Day 692 - Free Dumb of Speech....I Mean Free Doom....Freedom...

We live in interesting times. A time where we are faced with the question of, "what is and isn't acceptable behavior?"

It's interesting in looking at the topic of Freedom of Speech.  It's somewhat of a complex subject...yet the potential exists for it to be relatively simple.

I heard someone say that Freedom of speech is so controversial, because what is regarded as offensive and abusive to One person isn't necessarily abusive to another person.

It's like punching or slapping someone....some people might actually want you to do it....some might not really want you to do it, but they'll take it... and some will dish out a punch or slap of their own as a justified tit for tat kind of thing.An

What's interesting about this topic is the standards people have...as what is regarded as acceptable and not acceptable.

You may have heard the saying, "so and so has no filter"

Interesting to regard the fact that most water needs a filter to drink...if you didn't have a filter there would be too much non supportive things in the water....too much shit.

The point seems obvious about provisions of Freedom of Speech in regard to "Hate". Hate I see is and as where abuse originates from in speech. Hate is associated with violence...where the ends are believed to justify the means...or retribution and retaliation.

I am questioning here the general basics of how we typically communicate with one another. Like for instance, in specific regards to communication....the usage of opinion. I have generated some opinions within my writing here...and they are my statements of fact so to speak....but they are not actually absolute in terms of being this is this and only this kind of thing....I mean there is room for interpretation.

Do our opinions really matter when and as they are subjective?

Is this how Hate is created? Is Hate only ever Subjective? An Emotion?

Is this polarized also with Love? Is this subjective outlook of Love and Hate, problematic?

In choosing to Hate and choosing to Love....are we not less than our potential ability?

Is it a point of deception in choosing whether or not You will Love or Hate?

Why is a choice presented as a polarization of sorts...where it's like you either choose this or you choose this....either way you must make a choice?


Looking at "Freedom" and what does it really mean?  Isn't it interesting that when I look up the definition of freedom, there are so many definitions listed.....does this suggest that the very word relationship accepted within humanity in regards to freedom is complicated? Isn't war simply a result of complications? Isn't disease manifested as a result of physical body complications?

1.

the state of being free or at liberty rather than in confinement or under physical restraint:

He won his freedom after a retrial.

2.

exemption from external control, interference, regulation, etc.

3.

the power to determine action without restraint.

4.

political or national independence.

5.

personal liberty, as opposed to bondage or slavery:

a slave who bought his freedom.

6.

exemption from the presence of anything specified (usually followed byfrom):

freedom from fear.

7.

the absence of or release from ties, obligations, etc.

8.

ease or facility of movement or action:

to enjoy the freedom of living in the country.

9.

frankness of manner or speech.

10.

general exemption or immunity:

freedom from taxation.

11.

the absence of ceremony or reserve.

12.

a liberty taken.

13.

a particular immunity or privilege enjoyed, as by a city or corporation:

freedom to levy taxes.

14.

civil liberty, as opposed to subjection to an arbitrary or despotic government.

15.

the right to enjoy all the privileges or special rights of citizenship,membership, etc., in a community or the like.

16.

the right to frequent, enjoy, or use at will:

to have the freedom of a friend's library.

17.

Philosophy. the power to exercise choice and make decisions without constraint  from within or without; autonomy; self-determination.

Compare necessity (def 7).

See the Free within Freedom.....Notice the practical value of Free...I mean free is kind of synonymous with the number zero....because each represents/symbolizes Nothingness...a value is therefore absent in and as it's worth.

I find the whole notion of Freedom mildly entertaining as like there is all sorts of irony about it. This is a tragic comedy really.

Fighting for freedom is paradoxical....because it is like a dog chasing it's tail....the one is the other! Wait what? the dog is the tail and the tail is part of the dog....the tail and the dog are one?....Huh? Wait, what? Freedom and Fighting are the same thing? How so? Freedom is the choice to fight....freedom is in it's very nature a conflict of sorts...where decisions are made from and as the starting point of conflict....where there is a recognition of conflict and the decision to distance oneself from it...as like nah, not my problem....not going to take responsibility.....I choose self interest...I am free to do whatever I want....I want what I want.

