Day 769 - Exploring the Word "Lame"

 


I have a little bit of a negative tinge towards the word "Lame" as like arghh, ahhh,, fuck, god damn, not cool, cannot look, must look away, beyond embarrassing, uncomfortable....and, unfathomable to continuously think about.

So, that is what comes to mind in relationship to the word Lame.

I was investigating the word Lame recently and had made a general concerted effort to remove the negative energetic charges I had been holding onto in regards to Lame.  I missed these points....ironically enough, it's like i got caught in my own lameness and didnt want to look at my Lame acceptances and allowances. LOL. ridiculous indeed.  I appreciate a good laugh at myself, so I see the points here and I direct.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have a negative tinge like reaction to the word lame.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for superimposing words upon myself with energetic charges.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing the tragic and ironic comedy within my relationship towards the word Lame.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to within a negative tinge like reaction, regard Lame as: arghh, ahhh, fuck, god damn, not cool, cannot look, must look away, beyond embarrassing, uncomfortable, and unfathomable to continuously look/think about.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how points can be missed as a sort of self-sabotage within deliberately being vague/overly-general about the investigation into a word relationship.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how Irony can be a rather specific tool for investigating words, where you can use the word Irony as a sort of cross reference where you have a look to see if you are being ironically stuck within the very word you are making a concerted effort to investigate.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing how cool a tool Irony is within investigating words as like a fun and funny play to aid in and as the word investigation/exploration.


To Be Continued

Day 755 - What's Your Deal?

Check out the video I made, "What's your Deal?"

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OIAOXDrOoOU

The video was created as an expansion and outflow of the writing of the blog:  Day 754 - "Funny Thing about Deals"

IN-JOY!

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Day 715 - Audacity in Creativity Living Rhapsody

The Song is me..
The Song is One.
The Song is Always Sung.
The Song is Won.
The Winning Song Is Always.
The Creative Audacity in Living Rhapsody.

The Playwrights is to Play with the right and the left side as part of the compass of moral discretion as the discernment to choose as Always loss Prevention. The protection is in the Play rite as the writing of passage...the laws governing the body of self doing it here.

The body of government is the creativity in audacity as Living Rhapsody.

The Yo of the flow...the recognition of re-cognition..the rewiring of lying as to fire the liars from communicating through the wires making this cellular as the status standing agreement of Our Cells here...the Seeing Ourselves all together here...as to get here...is to get her..as the understanding and realization of the mother-ship...ya the leadership boarding...No hoarding..

This is Greatness...the Nest that is Great,.

Grattiude?

Yes please....the pleasure of attitude be the One you want...the winning Won...because you know how it goes....self-regard....appreciation and acceptances be part of the daily bread in giving living allowance as the money that is our honey pot pie..as the why to the we high as we low...the as above so below and the side to side in the decide brigade as the cumming together of knowing how to masturbate...no need for debate...fuck the weed...no need....we doing the deed...Indeed...we live the daily doing deeds as our very pleasures Indeed.

Ski bop the hip hop like flowing down the mountain on the jungle gymnasium inside the cranium rock cap...rock rock to the beach house....all housing inclusive of the law of Gratitude be the Attitude...living the law Greatness is the nest of our residing as the desire in reside...check it..see it...cash money living life value.....regarding yes..as the agreement purpose point in postured positioning a stance of self-acceptance that is Great.

Grateful is Key in being full of Great...though check it as the money in the bank...with greatness comes great responsibility because it;s an actuality of living in physical reality...the maneuverability in the acquisition of substantiating a position.

Poster the Posture...for the Posture is the Post You are.
The Rhapsody of Self-Expression....
Orgasmic...
The Oar, The Gas and The Mic...
Tools Check...Making it Made...Motor Boating the landing whether or not weather permitting because I make the permits for my permissions as the standing authority in and as the recognition of moral allegory in principle posed positioning as what;s best for You is Best for Me. Yo!


Wordy wordage is part of the stretching in expanding the mobility as how you sketch it so...so you know...because sometimes it comes out as the aftermath of the shout...but check it...it was here already as the fountain flowing within...the water runs non stop...the mouth be the tap...whether you tap dance or not...the song is song in every note as the sounding of it why as the how and the when as the what the we got here.

