day 800 - Integrity of Sharing

See the full share here:

https://steemit.com/life/@worldclassplayer/integrity-of-sharing


Note:  If You are Not in Fact familiar with Steemit, You should!  There's a lot of reasons why.  At the very least...it can change your life for the better.

Day 749 - Word Recognition Continuation

Continuing from my previous post:

"So, what I would like to reiterate in this sharing here today, is the point that often times, there is a particular moment of reactionary impulsing to particular language that is used...and this is often reflected back to us or another in and as our communication. And within being perceptive to such instances. there is tremendous potential that is possible to open up in and as the moment. Here comes a point of self-honesty in and as the moment of sharing and looking and seeing, and somewhat daring to actually stop and look at what is here to investigate. I have noticed that in many instances, I was some what reluctant to actually stop and bring attention to the word in question that would come up in a moment as like a point of dissonance within myself or the person I was communicating with."

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing a reluctance within myself to actually opening up particular words within myself as points that require my attention as a remediation required to harmonize the dissonance within and as my particular relationship with the Word....so as to stop myself from accepting and allowing less than what is best as the Word...and to from within and as this regard, effectively empower myself as the Living Word Solution Here as that which is all ways always Best.

I realize and understand the process here of stopping myself...as it is is within the stopping myself, that I am able to actually look within myself and see what it is I have been accepting and allowing myself to participate within. As I give myself the opportunity to look and see what is going on as a result of first stopping, and then identifying the points within myself with specific word recognition, I am from Here able to expand myself and unlock my potential in so many ways. This Here is a structured process of specificity in unlocking self-imposed restraints as word/world relations that are less than what is best.

I commit myself to the specificity in unlocking self-imposed restraints as word/world relations that are less than what is best

Day 691 - The Dynamics of Creation

Continuing from my previous blog, Day 690 - What's Best for All - Guiding Me in Thought, Word and Deed.

Here I am looking at the relationship dynamics of Problem and Solution in and as the Creation process.

So, let me first begin with a question, which is an inquiry about the word Problem. Initially my thought is that a problem is bad or somewhat negative in scope. However, here I see it is important to regard the fact that a problem does not require to be limited to being "bad or somewhat negative." And for this reason, In my writing investigation here, to widen the scope of perspective perception, I will utilize the definition of the word "Problem" as follows:

Problem: an inquiry started from given conditions to demonstrate a fact, result or law.


OK, now lets look at the word Solution.


Solution: A means of solving a problem or dealing with a difficult situation.
                'The process or state of being dissolved in a solvent'

What's interesting about a Solution is that it has a relationship with a problem...where a Solution is in fact incorporated into a problem...This creates new dynamics.


Why am I looking at the relationship dynamics of Problem and Solution in and as the Creation process?

Curiosity.


What jumps out at me here....is the Dynamics of Creation...

What do I mean?

The potential self-expansion....self-discovery....self-exploration....new connections in perspective outlook to support the growth in character ability of expression of thought, word and deed.

"If there's a Will, there's a Way"

"A Willing Way"

"Where there's Life, there's Direction"

"Movement is synonymous with Life"


I find it interesting to regard movement in and as Language.
Sound.

What's interesting in Examining/Investigating a "Problem" is that the Answer/Solution is in the Problem....or more specifically...Not in the "problem"....Get it ? ...Knot in the problem! The particular conditions that frame the Conditions....the Context...

What's interesting I see here is the barometer of our word and world relationships. Because I see here how our words reflect and reveal the weather of our current conditioning here. What's interesting is that it appears to be mostly an unconscious thing that we all really want to share the truth of our weather/conditioning.....yet the irony is that so very often the truth of ourself expression here is suppressed and buried as like a cover up story. Interesting though, is the fact that talking about the weather in an external sense...or the "News" is popular socially practiced etiquette in conversing with one another on a daily basis...whether or not You know the person you are encountering very well or not. Interesting I see here...is that this basic on the surface communication is more just a talking from the perspective of talking as like an acknowledgement of facts...without really getting into anything personal. Yet, I see here a potential correlation reflection with the accepted and allowed regard for ourselves here....Because, giving such regard for "chit chat communication" with the people we encounter is not a guarantee of sorts...it's a maybe...And, OK, where am I going with this?

This here I question as the weathering of our current accepted and allowed circuitry as how we have wired ourselves together here as like just kind of functioning...happening...without really understanding and realizing the extent of How we in fact are happening to be functionally existing here in and as our complete capacity.

Why is this so?

I am reminded here of a Movie, "The Never Ending Story"...Where in this movie/story...the, "Nothingness" is taking over....and nobody knows what to do....the irony is that nobody is really doing anything...nobody has any real trust in themselves to look into and explore the Question/Journey as to Why the "Nothingness" is taking over, Except a Boy named "A Trail".  What is ironically funny here is the name games within this movie. Also the fact that the people of the land don't believe that "A Trail" can be a way to solve the "Nothingness" from taking over....because he is just a boy...and it is believed that you must be a Great Warrior Man at the very least in order to face the "Nothingness" and possibly save the land from total self-destruction. "A Trail" is sure of himself in terms of his commitment to facing and Stopping the "Nothingness" from taking over.