Imagine if the sun was free to not work and and take vacations whenever?

What about your heart deciding to fuck off just because?

What about your legs decide to just stop working?

What about your eyeballs deciding they want to take a vacation and pop out of your skull?

Why should we humans be any different in and as our capacity for responsibility than the sum of our body parts?

Isn't it interesting that there is so much hoopla about freedom...when really this is a point that arguably contributes to the destruction of physical loving actions made visible as the acknowledgement and regard for the value of all life here.

Do you see how we humans have been conditioned to be in conflict with the regard and value for all Life here....beginning with our very self....cells here?

Notice the conflict that exists within and as the polarization of feelings and emotions.

Imagine the sun operating based on feelings and emotions that were always changing....like a bi-polar attitude flux of love/hate...where wanting to scorch and nurture...or like a good/bad duo....as like never really stable in and as its application? I mean what the fuck...right?

Is Freedom the enslavement to the acceptance and allowance of fear?

Think about it? Freedom....your free to feel how you want....free to do what you want....free to not listen to anyone else...free to choose....free ....free...free.....free dumb.....free doom..........fear is the freedom......it's like a control game really.....when you actually give up freedom you have freedom.....when you let go of desire you have desire.....when you give you get.....when you share you are cared for....when you live you in fact give.....in giving you get to live...

Freedom...in accepting and allowing anything and everything within yourself....freedom in chaos....freedom in an absence of principles/laws....order....harmony. Freedom in disharmony....freedom for disregard.....being free to regard...is not the same as practically living regard....because to practically live regard is beyond a choice....it's a commitment and responsibility....it's a realization.....what you see for real that is here.....it's passed the point of being able to choose whether or not you are able and or capable of seeing...you in fact in living your capability within and as your response ability...where responsibility is a loving action...where the physical actions are compassionately careful in nature as sharing is caring, a nurturing nourishment if you will. 

How have I been living freedom in the western world?  free to follow my desire that exists within my emotion/feeling predisposition as like giving all my attention to following along withing and as my train of thoughts....boarding and reboarding my thought trains when and as I feel like it...because the emotion and feeling act like the moral compass as the ultimate deciding factor as to how much I am interested in something is that buzz of the emotion and or feeling energy about the point...You know...like my focus is in relationship to my bliss....my energy....the memory relationships I have created in relationship to specific experiences as events therefore shaping and dictating my future governing of myself here. 

Isn't it interesting how specific events in history or perpetuating as landmark significance...and even celebrated on a yearly basis...as like to encourage a remembering and systematic upgrade coding and programming structure of perspective of how things are accepted and allowed to exist.

Isn't it interesting to actually investigate the very nature of our individual acceptances and allowances?

Isn't it interesting to see that our "programmed" self interest has been based on and in our mind consciousness freedom...where we as a mind consciousness system were free to choose....or shall I say free to believe in choice...as the thinking we have choice and freedom in particular matters...as like to believe that we exist here beyond the makeup of our information coding and actually dismissing the very facts of our acceptances and allowances that we fear to face about the history of self here...as an individual story that is collectively shared in various capacities...because each is a contributing player in and as the overall creation/structure here.

More Irony in relationship to Freedom....Nothing in this world is free.....funny statement here....because nothing is nothing...and this world is everything/everyone....and free is also a synonym of nothing...sharing/denoting the same value of zero in regard/relationship to money.

So this fighting for freedom has been like the destruction of life value and regard.  Freedom is such a word of abuse....does it really even need to exist....arguably one of the most abusive words to exist.....I mean really can greatness be practically lived when and as Freedom exists?  Well, I say No. Why? Look at the physical functioning of our body parts....does freedom exist there....no ....responsibility exists in replace of freedom....it's like being dumb is a choice and this is where the whole "freedom debacle" originated from....it's really a result of the information/education we bought into....it's like placing the value and regard outside of ourselves as a result of not realizing and understanding the extent of ourselves here and therefore our very mirrored reflections...self reflections have been negated and we have most unfortunately done harm unto ourselves and each other here.

