Day 795 - I Manipulate with Justification

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to manipulate myself in my world through Justification where I am existing in and as a sort of Ignorance of my living of and as the word JUSTIFICATION.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to self-sabotage myself and my participation within my world within and as the execution of JUSTIFICATION to make sense of my accepted and allowed abdications of my best potential living here as Life made manifest as the realization of myself as All as One as Equal.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand how I create JUSTIFICATION as a form of Defense and Offense I administer regularly to aggressively hold myself within a state of Suppression. I realize this shows to me how deceptive I am, because within this I play dumb as a point of Inferiority, pretending I do not know what I am really doing to myself and others as I use and abuse my words specifically for a sort of reactionary play out of the truth of myself acceptances and allowances.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to resist slowing down within and as Vulnerability and Patience to investigate the usage of my words to be sure that I am standing clear in and as the meaning and the specificity of my share.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be so careless within and as JUSTIFICATION.


I realize the shame within and as the way I have lived Justification.


I realize the travesty of my living and understanding of how to best express Justification.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to Weaponize Justification within myself where it's always been used from the starting point of me existing here on the field of battle, playing out my inner conflict and superimposing my suppression/depression onto the world as how I manipulate myself and others into the point of Inferiority.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand the fear within and as my usage of Justification, where it has been my accepted and allowed, Inferiority and Inadequacy in me that has kept me Justifying....where I created this Need within myself to Explain my Reactions as my actions, to Justify my self-righteousness as someone who is ok, or even better than ok, someone who is good and is even in fact admirable.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to superimpose deceit within my structuring of words.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand the origins of the trauma from my childhood as the source memories of myself physically integrating/learning how to Defend and Attack myself with Justification.



I commit myself to exposing the ridiculousness of Justification used from the starting point of making sense and rationalizing the explanations of failure without being asked and or questioned about such things.



I commit myself to question myself and others in and as the usage of Justification.


I commit myself to show how Justification is an effective tool in and as Manipulation.


I commit myself to use Justification as a tool of self-support in questioning my acceptances and allowances....and to from here be Vulnerable and Intimate with myself in going deep into the discomfort within and as my body...and from here, access the memories of my past where i accepted and allowed suppression as a result of not realizing nor investigating the specificity of my reactions.

Day 788 - Attitude

The Tune of where You are at.  It's like a status update. Attitude in it's fullest sense is a complete range of expressions....from high to low in octave...or the other way round....or any other which way for that matter.  From pleasant to scary to everything else in between.

The Gratitude of Attitude is to live Great your Attitude.  What does this in fact mean?  It means simply,  to own it.....because guess what, You are It.  Tag, each is always it....whether you like it or not.  And in the recognition of realizing that sometimes you will not like things, it is more than OK to express that disgust in a moment.  In fact it is a reality check into one's own self-honesty....a genuine point of self-intimacy.

A point of attention here is the culture of minimizing and perpetuating conflict....where it's like people love to hate conflict...yet perpetuate conflict as a means of trying to minimize it....as like,  'just let me drop the last bomb and then I'll stop'.  So much so this has become the narrative within our Words to each other, as so much so, This is a reflection of our inner narrative expressed externally.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to take Conflict personally as an act of War where I either go into Defense or Offense.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to marginalize Attitude.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to disregard myself as Attitude.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to limit myself within and as a Positive Attitude.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to resist a Negative Attitude.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to manipulate my Best Words as a result of being possessed within and as a Positive Attitude.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to Fear a Bad Attitude.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to take a Bad Attitude personally.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to Separate myself from the totality of Attitude.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to control my Attitude...and to Fear my Attitude getting out of control if I let go of Control over my Attitude.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to Inferiorize myself within Control of Myself.

Let's Look at that last sentence here again:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to inferiorize myself within Control of Myself.

How am  I controlling myself....my attitude? Fear.  
How So? Conditioning my attitude to my wants based upon my desires which are rooted in the fact that I have knots within myself...as the things i don't want to experience as myself here...and so enter in the attitude and overall nature of Control.

