Day 757 - The Flick of the Con

 


I've learned some ironically funny things about Conflict.  Specifically, myself relationship within and as conflict...how primarily so much so it is a decision of myself to accept and allow such relationship ridiculousness as the particular dynamics of various degrees of contextual relationship dynamics.

To place this simplistically,...the point is this....Being at war/odds with things is so much a choice within and as the accepted and allowed word relationships that exist within oneself as the particular feeling/emotional charges one holds onto as a debt bond.  Fascinating it is to see the word relationships as debt bonds...the specifics of particular relationship information contexts as carrying so called charges which are essentially a sort of zing I have been doing onto myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to slow down in such moments where it is in fact possible for myself to see and realize what I am in fact allowing....and to from here actually change the very nature of my word contractual relationships.

I realize the absurd ridiculousness of creating debt for myself within and as my word relations.

I realize how ridiculously absurd it is to bond myself to debt as like making myself dependent upon charges held against myself that I am so much so at the mercy of.

I realize the absurd ridiculousness of drafting such absurd contractual relationships within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extensive nature of each and every moment as an opportunity to so much so check myself within and as my word relationships...as I see and realize my words are my bonds.  Within this, I see and realize my words as the best bonds are that which are based within and as the frame work of equality and oneness...that exist free from conflictual feeling/emotion charges against myself that create a trigger as a reoccurring and perpetuating reactionary debt bond.

I commit myself to absolving myself from debt/conflict within and as my word/world relationships Here.

I realize this is a word by word process.

I commit myself to living the self-correction of and from conflicting contractual terms of word/world relations to substantially beneficial terms of word/world agreements.

Day 668 - Devotion

Continuing from my previous blog: "Charisma"


"Within looking up the dictionary definition of Charisma, I had a reaction to seeing Devotion within the definition....and I thought, 'I can't use Charisma...it's too religious...I don't want to attract devotion...people being devoted'. So, what I do next is slow myself down, I say, 'Wait a minute here, lets look more closely at the word Devotion...perhaps I am jumping to conclusions as my reaction relationship towards Devotion was rather self-evident. So, I looked at the dictionary definition of Devotion. What I realized is that devotion is not limited to religious ideology and that Devotion can be applied within anything and everything that We do as Devotion can be described as aCommitment....and a Loving Loyalty and Enthusiasm within Our participations Here. So, obviously I realized that Devotion is pretty cool support and enhances self-expression/self-enjoyment/sharing-is-caring."


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for limiting my ability to live Devotion as an expression of myself that is best for all life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I compromise my effectiveness of living my full potential within my self-expression from moment to moment as a resulting consequence within and as as my relationship with words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I created a religious conflict towards the Devotion and within that justified the practical support that Devotion enables within and as Self-Commitment and Self-Discipline.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to be associated with the word Devotion as a result of believing that I will be confused and misinterpreted as some sort of religious type.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for diminishing the value of a word as a result of seeing one particular relationship association that I do not think is cool.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting temporary lost within the context of word associations...and within that...using such particular contexts to my detriment....to actually impair my ability to utilize what is best within and as my investigation of a particular Word...in this specific example....Devotion. I do see/realize/understand/know....how this one example here within word relationships/associations/contexts is connected and reflects myself standing starting point to every word that exists within myself.....Meaning....that it is a personal responsibility to let go of that which does not support me within and as word relationships...and at the same time...hold onto that which is in fact great within Words/relations/associations/contexts.

I commit myself to continuing to build strength within my vocabulary by investigating all Words and keeping what is good and disposing of what is bad...so that within this...I create sound relationships as word that form the law of my being here...as the way how to practically live words effectively that can stand and remain here through and as the testaments of time.

When and as I see myself having a reaction/energy about a Word...I stop and breathe as the means necessary to create the space and time to slow myself down and actually examine/investigate the nature of my Word relationship here...and within this...I look to make sure the engineering of my Word relationship is engineered in a way that is structurally sound...so that it exists beyond the conflict of a relationship of terms...and into and as an upstanding stability point of eternal value that will always remain.

