Day 771 - The Sloooooooooow Down Secret

"Slow down, so you can see more of what is here"

Hanging out with family and friends is a great opportunity to test yourself.  The emotional feedback you get from family and friends will in most instances be stronger than that of strangers. Note: by emotional feedback, i am specifically referring to the reactions that come up in our own mind, as like what gets to us in one way or another where we are triggered.

When you allow yourself to slow down enough to specifically identify the reactions/triggers that come up in the mind, there is great potential to change the relationship dynamics in the moment, a real time change. What is interesting here is that it is a matter of self-recognition as our mirrored self-reflection here within and as our word and world.  See, traditionally within and as points of mind ego, We are reacting to the information we see.....what is interesting about this, is that we are in fact so close to the point of self-correction......self-identifying our own bullshit here.  See, in seeing bullshit about another, so much so, this bullshit that is getting to us, is a reflection of our own bullshit we are hiding from.

So,  in recognizing what points cause stimulation within ourselves...as like a sort of emotional or feeling reaction, where we are desiring to act out our release.....like we just got to say or do something....like, we are possessed to do so....the experience of we just got to do it.

Now in some instances, we can see and recognize the experience within ourselves and we stop our selves from playing out the bullshit, but we leave it there.  This is a cool starting point...the stopping the play out of the reaction...BUT, it is cool to keep on with the slow down approach and actually go into the specifics of the self-recognition here....the particulars of the vocabulary/points that are a bothersome/burden/stress/conflict.

See, in slowing down enough to look at the scope of the relationship dynamics of a situation, one's whole world changes....because it's like going from a tunnel vision perspective to a holistic perspective. Reconnecting, Remembering a piece of ourselves here.

A practical support point in looking at things is this:  Identify a point of friction, specifically see the judgement that comes up as a particular word or words dictating/defining a frame of mind.  In seeing our shit come up within ourselves...we can in the moment forgive ourselves, and so Learn the point in real time...because what opens up when we self-forgive a point of accepted and allowed separation, is that we realize and see things that have always been here that we just couldn't/didn't/wouldn't/weren't getting to See here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for holding onto judgments that come up within my mind within social situations that keep me in a state of possession and limit my ability to be sensitive and receptive to others in a way that is complimentary and gentle as the best support here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to speak bullshit as a result of speaking form the starting point of feeling/emotion possession.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how my own thinking is what perpetuates conflict in my world, because my thoughts present to me my accepted and allowed thought patterns..., the specifics of what i have built up over time within my body as the emotions and feelings i have formed impressions about in my body as the specifics of the self-definition picture frame of mind.   I realize and understand the self-corrective process in taking the time to see the High definition picture formation relationships i have constructed within my world through various lenses of ego superiority/inferiority relationship acceptances and allowances.  I commit myself to equalizing myself with all Life here, by purifying my thoughts/words/deeds.  I commit myself to self-forgiving and self-correcting points of ego that come up within my mind.  I realize my mind and environment are fantastic support structures here.  I commit myself to utilizing all the support and assistance I have here to in fact develop and create the best version of myself here.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how I miss the humor of my own accepted and allowed ridiculous, my mistakes, when and as i resist slowing down to look at things for real, and in fact, take my time here.  I realize the irony of not taking my time, is that fact that i do not have any time, that my life has no substance.  Ironically, i see how it is an individual self-responsibility to make time for ourselves here. I see and realize our time as a shared commodity/privilege/potential here.  I realize our creation potential and learning capacity is within making time here, because it is within slowing down and taking the time to look and see, that we can actually recognize what is here, what is going on, and how best to contribute to the world here.

I realize that, in taking the time to investigate the specifics/particulars of our word/world relationships here,..., the more we do so, the more we have to share/give.  Ironically, we have more to share when we take the time to look and see what we got to give...and within this, it is quite fascinating to see how awesome it is to share something we really worked on make real here.  This is a fascinating realization of our self-development here, because it is taking the time to develop the particular dynamics of ourselves here, the more easily we can relate and share the best possible support with others here.  I mean, giving the best gifts, is fucking awesome, nobody wants a terrible gift. so it's a  matter of taking our time, slowing down to see for real.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which i have skewed my ability to see for real here in every moment.  I realize that my perception is skewed when i allow my point of view to be tainted within and as the energy of reactionary thought.  I realize and understand how the moment of  reactionary thought can be a sort of tipping point to getting to the point of focus and clarity within and as myself here.  I see and realize the focal pivot point of the energy of thought, a stepping stone of support in identifying the specifics of a personal weakness that is here in and as opportunity to become a real strength of my character/expression in Life here.  I commit myself to the identification process of the specifics of the energy movements that come up within me as thought.  I commit myself to utilizing all my thoughts as tools of support in strengthening my vision here in seeing the world with real eyes here, without filters as particular energetic biases that are self-destructive.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize the self-destruction within and as Ego.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to let go of ego.

I forgive myself for not realizing the irony within resisting to let go of ego, the fact and point of Slowing Down,..taking the time to see what I am doing here.

I commit myself to slowing down and looking at what I am doing here.

I commit myself to seeing what I am accepting and allowing here.

I commit myself to taking the time to learn from what I see here.

I commit myself to taking the time to relate to everything here.

I commit myself to listening to everything here.

I commit myself to sharing the best of myself here.

I commit myself to taking the time to create the best of myself here.

I commit myself to living the slow down realization of creation here as a point of slowing down in order to move more quickly as the self-direction of myself here in all ways.

I commit myself to slowing down and taking my time with family and friends,  I realize reactions are an indicator of being insensitive to slowing down and seeing family/friends as me here in another life.  I commit myself to facing the truth of myself in my participation's with family and friends.

I commit myself to sharing the results of my realizations within slowing down and taking the time to look at things for real.  I commit myself to letting my sharing of my realizations come through as part of my living expressions here.

Day 769 - Exploring the Word "Lame"

 


I have a little bit of a negative tinge towards the word "Lame" as like arghh, ahhh,, fuck, god damn, not cool, cannot look, must look away, beyond embarrassing, uncomfortable....and, unfathomable to continuously think about.