What's ironic here in regards to this movie...is the parallels with our accepted and allowed society...and how we have structured the positioning of labor positions...where there is emphasis on being a "professional" and that in order to be a professional....you must go through this education like gauntlet of a Schooling system...where you will be than typically ranked and categorized into your specific "job" based upon your scoring.
Now, the point I am bringing up here...is that the way our schooling systems are setup...is not really an effective method for problem solving....and thus creating solutions that are best for all inhabitants here. Which is really quite ridiculously absurd.
I mean really, there is so much disconnect it seems with practical support in and as the Dynamics of Creation...Like...I mean, the fact that I am writing this....is evidence.

My writing is evidence in fact.

Whether I say it so or So I say it is not.

Either way,

My writing is evidence in fact.


Question the evidence in fact.

You will Realize the Solution in Fact.

For it is the Solution in Facts,

That Will support the Questions in Fact.


Have You heard the Words,

"Everything is in Reverse"?

Even the Words and World we converse Inn....

Is not it Odd?


Birth to Death

When maybe it's actually,

Death to Birth


Like,


There's no After Life...

There is only Before Life.


Because,


Before Life is the Potential of Life...

Whereas, After Life...

There is no Potential.


Get It

Got It

God It

Gooooooooooood


The Flow is the Wolf symbolism in and as how we together stand alone here and move together as One and equal Alone...ALL One Here....

See the Equality in and as the To Get Here...To Get There....we Move Together Here...as the All Together Here....


We Get it

We Got it

We God it

We Gooooooooooooooooood

Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa


Hahaha!


Isn't it funny !

The Dynamics of Creation ?

Day 688 - The Desteni of Living, A Declaration of Principles.

Here is the 'Desteni of Living, A Declaration of Principles'

I Stand within and as the words here.

In blogs to come I will Share a Principle and focus my writing on illustrating my realization within and as the Principle.

1.    Realising and living my utmost potential

2.    Living by the principle of what is best for all – guiding me in thought, word and deed to always in all ways direct problems to the best possible outcome for all

3.    Living by the principle of self honesty – to ensure I am pure in thought, word and deed: that my within and without is equal and one. Who I am within is who I am without and vice-versa

4.    Self Purification through Writing and Self Forgiveness – the action of realising I am responsible for my own thoughts, words and deeds, to forgive myself for transgressions and change myself to ensure I take responsibility for who, what and how I am and through this know that I can trust myself to always be honest with me and so others

5.    Living the principle of Self Responsibility – realising only I am responsible for what I accept and allow inside of me, my relationships and my outside world and so with this responsibility: only I have the power and ability to change that which I see is compromising who I am, what I live and how this affects others

6.    Realising that who I am in thought, word and deed affects not only myself – but others as well and so with Self Responsibility in thought, word and deed – I take responsibility for myself and so my relationships to be Self Aware in every moment, in every moment and live in such a way that is best for me and so others as well

7.    Living the Principle of Self Awareness – to be aware, to see, to recognize my own thoughts and Mind, to be self honest to the extent where I can take responsibility for when I see my thoughts / Mind is not what is best for me / others and commit to immediately take responsibility and change for myself and so for others

8.    With taking responsibility for myself, becoming aware of myself – take responsibility and become aware of others in my life, to assist and support them as I am assisting and supporting myself – to give as you would like to receive and do the extra bit every day to see where I can contribute to other’s lives and so my own

9.    Living the principle of self trust – as I commit myself to remain constant in my living of self honesty, self responsibility and self awareness, I stand as an unbending trust that I always in all ways know who I am no matter what I face and that in this I know, as proven in the constancy of my living that I will always honour and stand by what is best for all and so best for me

10.    Making Love Visible – through me not accepting/allowing anything less than my utmost potential, I support those in my life to reach their utmost potential, to love them as I have shown love to myself by gifting to me my utmost potential, the best life/living experience and show others as I have shown myself what is means to LIVE

11.    No one can save you, save yourself – the realisation that the tools and principles of Desteni is the guide, but I must walk the path myself. We are here to assist and support each other in this process from Consciousness to Awareness/LIFE and what it means to live – but the process itself, where you are alone with yourself in your own Mind: is walked alone

12.    Not waiting for anything or anyone to take responsibility for me and this world – but that I realise I have created who and how I am in this moment, therefore I have the responsibility to change who and how I am and so the realisation that we as a collective created how and what this world is today and so it is the responsibility of the collective to change how and what this world is today

13.    Honouring the life in each person, animal – everything from the great to the small of earth, that we expand our awareness and responsibility to creating the best possible life for everyone and everything and so ourselves

14.    Relationships as Agreements: individuals coming together using agreements as a platform to one-on-one expand, grow and develop as individuals in life and living to support/assist each other unconditionally to reach their utmost potential where the agreement is a coming together of individuals understanding what it means to stand as equals and to stand as one

15.    Sex as Self Expression – where sex is an united expression between individuals in honour, respect, consideration and regard of each other as equals, two physical bodies uniting in equality and oneness – a merging of two equals as one physically.