I see Attitude as like the Weather, our Expression through our body from moment to moment as Our Stand here.  It is a point of Self-Confidence and Individuality. Someone who is a Self-Confident Individual, does not fear the Expression of themselves here.  This is where the enjoyment in sharing comes in.  I mean really have a look at what prevents the living of Attitude.  It is the Fear in and as Vulnerability.  Why?  Because you are exposed completely. Who, how and what you are in a moment is Here.  It is the Judgement we have conditioned to our Structured Sentencing that Fucks Ourselves into Oblivion, Because our Words have been abused like Codes we haven't taken the time to fully understand or realize.  Consequently resulting in and perpetuating our own Bullshit and a Greater World of Bullshit.  How can this Be?  It's because of our capacity to be Deceptive. We've dressed up and hidden our own Bullshit to such an extent that we Gloss over it and Misinterpret Ourselves and Others as a Result of Our Own Hiding and Fearing the Brutality of our very worst Disguise. Ironically, here lies the Design of Demise.

Day 744 - Doing Fucked Up Shit Because Authority Said So

Are you familiar with the Milgram experiment?  Click the link to read about how average people will kill people because Authority told them so.

To watch a video showcasing the influence and susceptibility of humans to following along with bad advice because an Authority figure told them so...See this Derren Brown Video on the Milgram Experiment. 

Who are the the firs main points of Authority in you Life?

Your Parents

Have you ever asked yourself what qualified your parents to be Parents?

Should you have to qualify to be a parent?

Did you trust in your parents as a child?

Do you see any parallel's with how society is structured with various institutions of Authority?

See, Parents, Government, Medical Profession, Doctors, Scientists, Teachers, Lawyers, Judges, Psychologists, Psychiatrists, Police/Military, Media, Celebrities, Popular Journals/Magazines, and Television

Did you know that when you seek the support and assistance of a Professional in any of the above fields of expertise...the support is but a Professional Opinion. Meaning that based upon the knowledge and information they have collected...the believe a particular way forward to be the best for you.  This doesn't mean that it is true or not true. It means that is an Opinion as to what you should do based upon how the were in fact giving professional opinions about what they should do...and now they have been trained to give those opinions as an occupation based upon following and abiding by so many previous opinions.

What I find interesting here is the point of Trust.  Where thee is often a rational justification to believe what You hear to be true or worthy of your attention because someone who within our world society is defined as being an Authority on Knowledge and Information within that particular field of study.

Is it possible that nobody really knows much about anything and that we have been for a very long time...perpetuating a conditioned behavior response where we mimic our elders and so trust/believe them and shape our Life as a result of what they have said.  How valid is anything that has ever been said, when you consider that so much of whatever has been said, has been regurgitated from somewhere else that was passed on and carried on because of the Trust within the person who said it so.

Are we programmed and conditioned from an early age to make sense of non-sense?

Would you dare to really consider the possibility that who you are today is something totally different than Who You would be if You didn't ever make sense of non-sense...I mean,  trust or believe anyone ever and that for anything to hold true, the point would actually require to be verifiable through self-testing and cross-referencing? A measure of Self-Authorization if You will. What have we Self-Authorized here that is totally fucked up. Who's responsible for the whackness Here?

Maybe this is not the most practical approach...or is it? Does it mean that in order to know that fire is hot you must get burned by the fire? The answer is no. Becoming introduced to Fire for example, you will see and feel the warm of the fire...You do not require to touch the fire to know it is Hot. What about that Fire can burn your skin? if one person is burned by fire as a result of making a mistake and getting to close to the fire, Everyone is able to learn from that mistake and see the consequence of that action....that if you are too close for too long to the fire, You will get burned.

Have You really considered the design of Education in our world? Typically beginning by the parents in the home...and then when you leave the home and go to school....and, every other person encounter.

What is also fascinating is that much of the exchanges of information that take place...come as like forms of commands...where somebody is Telling someone something...often it is an Opinion...which in a way is really a form of gossip...as like the spreading of Wild Fire....and it spreads and spreads and spreads...as you share what they said...and they share what they said...and all the while...just kind of operating within and as this perpetuating infections disease in a way....where most of the information that is being exchanged is not of the best benefit to anyone.

Is it any wonder that we are familiar with words like Rape, Molestation, Poverty, Murder, Torture, Punishment, War, Famine, Starvation, Suffering, Disease, Disability, Deceit, Deception, Slavery, Prisoner, Prison, Military, Weapons, Abuse, Fraud, Terrorism, Enemy, Fighting, Survival, Combat, Defense, Offense, Guns, Slaughter, Profit, 3rd World, Sweatshop, Injustice, Crime, Psychopath, Convict.....and the list goes on....

We are directly and indirectly supporting such conditioned behaviors/environments/circumstances as result of how we are accepting Authority to exist here. When you think of AUTHORITY, Do you think of Yourself First and Foremost...or is the point/words separate from You as like the examples I gave above as particular points of "recognized established Authorities"?

