Day 661 - Debt Servitude in Word and World Relations.

So, I noticed some interesting points that were buried within myself in relationship to Money...and so here I outline the specifics and specifically rectify my misfortune and lay a new foundation of structured support to assist and support the expansion and creative development of myself in ways that are best.

Stress about Money…fear of failure to Pay….Fear of debt…Bankruptcy…Getting Screwed…Being Fucked Over…Getting into a Jam…bills…taking on increased financial responsibility…bank emptying out…not enough money coming in… bankrupt..

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to stress about money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to be in the position where I cannot pay/play.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear “failure to pay”...failure to play.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear debt.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear bankruptcy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear getting screwed…specifically, financially..

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to be fucked over.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear getting into a financial jam.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to take on increased financial responsibility.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing my bank emptying out.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing not enough money coming in.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear going bankrupt.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for attaching my lively hood to money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not wanting to participate in the money slave game.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to be burdened with financial responsibilities…as like a form of debt obligations.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to not be given enough money from others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing my value and self-worth.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for compromising my value and self-worth within and as the fear of losing money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself ot fear losing money and not having enough money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for doubting my ability to actually have too much money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself ofr desiring to have too much money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting to write as daily as a point of self-support which in and of itself is money…life…value…creation here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting myself as life/money/words/world/creative/creation here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself of fearing to live/move/express myself here as wealthy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting the point of being wealthy in self-expression.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting the point of being rich in vocabulary.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to wide open to sharing my wealth in words with others in my community.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to use my words in the best ways possible….as like fearing to commit my money to the best possible decisions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being cheap with my words and my money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing an impoverished vocabulary within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which an impoverished vocabulary wreaks havoc on the overall character well-being of an individual being here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for negating my fortune within and as the development of my vocabulary here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being resistant and apprehensive towards giving myself the gift of words…and knowing how to play with words and use them effectively in ways that are most excellent.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for complicating my capacity to learn within skewing the values of my relationship with words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for wanting/desiring/hoping to gloss over and just kind of forget about the misfortunes I have developed within my vocabulary.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting the process of self-correction….remediation of my vocabulary…as the creation of and as my structural resonance alignment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting to actually rectify problems with solutions to the foundational issues within my vocabulary.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing the investment in time/labor required to do something the correct way.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to be at a loss financially within taking the necessary time to learn something effectively.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself of hindering/fucking with my learning capacity within rationalizing/justifying fear about how long a point will take to learn/get/live….and the money I need now.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting taking full accountability as the creditor and authority of my words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to doubt the potential success that is able to be brought into fruition through and as my creative capacity to structure my words in ways that are self-supportive.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for choosing to dwell and try to escape the debt of a situation of circumstance I am in…by avoiding to actually direct the point…and instead busy myself within another activity that I define as being more fun and enjoyable to participate within.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having developed a relationship with fun and enjoyment where I juxtaposition myself in and as point of comparison…where my actually focus and expression is split…and therefore not an actual total commitment…because of the skewed starting point of trying/attempting/manipulating my starting point….from that of self-honesty,…self-trust…to that of fear….hiding…coping.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for limiting my capacity for fun and enjoyment within creating self-defining limitations on my ability to in fact live fun and enjoyment as expressions of who and how I am here in every moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for looking to separate and distance fun and enjoyment from and as the word responsibility.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for postponing the expression of myself here….as a result of believing that I just need/want to cope with misfortune for a little while first.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself ot get overwhelmed within facing the debt of my acceptances and allowances here…as the specific nature of my word relationships.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to limit the development of my words here within and as the fear/control/influence/addiction to feelings and emotions as the spectrum between the energetic field of love and hate.

When and as I see myself faced with fear/resistance in a moment to actually do something that I see is cool to do…is in fact wealthy…rich in self-expression…shows a cool character here….I stop and breathe…I make the decision to move myself into and as physical action/application in the moment and actually dare to live for real beyond the confinements or programmed restraints.

I commit myself to re-programming….re-creating…-re-structuring myself here as Life without debt.

I commit myself to create myself here as the process journey of self-correction….into and as living example of the Journey to Life…Heaven as Earth birthed from and in/out of the physical here.

