Day 788 - Attitude

The Tune of where You are at.  It's like a status update. Attitude in it's fullest sense is a complete range of expressions....from high to low in octave...or the other way round....or any other which way for that matter.  From pleasant to scary to everything else in between.

The Gratitude of Attitude is to live Great your Attitude.  What does this in fact mean?  It means simply,  to own it.....because guess what, You are It.  Tag, each is always it....whether you like it or not.  And in the recognition of realizing that sometimes you will not like things, it is more than OK to express that disgust in a moment.  In fact it is a reality check into one's own self-honesty....a genuine point of self-intimacy.

A point of attention here is the culture of minimizing and perpetuating conflict....where it's like people love to hate conflict...yet perpetuate conflict as a means of trying to minimize it....as like,  'just let me drop the last bomb and then I'll stop'.  So much so this has become the narrative within our Words to each other, as so much so, This is a reflection of our inner narrative expressed externally.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to take Conflict personally as an act of War where I either go into Defense or Offense.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to marginalize Attitude.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to disregard myself as Attitude.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to limit myself within and as a Positive Attitude.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to resist a Negative Attitude.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to manipulate my Best Words as a result of being possessed within and as a Positive Attitude.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to Fear a Bad Attitude.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to take a Bad Attitude personally.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to Separate myself from the totality of Attitude.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to control my Attitude...and to Fear my Attitude getting out of control if I let go of Control over my Attitude.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to Inferiorize myself within Control of Myself.

Let's Look at that last sentence here again:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to inferiorize myself within Control of Myself.

How am  I controlling myself....my attitude? Fear.  
How So? Conditioning my attitude to my wants based upon my desires which are rooted in the fact that I have knots within myself...as the things i don't want to experience as myself here...and so enter in the attitude and overall nature of Control.

I see Attitude as like the Weather, our Expression through our body from moment to moment as Our Stand here.  It is a point of Self-Confidence and Individuality. Someone who is a Self-Confident Individual, does not fear the Expression of themselves here.  This is where the enjoyment in sharing comes in.  I mean really have a look at what prevents the living of Attitude.  It is the Fear in and as Vulnerability.  Why?  Because you are exposed completely. Who, how and what you are in a moment is Here.  It is the Judgement we have conditioned to our Structured Sentencing that Fucks Ourselves into Oblivion, Because our Words have been abused like Codes we haven't taken the time to fully understand or realize.  Consequently resulting in and perpetuating our own Bullshit and a Greater World of Bullshit.  How can this Be?  It's because of our capacity to be Deceptive. We've dressed up and hidden our own Bullshit to such an extent that we Gloss over it and Misinterpret Ourselves and Others as a Result of Our Own Hiding and Fearing the Brutality of our very worst Disguise. Ironically, here lies the Design of Demise.

Day 784 - "Let me Tell You"

Communication is a really fascinating endeavor, Isn't it?

I mean, an Endeavor can be regarded in a Plethora of ways, can't it?

Where am I going here with my focal point?

Let me tell You:

I've become aware that in many instances I have communicated from a starting point of "Let me Tell You", with a specific emphasis on the positive feeling or negative emotion that comes up within me connected to a desire to say my piece about whatever the point in question happens to be.  In many instances, my telling is a suppressed form of sharing....because my starting point has often been conflicted to some extent.  Not always, but in many instances...Like, specifically when there is an urge to say something...You know, that experience of I got to tell you this now...like oh man, i was triggered by something you said and now i got to let you know what i think about that.

And within this starting point of "let me tell you", there's a whole range of emotion and feeling reactions.  Some of them are subtle and some are intense, and some are somewhere in between subtle and intense.

Who really cares about the quality of communication anyways?  I mean, isn't the most important thing that we just say whatever it is that comes up within ourselves?  You know, like, we are all just shit shooters....shooting shit at each other and making a big deal about shit that isn't really substantial but is just inflated shit that has no real core depth about it...you know, that surface and petty bullshit being flung around.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to speak from a starting point of being worked up within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to thing the importance of what i have to say is determined by the energetic build up inside myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to disregard the quality of my communication.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to self-sacrifice quality of words for quantity of words...as like in a way sexualizing my vocabulary and just wanting to get a rise in a way....so it's like how many times times can i get off, a rise, feel an energetic high and get a release with what i say.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand the extent to which i have justified speaking a sort of venom within my words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to justify spewing shit/venom because of the experience within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to recycle participation within energetic mindfucks within myself.  I realize my capacity to effectively live the accounting for my words here, because i am here within and as my words everyday.  I realize my responsibility to investigate the purity of my words and sounds.

I commit myself to purity in thoughts, words and deeds.

I commit myself to investigatng the purity of my thoughts, words and deeds.

I commit myself to listening to the quality of my sound.

I commit myself to substantiating the equality and oneness of myself here.  I realize my sound in and as my words is a cool cross reference check point.

Day 767 - Maleficient

 


Ma-Lef-i-Cent....Mal-ef-i-cent..Maleficent...