I commit myself to practically living words as the Keys/Tools to effectiveness within and as the building and development of plans/structures/creations that are in fact always best for Life.

I am grateful for taking the time to investigate Charisma. I have bestowed and entrusted myself with Charisma. As a result of taking on such a responsibility within myself, I see how I have expanded my opportunity to Create...and how as a result of this, the opportunity and present opened up within Charisma as Devotion...and I am grateful for this. I see how my self-responsibility in self-education as words continuously expands my potential/expression/Life as the gifts that is continuously opened up and played with...like I am so grateful for all the Life Support and Enhancement within and as Words.

I commit myself to working and playing with Words.

I Devote myself to sharing my satisfaction within working/playing/investigating the nature of my relationship with Words.

I welcome and encourage the harmonious balance within and as the dynamics of Working and Playing with our Word and World Here.

Thank You

Day 661 - Debt Servitude in Word and World Relations.

So, I noticed some interesting points that were buried within myself in relationship to Money...and so here I outline the specifics and specifically rectify my misfortune and lay a new foundation of structured support to assist and support the expansion and creative development of myself in ways that are best.

Stress about Money…fear of failure to Pay….Fear of debt…Bankruptcy…Getting Screwed…Being Fucked Over…Getting into a Jam…bills…taking on increased financial responsibility…bank emptying out…not enough money coming in… bankrupt..

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to stress about money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to be in the position where I cannot pay/play.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear “failure to pay”...failure to play.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear debt.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear bankruptcy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear getting screwed…specifically, financially..

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to be fucked over.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear getting into a financial jam.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to take on increased financial responsibility.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing my bank emptying out.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing not enough money coming in.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear going bankrupt.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for attaching my lively hood to money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not wanting to participate in the money slave game.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to be burdened with financial responsibilities…as like a form of debt obligations.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to not be given enough money from others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing my value and self-worth.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for compromising my value and self-worth within and as the fear of losing money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself ot fear losing money and not having enough money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for doubting my ability to actually have too much money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself ofr desiring to have too much money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting to write as daily as a point of self-support which in and of itself is money…life…value…creation here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting myself as life/money/words/world/creative/creation here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself of fearing to live/move/express myself here as wealthy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting the point of being wealthy in self-expression.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting the point of being rich in vocabulary.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to wide open to sharing my wealth in words with others in my community.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to use my words in the best ways possible….as like fearing to commit my money to the best possible decisions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being cheap with my words and my money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing an impoverished vocabulary within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which an impoverished vocabulary wreaks havoc on the overall character well-being of an individual being here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for negating my fortune within and as the development of my vocabulary here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being resistant and apprehensive towards giving myself the gift of words…and knowing how to play with words and use them effectively in ways that are most excellent.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for complicating my capacity to learn within skewing the values of my relationship with words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for wanting/desiring/hoping to gloss over and just kind of forget about the misfortunes I have developed within my vocabulary.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting the process of self-correction….remediation of my vocabulary…as the creation of and as my structural resonance alignment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting to actually rectify problems with solutions to the foundational issues within my vocabulary.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing the investment in time/labor required to do something the correct way.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to be at a loss financially within taking the necessary time to learn something effectively.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself of hindering/fucking with my learning capacity within rationalizing/justifying fear about how long a point will take to learn/get/live….and the money I need now.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting taking full accountability as the creditor and authority of my words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to doubt the potential success that is able to be brought into fruition through and as my creative capacity to structure my words in ways that are self-supportive.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for choosing to dwell and try to escape the debt of a situation of circumstance I am in…by avoiding to actually direct the point…and instead busy myself within another activity that I define as being more fun and enjoyable to participate within.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having developed a relationship with fun and enjoyment where I juxtaposition myself in and as point of comparison…where my actually focus and expression is split…and therefore not an actual total commitment…because of the skewed starting point of trying/attempting/manipulating my starting point….from that of self-honesty,…self-trust…to that of fear….hiding…coping.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for limiting my capacity for fun and enjoyment within creating self-defining limitations on my ability to in fact live fun and enjoyment as expressions of who and how I am here in every moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for looking to separate and distance fun and enjoyment from and as the word responsibility.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for postponing the expression of myself here….as a result of believing that I just need/want to cope with misfortune for a little while first.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself ot get overwhelmed within facing the debt of my acceptances and allowances here…as the specific nature of my word relationships.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to limit the development of my words here within and as the fear/control/influence/addiction to feelings and emotions as the spectrum between the energetic field of love and hate.