Enough is enough....end the freedom brigade and take responsibility for the world system in which you are a part of....join the system and therefore empower yourself as actually being able to direct problems into solutions that are best....I mean this is real alchemy...where you can actually practically change the physical structure of the systems here to that which is best.

How we change our accountability and our actually grounding responsibility here within and as our practical living realization of words as the seeing for real what has always been here....this is in fact our awareness.

To Be Continued

Day 686 - Christmas Irony

"...The Spoiling of Our gifting Inheritance opportunities Here" (Mike McDonald - Day 685-The Interconnectedness of Good and Bad)

Let me begin by sharing some common synonyms associated with the word "Irony":

Sarcasm
Causticity
Cynicism
Mockery
Satire
Sardonic
Paradox
Incongruity
Incongruousness

There are 2 Very Common Antonyms associated with the word "Irony":

Sincerity
Logic

The roots of the word Irony, As well as "Socratic Irony"stem from the early 16th century via Latin from Greek.

See earlier meanings as:

'Simulated Ignorance'

and

'Dissembler'


Let us now look at commonly accepted definitions of Irony:

The expression of one's meaning by using language that normally signifies the opposite, typically for humorous or emphatic effect.

A state of affairs or an event that seems deliberately contrary to what one expects and is often amusing as a result.

A literary technique, originally used in Greek tragedy, by which the full significance of a character's words or actions are clear to the audience or reader although unknown to the character.


Do You Realize the Christmas Irony?

The "Christmas Irony" is but one example outflow of the Irony that exists here.

Whether You realize the "Christmas Irony" or not may reflect your "Character" here...as your participation within your acceptances and allowances here. Note the third common definition of irony listed above in italics. This definition can also be referred to as 'dramatic irony'.

The Irony of "Christmas" is that we are the very Butt of the Joke....and the popular funny of the times...is a most unfortunate, tragic comedy....a reflection of our historical origins.....re-gifting....a re-cycling...a re-presenting...if you will of the acceptances and allowances of the regard/lack-of-regard of the Human Condition...and for the Value of All Life Here.

Here are some Socratic Irony Exemplification!

Isn't it better that the sentiments of "Christmas"...you know, 'the spirit of giving'...and, 'good timing and good cheer'....are only a 1 day out of the year living?

I can't imagine how problematic the world would be if everyday was like "Christmas"....Can You? It would be so difficult to perpetuate the upkeep of War.

There are a lot of cool values/principles associated with "Christmas"...I wonder if we Humans as a species, really lived and honored such principles daily....what would happen?

There's not enough time to have "Christmas everyday"...I mean, there's a different amount of hours in a day on Christmas....isn't there?

Do You think Heaven on Earth...if there were to be an everyday heaven on earth....that, it would reflect something along the lines of the most amazing Christmas story ever...where all Life was presented and regarded here...and shared and valued as the gift giving self-expressions we are?

Must there exist an equal relationship of Very Good and Very Bad?

How special a time of the year is Christmas generally regarded as?

Would you say that typically every other day, shares the same "specialness" as Christmas?

Isn't it interesting how a 'holiday' such as "Christmas" can be organized in such a way to accommodate a rather relaxed work day?

Is it impossible to imagine a constant giving and receiving experience? Like, where there is a continuous movement and momentum as the flow of the go continuing in and as what is going on....as a harmonious playing and working together that is a seemingly endless production that is Awesome in Magnificence as the marveling gratitude being the accepted and allowed great attitude accommodating the value and regard for all Life here?

Do You See any Christmas Irony in the Current Human Conditioning as Our Wold System Collective Expression?

Notice there is an "Awe" about Awesome and Awful. Awful is like the overdose of Awesome...like the consequence of a serious dissonance....extreme wealth and extreme poverty for example.....a too muchness if you will.....where destruction is the result.

Isn't Awesome Construction much more sustainable and a logically sound investment when and as you consider the alternative to Awesome construction, being the awful truth constriction which is filled with irony....as the holy shit realizations...as the current tragic comedy here?

