Day 769 - Exploring the Word "Lame"

 


I have a little bit of a negative tinge towards the word "Lame" as like arghh, ahhh,, fuck, god damn, not cool, cannot look, must look away, beyond embarrassing, uncomfortable....and, unfathomable to continuously think about.

So, that is what comes to mind in relationship to the word Lame.

I was investigating the word Lame recently and had made a general concerted effort to remove the negative energetic charges I had been holding onto in regards to Lame.  I missed these points....ironically enough, it's like i got caught in my own lameness and didnt want to look at my Lame acceptances and allowances. LOL. ridiculous indeed.  I appreciate a good laugh at myself, so I see the points here and I direct.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have a negative tinge like reaction to the word lame.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for superimposing words upon myself with energetic charges.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing the tragic and ironic comedy within my relationship towards the word Lame.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to within a negative tinge like reaction, regard Lame as: arghh, ahhh, fuck, god damn, not cool, cannot look, must look away, beyond embarrassing, uncomfortable, and unfathomable to continuously look/think about.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how points can be missed as a sort of self-sabotage within deliberately being vague/overly-general about the investigation into a word relationship.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how Irony can be a rather specific tool for investigating words, where you can use the word Irony as a sort of cross reference where you have a look to see if you are being ironically stuck within the very word you are making a concerted effort to investigate.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing how cool a tool Irony is within investigating words as like a fun and funny play to aid in and as the word investigation/exploration.


To Be Continued

Day 683 - Solution Focus

It's interesting to see how our Attitude effects our ability to focus solutions that are best. Gratitude is the Attitude...the One and only really...

Because, have a look....

Anything less than gratitude as the attitude...puts in you a fear state of sorts as less than the potential of response abled awareness.

I've noticed that my response abled applications are totally suppressed when my attitude is anything less than gratitude. Like moving in a point is much more arduous and the temptation to quit and give up before beginning to move effectively is overwhelming.

What's interesting is that having a positive outlook is beneficial to actually learning anything within that which you are participating. Having a negative attitude about participating in anything...is like making the decision to kill your potential before you have even given yourself permission to explore the possibilities within your potential.  It's interesting because this is a point of attitude. Positive attitude fits in with gratitude and appreciation. Whereas, a negative attitude is lack there of appreciation and regard for the potential opportunities that have been bestowed to you. See it's interesting that our ability to actually create and have access to great things is so much in the attitude we allow ourselves to exist within.

Let me give you some examples.


My French language skills are very poor. Yet I had opportunity to have excellent French language skills. I was exposed to much French Language education in school....more english than french...yet opportunity existed at one point had I shown a promising development in french language skills, that I could have made a transition in having more french time and less english time at school.  I however made a decision early on in my elementary education that french isn't worth my time...that I don't want to learn French....french is stupid...I just want more physical education....gym class...

I can even recall goofing of in french classes to such a degree where I was encouraging others to compete with me in seeing who get the lowest scores on the french tests....


 I had an awful attitude about learning french. I had my justifications as to why my attitude about learning french was the way it was. And, logically speaking it made sense to me.  So, I could rationalize my justifications to have a negative attitude and a blatant disregard about the opportunity to learn french. It's interesting because I made french to be like an enemy of me...where I believed that if french didn't exist...or was not necessary as a subject in the school I was attending, than I would have had more gym class.

Similar story with learning piano. I had piano lessons when I was in elementary school. I had a terrible attitude towards taking piano lessons. This negative attitude killed my development potential in piano. I took piano for 2 or 3 years and my development was minimal because I had created a terrible relationship towards learning how to play piano. I did not care about learning piano. Looking back upon my childhood it is unfortunate that I squandered such an opportunity because the opportunity was presented to me...and all I had to do was participate within and as gratitude being my great attitude. However I had made a point of being in conflict with piano...because I placed learning piano to be in opposition with other things I defined to be more worthy of my time...so, ironically in my attempt to spite my parents, I spited myself. Which goes to show...if you treat yourself great....You actually can and will treat others great. Though, it is also true...if you treat yourself like shit...you will treat others like shit...and vice versa. Treating others poorly reflections a poor relationship with oneself.



