creation as "Oneness and Equality"

I commit myself to share the simplicity within as as the garden of Oneness and Equality.

I commit myself to substantiating myself here within and as the Garden of Oneness and Equality Here.

Day 720 - Income Tax

I think Income Tax is total fucking bullshit.  From my perspective it is a total scam.  This blog here today is not an investigation of the law in which exists in regards to Income Tax.  This blog here today is in regards to the emotions I have accepted and allowed to exist as a Reaction to Income Tax.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get angry about "Income Tax".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for projecting blame in regards to the existence of "Income Tax".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting frustrated about "Income Tax".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting emotionally frustrated with people who believe "Income Tax" makes sense.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to experience myself as being victimized by "Income Tax".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being self-righteous in regard to "Income Tax".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being impatient within communicating with others about "Income Tax".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking offense to people who do not give a shit about "Income Tax" and just pay somebody to take care of it for them.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that "Income Tax" is total fucking bullshit.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking "Income Tax" is a scam.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding that forgiving myself for something doesn't make the point more or less true but in fact it is a point of self-responsibility in removing the dissonance between oneself and the point. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to let go of the negative energy within myself in regards to Income Tax.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having created difficulty for myself in releasing the negative energy associated with things that are negative.  Within this, I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that if I were to get rid of the negative energy about such points than perhaps the point would be mistakenly disregards as not negative anymore.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for conditioning myself to think and see in and as reactions where it's like I have become accustomed to associate a positive or negative energetic value with the words/things I see.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing making mistakes as a result of releasing myself from negative or positive energetic possession.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding the absurd ridiculousness of fearing to let go of the positive/negative energy experience/reaction to things in this world because then things would no longer be the same. Within this, I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have been fearing change.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to change energetic relationships out of fear that I don't know what will come of them and to a certain extent all I have ever known is relationships from the starting point of reaction as energetic experience.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I allowed the words "income tax" to exist as negative energy triggers within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for placing myself in conflict with the words "income tax".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the absurd ridiculousness of placing myself in and as a war of words....where I am in a state of flux with regards to words as either a positive or negative or neutral reaction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for defining reaction to exist as something that is bad that is negatively charged, even though reactions can be positive energy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having a neutral energetic reaction towards "Income"...and I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having a negative energetic reaction towards "tax".


To Be Continued

Day 687 - Natural Learning Abilities

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding nor really considering that it is possible that I have tremendous natural learning abilities that I have not in fact yet developed.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that my natural learning abilities appear and come naturally without any effort on my part.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing there to be special talents in this world that are beyond my ability to comprehend.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that I exist within and as limited comprehension towards and as the potential to understand and realize everything here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for finding it difficult to process information beyond a conscious level of programming.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing the self-trust that is required in existing in awareness beyond consciousness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that I am separate from all the information that exists here in the universe.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that to understand and realize all the information that exists....that I must primarily look and understand everything that exists outside of myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and considering the fact that everything that exists outside of myself also in fact exists inside myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not really taking the time to question my potential abilities to excel in various capacities in a plethora of areas and abilities.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for blindly trusting in others information as being the source codes of authority...and therfore within taking such an approach....placing myself as less then the information of others that I believe to be beyond my comprehension.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing it possible for information to exist infinitely beyond my comprehension.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to intimately acquaint myself with my unlimited access to information here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not really taking the time to question my potential by looking within the depths of myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for sometimes trusting in others more than I am williing to trust within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the ridiculous absurdity of placing my self-trust outside of myself...as like being separate from inside myself....I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for separating myself from others here...and within that creating a dissonance in self-trust relationship here,