So, that is what comes to mind in relationship to the word Lame.

I was investigating the word Lame recently and had made a general concerted effort to remove the negative energetic charges I had been holding onto in regards to Lame.  I missed these points....ironically enough, it's like i got caught in my own lameness and didnt want to look at my Lame acceptances and allowances. LOL. ridiculous indeed.  I appreciate a good laugh at myself, so I see the points here and I direct.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have a negative tinge like reaction to the word lame.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for superimposing words upon myself with energetic charges.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing the tragic and ironic comedy within my relationship towards the word Lame.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to within a negative tinge like reaction, regard Lame as: arghh, ahhh, fuck, god damn, not cool, cannot look, must look away, beyond embarrassing, uncomfortable, and unfathomable to continuously look/think about.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how points can be missed as a sort of self-sabotage within deliberately being vague/overly-general about the investigation into a word relationship.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how Irony can be a rather specific tool for investigating words, where you can use the word Irony as a sort of cross reference where you have a look to see if you are being ironically stuck within the very word you are making a concerted effort to investigate.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing how cool a tool Irony is within investigating words as like a fun and funny play to aid in and as the word investigation/exploration.


To Be Continued

Day 761 - The Flow of Money Reflects the Brutality of Our Everday Flow

 

 

 

 

 

The "making of money" within and as how things exist now is so much so the art of war...the manifestation of separation, constantly and consistently perpetuating dissonance as our information relationship definitions....evolving and upgrading the rules of law/war as the reactionary playout monopolizing/monetizing the profits and prophets of all Life/Labor here. Everyone is a television/satellite/antenna sound system..uprooted from a ground sound stability...so the flow of the go forward as what is best is in and as redefinition and living of words, as each here is a one in the collection and accounting for everyone. Obviously, self responsibility starts and stems from the core of our being here as the best structurally sound manifestations. Word, thought and deed all count in the accounting of what is best for all. Investigate all things and keep what is good.

 

 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding that the brutality that I see throughout the world is a result of the brutality that exists within myself and each individual being here.

 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the disharmony of blame as a complete abdication and dis-empowerment of self-actualization as the status standing self-authorized self-empowerment here.

 

I forgive myself for wanting to look at how I am responsible for Everything Here.

 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for making assumptions about things here as a deliberate apathetic vote of lack of confidence and regard within myself.

 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding myself Worth as a refelction and embodiment of all life here as the entire Universe.

 

I forgive myself for resisting to examine the extent of the dissonance within and as the flow of words within and as myself here.

 

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how my mind as an ongoing chatter box of sorts is a reflection of and as the less than stellar flow that exists here as the Money flow throughout existence.

 

I realize and understand I am responsible for the flow of my words and the flow of my money.

 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having regarded the flow of money as separate from myself and within this projecting outward particular dynamics of blame and abdication of self-responsibility.

 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the real power and forceful flow here exists within and as Our Sound.

 

I fogive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting the labored effort to actual create my sounds in a way for the first time in this life...as a result of so much so existing as less than the truth of myself as Sound Here.

 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for abdicating the words as the building blocks and musical notes as the harmonies to my expression so much so as an ongoing continuous waterfall of effortless flow as the best giving here as a purpose life contribution.

 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting to account for the flow of myself here in and as the living/sharing/expressing of myself here as a word/sound foundation.

 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the struggle and strife within and as deliberately resisting to labor my best efforts as my working word and world expressions here.

 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to flow and frolic about as sound freestyle waterfall flow as an essential life support aid that perpetuates the existence of what is best for Life.

 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding myself as sound self-responsibility in and as the words I speak/share/life/Live/Create

 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being lazy with my word and world movements here.  I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how I have deliberately restricted my own greatness of profound flow in and as my moment to moment expression, as a resulting consequence of negliglecting the profound significance of and as Myself as Living Words here.

 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for destroying life as a consequence of not realizing and understanding how to effectively sow my words so as the best support for myself and All Life here.

 

I commit myself to be authentic within and as my word usage here.

 

I commit myself to labor my play within and as my word and worldly expressions here.

 

I commit myself to relish in and as the knowing fact that I have great flow, as I realize and know myself as the source core of and as Life flow.  Within and as this, I commit myself to give as I would like to receive...and to Live the best of myself as the story of me that is worth reliving.

 

I commit myself to the process labor and play of Living Words.

I commit myself to share the flow of know thyself...as a reflection and outflow thanksgiving of the best of ourselves Here....which stems from within the well of our well being.

 

 

 

The "making of money" within and as how things exist now is so much so the art of war...the manifestation of separation, constantly and consistently perpetuating dissonance as our information relationship definitions....evolving and upgrading the rules of law/war as the reactionary playout monopolizing/monetizing the profits and prophets of all Life/Labor here. Everyone is a television/satellite/antenna sound system..uprooted from a ground sound stability...so the flow of the go forward as what is best is in and as redefinition and living of words, as each here is a one in the collection and accounting for everyone. Obviously, self responsibility starts and stems from the core of our being here as the best structurally sound manifestations. Word thought and deed all count in the accounting of what is best for all. Investigate all things and keep what is good. - See more at: http://michaelwilliammcdonald.blogspot.com/2015/11/day-760-restricted-flow-of-money-as.html#sthash.Rp2UlE4A.dpuf

Day 754 - Funny thing about "Deals"

 

If you look at the word "DEAL" and you move and play around with it....in fact reverse the order exactly...You get "LEAD"

For the point of my writing here is the acknowledgement of "Deals" like the deals we make with ourselves and each other....but primarily ourselves.

See what is so interesting i am finding out in new ways everyday is that when all is said and done at the end of each and everyday....I am the deal maker or the deal breaker as to what is my Deal...or shall I say what is my Lead.  Meaning, the experience of myself throughout my each and every day is my Deal.  It is my Lead.  I am the leader of me. I am the dealer of me.