Throughout my life, in successfully learning and developing any skill, there have been some common characteristics/criteria involved....which include: Wanting to learn, a positive regard towards the point in question, being focused on solutions...as like how I could achieve particular end results/goals/skills...a committed determination that this is something that I am interested in and I will get it...I know I got this in me...I can do this...I am doing this...there is no doubt about it, confidence, lack of fear, persistence, enjoyment, curiosity...A will to learn.

A will to learn.

A will to learn.

A will to learn.


This is the Solution Focus.

The Solution Focus as A Will to Learn, can also be regarded as Creation or Growth development.


To Be Continued


A cool Ted Talk that I watched today that relates to my sharing here today can be viewed at the following link.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4tkkL9w2pw8

Day 574 Positive Voice Tonality

So I was working with a whole bunch of 5 year old children today and I noticed a peculiar thing where I would speak in a slightly higher pitch towards them when I was trying to get their attention and tell them or show them how to do something when they had been distracted. It's interesting because I was aware of how I was sounding out my words...and I was kind of like what the fuck...and it was somewhat difficult for me to talk to them in a lower voice tonality. 

What is interesting about this is that I noticed my effectiveness in communicating/directing the points of learning comprehension was most effective when I made the effort to make sure I spoke to them in a low physically grounded voice tonality.

What's interesting about the higher pitch voice tonality...is that I noticed I was speaking in that pitch as a point of reaction...where I would go into the I'm a super nice positive friendly guy personality...and within this...I would speak from within a starting point of positive energy, and the intent of doing this was that there was a belief within me that I would forge and or strengthen a connection with the children through the use of sounding really positive within my energetic responses.

What's interesting about this is that I noticed how today was more challenging/stressful than usual as I had many moments with the little guys where I was seeking out their approval. I mean its kind of funny and ridiculous to see how I would go into this nice guy construct of like "ya you can agree with me and you can listen to me...because just listen to how nice my voice is when I'm talking to you...don't you think I'm so nice and friendly..."

What's interesting about this is that I've made some bullshit associations with going into positive energetic voice tonalities as a point of making approval/validation with others....specifically little children.

What's also interesting about today is that I really played with how I spoke to the kids in some moments...where I made a point of really speaking in a low voice...and what's interesting is that the kids were so much more responsive to me with the lower my voice tonality. It's like so ridiculous in a way because...when I would be "trying to be all positive in my voice tonality" it was a struggle for the kids to comprehend what I was saying...and I would have to repeat myself and establishing comprehension with the children was much more difficult.

I see here how also the point of positive voicing tonality would come out as a consequence to having negative reactions within myself...where I wouldn't necessarily be particularly pleased with the child...and then it's like I would speak in a way of sucking up to them because I feared them having there own temper tantrum...and so believing that I got to be super positive with them as a preventive means to them having temper tantrums.

And what is interesting and ridiculously absurd about my particpations in fearing the children being emotionally distraught and having temper tantrums is that I was having so many little temper tantrums within myself and in a way was trying to cope/manage my own emotional inner turmoil.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for using a positive energetic voice tonality as a point of self-automated defense and coping mechanism.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for trying to manipulate children by using a positive energetic voice tonality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to strain my physical body within reacting to children by speaking to them in a higher pitched positive energetic voice tonality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for doubting my effectiveness to communicate with children in a a low grounded physically stable voice tonality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that people require to be persuaded and influenced with positive energetic voice tonalities.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing people having temper tantrums.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for perpetuating emotional turmoil within myself by deliberately going into positive energetic voice tonalities as a way to make connections and keep the peace.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking offense to the learning ability of small children.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having moments where I reacted as a point of impatience with the young children I was working with today.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for self-victimizing myself within working with small children.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking the actions and responses of small children personally.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be self-righteous in relationship to small children.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how abusive it is to deliberately make a point of speaking in a higher pitch positive energy voice tonality to children.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the nastiness of speaking in a higher pitch positive energy voice tonality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the shame within reacting to children by speaking to them in a higher than normal voice tonality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for going into the nice guy character construct in relationship to children where I believe I do not have a connection with them and I have to earn their validation and approval through speaking from a starting point of positive energy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how equally fucked it is to speak to children in a negative or positive energetic voice tonality.

To be Continued