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that my access to communicating and relating to all things here is mostly restricted and is not in fact possible.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for regarding all Life that is not human as like a sort of inferior life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding I how restricted my communication access to all life here as a result of believing myself to be superior to all other sorts of life here...as a result of my inherent design programming.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking on common beliefs and perceptions about my reality as absolute truths...without actually really investigating such points for myself....but within this...just kind of copying and mimicking the basic general perceptions about how in fact existence is here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have been careless in creating beliefs/perceptions about how life in fact exists.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to explore the depths of my abilities.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for becoming some what complacent within my beliefs and general accepted and allowed programming/conditioning.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to be an actual real living individual here on this planet as a being that really, critically thinks and speaks for oneself from the starting point of and as the regard for what is best for all life...as the realization and understanding that what is best for all Life...includes myself within and as the best equation....programming.....creation here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for blindly agreeing with people just for the sake of agreeing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding my magnificent teaching abilities....and that I am in fact, first and foremost a student of myself here....as like my relationship and agreement to myself here exists as both a teacher and a student....and that I have in fact a profound ability to educate and inform myself through and as the process of self-investigation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that only some people are in fact able to develop....or have the girt of a photographic memory.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not really questioning my ability to utilize my mind for maximum benefit and ability.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not really investigating my mind....specifically my mind existing here as a physical thing....which is a vastly profound technology that I am able to play and work with in and as my creative expression of myself here to the benefit of and as what is best for Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for dismissing most amazing abilities and potential as a resulting form of justification and excuse....because most people are not exercising such marvelously tremendous abilities.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying many things as impossible because I am not currently able to excel within these particular point effectively at the moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating a sub-servant relationship towards information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to perceive myself as less than information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the practicality of standing equal with all information existing here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating particular dissonances within myself in regards to various types of information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for complicating the realization of myself within and as my relationship with "Information"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing information that I am not consciously well versed within...as like having committed many hours to consciously verbalizing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that to become a professional within any particular area of study must take at least 10 000 hours.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not really utilizing and applying the realization that within knowing how to do any particular thing extraordinarily well....that knowing and ability can in fact be related into any and all areas as a way to accelerate self-mastery in other less play/worked with points...and that the potential for self-master...development...skill is really rather quite limitless.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding my learning potential exists within and as my relationship with my self here....and that extends to all parts of myself here....as like all of my cells....all of everything here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to explore various pathways of potential connections.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how profound our capacity to learn is in fact....and that we are in fact able to make profound and magnificent connections from all sorts of points...words...things...as like everything is relative here...and all ways all ways...the support is here...in and as everything here.

When and as I see myself being dismissive of being able to in fact learn how to be effective within a point, I stop and breathe, I check myself before I perpetuate a suppression of myself....I realize and understand I have tremendous capabilities and a strong ability to learn and and expand my ability. I commit myself to stop creating limitations on my learning potential.

I commit myself to developing my natural learning potential.

I commit myself to exploring my natural learning ability.

I commit myself to questioning the possibilities of myself here.

I commit myself to playing and working with my potential abilities/skills here.

I commit myself to to work and play with the sharing of my realizations here.

I commit myself to my utmost potential.

I commit myself to learning from the starting point of work and play.

I commit myself to allowing myself to enjoy my work and my play.

I commit myself to self-enjoyment here.

I commit myself to challenge myself in expanding my abilities and skills.

I commit myself to the regard as what is best for all life is in fact best for me.

I commit myself to substantiate myself as One and Equal with all Life here.

I commit myself to stand one and equal with all information here.

I commit myself to work and play with Information in all ways best for all Life here.

I commit myself to working and playing with my creative self-expression within and as the structured and unstructured use of information here.

I commit myself to self-trust.

I realize self-trust is paramount in and as my natural learning abilities.

I commit myself to my natural learning abilities.

I commit myself to developing....working and playing with my photographic memory potential.

I commit myself to assisting and supporting the advent of profound education in and as the  development and expression of awesome living potential.

Day 608 Self-Movement

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for restricting/resisting myself-movement here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understand my ability to move myself here is somewhat reflective in and as my relationship to words as like how I accept and allow words to exist within me. I see/realize/understand myself movement here in and as moments of self-expression as being a self-reflection and presentation of how I accept and allow myself to live words. What I find interesting about the living of words is the fact that the words are alive within myself as like all the words are all ready in place and basically from moment to moment I am able to direct the flow of my words as like a musical conductor directing the orchestra.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting to be self-disciplined and self-diligent within my daily investigation of and as the nature of word relationships within myself. I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how my words are like musical notes and instruments that are specific in physical structure/being/sound...which is much like musical instruments in for example an orchestra...and the correlation I am connecting here is that if an instrument is not tuned properly it will be out of sync as like existing within and as suppressed ability to perform and function at its full potential. So, I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the profound impact words have on my ability to perform and function within and as my self-movement/self-expression here. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for suppressing my Life potential within and as the living words. I see/realize/understand I am best able to express myself when and as I immediately self-correct a missed tuned word...as like a word that i need exists within and as a particular resonating disharmony.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having not realized and understood my profound ability to tune/program/deprogram myself here within and as a self-reflection of and as my word relationships. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand how my words impact and influence my world. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how my world as how I see is a result of my words as how I have accepted and allowed myself to exist in relationship to words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting to gift myself with the orchestration of specific plans on a daily basis as a way to prevent myself from being less than effective. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for giving myself the option/choice to cancel out on my orchestra of specifically detailed plans.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding myself here as the conductor of and as the orchestra/symphony/self-movement within and as the self-realization of myself here as a 'show and tell'.

