Day 742 - Brushing off a Reaction

Have you ever experienced a moment where you are discussing something with someone and the person you are communicating with gets upset rather abruptly with something you said?

I have.

I have often reacted within myself to such situations as like taking offense as a form of defense within myself towards the other person. And depending on the nature of the relationship with the other person, I would either project my emotional disdain externally back at them as a form of retaliation or I would just kind of swallow it whole within myself and keep the disdain to myself as like my own nuclear holocaust...as a result of fearing to provoke further conversation with a stranger or just out of not wanting to perpetuate bullshit.  Though the interesting thing in both instances is that I didn't really effectively remediate the situation and the situation influenced me in a rather negative way...as i had a stress moment within my body as a reaction and I didn't really do anything with it...other than maybe burying as a suppression mechanism.

Would you like to know a cool way to continue onward with how things were going in communication before the reactionary time bomb went off?

Take no offense or defense.,,,and continue onward with the conversation as to not give added attention to the shit from the perspective of building up a defense/offense within yourself. This is a point that will most likely take practice. What has supported me within this point is practicing real-time forgiveness within myself...where I see the momentary reaction within myself and the desire to be pulled within to it as like a following along within the energetic pull. One is able to become quite effective in actually stopping such points immediately and forgiving oneself for taking offense/defense to such an extent that participating in such an instance is comical from the sense that it is completely ridiculous to accept such acceptances and allowances within oneself.

Now, as you practice/play with this point...you will most likely have some outbursts from time to time...though what is cool here is that you still have the opportunity to catch/hear/here yourself within mid outburst and apply the stopping of the pull energy experience and give yourself a forgiveness gift of removal from obsession/consumption within the point and Now Listen UP...Because Here is where it gets really cool....You can Speak the Solution aloud as the Live Actor/Player Playing/making it up/happen....Where you in the moment take ownership for the situation and speak from a starting point of ease which is the self-trust free from disease...and this is the sound of Freedom is freedom is a sound...Lol. I say this is the sound of Freedom because this is a harmoniously complimentary support for yourself and the Person you are communicating with...Because you are Sounding yourself here within a point of Equality and Oneness which is a remediation and removal from allowing war/conflict to take over and dissipate the relationship flow and continuation.

This approach illustrates a fantastic example within communication where the true Authority Sounds Directs the situation from a sound point of and as Self-Responsibility. What is fascinating about this is that the person you were communicating with who was in a state of disarray will be aided to follow along with your sound as a support and assistance mechanism so that they can be receptive in receive the sound support you are giving as the Sound foundation from and as the Principle "I Live to Give, As What is Best, Always All Way."

See it's interesting here if you examine the development of human communications...we have been so very much accustomed and conditioned to following reactions as like a war of words and so there is often this underlying competition of military power in a way where it's like the biggest reaction/ bomb is the winner....and it's really silly in the most ridiculous ways if you allow yourself to become intimately aware of how you are compelled to be pulled within and as a reactionary experience that comes up within yourself in relationship to another impulsing/influencing...So here to this is to see how Lame this is because it is very much rooted in and as the acceptance and allowance of Blame as like the victim mentality of saying Oh look what they did...what they did to me....which ultimately results in the perpetuation of reaction to a reaction which is like justifying being stupid because they are stupid...which if you think about it is really quite bizarre and dare I say Stupid?

So, remember it is cool ....very cool....to address the point of reaction another person faces but...the key within this is to not get hung up on it...as like to then go into reaction yourself and get all high in mighty in and as the point of being a self-righteous asshole...because that just perpetuates bullshit and it's like war of assholes that just results in a lot of unnecessary shitting on one another....which isn't really the most effective way to directly fertilize the initial point of shit...it's like too much undigested shit...a verbal diarrhea if you will.

Again, remember that who we are here within this physical word is very much structurally sound...and so our sounds are reflected in and as our words....Our musical notes if you will....See the supporting composition to consider the duet of complimentary sharing's coming together where even if one has a slip....the other is there to catch them as like the aerobics of effectively being able to due the tango...because it takes two to tango...so it's an agreement flow point...so yo....don't diss the flow by knocking your partner in communicado by reigning shit fire on them as like some sort of army commando.

See it is funny that we are all it here as how we share...so rather take the care to prepare the best ways to pair up...so that whoever your partner is..meaning person to dance in communication with...whether it's a square or line dance or a prophetic waltz...it's all about keeping things rudimentary in and as the relationship of angles...meaning to See and understanding that we are working/playing here as complimentary angles as the best support and occasionally we will make a blip...but this is the art of the freestyle where we in the moment, Quantum styles do our individualized self-realized Freestyle that comes as the flows of the fountain we are as the water movement sound structurally sound as our Merry go Round be Here Now...continuous planting and grounding process.  Success is the Process because Pro is in the Success and we Become Professional as we Says is so so says the Process as the Pro says So.