I commit myself to Sharing my fortune/wealth in words here.

I see, realize and understand how my wealth/fortune/opportunity exists within and as my creative play/sharing/giving of my words/time/labor here.

I commit myself to living/sharing/giving/gardening profound substance within and as the structured placement/movement of my words/sounds here.

I commit myself to expanding my effectiveness/wealth/creation/correction of and as my vocation and vocabulary here.

I commit myself to living words effectively and efficiently.

I commit myself to exist within and as the life substance of my words.

I commit myself to living a concerted effort to make the most of my ability to structure my living words in the best possible ways.

I commit myself to take the time to care for the wealth of my life here.

I commit myself to living the self-realization that our ability and capacity to create and express as what is best for all Life here…exists within and as the concerted laborious effort we invest into and as our own vocabulary….because our effectiveness with words is in fact the dictating factor as to how our world will be…as like our spelling bee so to speak…because how we speak and move in co-ordination to how we speak…is in turn how we pollinate and develop the continuous operation and flourishing of potential expression here as a way to live that is epitomizing the highest value and regard for ourselves here as Life/Creation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing the time/moment of application…where in the moment I am faced with the consequential energy build up/debt I have accepted and allowed throughout time here….to actually take responsibility for wiping the debt clean and clear…and creating a new beginning fortune….trust….estate….standing for myself here.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how in facing physically demanding moments where moving myself in action seems difficult….that this is it….this is the here point…where I can in fact actually develop my ‘trust fund’….my future well-being here….by investing in the moment in and as my future development…by seeing what is in fact triumphantly awesome and most possible…and so moving myself within and as this accord…a chord…way…note…music….expression…I guarantee myself the status standing capacity and agreement in which I am most fortunate.

I commit myself to taking responsibility for the creation of and as my fortune here.

I commit myself to reclaiming my status standing as the beneficiary of Life birthed from and as physicality here.

I commit myself to flourishing in and as my capacity and potential.

I commit myself to supporting and assisting in the blossoming of creative potential here.

I commit myself to supporting and assisting the future well-being of Life.

Day 592 Postponement

I notice that I am very flexible to re-adjusting/re-scheduling/delaying participation within particular engagements. I am questioning this flexibility because I see it as a false sense of flexibility in certain circumstances because the point of postponement becomes like a reasoned excuse to justify my self-diligence within particular moments where I require to be steadfast within staying on task and making something work.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting to regard the consequences of postponement.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have used the point of re-scheduling/postponement in a self-deceptive manner.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having become self-reliant on postponement as a way of coping with my accepted and allowed reality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being lazy within and as my self-responsibility of and as my self-direction here in every moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for talking myself out of commitments.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for postponing commitments.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for using the point of postponement and re-scheduling as a way to avoid commitment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for dreading commitment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating conflict towards honoring myself-commitments.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating justifications as the reasoned excuses that I give value to.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for placing value within justification...and within this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the absurd ridiculousness and self deceptionwithin placing value in justification.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding that the word "commitment" starts within and as myself here. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding that any particular area of my life where I struggle with commitment reflects and an opportunity/gift for self-expansion because by thoroughly investigating the dimensions of the point in question, I am able and capable to transcend my own self-induced limitations.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having allowed myself to be influenced by positive and or negative energies as the source of reasoning/justification in order to orchestrate moments of postponement. 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent of irrationality within being influenced by emotions/feelings/thoughts that randomly come up that act as a trigger reaction in deflecting my self-directive commitment and course or practical living self-responsibility.