Is it interesting to consider and regard that in order to stop the rampant wild fire here, we need to actualize ourselves here as Self-Authority and Question the knowledge and information we have subscribed to whether passively or actively...because We are on Fire here...and The Fire is Burning up the Earth.  Is this Hell? Have we become in such denial that we would not believe and know what Hell on Earth is despite being slowly burnt alive?

Let Manifest Heaven on Earth Forever, Wouldn't that be better than Hell on Earth? Are things in Reverse? Each is the Author in the Creation of Heaven On Earth Here. Note, this does not mean You create your own little bubble Heaven where everything is all good for you...is a start sure....but what about everyone else....is this a competition where some get Heaven at the expense of many getting Hell. What kind of fucked up game/idea is that?

Lets Share the Best of Ourselves Here, and Question what the fuck is going On and ask ourselves what the fuck are we really doing to ourselves as Everything Here?


"It's Hell on Earth, Whose Next or Going to Be First" Mobb Deep, Hell On Earth, from the Album HELL ON EARTH


Oh, did I mention that the Authority is You and has Always All Ways Been You?

So about all that Fucked up Shit....

Day 628 Conceited

It's Fun Funny and Cool to play with the sounding of words to see what is sometimes missed within and as the actuality of what is here in and as a word relationship as how the letters come together in producing a structured sound expression.

I'm looking at the word "Conceited" Because this is a self-defensive word I have utilized as a tool to propagate the religion of myself as being Superior in competition/comparison/judgement to others. Interestingly enough, this reveals low/inflated self-worth. I believed that it was necessary to sell/promote my self-proclaimed greatness as a way to in fact achieve self-proclaimed greatness. Motivated within and as the desire to be be famous and regarded as Royalty in Superiority, I presented my beliefs/opinions whole heartily, triggering others to fuel my proclamations and stand with my behaviour/programming/words as a result of having the very same desires existent within themselves, however, not necessarily actively engaging desire to the extent in which I have been advocating/living.

CON-SEATED !!!

Notice also how the word "Cite" and "Cited" exists within and as the word "Conceited" and how the spelling of "Cited" is rearranged to spell "Ceited"...as "Con + Ceited = ConSeated"

It's Funny to see the actual play out of Conceited behaviour because it's like trying to encourage a hypnotic trance into getting what you want...Like instead of Asking for what it is that You would Like to Receive, there is this belief that if I deceive and I believe in what is is I am deceiving about...I will Achieve the result I am seeking without being direct in my asking for it...interestingly enough this behaviour is like a "beating around the bush" type of mentality that is the direct result of self-manipulation as a result of the accepted and allowed Fear of Inferiority.

OK, Let's look at a very specific example here:

"Let me tell You how great I am. I am the Best at Everything. Everything I do, I am so good at...I have accomplished this and this and that and this...and let me go on and on about all the things I am capable of...Also that I am not not afraid of this and this and this...which is actually quite impressively and truly remarkable because pretty much everyone is afraid and I am not...I am actually so much better than You..."

OK, the point of my example here is to illustrate the specific nature of "Conceitedness", where a specific desire exists to be regarded/perceived/judged/worshiped/proclaimed/complimented in a particular manner...as like to specifically tell someone what it is You want to hear. I find this really funny, because the ridiculous absurdity of it is not heard at all within the speaker...as like there is a cognitive dissonance towards the joke/funny being parlayed here because of the serious nature of the speaker...as like the roots of the situation are seriously fucked...as Fear...is like fucking our Ears ability to Hear...and so, Fear, is like the price/FARE we pay/speak without realizing and understanding the seriousness and severity of and as our own current situation/problem...and thus we miss the Joke that we are, which in truth is Soooooooo Ridiculously Absurd that it is Funny. Albeit and Arguably So, the truth of Our-self is the Most Unfortunate Tragic Comedy Existence as a Whole has in fact ever Witnessed. Ironically enough, Seeing that our finger pointing judgement/comparison/competition has all been in vain, as the reality of the situation is that we've really just been finger blasting our own Asshole as we did not realize and understand our Equality and Oneness and therefore consequently became the manifestation of and as total fucking assholes here...Not realizing how we've proliferated the belief in our own BULLSHIT by finger fucking our own asshole within our self-judgement/comparison/competition believed and propagated inferiority/superiority complex conditioning behaviour mentality frame of mind.


