Day 769 - Exploring the Word "Lame"

 


I have a little bit of a negative tinge towards the word "Lame" as like arghh, ahhh,, fuck, god damn, not cool, cannot look, must look away, beyond embarrassing, uncomfortable....and, unfathomable to continuously think about.

So, that is what comes to mind in relationship to the word Lame.

I was investigating the word Lame recently and had made a general concerted effort to remove the negative energetic charges I had been holding onto in regards to Lame.  I missed these points....ironically enough, it's like i got caught in my own lameness and didnt want to look at my Lame acceptances and allowances. LOL. ridiculous indeed.  I appreciate a good laugh at myself, so I see the points here and I direct.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have a negative tinge like reaction to the word lame.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for superimposing words upon myself with energetic charges.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing the tragic and ironic comedy within my relationship towards the word Lame.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to within a negative tinge like reaction, regard Lame as: arghh, ahhh, fuck, god damn, not cool, cannot look, must look away, beyond embarrassing, uncomfortable, and unfathomable to continuously look/think about.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how points can be missed as a sort of self-sabotage within deliberately being vague/overly-general about the investigation into a word relationship.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how Irony can be a rather specific tool for investigating words, where you can use the word Irony as a sort of cross reference where you have a look to see if you are being ironically stuck within the very word you are making a concerted effort to investigate.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing how cool a tool Irony is within investigating words as like a fun and funny play to aid in and as the word investigation/exploration.


To Be Continued

Day 723 - When and As I See Myself

When and as I see myself competing with myself as like being split within points of perspective as like having an energy within one direction and also an energy within another direction, I stop and breathe, I see realize and understand the friction that is done onto myself as like an unnecessary heating up within myself that is not really practical and best for my optimum physiology here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being negligent of all the things I see in which I participate within that are not cool as various moments of thought, word and deed.

When and as I see myself resisting to embrace a point/moment here, I stop and breathe, I realize that this resistance towards directing the moment in an optimum way as what is best...is the pivot point so to speak...because this is moment of truth as how I make my vote....as...a vote for what's best for Life...or something less. I commit myself to living the vote for life as what is best for life. I realize that what I have come to accept and allow in many instances is less than what is in fact best for life. I realize it is counterproductive to allow myself to get hung up about my misfortunes...and that in fact by facing all point of myself I turn my weaknesses into strengths....and within this I see and realize how these moments and acceptances and allowances of misfortune can be leverage to assist and support my overall Life fortune here as It is a most definite fortunate thing to take responsibility for my very own misfortune. I realize as I am more and more proficient in sorting through my very own misfortune....the opportunity presents itself as like a renewal point of farming here, where I have the opportunity to give as I would like to receive...and within this, obviously I live to give, as the caring and sharing I am capable of giving because I have first proven the point to be well planted in myself as the seeded solution that has grown into fruition as I embrace myself as the fruits of my own labor.

I commit myself to sharing the fruits of my labor.

I realize and understand that sharing the fruits of our labor is an enormous point of responsibility within consideration and regard for Life as what is best for Life.

When and as I see myself going into a reaction about temperature, I stop and breathe, I see realize and understand myself here as temperature. I realize and understand there is a whole spectrum of temperature. I commit myself to fine tuning my applications of working with various relationship dynamics of myself here.

When and as I see myself reacting to the word Cold, I stop and breathe, I see realize and understand that I am one and equal with the word cold...and to react to myself is in fact a silly way to exist...as a most ridiculously unfortunate experience really.  I commit myself to stopping the war/conflict within myself as a friction to moment of facing/encountering myself here on an external level as words. I realize and understand my self-responsibility here as living words. I commit myself to self-perfection within and as the usage of living words. I commit myself to remediating the misfortunes I have created through incorrect usages of words and the specific associations to words that were out of structural alignment with and as what is in fact best for me as a presentation of all Life here.

I commit myself to letting go of positive energetic reactions in regards to the word Cool.

When and as I see myself creating a buzz within myself as the word cool from the perspective of leveraging a point of dissonance within myself to induce an artificial high, I stop and breathe, I see realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of choosing to play out the reactionary tale of going along for the accepted and allowed ride of Positive energy possession. I see, realize and understand that it is less than what is best to perpetuate oneself existing in positive energy...as I see realize and understand that the positive energy reactionary playout is the unfortunate consequence of so much accepted and allowed shit/waste to exist within and as my potential here.  I commit myself to the exercising of my potential here as the process in expanding the possibilities of my potential here.


To be continued

Day 607 Expectation

The word "Expectation" is a word in which I have flipped flopped within as a result of creating and projecting conflicting thought/feelings/emotions about future projections. It's interesting to look at how I have in many instances defined an upcoming potential experience/participation with positive or negative energy. I have associated the positive and or negative energy upon the word 'expectation'.

It's interesting to see how my particpations within particular events/activities/possibilities/opportunities have in fact been compromised as a result of how I have accepted and allowed the word "expectation" to exist within myself. Like, I have moved myself within an positive energetic buzz towards things that I have defined as having a positive energetic expectation. Also, there has been a hesitance/resistance for myself to participate within events/activities/opportunities where I have created a negative energetic charge towards my expectation within a particular point.

It's absurdly ridiculous to see and realize how I have created a reliance upon forming opinions as my self-defined expectations about future potential happenings. What is interesting about this is that I have justified expectations based upon my current relationships towards particular things within my reality. 

What is interesting is that it's total bullshit....like I do not require to have positive or negative energetic expectations prior to participating within a particular point.

I see/realize/understand how I can examine potential expectations for future endeavors as like calculating different possible play-outs within future events...but even within doing so...it is just a belief and or an assumption...which is a guess...a form of prediction...a kind of justification...a reasoned explanation as why it could be this particular way...

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing I require to be dependent upon creating justifications as a way to validate my movement within and as a point of self-righteousness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how it is in fact a point of self-sabotage and self-rightouesness to move towards or away from points of participation based upon creating an emotion/feeling about the particular point.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that I need emotions and feelings to move myself within physical reality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be pulled and pushed by the feelings/emotions I have created within myself about particular things.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being self-righteous in my conviction and affinity for my thoughts/feelings/emotions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing myself to be bound to my thoughts/feelings/emotions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting to consider and regard the impact each and every single thought/feeling/emotions has upon my physical participation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to experience limitation within my physical body movement as a resulting consequence of accepting and allowing myself to be possessed by various thoughts/feelings/emotions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the ridiculous absurdity of building upon the future with positive energetic expectations/projections. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the psychological mentality of why I would give attention and focus upon projecting positive or negative energetic feelings/emotions. 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for compromising the well being of myself within subscribing to positive or negative energetic expectations.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying positive energetic expectations within and as a point of desire/want..

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying negative energetic expectations within and as a point fear of loss/consequence.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying negative energetic expectations within and as a point of blame/anger/hate/frustration/irritation/confusion/neglect.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the cognitive dissonance that exists within me when and as I react to a particular point with either positive or negative energetic expectation as to how the particular point will play out.


To Be Continued