Remember, As you celebrate this Merry Merry Christmas...what an absurdly ridiculous joke you are....Now it is very very important not to rebel against Christmas....because the only thing more absurdly ridiculous than something that is absurdly ridiculous...Is fighting against something that is absurdly ridiculous....because in doing that you perpetuate and substantiate the ridiculous absurdity...and actually fuel the existence....of the most unfortunate tragic comedy you wish to remedy.

Stand Equal and One with the Joke You are.

Never forget,

You are a Joke!

Haha

Joker.

Make it a good one....the balance between good to bad is out of wack.....

Creative Cool Please!

Regurgitating Repeating isn't working unless it's working...and how many times do you really want to regurgitate the same shit? or Wait...isn't that the point....to regurgitate shit...as like the way to keep on feeding and feeding Bullshit?

Pardon my Shit, lets Substantiate it.

Merry Self-Forgiveness ! ?

Day 684 - Profound

What I find interesting is that everything here is really rather profound. I mean the fact that I am here typing on the computer as an accumulation of networking relations really... I mean how many relationships are networking within the physical body?

What I find interesting is everything here. There is so much here! I really enjoy communication!

Communication is like a communion of sorts as like a common I see a connection or tie on...
Well, maybe communication isn't always portrayed and express as a sharing of a connection....In some particular instances it is the exact opposite of such circumstances.

What I have noticed is that it is so awesome in enjoyment to speak from the starting point of agreement. What do I mean when I say to speak from the starting point of agreement? Well, first of all it starts from within yourself and the starting point relationship you have with the words you are speaking. To speak words from beyond the energetic friction and conflict of a disharmony. This is an interesting conundrum of sorts at times...because as a result of participating with others in communication, sometimes we are faced with momentary reactionary energy that comes up within ourself...and the energy is like a pull/push experience where there is a somewhat of a learned conditioned tendency to want to push the energy out of ourselves as a sort of reactionary response within our communication dialogue...because it's justified within our mind as being of a particular validity because of the energy/emotion connection and connotation.

What I have personally found to be quite cool, is to actually recognize the moment the reactionary energy surfaces within myself and to then take a breath and speak from a point of self trust that exists beyond the energy emotion reaction...where I create a real time direction harmony agreement within and as the words I am speaking which are in relationship to the person I am communicating with.

I am learning about how effective this is in articulating any information effectively.

What I find fascinating about this process of communication that we are all networked within is that we are all so sensitive within our communications and our very communication indicates our particular points of sensitivity because everyone is essentially existing within the same basic operating systems....meaning that we are dealing with language...our base method of conversing with one another is through language. Our language can be verbal or non verbal. I have noticed specific correlations with our physical body postured positions and our internal body acceptances and allowances which I see are indicative of our word world relationships.

I was having a discussion today with a fellow and we are talking about the ridiculousness that its very uncommon...and quite rare really that anyone has the vocabulary of all the words that makeup that parts and the processes of our physical body. We were discussing how doctors are very much specialized experts into particular areas of understanding of the physical body...and how there are family doctors who have a general understanding of the overall functioning process of the body. And, of course there are nurses who have a general understanding of a bunch of the processes in the body...But the point we were looking at is...."who really knows everything about the human physical body?"  I mean this is quite a fascinating question in and of itself. Because, we are all existing within and as our physical bodies here...yet the detailed specifics of our complete realization of ourselves existing within our physical bodies is a mystery of sorts...because we haven't really been educated into the extensive nature of all the detailed specifics.

In looking at this discussion I was having and sharing....it seemed quite peculiar that this point of ourselves would be negated...as like a non consideration really....or a something that is easily dismissive because it seems to complicated in being able to do the mathematical accounting for all the vocabulary that is somewhat foreign from regular dialogue on a regular basis.

We got into talking about the magnificence of the physical body as like a representation of planet earth and how perhaps the best way to design a world that is best for all Life would be in accordance with actually studying and understanding the human physical body and it's effectiveness in existing here as a networking harmony of relationship agreements.