If I lost You in the last paragraph or so,,,Maybe after this paragraph, re-read the previous two paragraphs as like the chorus in the song you are working/playing along as the Pro-fess-I-On-All...Professional Director Here.

Hear Here :)

Day 702 - The Movement of Doing

The movement of doing....sounds kind of funny to me, like a religious or new age type of thing.

I write the "movement of doing" here because I am looking at the actually physical movement within and as my participation within and as being here engaged within tasks/responsibilities/activities/chores....

the point as "the movement of doing" comes up within me because I was noticing how there is many points existent within me where I have looked at and considered.....looked  at and considered from the perspective of and as actually moving/participating within.....you know doing these things. So in looking at points that I have looked at...I see how there hasn't necessairly been good reason for an actual lack of movement doing within and as these particular points. It's like sometimes in mind I kind od get tuned out of physical participation in reality....where my participation is passive in a sense because I am just moving/looking at things within my mind....and not then taking this insight/perspective/consideration into and as an actual physical realization playout. Where it's like a i look at the simulation of myself within a point....see that it would be cool and then....it's like on the to do bucket list of sorts....and there is no particular purpose created about doing it.

I am looking at here my relationship effectiveness within and as actually doing the things I would like to do.....moving within these points....opening them up for really...by beginning the physical participation dialogue....

I have noticed that I have become some what obsessed with taking in information and looking at things...without actually necessarily doing anything with the information I have worked with....like I see here I am not maximizing my potential support and assistance for myself in others in this world...by actually sharing my self-reflections....insights...and actually daring myself to participate more within points of self-development....instead of just thinking/looking about doing it.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for weighing myself down from the perspective of not actually moving myself to my potential abilities to actually participate within points of interest and responsibility to in fact stand as a pillar of support in my environment/world.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating reasons, justifications and excuses as ways in which I am able to talk/think myself out of moving within points I have looked at and would like to do.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for continually taking on new points of information to look at and investigate without actually finishing my investigations within a particular area of study.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting the patience to stay disciplined within learning and exploring new points/self-realizations/participations here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold myself back from actually moving within and as doing something within and as a specific area of study....because I do not see the whole finished outcome of how my participation/creation will unfold/turnout.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing and not really understanding the depth of self trust required to actually give and grant oneself permission to move into and as a solution/creation without actually knowing every detailed specific of how the point in question will manifest itself here/

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for avoiding participation within points that are not already well developed within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having some fear/angst about new beginnings and unknown outcomes.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be controlled by fear and angst.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for self-sabotaging myself here by victimizing myself within fault and wrong doing....where I see and realize my mistakes...and allow myself to haunt myself by and through my misdoings.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having an apprehensiveness towards misdoings.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing mistakes/misdoings

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for existing in a polarized relationship about perfection....where I hold myself back within the notion of perfectionism where I suppress myself before I even begin participating as a point of inferiority.....and also from the point of self sabotage....where I justify doing less than my best work/effort because of the the mentality that it's unnecessary and unrealistic to actual do my best work. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating conflict towards the point of perfection.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for defining perfection within and as positive energetic light and also to sometime allow the point to exist within and as a negative energetic charge,

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating an artificial movement within myself in relationship to the living of the word Perfection.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how I exist within my mind/body as a sort of articicial intelligence when and as I accept myself to have energetic conditions and charges attached to words as like my private associations that dictate my reaction to their particular company presentation and representation in the world I see.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how the accepted and allowed charges and conditions as particular energies associated with words has been a direct result of the experiences felt within and as my body as emotions and feelings and therefore within this...I have victimized my vocabulary to the point of contamination where it's like an unnatural...artificial expression of myself that is existent here....because I can see and realize how I have program coded myself with words from the starting point of limitation....where I have justified the logic as the laws/rules of and as my feelings/emotions relationship to the experiences that have developed within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to actually look at my word and world relationships on a daily basis as a point of word and world responsibility and relationship development and sustainability.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding that effective world sustainability is within and as the effectiveness of living words!