When and as I see myself resisting to follow through with a plan, I stop and breathe, I say I am here, I look and see the points of practicality, I see/realize and understand the sound support within making and living decisions from and as a starting point of practicality.I commit myself to sound practicality.

When and as I see myself just kind of going through the motions of my emotions within a particular situation...which is the result of how I relate my words to my participation here, I stop and breathe, I say I am here, I self-correct the emotional experience/relationship/attachment, I direct myself to play with what I say...as I see/realize/understand myself to be playing/making music as I communicate myself verbally.

When and as I see myself having a thought/judgement/justification that just seemingly randomly pops up within my mind, I stop and breathe, I say I am here, I commit myself to purifying the nature of and as my words. I commit myself to investigating the extent of the nature of and as my words.

I commit myself to understanding practical living words as a point of and as self movement.

Day 595 Mourning Morning!

So,

Mourning sounds like Morning.

Mourning is what people typically do when someone they like/love dies.

Is it possible every time you wake up from sleeping, You die a little bit more?

I've heard it said that sleep is the cousin of death.

Interesting how many many many people are challenged by the waking up in the morning point.

Interesting how the word relationship to Morning may be be impacting how the practical living of the word Morning is put into application. It's like if a word exists within ourselves with a particular programmed behaviour condition/reaction/energy that can result in us not realizing and understanding why some things are so seemingly difficult.

The word "Morning" is a word I have not taken the time to really investigate and play with for myself within and as a point of self-in-to-me-I-see...hehehe....self-intimacy!

So,

As part of my playing around with the Morning I am taking it upon myself to begin my writing exploration and self-forgiveness process/applications...and self-corrections in the morning as a way of playing with me here in the Morning.

So,

More Ning!




To be continued

Day 577 Positive Voice Tonalities Self-Correction

Continuing from my previous blog entries within the blog series "positive voice tonalities"


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for self-victimizing myself within working with small children.


When and as I see myself self-victimizing myself by judging working with small children as being a burden and hardship/challenge, I stop and breathe, I see working with children as a cool opportunity of support and assistance. I realize and understand the tremendous learning opportunity that is available within and as self-reflection and self-introspection. I realize and understand the attitude of gratitude within and as the work I do. Icommit myself to stop limiting myself and and my potential abilities to do excellent work by taking on judgments that self-victimize myself and my relationship with others in the process. I commit myself to stop self-victimizing myself with judgement. I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of self victimizing myself with judgement.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking the actions and responses of small children personally.


When and as I see myself taking the actions and responses of small children personally, I stop and breathe and allow myself to have a laugh for a moment at my own expense as I see and realize the momentary ridiculous absurdity of my acceptances and allowances. I commit myself to stop taking peoples actions and responses personally. I commit myself to standing within a point of physical stability so that I am able and capable of directing all reactions and responses.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be self-righteous in relationship to small children.


When and as I see myself being self-righteous in relationship to small children, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand that this is totally not cool and is most unacceptable behaviour, I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of such particpations. I take full self-responsibility in releasing myself from the restraints of self-righteousness. I commit myself to stopping to accept and allow self-righteousness within myself. I realize and understand that self-righteousness in relationship to others promotes and reflects accepted and allowed separation within myself. I commit myself to self-correcting all point of accepted and allowed separation within myself.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how abusive it is to deliberately make a point of speaking in a higher pitch positive energy voice tonality to children.