In looking at why I have neglected to dedicate much time into understanding all the vocabulary and processes of the human physical body...I see that I created resistance towards such an investigation because of the idea/belief/justification that this is just too complex of an undertaking and that I don't know how long it would take for me to effectively have complete comprehension of myself here as the human physical body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for making a belief/justification/idea that studying/realizing/knowing myself completely as the human physical body is just too complex of an undertaking and that because I don't know how long it will take for me to completely realize myself as the sum of all my parts here...I might as well forget about it.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having a tendency to dismiss and resistance participating within things I define as being "too complex or too complicated" and "I don't know how I will do will get to the point of completion of such a complex investigation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the simplicity and profoundness of the statement," a journey of profound magnitude begins with the first movement"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing vocabulary that I do not know.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being resistant towards investigating things where there is a structured vocabulary I know nothing or almost nothing about.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to investigate things that will take a committed effort of time and patience.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to gift myself the gift of "Investigation" into the areas that I do not know.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding that the "areas" I do not know are parts of myself I have yet to discover.

When and as I see myself being resistance and apprehensive about embarking upon new investigations and new discoveries, I stop and breathe, I see, realize and understand my profound potential to learn and explore effectively through the specific structured application of asking questions and doing the math within and as the deduction process in realizing the answer and solution to the question I asked....because I realize and understand myself to exist here as the question/answer/solution equal and one.

I commit myself to investigating all point I am resistant and apprehensive about.

I commit myself to stop making excuses and justifications as to why I need not expand my potential through self-investigative endeavors into that which I do not realize I know...but I am in fact questioning...

I commit myself to share myself.

I commit myself to seeing and realizing the profound insight that is always here

I commit myself to my best self constantly and consistently.

I commit myself to walk the process in expanding my relationship with words in learning through work and play with new vocabulary.

I commit myself to share my profound insights.

I commit myself to acknowledging profound insights.

I commit myself to profound greatness.

I commit myself to profound creation as the solution that is in all ways best for Life.

Day 640 Tree Planting Chapter 4 In Your Face Self-Reflection

Tree Planting Chapter 4 In Your Face Self-Reflection

So, I find it interesting to see and realize that deep down within our self we all desire the very same thing(s). That is what is Awesome.

Now,  the meticulous detailed specifics of what is awesome may vary slightly as there is so much that encompassed the awe of awesome.

I was working with 2 fellow planters today...doing a bit of extra work..."overtime" if you will...as this was our "day off" from planting before our next shift of planting begins...this was a little special mission that we volunteered to take on. Points that stand out from this special mission is the fact that we all expressed the desire to have our own land...and the desire to work the land...and utilize what the land is able to produce...now this is interesting that we were talking about this as we were planting life into the land. Now, we also talked about the point of building our own homes on the land...and one of the guys has gotten himself some specific training in how to build log homes.  I had researched about straw bale houses...and he was familiar.

Now, point of my sharing here is on the topic of self reflection here...as that deep down we are all the same and we all want the same things at a very basic nature...like for instance our own home and our own land to produce food for example...now where things get a little individualized with wants is in the area of actual hobbies....activities...as like a form of education and entertainment play and pursuits of development and expression as like how we choose to utilize our free time.

This leads me here to sharing about the brutal truth of my self reflection this afternoon and this evening with regards to acceptance of self here...and the desire to be validated by another self here....as an equal.

This point comes up in specific relation to the nature of the relationship that exists with alcohol here within our human culture. Alcohol is like the social lube...as like the coming together acceptance and allowance...that as we share this drink together we can in turn socialize and validate one another within sharing this depressive drink...now I say depressive drink because scientifically it is fact that alcohol exists as a depressant....and the point of alcohol being regarded as something the majority of humans like to have and share with one another as a point of bonding is rather sad...and most unfortunate.

Now, I realized at quite a young age...that my use of alcohol was for these specific purposes...that it was a way for me to feel more comfortable interacting with others...as like feeling like I belong more with others here...and that alcohol was a drink I referred to as liquid courage...as like I could use the alcohol to say whatever I felt like...as like a way to feel like I am temporarily opening myself up....and also the fact that now I had a point in common with all these other people at a basic level of socializing from and as the perspective that they too are full of fear suppression and drink the alcohol as a point of wanting to have a good time and enjoy oneself.