16.    Realising that by the virtue of me being in this world – my responsibility does not only extend to my own Mind / my own Life, but to the minds and lives of everything and everyone of this earth and so my commitment is to extend this awareness to all of humanity to work together and live together to make this world heaven on earth for ourselves and the generations to come

17.    I must in my thoughts, words and deeds – but most importantly in my living actions, become a living example for others in my world that is noticeable and visible when it comes to the potential of a person to change themselves and so change their world. So that more people can realise how we can change this world, by standing united in our self change within the principle of what is best for all to bring heaven to earth

18.    I am the change I want to see in me and my world – to bring heaven to earth is to bring into being, into living the LIVING PROOF of a PRACTICAL HEAVEN that can be seen and heard in our actions and words. We are the Living Heaven that must come into creation in this living world.

19.    Through purifying my thoughts, words and deeds – my inner becomes my outer, so I bring into creation me as heaven into earth, realising it is not enough to ‘see the change / be the change’ – for change to become REAL it must be a constant, consistent living of me through the words I speak and the actions I live visible and noticeable to all in every moment of breath

20.    Realising that my physical body is my temple – my physical body is the living flesh through which and in which I will bring into being and create / manifest heaven on earth as me in my thoughts, words and deeds and so I honour, respect and regard – nurture and support my physical body as I would nurture and support me as equals: my body is me

21.    We are the change in ourselves and this world we have been waiting for: and so I commit to dedicate myself and my life for each one as all to realise this as nothing will change if we don’t change in all that we are within and without

22.    The realisation that for me to be able to change myself in thought, word and deed to the most effective living being that I can be and become – I first have to ‘know thyself’ and so commit myself to investigate, introspect and understand how I became who I am today, to prepare the road before me into self creation of a responsible, aware, self honest and trustworthy person for myself and so for all

23.    The realisation that for me to be able to contribute to change in this world – I have to get to ‘know thyself’ as this world and so commit myself to research, investigate and introspect the inner and outer workings of this world and align the systems of today to present and give the best possible life for all on Earth.

Best Regards

Day 648 - Come Petition...Calm Petition...Competition

Competition sounds like "Come Petition...and Calm Petition."

If your look at Competition from a starting point of "Participation" and "Performance", You can see that Stellar Participation and Performance is Synonymous with being/becoming "Calm".

It's interesting to notice how errors and mistakes mostly happen within a momentary blip of losing one's cool as being all together Calm Cool and Collected.

This "Calmness" I speak of here, is without conflict and is rooted in the equality and oneness of sound stability Here. No emotion and or feeling need exist because the Awesomeness of Physical Self Expression is a Performance and Participation Here beyond the veils and limitations of any and all emotion and feeling.

Emotion and Feeling is the Mind Fuck of Competition which yields less than Stellar results.

Justifying emotion and feeling within Competition perpetuates an indefinite defeat. The irony here is that there is only ever Self-defeat...and it is always all ways Self-Induced.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having previously correlated Competition with the highs and lows of feelings and emotions...and within this...associated the high feelings with winning and the low emotions with losing...and within this, I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing the absurd ridiculousness of self-inducing a mind fuck in regards to the word "competition".

I forgive myself for accepting and and allowing myself for perpetuating conflict within myself as a result of and as the way I accepted and allowed the word "Competition" to exist within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having resisted to take the time to investigate my relationship within and as "Competition"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how Competition enhances and accelerates self-reflection/self-development/self-perfection.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for negating the creative construction of and as the word "Competition".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the starting point of Competition existing beyond any emotion and or feeling. I see/realize and understand the self-trust/self-honesty/self-forgiveness required to effectively live the word "Competition" as a physical self-expression of Who, How, and Why I am Here.

When and as I see myself looking to justify fear within competition, I stop and breathe, I see/realize and understand the self-induced trauma of self-inflicting fear upon myself to invoke particular reactions. I see/realize/understand that I am best able to respond when I do not accept and allow myself to be restrained in fear.

When and as I see myself starting to take pleasure in another's misfortune, I stop and breathe, I see/realize and understand how Sportsmanship, Integrity and Humbleness are synonymous within and as the practical living application of the word "Competition".

