Day 739 - The Terms of Determination and The Education of Dedication

Continuing from my previous posting:

"So what I see here is cool....is the practical structuring of and as my Dedication...because within and as my dedication is the Determination....and within my determination is the Law of my being here as my Obligation. Dare i say moral obligation from and as the perspective and realization that the best morals are the one's within and as the realization and understanding that there is more for all here within and and as the understanding of what's best for all is Moral as More All here...as the essence of momentum in a continuous expansion of greatness in and as Creation Here."


Since my writing yesterday the Seeing of Education within and as Dedication has become apparent. Also the correlation between Dedication and Determination. It is interesting because in looking at Determination, I find myself within and as the point of Dedication. And it's interesting because if you really regard the terms as the words as the meanings and values which shape Determination...you very much have an education of principles within and as the Dedication required in and as the effective living of Determination.

It's interesting because I never really saw the interconnectedness between these two words before...and what is so fascinating to me is that it's like you can't have one without the other. I mean sure you can disregard one and focus on the other....but then it's like there is a missing link...a missing stability in assisting and supporting the substantiation of interwoven support. I see these two words as like Oneness and Equality....they are complimentary and integral as like the perfect fucking...they fit together perfectly.

Lets play with the word Dedication for a moment here to support the seeing of the meaning within and as Dedication...so it becomes more obvious:

Dedication is the the education of I....the commitment of Self.

Dedication is the education of I....Dedication is the Education with I.

Dedication is the education in relationship to U and I.

Determination is what shapes the education of You and I as Dedication.

Dedication is the giving meaning of words to something.

Determination is the the practical application of Dedication.


I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding the correlation between Dedication and Determination.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding the value of connector words as like complimentary unions of assistance and support to substantiate the best of one another.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent of profound multidimensionality of interconnectedness here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I can effectively leverage strong support and assistance for myself within and as the meaning of words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which Words act as the building blocks that structure the building of creation here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which complimentary actions and assistance and support open up as an outflow of self-directed action/determination/dedication.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to See the pathways I create within and as Word relationships.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself fo resisting in moments to examine the history of my word relationships as like the specific structural engineering of why the path I am on is exactly the way it is.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the specific answers within questions are the very Words themselves.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to examine the interconnection between various word relationships as I specifically define the experience of myself that comes up from time to time as state of reaction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent of specificity that goes into and as the various states of reaction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for never really considering states of reactions as like types/kinds of locations within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for never really regarding various states of being as a point in relationship regard to water....as specifically defined Relationships.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate within various reactionary states without really asking myself, "what am I doing?"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to create my state and status from moment to moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being conditioned/educated to just accept and allow reactionary states to happen as like thinking that is just the way things are.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how control is manipulated through reactionary states...as the consequence of accepting and allowing oneself to be in a sort of hypnotic trance in relationship with oneself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which one exists in a hypnotic trance is a result and relationship to the very and varied methods and points of entertainment that exist here as a sort of distraction as like a take away slip and slide out of balanced stability...as like a going to sleep while you are awake kind of thing where the application is just happening without really thinking about it....programmed self-automation....

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the holistic approach to Determination and Dedication as the harmonious symphony that is the complimentary union of Work and Play which assists and support the Awesome balance of Serious Working Playing Time....as a great combination collaboration where All parts aid in the expansiveness of Greatness as a result of and as a combined group effort for More All as All for One and One for All as the Best Morale.


To be continued

Day 682 - Reading into Reactions

Continuing from my previous post, Day 681 - Reading Ability


Have you ever questioned your Reactions?

Questioning your reactions is a way to Read into the explanation of your Reaction. What I find interesting about our Reactions is the opportunity that exists for a split second where we can actually see, understand, and realize within a point of awareness as to why we are in fact reacting. This is a split second moment. However, what is most fascinating, is the fact that following this split second of seeing why it is we in fact reacting to a particular situation....We have the opportunity to remediate the situation within ourselves. This is what I call real time self-correction.

How is this real-time self-correction practically applied?

If we regard our reactions as mistakes, the opportunity exists to learn from our mistakes immediately, so that we do not require to repeat the same mistake over and over.

The quick and easy solution to sorting out our mistakes/reactions in real-time is to take a split second...maybe even a couple of seconds after realizing the extent of why it is you in fact reacted....and Forgive yourself for 'accepting and allowing yourself to react in the way that you specifically realized'.......being specific here is key...because in specifically seeing the mistake you made....you are correcting this particular patterned program within yourself....that has been essentially running within you realizing it...and or not understanding how to actually circumvent the reactive continuation playout of a particular programmed script within yourself.

What I do, after I have forgiven myself in the moment, Is I create a script as a practical living solution...application that I can utilize when I am faced with a similar moment where I previously reacted.