When and as I see myself orchestrating reasons/justifications to change plans to accommodate thoughts/feelings/emotions that have just come up within myself, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand this reflects self-sabotage and that the root origins of my mind as thoughts/feelings/emotions is fear based and that any resistance towards a particular commitment/task is a clear indication of the importance and responsibility of myself to step into the point of resistance and direct the point into conflict resolution as a result of effectively and efficiently walking through the resistance. I realize and understand that any time that I suppress a point of resistance/commitment, I am in fact perpetuating a cognitive dissonance towards that particular point and moving through the point will seem more tedious/difficult. I commit myself to stop suppressing points of resistance/commitments. I commit myself take self-responsibility for my commitments and to exercise the living of self-diligence within and as my self-commitments here. I commit myself to stop being flexible within and as the point of postponement from and as a perspective of being willing to deviate from personal responsibilities because of a particular thought/feeling/emotion energy came up within my mind. I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing myself to be ruled and controlled by thoughts/feelings/emotions. I commit myself to investigating my thoughts/feelings/emotions as I realize and understand the self-reflection within and as my thoughts/feelings/emotions as a way to expose my self-dishonesty here. I commit myself to self-correct my self-dishonesty. I commit myself to stop fearing to face myself dishonesty. I commit myself to be humble within facing my acceptances and allowances.

Day 566 Anyone Here?

I've been looking at the point of self-investigation of self-interest. And the question comes up, "what is Self?" It's interesting to question "Self" because within doing so, We see what is reflected/revealed here as our Character/Persona/Identity/Being. I've also looked at the point of self-interest from the perspective of Self separate from everything else here and self-interest being the interest of an individual being here without any particular regard for the other individual being's here. It's interesting to see such a shameful acceptance and allowance. A question that comes up within myself is,"Shouldn't self-interest be the same interest as the collective interest...Like, myself interest is what is best for all Life here because I am in this one Life here? How is it that there can be a difference of opinions within self-interest? I mean really were all in this Life together and Lifesustainability is and as a result of Life dependency, interdependency, and independence. Like, One cannot exist without the other One.

What's interesting to see here is that Self is in fact Life. Within looking at this point the question comes up, What is Life Interest...or more specifically what is the best interests of all Life here?

Obviously Life sustainability is the best interest. Life assistance and support.

So if you dare to regard yourself as Life there is a point of self-responsibility and self accountability, which can also be articulated as Life-responsibility and Life-accountability.

Obviously there is much work to be done within our own personal life in equalizing our-self...our-life here...because really we've been conditioned to exist as less than Life here. Because if you look at the nature of what is collectively accepted and allowed within our shared Life/reality here, there is in fact no regard/value for Life here.

Obviously this is a massive problem for Life here.

I implore You to Life-Investigate Your Life Here and see that it is each individuals Life-responsibility to facilitate solutions as assistance and support that is best for Life Here.

What is the point of being here if you do not regard and value all Life here equally?

If you are stuck within the point of self-interest where you disregard all Life in favor of the pursuit of your preferred means and methods of stimulation, Your part of the problem that requires Self-Correction.

If You are serious about taking individual responsibility and accountability for All Life Here, I implore You to investigate the Desteni I Process.



http://desteniiprocess.com

Day 552 Fundamental Human Rights by Equal Life Foundation

Check out the video link here to the video "Fundamental Human Rights" by Equal Life Foundation


1. The Right to Life

2. The right to Resources

3. The Right to Food

4. The Right to Water

5. The Right to Have a Home

6. The Right to Education

7. The Right to Work


It's interesting to see and realize that these human rights do not really exist at the moment. It's interesting to see that our laws are not developed and supported around these rights.

It is seeming quite obvious that it would be in the best interest of the human species to support Fundamental Human Rights by Equal Life Foundation.

Without a clear standing of fundamental human rights, how can any regard or dignity for Life/Earth exist?

Imagining the implementation of Fundamental Human Rights by Equal Life Foundation is pretty cool when one consider that to imagine this, is to realize and understand that this doesn't exists within our current shared reality and the profound awesomeness of such a giving and receiving of Life assistance and Support is like trying to imagine a color that doesn't yet exist. The potential for greatness within human relations is possible.

Establishing Fundamental Human Rights is a basic starting point for developing the potential of human existence here.

Without the implementation of Basic Fundamental Human Rights, we are insuring our demise.

Supporting Fundamental Human Rights by Equal Life Foundation is making a stand for the betterment of Humanity and all Life on Planet Earth.

Establishing Fundamental Human Rights insures the fortune, security and prosperity of future generations of Humans to come to Earth.