Day 644 The Desteni of Living

 

My Declaration of Principle:


1. Realizing and living my utmost potential

2. Living by the principle of what is best for all - guiding me in thought, word and deed to always in all ways direct problems to the best possible outcome for all

3. Living by the principle of self honesty - to ensure I am pure in thought, word, and deed: that my within and without is equal and one. Who I am within is who I am without and vice-versa

4. Self Purification through Writing, Self-Forgiveness and Self Application - the action of realizing I am responsible for my own thoughts, words and deeds, to forgive myself for transgressions and change myself to ensure I take responsibility for who, what, and how I am and through this know that I can trust myself to always be honest with me and so others

5. Living the principle of Self-Responsibility - realizing only I am responsible for what I accept and allow inside of me, my relationships and my outside world and so with this responsibility: only I have the power and ability to change that which I see is compromising who I am, what I live and how this affects others

6. Realizing that who I am in thought, word and deed affects not only myself - but others as well and so with Self Responsibility in thought, word and deed - I take responsibility for myself and so my relationships to be Self Aware in every moment and live in such a way that is best for me and so others as well

7. Living the Principle of Self Awareness - to be aware, to see, to recognize my own thoughts and Mind, to be self honest to the extent where I can take responsibility for when I see my thoughts / Mind is not what is best for me / others and commit to  immediately take responsibility and change for myself and so others

8. With taking responsibility for myself, becoming aware of myself - take responsibility and become aware of others in my life, to assist and support them as I am assisting and support myself - to give as you would like to receive and do the extra bit every day to see where I can contribute to other's lives and so my own

9. Living the principle of self trust - as I commit myself to remain constant in my living of self honest, self responsibility and self awareness, I stand as an unbending trust that I always in all ways know who I am no matter what I face and that in this I know, as proven in the constancy of my living that I will always honour and stand by what is best for all as so best for me

10. Making Love Visible - through not accepting/allowing anything less than my utmost potential, I support those in my life to reach their utmost potential, to love them as I have shown love to myself by gifting to me my utmost potential, the best life/living experience and show others as I have shown myself what it means to LIVE

11. No one can save you, save yourself - the realization that the tools and principles of Desteni is the guide, but I must walk the path myself. We are here to assist and support each other in this process from Consciousness to Awareness/Life and what it means to live - but the process itself, where you are alone with yourself in your own Mind: is walked alone

12. Not waiting for anything or anyone to take responsibility for me and this world - but that I realize I have created who and how I am in this moment, therefore I have the responsibility to change who and how I am and so the realization that we as a collective created how and what this world is today and so it is the responsibility of the collective to change how and what this world is today

13. Honoring the life in each person, animal - everything from the great to the small of earth, that we expand our awareness and responsibility to creating the best possible life for everyone and everything and so ourselves

14. Relationships as Agreements: Individuals coming together using agreements as a platform to one-on one expand, grow and develop as individuals in life and living to support/assist each other unconditionally to reach their utmost potential where the agreement is a coming together of individuals understanding what it means to stand as equals and to stand as one

15. Sex as Self Expression - where sex is an united expression between individuals in honour, respect, consideration and regard of each other as equals, two physical bodies uniting in equality and oneness - a merging of two equals as one physically.

16. Realizing that by the virtue of me being in this world - my responsibility does not only extend to my own Mind / my own Life, but to the minds and lives of everything and everyone of this earth and so my commitment is to extend this awareness to all of humanity to work together and live together to make this world heaven on earth for ourselves and the generations to come

17. I must in my thoughts, words and deeds - but most importantly in my living actions, become a living example for others in my world that is noticeable and visible when it comes to the potential of a person to change themselves and so change their world. So that most people can realize how we can change this world, by standing united in our self change within the principle of what is best for all to bring heaven to earth

18. I am the change I want to see in me and my world - to bring heaven to earth is to bring into being, into living the LIVING PROOF of a PRACTICAL HEAVEN that can be seen and heard in our actions and words. We are the Living Heaven that must come into creation in this living world

19. Through purifying my thoughts, words and deeds - my inner becomes my outer, so I bring into creation me as heaven into earth, realizing it is not enough to  'see the change / be the change' - for change to become REAL it must be a constant, consistent living of me through the words I speak and the actions I live visible and noticeable to all in every moment of breath

20. Realizing that my physical body is my temple - my physical body is the living flesh through which and in which I will bring into being and create / manifest heaven on earth as me in my thoughts, words and deeds and so I honour, respect and regard - nurture and support my physical body as I would nurture and support me as equals: my body is me

21. We are the change in ourselves and this world we have been waiting for: and so I commit to dedicate myself and my life for each one as all to realize this, as nothing will change if we don't change in all that we are, within and without

22. The realization that for me to be able to change myself in thought, word and deed to the most effective living being that I can be and become - I first have to 'know thyself' and so commit myself to investigate, introspect and understand how I became who I am today, to prepare the road before me into self creation of a responsible, aware, self honest and trustworthy person for myself and so for all

23 The realization that for me to be able to contribute to change in this world - I have to get to 'know thyself' as this world and so commit myself to research, investigate and introspect the inner and outer workings of this world and align the systems of today to present and give the best possible life for all on Earth

Day 632 Seeing, the "I am Patience" within a Moment of "Impatience"

It's interestingly cool to see the, "I am" within and as the word "Impatience". What's so interestingly cool about this is that within seeing a Word for what it is...You can clearly See what it is not. The more clear the understanding of what something is...the more clear the understanding of what it is not. So, this illustrates how one can realize and understand "patience" by and through the examination/investigation of one's moments of "Impatience."