When and as I see myself faced with fear/resistance in a moment to actually do something that I see is cool to do…is in fact wealthy…rich in self-expression…shows a cool character here….I stop and breathe…I make the decision to move myself into and as physical action/application in the moment and actually dare to live for real beyond the confinements or programmed restraints.

I commit myself to re-programming….re-creating…-re-structuring myself here as Life without debt.

I commit myself to create myself here as the process journey of self-correction….into and as living example of the Journey to Life…Heaven as Earth birthed from and in/out of the physical here.

I commit myself to Sharing my fortune/wealth in words here.

I see, realize and understand how my wealth/fortune/opportunity exists within and as my creative play/sharing/giving of my words/time/labor here.

I commit myself to living/sharing/giving/gardening profound substance within and as the structured placement/movement of my words/sounds here.

I commit myself to expanding my effectiveness/wealth/creation/correction of and as my vocation and vocabulary here.

I commit myself to living words effectively and efficiently.

I commit myself to exist within and as the life substance of my words.

I commit myself to living a concerted effort to make the most of my ability to structure my living words in the best possible ways.

I commit myself to take the time to care for the wealth of my life here.

I commit myself to living the self-realization that our ability and capacity to create and express as what is best for all Life here…exists within and as the concerted laborious effort we invest into and as our own vocabulary….because our effectiveness with words is in fact the dictating factor as to how our world will be…as like our spelling bee so to speak…because how we speak and move in co-ordination to how we speak…is in turn how we pollinate and develop the continuous operation and flourishing of potential expression here as a way to live that is epitomizing the highest value and regard for ourselves here as Life/Creation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing the time/moment of application…where in the moment I am faced with the consequential energy build up/debt I have accepted and allowed throughout time here….to actually take responsibility for wiping the debt clean and clear…and creating a new beginning fortune….trust….estate….standing for myself here.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how in facing physically demanding moments where moving myself in action seems difficult….that this is it….this is the here point…where I can in fact actually develop my ‘trust fund’….my future well-being here….by investing in the moment in and as my future development…by seeing what is in fact triumphantly awesome and most possible…and so moving myself within and as this accord…a chord…way…note…music….expression…I guarantee myself the status standing capacity and agreement in which I am most fortunate.

I commit myself to taking responsibility for the creation of and as my fortune here.

I commit myself to reclaiming my status standing as the beneficiary of Life birthed from and as physicality here.

I commit myself to flourishing in and as my capacity and potential.

I commit myself to supporting and assisting in the blossoming of creative potential here.

I commit myself to supporting and assisting the future well-being of Life.

Day 658 - Creating the Success of Ourselves Here

I just watched a Ted Talk called, "Programming Your Mind For Success".

In the beginning of the video, the presenter asked for a volunteer to come up on stage. There was resistance amongst the audience for anyone to just jump up and go up to the stage. The presenter said a few more words of encouragement and someone eventually came up to the stage and the presenter gave them 20 pounds.

The point the presenter was demonstrating was "Fear" in and as our Mind Programming.