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for dismissing responsibility away from my inner world of word relationships....and rather only look outward at word and world relationships....where within this approach, missing the truth and tyranny of myself as the most unfortunate unlawful charges held against myself which are most unnecessary forms of self-imprisonment and victimized abuse.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent of legal abuse done unto myself as my word relationship charges I hold against myself as the specific memory impressions of particular experiences that shape the resonant hold on my being/body/mind ability to move within and as the doing expression and creation of myself that is possible to exist here beyond the restraints of systematic coding structured energetic restraints


To be continued

Day 696 - Discipline

Throughout my life I have had mixed emotions in relationship to the word "Discipline."


Discipline started out as something to be feared. My parents were the Administrators of Discipline. As far as I understood....Discipline was only something terrible as a form of punishment that I would associate as being like a kind of torture that would be done unto me in some capacity as a result of my "misbehavior" according to the Administrators of Discipline....aka....my parents.


So, Discipline and I did not get a long. I did not like Discipline. As far as I was concerned, Discipline could go fuck itself and die...for I would have been satisfied with no more dispensing of Discipline from the Administrators of Discipline...aka...my parents.


Note, for the record here....No blame is being pointed at the Administrators of Discipline Here...this is a Story about my Relationship with Discipline. The Word...


So, not until I became wayyyyyyyyyyyyy older than my first receiving of Discipline as an apparent method of Torture employed by my parents...aka...my Authorities...

Now in all fairness, I do not recall my Authorities....I mean my parents ever once mentioning that they were Disciplining me as a method of Torture. No, the informed me that I was receiving Discipline as a form of Punishment as a method to instill in me regard/respect for the behavior/actions that was required and to be expected of me from my parents....

What's interesting is that Discipline often arose as a result of my unexpected behavior and was seen as a method of remediating behavior that my parents did not like...that was not appropriate in and as their judgement. Granted....perhaps some of my behavior was outlandish...

So Discipline had become quite the resistance movement within me....to the point where my mobility was in rebellion to my parents in and as Defense of Discipline...meaning, my relationship with my parents developed to a point of no regard....no regard from the perspective that I stopped listening to them. Sort of. I would hear what they would say....and I would deliberately side with the point that they were in opposition towards. Meaning if they thought some idea was particularly good....it was therefore bad to me. 

What is fascinating about the playout of my reactionary defensive conflicted relationship with my parents is that I wasn't really consciously aware of how I was existing in a perpetual state of reaction in relationship to the existence of my parents.



To Be Continued

Day 690 - What's Best for All: Guiding Me in Thought, Word and Deed

2. Living by the principle of what is best for all - guiding me in thought, word and deed to always in all ways direct problems to the best possible outcome for all. (The Desteni of Living - Declaration of Principles)

This is such a simple point...yet, what I noticed is that it is a point that I had neglected in many instances...because this very attitude and outlook was in direct conflict with my emotional disposition. My thoughts words and deeds did not actually exist in alignment with such a principle.

Regarding such a simplistic, common sense point is cool self-support. My life has changed as a result. Or is it more that I am opening myself up as Life here for real. To actually really live and regard myself and all Life here. 

I would say this is a point that is a work in progress for me as I am playing and working with the point here. I say a work in progress because everyday I am tested in my application of myself here...and I say I am tested, because I face movement within my mind as energetic reactions...where I require to take a split second and actually discern what is in fact best for all...it's not completely automatic...I am substantiating my consistency here as I create myself here as a Living Solution that is best for all.

What is fascinating about this substantiating of my consistency as I create myself here as a Living Solution that is best for all....Is, the fact that I am working my way through the questions that exist within myself...and I am doing this by playing with the answers that I see are best...now here I say is a play...and the work is in the question....because I am a student of my mind at this point...as like I am learning to understand the capacity and potential of my mind...and so I find myself here working and playing as like a complimentary relationship within and as the interconnectedness of questions and answers. The funny thing is, I realize and understand myself as the solution here which is like the trinity of and as "the question, the answer and the solution".  However, I see that I am in the process of self-perfection because I committed to working and playing with my application of What's Best for All.

I very much enjoy the process of working and playing with my self-development here. 

What I find very interesting is how much appreciation I have for playing and working with very basic simplistic points of application.

I see and realize profound greatness to exist within and as mastery of very basic simplistic points of application.

Taking on the point of what's Best for All, is a question, answer in and of itself.

I have realized this,
I am enjoying this,
I am perfecting this,
I am here as this.

What I find interesting is that I am so committed to the basics that I am so content in remaining within and as a constant working and playing here.

As a result of standing within and as the question the answer and the solution..."What's Best for All"

I have developed a level of regard for myself and other's I previously was not familiar with.

I am committed to Living by the principle of What is Best for All - Guiding me in thought, word and deed to always in all ways direct problems to the best possible outcome.



