Day 771 - The Sloooooooooow Down Secret

"Slow down, so you can see more of what is here"

Hanging out with family and friends is a great opportunity to test yourself.  The emotional feedback you get from family and friends will in most instances be stronger than that of strangers. Note: by emotional feedback, i am specifically referring to the reactions that come up in our own mind, as like what gets to us in one way or another where we are triggered.

When you allow yourself to slow down enough to specifically identify the reactions/triggers that come up in the mind, there is great potential to change the relationship dynamics in the moment, a real time change. What is interesting here is that it is a matter of self-recognition as our mirrored self-reflection here within and as our word and world.  See, traditionally within and as points of mind ego, We are reacting to the information we see.....what is interesting about this, is that we are in fact so close to the point of self-correction......self-identifying our own bullshit here.  See, in seeing bullshit about another, so much so, this bullshit that is getting to us, is a reflection of our own bullshit we are hiding from.

So,  in recognizing what points cause stimulation within ourselves...as like a sort of emotional or feeling reaction, where we are desiring to act out our release.....like we just got to say or do something....like, we are possessed to do so....the experience of we just got to do it.

Now in some instances, we can see and recognize the experience within ourselves and we stop our selves from playing out the bullshit, but we leave it there.  This is a cool starting point...the stopping the play out of the reaction...BUT, it is cool to keep on with the slow down approach and actually go into the specifics of the self-recognition here....the particulars of the vocabulary/points that are a bothersome/burden/stress/conflict.

See, in slowing down enough to look at the scope of the relationship dynamics of a situation, one's whole world changes....because it's like going from a tunnel vision perspective to a holistic perspective. Reconnecting, Remembering a piece of ourselves here.

A practical support point in looking at things is this:  Identify a point of friction, specifically see the judgement that comes up as a particular word or words dictating/defining a frame of mind.  In seeing our shit come up within ourselves...we can in the moment forgive ourselves, and so Learn the point in real time...because what opens up when we self-forgive a point of accepted and allowed separation, is that we realize and see things that have always been here that we just couldn't/didn't/wouldn't/weren't getting to See here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for holding onto judgments that come up within my mind within social situations that keep me in a state of possession and limit my ability to be sensitive and receptive to others in a way that is complimentary and gentle as the best support here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to speak bullshit as a result of speaking form the starting point of feeling/emotion possession.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how my own thinking is what perpetuates conflict in my world, because my thoughts present to me my accepted and allowed thought patterns..., the specifics of what i have built up over time within my body as the emotions and feelings i have formed impressions about in my body as the specifics of the self-definition picture frame of mind.   I realize and understand the self-corrective process in taking the time to see the High definition picture formation relationships i have constructed within my world through various lenses of ego superiority/inferiority relationship acceptances and allowances.  I commit myself to equalizing myself with all Life here, by purifying my thoughts/words/deeds.  I commit myself to self-forgiving and self-correcting points of ego that come up within my mind.  I realize my mind and environment are fantastic support structures here.  I commit myself to utilizing all the support and assistance I have here to in fact develop and create the best version of myself here.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how I miss the humor of my own accepted and allowed ridiculous, my mistakes, when and as i resist slowing down to look at things for real, and in fact, take my time here.  I realize the irony of not taking my time, is that fact that i do not have any time, that my life has no substance.  Ironically, i see how it is an individual self-responsibility to make time for ourselves here. I see and realize our time as a shared commodity/privilege/potential here.  I realize our creation potential and learning capacity is within making time here, because it is within slowing down and taking the time to look and see, that we can actually recognize what is here, what is going on, and how best to contribute to the world here.

