Day 749 - Word Recognition Continuation

Continuing from my previous post:

"So, what I would like to reiterate in this sharing here today, is the point that often times, there is a particular moment of reactionary impulsing to particular language that is used...and this is often reflected back to us or another in and as our communication. And within being perceptive to such instances. there is tremendous potential that is possible to open up in and as the moment. Here comes a point of self-honesty in and as the moment of sharing and looking and seeing, and somewhat daring to actually stop and look at what is here to investigate. I have noticed that in many instances, I was some what reluctant to actually stop and bring attention to the word in question that would come up in a moment as like a point of dissonance within myself or the person I was communicating with."

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing a reluctance within myself to actually opening up particular words within myself as points that require my attention as a remediation required to harmonize the dissonance within and as my particular relationship with the Word....so as to stop myself from accepting and allowing less than what is best as the Word...and to from within and as this regard, effectively empower myself as the Living Word Solution Here as that which is all ways always Best.

I realize and understand the process here of stopping myself...as it is is within the stopping myself, that I am able to actually look within myself and see what it is I have been accepting and allowing myself to participate within. As I give myself the opportunity to look and see what is going on as a result of first stopping, and then identifying the points within myself with specific word recognition, I am from Here able to expand myself and unlock my potential in so many ways. This Here is a structured process of specificity in unlocking self-imposed restraints as word/world relations that are less than what is best.

I commit myself to the specificity in unlocking self-imposed restraints as word/world relations that are less than what is best

Day 732 - Movie Review SubUrbia

A really good movie for young people to watch. It really encourages the point of self-reflection into what one is doing with their life. What kind of potential oneself has...and how if we don't really challenge ourselves to move then we will just go through the movement moments of emotion and remain stuck in the same dead end until we die.

The movie showcased different character dynamics amongst young people and also the fact that immigrants to the western world are the ones often getting their shit together...working hard so that they can make something more for themselves....it shows the point of apathy rather well...also the point of openness and how an open attitude can yield opportunity and potential development for oneself...regardless of where one it is at currently...it's like there is always room for improvement and when one is open and willing to improve their position and status and positioning in life...well the opportunity might just open itself up externally as a reflection of the internal attitude. Also showcases rather well the point of self-victimization and the destruction within self-talk as like kicking one's own ass within one's emotional disposition.

The movie is also an eye opener into self-responsibility...i would say this because it showcases the attitude of despair as kind of like bumbling along and not really having a high regard for oneself as a consequence really of being somewhat of a scatter brain from the perspective of thinking about so much stuff outside the scope of oneself here...and really if the starting point isn't first the regard and consideration for oneself...than the regards and consideration for others is futile...because really it's at your own expense and it is thought of as a like a distraction and a sort of preoccupation to avoid actually taking responsibility and directing the main problem which is oneself and the fact that one isn't really doing anything for themselves to their betterment and therefore is also in fact a detriment to everyone else because if one doesn't take regard and consider oneself to the highest degree...the likely hood of being able to give and contribute effectively to the lives of others is very much suppressed...so much so that the individual may in fact be a drain on the lives of others as a result of their own self inflicted abuse. 

This movie kind of reflects into the psyche of a young adult and really is a point of recognition towards the self-reflection in asking the question "do I have my shit together"...what am I doing for myself....what am I making for myself....what purpose am I giving to my life?  These questions I am learning are critical  in the development of oneself here and also within having the ability to critically give responsibly here. Responsibility starts with self and that is something worth repeating...daily...from moment to moment...responsibility starts with self.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for wanting to wallow at the end of the movie at the harsh reality of the fact that it is up to self whether or not one gets self-honest with oneself and takes self-responsibility as the Director of One's Life here...and this is it...You got to put in the effort to yourself to really get the life You want...the Life You are worth...it's a point of and as our Potential Here....I mean this is something that is labored into ourselves....it's like we have to cultivate and develop our potential....Yes we have a natural ability within and as the expression of our potential....the reality is to effectively exercise and express that Potential of ours...we need to be self-honest in and as the self-evaluation of our acceptances and allowances here..as the way to maintain a clean body/mind relationship where just like we shit out the shit from the body...we take care to release the shit from our minds so as to make sure we keep farming the greatness which is in fact our true potential here....and keep growing developing new branches of our potential as the ways in which we allow ourself to connect and contribute to the lives of others so that they too can compliment in contribution to the lives of others...as like the epitome understanding and realization to how in fact it is possible for the Merry go Round to function as our shared play ground working together reality here.