Now, here in the tree planting culture in which I am immersed within ...alcohol is hugely popular. Drugs are also not uncommon. Pot is about as common as cigarette smoking...arguably less popular than it was some years ago...though...smoking in general is also quite popular among tree planters.

Now,  it is interesting to me...because I have had much resistance to wanting to put in much face time around others while engaging in socializing with alcohol. It's interesting because the socializing that occurs for the most part is in relationship to the drugs and the alcohol...as like the necessary fuel to unwind and have a good time....like it is the good time medicine.

What is interesting to reflect upon is how I, in the past regarded marijuana as my medicine. Like, I needed my weed to be OK...I can recall saying that I would be OK with being any where in the world...specifically...i believe I stated that I could be anywhere as long as I had my weed...and look at the point...here....that my stability...and comfort...and ability to be at one within myself...i believed to be totally dependent upon my ability to have my medicine...It's interesting because I regarded weed medicine as like quite powerful and strong stuff that was really helping me expand myself.

What's interesting about all this reflection here...is that there was a hesitance within me about actually looking at my starting point for my indulgence within substances.

Also...the point of intimately seeing others as me too. Like seeing and realizing and understanding my Self responsibility in communicating and socializing with others as a point of support and assistance for myself/others here.

What's interesting to see, is how easy it has been for me to go into a self-righteous character and cast out blame projections towards others as like a self-hypothesized theorized justification as how the others are just too fucked and that there ability to really give a shit and change their outlook is just so limited and that it is really a waste of my time to socialize with these depressed/suppressed/hippy drug and alcohol users who believe it's all good man and that things are cool and there all about having a good time and experiencing the good feelings within the right now of consciousness energy...as like just focus on the positive man...and ya lets just hang out together and party...have our drink and just have a good time.

"See", what is interesting about all this, ...., is, this is me facing me here.

What do I mean when and as I say..."this is me facing me here?"

I mean, this is me, facing myself here.

See, everyone here is me and you.

You is me and me is you.

The tough pill to swallow if you will, is that once you actually "dare to investigate" the extent of our self here...and question what is best for all life here....there is no turning back...like...there is a point of a certain strength of character required in honoring life here...and facing the challenges here, such as fellow humans within immense self-suppression...that there is a duty of care required here...to speak to, and as the strength of each persons character...regardless of how suppressed and buried it may very well be....SEE, Here...is and as our ability to "Live" the words we Speak as a Visible example within our community as the Question, the Answer and the Solution.

Like,

See here how my particular situation within my tree planting community brings about many questions: like; why i do not drink or do drugs.

Questions are a cool vehicle to getting somewhere.

Solutions are the best way to answer questions...as like a showing the way how to do something...so that another can have the point be explained and exemplified for them...so that there mind is totally clear within and as how the point can in fact actually be walked...like the will and the way have already been shown...what now opens up within an individual...another as self here...is that very point of having a tough pill to swallow with regards to and as the truth of and as our self reflection here....our Self "in" "to" "me" "I" "see".

Day 619 Waiting for the Right Moment

So, this evening I found myself waiting and looking for the right moment to begin writing my blog. this was a ridiculously absurd notion...as like the point was here...and it's like I was wanting a particular energy to direct me...and...momentarily I was allowing this waiting and searching for the right energy to influence me...as like I had this attitude of I don't feel like doing this writing here now...and I mean it's kind of funny because I always do enjoy very much writing here...so it's kind of ridiculous and absurd to see how I can stew within a thought/feeling/emotion/energy even for a moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting my moment to moment management even for a moment.

When and as I see myself neglecting to manage my moment here as what is best for all Life as my self-expression in and as self-responsibility and self-awareness here, I stop and breathe, I say,"I am here",,,I move myself into self-directive action and allow myself to practically live self-responsibility in taking care of myself here. I see/realize/understand that as I take care of myself from within and as the point of giving myself the best support and assistance, I develop and expand self-intimacy here which makes me better prepared to assist and support another as myself. I commit myself to assisting and supporting myself from moment to moment as a point of moment management from within and as the starting point of and as what is best for all Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying the strain and tension within delaying self-responsibility within a moment of seeing the point that requires self-direction.

