Day 718 - Removing the Ego from Greatness, the Grounding Process

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into the point of big ego as a result of having good results within particular points of sharing/performance.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thirsting for the recognition as the praise within a job well done as like mastery in execution.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to mentally masturbate accepted and allowed suppression into a transmuted experience of Superiority that feels so good from the perspective of getting myself high within and as my very own self-induced trite.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the psychic vampirism within and as the accepted and allowed big ego reaction as getting high as a result of the actions/responses others share.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking the ultimate life and living is within and as the established status position within the world system as recognized fame and fortunate.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the absurd ridiculousness of ego.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for denying the inferiority which fuels the attitude of ego.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying the self-righteousness within ego as like believing that I am entitled to a positive high energetic buzz.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the pain and trauma as the self-inflicted self-abuse that exists within and as the reactionary play out of ego.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for bouncing around in reactionary polarity play as character personifications as either big or small ego...based upon the judgement of sizing myself up in relationship to others here as my ego competition for ultimate supremacy here as like the KingOfTheCastle, the One Winner.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having resisted to examine the reactionary positive energy high or big/super ego.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for suppressing the solidarity here as the relationship with all my peers here as the various reflections of myself as One and Equal as Everything here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating a dissonance within myself as an ego personality that is incomplete that cannot relate to all Life here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for denying the abuse of greed as ego.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being self-righteous in fighting for my very own limitation as the result of being defensive in relationship to other ego's here/

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for participating in sports and activities from the starting point of ego as like the encouragement of dissonance within myself for the potential moment of bliss that may result from existing as the great one winner for a brief moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to disregard all Life here within and as a result of being preoccupied with my own ego status in relationship to others ego status.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to thrive of the misfortune of others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being blinded within positive energy participation as a like a form of mental masturbation into a daze,

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to stumble and fumble around within a haze of positive energy feelings of disregard for the actually status and state of World affairs.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for dismissing accounting responsibility for myself as an able bodied being that is here that can support the stopping of bullshit here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing the propagated ego hero character that exists within our world that is like the status acceptance and allowance agreement that abusing life for an experience is is what this world is all about.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for just wanting to be a part of the big ego story here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for desiring and regarding to be well accepted and regarded by others as a result of doubting myself and believing that I can only trust myself if I have the trust of many others believing in me.  I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how fake this believed trust to be, when one rationalizes one's very own state of mind from a starting point of dissonance in relationship to Everything here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowiing myself to encourage the continuation of cognitive dissonance in our shared world.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for limiting my potential expressions here within the justification that it feels good to win at the expense of another feeling bad in loosing and that is just the way things are...so the decision is either abuse or be abused. I realize the absurd ridiculousness of the mentality of apathy, lack of self-trust, lack of self-confidence, and the lack of empathy and remorse.

When and as I see myself going into a energetic high experience in and as reaction to receiving positive feedback, I stop and breathe, I see the specifics of the point that exists as a dissonance within myself...I forgive myself for accepting and allowing such a dissonance to exist inside myself as the acceptance of myself as less than life here. I realign myself as self-regard as I care to make sure I effectively remove the contamination in my vocabulary and within this I reestablish the terms of agreement here as what is best for all life from the starting point of myself existence here as Oneness and Equality.  I realize and understand I am in the midst of the birthing process of myself actualization here as All as One as Equal. I commit myself to the humbling gratitude in seeing/realizing and physically learning to stand and walk and move in always that are best for all of Life here.

I commit myself to stopping apathy.

I commit myself to living self-trust.

I commit myself to living self-confidence.

I commit myself to empathy.

I commit myself to compassion and remorse.

I realize the practical application of not allowing myself to be consumed within any point, because that is not practical in supporting my ability to live responsibility here.

I commit myself to exposing the ridiculousness of the ego games here.

I commit myself to educate on the character dynamics of ego.

I commit myself to stop perpetuating our culture of psychic vampirism.

I commit myself to removing the ego from Greatness and grounding myself within the earth here as commitment to Life.

Day 702 - The Movement of Doing

The movement of doing....sounds kind of funny to me, like a religious or new age type of thing.