A few notes of interest I would like to jot down here:

Everyone is a problem solver.
Everyone is a Creator.
We create through and as our Questions.
Our problems are the first point in the creation process...because this is where direction and initiative takes form.
By regarding the questions/problems that exist we open up the second phase of our creation process which is in and as the answers...which is a cool work and play with our creativity here. 
See our answers here can be physically substantiated as solutions....solutions being the physical building phase of creation.
Commitment is paramount within the creation process.
Commitment exists in many important ways. Specifically what I would like to bring attention to is the "regard" in relationship to commitment. Commitment is like the substantiating of regard...or if you will, regard is the substantiating of commitment. Commitment within the context of principle here....as, What's best for All.

To Be Continued

Day 678 - Effort

Continuing from, Day 677 - Effort-full


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting caught within the polarization of the word Effort from the perspective of trying to decide which is better of worse...things to require effort or without effort....like effort-full or effortless.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for associating effort with movement...and within this attaching a negative charge...where I have created a resistance to actually moving myself within points as a result of believing and experience negative emotion towards requiring effort to actually move myself within things.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having polarized my effort participations....where I have been effort-full in various applications....working very hard. And, in many other instances....doing almost nothing...virtually putting in no effort into particular relationship developments and living responsibilities. The contrast of doing my best work and my worst work....where it's like maximum effort in some applications and a most minimal effort in other applications....as like the very bare minimum.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have created a fight or flight type of survival relationship with the word "effort"...where it's like...OK...I will live/give effort if I believe it is absolutely necessary from the perspective of my immediate and relatively near future depends upon it....so like if I believe my survival is threatened....than it;s like I thrive in doing what I believe to be necessary. Otherwise....I believe...what is the bother....I don't really require to move....because no imminent threat/consequence that will jeopardize my immediate and relatively soon future survival.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for participating in a relationship with Effort from the perspective of short sightedness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the difficulty within actually and practically living a word effectively, when and as the word has emotional connotations rooted in the fear for survival.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I had impaired my full potential to express and live my best efforts as a result of justifying whether or not I should exercise my best efforts within my sharing and caring for myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the sharing and caring that encompasses the practical daily living application of Effort.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being negligent in my relationship towards practically living Effort.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being shocked with the absurd ridiculousness of actually seeing how I make believed a condition of learning impairment....where my actual effectiveness in learning and expressing myself was dependent upon my emotional disposition.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having resistance to living Effort as always best for Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for abusing myself and others as a result of neglecting to live Effort in always Best always all ways.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the absurd ridiculousness of actually making an effort to avoid effort in life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing the irony within making a big Effort about Effort.

When and as I see myself faced with a moment where I am resisting to apply Effort, I stop and breathe....I see/realize and understand that I am faced with a moment where I have the opportunity to learn from my mistake and actually correct/remediate a contaminated relationship towards a particular point. I create the perfect correction as a result of giving forth my best effort in taking responsibility to do what needs to be done.

I commit myself to sharing my realizations about Effort and my past relationship suppressions within and as the point of Effort.

I commit myself to expanding my practical living application of Effort.

I commit myself to growing my expression of Effort.

I realize my Effort is the strength of my overall character here, both inside and outside.

I realize my self-responsibility to live/give my best Efforts...And, I realize Sharing and Caring are Paramount for Life Sustainability Here.

I commit myself to Life Sustainability as the Effort required to practically live/express/give as I would like to receive the realization that Sharing and Caring is Paramount Here.

I commit myself to Sharing and Caring as Paramount Here.

I commit myself to practically live to give....realizing that Life self-expression as who I am here is in and as the gifting.

I realize a strong depth of gratitude for the effort I have put into writing Self-Forgiveness.

Day 674 - The Fee Our

This blog is a continuation from my previous blog, "Day 673 - Fear is the Fare we Pay".

My sharing today is a presentation of my creative investigation....a work and play with my writing focused on "Fear"....the word....the relationship.....Fear itself.....an entity....a structured being here....

Note: this is a work in play:

"Liberated from our fear".....this is a quote I heard....which I questioned....???

If You are not Afraid of

Fear itself...You

Can do Anything

You can only Fear-less

When You Stop Fearing More...

Be Fear less

Fee Our

You can only pay less

When you Stop Paying More

What We accept and allow is our Measure of Fear...Life...Death...Value...Vote...Democracy...Creation

--> ONE MAN ONE VOTE...VOTE FOR WHAT'S BEST

TO FEAR LESS IS THE PRACTICAL LIVING APPLICATION OF SELF-FORGIVENESS... BECAUSE!