For example, the other day I was in my backyard with my dog and I was looking towards one of the neighbors houses. I have not met this particular neighbor. Anyways, the neighbor opened the door and he was looking back at me...I think, he too was letting his dog outside...however from where I was looking I couldn't see his dog...though fairly certain he has a dog. Anyways, he was looking at me for a moment....and then I considered waving...and then I just reacted and looked away....and then he closed his door and that was that. I could see here in that moment that I had a resistance towards waving to my neighbor....that I want into a fear reaction and turned away...as to avoid a moment of confrontation...funny...because had I actually waved...I may have been faced with a smile and a wave looking back at me...possibly a friendly comment....or perhaps the neighbor would not even have noticed because he wasn't wearing his glasses and he can't see anything without them.

What I did, was recognized....read my reaction....see the mistake/suppression of my potential expression. Then I forgave myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to wave at somebody who is looking at me who I am also looking at.

I forgive myself for reacting in fear when and as I was faced with the opportunity to wave at my neighbor.

I forgive myself for reacting in fear to waving at my neighbor and turning my head away to avoid eye contact.

When and as I am faced with an opportunity to wave at my neighbor, where we are both looking at each other from a distance, I take a breath, smile and hold my hand up high and wave at my neighbor. I realize it is fun and enjoyable to acknowledge my neighbors and say Hi.

I commit myself to being friendly.



So here is an example template solution as how to effectively read into a reaction....remediate the reaction...and see how one is able to unlock the potential for self-expression in a future moment as a result of taking responsibility for the reaction in the moment. A practical living learning from our mistake if you will.

Best Regards.

Day 681 - Reading Ability

Questions facilitate insight.

Recently, I have been extensively questioning my reading ability...and specifically, my reading potential.

I have been examining the process in how I was educated to read. I have been questioning this process. For instance, I have noticed that I do not require to sub-vocalize in order to read effectively. Sub-vocalizing...means, to speak the words aloud to yourself.  Realizing this point about sub-vocalizing within reading is a fascinating development for myself. The average person is said to speak somewhere between 200-250 words a minute. I heard that around the fastest a person could speak was about 600 words per minute. These facts explain why most people read 250 words or less a minute. 

What I find interesting about asking myself questions...is that I present myself support and assistance in answering questions without consciously thinking about the question constantly. Like the question exists in me, as does the answer and solution...and in a way it's a self movement kind of self intimacy in realizing the answer/solution. What's interesting about this is that I can reflect internally as well as externally to support self-realization in effectively processing information.

Reading, is essentially processing information.

Today I have been learning about mental photography (see Richard Welch)..a sort of speed reading if you will. What I find interesting about this approach is that you work with your natural learning ability....you know...how you learned to do so many things within the first 5 years of your life....naturally....without even thinking about it.

Interesting consideration is that most people go to school to learn......

What is interesting about this consideration is the fact that we learned an exceptional amount of things within the first 5 years of our life before we even went to kindergarten.

I didn't realize or really consider until today how tediously slow the learning process is within the schooling system in terms of how we are taught to move through material. Before today, I didn't really consider that we are being educated in public education at an extremely slow rate.  I mean, if you consider how many years a kid is in school until they finish school....say 1 or 2 years of kindergarten...plus 12 years of grade school....before deciding whether or not to go to college or university...which could be another 1-10 years. WOW! It's really quite absurd to consider that you go to school for 12 to 14 years before you decide if you are ready to work or you are ready to study within a particular college or university so that you can get a specific profession that you need to have a particular degree/diploma from a college/university in order to qualify for the job/position/title.

I just watched a video about 'how to be reasonably good at anything within 20hrs'. This isn't to suggest that you will be a world class professional in any particular area in 20hrs....though it is suggested that with specific focus and attention on particular wants and asking the right questions...and the right practice...it is in fact reasonable to become reasonably good at many skills.

What's also interesting...is that I was listening to the Guinness book of world records Speed reader....Howard Berg, talk about how he reads 80 pages a minute...and how a little while ago he agreed to do a seminar on Photoshop...even though he did not have much knowledge about the particular specifics of Photoshop. He educated himself extensively within a week and put on a seminar for many professional photographers who were very impressed with his seminar and wondered how long it took him to learn so much about Photoshop....he made a joke about it....and said, "Oh, a really long time"

It's interesting to regard ourselves as like forms of sophisticated technologies....for example...like the way our body is set up....essentially how we see...is we are photographing....and scanning images....I've also been looking at laser printers lately...which print pages of information very quickly...like boom all at once done...I recently purchased a kind of lower priced laser printer that prints around 30 pages a minute. 

What about reading 30 pages a minute. My laser printer does that consistently every time I send it a print job. It's programmed to operate at that level.

Howard Berg has programmed himself to read 80 pages a minute...consistently. 

I am most fascinated in exploring and sharing awesome potential. We are at a point in time where it is as important as ever to share awesome potential. We have the capacity to create a programmed reality that facilitates the best support and assistance for All Life in All ways. 