I stand as One Vote in and as Support of Fundamental Human Rights by Equal Life Foundation.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eT8Sfq-pF3Y

Day 540 This is Why Christmas is Bullshit

I just watched the video, "This is Why Christmas is Bullshit"

A point within the video that sticks out that is totally fucked up is how congested everything gets. Like shopping malls, airports, and highways. Movement becomes seriously restricted because everyone is trying to do the same things at the same time. This mentality/behaviour is most unfortunate.

I was looking at the irony of how everyone perpetuates this "most wonderful time of the year" where movement is seriously restricted because everyone is trying to do the same thing at the same time which results in a less than desirable time for everyone.

I'm teaching skiing this winter at a ski resort and some people were telling me today how they don't even bother to come skiing from December 23rd to January 4th because the ski hills are a zoo...like everybody is on holidays at the same time and the ski hills are just so over crowded that a person's movement/flow on the ski hill is restricted/hindered as well as the quality of the snow/terrain gets tracked out rather quickly. The ski hill becomes like a congested highway.

This point about the movement/travel/flow being restricted because everybody is trying to move at the same time has me looking at the general consensus with the way commerce works in our shared reality.  I see how holidays are in relationship to commerce...and I question whether or not there would be a better more consistent stable annual flow/movement/travel if there were no holidays/special times of the year.

I also reflect upon the nature of the typical work week of the Monday to Friday grind. Yesterday my roommate was asking me if I was going out last night, saying and reminding me that it is Friday night...you know Friday night is one of the 2 main nights to celebrate during the 7 day week because you don't require to go to work the next day...assuming that you are one of the average people who work they typical Monday to Friday grind.  Also Friday night is a popular night to go out because so many other people are going out to get drunk and wasted because they too are looking to take the edge off all the stress of the restricted movement/strain of the Monday to Friday daily work week grind.

I know I hated going to school Monday to Friday. I know I was so happy when it was Friday...especially Friday afternoon.

Is there a better way?

Could things be better for everyone?

Will things have to get shittier for some in order for things to get better for the majority?

I've been paying attention to the weather...and the weather seems to be all out of whack...like it's not really snowing that much where snow is typically required to be...and it's snowing in places where snow is not typically required to be.

Our current weather patterns reflect the nature of the times within humanity. Chaotic, sporadic, consistently inconsistent, and totally bi-polar.

What's interesting is that there is like this bullshit hope within humanity that things will just work out for ourselves where we will be fortunate and prosper while everything goes to shit all around us. Whether it be to get the perfect weather while the weather is wreaking havoc elsewhere, just kind of hoping that nature works out in our favor while not ever really considering the extent of our own nature and how nature as we see nature is a reflection of our inherent nature and that nature is reflecting to humanity it's forces and how destructive our forces can be when our forces are not in and as a balanced alignment.

So: money, travel, nature, work, holidays........hmm...

Money determines the amount we are able to travel.
Money determines the nature of our travel.
Money is what we work for.
Money determines our holidays
Money determines our work.

I question the planning of holidays.

Personally I do not want to go somewhere to vacation on holidays when everyone else is also on vacation on holidays.  It is not practical for the majority of people to be on vacation/holidays at the same time. Or is it? It makes it easier for the super elite to vacation when the majority are not able to be on vacation...because the majority are on vacation all at the same time...and this makes less traffic for the minority for most of the days throughout the year because the majority is slaving away, saving their few extra dollars for a less than stellar congested holiday that is burdened with more stress and strain because the system is not designed to be stressed and strained...and stress and strain are forms of unnecessary abuse.

Stress and strain are unnecessary forms of abuse? Why then do we accept and allow ourselves to perpetuate a global matrix system of continued ever evolving stress and strain? Who is responsible for stopping and changing the global matrix system of continued ever evolving stress and strain but ourselves?

But what if we don't want to give up our Christmas? Like to spite what is best for all Life...because we have memories that we want to cling to and hold onto forever more...that consume us and delude us from even realizing and understanding how these few positive memories block out all the horrendous trauma that is happening all the time because so much negative can secrete the tiniest small little bit of ecstasy and well that lovey dovey feeling is like a gooey warmth that drives/funnels/perpetuates abuse/evil/inhumane acts/ as everyone desires the almighty gooey orgasm lovey dovey energy secretion.

To Be Continued, As I realize and understand I am required to take self-responsibility for this super elitist position I find myself sitting within.