Yes, from time to time....well, actually, so much so throughout our time...Deals are given/presented to us....as bits of info....and the particular relationship dynamics that make up the specifics of a certain arrangement.  So, Yes, this is all pretty obvious stuff...I mean, nothing ground breaking here.  Though, the acknowledgement and recognition of self-actualization....meaning the self-responsibility...self entitlement point...where, we realize and live ourselves as both the dealer and the leader....we become self-empowered to actually have fun and play as we work through our everyday dealings. I mean, sure sometimes there is much much much work to do....but the question is....who and how are you within the moment/movement of such work....I mean there is always all ways things to do...things happening....and so much so...I have taken myself into a state of dis-empowerment in particular moments.  You know those moments, where you experience a heaviness a sort of lethargy....or a "i don't feel like it" kind of experience....or maybe an apathy kind of thing.....and i am not saying these experiences are all the time or even most of the time....though maybe they are....the point is.....even in just one instance where there is this energetic experience within oneself towards actually taking initiative and managing a lead/deal within one's world and words....

Because, have a look:

We write the script....Meaning,

Here I am experiencing myself in a particular way and such and such opportunities and responsibilities are possible....BUT, I am having thoughts of..."I'm too tired"...."i don't feel like it right now"...."i rather do it later"..."i don't want to do anything now"...

And Guess what....

WIthin this situation, there is a Moment of Potential Movement.

What is this Moment of Potential Movement?

It is that split second where you see what you are accepting and allowing....and you have the freestyle ability to pivot yourstance and make a move a play if you will and give yourself an OUT....a WAY OUT of the FUNK...I mean the move can be subtle or intense...or even down right Funky....the thing is there is so many ways to re-position our stance here as in how we are Dealing and or Leading our Lives from moment to moment.

It's quite fascinating how we can recalibrate ourselves....our-cells with a few particular movements....a few particular words.

Some of the most self-empowering things one can do....is Self-forgive...and then as the self-forgive is a live time thing...happening in real time....the pivot goes with it..as the self-correction....and the commitment comes in and as the actualization of the realization ....where one see\s how much better it is to move within and as the solution to the previous problem one faced as the sort of stuckness one was in as like the "road block" from actually living the potential in the moment.


Food for thought:

The Vocabulary you have is like the cards you can play....and so...if you consider your life like a game of cards....whatever your card game...it's like you got the reassurance...the self-trust if you will to actually walk and talk your way through anything...and i mean anything...and yes in some instances it may be as simple as a Breath....but hey what's a breath?....a word and as physical action...just like each and every word. Word.....You heard....you use them words...how we use the words is the art of the freestyle...the movement and the momentum of playing and working together with ourselves and each other here....the harmony starts with self-harmonization...as like a sort of harm prevention if you will by actually buying into oneself as the investment into self-forgiveness and self-corrective application in real time application. our words are like Investments and our words are linked to actions...and this is the real money movement here if you will. So time to get real value out every moment here by living the greatness of gratitude as the get/got it done attitude as the deal maker and closer as the lead taker and the leader giving meaning to the movement and moment of self living real live words here.



Qucik funny little story:

I for a brief time defined myself as getting a bad deal from one of my roommates and i allowed this to effect me in a way where i would talk shit within my mind about like what a bad deal this was...what a bad roomate i got here....like blame was the game i was playing....the responsibility was outside of myself....and what is ironic about this scenario...is the potential existed for me to move in response abled manners....but i hesistated and often resisted because i didnt like the deal i was getting....and kind of allowed myself to be victimized within the treatment i was getting....instead of realizing how i can change the terms of the deal here...i can adjust my relationship here....i can start the lame within blame...and i can be the be...and be the change i want to see...and actually give as i would like to receive. 

In my particular example....i was getting pissed when some dishes would be left out and not put away...and so i could have put them away and spoke the point as like a bird chirp saying hey man put your fucking shit away....i picked it up...but next time it's a fine...or whatver....i mean i did pick up other dudes stuff sometime...but i didnt take any credit for it...or make a point of saying hey man im not your mom or whatever....anyways there is so many ways i could have played with the point....in fact i could just pick up anothers stuff in the house because i am able and capable and it is easy for me...it takes me like a brief moment and it's actually no big deal....and if i forgot i would think it was cool if somebody picked up my shit....you know...that's a cool team work mentality...and so ironically enough that's the attitude and expression i have taken in the house...i pick things up and put them away as i see them...it really is no big deal it's actually quite enjoyable to move about and throughout one's day with specific purposeful direction from moment to moment....the more self-responsibility the better. Word. You Heard.

Day 747 - How In Secure Are You?

Secure or In Secure?

What is the difference if you are Secure or Insecure?

The spelling?  The Cure? The with In or the Without? The Cure Status? How You See the Cure?
The relationship with placement? Security Relations? The tie to Safety?

To be Secure, must You also Be Insecure?

To be Insecure, must You also be Secure?

Have You ever noticed the need for Security? Was the need for Security a solution to a problem that was presented?  Did the problem exist before it was presented?

Have You ever Noticed the Insecurity Narrative within the Need for Security?

Does Security/Insecurity propagate/perpetuate the existence of One Another?

How does the Media/Government/Law Make Rules a Measure of National Security? Is it the Acceptance and Allowance of Insecurity?



ARE/OUR Colors Like Words, Meaning our/are Ability to Live/Draw/Express/Know/Be specific in action related to Inaction?  To further or closer specify, the Nature of Knowing the relationships...is like the effective functionality of a Word. Do You See/Seed Words in relationship to all other words? Is this like for Instance a Color being a makeup reflection of actually every other color...but is presented as the one that is not here...as like the only One...Meaning that the individual make up of each color/word is a reflection of Everything Here?