I first recall seeing this word when the movie came out with the title "Maleficent".  I was kind of intrigued by this word because I was not familiar with it...at the time, I did a quick look of the word and found it to be synonymous with evil and wicked.  I stopped consciously investigating the word at that point...However, when I would see this word in the poster for the movie, there was a sort of curiosity about it.  Words we do not really know are so much so a mystery.  I did not know if i knew how to in fact pronounce 'maleficent' correctly.  I was kind of reading it like 'male-ficent'..or 'male-ficient'...this didn't quite sound right to me...but I believed myself to not care anymore about it, and it would be just a word I would kind of disregard, and not really know all that well, while kind of justifying that I know enough about it because I connected it to 'evil and wicked'.

Maleficent

"causing or capable of producing evil or mischief; harmful or baleful. malefic, adjective. maleficence, noun. C17: from Latin maleficent-, from maleficus wicked, prone to evil, from malum evil."


Maleficent came up in discussion earlier today while sorting out perceptions of ego that I have been sorting out.  In my mind, so much so, I have regarded myself as, 'Magnificent'. Which, ironically is so much so Maleficent, from the perspective of playing the polarity flip flop in perceptions and deliberately choosing to pick the 'positive' associations to hold in mind as Being 'It' as the form and information that creates my character personality.

Ironically, what is missed within seeking out and defining oneself within the positive light, even with the best of intentions...is the split decision that results as outflow consequence of the accepted and allowed word relationships.  Let me further explain this:  See, if you deliberate take a word and you superimpose it onto yourself for all time, as like this is my form here, this is who I am...You are influencing your form here with the information you are using....which is an act of self-manipulation in so many ways as a result of not really understanding oneself here and how to in fact be capable of expressing words without limitation from moment to moment.  See, so longs as there are these formed impressions/definitions about oneself here as the character you are here...as the who you are completely defined....you are predictably trapped withing your own self-created mind construct.  A self-imprisonment if you will.

Why is this seemingly bad when it sounds like such a good idea to be specific with the words to define yourself as? Well, it's bad from the perspective, that it re-enforces the programming of  oneself being an automatic robot...predictable programming...and then just kind of playing out the various consequences of such a construction, because over time, the programming becomes more and more rooted in as what was accepted and allowed....it's so much more substantiated and self validated as what it means to be here.....All the While, Ironically, the ability to actually Express oneself in any given moment as any particular Word, Showcasing a complete range of flexibility in one's creative capacity to Act and Express what it means to live Responsibility.

See, if i look back into my earlier days, I figured I might as well self-define myself as the Best in the World.  My initial starting point perspective was definitely rooted in survival here, thinking that my greatness is in what I believe, as the rhyming of "what Believe, I can Achieve".  Interestingly enough, I didn't really question why I would really need to create this sort of ongoing Belief within myself...to me, it just seemed like a sort of trick to give myself a competitive edge here, from the perspective that it's up to me to create the best for myself.  Ironically, at that time I did not understand myself in relationship to others here, as like being various points of mirror reflection here...so, so much so I was well on my way in created dissonance within my perception of my shared reality here.  Ironically, with good intentions. 

To give some overall clarity in word relationships:

I've come to realize my capacity to express myself is within and as moments here.  So much so, the moment is a result of and as myself here as a complimentary player and action directing my response ability. 

The interesting thing here, and it is still a continuous process I am opening up, Is in taking the Care to see where I went into an Automatic Reaction in relationship to the relationships in my environment.  What is fascinating about this, is that by investigating the automated behavior which is reaction based, is just a going through the motions without really being an active living participant here...not too mention the play out, isn't really a self-directive play at all....though, ironically, within one's own mind, the reactions as one's actions, make total sense....complete total sense, because that is the very logic/programming that was authorized, whether consciously or unconsciously...the behavior characterization was consented and scripted into one's very own self-personified his/her story.

Words are creative tools for ourselves to express ourselves here.  Our ability to express ourselves effectively here is within our knowing how creative tools work in shaping our form as information from moment to moment.  The irony of course is that holding onto some words all the time, with particular charges about the word...as like it being energetically negative;y charged or positively charged...creates this wedge within oneself where our ability to move as the expression of our Potential is compromised within and as our very own Spelling.  

Let's together here, take a moment and explore the Self-responsible Play of Self-Forgiveness:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding what it really means to express myself as living words from moment to moment as the movement of myself here as a sound.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I created my own self-authorized hypnosis within and from the starting point of wanting to be the best in the world.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how my thinking is so much so a reactionary play out of the making of sense of what I have accepted and allowed myself to believe.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the restrictions I have created upon my capacity to express myself and to see and hear what is here with clarity as a result of what I have self-authorized within myself as my thoughts/feelings/emotions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to really go in depth into looking at my starting point for wanting to be positive.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding that my status standing capacity to express myself from moment to moment is within and as my ability to self-correct my reactions from moment to moment and to create self-corrective solutions as an expression of me standing here from the starting point of Life - Oneness and Equality.  I realize and understand that this is a process of creative play and work as there is much to be done in seeing the errors of our ways and to seeing how we can move beyond accepted and allowed restrictions/limitations.  I realize that our a world is so much so a reflection of our words and our ability / inability to take accountability for our words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for nor realizing and understanding how each and every word is a multi dimensional tool and expression here and our ability to naturally play with the potential that exists here, is a result of our willingness to stop polarizing our accepted and allowed self-definitions here.  I realize our creative capacity is within our ability to remove the energetic charges from our words as this is so much so the key to a real world debt forgiveness, where we are no more enslaved to our own accepted and allowed bullshit.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to thoroughly question What it is I am accepting and allowing,..I realize that is complete bullshit.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for logically self-manipulating myself into believing myself to be separate from the bullshit that exists here in our world,...and for believing myself to be not responsible for all the bullshit here.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing how I have had a tendency to discount my capacity for change that is best for myself and others here.