Musician in an Orchestra with a Sea of Organs...playing each piece has it;s part...no part can direct all parts as each part has it's own individual part ...so each part can stand as the individuality creativity audacity rhapsody as the flow go you know and trust...can't rust when you bust,..because just a paused hiccup indicator symptom symbol like a stop sign to slow down...rewind try it again...check the tempo

Momentum is the mountainous movement of the moment when you go Uhm and than drop the hesitation and stick to performance presentation

Day 637 Tree Planting Introduction and Chapter 1

OK, So, I am here in Vanderhoof British Colombia at the moment in a motel apartment.  I am tree planting for the next three months. Staying in a motel apartment while tree planting is considered luxurious accommodations. Most people who go tree planting stay in a bush camp somewhere in the middle of nowhere...meaning when you get home from work...you got to your tent...camping...camping sounds cool when you doing it in the middle of somewhere or when it is somewhat short lived as like a little vacation....but, when it is snowing off and on the first couple of weeks of the season...camping loses some of it's appeal...not to mention the shower setup in a bush camp...where maybe the first dozen...if that...get a warm shower...from the make shift shower trailer...and then everyone else is stuck with cold water...or just neglect the shower point all together because it's cold outside at night..and you just are soooooo tired that you cant be bothered. Oh ya, I mentioned I am in motel apartment...this is somewhat of a dream tree planting contract...the kind of contract...I heard rumors about in my earlier seasons...that just seemed almost too good to be true.

It's been said before that your body goes through a sort of metamorphosis in the beginning of a tree planting season...as a result of the fact that you will be repetitively using all sorts of muscles that you would otherwise not ever really exert to the extent that you do while tree planting all day.

I believe it was in the late 1950's in Canada, There was a, I believe a Supreme Court ruling that stated tree planting was cruel and unusual punishment for prisoners...(I will verify the facts here if I decide to publish...a book deal about tree planting...)

This is my tenth year tree planting.

I tree plant for the money.

What's funny about after finishing a tree planting season is that you feel fantastic...like strong as ever...beaming with a sense of accomplishment as a result of persevering through the various weather elements and encountering everything nature has to offer...pushing and expanding your physical body limits...socializing with all sorts of people...sharing the tree planting experience....OK, so this isn't the funny part....what's funny about all these things...is that..after having faced adversity so to speak...lol...I am calling tree planting adversity...and...OK..so after you walk/move through tree planting/adversity...you kind of want to do it again...well I have...and I have seen many others experience this very same tendency...I have seen people absolutely commit to finishing the season and then being like that's it that's all, declaring that they will never do it again...only to come around...and and by the end of the season kind of wanting to do it again...

The interesting thing about tree planting is that it really illustrates lots of life lessons:

Some of the lessons include:

Self-discipline

Self-determination

Self-Worth

Self-trust

Self-honesty

Self-forgiveness

Time-management

Master of Efficiency

Master of Emotions

How to Co-exist with others

Self-Confidence

Sharing Words of Support

Laughter

Story telling

Being Silly

There are so many life lessons that I have garnered as a result of tree planting...I am making note here as a a way to stimulate/instigate my memory and also give you an idea of the kind of support I have garnered from the work that I have done and am doing...Also...and this is a big Also...because here, the main point of my sharing here is to illustrate the point and fact that it is within whatever you participate within on a daily basis for some consecutive time that you are able to garner such assistance and support and life lessons if you will...I mean class is in session everyday we are here within the lesson that is always referred to as "Today"

OK, let me tell you what's going on with me at the moment:

"I am sore as fuck"

"I am experiencing new muscle soreness that I have not previously experience before"

I just finished my second day of tree planting...I forced myself to make a note of writing a sharing here as what is going...I took a little cat nap before I began this sharing here because my hands and fingers were too sore/tired earlier to type...I gotta get going soon to bed here...well I am in bed...but I know my body needs as much time as possible to rest as I very strained/sore all over the place.

Oh ya, it snowed out today. I was working for about 10 hours outside today. The temperature was kind of warm for snowy weather...I was actually quite pleased that it was snowing and not raining because...the snow was melting pretty immediately...and it being cold enough for snow...seemed to me that I would get less wet from the snow...than I would have been getting had it been a few degrees warmer and a very cold rain...fascinating what a difference a few degrees makes...nature really exemplifies this point well...the minute difference make all the difference.....as like it is an accumulation of all the minutes that make the day..its funny how I say "mi-nute"..and minute..yet I initially spell them the same way...