I find it most fascinating to look at the polarity relationship of things here...because it is in the Seeing and Seeding of things as they are, that we are able to specifically creatively cultivate the Best Here as the science of Awesome in always Here as the practical working/playing Investigation of understanding Ourselves Here within and as Everything...and so to sew it so as to the ways that are best, Contributing to the advancement of Gift Giving the Best physically structured Sound Self-Support for Everyone Here. This is the Key to the Manifestation of Heaven on Earth.


The Irony, that ironically enough comes to mind from time to time is the Fee in Fear as our charged and credited payment that is insecure as our protected and Secure investment and self-interest that originates in the law of our binding word relationships as how we have agreed to Pay for Attention on what we Credit as Worthwhile whether it is really Good or Bad. The feeling and or Emotion that is energetically charged is in all ways ironically irrelevant, no matter how we make believe the relevance to be. Interesting isn't it, that we are the gate keep of our ability to respond and direct the opening up of situation that is best for Everyone as a self-appointed Authority on the Ownership of Living Expression as the Best Living Actions....?!!?!??!


To Be Continued :)

Day 733 - The Decision to Create Specific Expressions from Moment to Moment

Writing is a very cooooooooooooooooooooooooool platform for playing with the decision making and creating process as the specific expression of oneself here.

In a way whether or not we are physically writing or typing words...we are very much in accordance with the language of information....as the information is within ourselves here...and each and every moment we are working with information and are making decisions as to how to express or suppress....which is interesting in and of itself because the suppression is just kind of an reactionary play out that just sort of happens as like the nothingness taking over....i say the nothingness taking over from the persepective of being influenced and governed by momentary blips of energetic information coming up within oneself as consciousness containment so to speak as like a shock/buzz that dictates the sail of and as One's ship as how One will be in and as a Relationship here.

The interesting thing to look at here is ourselves as the master programmer...and in saying this....SEE the Mast within and as the point of Master....meaning, the Sailor hear.....the Director/Captain/Leader....the One Giving the Commands.

What I have noticed is that sometimes I forget just how much ability I have in dictating the expression of myself from moment to moment.  I mean the ability to express oneself from moment to moment is really something quite marvelous. The play of Today I say that is always here is in and as the moment of and as self-direction here as the who/how/what possibility and opportunity to make the play working as a resulting commitment to playing as the live live acting/expressing Director Here.

It really does boggle me from time to time when I catch myself in the funk of the wrath of self-authorized confinement as like the victim of a terrorist attack that was my own doing onto myself as a result of accepting and allowing an energetic reaction to engulf the Mast of my Mastery and kind of take me for a swirl into a temporary disarray as like a momentary confusion that requires the simplicity in self authoritative direction within and as the simplicity of sorting out the cross wires as like the hiccup within and as the electricity connection...the seeing  the unnecessary strain and drain I was putting onto myself as a result of an energetic dissonance in and as the accepted and allowed polarization of myself within and as a self-reflection being missed and seen as totally separate and distant from myself...kind of like a mirage in the sense...of being caught in the energetic allure of seeing what I want to see even though it's not really here but I'm kind of force fighting it here as an outward suppression of the inward suppression.

Obviously the point is to not get caught within the hiccup...nor sweat or dread a potential hiccup...as the momentary challenges that come as like the changing windy conditions that will most certainly affect the positioning of the Mast of and as Self-Leadership if and as Self-Leadership is not quick to exercise the expression of Response Abilities. I mean, even with the quickness and steadfastness of approach in adjusting the sail to compliment the adjusting conditions...the influence is here...as like each is a point of influence here as influence is who/how/what we are. The Question is what Kind of Influence are You? Consider all kinds of Everything Here....that is the makeup of Influence we are working with. Obviously the practicality is in Knowing and Trusting in the Mechanics of Expression through and as the Creative decisions We Make as Our Know and Understood Response Abilities Here.

Let me bring more attention to the Known and Understood Response Abilities Here. This is a fascinating area of focus...you see because whether we like it or not we are always at work and play together as one as the same image and likeness here as equality and oneness here together as whatever the weather there is the solidity of substantial fusion and an interwoven connection as the source center of and as What Life is within and as the simplicity of principle and law of creation here.

The focal point of my sharing here today is within the careful Planning whether it be in the moment as the momentary freestyle play as the live action and direction of character presentations here...and also within regards to future moments that are of possibility....and of future moments that One wish to bring into specific manifestation as a certain result. There's a lot we can do....there's a lot we are doing....the question/answer/solution is in the investigation of of the past so that we can know how to manifest the destiny of the future that is Best.

To Be Continued

Day 702 - The Movement of Doing

The movement of doing....sounds kind of funny to me, like a religious or new age type of thing.

I write the "movement of doing" here because I am looking at the actually physical movement within and as my participation within and as being here engaged within tasks/responsibilities/activities/chores....

the point as "the movement of doing" comes up within me because I was noticing how there is many points existent within me where I have looked at and considered.....looked  at and considered from the perspective of and as actually moving/participating within.....you know doing these things. So in looking at points that I have looked at...I see how there hasn't necessairly been good reason for an actual lack of movement doing within and as these particular points. It's like sometimes in mind I kind od get tuned out of physical participation in reality....where my participation is passive in a sense because I am just moving/looking at things within my mind....and not then taking this insight/perspective/consideration into and as an actual physical realization playout. Where it's like a i look at the simulation of myself within a point....see that it would be cool and then....it's like on the to do bucket list of sorts....and there is no particular purpose created about doing it.

I am looking at here my relationship effectiveness within and as actually doing the things I would like to do.....moving within these points....opening them up for really...by beginning the physical participation dialogue....