I forgive myself for unwittingly accepting and allowing myself to be at war with the world.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the profound ironies within and as the military systems of control in this world and the amount of defenses/justifications and excuses I have created within myself as necessary as a result of how I am within and as my thoughts/emotions/feelings.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for defining myself as Magnificent in opposition of of Maleficent.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying myself to be better than others within my thinking from a point of egoistic superiority as a result of believing that I am just better and more committed to self-defining my own greatness.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing the self-compromise within making believe character personalities for oneself as like the consequential outflow of self-definition from the perspective of focusing on building up a positive self regard rooted in a conflict.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding that the more one polarizes oneself here in language, the more difficult it is to in fact have effective relationships here.  I realize our real potential here in this world is within harmonizing the points of dissonance within our language/vocabulary.


I commit myself to sounding through the process of word and world accountability, by taking the time to investigate myself and world here and to in fact utilize all the different mirrors of self-reflection that exist here.

I commit myself to sharing my process or word and world relationships.

I commit myself to expressing my process of self-investigation here.

I commit myself to the moment by moment word movement and expression of myself here.

I commit myself to play with the development of my word and world potential here.

I commit myself to assist and support others to develop there creative capacity to play with what they say and to unlock the moment by moment potential of ourselves here as practical living word and world participants Here.

I commit myself to continue to share myself in writing.

I commit myself to stop flip flopping myself within the realms of positive and negative reactions as like absolute belief systems within myself.  

When and as I see myself becoming stuck within a moment, as like having a resistance to moving myself and taking directive responsibility for my participation, I stop and breathe, I have a look at my momentary accepted and allowed bullshit...i allow myself to sit within my shit for a moment, and really see what i am doing/accepting and allowing for myself here....I also acknowledge and realize that what I am accepting and allowing for myself here, I am in fact accepting and allowing for all of existence...I face my shit...and realize that enough is enough...time to play..time to move...time for fun...time for self expression.  I see the ridiculous absurdity in deliberately accepting and allowing self-suppression.  I commit myself to the process of practical living here.  I realize that this is a process unfoldment here, and that sometimes my movements may be lame and less than graceful.  I realize there is so much fun potential here in allowing myself permission to express myself from moment to moment.  I realize my capacity to live and express words from moment to moment, develops organically as I allow myself to work with my play here in all that I say and do.

Day 757 - The Flick of the Con

 


I've learned some ironically funny things about Conflict.  Specifically, myself relationship within and as conflict...how primarily so much so it is a decision of myself to accept and allow such relationship ridiculousness as the particular dynamics of various degrees of contextual relationship dynamics.

To place this simplistically,...the point is this....Being at war/odds with things is so much a choice within and as the accepted and allowed word relationships that exist within oneself as the particular feeling/emotional charges one holds onto as a debt bond.  Fascinating it is to see the word relationships as debt bonds...the specifics of particular relationship information contexts as carrying so called charges which are essentially a sort of zing I have been doing onto myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to slow down in such moments where it is in fact possible for myself to see and realize what I am in fact allowing....and to from here actually change the very nature of my word contractual relationships.

I realize the absurd ridiculousness of creating debt for myself within and as my word relations.

I realize how ridiculously absurd it is to bond myself to debt as like making myself dependent upon charges held against myself that I am so much so at the mercy of.

I realize the absurd ridiculousness of drafting such absurd contractual relationships within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extensive nature of each and every moment as an opportunity to so much so check myself within and as my word relationships...as I see and realize my words are my bonds.  Within this, I see and realize my words as the best bonds are that which are based within and as the frame work of equality and oneness...that exist free from conflictual feeling/emotion charges against myself that create a trigger as a reoccurring and perpetuating reactionary debt bond.

I commit myself to absolving myself from debt/conflict within and as my word/world relationships Here.

I realize this is a word by word process.

I commit myself to living the self-correction of and from conflicting contractual terms of word/world relations to substantially beneficial terms of word/world agreements.

Day 742 - Brushing off a Reaction

Have you ever experienced a moment where you are discussing something with someone and the person you are communicating with gets upset rather abruptly with something you said?

I have.