Lets look at the simplistic definition of Success:

"The accomplishment of an Aim or Purpose"

Notice the relationship similarity/likeness of "Success" to "Succeed"

The simplistic definition of Succeed:

"Achieve the desired Aim or Result"

"Take over a throne, inheritance, office or other position from."

"Come after and take the place of"

"To come next in time or succession"

See the "Seed" within what it means to in fact "Succeed".

Hear the "Seed" within and as the word "Succeed"

Be the Seed in what it means to "Succeed"

Hear the "suck" in "Success"

See and hear the sound "says" like the sounding of the word "said" in the ending of the spelling of the word "Success".

This is walking the talking.

Breathing into Being the Creation of Life.

We are the Planter and the Seed.

Look and "See" within the "Seed" as What it is in Fact/Word You would like to create/develop/participate/expand upon.  

OK, Question: 

If I see and realize and actually know the words "Success" and "Succeed"....Why is it that actually living/manifesting "Success" and the response ability to "Succeed" is seemingly so difficult to achieve?

Answer:

Because we have created the reasoned justifications, excuses...as to why our word/world relationships with "Success" and our response ability to succeed to be so "difficult"

To put things simply.....'We have complicated things for ourselves"

To sort out our difficulties....our complications....problems....we must specifically identify with our words what it is that is in fact so difficult/complicated/problematic.

In doing this, we begin to actively take a part....remove our difficulty....because we get to Know the problem....and when we specifically Know the problem....we can in fact create the Solution....because in Knowing the problem...We can utilize the tool of "prevention as the best cure"...in creating the solution based on the starting point of Stopping/preventing the problem from occurring.

So, lets look at the point of Fear:

In seeing how we prevent our movement/success/achievement/purposes from being achieved because of our Fear....We can in fact forgive Our Fear as the point of making the effort to actively talk/walk/work through the fear by making the decision to 'When and as I am faced with the fear,...to, no more accept and allow myself to be bound/controlled/indebted to this "Fear".

What is interesting to see here is how I Created My Fear Here...and so, I in fact KNOW My Fear Here....So I achieve what I believe...I get what I give...one and equal....I do what I know...I can learn to do what I don't yet know how to do.

Back to the question of Why, 'even though we know the words "Success" and "Succeed" is it in fact so difficult to achieve....? ? ?

Because it's Hardly Easy...I mean it isn't without effort/work...though I do see/know that great work can become effortless as a Natural Ability and true physical self-expression.

What's interesting about achievement I've found, is that "Making things happen is as easy or as difficult as we make it"....

Why would we ever create difficulty/hardship for ourselves here? Not realizing and understanding the scope of our ability....response ability here....

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing my very best results.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting nervous about achieving new goals and accomplishments.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to make a mistake when I am playing for the win.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to lose and desiring to win.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for making success/winning/being the best to be a competition of conflict I am in with myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for carrying around stress/tension/strain as a result of desiring to win and fearing to lose.  

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the absurd ridiculousness of superimposing stress/strain/tension upon myself as like a believed necessary motivation tool to kick my ass into being better...a winner....a success...

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself that best results only come through as a result of perpetuated self-inflicted abuse/trauma.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get excited and emotional unstable about success.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being too hard/difficult with myself at times and forgetting to laugh at myself as a point of knowing how to physically live aloud self-forgiveness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to neglect the practical living application of "leadership" within and as "success" and my ability to "succeed" in achieving my goals.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to stand as "leadership" here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having desired to follow somebody.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for desiring to look up to somebody.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating an addiction to fear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I created an addiction to fear/energy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how my response capable abilities have been suppressed as a result of feeding/perpetuating an energetic/fear relationship within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to standing as a leader.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to make bad mistakes.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for looking for answers/solutions outside of myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for negating/neglecting the specificity required in practically living self-trust in every moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for wanting to be able to just copy someone else instead of expressing myself for real and creating a practical living example.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself self-dishonesty within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding self-dishonesty to be irrational fear.