I have noticed that I have become some what obsessed with taking in information and looking at things...without actually necessarily doing anything with the information I have worked with....like I see here I am not maximizing my potential support and assistance for myself in others in this world...by actually sharing my self-reflections....insights...and actually daring myself to participate more within points of self-development....instead of just thinking/looking about doing it.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for weighing myself down from the perspective of not actually moving myself to my potential abilities to actually participate within points of interest and responsibility to in fact stand as a pillar of support in my environment/world.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating reasons, justifications and excuses as ways in which I am able to talk/think myself out of moving within points I have looked at and would like to do.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for continually taking on new points of information to look at and investigate without actually finishing my investigations within a particular area of study.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting the patience to stay disciplined within learning and exploring new points/self-realizations/participations here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold myself back from actually moving within and as doing something within and as a specific area of study....because I do not see the whole finished outcome of how my participation/creation will unfold/turnout.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing and not really understanding the depth of self trust required to actually give and grant oneself permission to move into and as a solution/creation without actually knowing every detailed specific of how the point in question will manifest itself here/

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for avoiding participation within points that are not already well developed within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having some fear/angst about new beginnings and unknown outcomes.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be controlled by fear and angst.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for self-sabotaging myself here by victimizing myself within fault and wrong doing....where I see and realize my mistakes...and allow myself to haunt myself by and through my misdoings.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having an apprehensiveness towards misdoings.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing mistakes/misdoings

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for existing in a polarized relationship about perfection....where I hold myself back within the notion of perfectionism where I suppress myself before I even begin participating as a point of inferiority.....and also from the point of self sabotage....where I justify doing less than my best work/effort because of the the mentality that it's unnecessary and unrealistic to actual do my best work. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating conflict towards the point of perfection.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for defining perfection within and as positive energetic light and also to sometime allow the point to exist within and as a negative energetic charge,

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating an artificial movement within myself in relationship to the living of the word Perfection.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how I exist within my mind/body as a sort of articicial intelligence when and as I accept myself to have energetic conditions and charges attached to words as like my private associations that dictate my reaction to their particular company presentation and representation in the world I see.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how the accepted and allowed charges and conditions as particular energies associated with words has been a direct result of the experiences felt within and as my body as emotions and feelings and therefore within this...I have victimized my vocabulary to the point of contamination where it's like an unnatural...artificial expression of myself that is existent here....because I can see and realize how I have program coded myself with words from the starting point of limitation....where I have justified the logic as the laws/rules of and as my feelings/emotions relationship to the experiences that have developed within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to actually look at my word and world relationships on a daily basis as a point of word and world responsibility and relationship development and sustainability.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding that effective world sustainability is within and as the effectiveness of living words!

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for dismissing responsibility away from my inner world of word relationships....and rather only look outward at word and world relationships....where within this approach, missing the truth and tyranny of myself as the most unfortunate unlawful charges held against myself which are most unnecessary forms of self-imprisonment and victimized abuse.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent of legal abuse done unto myself as my word relationship charges I hold against myself as the specific memory impressions of particular experiences that shape the resonant hold on my being/body/mind ability to move within and as the doing expression and creation of myself that is possible to exist here beyond the restraints of systematic coding structured energetic restraints


To be continued

Day 699 - Discipline

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have mixed emotions/feelings about "discipline"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating a friction about Discipline from the perspective where I crave/desire discipline and at the same time I resist and revolt against discipline.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating uncertainty within my daily responsibilities as a result of and as my relationship within and as the point of Discipline.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself fore resisting to actually purify my relationship and expression within and as the living embodiment of Discipline as I see is in fact best for Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to suppress myself as the living full potential of and as the word Discipline.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create contradictions within myself as the word embodiment of Discipline.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the paramount importance of and as the purity of each living word definition within myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to exercise the living of and as Discipline within and as my decisions/movements here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to forego disciplined principles in and as my applications for preferred preferences.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to stay committed and determined to stick with a particular discipline as a point of purpose in and as my day to day living.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not even considering the practical living support in making a decision as to enact a practical living purpose for my life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how giving myself a practical living purpose can in fact support the development and effectiveness within and as myself as embodiment of Discipline here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating conflict about discipline to such an extent that I created conflict for my life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the irony within and as reactionary and conflicted word relations.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how reactionary and conflicted word relationships reveal to me points of accepted and allowed suppression in my overall character potential ability here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting the daily discipline of being specific within and as my word investigations as like my daily barometer in and as the purification of myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for realizing and understanding the quality of my life here exists within and as my effectiveness with my words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how my relationship within and as Discipline ties into and as the quality of my life here as my effectiveness with my vocabulary here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding my vocabulary to exist as like nutrients of self-support.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not really considering or being systematically diligent in  and as daily investigating the extent of and as my word relationships.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for make believing that my word relationships are all good.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing the Discipline required to practically live for real.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have in fact feared the practical living of Discipline....and the irony within this as the absurd ridiculousness because I have perpetuated that which I in fact would not like to experience.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the specification of our world as our words we know...as specifically as how we have accepted and allowed our words and world to exist.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to examine the negativity within and as my word acceptances and allowances as the emotion that exists within my body about particular words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to investigate the positivity within and as my word acceptances and allowances as feelings that exist within my body about particular words because they feel good.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing the investigation of and as the positive and negative word associations that I have accepted and allowed within and as my mind/body/being relationship here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the change of our mind/body/being exists within and as our word relations....as it is in fact our word relationships that shape this world relationship...and it is therefore our sound signature in and as what is we accept and allow to exist here...as like our resonant signature and vote of what is and is not acceptable.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to be a standing example of and as what is best for all Life in all ways.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for suppressing my spoken/written/living word potential.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the absurd ridiculousness of suppressing my spoken/written/living word potential.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding the tremendous amount of support that opens of as a result of and as the investigation and purification process of One word.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for coping with words that have been devoid of optimum value and nutritional sustenance.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for limiting the assistance and support within and as my word relations.


I commit myself to the purification of my word relationships.

I commit myself to living the purification of my word relationships.

I commit myself to the support and assistance within and as the purification of word relationships.

I commit myself to live the embodiment of practical living word relationships as the epitome of self-living support and assistance as what is in fact best for Life.

I commit myself to share words of support and assistance.

I commit myself to assist and support others to practically live words effectively.

I commit myself to the embodiment of living words.

I commit myself to giving myself purpose within and as the sharing of words here as solutions that can assist and support others to gift themselves access to the development and enactment of untapped potential creation here.