TO LIVE FEAR LESS is Self-Perfection process because this is practical living self-forgiveness...Where You Face Fear and remediate by continuing on into and as the Creation and Manifestation of Sound without the bounds of resistance...The point of "till here no further" do I allow myself to be bound and restrained by the experience of Fear.

Who Am I With Fear?

Who Am I Without Fear?

Have I Created Fear Itself? Hasn't Everything Created itself as a result of Everything Itself?

How do I Practically Value/Support/Assist Fear as what is best for myself/All Life Here?

Is there a difference between me supporting Fear and Fear Supporting Me?

Can Disharmony only exist within an Unbalanced Relationship?

Meaning:

If I stand One and Equal with Fear Here...and Fear stands One and Equal with me Here...We are managing a relationship that doesn't require management...Because here We Stand together individually accountable for Our Standing Arrangement here.

So, My standing Arrangement here is that I stand Alone as One and Equal...means... Standing in Agreement together with/as Life All One and Equal Here....Which is the Natural order of Learning the Accounting Responsibility of Harmonious Work/Play/Sound...Expression...Orgasm...Agreement...Unification...Creation...Heaven and Earth Here together as One

The testaments of time are the Living Words that can be repeated again and again as the Song and Sound that goes On and On and On as the Eternal Here that is Always All Ways Best for All. Here Hear.

To Be Continued

Day 658 - Creating the Success of Ourselves Here

I just watched a Ted Talk called, "Programming Your Mind For Success".

In the beginning of the video, the presenter asked for a volunteer to come up on stage. There was resistance amongst the audience for anyone to just jump up and go up to the stage. The presenter said a few more words of encouragement and someone eventually came up to the stage and the presenter gave them 20 pounds.

The point the presenter was demonstrating was "Fear" in and as our Mind Programming.

Lets look at the simplistic definition of Success:

"The accomplishment of an Aim or Purpose"

Notice the relationship similarity/likeness of "Success" to "Succeed"

The simplistic definition of Succeed:

"Achieve the desired Aim or Result"

"Take over a throne, inheritance, office or other position from."

"Come after and take the place of"

"To come next in time or succession"

See the "Seed" within what it means to in fact "Succeed".

Hear the "Seed" within and as the word "Succeed"

Be the Seed in what it means to "Succeed"

Hear the "suck" in "Success"

See and hear the sound "says" like the sounding of the word "said" in the ending of the spelling of the word "Success".

This is walking the talking.

Breathing into Being the Creation of Life.

We are the Planter and the Seed.

Look and "See" within the "Seed" as What it is in Fact/Word You would like to create/develop/participate/expand upon.  

OK, Question: 

If I see and realize and actually know the words "Success" and "Succeed"....Why is it that actually living/manifesting "Success" and the response ability to "Succeed" is seemingly so difficult to achieve?

Answer:

Because we have created the reasoned justifications, excuses...as to why our word/world relationships with "Success" and our response ability to succeed to be so "difficult"

To put things simply.....'We have complicated things for ourselves"

To sort out our difficulties....our complications....problems....we must specifically identify with our words what it is that is in fact so difficult/complicated/problematic.

In doing this, we begin to actively take a part....remove our difficulty....because we get to Know the problem....and when we specifically Know the problem....we can in fact create the Solution....because in Knowing the problem...We can utilize the tool of "prevention as the best cure"...in creating the solution based on the starting point of Stopping/preventing the problem from occurring.

So, lets look at the point of Fear:

In seeing how we prevent our movement/success/achievement/purposes from being achieved because of our Fear....We can in fact forgive Our Fear as the point of making the effort to actively talk/walk/work through the fear by making the decision to 'When and as I am faced with the fear,...to, no more accept and allow myself to be bound/controlled/indebted to this "Fear".

What is interesting to see here is how I Created My Fear Here...and so, I in fact KNOW My Fear Here....So I achieve what I believe...I get what I give...one and equal....I do what I know...I can learn to do what I don't yet know how to do.

Back to the question of Why, 'even though we know the words "Success" and "Succeed" is it in fact so difficult to achieve....? ? ?

Because it's Hardly Easy...I mean it isn't without effort/work...though I do see/know that great work can become effortless as a Natural Ability and true physical self-expression.

What's interesting about achievement I've found, is that "Making things happen is as easy or as difficult as we make it"....

Why would we ever create difficulty/hardship for ourselves here? Not realizing and understanding the scope of our ability....response ability here....