When and as I see myself reacting in a high pitch positive energy voice tonality, I stop and breathe, I take a moment to start again, I take a moment to see and realize the ridiculous absurdity of my momentary mistake within and as reacting within and as a point of positive energy higher pitch voice tonality. I commit myself to use my voice as a point of self-expression as the sounding of words as who I am within and as self-expression as LifeEquality and Oneness. I realize and understand the suppression of my voice/sound within and as I react in a moment as either positive or negative energy. I realize and understand that it is not about me trying to be in a neutral voice which is like an in between of positive and negative as like a mixed reaction. I commit myself to developing my sound self-expression as the presentation of the self-realization of Life Equality and Oneness.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the nastiness of speaking in a higher pitch positive energy voice tonality.


When and as I see myself speaking in a higher pitch positive energy voice tonality, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand the nastiness of speaking in a higher pitch positive energy voice tonality. I take self-responsibility and self-accountability to self-correct the situation and prevent the continued play out of manifested separation. I commit myself to purifying my sound as equality and oneness. I commit myself to sound self-expression here.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the shame within reacting to children by speaking to them in a higher than normal voice tonality.


I commit myself to stop reacting to children. I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing separation within myself towards children here. I commit myself to equalizing myself with children here. I commit myself to educate others about the ridiculous absurdity of speaking to children within and as a point of positive energy.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for going into the nice guy character construct in relationship to children where I believe I do not have a connection with them and I have to earn their validation and approval through speaking from a starting point of positive energy.


When and as I see myself going into the nice guy character construct in relationship to children because I believe I do not have a connection with them and I have to earn their validation and approval through speaking from a starting point of positive energy, I stop and breathe, I direct myself to speak from a point of natural sound physical stability, I realize and understand children I see to be me in and as another Life here, I commit myself to stand equal and one with everything I see here, I commit myself to stop doubting myself in relationship to others here, I commit myself to my self-validation as self-trust and self-honesty here. I commit myself to stop seeking approval. I commit myself to approving myself as what is best for Life.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how equally fucked it is to speak to children in a negative or positive energetic voice tonality.


When and as I see myself energetically speaking to anyone, I stop and breathe, I commit myself to ground my sound in and as physical stability as my self-expression here as sound that cannot be bound to the limitations of energy conflict/friction, I commit myself to communicating effectively and efficiently with profound clarity. I commit myself to play with what I say. I realize and understand the ridiculously absurd nature of communicating from a point of positive or negative energy. I commit myself to purifying the nature of my communication here as Life Equality and Oneness.

Day 576 Positive Voice Tonality Self-Corrections

Continuing from my previous to blog postings:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for perpetuating emotional turmoil within myself by deliberately going into positive energetic voice tonalities as a way to make connections and keep the peace.

When and as I see myself believing that I need to go into positive energetic voice tonalities as a way to make connections and keep the peace, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand how within this particular mindset I am perpetuating the war/peace conflict/friction as a result of believing positive energy is the answer for negative energy...while not realizing and understanding the fact that positive energy is manufactured ans secreted from the negative energy that exists within myself and that by buying into the participation and reasoned need to go into positive energetic experiences with my voice, I am compromising myself and others as a result of not standing within and as sound stability. I commit myself to stop justifying and reasoning the belief/need to exercise participation within positive energetic reactions as the only way for me to keep the peace and make connections with others. I realize and understand the self-sabotage and absurd ridiculousness of the self-manipulation tactic of compromising physical self-stability for the desired positive energetic reaction. I commit myself to stop sacrificing physical sound stability by believing that I can effectively support and assist another by existing within the conflict/friction voice tonality of positive energy.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking offense to the learning ability of small children.


When and as I see myself taking offense to the learning ability of another, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand I have patience, and that by taking things personally is to in fact disregard my patience which is ridiculously absurd and in fact self-compromising to physical sound stability. I realize and understand that any time my patience is tested by me taking offense to something and having a restlessness come up within me, that there is a point of self-improvement opening up where I can gracefully assist and support myself to re-align my effectiveness within and as the point as the measure of prevention is the best cure...so that I no longer enable myself to fuck with myself by taking offense to another being's process/learning ability. I commit myself to letting go of the urgency to resist patience in moments where my patience is a practical living point of support and assistance. I realize and understand the practicality of living patience as a point of support and stability for my process of self-perfection as equality and oneness here. I commit myself to exercising my patience within process participation here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having moments where I reacted as a point of impatience with the young children I was working with today.