Day 684 - Profound

What I find interesting is that everything here is really rather profound. I mean the fact that I am here typing on the computer as an accumulation of networking relations really... I mean how many relationships are networking within the physical body?

What I find interesting is everything here. There is so much here! I really enjoy communication!

Communication is like a communion of sorts as like a common I see a connection or tie on...
Well, maybe communication isn't always portrayed and express as a sharing of a connection....In some particular instances it is the exact opposite of such circumstances.

What I have noticed is that it is so awesome in enjoyment to speak from the starting point of agreement. What do I mean when I say to speak from the starting point of agreement? Well, first of all it starts from within yourself and the starting point relationship you have with the words you are speaking. To speak words from beyond the energetic friction and conflict of a disharmony. This is an interesting conundrum of sorts at times...because as a result of participating with others in communication, sometimes we are faced with momentary reactionary energy that comes up within ourself...and the energy is like a pull/push experience where there is a somewhat of a learned conditioned tendency to want to push the energy out of ourselves as a sort of reactionary response within our communication dialogue...because it's justified within our mind as being of a particular validity because of the energy/emotion connection and connotation.

What I have personally found to be quite cool, is to actually recognize the moment the reactionary energy surfaces within myself and to then take a breath and speak from a point of self trust that exists beyond the energy emotion reaction...where I create a real time direction harmony agreement within and as the words I am speaking which are in relationship to the person I am communicating with.

I am learning about how effective this is in articulating any information effectively.

What I find fascinating about this process of communication that we are all networked within is that we are all so sensitive within our communications and our very communication indicates our particular points of sensitivity because everyone is essentially existing within the same basic operating systems....meaning that we are dealing with language...our base method of conversing with one another is through language. Our language can be verbal or non verbal. I have noticed specific correlations with our physical body postured positions and our internal body acceptances and allowances which I see are indicative of our word world relationships.

I was having a discussion today with a fellow and we are talking about the ridiculousness that its very uncommon...and quite rare really that anyone has the vocabulary of all the words that makeup that parts and the processes of our physical body. We were discussing how doctors are very much specialized experts into particular areas of understanding of the physical body...and how there are family doctors who have a general understanding of the overall functioning process of the body. And, of course there are nurses who have a general understanding of a bunch of the processes in the body...But the point we were looking at is...."who really knows everything about the human physical body?"  I mean this is quite a fascinating question in and of itself. Because, we are all existing within and as our physical bodies here...yet the detailed specifics of our complete realization of ourselves existing within our physical bodies is a mystery of sorts...because we haven't really been educated into the extensive nature of all the detailed specifics.

In looking at this discussion I was having and sharing....it seemed quite peculiar that this point of ourselves would be negated...as like a non consideration really....or a something that is easily dismissive because it seems to complicated in being able to do the mathematical accounting for all the vocabulary that is somewhat foreign from regular dialogue on a regular basis.

We got into talking about the magnificence of the physical body as like a representation of planet earth and how perhaps the best way to design a world that is best for all Life would be in accordance with actually studying and understanding the human physical body and it's effectiveness in existing here as a networking harmony of relationship agreements.

In looking at why I have neglected to dedicate much time into understanding all the vocabulary and processes of the human physical body...I see that I created resistance towards such an investigation because of the idea/belief/justification that this is just too complex of an undertaking and that I don't know how long it would take for me to effectively have complete comprehension of myself here as the human physical body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for making a belief/justification/idea that studying/realizing/knowing myself completely as the human physical body is just too complex of an undertaking and that because I don't know how long it will take for me to completely realize myself as the sum of all my parts here...I might as well forget about it.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having a tendency to dismiss and resistance participating within things I define as being "too complex or too complicated" and "I don't know how I will do will get to the point of completion of such a complex investigation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the simplicity and profoundness of the statement," a journey of profound magnitude begins with the first movement"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing vocabulary that I do not know.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being resistant towards investigating things where there is a structured vocabulary I know nothing or almost nothing about.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to investigate things that will take a committed effort of time and patience.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to gift myself the gift of "Investigation" into the areas that I do not know.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding that the "areas" I do not know are parts of myself I have yet to discover.

When and as I see myself being resistance and apprehensive about embarking upon new investigations and new discoveries, I stop and breathe, I see, realize and understand my profound potential to learn and explore effectively through the specific structured application of asking questions and doing the math within and as the deduction process in realizing the answer and solution to the question I asked....because I realize and understand myself to exist here as the question/answer/solution equal and one.

I commit myself to investigating all point I am resistant and apprehensive about.

I commit myself to stop making excuses and justifications as to why I need not expand my potential through self-investigative endeavors into that which I do not realize I know...but I am in fact questioning...

I commit myself to share myself.

I commit myself to seeing and realizing the profound insight that is always here

I commit myself to my best self constantly and consistently.

I commit myself to walk the process in expanding my relationship with words in learning through work and play with new vocabulary.

I commit myself to share my profound insights.

I commit myself to acknowledging profound insights.

I commit myself to profound greatness.

I commit myself to profound creation as the solution that is in all ways best for Life.

Day 668 - Devotion

Continuing from my previous blog: "Charisma"


"Within looking up the dictionary definition of Charisma, I had a reaction to seeing Devotion within the definition....and I thought, 'I can't use Charisma...it's too religious...I don't want to attract devotion...people being devoted'. So, what I do next is slow myself down, I say, 'Wait a minute here, lets look more closely at the word Devotion...perhaps I am jumping to conclusions as my reaction relationship towards Devotion was rather self-evident. So, I looked at the dictionary definition of Devotion. What I realized is that devotion is not limited to religious ideology and that Devotion can be applied within anything and everything that We do as Devotion can be described as aCommitment....and a Loving Loyalty and Enthusiasm within Our participations Here. So, obviously I realized that Devotion is pretty cool support and enhances self-expression/self-enjoyment/sharing-is-caring."