To Be Continued

Day 483 Runner Runner

I just watched the movie Runner Runner which stars Ben Affleck and Justin Timberlake. Without spoiling the plot, the movie is all about money, making money, the risks involved, the consequences of gambling. The movie begins with a point being made about how our total reality is built upon gambling. All money being made is a result of gambling/taking risk. Within the movie, the levels of risk escalate with the level of rewards for such risks. The point is brought up within the movie of being willing to do things that you don't particularly like or want to do...but are willing to do so with gratitude and an indebted servitude because of the desire for more money. The point is illustrated how a person must be leveraged in order to get them to agree to do something they don't want to do. The tactic for leveraging people within the movie was to find the weak/soft point within the individual's personality and or life and create a platform so that the soft/weak point can be exploited/manipulated which can then be leveraged as the necessary means to getting what you want. The emphasis was made that Everyone has a weak/soft point and that no one is immune from being exploited/manipulated and leveraged...and that greed and desire are the blinders that prevent one from being able to see the tactics of exploitation, manipulation, and leveraging.

Greed and desire causes the collapse of business relations. Illustrated in the movie is how both parties are eager to enter a business relationship where there is mutual benefit....then throughout time, there becomes more and more conflict within the business relations...as each party is greedy and wants a better deal....which in turn creates a loss of mutual benefit, because manipulation and exploitation enter the equation as the means to leveraging the relationship so that individual greedy desires can be fulfilled. What is not seen and realized is the long term consequences of such actions. This is ironic, because as a result of lack of foresight, both business parties, eventually suffer and are worse off than they ever would have been if they had agreed to honoring a relationship of mutual benefit...as like, only making fair deals.

Everyone is like an individual business. Have a look at how the human body exists of many many individual relationships working together as a point of mutual benefit. The human body is made up of gazillions of parts/pieces. There is an interconnectedness involved, and the relationships exist from within the starting point of agreement as all being the beneficiaries of mutual benefit within the relationship agreement. All parts working together to create a healthy function body. I mean, what happens when all parts are not aligned within an effective relationship agreement...where a particular part has been compromised in its ability to contribute/function? Unfortunate consequence do to a physical structural misalignment.

Obviously, it is best to establish prevention methods to insure that unfortunate consequence do not happen to physical structural alignments.

So, I was saying everyone is like a business in fact do to the makeup of relationships and inter-dependency within and upon relationships. So, Life is like a business. All here is a part of the business, Life. Obviously, there needs to be prevention measures taken to insure the best quality of the Life Business Here. I mean for any individual Life business to be suffering an unfortunate consequence is not cool. Obviously it is best for all Individual Life Business's if a policy of prevention is implanted to insure the protection and highest quality standards of living for each individual Life Business.

Accepting anything less, is a gamble with unfortunate consequences that are guaranteed.

Join the Desteni I Process and start taking individual responsibility for Your Life Business as You are Your own business. It is only through realising and understanding your individual responsibilities that we can take on greater responsibilities.

Day 465 Information Manipulation

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be manipulated by information as a result of blindly trusting information because I read it or hear it from what I believe to be a reliable source.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having believed the education system to be a reliable source of information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing the news papers and the mainstream media to be a reliable source of information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not considering the word reliable as re-lie-able.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to investigate points of information further as a means of cross referencing information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for obsessing about information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get tangled up in conspiracy theories.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be addicted to conspiracy theories.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking information personally with personal reactions as emotions and or feelings as forms of accepted and allowed judgment in relation to information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being vulnerable to information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting frustrated and irritated with information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for becoming angry about information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting upset and angry about information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being discouraged by information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting overwhelmed by information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing for avoiding to investigate information I have a resistance towards.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being addicted to information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for time looping within patterns of information constructs that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto emotions and or feelings about.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding information as potential points of assistance and support.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for sabotaging myself within relationships of information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding myself as an information processor.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself creating layers of judgement about points of information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to logically manipulate myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for for being neglectful within the information I share.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being self-righteous within sharing information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that there are greater authorities of information than myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the practical starting point of working with information as investigating all things and only keeping what is good.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the huge amount of support that exists here for me within every moment as points of self-reflection/self-investigation within and as the vast amounts of information that exist here within and as each moment I am breathing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that information is something that only exists as separate from me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having difficulty working with lots of information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to work with lots of information as a point of further developing myself as an informed being.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having judged being informed as an egg shape as something not as good as I believe myself to be.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting information that I regard as difficult.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating a spectrum of relations as character reactions towards information as energetically charged conflicted friction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing conflicted friction within information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting stuck within energetically polarized information.


I commit myself to utilizing information as a point of learning.

I commit myself to garnering assistance and support from all information here.