I realize that, in taking the time to investigate the specifics/particulars of our word/world relationships here,..., the more we do so, the more we have to share/give.  Ironically, we have more to share when we take the time to look and see what we got to give...and within this, it is quite fascinating to see how awesome it is to share something we really worked on make real here.  This is a fascinating realization of our self-development here, because it is taking the time to develop the particular dynamics of ourselves here, the more easily we can relate and share the best possible support with others here.  I mean, giving the best gifts, is fucking awesome, nobody wants a terrible gift. so it's a  matter of taking our time, slowing down to see for real.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which i have skewed my ability to see for real here in every moment.  I realize that my perception is skewed when i allow my point of view to be tainted within and as the energy of reactionary thought.  I realize and understand how the moment of  reactionary thought can be a sort of tipping point to getting to the point of focus and clarity within and as myself here.  I see and realize the focal pivot point of the energy of thought, a stepping stone of support in identifying the specifics of a personal weakness that is here in and as opportunity to become a real strength of my character/expression in Life here.  I commit myself to the identification process of the specifics of the energy movements that come up within me as thought.  I commit myself to utilizing all my thoughts as tools of support in strengthening my vision here in seeing the world with real eyes here, without filters as particular energetic biases that are self-destructive.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize the self-destruction within and as Ego.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to let go of ego.

I forgive myself for not realizing the irony within resisting to let go of ego, the fact and point of Slowing Down,..taking the time to see what I am doing here.

I commit myself to slowing down and looking at what I am doing here.

I commit myself to seeing what I am accepting and allowing here.

I commit myself to taking the time to learn from what I see here.

I commit myself to taking the time to relate to everything here.

I commit myself to listening to everything here.

I commit myself to sharing the best of myself here.

I commit myself to taking the time to create the best of myself here.

I commit myself to living the slow down realization of creation here as a point of slowing down in order to move more quickly as the self-direction of myself here in all ways.

I commit myself to slowing down and taking my time with family and friends,  I realize reactions are an indicator of being insensitive to slowing down and seeing family/friends as me here in another life.  I commit myself to facing the truth of myself in my participation's with family and friends.

I commit myself to sharing the results of my realizations within slowing down and taking the time to look at things for real.  I commit myself to letting my sharing of my realizations come through as part of my living expressions here.

Day 709 - The Greatness of Gratitude

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for polarizing the usage of Gratitude where I would believe that I can only be grateful for moment in which I have a positive reaction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how limiting my participation within Life is when one is within a state of reaction to events and situations whether they are positive or negative.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for defining gratitude with a positive energetic charge.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how to in fact practically live Gratitude Always.

I forgive myself for thinking that Gratitude is a selective thing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for associating gratitude with the giving of thanks and that I only need to give thanks sometimes...like when someone gives me something and they are expecting to hear thanks as like the social etiquette reciprocation appropriate response.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for learning about "thanks" from my parents from the perspective of being told to say "thank you" to people when the give me something...by kind of coercing me into it in the moment as a child.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I developed an apprehensiveness towards Gratitude and Giving/Living Thanks...'Thank You' as a result of experiencing a sort of coercion about the application of "thank you" and giving/living thanks...as like the implication that I am not it and that I have to become it.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how I developed a sort of rebellious attitude and resistance toward the practical living of "gratitude as the greatest attitude"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I copied my parents.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the gratitude in Always for my parents.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the gratitude for Everything in Always.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding the Gratitude of myself in Always Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the absurd ridiculousness of selective usage and application of gratitude as a great attitude.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for half assing gratitude within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding gratitude.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding the embodiment of myself as Gratitude.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for faking to live words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the significance of ALWAYS all ways Assistance and Support as What is Best for All Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for Judging ALWAYS.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the absurd ridiculousness of judging ALWAYS.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to question how to in fact Live words as the embodiment of myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the profound marvel that is here as the effective usage of words as the Potential existent within and as words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how the potential I see within words is in fact a reflection of the Potential that exists within Me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the difference between minimizing the application of Gratitude and maximizing the application of Gratitude as the Greatest attitude....and within this, I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding the profoundly absurd and ridiculousness of deliberately choosing to minimize the expression of Gratitude.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for going to great lengths in order to spite myself, as like justifying the suppression of greatness within myself...that I deliberately hid through blame and self-denial.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to make sense of non sense because of a particular energetic push or pull experience.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how my relationship development with words has been like a push or pull experience as like wanting to gravitate towards the word or away from the word...as like in both cases creating a sort of dissonance in myself regard towards the practical living of Words where the Words are either mostly positive/negative/neutral.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the Gratitude of Slowing down within myself to Stop the Energetic experience.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding the Gratitude of Grounding the experiences of Energetic reaction within real time moment to moment application, as the practical living realization and self-correction of self-forgiveness/love/gratitude here as who I am.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding gratitude within myself as a physical loving action...as like to see for real and care with careful consideration for all Life here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how great Gratitude is.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for separating myself from Gratitude.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing how Great Life is.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding the greatness of every moment here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying myself as less than the greatness of the moment Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing myself as One and Equal as the Greatness which is Life Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing less than Gratitude and Greatness for Life.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding the consequences of accepting and allowing less than Gratitude and Greatness for all Life here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting lost within self-righteousness as the result of not understanding or realizing Gratitude,

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing my words to exist as less than Gratitude.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the Gratitude for WORDS.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding Words.