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for limiting my ability to live Devotion as an expression of myself that is best for all life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I compromise my effectiveness of living my full potential within my self-expression from moment to moment as a resulting consequence within and as as my relationship with words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I created a religious conflict towards the Devotion and within that justified the practical support that Devotion enables within and as Self-Commitment and Self-Discipline.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to be associated with the word Devotion as a result of believing that I will be confused and misinterpreted as some sort of religious type.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for diminishing the value of a word as a result of seeing one particular relationship association that I do not think is cool.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting temporary lost within the context of word associations...and within that...using such particular contexts to my detriment....to actually impair my ability to utilize what is best within and as my investigation of a particular Word...in this specific example....Devotion. I do see/realize/understand/know....how this one example here within word relationships/associations/contexts is connected and reflects myself standing starting point to every word that exists within myself.....Meaning....that it is a personal responsibility to let go of that which does not support me within and as word relationships...and at the same time...hold onto that which is in fact great within Words/relations/associations/contexts.

I commit myself to continuing to build strength within my vocabulary by investigating all Words and keeping what is good and disposing of what is bad...so that within this...I create sound relationships as word that form the law of my being here...as the way how to practically live words effectively that can stand and remain here through and as the testaments of time.

When and as I see myself having a reaction/energy about a Word...I stop and breathe as the means necessary to create the space and time to slow myself down and actually examine/investigate the nature of my Word relationship here...and within this...I look to make sure the engineering of my Word relationship is engineered in a way that is structurally sound...so that it exists beyond the conflict of a relationship of terms...and into and as an upstanding stability point of eternal value that will always remain.

I commit myself to practically living words as the Keys/Tools to effectiveness within and as the building and development of plans/structures/creations that are in fact always best for Life.

I am grateful for taking the time to investigate Charisma. I have bestowed and entrusted myself with Charisma. As a result of taking on such a responsibility within myself, I see how I have expanded my opportunity to Create...and how as a result of this, the opportunity and present opened up within Charisma as Devotion...and I am grateful for this. I see how my self-responsibility in self-education as words continuously expands my potential/expression/Life as the gifts that is continuously opened up and played with...like I am so grateful for all the Life Support and Enhancement within and as Words.

I commit myself to working and playing with Words.

I Devote myself to sharing my satisfaction within working/playing/investigating the nature of my relationship with Words.

I welcome and encourage the harmonious balance within and as the dynamics of Working and Playing with our Word and World Here.

Thank You

Day 666 - Compounding Prayer

"As we humans as a collective whole, become more and more effective with our words....Our world will reflect this....As our world is a reflection and presentation of and as our acceptances within and as our Word relationships." Day 665 - The Math within Technological Advancement


So, I was looking at the math within compounding interest....the 1+1...doubling effect...doing this 20 times puts you at over 1 million....1+1=2....2+2=4....

I was looking at the movement and moment within the point of repetition....and specifically seeing how as each breath I live here in awareness...I accumulate myself standing responsibility here....developing a constant consistency.

I was looking at the point of the compounding effect in relationship to accomplishing things within a day in relationship to sales. I was seeing the simplicity of the accumulation effect there and how by doing one thing and then another thing....and another....and accumulating many things done in a day in relationship to one point...that, supports a substantial development and movement within that one area....because by doing one thing and then another thing and then another thing...it's like creating this very strong platform foundation for oneself.

So, what I am talking about here may seem rather obvious and common sensical...and that is because it is....and it's funny to talk about common sense...because I have often noticed that common sense in my every day living hasn't always been so common....like doing all the simple things...the basic mathematics of everyday living...I have in many instances made it to be like some sort of complicated equation....when really it's simply basic mathematics here.

OK,

Looking at "Prayer" and seeing how I have associated "prayer" to a sort of religious worship where one is praying/asking another Force/God for whatever it may be....help with this or that....courage....confidence....health....wealth...you name it....

So, I was looking and playing with the point of "prayer" from the starting point of myself....as like a point of asking myself for things....that praying is really asking myself permission for things....like in a way...a kind of specific focused planning.....well the beginning stages of planning I would say....the Shopping list kind of thing....Saying what you want/need.....what it is you would like to get/have.

I see prayer as a point of self-permission in the sense that initially it stems within seeing what you got or don't got...and where you acknowledge that you are in need of a change from the standpoint of bettering/perfecting yourself here.

I think this is a cool point really.

Because I see this as being a cool point of self-intimacy where we actually take initiative within investigating the nature of ourself...and making a willing effort to actually improve upon our nature as a result of first giving ourself permission by asking ourself for what it is we in fact want/need. What is also very cool about this point is that it is self-authoritative....a point of self-authorization.

So,

I see asking myself specific questions as a point of prayer....and also I see self-forgiveness as a point of prayer....praying...a paying I am giving myself as the gift I am for....

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding self-forgiveness and self-supportive questions as a point of practical living daily prayer that I can exercise as a point of substantiating the overall fitness of my well being here....as the integral point to ease the grace of my flow as the moves I make from breath to breath as the living of my words from moment to moment as the sound embodiment of Awesomeness in Self-expression.

I commit myself to practically living my daily prayer as self-forgiveness and self-supportive questions.

I commit myself to living gracefully here.

I commit myself to giving myself permission for everything I want and need.

I commit myself to playing with my work and working with my play as the harmonious balance between work and play...as the epitome of fun/funny mixed with the appropriate amount of maturity/seriousness.

I commit myself to self-stability as the balancing act of my moment to moment movements.

I commit myself to playing with the grace of myself here.

I commit myself to receiving the benefits of compounding daily prayer of assistance and support.

I commit myself to sharing the profound awesomeness of 'sharing is caring'....and "ask and you shall receive"

I commit myself to living self-forgiveness and self-supportive questions as a sound investment into the substantiation of my physicality here.

Day 661 - Debt Servitude in Word and World Relations.

So, I noticed some interesting points that were buried within myself in relationship to Money...and so here I outline the specifics and specifically rectify my misfortune and lay a new foundation of structured support to assist and support the expansion and creative development of myself in ways that are best.