I write the "movement of doing" here because I am looking at the actually physical movement within and as my participation within and as being here engaged within tasks/responsibilities/activities/chores....

the point as "the movement of doing" comes up within me because I was noticing how there is many points existent within me where I have looked at and considered.....looked  at and considered from the perspective of and as actually moving/participating within.....you know doing these things. So in looking at points that I have looked at...I see how there hasn't necessairly been good reason for an actual lack of movement doing within and as these particular points. It's like sometimes in mind I kind od get tuned out of physical participation in reality....where my participation is passive in a sense because I am just moving/looking at things within my mind....and not then taking this insight/perspective/consideration into and as an actual physical realization playout. Where it's like a i look at the simulation of myself within a point....see that it would be cool and then....it's like on the to do bucket list of sorts....and there is no particular purpose created about doing it.

I am looking at here my relationship effectiveness within and as actually doing the things I would like to do.....moving within these points....opening them up for really...by beginning the physical participation dialogue....

I have noticed that I have become some what obsessed with taking in information and looking at things...without actually necessarily doing anything with the information I have worked with....like I see here I am not maximizing my potential support and assistance for myself in others in this world...by actually sharing my self-reflections....insights...and actually daring myself to participate more within points of self-development....instead of just thinking/looking about doing it.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for weighing myself down from the perspective of not actually moving myself to my potential abilities to actually participate within points of interest and responsibility to in fact stand as a pillar of support in my environment/world.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating reasons, justifications and excuses as ways in which I am able to talk/think myself out of moving within points I have looked at and would like to do.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for continually taking on new points of information to look at and investigate without actually finishing my investigations within a particular area of study.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting the patience to stay disciplined within learning and exploring new points/self-realizations/participations here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold myself back from actually moving within and as doing something within and as a specific area of study....because I do not see the whole finished outcome of how my participation/creation will unfold/turnout.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing and not really understanding the depth of self trust required to actually give and grant oneself permission to move into and as a solution/creation without actually knowing every detailed specific of how the point in question will manifest itself here/

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for avoiding participation within points that are not already well developed within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having some fear/angst about new beginnings and unknown outcomes.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be controlled by fear and angst.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for self-sabotaging myself here by victimizing myself within fault and wrong doing....where I see and realize my mistakes...and allow myself to haunt myself by and through my misdoings.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having an apprehensiveness towards misdoings.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing mistakes/misdoings

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for existing in a polarized relationship about perfection....where I hold myself back within the notion of perfectionism where I suppress myself before I even begin participating as a point of inferiority.....and also from the point of self sabotage....where I justify doing less than my best work/effort because of the the mentality that it's unnecessary and unrealistic to actual do my best work. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating conflict towards the point of perfection.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for defining perfection within and as positive energetic light and also to sometime allow the point to exist within and as a negative energetic charge,

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating an artificial movement within myself in relationship to the living of the word Perfection.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how I exist within my mind/body as a sort of articicial intelligence when and as I accept myself to have energetic conditions and charges attached to words as like my private associations that dictate my reaction to their particular company presentation and representation in the world I see.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how the accepted and allowed charges and conditions as particular energies associated with words has been a direct result of the experiences felt within and as my body as emotions and feelings and therefore within this...I have victimized my vocabulary to the point of contamination where it's like an unnatural...artificial expression of myself that is existent here....because I can see and realize how I have program coded myself with words from the starting point of limitation....where I have justified the logic as the laws/rules of and as my feelings/emotions relationship to the experiences that have developed within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to actually look at my word and world relationships on a daily basis as a point of word and world responsibility and relationship development and sustainability.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding that effective world sustainability is within and as the effectiveness of living words!

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for dismissing responsibility away from my inner world of word relationships....and rather only look outward at word and world relationships....where within this approach, missing the truth and tyranny of myself as the most unfortunate unlawful charges held against myself which are most unnecessary forms of self-imprisonment and victimized abuse.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent of legal abuse done unto myself as my word relationship charges I hold against myself as the specific memory impressions of particular experiences that shape the resonant hold on my being/body/mind ability to move within and as the doing expression and creation of myself that is possible to exist here beyond the restraints of systematic coding structured energetic restraints


To be continued

Day 642 Tree planting chapter 6 - physical enjoyment in the movement, beyond money...but is money...

Tree planting chapter 6 - physical enjoyment in the movement, beyond money...but is money...