When and as I see myself starting to generate a reaction within myself as a point of impatience, I stop and breathe, I hold the point within myself, I look at the point, I seen and realize the consequential absurd ridiculousness of choosing to perpetuate the existence of such a point within myself, I make the decision to terminate the point by looking into the origins of the point and making the decision to forgive myself and create a script of preventative measures to fine tune my alignment within and as the principle starting point of equality and oneness. I commit myself to stopping to breathe and hold the points of energetic instability within myself as I take self-responsibility and self-accountability for that which I have accepted and allowed that is not in the best interest of Life here.

Day 464 Language Relations

Language is a cool program of communication.  I am taking the opportunity here to share some self-forgiveness as points of self-realisation have opened up within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being judgmental about language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking offense to another being's judgments about language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for polarizing language with positive and negative energies.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be influenced/hypnotized by positive and negative energetically charged language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be controlled by polarized judgments about language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having resisted to learn and expand my understanding of language programming.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being intimidated by language I do not understand.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to experience myself as inferior to hearing language I do not understand.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being intimidated by language I don't understand.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not believing that I can easily learn to communicate new language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for doubting my abilities to speak french.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being self-righteous about language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking I don't need to know more languages than english because english is the business language of the world.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating reasons and excuses as to why it's not important for me to be able to speak fluently any language other than english.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to taking it personally the tonalities I hear when people communicate with a language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for reacting to the tonality of irritation and frustration.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding accountability for my tonality in each moment of language communication.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the blatant disregard for others around me when and as I did not specifically direct my tonality within and as how I would like to express myself within speaking words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking offense/defense when another being takes offense/defense to the way I am communicating words within a language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for perpetuating abuse within language communication within allowing myself to communicate from a starting point of separation/polarity friction energies.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to share language communication of words with others I don't know.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for regarding language as primarily with words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding how I have allowed myself to be influenced and controlled by body language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being fearful and intimidated by other being's body language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting to regard and understand my own body language in every moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to doing a thorough investigation of body language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting to ask myself more questions about my body language in particular moments, as a way of learning what I mean within my body language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting to take responsibility and accountability for my body language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to communicating with people who are expressing body language of being closed off and reserved within themselves.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to communicate with people who are expressing fear/paranoia/anxiety within their body language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for avoiding people with particular body language from the perspective that I believe them to be deliberately expressing that particular body language and that they are unwilling and unable to change their body language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for extensively judging being's body language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking offense with being's body language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being offensive within my body language as a point of polarity friction energy within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be defensive within my body language as point of polarity friction energy within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding how extensively I have reacted to other being's body language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being fearful within my body language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding how I have influenced others within and as my body language self expression.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to be a master of language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating conflict and friction within myself towards being a master of language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting confused within myself as a result of resisting to regard and listen to my own language in every moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the importance of knowing my language whether it is verbal or non verbal.

I commit myself to language.

I commit myself to knowing and understanding body language.

I commit myself to expressing body language.

I commit myself to self-direction as what is best for all life within language expressions.

I commit myself to playing with language applications.

I commit myself to testing and investigating language.

I commit myself to stop fearing language.

I commit myself to directing language from the staring point of Equality and Oneness.

When and as I see myself facing a point of fearing someone because of their body language, I stop and breathe and I realise and understand the absurd ridiculousness of fearing someone's body language.

When and as I see myself fearing someone because of their specific spoken language used, I stop and I breathe, I realise and understand the absurd ridiculousness of fearing someone because of their specific spoken language used. I direct myself to remove the point of reaction within myself through self-reflection, self realisation, and self-forgiveness.

When and as I see myself resisting to ask a question about language because I don't understand, I stop and breathe, I direct myself to ask my question about language so that I can understand. I realise and understand the power of Life support and assistance within asking questions from the starting point of advancing learning and understanding.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding or considering that language is everything as specific sound signatures because everything that is physically here is a structured sound signature.

I commit myself to knowing structured sound signatures.

I commit myself to encompassing myself within and as the sound signature of Equality and Oneness together forever.