I have often reacted within myself to such situations as like taking offense as a form of defense within myself towards the other person. And depending on the nature of the relationship with the other person, I would either project my emotional disdain externally back at them as a form of retaliation or I would just kind of swallow it whole within myself and keep the disdain to myself as like my own nuclear holocaust...as a result of fearing to provoke further conversation with a stranger or just out of not wanting to perpetuate bullshit.  Though the interesting thing in both instances is that I didn't really effectively remediate the situation and the situation influenced me in a rather negative way...as i had a stress moment within my body as a reaction and I didn't really do anything with it...other than maybe burying as a suppression mechanism.

Would you like to know a cool way to continue onward with how things were going in communication before the reactionary time bomb went off?

Take no offense or defense.,,,and continue onward with the conversation as to not give added attention to the shit from the perspective of building up a defense/offense within yourself. This is a point that will most likely take practice. What has supported me within this point is practicing real-time forgiveness within myself...where I see the momentary reaction within myself and the desire to be pulled within to it as like a following along within the energetic pull. One is able to become quite effective in actually stopping such points immediately and forgiving oneself for taking offense/defense to such an extent that participating in such an instance is comical from the sense that it is completely ridiculous to accept such acceptances and allowances within oneself.

Now, as you practice/play with this point...you will most likely have some outbursts from time to time...though what is cool here is that you still have the opportunity to catch/hear/here yourself within mid outburst and apply the stopping of the pull energy experience and give yourself a forgiveness gift of removal from obsession/consumption within the point and Now Listen UP...Because Here is where it gets really cool....You can Speak the Solution aloud as the Live Actor/Player Playing/making it up/happen....Where you in the moment take ownership for the situation and speak from a starting point of ease which is the self-trust free from disease...and this is the sound of Freedom is freedom is a sound...Lol. I say this is the sound of Freedom because this is a harmoniously complimentary support for yourself and the Person you are communicating with...Because you are Sounding yourself here within a point of Equality and Oneness which is a remediation and removal from allowing war/conflict to take over and dissipate the relationship flow and continuation.

This approach illustrates a fantastic example within communication where the true Authority Sounds Directs the situation from a sound point of and as Self-Responsibility. What is fascinating about this is that the person you were communicating with who was in a state of disarray will be aided to follow along with your sound as a support and assistance mechanism so that they can be receptive in receive the sound support you are giving as the Sound foundation from and as the Principle "I Live to Give, As What is Best, Always All Way."

See it's interesting here if you examine the development of human communications...we have been so very much accustomed and conditioned to following reactions as like a war of words and so there is often this underlying competition of military power in a way where it's like the biggest reaction/ bomb is the winner....and it's really silly in the most ridiculous ways if you allow yourself to become intimately aware of how you are compelled to be pulled within and as a reactionary experience that comes up within yourself in relationship to another impulsing/influencing...So here to this is to see how Lame this is because it is very much rooted in and as the acceptance and allowance of Blame as like the victim mentality of saying Oh look what they did...what they did to me....which ultimately results in the perpetuation of reaction to a reaction which is like justifying being stupid because they are stupid...which if you think about it is really quite bizarre and dare I say Stupid?

So, remember it is cool ....very cool....to address the point of reaction another person faces but...the key within this is to not get hung up on it...as like to then go into reaction yourself and get all high in mighty in and as the point of being a self-righteous asshole...because that just perpetuates bullshit and it's like war of assholes that just results in a lot of unnecessary shitting on one another....which isn't really the most effective way to directly fertilize the initial point of shit...it's like too much undigested shit...a verbal diarrhea if you will.

Again, remember that who we are here within this physical word is very much structurally sound...and so our sounds are reflected in and as our words....Our musical notes if you will....See the supporting composition to consider the duet of complimentary sharing's coming together where even if one has a slip....the other is there to catch them as like the aerobics of effectively being able to due the tango...because it takes two to tango...so it's an agreement flow point...so yo....don't diss the flow by knocking your partner in communicado by reigning shit fire on them as like some sort of army commando.

See it is funny that we are all it here as how we share...so rather take the care to prepare the best ways to pair up...so that whoever your partner is..meaning person to dance in communication with...whether it's a square or line dance or a prophetic waltz...it's all about keeping things rudimentary in and as the relationship of angles...meaning to See and understanding that we are working/playing here as complimentary angles as the best support and occasionally we will make a blip...but this is the art of the freestyle where we in the moment, Quantum styles do our individualized self-realized Freestyle that comes as the flows of the fountain we are as the water movement sound structurally sound as our Merry go Round be Here Now...continuous planting and grounding process.  Success is the Process because Pro is in the Success and we Become Professional as we Says is so so says the Process as the Pro says So.

If I lost You in the last paragraph or so,,,Maybe after this paragraph, re-read the previous two paragraphs as like the chorus in the song you are working/playing along as the Pro-fess-I-On-All...Professional Director Here.