When and as I see myself looking at a harsh truth as like a deep rooted acceptance and allowance within myself....I take a moment to really look at what it is I have been accepting and allowing that I had not previously been really acknowledging. I face the emotion that comes with seeing something that I had been avoiding to look at. I look at the emotion that is connected to what I have accepted and allowed. I realize the gratitude in gifting myself the privilege and patience to actually take the time to self-examine the extent of my accepted and allowed conditioning. I really face myself as it...I see myself clearly within and as the point...I realize myself as the potential expansion from and as this accepted and allowed limitation. I realize and understand how to move beyond such a mistake. I make the decision to stop accepting and allowing myself to be enveloped within such a character condition of suppression. I embrace the change I see possible.

I commit myself to the development and expansion of my Potential.

I commit myself to learning from self-evaluation.

I commit myself to creating a life for myself.

I commit myself to contributing to the lives of others.

I commit myself to the regard and consideration of self-responsibility being a daily repetition from moment to moment.

I commit myself to sharing my realizations of self-responsibility as the Merry go Round as as the gratitude and grateful attitude in and as our shared play ground working reality here...and within this realizing and understanding that this starts with myself regards here as the working play ground. 

I commit myself to taking care of my body and my mind and within this realizing and understanding the necessity in giving myself everything I need to cultivate the full development of my potential here.

I commit myself to branching out my potential.

I commit myself to opening up my mind to new opportunities to develop my potential and then later share my creations and supportive contributions to the lives of others.

I commit myself to making the most out of my Life here.

Day 722 - Cooler Than Cool Is Cold as Ice

It's interesting to see from a perspective of temperature how closely related Cool and Cold are. Is there an exact point/temperature reading that defined the bounds of Cool and Cold?  What's interesting is that Cool and Cold Compliment One Another! I see this as a movement play...the transition in direction as the change so gradual it's barely noticeable untill it's like dead obvious.

In my previous blog I mentioned the point of Cold Water therapy. I implore you to play with the point!