I commit myself to realising and understanding all the assistance and support here as information.

I commit myself to communicating and directing information as assistance and support as the starting point principle of creation which is equality and oneness.

I commit myself to sharing information as as a point of giving as I would like to receive.

Day 460 Skiing and Golf

I'm here to open up some some self-forgiveness in relationship to the words "skiing" and "golf".  Both words carry a very positive charged energy within myself.  I see and realise that I have allowed myself to obsess about skiing and golf within my mind as a point of imagination day dreaming.  I see and realise how some times I have become less effective within daily doings as a result of my accepted and allowed word relations with "skiing" and "golf".  Both words, due to the strong positive polarity charge I have accepted and allowed within myself have become like a chemical drug high experience within myself...as a form of escape from physical reality.  I see and realise how anytime I'm looking for a break from my immediate daily participation's, my mind can easily come up with anything golf or skiing related, and my attention is adverted from practical living responsibilities...and I have often just gone into the indulgence of following my train of though about a particular aspect of golf or skiing....whether it be about technique, performance, equipment, places to play, prices, locations, training, etc...etc.

So the point I see here is that it is my self-responsibility to release the positive energetic charges that exist within myself in relationship to both the word "golf" and the word "skiing".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for defining "golf" with positive energy and associating the words, great, good, excellent, awesome, amazing, fun, I love it, I really like it.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for defining "skiing" with positive energy charges and associate the words, great, good, excellent, awesome, amazing, fun, I love it, I really like it.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding how I created a possessive relationship with the words "golf" and "skiing" as a result of creating strong emotions and feelings about "golf" and "skiing"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the consequence I have created within my Life as a result of holding onto such strong positive energy charges in relation to the words "golf" and "skiing".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding how I have distorted my reality of living words as a result of accepting and allowing positive energy charges upon the words "golf" and "skiing"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having compromised practical daily living as a result of accepting and allowing myself to create positive energetic charges in relationship to the words "golf" and"skiing"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding how I how I compromise my well being within accepting and allowing contaminated word relationships.  I realise and understand the word is the word and making a word out to be more than it is, fuels conflict and polarity friction within my vocabulary as my building blocks here in physical reality.   I see and realise the point that by accepting and allowing some words to be more valuable within energetic charge, creates and enables some words to be regarded as less valuable.  I realise and understand that creating an energetic self-defined value system in relationship to words is not necessary and nor is it in my best interests, as this creates scenarios where I distort my ability to operate at my highest levels of effectiveness here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that I must create positive energies in relationship to words that represent activities I enjoy participating within.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for manipulating my daily participation's and responsibilities within allowing myself to day dream and obsess about skiing and golfing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having feared to let go of positive energetic charge in relationship to "skiing" and "golfing" out of fear that I will be losing my self created positive energy experience, and within this believing that I will no longer like participating within skiing or golf if I don't have a positive energetic experience attached to it.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the practical support within keeping my word relationships simple.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for unnecessarily complicating my word relationships with emotions and feelings.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having brought emotions and feelings into the words "skiing" and "golf"

Definition of Skiing:  The action of travelling over snow on ski's, especially as a sport or recreation.

Definition of golf: A game played on a large open air course, in which a small hard ball is struck with an assortment of clubs into a series of small holes in the ground.


When and as I see myself beginning to think about golf or skiing within doing a particular task, I stop and breathe, I direct myself to stay on task and I realise how I had created a pattern within my mind to use words I had created positive energetic associations to act as like distraction codes within myself that induce mental preoccupation that take me out of physical reality and put me into the realm of mental masturbation.  I realise and understand that the same principle exists with associating negative energetic charges onto particular words.  I realise and understand it is my self-responsibility to purify my vocabulary as the law of my being here as Equality and Oneness.


I realise and understand how easily it is to be controlled and manipulated through word relationships.

I realise and understand how sales work based upon word relations.  I realise and understand that becoming highly effective with words makes me a great sales person.

I realise and understand that everyone is essentially a sales person...and we are constantly selling ourselves on what we will or won't do based upon our accepted and allowed vocabulary and our particular judgments/definitions/values/energies in relationship to our vocabulary.

I commit myself to investigating my vocabulary.

I commit myself to purifying my vocabulary.

I commit myself to using my mind as a tool to see where and how my vocabulary has been contaminated.

I commit myself to strengthening my vocabulary.

I commit myself to fixing my vocabulary.

I commit myself to removing complications in my vocabulary.

I commit myself to being a master of words.

I commit myself to educating people about the importance of vocabulary.