I also find it interesting to see how "justified" Impatience can be...as like a point of arguing for one's own self-inflicted limitation/stress/strain/suppression. An easy example that comes to mind is: telling someone to just calm down....and they respond/react by saying, "No, I will not calm down...blah blah blah blah blah...it's my right and you have no right to tell me what to do...blah blah blah blah blah...it's my birthday and I can cry if I want to....You would to if it happened to you." I'm sure everyone knows the justifying attitude I am referring to here.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the "I am Patience" within examining and understanding my momentary reactions as Impatience.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the simplicity that is possible in strengthening my Character of of Self-Expression within investigating the nature of and as my word relationships...as like how I am behaving within and as a particular action and or re-action.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the insight that I am able to garner from taking the time to investigate my behavior from moment to moment as like the nature of my thoughts/feelings/emotions that pop up within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the fear that is existent within "impatience" as like either a positive or negative energy push/pull relationship...where I have felt pushed/pulled towards doing something as like a there is an impatience/rushing desire where this energy experience generates this feeling of "I just can't wait...I need to do it...have to do it now...I just can't wait...If I don't do it now, I might miss out on being able to do it later"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having an a polarized energetically charged relationship within and as the word "Impatience".

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how I have in fact acted out impatience.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding Impatience.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for rushing in my mind Impatiently.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting the "I am Patience" within and as the playout reactionary experience of and as "Impatience".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying the energetic playout of Impatience within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for garnering motivation and inspiration from reactionary moments of Impatience within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to move myself unconditionally within and as the self-expression, "I am Patience".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for compromising my premier performance within and as the Justification of Impatience being my starting point motivation and inspiration for movement.

When and as I see myself Justifying moments of Impatience within myself, I stop and breathe, i see/realize and understand the self-deception within and as the justification of impatience. I commit myself to the self-expression 'I am patience'. I direct myself as I am patience in moments where there is an urge/impulse...push/pull energy to react in and as "Impatience". I see/realize and understand My Premier Performance here as Effective Efficient Self-Movement/Self-Expression exists within and as the Understanding of and as "Patience".

I commit myself to taking the time to be patient with Impatience.

I commit myself to stop resisting I am Patience within Impatience.

I commit myself to practically living I am Patience as a point of support and assistance.

I commit myself to sharing the joy that is possible within and as Self-Patience.

When and as I see myself rushing within my mind, I stop and breathe, I slow way down as I see/realize/understand my premier performance within and as my self-movement here is dependent upon my ability to self-express my understanding of Patience. I see/realize/understand the best performances are self-directed as a point of patience in Motion.

I commit myself to my best performances.

I commit myself to practically living the insight of Patience in Motion.

I commit myself to self-directed movement from and as the starting point of Patience.

Day 630 LazzzzzzzY

It's funny and fun to see words for what they are. I was looking at the word "Lazy" today. I wanted to understand why "Lazy" is in fact what it is.

L-A-Z-Y

LAZY

L A-Z Y

La Z Why

La...like the french "the"....also I noticed that "La" means an imaginary paradise.....a dream land if you will...

"Z" I associated with catching some Z's...like to sleep...thinking how the letter Z is commonly associated with sleep from the perspective of getting some Z's. "Z" is slang for sleep. "Z" is the 26th letter of the alphabet...the last letter i n the sequence of letters...it's at the end

"Y" sounds like "why"..."Why" is the answer/explanation of something...a reason or purpose.

So, looking at why lazy is lazy...it is obvious that it is because it is what it is...I mean everything is what is because. As the cause that be why...the buy...how we've sold it so...said it so...so say...the spell of and as our spelling here.

LAZY...to be lazy...is to be a sleep in action...like it's reasoned/purposed excused justification to limit ability/functionality...explains the postponement or lack of effort on a the doing of a task..

Being lazy is to be sleeping while a wake...like in an imaginary utopia...like the ultimate mind fuck...choosing to disregard physical movement...

When You are Lazy...You need to wake Up and stop being so LAZY...You can't be really awake and presently here when you are lazy...because lazy is like a mind trance state of mind...where there is a lack of self-willed motivation to move/express/live/be here....which is ironic in and of itself because...LAZY is a focused committed decision and choice

It's interesting to see the work involved in being lazy..like purposefully working on not working...putting effort/energy into a resistance towards self-expression,

LAZY is not far off from HAZY...which is some what closely related in structure to CRAZY....which can mean all sorts of things and is more complex in it's definition if you have a look because crazy is to see our A-Z and understand Why as the understanding of what is here.

So,

Next time You see that You are being Lazy, Look and Understand Why You are being "Lazy" and Make the Decision to WAKE THE FUCK UP!