Stress about Money…fear of failure to Pay….Fear of debt…Bankruptcy…Getting Screwed…Being Fucked Over…Getting into a Jam…bills…taking on increased financial responsibility…bank emptying out…not enough money coming in… bankrupt..

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to stress about money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to be in the position where I cannot pay/play.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear “failure to pay”...failure to play.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear debt.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear bankruptcy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear getting screwed…specifically, financially..

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to be fucked over.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear getting into a financial jam.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to take on increased financial responsibility.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing my bank emptying out.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing not enough money coming in.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear going bankrupt.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for attaching my lively hood to money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not wanting to participate in the money slave game.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to be burdened with financial responsibilities…as like a form of debt obligations.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to not be given enough money from others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing my value and self-worth.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for compromising my value and self-worth within and as the fear of losing money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself ot fear losing money and not having enough money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for doubting my ability to actually have too much money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself ofr desiring to have too much money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting to write as daily as a point of self-support which in and of itself is money…life…value…creation here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting myself as life/money/words/world/creative/creation here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself of fearing to live/move/express myself here as wealthy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting the point of being wealthy in self-expression.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting the point of being rich in vocabulary.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to wide open to sharing my wealth in words with others in my community.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to use my words in the best ways possible….as like fearing to commit my money to the best possible decisions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being cheap with my words and my money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing an impoverished vocabulary within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which an impoverished vocabulary wreaks havoc on the overall character well-being of an individual being here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for negating my fortune within and as the development of my vocabulary here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being resistant and apprehensive towards giving myself the gift of words…and knowing how to play with words and use them effectively in ways that are most excellent.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for complicating my capacity to learn within skewing the values of my relationship with words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for wanting/desiring/hoping to gloss over and just kind of forget about the misfortunes I have developed within my vocabulary.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting the process of self-correction….remediation of my vocabulary…as the creation of and as my structural resonance alignment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting to actually rectify problems with solutions to the foundational issues within my vocabulary.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing the investment in time/labor required to do something the correct way.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to be at a loss financially within taking the necessary time to learn something effectively.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself of hindering/fucking with my learning capacity within rationalizing/justifying fear about how long a point will take to learn/get/live….and the money I need now.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting taking full accountability as the creditor and authority of my words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to doubt the potential success that is able to be brought into fruition through and as my creative capacity to structure my words in ways that are self-supportive.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for choosing to dwell and try to escape the debt of a situation of circumstance I am in…by avoiding to actually direct the point…and instead busy myself within another activity that I define as being more fun and enjoyable to participate within.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having developed a relationship with fun and enjoyment where I juxtaposition myself in and as point of comparison…where my actually focus and expression is split…and therefore not an actual total commitment…because of the skewed starting point of trying/attempting/manipulating my starting point….from that of self-honesty,…self-trust…to that of fear….hiding…coping.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for limiting my capacity for fun and enjoyment within creating self-defining limitations on my ability to in fact live fun and enjoyment as expressions of who and how I am here in every moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for looking to separate and distance fun and enjoyment from and as the word responsibility.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for postponing the expression of myself here….as a result of believing that I just need/want to cope with misfortune for a little while first.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself ot get overwhelmed within facing the debt of my acceptances and allowances here…as the specific nature of my word relationships.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to limit the development of my words here within and as the fear/control/influence/addiction to feelings and emotions as the spectrum between the energetic field of love and hate.

When and as I see myself faced with fear/resistance in a moment to actually do something that I see is cool to do…is in fact wealthy…rich in self-expression…shows a cool character here….I stop and breathe…I make the decision to move myself into and as physical action/application in the moment and actually dare to live for real beyond the confinements or programmed restraints.

I commit myself to re-programming….re-creating…-re-structuring myself here as Life without debt.

I commit myself to create myself here as the process journey of self-correction….into and as living example of the Journey to Life…Heaven as Earth birthed from and in/out of the physical here.

I commit myself to Sharing my fortune/wealth in words here.

I see, realize and understand how my wealth/fortune/opportunity exists within and as my creative play/sharing/giving of my words/time/labor here.

I commit myself to living/sharing/giving/gardening profound substance within and as the structured placement/movement of my words/sounds here.

I commit myself to expanding my effectiveness/wealth/creation/correction of and as my vocation and vocabulary here.

I commit myself to living words effectively and efficiently.

I commit myself to exist within and as the life substance of my words.

I commit myself to living a concerted effort to make the most of my ability to structure my living words in the best possible ways.

I commit myself to take the time to care for the wealth of my life here.

I commit myself to living the self-realization that our ability and capacity to create and express as what is best for all Life here…exists within and as the concerted laborious effort we invest into and as our own vocabulary….because our effectiveness with words is in fact the dictating factor as to how our world will be…as like our spelling bee so to speak…because how we speak and move in co-ordination to how we speak…is in turn how we pollinate and develop the continuous operation and flourishing of potential expression here as a way to live that is epitomizing the highest value and regard for ourselves here as Life/Creation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing the time/moment of application…where in the moment I am faced with the consequential energy build up/debt I have accepted and allowed throughout time here….to actually take responsibility for wiping the debt clean and clear…and creating a new beginning fortune….trust….estate….standing for myself here.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how in facing physically demanding moments where moving myself in action seems difficult….that this is it….this is the here point…where I can in fact actually develop my ‘trust fund’….my future well-being here….by investing in the moment in and as my future development…by seeing what is in fact triumphantly awesome and most possible…and so moving myself within and as this accord…a chord…way…note…music….expression…I guarantee myself the status standing capacity and agreement in which I am most fortunate.

I commit myself to taking responsibility for the creation of and as my fortune here.

I commit myself to reclaiming my status standing as the beneficiary of Life birthed from and as physicality here.

I commit myself to flourishing in and as my capacity and potential.

I commit myself to supporting and assisting in the blossoming of creative potential here.

I commit myself to supporting and assisting the future well-being of Life.