I commit myself to the Greatness of Words.

I commit myself to Greatness.

I commit myself to Gratitude as the Greatest living Attitude.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the application of self-forgiveness is in fact an action of Gratitude.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to gift and give gratitude to myself here....and that this is in fact a practical living self-responsibility....because I need to live gratitude for myself in order to be able to give/share Gratitude with All Life Here.

I commit myself to living the Gift of Gratitude.

I am Grateful for Gifting myself Gratitude, the Greatest Attitude.

I commit myself to Gratitude, the Greatest Attitude.


To Be Continued

Day 615 Creation and Reaction?

So in looking at the word "Creation" I noticed that the word "Reaction" is within and as the word "Creation" when and as you move the letters around. It is interesting to see also the correlation and connection that Creation is in fact within and as the word, "Reaction".


This is interesting to me because I have been regarding my reactions as less than creation here. What I have neglected to understand and realize completely is how in fact my every reaction reveals to me my manifested accepted and allowed creation here that has become so much so automated. It's interesting because reactions reflect what has already been created...and I have been looking at reactions as the suppression of the in the moment opportunity/possibility for new creation/expression to be born/lived.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the equality and oneness within and as the words "Creation" and "Reaction".


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for regarding my reactions as less than creations.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the self-reflection in seeing and realizing and understanding how and why my reactions are in fact my creations here.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I in fact created limitation for myself in defining particular behaviour patterns for myself as a points of reaction as a result of personalizing a definition of a specific word that stimulates/triggers/generates a point of conflict/friction within myself.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I created conflict/friction/reactions within myself.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for defining reactions as bad and creations as good.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for giving a positive polarity charge to the word "creation" and a negative polarity charge to the word, "reaction"


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting mixed up within myself as a result of bouncing back and forth within positive and negative energies.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating particular relationships towards words with positive and negative energies.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have fucked with my ability to play with words as a result of creating personalized definitions of words with specific and particular energetic associations.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating reactions towards words as a result of creating energetic relationships with words.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have been passively creating my reality within having reactions. 


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how having reactions is a point of creation from and as the starting point of passive acceptance and allowance.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for abdicating creation within passive acceptance and allowance from and as the starting point of having reactions and not knowing and understanding what to do about reactions.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking reactions personally.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing reactions.


To Be Continued

Day 589 Satisfaction Question

I started questioning what is "satisfaction"?

Sat-is-fact-ion.

Sat-is-faction.

Sat-is-f-action.

S-at-is-fact-ion.

S-at-is-faction.

S-at-is-f-action.

S-at-i-s-fact-ion.

S-at-i-s-faction.

S-a-t-i-s-f-act-i-on

S-a-t-i-s-f-act-ion.

Sat-is-f-act-i-on.

S-a-t-i-s-f-a-c-t-i-o-n.

Sa-tis-fa-ction

Sat is past tense of sit. Is is past tense of be. fact is the physical truth here. Ion is an atom or group of atoms.

Sit + be + the physical truth here + an atom or group of atoms = Satisfaction



satisfaction in google dictionary has this to say:

noun

noun: satisfaction; plural noun: satisfactions

1. 1.

   fulfillment of one's wishes, expectations, or needs, or the pleasure derived from this.

   "he smiled with satisfaction"

   synonyms:

   contentment, pleasure, gratification, fulfillment, enjoyment, happiness,pride;  smugness, self-satisfaction, complacency "he derived great satisfaction from his work" fulfillment, gratification; appeasement, assuaging "the satisfaction of consumer needs"

   • LAW

     the payment of a debt or fulfillment of an obligation or claim.