A point of support in making a great experience for you is to test the point gradually. Meaning it may not be the most practical to play with the extreme cold temperature as your body is not maybe so accustomed to it. perhaps work within the spectrum of Warm and Cool....and kind of play with it....in degrees of warmth and then push it into degrees of Cool....and depending on how this goes, maybe push the temperature back up to warm...and maybe even hot. Now throw it all the way down low...like real low...or not that low at all.  The point here is to play with the temperature gauge yourself in getting yourself acquainted with the water flow and feel as the temperatures you are.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for defining the word Cool as a positive thing...specifically with the positive feeling energy of Superiority....while at the same time being somewhat conflicted within the point where to hear that it is Cool outside can invoke a sort of Inferiority type energy experience of emotion as being less than as good a temperature as it could be if it was warm outside.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having conflicted definitions within myself as the word Cool...where I have one context meaning a positive energetic reaction and another context meaning an negative energetic reaction.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create polarized reactions to COOL.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how holding onto polarized energy within myself with specific regards to COOL is rather restricting and a strangle hold of sorts in actually being able to live the word Cool without potential nuclear disaster at any given moment based up the unstable relationship elements within and as my world here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the chemistry of myself here as a concoctions of words...and where the meanings are out of wack with various types of conflicting contexts as like a contradictory friction within myself that has the potential to be a disaster waiting to happen as like my very own self defined doomsday.  I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding the irony of and as my word and world relationships here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for making believing a preference towards self-destruction as opposed to self-perfection and self-empowerment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for using the differences within and as words as a detriment to myself development here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the art of communication from and as the starting point of sounding the song so it can be sung as like the flow you make as like a cake that it baked....yes it can rhyme....regardless of the time....it doesn't matter...Things are fine so long as you speak from the heart as the epitome self-realization as the all together Earth here, as the anagram play is clear...and there's little to no fear in sharing dimensions from the sea of seeing things here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get mixed up in the polarity play of comparison, while not realizing that everything is complimentary. I realize and understand that some compliments are not so complimenting and maybe even out of line as questionable all together...nonetheless...compliments are complimentary....just like complimentary angles are always the Right angles. I see realize and understand that when we learn to compliment each other in our endeavors this is in fact the weather that will produce a prosperous harvest for things are taking root in the plants that were planned for as the seeds of seeing things through to fruition as the sweet delight of the guts of the matter created here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the subtle degree in variance from shifting from cool to cold as the attitude I am presenting.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying the transition in attitude from a starting point of stubborn disregard for the patience required to stop myself from perpetuating the strain of my own self-appoint strain as like the creation of internal agony as a result of sword used improper as the meaning of words smeared within myself as less than complimentary in creating that which is most Awesome.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting caught up in being right that I forgot the whole point of what in fact is Complimentary....because in my quest to be Right...I created the apparent wrong as a win/lose scenario where the game is on,,,,keeping score within myself...whether i beat myself or lose to myself...either way it's a loss...because so long as there is a divide within one there is a split up a breakup...and when the whole point of standing together as one here...alone is undone.,..well, we have a humpty dumpty what a great fall.  I realize the absurd ridiculousness of getting my tongue tied as the word definitions I accept and allow that conflict with the common sense best applications Life is all ways What's Best.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being mad about patience..as like regarding others as patients and being upset that I started the doctors practice of building bridges of support through and as the practice of Patience. I realize and understand the real meaning of patience isn't some long con energetic deception ploy of a play where it's a fight all the way,...rooted in clever deceit. No, I realize and understand the practical everyday sharing of Patience is what Keeps Opportunity and Potential Live and Well as the Farmer tending to his field...Everyday garnering the field of dreams, the scientific art of knowing how to be careful for what You wish for!


To be Continued

Day 644 The Desteni of Living

 

My Declaration of Principle:


1. Realizing and living my utmost potential

2. Living by the principle of what is best for all - guiding me in thought, word and deed to always in all ways direct problems to the best possible outcome for all

3. Living by the principle of self honesty - to ensure I am pure in thought, word, and deed: that my within and without is equal and one. Who I am within is who I am without and vice-versa

4. Self Purification through Writing, Self-Forgiveness and Self Application - the action of realizing I am responsible for my own thoughts, words and deeds, to forgive myself for transgressions and change myself to ensure I take responsibility for who, what, and how I am and through this know that I can trust myself to always be honest with me and so others

5. Living the principle of Self-Responsibility - realizing only I am responsible for what I accept and allow inside of me, my relationships and my outside world and so with this responsibility: only I have the power and ability to change that which I see is compromising who I am, what I live and how this affects others

6. Realizing that who I am in thought, word and deed affects not only myself - but others as well and so with Self Responsibility in thought, word and deed - I take responsibility for myself and so my relationships to be Self Aware in every moment and live in such a way that is best for me and so others as well

7. Living the Principle of Self Awareness - to be aware, to see, to recognize my own thoughts and Mind, to be self honest to the extent where I can take responsibility for when I see my thoughts / Mind is not what is best for me / others and commit to  immediately take responsibility and change for myself and so others

8. With taking responsibility for myself, becoming aware of myself - take responsibility and become aware of others in my life, to assist and support them as I am assisting and support myself - to give as you would like to receive and do the extra bit every day to see where I can contribute to other's lives and so my own

9. Living the principle of self trust - as I commit myself to remain constant in my living of self honest, self responsibility and self awareness, I stand as an unbending trust that I always in all ways know who I am no matter what I face and that in this I know, as proven in the constancy of my living that I will always honour and stand by what is best for all as so best for me