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing my very best results.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting nervous about achieving new goals and accomplishments.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to make a mistake when I am playing for the win.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to lose and desiring to win.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for making success/winning/being the best to be a competition of conflict I am in with myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for carrying around stress/tension/strain as a result of desiring to win and fearing to lose.  

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the absurd ridiculousness of superimposing stress/strain/tension upon myself as like a believed necessary motivation tool to kick my ass into being better...a winner....a success...

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself that best results only come through as a result of perpetuated self-inflicted abuse/trauma.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get excited and emotional unstable about success.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being too hard/difficult with myself at times and forgetting to laugh at myself as a point of knowing how to physically live aloud self-forgiveness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to neglect the practical living application of "leadership" within and as "success" and my ability to "succeed" in achieving my goals.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to stand as "leadership" here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having desired to follow somebody.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for desiring to look up to somebody.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating an addiction to fear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I created an addiction to fear/energy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how my response capable abilities have been suppressed as a result of feeding/perpetuating an energetic/fear relationship within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to standing as a leader.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to make bad mistakes.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for looking for answers/solutions outside of myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for negating/neglecting the specificity required in practically living self-trust in every moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for wanting to be able to just copy someone else instead of expressing myself for real and creating a practical living example.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself self-dishonesty within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding self-dishonesty to be irrational fear.

When and as I see myself faced with an opportunity to succeed as a result of my specific movement/performance in a specific moment, I stop and breathe, I see what is required to be done in order for me to succeed.....I accept and allow myself to know and trust the success of myself here...I commit myself to moving/performing as a self-created success story here.

I see/realize and understand myself as the author and authority that dictates my success here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the association between Expression and Success.....I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding myself as a self-success because of my response-ability in living/sharing my self-expression here.

I see/realize and understand the relationship between success and self-expression.

I commit myself to practically living the words "success" and "self-expression" and "succeed" in and as the creation or my Life Here.

I commit myself to practically living "integrity", "perseverance", "compassion", "passion", "stewardship". "like-able", "skillful", "natural talent", "keen" , "focus", "awareness", "comprehension", "reading", "mathematics", "bold", "daring", "fearlessness", "calm", "cool", "collected", "Money", "Extraordinary", "Stupendous", "excellent", "Greatness", "Flow", "breath", "garden". "plant", "growth", "relate-ability", "regard", "structure", "creation", "creativity", "ideas", "Words", "direction".

Day 638 Tree Planting Chapter 2

It's interesting to see how each of us is the starting point of integral importance in self-determining our effectiveness within and as the point.

Let me clarify here, what it is that I mean:

This morning I noticed many thoughts coming up within my mind as to why it is that i should take the day off of work today. I had many "valid" justifications come up within my mind that were "sound" arguments. I just looked at point after point come up within my mind...as like my mind was forming a case for me...like in defense of me going to work...what is interesting about all of this...is that I actually wanted to go to work.

So, I went to work despite having all these thoughts saying I should not go to work.

Interesting, how part way through the day at work...as I was finishing my lunch...there was a return of the thoughts of "giving up...giving in to justification of mind"...which is interesting because, again, I could see/realize/understand what was happening here...and so, again, I decided to push the point and get myself moving into my tree planting.

What's also interesting here...is that there was a point within my work day...where I became aware of the fact that someone I didn't expect to be yielding better results/performance than me, was in fact doing so...I mean I knew exactly what it was I was doing...and like how strong an output I was generating...in terms of the labored intensity I was putting into the tree planting. OK, so, I noticed a point of ridiculous absurdness...where I didn't ever expect this work colleague of mine to ever perform the tree planting task better than me...I mean to the point where it was like me regarding myself as always superior to this particular being...regardless of circumstances...and I mean this was a "what the fuck situation"...because I noticed...that I went into a "foul mood"...a form of "self-victimization" when I realized that I was apparently "losing in my mind"...in accordance with  my shaped reality outlook about my work colleague. This brought insight into the point that, I was quite enjoying the experience of myself within the work I was doing before I became aware of the statistics of the situation. So, I saw/realized/understood the absurd ridiculousness of the situation...realized that it is not cool to harbor self-limiting judgement and doubt about another...and that these particular views in which I was holding onto about my work colleague in fact reflect and presented to me points about my character personality here...where sometimes, I would doubt my potential and capability to challenge a particular frame of mind that I am in...like emotion/thought/feeling...And I mean obviously this was a cool point of self-reflection for today because I continued to push that point for myself...and really show myself that I can move beyond the particular mind sets that come up within a moment as like temporary distractions that act as like road barriers...only if I choose to allow myself to be bothered by the obstacles/barriers...which is interesting...because in garnering insight into how the mind operates...what I have noticed is that my mind is like fishing for energy in particular moments sometimes..as like to hook my attention onto something..as a point of conflict...so the friction can produce an energetic pull on my body to cause strain/stress all in all just perpetuating a cognitive dissonance from really truly expressing myself in my moment to moment movement as the self-expression I am as the starting point of and as self-direction here.