Today I had a bit of a special mission type of day where I was required to move around from one area to another area...meaning I had to do a bunch of driving to go to various specific work site locations...now as a result I had less time available to plant than I have had on previous days and also nobody else was faced with these exact circumstance...the point of money came up in regards to my mood and attitude.

What is interesting here...is that I have noticed in the past how I have allowed myself to become emotional at the prospected fear of losing money...losing out on making more money...and what is interesting here...is that becoming emotional is a hindrance on self-movement here. I have noticed many times as I have allowed myself to get caught up in my mind while tree planting...that my effectiveness/concentration/focus./awareness/timing and coordination diminishes...and sometimes I stumble/trip...slow down...and overall become less effective  and efficient in the work I am doing...what is interesting about this here...is that as I allow myself to commit to the actual physical movement of just moving myself without any emotion and or feeling connotations...but just move me as like a sport activity competition...in which I am "willing" myself to excel at my very best potential...I am in fact  operating in a state of flow..."Self-directed flow zone", where I am totally immersed within my physical body...and I am really enjoying the seemingly effortless movement of myself...as like a point of style/grace/elite-performance...and the funny thing here is that I am actually giving my full effort/force for the seemingly effortless look...which is interesting...because I am committing my actions all the way here...and what is interesting also about this point, "in and as the importance of self-movement beyond emotions"...is that,  It is in fact, "money" in and of itself...because...that is true self-expression here...and true self-expression will be rewarded as the fruits of our labor...and from my personal experience within tree planting and also my writing here...is that as I allow myself to trust myself and I commit to directing the "will" within myself to actually move...that I am quite good at achieving fantastic results as a result of and as my self-commitment...self-dedication....and self-discipline..

I see here that this is a very important concept/point/understanding...that our self-movement here determines our reality...especially the state of our affairs/business/relations here.

I mean,

We can look at this at a personal, interpersonal and universal level...you see how your personal life is a result of your movement and participations within yourself as like what you accept and allow yourself to participate within yourself/mind/body/world/words.

 The interpersonal reflects and indicates the extent of our relationships with others that are cultivated and developed through and as our labored participations within them...I say labor...because it is focused work/play...that is seemingly effortless....yet that is because there is a full commitment of focused effort here...and thus our relationships with others...how we interact with others...is a result of how we act with our self here...so there is an interconnection and relation between our personal and interpersonal relationships...which therefore makes it easy to see and realize the extent to which our universal relationships exists here...as our self here in and as the universe...as a point of existence here...as like our sound...I mean who we are as the universe...big picture is a reflection of our personal and interpersonal...I mean it s interesting to see the state of world affairs through and as the eyes of self-realization and self-reflection...meaning that nothing can be separate from me here for real....because I am not really separate from anything here.

So, it is important to stop emotion and feeling as a source of self-movement...because the effectiveness of self-expression and fantastic results is therefore suppressed within and as the body energy output that is generated in feeding and maintaining a particular energetic vibration within the body as the activity is participated within...this is a result of the mindfulness in thought...meaning the  attention and deliberate participation within thoughts...is feeding the physical body stimulation...like there is a mental connection with the physical connection...and the more the mental condition and the thinking is indulged within while trying to excel to the best of one's abilities within a physical activity...the success within that physical activity will be strained and limited by one's own fear/mind/lack of focus and self-discipline.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which I am self-responsible for my physical body self movement here...and that it is me who determines my effectiveness..and the quality of my self-expression as a result of opening myself up to being able and capable of sharing myself as so much more than the limitations of thoughts feelings and emotions.

I see/realize and understand to access and get money...it is in fact effortlessly easy as put in my effort/self-movement,  I allow myself to focus on getting specifically and exactly what I want...however I see and realize the important point here...is that business...and self-expression is not about being emotional...that me as who I  really am...exists way beyond the energetic fear of thought feeling and emotion...and that the crucial ingredient in practical living the process here, is,  self-trust in the self movement here...and the dedication to keep moving..keep focusing...stop discouragement...self-trust...it is all about self-expression here...

What is cool about self-expression here...is that this is "you" sharing with all the "me's" here...and it's all "me"...and it's all "you" here...which means there is a togetherness agreement here....meaning that we share the same truth and trust here...as like this is both of our estate's here...and so when and as one expresses oneself here from within and as a state of flow...as like in the zone...like the physical here zone...which is the place here where and as our sound transference ripples in such a way as like the most awesome assistance and support ever.