10. Making Love Visible - through not accepting/allowing anything less than my utmost potential, I support those in my life to reach their utmost potential, to love them as I have shown love to myself by gifting to me my utmost potential, the best life/living experience and show others as I have shown myself what it means to LIVE

11. No one can save you, save yourself - the realization that the tools and principles of Desteni is the guide, but I must walk the path myself. We are here to assist and support each other in this process from Consciousness to Awareness/Life and what it means to live - but the process itself, where you are alone with yourself in your own Mind: is walked alone

12. Not waiting for anything or anyone to take responsibility for me and this world - but that I realize I have created who and how I am in this moment, therefore I have the responsibility to change who and how I am and so the realization that we as a collective created how and what this world is today and so it is the responsibility of the collective to change how and what this world is today

13. Honoring the life in each person, animal - everything from the great to the small of earth, that we expand our awareness and responsibility to creating the best possible life for everyone and everything and so ourselves

14. Relationships as Agreements: Individuals coming together using agreements as a platform to one-on one expand, grow and develop as individuals in life and living to support/assist each other unconditionally to reach their utmost potential where the agreement is a coming together of individuals understanding what it means to stand as equals and to stand as one

15. Sex as Self Expression - where sex is an united expression between individuals in honour, respect, consideration and regard of each other as equals, two physical bodies uniting in equality and oneness - a merging of two equals as one physically.

16. Realizing that by the virtue of me being in this world - my responsibility does not only extend to my own Mind / my own Life, but to the minds and lives of everything and everyone of this earth and so my commitment is to extend this awareness to all of humanity to work together and live together to make this world heaven on earth for ourselves and the generations to come

17. I must in my thoughts, words and deeds - but most importantly in my living actions, become a living example for others in my world that is noticeable and visible when it comes to the potential of a person to change themselves and so change their world. So that most people can realize how we can change this world, by standing united in our self change within the principle of what is best for all to bring heaven to earth

18. I am the change I want to see in me and my world - to bring heaven to earth is to bring into being, into living the LIVING PROOF of a PRACTICAL HEAVEN that can be seen and heard in our actions and words. We are the Living Heaven that must come into creation in this living world

19. Through purifying my thoughts, words and deeds - my inner becomes my outer, so I bring into creation me as heaven into earth, realizing it is not enough to  'see the change / be the change' - for change to become REAL it must be a constant, consistent living of me through the words I speak and the actions I live visible and noticeable to all in every moment of breath

20. Realizing that my physical body is my temple - my physical body is the living flesh through which and in which I will bring into being and create / manifest heaven on earth as me in my thoughts, words and deeds and so I honour, respect and regard - nurture and support my physical body as I would nurture and support me as equals: my body is me

21. We are the change in ourselves and this world we have been waiting for: and so I commit to dedicate myself and my life for each one as all to realize this, as nothing will change if we don't change in all that we are, within and without

22. The realization that for me to be able to change myself in thought, word and deed to the most effective living being that I can be and become - I first have to 'know thyself' and so commit myself to investigate, introspect and understand how I became who I am today, to prepare the road before me into self creation of a responsible, aware, self honest and trustworthy person for myself and so for all

23 The realization that for me to be able to contribute to change in this world - I have to get to 'know thyself' as this world and so commit myself to research, investigate and introspect the inner and outer workings of this world and align the systems of today to present and give the best possible life for all on Earth

Day 632 Seeing, the "I am Patience" within a Moment of "Impatience"

It's interestingly cool to see the, "I am" within and as the word "Impatience". What's so interestingly cool about this is that within seeing a Word for what it is...You can clearly See what it is not. The more clear the understanding of what something is...the more clear the understanding of what it is not. So, this illustrates how one can realize and understand "patience" by and through the examination/investigation of one's moments of "Impatience."