Hear Here :)

Day 718 - Removing the Ego from Greatness, the Grounding Process

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into the point of big ego as a result of having good results within particular points of sharing/performance.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thirsting for the recognition as the praise within a job well done as like mastery in execution.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to mentally masturbate accepted and allowed suppression into a transmuted experience of Superiority that feels so good from the perspective of getting myself high within and as my very own self-induced trite.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the psychic vampirism within and as the accepted and allowed big ego reaction as getting high as a result of the actions/responses others share.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking the ultimate life and living is within and as the established status position within the world system as recognized fame and fortunate.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the absurd ridiculousness of ego.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for denying the inferiority which fuels the attitude of ego.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying the self-righteousness within ego as like believing that I am entitled to a positive high energetic buzz.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the pain and trauma as the self-inflicted self-abuse that exists within and as the reactionary play out of ego.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for bouncing around in reactionary polarity play as character personifications as either big or small ego...based upon the judgement of sizing myself up in relationship to others here as my ego competition for ultimate supremacy here as like the KingOfTheCastle, the One Winner.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having resisted to examine the reactionary positive energy high or big/super ego.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for suppressing the solidarity here as the relationship with all my peers here as the various reflections of myself as One and Equal as Everything here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating a dissonance within myself as an ego personality that is incomplete that cannot relate to all Life here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for denying the abuse of greed as ego.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being self-righteous in fighting for my very own limitation as the result of being defensive in relationship to other ego's here/

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for participating in sports and activities from the starting point of ego as like the encouragement of dissonance within myself for the potential moment of bliss that may result from existing as the great one winner for a brief moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to disregard all Life here within and as a result of being preoccupied with my own ego status in relationship to others ego status.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to thrive of the misfortune of others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being blinded within positive energy participation as a like a form of mental masturbation into a daze,

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to stumble and fumble around within a haze of positive energy feelings of disregard for the actually status and state of World affairs.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for dismissing accounting responsibility for myself as an able bodied being that is here that can support the stopping of bullshit here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing the propagated ego hero character that exists within our world that is like the status acceptance and allowance agreement that abusing life for an experience is is what this world is all about.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for just wanting to be a part of the big ego story here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for desiring and regarding to be well accepted and regarded by others as a result of doubting myself and believing that I can only trust myself if I have the trust of many others believing in me.  I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how fake this believed trust to be, when one rationalizes one's very own state of mind from a starting point of dissonance in relationship to Everything here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowiing myself to encourage the continuation of cognitive dissonance in our shared world.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for limiting my potential expressions here within the justification that it feels good to win at the expense of another feeling bad in loosing and that is just the way things are...so the decision is either abuse or be abused. I realize the absurd ridiculousness of the mentality of apathy, lack of self-trust, lack of self-confidence, and the lack of empathy and remorse.

When and as I see myself going into a energetic high experience in and as reaction to receiving positive feedback, I stop and breathe, I see the specifics of the point that exists as a dissonance within myself...I forgive myself for accepting and allowing such a dissonance to exist inside myself as the acceptance of myself as less than life here. I realign myself as self-regard as I care to make sure I effectively remove the contamination in my vocabulary and within this I reestablish the terms of agreement here as what is best for all life from the starting point of myself existence here as Oneness and Equality.  I realize and understand I am in the midst of the birthing process of myself actualization here as All as One as Equal. I commit myself to the humbling gratitude in seeing/realizing and physically learning to stand and walk and move in always that are best for all of Life here.

I commit myself to stopping apathy.

I commit myself to living self-trust.

I commit myself to living self-confidence.

I commit myself to empathy.

I commit myself to compassion and remorse.

I realize the practical application of not allowing myself to be consumed within any point, because that is not practical in supporting my ability to live responsibility here.

I commit myself to exposing the ridiculousness of the ego games here.

I commit myself to educate on the character dynamics of ego.

I commit myself to stop perpetuating our culture of psychic vampirism.

I commit myself to removing the ego from Greatness and grounding myself within the earth here as commitment to Life.

Day 692 - Free Dumb of Speech....I Mean Free Doom....Freedom...

We live in interesting times. A time where we are faced with the question of, "what is and isn't acceptable behavior?"

It's interesting in looking at the topic of Freedom of Speech.  It's somewhat of a complex subject...yet the potential exists for it to be relatively simple.

I heard someone say that Freedom of speech is so controversial, because what is regarded as offensive and abusive to One person isn't necessarily abusive to another person.

It's like punching or slapping someone....some people might actually want you to do it....some might not really want you to do it, but they'll take it... and some will dish out a punch or slap of their own as a justified tit for tat kind of thing.An

What's interesting about this topic is the standards people have...as what is regarded as acceptable and not acceptable.

You may have heard the saying, "so and so has no filter"

Interesting to regard the fact that most water needs a filter to drink...if you didn't have a filter there would be too much non supportive things in the water....too much shit.

The point seems obvious about provisions of Freedom of Speech in regard to "Hate". Hate I see is and as where abuse originates from in speech. Hate is associated with violence...where the ends are believed to justify the means...or retribution and retaliation.

I am questioning here the general basics of how we typically communicate with one another. Like for instance, in specific regards to communication....the usage of opinion. I have generated some opinions within my writing here...and they are my statements of fact so to speak....but they are not actually absolute in terms of being this is this and only this kind of thing....I mean there is room for interpretation.

Do our opinions really matter when and as they are subjective?

Is this how Hate is created? Is Hate only ever Subjective? An Emotion?