Moving On,

Food is Awesome support. What I became really appreciative of today...was the taking of time to really enjoy a little snack...like a a point of reward/treat for yourself as a result of staying focused/working hard on a point...and taking the few moments as a treat/reward...but really...it's a giving of yourself support...like a necessary support...like taking a few moments to relax...so that you can continue onward within and as a point of regimented discipline and focus...and to assist and support body stability within process participation here...I see that it is really important to express ourselves within and as the food that we enjoy eating. Like all the little nuances about how we go about taking those few minutes...or five minutes....or ten minutes...or 15 minutes even...for ourselves to stretch out...and enjoy some sort of food and or drink...as like the treat(s) we are choosing to treat ourselves with. It's interesting to see how we in fact treat ourselves here...and how we in fact sometimes neglect to really treat ourselves...I mean like what the fuck...I mean isn't life suppose to be like one big treat...a present...as the present is our presents here...and the more were tune in to see what is here the more we can receive all that is here to receive...


I asked a buddy at work today how his day had been going today...half expecting to get a complaint or a positive response that was out of the ordinary...which is interesting because I got exactly an extraordinary response...which was quite simplistic...and the best answer I have every heard from someone responding to the question, "how is your day at work going"...

So, He said, something along the lines of, "All the days are the same to me...there all good...the only day that is maybe a little extra sweeter than the rest...is my last day of work..."

This is the Awesome practical living attitude. I was just looking at this outlook in regards to life and death..as like living your day by day...and the death bed being even sweeter...as like no regrets...seeing/realizing/understanding self-here...welcoming a point coming to a close. As something ends...something else begins...in the end it begins...and ya...appreciation of the process unfolding here...enjoying the journey...and getting to the destination as like just a little bit sweeter as like that final yabadabdoo in the sense of steps accumulating towards mission accomplished.


A couple more points I would like to open up here:

Force of Competition...what is the motivating force behind Elite performance within competition?

Starting point of Competition...Self-Here..and the challenges/responsibilities we take on as who we are...which is winning/winning...because within and as our self-determination as our steadfast self-discipline we cannot really fail...because any perceived failure...is part of the process to becoming better and better...and is a point of recognition...where we enable our self to look at what it is we did and didn't do...and what another did or didn't do...and we can therefore self-reflect constructively within competition...as like a point of sharing and caring here...as like how we play with one another here...as like how we say friendly competition....and the point that seemingly opens up and wraps itself up here is that we are the staring point of and as friendly competition...meaning the level of self-intimacy we have with our self...will determine the level of competitiveness we will be willing to exercise within and as our self-movement here...in and as our self-expression.

Competition in the truest sense of the meaning is the support and assistance of self-perfection...and challenging the acceptances and allowances of what is best to get even better...so that what is best can be even better than it was...as like the process of and as self-improvement...until there is no more limit...like achieving limitless possibilities...as the whole point always around...like always here...all dimensions in tact...like...god almighty holy shit...yet...no more no less than the rest...as like one and equal with all here. Self Here.

So, self-realization leads into self-perfection which leads into self here....as got it...got the point...god it..living it...life

So, self-perfection is like the competition going on here...where we are all in the process of supporting and assisting You's and Me's within and as the point of self-reflection...as like all is in this friendly competition and journey together and the point is for us to see/realize/understand our self here so that we can actually come to agreement on the terms of our playing field here....as it is important to remember...what is a friendly little competition within getting a bit better...the better bit is a win/win...as each bit contributes to the win. As above and so below. So within and So without. One and Equal.

Day 620 Persistence

 So, very sheepishly of me, I did not realize and understand the practical living support within and as the word “Persistence”.

I had come to associate the word “Persistence” with the saying, “Whatever you resist will persist.” And this particular saying I had associated with the word negative…which therefore created the logical justification for me to affiliate the word “Negative” within and as a part of persistence…which I in turn had created a negative energetic buzz about within myself.