I also find it interesting to see how "justified" Impatience can be...as like a point of arguing for one's own self-inflicted limitation/stress/strain/suppression. An easy example that comes to mind is: telling someone to just calm down....and they respond/react by saying, "No, I will not calm down...blah blah blah blah blah...it's my right and you have no right to tell me what to do...blah blah blah blah blah...it's my birthday and I can cry if I want to....You would to if it happened to you." I'm sure everyone knows the justifying attitude I am referring to here.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the "I am Patience" within examining and understanding my momentary reactions as Impatience.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the simplicity that is possible in strengthening my Character of of Self-Expression within investigating the nature of and as my word relationships...as like how I am behaving within and as a particular action and or re-action.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the insight that I am able to garner from taking the time to investigate my behavior from moment to moment as like the nature of my thoughts/feelings/emotions that pop up within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the fear that is existent within "impatience" as like either a positive or negative energy push/pull relationship...where I have felt pushed/pulled towards doing something as like a there is an impatience/rushing desire where this energy experience generates this feeling of "I just can't wait...I need to do it...have to do it now...I just can't wait...If I don't do it now, I might miss out on being able to do it later"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having an a polarized energetically charged relationship within and as the word "Impatience".

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how I have in fact acted out impatience.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding Impatience.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for rushing in my mind Impatiently.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting the "I am Patience" within and as the playout reactionary experience of and as "Impatience".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying the energetic playout of Impatience within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for garnering motivation and inspiration from reactionary moments of Impatience within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to move myself unconditionally within and as the self-expression, "I am Patience".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for compromising my premier performance within and as the Justification of Impatience being my starting point motivation and inspiration for movement.

When and as I see myself Justifying moments of Impatience within myself, I stop and breathe, i see/realize and understand the self-deception within and as the justification of impatience. I commit myself to the self-expression 'I am patience'. I direct myself as I am patience in moments where there is an urge/impulse...push/pull energy to react in and as "Impatience". I see/realize and understand My Premier Performance here as Effective Efficient Self-Movement/Self-Expression exists within and as the Understanding of and as "Patience".

I commit myself to taking the time to be patient with Impatience.

I commit myself to stop resisting I am Patience within Impatience.

I commit myself to practically living I am Patience as a point of support and assistance.

I commit myself to sharing the joy that is possible within and as Self-Patience.

When and as I see myself rushing within my mind, I stop and breathe, I slow way down as I see/realize/understand my premier performance within and as my self-movement here is dependent upon my ability to self-express my understanding of Patience. I see/realize/understand the best performances are self-directed as a point of patience in Motion.

I commit myself to my best performances.

I commit myself to practically living the insight of Patience in Motion.

I commit myself to self-directed movement from and as the starting point of Patience.

Day 627 Self-Obsession and Mastery

For Context for my writing today, please check out, "Activist's Journey to Life - Day 525 Self-Obsession and Mastery"

Most people are completely obsessed with one thing and live their entire lives within the pull of this massive force of gravity that is their obsession. That obsession is SELF - me, myself and I. Becoming very good at something - mastering a skill - is hard work and often requires that you rise above yourself and become something else - whether it is the music, the art, the job - whatever. What seems to happen with people who have experienced a really traumatic event that involves loss is that they shift their focus from themselves to someone, or something else. That shift of obsession seems to cause a change in their motivation, the force that drives them forward in life. It is no longer the "I" that drives them, but some "other" force that allows for the opportunity for them to develop themselves and dedicate themselves completely to something outside of themselves. Let's face it - most of us never develop that kind of dedication, where we completely lose ourselves in something. Losing yourself implies that you are willing to let go of YOU and become something else - most of us are clinging on far too tightly to "Who I am" and the likes that we would never be willing to let go like that. In a sense it is the act of giving up control absolutely - that is a scary idea for most.

The point I am looking at here specifically is:

"Let's face it - most of us never develop that kind of dedication, where we completely lose ourselves in something. Losing yourself implies that you are willing to let go of YOU and become something else - most of us are clinging on far to tightly to "Who I am" and the likes that we would never be willing to let go like that. In a sense it is the act of giving up control absolutely - that is a scary idea for most."