     "in full and final satisfaction of the claim"

     synonyms:

     compensation, recompense, redress, reparation, restitution,repayment, payment, settlement, reimbursement, indemnification,indemnity More

   • what is felt to be owed or due to one, esp. in reparation of an injustice or wrong.

     "the work will come to a halt if the electricity and telephone people don't get satisfaction"
   • CHRISTIAN THEOLOGY

     Christ's atonement for sin.
   • historical

     the opportunity to defend one's honor in a duel.

     "I demand the satisfaction of a gentleman"

Origin

Middle English: from Old French, or from Latin satisfactio(n-), from satisfacere ‘satisfy, content’ (see satisfy). The earliest recorded use referred to the last part of religious penance after “contrition” and “confession”: this involved fulfillment of the observance required by the confessor, in contrast with the current meaning ‘fulfillment of one's own expectations.’

To be Continued

Day 464 Language Relations

Language is a cool program of communication.  I am taking the opportunity here to share some self-forgiveness as points of self-realisation have opened up within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being judgmental about language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking offense to another being's judgments about language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for polarizing language with positive and negative energies.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be influenced/hypnotized by positive and negative energetically charged language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be controlled by polarized judgments about language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having resisted to learn and expand my understanding of language programming.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being intimidated by language I do not understand.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to experience myself as inferior to hearing language I do not understand.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being intimidated by language I don't understand.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not believing that I can easily learn to communicate new language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for doubting my abilities to speak french.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being self-righteous about language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking I don't need to know more languages than english because english is the business language of the world.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating reasons and excuses as to why it's not important for me to be able to speak fluently any language other than english.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to taking it personally the tonalities I hear when people communicate with a language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for reacting to the tonality of irritation and frustration.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding accountability for my tonality in each moment of language communication.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the blatant disregard for others around me when and as I did not specifically direct my tonality within and as how I would like to express myself within speaking words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking offense/defense when another being takes offense/defense to the way I am communicating words within a language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for perpetuating abuse within language communication within allowing myself to communicate from a starting point of separation/polarity friction energies.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to share language communication of words with others I don't know.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for regarding language as primarily with words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding how I have allowed myself to be influenced and controlled by body language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being fearful and intimidated by other being's body language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting to regard and understand my own body language in every moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to doing a thorough investigation of body language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting to ask myself more questions about my body language in particular moments, as a way of learning what I mean within my body language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting to take responsibility and accountability for my body language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to communicating with people who are expressing body language of being closed off and reserved within themselves.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to communicate with people who are expressing fear/paranoia/anxiety within their body language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for avoiding people with particular body language from the perspective that I believe them to be deliberately expressing that particular body language and that they are unwilling and unable to change their body language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for extensively judging being's body language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking offense with being's body language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being offensive within my body language as a point of polarity friction energy within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be defensive within my body language as point of polarity friction energy within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding how extensively I have reacted to other being's body language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being fearful within my body language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding how I have influenced others within and as my body language self expression.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to be a master of language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating conflict and friction within myself towards being a master of language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting confused within myself as a result of resisting to regard and listen to my own language in every moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the importance of knowing my language whether it is verbal or non verbal.

I commit myself to language.

I commit myself to knowing and understanding body language.

I commit myself to expressing body language.

I commit myself to self-direction as what is best for all life within language expressions.

I commit myself to playing with language applications.

I commit myself to testing and investigating language.

I commit myself to stop fearing language.

I commit myself to directing language from the staring point of Equality and Oneness.

When and as I see myself facing a point of fearing someone because of their body language, I stop and breathe and I realise and understand the absurd ridiculousness of fearing someone's body language.

When and as I see myself fearing someone because of their specific spoken language used, I stop and I breathe, I realise and understand the absurd ridiculousness of fearing someone because of their specific spoken language used. I direct myself to remove the point of reaction within myself through self-reflection, self realisation, and self-forgiveness.

When and as I see myself resisting to ask a question about language because I don't understand, I stop and breathe, I direct myself to ask my question about language so that I can understand. I realise and understand the power of Life support and assistance within asking questions from the starting point of advancing learning and understanding.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding or considering that language is everything as specific sound signatures because everything that is physically here is a structured sound signature.

I commit myself to knowing structured sound signatures.

I commit myself to encompassing myself within and as the sound signature of Equality and Oneness together forever.