As a result of this particular connection within myself, I did not realize and understand how I was in fact compromising my ability to live the word “Persistence” in the truest sense of the word/meaning. Like, as a result of the association I had created towards the word, I was negating the full potential that exists within and as the word Persistence. Obviously, this isn't the cool way to continue onward within and as a word relationship, because the value inliving words comes from within and as the Equality and Oneness of words…where we are able to clearly see/understand/realize the meaning of words without bias/compromise and shortsightedness.




Let’s look at the word Persistence for a moment:





Persistence: (noun) Firm or obstinate continuance in a course of action in spite of difficulty or opposition. 

The continued and or prolonged existence of something.





I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for sheepishly not realizing and understanding the practical living support within and as the word “Persistence”.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for attaching a negative energetic charge/buzz within and as the word “Persistence”.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I suppressed my ability to live the full potential of the word Persistence as what is best for Life.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for associating Persistence with the saying, “What you resist will persist”…and within this, thinking that this is all that Persistence is related to.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for associating resistance with persistence to only exist within and as a form of negative connotation and that I should therefore avoid anything to do with Resistance and Persistence.



When and as I see myself reacting to the word Persistence, I stop and breathe, I say, “I am Here”, I see/realize and understand the practical living support within and as the word Persistence.


I commit myself to living the word persistence as a point of Life enhancement as a necessary tool within and as Creation from and as a starting point of Self-Determination.


I commit myself to self-trust within and as the practical living application of Persistence.

Day 618 Relationship Association

So, I've become aware of how I have little moments of accepted and allowed justified judgement within myself as a form of self-talk/backchat...where within this behaviour I am sitting/standing within a point/heir of self-righteousness where I create this better than perspective...where I look at the person within my reality as less than me...I have done this within the justification that there being stupid...or don't realize that there being stupid...and whats really stupid about this is that I talk to myself about this...as like justifying and believing it to be necessary that I process and figure this out about and by talking about it to myself from the starting point of reacting to it...and what's funny and ridiculous about this is that within my mind...I see how I have been validating this behaviour from within the starting point of wanting to make sense of what the fuck is happening in my environment...like wanting to define another being..as like make sense of why they are like they are...what's interesting about this...is that its delusional...because obviously there is so many factors that goes into a person being exactly the way they are. What's also interesting about all of this is that this explains me as why I am exactly the way I am. And so within seeing the small reactions...I am able to investigate and forgive myself for all the little moments...and get to know myself for real as a point of and as self-intimacy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying judgment within myself as a form of self-talk/backchat...where within this behaviour I am sitting/standing within a point/heir of self-righteousness where I create this better than perspective...where I look at the person within my reality as less than me. I see/realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of such participations. When and as I see myself creating judgment within myself as a result of having even a minor reaction within myself, I stop and breathe, I say,"I am here"...I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating separation between myself and another being here. I see/realize/understand how within understanding the nature of a reaction I participated within...I am in fact able to see how I created the particular relationship dynamics that originated from a state of cognitive dissonance as manifested perceived separation. I commit myself to releasing myself from manifested perceived separation in my relationships with beings here. I commit myself to stand/sit One and Equal here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying stupidity. I see/realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of justifying stupidity. When and as I see myself trying to make sense of something within my mind by justifying stupidity as the reasoned logical explanation, I stop and breathe..I say "I am here"..I self-reflect upon the point in question...I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself of for justifying and rationalizing stupidity as an acceptable human condition that is beyond repair. I commit myself to self-correcting every aspect of my accepted and allowed justifications within and as the word stupidity. I commit myself to investigating all my relationships and the nature of my accepted and allowed word associations. I see/realize/understand the practical living support within remediating my vocabulary, as a way to prevent cognitive dissonance within myself here. I commit myself to take self-responsibility for my mind. I commit myself to purifying my vocabulary. I commit myself to purifying the nature of myself here as what I accept and allow to exist within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself of not realizing and understanding the delusion of trying to make sense of things when in fact common sense is lost within the moment and statrting point of trying to make sense of things. When and as I see myself trying to make sense of things, I stop and breathe, I say "I am here"..I look at my starting point here, I see/realize/understand that the starting point here as what is best for all Life is in fact always common sense. I see/realize and undestand that I do not require to make sense of things when in fact I allow and accept myself to stand within and as the self-direction of and as common sense...as like this is the point of self-reflection here...where in fact I am giving myself the opportunity to see with clarity here the common sense reality that is always here. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting myself access to practical living common sense reality within trying and attempting to make sense of things within and as my mind consciousness system. I commit myself to establishing and solidifying practical living common sense reality within myself here. I commit myself to the flexibility of mind within and as common sense physical reality. I commit myself to understanding and self-realizing common sense here.