I garner much support from looking at these words here. Notice how our physical expression here is linked to our ability to breathe here. Notice how often we exists within some shortness of breath...like maybe we hold our breath for a bit...but then need to gasp for air...as like clinging on for dear life....like fearing the death of our-self....this I find is quite an interesting parallel to the actual practical living of our-self here...and when I say practical living of our-self here...I imply the point of understanding that to practically live here...is to express oneself unconditionally...not holding our-self back...like...meaning that we will let go of our-self always...

This is a point I have played with much...very much like a piano in a lot of ways..in terms of my tone within myself...as like the attitude of the strangle hold I place upon myself..from the perspective of how much I restrict myself from doing particular things or how much I refrain myself from restriction and give myself unbounded access to any and all possible direction by not trying to control my direction from the perspective of fearing and worrying that I cannot respond/recover from a mistake...or basically like keep myself a float with my own self perpetual motion...like trusting my self movement...as the working with myself here as what I got to work with from moment to moment.

It's interesting here because our mind as thought/feeling/emotion is in a way the control...it's how we regulate....and interesting here because as we allow ourselves to step beyond our own self-hypnotic mind control...we dare to change our programming here... I mean really...stepping out of a pre-defined self-programming perception/perspective reality and into an unbound limitless potential reality from a certain perspective as we open up a plethora of mathematical potential ability and capability because our course of action as our ability to respond and act in particular manners is not regulated and pre-determined...pre-programmed based upon a time looping mind construction that just runs laps all day on auto repeat. Kind of bizarre really.

So, For instance there are instances where I have pushed myself to move beyond the curtains of control and into the unknown within and as the point of communication...basically pushing myself to trust myself in speaking and to allow myself to flow...and play with what I say while sharing here.

Also however...I have played the tailored opposite here where I am quite restricted within the strangle hold of fear over what I say...this is a frustratingly terrible way to go about communicating I must say...and why...because of the fear to let loose...lose control of the fear....controlling and regulating a fear...is kind of a bizarre approach and consideration...it's like seeing something is fucked and shouldn't really be here...isn't really here...but making believe it to be here.. and keeping it here and making a point of fucking with it. Mind mentality as fear...moving in fear...as the control methodology...


To be Continued

Day 624 Writing My Journey to Life

Writing my Journey to Life blog is cool. I enjoy it. I enjoy reading other people's Journey to Life blogs. 

What I do not enjoy, is when I miss a day of writing my Journey to Life Blog.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having excused myself from being as diligent as possible within writing my Journey to Life Blog's on a daily basis.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having neglected to make the time for my Journey to Life Blog writing every single day. I realize and understand that sometimes I have less available time than I do other days...and that sometimes I am in remote locations...or away from the computer all day...and within these particular instances...I do see/realize/understand that there usually exists the opportunity for me to take a few moments to write in a note pad or pieces of paper and transcribe my writings at a latter date an time into and as online post in sharing my writing my Journey to Life Blog. I see/realize/understand the assistance and support in sharing my writing my Journey to Life Blog.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having chosen to resist pushing myself to write my Journey to Life blog every single day.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging and comparing my writing my Journey to Life blog to others who are writing the Journey to Life Blog.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for withholding assistance and support for myself and others as a result of missing days of writing my Journey to Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for postponing My Journey to Life within the very point of neglecting the daily constant consistency within writing my Journey to Life Blog.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for giving credit and credence to excuses and justifications as to why I did not complete my Writing my Journey to Life blog on any particular day.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding the cool factor within and as My Writing My Journey to Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding the Awesomeness within and as my Commitment to Writing my Journey to Life Blog Here.

When and as I see myself having thoughts come up within my mind as like reasons/excuses/justifications as how I can rightfully negate the point of writing my Journey to Life Blog, I stop and breathe, I say, "I am here", I see/realize/understand the self-deception within my thoughts...I commit myself to writing my Journey to Life blog.

I commit myself to making time for my daily participation within writing my Journey to Life Blog.

I commit myself to stop negating self-responsibility towards the importance, historical significance, magnificence, coolness, and awesomeness of daily movement within and as Writing My Journey to Life Blog Here.