Is this polarized also with Love? Is this subjective outlook of Love and Hate, problematic?

In choosing to Hate and choosing to Love....are we not less than our potential ability?

Is it a point of deception in choosing whether or not You will Love or Hate?

Why is a choice presented as a polarization of sorts...where it's like you either choose this or you choose this....either way you must make a choice?


Looking at "Freedom" and what does it really mean?  Isn't it interesting that when I look up the definition of freedom, there are so many definitions listed.....does this suggest that the very word relationship accepted within humanity in regards to freedom is complicated? Isn't war simply a result of complications? Isn't disease manifested as a result of physical body complications?

1.

the state of being free or at liberty rather than in confinement or under physical restraint:

He won his freedom after a retrial.

2.

exemption from external control, interference, regulation, etc.

3.

the power to determine action without restraint.

4.

political or national independence.

5.

personal liberty, as opposed to bondage or slavery:

a slave who bought his freedom.

6.

exemption from the presence of anything specified (usually followed byfrom):

freedom from fear.

7.

the absence of or release from ties, obligations, etc.

8.

ease or facility of movement or action:

to enjoy the freedom of living in the country.

9.

frankness of manner or speech.

10.

general exemption or immunity:

freedom from taxation.

11.

the absence of ceremony or reserve.

12.

a liberty taken.

13.

a particular immunity or privilege enjoyed, as by a city or corporation:

freedom to levy taxes.

14.

civil liberty, as opposed to subjection to an arbitrary or despotic government.

15.

the right to enjoy all the privileges or special rights of citizenship,membership, etc., in a community or the like.

16.

the right to frequent, enjoy, or use at will:

to have the freedom of a friend's library.

17.

Philosophy. the power to exercise choice and make decisions without constraint  from within or without; autonomy; self-determination.

Compare necessity (def 7).

See the Free within Freedom.....Notice the practical value of Free...I mean free is kind of synonymous with the number zero....because each represents/symbolizes Nothingness...a value is therefore absent in and as it's worth.

I find the whole notion of Freedom mildly entertaining as like there is all sorts of irony about it. This is a tragic comedy really.

Fighting for freedom is paradoxical....because it is like a dog chasing it's tail....the one is the other! Wait what? the dog is the tail and the tail is part of the dog....the tail and the dog are one?....Huh? Wait, what? Freedom and Fighting are the same thing? How so? Freedom is the choice to fight....freedom is in it's very nature a conflict of sorts...where decisions are made from and as the starting point of conflict....where there is a recognition of conflict and the decision to distance oneself from it...as like nah, not my problem....not going to take responsibility.....I choose self interest...I am free to do whatever I want....I want what I want.

Imagine if the sun was free to not work and and take vacations whenever?

What about your heart deciding to fuck off just because?

What about your legs decide to just stop working?

What about your eyeballs deciding they want to take a vacation and pop out of your skull?

Why should we humans be any different in and as our capacity for responsibility than the sum of our body parts?

Isn't it interesting that there is so much hoopla about freedom...when really this is a point that arguably contributes to the destruction of physical loving actions made visible as the acknowledgement and regard for the value of all life here.

Do you see how we humans have been conditioned to be in conflict with the regard and value for all Life here....beginning with our very self....cells here?

Notice the conflict that exists within and as the polarization of feelings and emotions.

Imagine the sun operating based on feelings and emotions that were always changing....like a bi-polar attitude flux of love/hate...where wanting to scorch and nurture...or like a good/bad duo....as like never really stable in and as its application? I mean what the fuck...right?

Is Freedom the enslavement to the acceptance and allowance of fear?

Think about it? Freedom....your free to feel how you want....free to do what you want....free to not listen to anyone else...free to choose....free ....free...free.....free dumb.....free doom..........fear is the freedom......it's like a control game really.....when you actually give up freedom you have freedom.....when you let go of desire you have desire.....when you give you get.....when you share you are cared for....when you live you in fact give.....in giving you get to live...

Freedom...in accepting and allowing anything and everything within yourself....freedom in chaos....freedom in an absence of principles/laws....order....harmony. Freedom in disharmony....freedom for disregard.....being free to regard...is not the same as practically living regard....because to practically live regard is beyond a choice....it's a commitment and responsibility....it's a realization.....what you see for real that is here.....it's passed the point of being able to choose whether or not you are able and or capable of seeing...you in fact in living your capability within and as your response ability...where responsibility is a loving action...where the physical actions are compassionately careful in nature as sharing is caring, a nurturing nourishment if you will. 

How have I been living freedom in the western world?  free to follow my desire that exists within my emotion/feeling predisposition as like giving all my attention to following along withing and as my train of thoughts....boarding and reboarding my thought trains when and as I feel like it...because the emotion and feeling act like the moral compass as the ultimate deciding factor as to how much I am interested in something is that buzz of the emotion and or feeling energy about the point...You know...like my focus is in relationship to my bliss....my energy....the memory relationships I have created in relationship to specific experiences as events therefore shaping and dictating my future governing of myself here. 