So, I did not want to go to work today at all...when I woke up this morning new body parts were sore that weren't sore when I went to bed. I had all the excuses/reasons/justifications lined up as to validate myself in not requiring to show up for day 2 of tree planting.

My girlfriend insisted on turning the lights on this morning before I was ready to get up. That kind of pissed me off.

I am sharing a place with my girlfriend and another dude...living quarters are a little tired.

My girlfriend is mildly annoyed with me at the moment as I type here in bed...understandably so,,its 1030 pm and we gotta be in the truck ready to go at 645am..and she is sore as fuck and tired as fuck...

Patience is key, especially in tree planting environment...not taking offense to any body;s emotions...because oh did they happen from time to time...it;s like...well...you know what it;s like when you or somebody you know gets all fired up about something.

So, while I was working today, I recalled how a good buddy of mine, his dad mentioned that we should write a book about our tree planting adventures/stories...something or other along those lines...and ya...that's a great idea....so my plan here is to write every day for the next 90 days or so as however long the tree planting season ends up going...

SO, i took some video footage in camp a few years ago...well maybe a few years ago...plus a another one or so...anyways I wanted to put a tree planting reality show together...so I had so much interviews done with people...also so much camp lifestyle and culture footage...it was a bush camp that I was in...pretty big camp...some wild parties...some time off in the city in between contracts...young and old people...all sorts of shenanigans...

Someone I was in contact with earlier this year was seemingly real close to aligning with a tv production company to make the reality show happen...don't know what happened...I was waiting to receive my contract in the mail actually...because apparently deals had been mad...and ya...I was picked to be one of the "characters profiled in the show"...it was joked about in all seriousness that doing this show...would get me my own action figurines in walmarts across north america...and that it would make it a lot easier for me to book stand up comedy gigs..

Anyways this was more of an opening of things up introduction than a chapter one...though I will stick with my title heading for now...

And stay tuned for more story development and insightful sharing/caring/laughter/intrigue...and so much more...

Oh, ya before I say good night...allow me to say "welcome" and "your welcome" as I bring you inside the world of tree planting without actually having to go through the experiences yourself...yet hopefully I will give you much support in the process here for you to employ in your own persona daily doings...as you know...well maybe you don't know yet...but everything in life is a lot like tree planting...there i said it...and I'm sure I'll say it again...anywho...tonight I bid you adieu.

Day 520 Thought Reflection

It's interesting if You examine Your Thoughts.  Within looking at particular thoughts that come up within myself I can see connections as a form of meanings defined within various forms of feeling positive energies or of emotionally charged negative energies. The majority of my thought is negative. I'm pretty sure it's all negative, it is just veiled sometimes with a form of positive energy that I want and wish to believe as good from a point of self-righteousness within myself as like I deserve this and believing that my intention is pure. Like judging myself in the best light.

I realize and understand that I cannot escape my thoughts.

Escape my thoughts?

Would that be the greatest deception? To believe myself to escape my thoughts?

Who are my thoughts but me as the nature of what I have accepted and allowed myself to be?

I realize and understand that I can change the nature of what I have accepted and allowed myself to be.

I realize and understand that by looking at my thoughts, I understand the nature of what I have accepted and allowed myself to be.

I realize I can stop participating in my thoughts and stop perpetuating the nature of what I have become.

I realize the self-responsibility in utilizing thought as a tool as a window of opportunity for self investigative exploration into the origins of my acceptances and allowances. A thought that comes up within me just didn't come from nowhere, it is a resulting consequence of previous accepted and allowed consequences within myself.

I realize and understand that every single thought I have requires a process of self-investigation.

I realize and understand there is lots for me to investigate.

I realize and understand that by writing out my thoughts I can set the stage for effective application of self-forgiveness.  I can introspect and do self-forgiveness on personal, interpersonal and universal relationships. I then enable myself the opportunity to open up self-corrective statements as a form of prevention being the best cure. I then create self-commitment statements to assist and support myself in establishing and developing enhanced practical living guidelines.