When and as I see myself faced with an opportunity to succeed as a result of my specific movement/performance in a specific moment, I stop and breathe, I see what is required to be done in order for me to succeed.....I accept and allow myself to know and trust the success of myself here...I commit myself to moving/performing as a self-created success story here.

I see/realize and understand myself as the author and authority that dictates my success here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the association between Expression and Success.....I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding myself as a self-success because of my response-ability in living/sharing my self-expression here.

I see/realize and understand the relationship between success and self-expression.

I commit myself to practically living the words "success" and "self-expression" and "succeed" in and as the creation or my Life Here.

I commit myself to practically living "integrity", "perseverance", "compassion", "passion", "stewardship". "like-able", "skillful", "natural talent", "keen" , "focus", "awareness", "comprehension", "reading", "mathematics", "bold", "daring", "fearlessness", "calm", "cool", "collected", "Money", "Extraordinary", "Stupendous", "excellent", "Greatness", "Flow", "breath", "garden". "plant", "growth", "relate-ability", "regard", "structure", "creation", "creativity", "ideas", "Words", "direction".

Day 454 Is Time a Question?

Continuing with a "time" investigation....beginning here with a ranting and raving about time as a way to further investigate my perceptions of "time"


importance of time....time being undervalued is a serious global epidemic....like money as debt is a clear indicator as time enslavement....total disregard of time....I mean....the way our systems are set up for instance...like economic system, legal system, education system,....indicate a total waste and disregard of time...like where's the value in Everyone's time...? ? ?

Lets look at oil as an example....it takes a long time for oil to form in the earth....it's being so under valued and wasted these days...because the resource is being controlled and manipulated by a small minority of people on the planet...as like claiming the rights to all the oil reserves...and thus setting oil at a price to get everyone's money....keep things relying on oil because it's a control piece...on people's time here...as like our inadequate global system is heavily reliant on oil....


Lets look at labor...labor takes times....actions done in time....many goods are being sold really cheap.....which is a result reflection of having a low value relationship reflection towards labor/time/life...exemplifies and reflects a prison planet...as like generally low self worth...disregard of time/life


Look and see the relationship with Life and time....this here is our Life Time........


What the fuck is going on?


Reflecting on the word "time" and seeing how I have undervalued time from the perspective of oneness and equality as the starting point of creation.....realizing and understanding that oneness and equality is beyond energetic polarity friction constructs....

What I am getting at is that the state of our world is our estate and is a reflection of our value system.  I see this point as a result of examining my relationship with and as the word time...and that this basic principle of word relationship agreements shapes and dictates the form of our information....like how systems operate....

 the economic system, legal system and education system are reflecting upon an undervaluing of time...which also means an undervaluing of life because relationship exists between  "Life" and "Time"......and... there is consequences for ineffective word relationships....which are formed and developed in/over "time"

Is "time" like "law" or "science" ?

Does time determine the facts?

Is time an indication of the facts ?


Is Time a "form of delay" ?

Is "time" a speed system ?

space-time....space and time to form sounds....sound formations are the result of time...

Time is relative to space ? Is all Time relative?  Is this the same as saying.... "Is all Life relative?

Relative...like in a relationship with...as a result of being related as a result of sharing a connection...coming from the same starting point origin....

What is "origin"

Originate....original.... What is the "origin" of "time"

Does time equal movement


Without movement, can time exist?

Is time a form of Question...like a mathematical equation?  If so, is it logically obvious that everything here is a part/piece of the question/mathematical equation as both the problem and solution?

Everything contributes to the rate of time

we can stop destructive cycles/patterns in time...


We can re-verse engineer our word relation conversations in time as a way to correct the future design of the world as a reflection of word agreement relationships as the manifestation of what is best

We are studying the consequences of time so that we can prevent future consequences that are preventable...so that "what's always best can be equated with time" so that what's always best is Here within our physical Life Time...as we become what's the physical best life time




I will continue to play/work/investigate "Time"