When and as I see a point that requires self-direction, I stop and breathe, I say, "I am here" I direct myself to do what is best within the moment as a point of self-honesty and self-trust. I see/realize/understand self-honesty and self-trust to be a in the moment practical living/working self-application that is based in and as the physical common sense here within and as the moment. I commit myself to self-honesty and self-trust within and as the moment of physical awareness here. I commit myself to and as self-direction as what is best for all Life. I commit myself to stop justifying strain and tension as a result of delaying self-responsibility within a moment of seeing the point that requires self-direction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging the moments as the right time or the wrong time. 

When and as I see myself judging time, I stop and breathe, I say, "I am here"...I see and realize the absurd ridiculousness of judging my time. I see/realize/understand the absurd ridiculousness of getting lost within the judgement of time. I commit myself to stop jeopardizing myself here within judging time.

Day 603 Fear of Conflict

I noticed that within the word Conflict I have accepted and allowed myself to attach a negative energetic charge to the word conflict.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how having a negative energetic charge associated and attached to the word conflict has impaired and hindered myself expression here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for hindering and impairing myself expression within accepting and allowing a negative energetic charge upon the word Conflict.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for avoiding particular point of self-responsibility as a result of having accepted and allowed myself for having existed within and as fear towards the practical living of and as the word Conflict.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how deliberate my self-expression with others has been suppressed as a result of fearing to generate conflict/friction within expressing myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which I have avoided taking self-responsibility for the word conflict within myself...and how the word conflict has existed as point/epitome of fear. I see/realize/understand how both positive/negative energy is rooted in and as fear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the irony of having accepted and allowed myself to define and associate conflict with negative energy, because it is actually completely ridiculously absurd to allow such an acceptance and allowance because I have perpetuated a form of inner turmoil within myself as a result of being influenced by fear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating fear within myself as a point of Conflict as negative energy...and within this, I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have avoided facing that which I fear as that which i have created within myself as my own self-imposed limitation/restraint.

I commit myself to releasing myself from conditioned restraints/limitations induced by conflict/friction/energetic fear within myself.

When and as I see myself existing within and as a point of Conflict, I stop and breathe, I see/realize/understand the absurd ridiculousness of taking offense/defense to the point of Conflict in question, I direct myself to investigate the dimensions/origins/roots of and as the Conflict in question, I commit myself to self-directing the Conflict within and as self-trust/self-honesty/self-responsibility/self-integrity/self-dignity/self-worth/self-grace/self-perfection as like a musical conductor/maestro conducting the symphony/orchestra.


I commit myself to see the word conflict as the word conflict without any energetic charges.

I commit myself to stop fearing to create conflict.

I commit myself to stop taking conflict personally.

I commit myself to relishing in the opportunity to self-direct moments of conflict when and as I see I am able and capable of doing so. I see/realize/understand the self-support within taking self-responsibility for directing the conflict that exists internally and externally...and I see/realize/understand that my effectiveness within directing external conflict is in fact a direct reflection of my labored ability to self-direct my inner-conflict to and as practical living solutions as physical sound stability within and as the harmonizing of myself/words within and as the starting point of Equality and Oneness.

Day 514 Branding and Marketing Stigmatization

Continued from previous blogs. Quote here from initial blog on "branding and marketing":

"With the word Stigmatization coming up I reflect back to elementary school and I recall not getting invited to this girl's birthday party that was a boy/girl party in like grade 5 or 6 where pretty much every body in the grade at the school was invited but I wasn't invited because I had been exploring body parts with this particular girl a little while earlier...and the girl's mother found out and told my parents....and this was made to be this big deal and secret bad thing that wasn't to be talked about...and I was regarded as a bad apple/influence by the girl's mother...and thus I was outcasted from going to this boy/girl party where there would be things happening like spin the bottle and getting locked in the closet.   Anyways, I was kinda sad/disappointed about not being allowed to go to party...but I at that age accepted that I was the bad apple...and believed to understand why I couldn't go because the girls mom feared me as being a bad influence.