Isn't it interesting how specific events in history or perpetuating as landmark significance...and even celebrated on a yearly basis...as like to encourage a remembering and systematic upgrade coding and programming structure of perspective of how things are accepted and allowed to exist.

Isn't it interesting to actually investigate the very nature of our individual acceptances and allowances?

Isn't it interesting to see that our "programmed" self interest has been based on and in our mind consciousness freedom...where we as a mind consciousness system were free to choose....or shall I say free to believe in choice...as the thinking we have choice and freedom in particular matters...as like to believe that we exist here beyond the makeup of our information coding and actually dismissing the very facts of our acceptances and allowances that we fear to face about the history of self here...as an individual story that is collectively shared in various capacities...because each is a contributing player in and as the overall creation/structure here.

More Irony in relationship to Freedom....Nothing in this world is free.....funny statement here....because nothing is nothing...and this world is everything/everyone....and free is also a synonym of nothing...sharing/denoting the same value of zero in regard/relationship to money.

So this fighting for freedom has been like the destruction of life value and regard.  Freedom is such a word of abuse....does it really even need to exist....arguably one of the most abusive words to exist.....I mean really can greatness be practically lived when and as Freedom exists?  Well, I say No. Why? Look at the physical functioning of our body parts....does freedom exist there....no ....responsibility exists in replace of freedom....it's like being dumb is a choice and this is where the whole "freedom debacle" originated from....it's really a result of the information/education we bought into....it's like placing the value and regard outside of ourselves as a result of not realizing and understanding the extent of ourselves here and therefore our very mirrored reflections...self reflections have been negated and we have most unfortunately done harm unto ourselves and each other here.

Enough is enough....end the freedom brigade and take responsibility for the world system in which you are a part of....join the system and therefore empower yourself as actually being able to direct problems into solutions that are best....I mean this is real alchemy...where you can actually practically change the physical structure of the systems here to that which is best.

How we change our accountability and our actually grounding responsibility here within and as our practical living realization of words as the seeing for real what has always been here....this is in fact our awareness.

To Be Continued

Day 652 The Art of Communication

Effective communication is like a communion of action where there is a coming together in and as an agreement. What I find fascinating about this is the very fact that this is based on comprehension of what is being said/articulated. Meaning, there can be many different points of view and perspectives within and as the communication between people...and that is actually quite cool...in fact, this is a point of sharing in and as the expansion of self-development here...where our world expands in and as the seeing of a new perspective about a point. And from this perspective here...the communication is not a battle/argument/conflict....it is an exchange of information from the starting point that sharing is caring...and sharing and caring are fucking awesome.

It's interesting to see how there is difficulty in communication when one or more parties involved in communication take some sort of offense to specific information that is shared...like, a reaction to the information is usually in the form of offense/defense...where the information is essentially not comprehended and processed effectively within one's mind....which creates a disharmony of sorts....which results in a temporary misalignment within the potential harmony and rhythm of the sharing exchange and transference of information.

What is so fascinating about communication is our movement. Whether it be verbal or non-verbal.

It has become self-evident to me that when a point is not comprehended effectively there is a reaction which results in a particular energetic movement within the body....and, this movement can be verbal or non-verbal. In becoming acutely aware of these energetic movements within self and therefore others here, one can stand within and as the self-responsibility of directing any and every disharmony that occurs within the sharing of information.

What is fascinating about taking self-responsibility, is that we in fact enable our ability to respond/communicate effectively. Ironically, without gifting and giving ourself the responsibility to self-correct and remove points of dissonance/disharmony as moments of energetic reaction,...One's ability to hear and be heard here is suppressed....which is a most unfortunate mind fuck, a tragic comedy really, because, ineffective communication is a mistake and contamination in and as one's own relationship with words/Self here.

I have noticed that within one's immediate family....there can be much disharmony in communication...because there is so much emotion and feeling related to one another....which makes the energetic reactions in and as voice tonality greater/stronger...because the charges against oneself are so much more extreme and there has been such a build of emotion and feeling within the memories of each family member....that one is often much more easily triggered when another family member speaks to them. I heard something said along the lines of, "end war in the family....and there will be no war in the world" This is a fascinating exposure here because essentially the war that exists externally throughout the World is a total mirror and self-reflection of the war of words that exist within ourselves here. So, as we take responsibility for our words and actions here, we take responsibility in remediating the war/conflicts that exist here....because the wars and conflicts that exist are in fact nothing more than a consequential outflow of improper comprehension of vocabulary.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for reacting in moments of communication as a point of impatience...in not wanting to really shut up and listen and receive what is being shared with me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being self-righteous within communication from and as the perspective of not wanting to take the time to listen and actually process and comprehend what is being shared with me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying moments of blame within communication as a result of validating the use of judgement as a self-defense mechanism to super impose the position of blame. 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how communication is in fact a simple point of sharing and that communication only becomes difficult when one decided within one's mind that they do not want to be patient and self-responsible within giving and receiving as what is best for Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the art of communication.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for investing emotions and feeling about particular words/things/people/places/behaviors and actions to such an extent that I feared letting go of the emotion/feeling/investment/relationship I created.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding my verbal and non verbal communication.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be lazy within my communication.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding my sounds within sharing my sounds here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how a contaminated vocabulary results in and as the suppression of particular self-expressions here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to hear/listen to myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to take offense and defense in relationship to seeing and hearing what is here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to battle myself within and as the suppression of my sound here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to compromise and suppress my sound/movement/expression/beingness here within and as a result of participating within energetic reactions.