Day 627 Self-Obsession and Mastery

For Context for my writing today, please check out, "Activist's Journey to Life - Day 525 Self-Obsession and Mastery"

Most people are completely obsessed with one thing and live their entire lives within the pull of this massive force of gravity that is their obsession. That obsession is SELF - me, myself and I. Becoming very good at something - mastering a skill - is hard work and often requires that you rise above yourself and become something else - whether it is the music, the art, the job - whatever. What seems to happen with people who have experienced a really traumatic event that involves loss is that they shift their focus from themselves to someone, or something else. That shift of obsession seems to cause a change in their motivation, the force that drives them forward in life. It is no longer the "I" that drives them, but some "other" force that allows for the opportunity for them to develop themselves and dedicate themselves completely to something outside of themselves. Let's face it - most of us never develop that kind of dedication, where we completely lose ourselves in something. Losing yourself implies that you are willing to let go of YOU and become something else - most of us are clinging on far too tightly to "Who I am" and the likes that we would never be willing to let go like that. In a sense it is the act of giving up control absolutely - that is a scary idea for most.

The point I am looking at here specifically is:

"Let's face it - most of us never develop that kind of dedication, where we completely lose ourselves in something. Losing yourself implies that you are willing to let go of YOU and become something else - most of us are clinging on far to tightly to "Who I am" and the likes that we would never be willing to let go like that. In a sense it is the act of giving up control absolutely - that is a scary idea for most."

I garner much support from looking at these words here. Notice how our physical expression here is linked to our ability to breathe here. Notice how often we exists within some shortness of breath...like maybe we hold our breath for a bit...but then need to gasp for air...as like clinging on for dear life....like fearing the death of our-self....this I find is quite an interesting parallel to the actual practical living of our-self here...and when I say practical living of our-self here...I imply the point of understanding that to practically live here...is to express oneself unconditionally...not holding our-self back...like...meaning that we will let go of our-self always...

This is a point I have played with much...very much like a piano in a lot of ways..in terms of my tone within myself...as like the attitude of the strangle hold I place upon myself..from the perspective of how much I restrict myself from doing particular things or how much I refrain myself from restriction and give myself unbounded access to any and all possible direction by not trying to control my direction from the perspective of fearing and worrying that I cannot respond/recover from a mistake...or basically like keep myself a float with my own self perpetual motion...like trusting my self movement...as the working with myself here as what I got to work with from moment to moment.

It's interesting here because our mind as thought/feeling/emotion is in a way the control...it's how we regulate....and interesting here because as we allow ourselves to step beyond our own self-hypnotic mind control...we dare to change our programming here... I mean really...stepping out of a pre-defined self-programming perception/perspective reality and into an unbound limitless potential reality from a certain perspective as we open up a plethora of mathematical potential ability and capability because our course of action as our ability to respond and act in particular manners is not regulated and pre-determined...pre-programmed based upon a time looping mind construction that just runs laps all day on auto repeat. Kind of bizarre really.

So, For instance there are instances where I have pushed myself to move beyond the curtains of control and into the unknown within and as the point of communication...basically pushing myself to trust myself in speaking and to allow myself to flow...and play with what I say while sharing here.

Also however...I have played the tailored opposite here where I am quite restricted within the strangle hold of fear over what I say...this is a frustratingly terrible way to go about communicating I must say...and why...because of the fear to let loose...lose control of the fear....controlling and regulating a fear...is kind of a bizarre approach and consideration...it's like seeing something is fucked and shouldn't really be here...isn't really here...but making believe it to be here.. and keeping it here and making a point of fucking with it. Mind mentality as fear...moving in fear...as the control methodology...


To be Continued

Day 624 Writing My Journey to Life

Writing my Journey to Life blog is cool. I enjoy it. I enjoy reading other people's Journey to Life blogs. 

What I do not enjoy, is when I miss a day of writing my Journey to Life Blog.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having excused myself from being as diligent as possible within writing my Journey to Life Blog's on a daily basis.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having neglected to make the time for my Journey to Life Blog writing every single day. I realize and understand that sometimes I have less available time than I do other days...and that sometimes I am in remote locations...or away from the computer all day...and within these particular instances...I do see/realize/understand that there usually exists the opportunity for me to take a few moments to write in a note pad or pieces of paper and transcribe my writings at a latter date an time into and as online post in sharing my writing my Journey to Life Blog. I see/realize/understand the assistance and support in sharing my writing my Journey to Life Blog.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having chosen to resist pushing myself to write my Journey to Life blog every single day.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging and comparing my writing my Journey to Life blog to others who are writing the Journey to Life Blog.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for withholding assistance and support for myself and others as a result of missing days of writing my Journey to Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for postponing My Journey to Life within the very point of neglecting the daily constant consistency within writing my Journey to Life Blog.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for giving credit and credence to excuses and justifications as to why I did not complete my Writing my Journey to Life blog on any particular day.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding the cool factor within and as My Writing My Journey to Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding the Awesomeness within and as my Commitment to Writing my Journey to Life Blog Here.