I see how I spawned the attitude from there that I am too cool, like too cool to be allowed to socialize with all my peers all the time because I'm such a strong influence...and a strong influence is an influence to be feared."

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for marketing and branding stigmatization.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to stigmatize myself within spawning the attitude that I am too cool, like to cool to be allowed to socialize with all my peers all the time because I'm such a strong influence...and a strong influence is an influence to be feared.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for holding on to such fear within myself that I projected the image of superiority as a false front imagined belief to make believe reality as a result of being petrified of facing the actuality of my accepted and allowed physical reality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for trying to comfort myself and make myself feel good within an unpleasant situation of being outcasted by my peers.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for trying to create comfort within myself through the belief of superiority.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for separating myself from myself through the make belief of superiority.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for coping with disappointment within myself by creating a logical-self manipulation as my reasoned justifications of why things are happening the way they are.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing for justifying self-stigmatization.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for subscribing to the belief and judgement of another.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to make sense out of belief and judgement.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to distort my perception of reality within making sense of things though judgement and belief.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how a memory that happened so early on within my Life could have had an influence on me up till today.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for desiring to be a good influence within accepting and allowing myself to exist as a bad influence.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist as a bad influence.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that I am a bad influence.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for opting out of participation within particular activities from the perspective of I'm too cool to associate within that particular activity or environment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for defining so many activities as less cool than me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging people extensively for participation within activities that I don see as being cool.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging people as like where there at and what they are doing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for avoiding to look at myself and see what I am accepting and allowing that is not cool.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for holding onto a friction within myself as a result of avoiding to correct the acceptances and allowances within myself that are not cool.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for holding onto points within myself that are not cool.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating separation within myself as like conflicting my perception of cool as a result of accepted and allowed self-judgement.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for blocking myself access to really understanding the totality of myself as cool.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to be cool.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for deciding that I can't be cool all the time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fragmenting my coolness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for making being cool a point of conditionality as like under only certain circumstances and contexts.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for suppressing the unconditional expression of cool.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to censor myself as cool.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing that others will not be able to handle me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to handle myself within situations where I am required to stand within and as stability as the point/example of self-direction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing people not understanding my expression in particular moments.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging myself expression in particular moments where I do not receive positive feedback and re-enforcement for my expression.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for assuming that no positive feedback for a particular situation is a form of negative feedback...as like believing that saying nothing is worse than saying something...saying nothing is like the worst review/feedback possible.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging no feedback on particular situations as like a form of receiving extensive negative judgement.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for desiring to receive lots of positive feedback from my peers.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for looking for positive feedback and re-enforcement of my particular expressions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking offense to not receiving feedback on my particular expressions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing negative judgement.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing negative feedback/criticism.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing no criticism as being worse than any publicly expressed negative criticism and or judgement.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire negative criticism.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel good when I receive positive criticism and bad when I receive negative or no criticism.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being dependent upon others for self-validation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing my worthiness is determined by the attention I get from others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting high off of receiving attention.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for experiencing a low off of receiving little attention.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for existing within low experiences and trying to get and remain in a high energetic experience.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being an energy whore within experiences as like always trying to channel a particular experience and making something more out of a particular physical moment of expression.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for suppressing moments of physical self-expression within creating definitions of self-judgement within particular moments...as like having a particular reaction within a moment which can exist within and as the form of a thought that comes up within my mind, and or a feeling or emotion that comes up within me...whether it seems to be triggered by a thought...or it comes up as a result of me being triggered by something within my environment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be triggered by things within my environment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extensive amount of assistance and support I have within my environment within seeing and realizing the triggers that exist within my environment are in fact the teachers here to support me in facing myself...as every point that triggers activity/reaction within my consciousness is a gifted opportunity for me to see the point of accepted and allowed manifested separation within myself as like a point of self-suppression...and that I can correct the situation in the moment...and piece myself back together as a point of expanding myself awareness here as like a point of increasing my presence/life force essence as my ability to exist here within and as physicality.




To Be Continued