I see, realize and understand how energetic reactions are less than who I really am as Life.

I see, realize and understand how energetic reactions are the suppression of life substance here.

I see, realize and understand how to stop suppressing myself here.

I see, realize and understand how to direct/self-correct reactions/disharmony here.

I see, realize and understand the importance of self-responsibility within and as communication here.

I see, realize and understand how to communicate effectively.

I see, realize and understand the art of communication.

I see, realize and understand the 'art of communication' to be a point of self-movement/self-expression here as how we play.


I commit myself to playing,

I commit myself to assisting and supporting myself and others to make the best plays and be the best players here.

I commit myself to practically living awesomeness within and as communication.

I commit myself to sound communication as the self-realization that who I am as sound is beyond the self-imposed limitations of energetic reactions as emotion and feeling.

I commit myself to sharing my sounds/words/movements in ways that are best for all Life here.

I commit myself to living and applying the 'art of communication' as who and how I am here as the starting point of self-responsibility and self-awareness that always exists here beyond consciousness.

Day 557 Violent Reflection

In dreams I've had recently just before I woke up I could see that I was instigating/perpetuating violence. Like there was this anger in me that acted as like the reasoned excuse and justification for violence as a necessary measure of retribution. Like the belief existing in me that it's all about pay back...and pay back is a nasty bitch. The specific details of the dreams both times are a bit fuzzy...but what stands out is that after I woke up I was faced with looking and seeing how there is anger and violence being accepted and allowed within myself. This is not cool. I mean a little bit I was kind of like what the fuck. Obviously within regarding myself in everythinghere that means I am within the violence and abuse that exists here. This is the uncool stuff to regard and face within self-honesty...because no one wants to regard and consider themselves responsible for the most brutal nasty atrocious acts imaginable. Interesting to look and see that collectively within our minds we are guilty of the play out that exists here as our global reality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing my for believing violence to be a justifiable means of retribution and restitution.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for supporting violence as a fear protection mechanism as like kill or be killed.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for logically reasoning the justification and perpetuation of violence as a necessary action.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing violence to be a practical living solution as a way to solve problems.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing murdering people to be an acceptable way of solving problems.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having had violent thoughts of retribution.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having participated in violent disputes with family members.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for validating and justifying violence as a logical reactionary response to being angry.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having suppressed the shame of holding onto any anger towards another being.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for punishing myself and others with anger.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting mercy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having regarded and believed mercy to be a sign of weakness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being self-righteous within regarding violence as an answer and solution.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having backchatted within movies and shows about wanting the villain to be killed by the good guy hero.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to support energetically charged polarity based characters as the spectrum of emotions and feelings. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have perpetuated character conflict within myself as a result of choosing to fight and be angry.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding what it means to exist within a wholesome anger as that which does not consume oneself within and as energetic possession.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having wanted to bring up the point of violence.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which I must take self-responsibility for every point of battle/conflict/war that exists within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having desired to derive power through engaging and inciting conflict that perpetuates and encourages myself existing within anger reactions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the violence I have caused to my physical body as a result of accepting and allowing myself to harbor energetic angered judgement towards myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the totality of what it means to look at and investigate myself here in all ways that are best for Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for spiting myself within abusing myself within anger.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for desiring to stimulate myself with anger.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being addicted to anger triggers.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for bullying myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the shame within and as self-victimization.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have inflicted physical violence upon myself within not realizing and understanding the effects of reactions as energetic acceptancesand allowances.

When and as I see myself being triggered with anger,I stop and breathe, I face the point of anger within investigating the trigger and I realize and understand the opportunity here for me to learn from my mistake and self-correct my programming as a practical living solution to insure the prevention of perpetuating the energetic charge of anger within myself in the future.

When and as I see myself validating/justifying/desiring the play out of violence, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand the ridiculously absurd abuse in justifying the perpetuation of violence.

When and as I see myself desiring retribution, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand the shame within logically reasoning the use of violence as an effective programming/remediation/rehabilitation program.

I commit myself to stop all violence from existing within myself.

I commit myself to share the absurd ridiculousness of violence onto one another as reasoned and justifiable outlet for energetic fits of anger/rage.

I commit myself stopping all energetic anger in relationships.

I commit myself to only accepting and allowing a wholesome anger to exist within me as the word anger as like a point of motivation within seeing and realizing my shame here...which is like a cold reminder and support platform for walking change for real that can stand here eternally as what is best for all Life.

I commit myself to self-correct every single point of energetic anger that exists within myself.

I commit myself to prevent the justification of violence within myself.

I commit myself to facing all my mistakes that are disgustingly shameful.

I commit myself to utilizing self-reflection here.