When and as I see myself having thoughts come up within my mind as like reasons/excuses/justifications as how I can rightfully negate the point of writing my Journey to Life Blog, I stop and breathe, I say, "I am here", I see/realize/understand the self-deception within my thoughts...I commit myself to writing my Journey to Life blog.

I commit myself to making time for my daily participation within writing my Journey to Life Blog.

I commit myself to stop negating self-responsibility towards the importance, historical significance, magnificence, coolness, and awesomeness of daily movement within and as Writing My Journey to Life Blog Here.

Day 620 Persistence

 So, very sheepishly of me, I did not realize and understand the practical living support within and as the word “Persistence”.

I had come to associate the word “Persistence” with the saying, “Whatever you resist will persist.” And this particular saying I had associated with the word negative…which therefore created the logical justification for me to affiliate the word “Negative” within and as a part of persistence…which I in turn had created a negative energetic buzz about within myself.


As a result of this particular connection within myself, I did not realize and understand how I was in fact compromising my ability to live the word “Persistence” in the truest sense of the word/meaning. Like, as a result of the association I had created towards the word, I was negating the full potential that exists within and as the word Persistence. Obviously, this isn't the cool way to continue onward within and as a word relationship, because the value inliving words comes from within and as the Equality and Oneness of words…where we are able to clearly see/understand/realize the meaning of words without bias/compromise and shortsightedness.




Let’s look at the word Persistence for a moment:





Persistence: (noun) Firm or obstinate continuance in a course of action in spite of difficulty or opposition. 

The continued and or prolonged existence of something.





I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for sheepishly not realizing and understanding the practical living support within and as the word “Persistence”.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for attaching a negative energetic charge/buzz within and as the word “Persistence”.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I suppressed my ability to live the full potential of the word Persistence as what is best for Life.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for associating Persistence with the saying, “What you resist will persist”…and within this, thinking that this is all that Persistence is related to.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for associating resistance with persistence to only exist within and as a form of negative connotation and that I should therefore avoid anything to do with Resistance and Persistence.



When and as I see myself reacting to the word Persistence, I stop and breathe, I say, “I am Here”, I see/realize and understand the practical living support within and as the word Persistence.


I commit myself to living the word persistence as a point of Life enhancement as a necessary tool within and as Creation from and as a starting point of Self-Determination.


I commit myself to self-trust within and as the practical living application of Persistence.

Day 573 Process of Change

I've been looking at the point of change. Specifically making new goals/patterns/habits/routines/commitments and within this seeing how to be most effective/efficient in implementing these changes.

What I've noticed and realized is that big results and drastic change is the accumulation of a series of many very small steps.

I've noticed and realized how my success or failure within a point of change is specifically the result of my very small steps.

What's interesting to see here within and as the process of change is how steps can also be referred to as calculations or acceptances and allowances.

Each step/calculation/acceptance and allowance happens within a moment.

What I've come to realize and understand is how simple it is to re-align/self-correct myself when I lose my balance as a result of a miscalculated step.

What's interesting here is to see the equality within how easily we can support ourselves in a moment...or how easily we can fuck with ourselves in a moment....because the basic mathematics always applies as the accumulation effect/factor.

What I've found difficult about stopping a pattern/habit and creating a new pattern/habit is looking for the change to happen automatically within myself without any real self-directed effort/commitment and or challenge...like for instance making a plan...and just kind of expecting that my thoughts will walk me through the change...as like telling my body what to do in every moment.

What's interesting about this...is that I am faced with the particular thoughts/feelings/emotions that are linked/formed within myself as the accumulation that has been accepted and allowed within myself with regards to my oldpatterns/habits.

What's interesting to see here is that in order to effectively integrate a new pattern/habit/routine/change, I require a series of new steps and this series of new steps requires repeated repetition in/as order to/so be effectively integrated within myself.

What's interesting about this is that by questioning my every step within developing myself I can practically see and realize the effectiveness of each step. Within this, I can play with a series of steps/movements and within doing this I can establish rhythm and tempo and build upon my application.

What's interesting about this is that I am my own science experiment and I determine the science experiment.

What's interesting about this is that the science is all ways awe-so-me. Here is where things get interesting...because I am the starting point of determining my awesomeness in application. By realizing and understanding that anything that I do that is not cool/awesome is a misstep/miscalculation where I then forgive myself for accepting and allowing a point of less than awesomeness/cool to exist within myself. 

What's interesting about the process of change is that the more specific I get with my questioning of myself here, the more I enable myself to expand my practical living application of awesomeness/cool as that which is best for all Life. 

What's interesting about this is that by constantly and consistently being on the quest of question specificity within and as process of self-perfection in and as the science of awesome/cool practical living applications...it is clear here to see/hear and realize what the answers/solutions are as the ways to effectively and efficiently correct my momentary missteps/trips/falls/stumbles/bails.