Day 573 Process of Change

I've been looking at the point of change. Specifically making new goals/patterns/habits/routines/commitments and within this seeing how to be most effective/efficient in implementing these changes.

What I've noticed and realized is that big results and drastic change is the accumulation of a series of many very small steps.

I've noticed and realized how my success or failure within a point of change is specifically the result of my very small steps.

What's interesting to see here within and as the process of change is how steps can also be referred to as calculations or acceptances and allowances.

Each step/calculation/acceptance and allowance happens within a moment.

What I've come to realize and understand is how simple it is to re-align/self-correct myself when I lose my balance as a result of a miscalculated step.

What's interesting here is to see the equality within how easily we can support ourselves in a moment...or how easily we can fuck with ourselves in a moment....because the basic mathematics always applies as the accumulation effect/factor.

What I've found difficult about stopping a pattern/habit and creating a new pattern/habit is looking for the change to happen automatically within myself without any real self-directed effort/commitment and or challenge...like for instance making a plan...and just kind of expecting that my thoughts will walk me through the change...as like telling my body what to do in every moment.

What's interesting about this...is that I am faced with the particular thoughts/feelings/emotions that are linked/formed within myself as the accumulation that has been accepted and allowed within myself with regards to my oldpatterns/habits.

What's interesting to see here is that in order to effectively integrate a new pattern/habit/routine/change, I require a series of new steps and this series of new steps requires repeated repetition in/as order to/so be effectively integrated within myself.

What's interesting about this is that by questioning my every step within developing myself I can practically see and realize the effectiveness of each step. Within this, I can play with a series of steps/movements and within doing this I can establish rhythm and tempo and build upon my application.

What's interesting about this is that I am my own science experiment and I determine the science experiment.

What's interesting about this is that the science is all ways awe-so-me. Here is where things get interesting...because I am the starting point of determining my awesomeness in application. By realizing and understanding that anything that I do that is not cool/awesome is a misstep/miscalculation where I then forgive myself for accepting and allowing a point of less than awesomeness/cool to exist within myself. 

What's interesting about the process of change is that the more specific I get with my questioning of myself here, the more I enable myself to expand my practical living application of awesomeness/cool as that which is best for all Life. 

What's interesting about this is that by constantly and consistently being on the quest of question specificity within and as process of self-perfection in and as the science of awesome/cool practical living applications...it is clear here to see/hear and realize what the answers/solutions are as the ways to effectively and efficiently correct my momentary missteps/trips/falls/stumbles/bails.

It's interesting how within the realization and understanding that the question is one and equal with the answer/solution...and that we are here as the starting point of it...that it is really only a dare to care...a dare to see what is already here...which is fascinating because what's blocked me from seeing and realizing what is here is that I've been too damn scared.

And what is interesting about being scared...is that to really question the fears around why I could be so damn scared is to in fact see the scars that are burned into my memory as various emotional energetic traumas that burned me so bad I've created a self-automated defense system to circumvent any possible chance that I would have to face such a point again. 

What is interesting about such a scenario is that by being scared it's like I'm choosing to inject myself with a poison as the needed justification to prevent myself from getting poisoned again...which is really quite the tragic comedy if you will see the irony here in its profoundness of what I resist will persist because I am persistently enabling the resistance as the self-automated defense system to circumvent any possible chance that I would have to face the point again...and so it's not like I am facing the point again as a new time...but constantly keeping alive the old traumatic history of the past continuously repeating a predictable future again and again and again and thus making the change/self-correction to the future next to impossible because of the extensive nature of my self-automated defense systems as the ridiculously absurd rationality of placing an obstacle in front of myself as the means necessary to avoid facing an obstacle.

To see the ridiculous absurdity of perpetuating self-harm out of fear of being self-harmed...is to see our self-responsibility and self-accountability to stop harming our-self here.

The truth hurts when you step out of the lie, so embrace the pain and realize and understand the weakness of character is leaving the body as we build and strengthen our character as the image and likeness of that which is always best for all Life here. Awesomeness Cool.