It's interesting how within the realization and understanding that the question is one and equal with the answer/solution...and that we are here as the starting point of it...that it is really only a dare to care...a dare to see what is already here...which is fascinating because what's blocked me from seeing and realizing what is here is that I've been too damn scared.

And what is interesting about being scared...is that to really question the fears around why I could be so damn scared is to in fact see the scars that are burned into my memory as various emotional energetic traumas that burned me so bad I've created a self-automated defense system to circumvent any possible chance that I would have to face such a point again. 

What is interesting about such a scenario is that by being scared it's like I'm choosing to inject myself with a poison as the needed justification to prevent myself from getting poisoned again...which is really quite the tragic comedy if you will see the irony here in its profoundness of what I resist will persist because I am persistently enabling the resistance as the self-automated defense system to circumvent any possible chance that I would have to face the point again...and so it's not like I am facing the point again as a new time...but constantly keeping alive the old traumatic history of the past continuously repeating a predictable future again and again and again and thus making the change/self-correction to the future next to impossible because of the extensive nature of my self-automated defense systems as the ridiculously absurd rationality of placing an obstacle in front of myself as the means necessary to avoid facing an obstacle.

To see the ridiculous absurdity of perpetuating self-harm out of fear of being self-harmed...is to see our self-responsibility and self-accountability to stop harming our-self here.

The truth hurts when you step out of the lie, so embrace the pain and realize and understand the weakness of character is leaving the body as we build and strengthen our character as the image and likeness of that which is always best for all Life here. Awesomeness Cool.

Day 549 Facing the Drama Here

In my previous blog I said, "I don't really have much drama in my life if any." I reflected upon these words here and I see this as a result of me having been isolated within my own mind where I have been disconnected from the total physical reality here. Because the total reality of Life here is full of drama as like so much injustices/trauma/abuse existing here. Within this I see how it is my self-responsibility to face the music/drama here as all the injustices/abuse/trauma existing here. Like what is this Life I have here for if I do not stand up to do everything within my capabilities to stop abuse from existing here within our shared physical reality. I mean look at the way our economic system operates...like how human functioning is based in and around a peculiar relationship rules we've formed around money. Like life is totally disregarded in the name of money. I see how money can be a great tool to facilitate the movement/expression of Life. I realize and understand there needs to be a serious attitude adjustment...where we as humanity get our priorities aligned as what is best for all Life here. Because at the moment we've been actively or passively choosing to take the piss out of Life...as like just real total travesty...as like we've created a real muck of a gong-show scenario that has become quite the global epidemic of rapid destruction of Life/Earth here...as a result of being totally out of line in giving a shit for what is best here within and as our self-responsibility to care for one another and have a sustainable shared reality where we all reap the benefits of the common good.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for distancing myself from and as universal responsibility as seeing and realizing and understanding my relationship/agreement with all Life here as what is best for all Life here within and as the starting point principle of oneness and equality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for becoming sheltered within my personal bubble of things are all good where I can have an easy like vacation style lifestyle because I was a fortunate winner in the birth lottery where I was born into a family of money/elitism...where basically I am benefiting from the atrocious abusive economic system where few benefit and many suffer.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having been hesitant and resistant to really push myself full force and dedicate my life living here to working on projects that would be for the benefit of future generations of Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get stuck within the all good attitude of focusing on my personal reality while disregarding and distracting myself from the greater outer reality as like the big picture within and as the consideration of Life interconnectedness within and as oneness and equality here where all Life is of and as the highest value.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for distracting and confusing myself from the big picture of what is going on within our global reality by choosing to allow myself to get caught up within moments of petty bullshit as like having reactions to others within my personal reality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the shame within deeming myself not worthy of taking on a large role within and as the standing here as a being who speaks up for what is best for all Life and directs and facilitates practical living solutions for the betterment of all Life here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the shame within getting caught up within petty bullshit within my mind in relationship to events/beings within my immediate environment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for accepting and allowing myself for daydreaming about possible courses of action for myself without actually physically moving myself within and as practical living self-movement that is best for all Life here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that it is enough for me to be at peace/ease within the personal/interpersonal relationships within my reality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being selfish within not giving enough attention to directing/creating solutions for big picture world problems that exist within our reality. I realize and u understand that obviously in order for myself to be in a position of creating/directing big picture solutions for our shared reality that I have to stand effectively within all the small points/relationships as the personal and interpersonal relationship.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having justified not pushing myself to investigate all the atrocities that exist within our shared reality because I do not experience a desired positive energetic stimulationfrom doing so.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having been conditioned to only give my attention to that which I believe will give me a positive energetic experience. I realize and understand the design flaw within only focusing on the positive energetic experience...as this is the current predicament of humanity as like we are fueling the chaos/drama/abuse/disease within not realizing how we disregarding our equality and oneness within and as everything here.

To be Continued