To Be Continued

Day 679 - What are We Doing Here?

It's interesting to examine the relationships one has. In always all ways. I mean look, how many relationships do we in fact even have? Does any One person Know how many relationships they are in fact a part of? It has become obviously apparent to me the vast interconnectedness that exists here as Earth. At the moment, I am not even certain as to how many relationship interconnections..,are taking place within my body...and for that matter...outside my body....and....on my body....like for example how much bacteria is there on my skin? What's going on exactly? The point I am getting at here is that relationships are paramount for Our Being Here. We are Here as a result of relationships. Things are the way they are because of relationships. What I have interesting and fascinating it to examine and study relationships. This studying I regard as a point of reading. Essentially, all we do is read....You know, read the situation...what's happening....communication is key....relationship interplay is a result of communication. I mean, when you think about it....there's really no choice But Communication existing Here. Think about it. We are all here sharing a particular amount of space...and within this space we are in proximity to one another. Relatively speaking. Fascinating stuff really.

I was talking to a University student today, who I did a reading diagnostics test for. Well, actually I talked to several students at the university...in which I administered reading diagnostic tests for.

What was interesting about my sharing today...was the discussions I had about Vocabulary. I had a particularly interesting discussion with a computer programming student. The student had very poor vocabulary recognition and his reading speed was below average. He, as also a few others...were dismissing the importance of Vocabulary in this day and age....where we have access to applications like Google.....the thought reasoning being....why would I even need to know how to spell correctly when Google knows....

I explained to him that his poor reading ability was directly related to his relationship with words. Meaning that words are like codes...and that essentially reading is adding up all the variables/codes/equations/formulas to get to the actuality and expression of the matter being shared. You know, basic addition here....the accounting if you will.

This point clicked with the computer programmer....because he could relate it to his effectiveness writing code....from the perspective that he could see that he would not be very effective writing new scripts and applications if he didn't effectively understand the various codes he was using...and that in fact he would be highly in effective in his using code to create things if he did not realize and understand the code.

This is what is happening here. Everyone is existing within code. The irony...the cosmic joke if you will....is that everyone is the butt of the joke....a parody of sorts. There is so much communication happening all the time....within ourselves...like how we react and or possible respond to others is so much so a result of what he have accumulated within ourselves earlier....our relationship coding if you will.

It's interesting to regard the point that we are all a part of a systematic program. Some may proclaim that it's creepy....others that this is hog wash....,or fantasy....or tell you that you've seen to many sci-fi movies....or that this is a really cool topic of discussion....others may suggest that this is something they don't want to talk about....or regard at all....others may say it's scary....
The point here....is that our response ability to any particular point is based on our programming. Our learning if you will....

Now, learning is a real interesting thing. Because if we dare to question our learning...and how it is in fact we learn...and why perhaps there is a tendency for people to stop having a passion for learning as they get older....there's some serious insight available....

Notice how information is presented in the news on television...and the protocol around such a production. It is very regimented in a particular way. Notice how the News reporters speak. Notice the particulars of everything.

Why is it that noticing the particulars of everything seems perhaps like a daunting and even possibly arduously endless task?  Is it because we have been conditioned in a way where we are believed to be so far removed from the actuality of what is totally happening here within ourselves. Within our cells? Have we perhaps suppressed our access to ourselves? Does this explain the drug and alcohol culture of experimentation?

Now, if you regard that our individual state of affairs...is a result of particular relationship conditions...and that essential the state of our world system is also a result of particular relationship conditions. Interesting how an affair can be a regarded as a bad thing....like something deceptive...you know like a cheating on your partner/lover.  While, when the word is pluralized....like regarding our state of affairs, this is not necessarily bad...it's more of a neutral things...like our business dealings....our happenings if you will...

What is quite interesting about the english language...is that there is so many variables...variations...in and as the wording of words....the context of things....which is interesting in and of itself....because, the idea and fact that there can be discrepancy in realization...and even understanding has profound consequences on our individual circumstances....like mixed signals....mixed messages, is a point of confusion really...

Look at how our legal system exists....are you familiar with all the laws and legislation that exists....all the legal code.....the meaning of all the legal terminology? Isn't this important if we are governed by law? What does that say about our individual relationship with words? I mean, have you really investigated your relationship with every word you know. How well do you really know all the words in you vocabulary? Do you ever notice how particular words act as like forms of triggers....uhm, you know...like a form of stimulation for your mind....that leads to particular emotion or feeling about other things beyond the initial word presentation....like some words have a lot of personal attachment to them.

Look at your thoughts. What are your thoughts primarily about? Is there any reoccurring themes....do the same themes cycle...time loop like a television series....where you are entertained or distracted with particular programming on a daily basis? Have you considered that each of us determines our channels....how we are tuned in and out of whatever programming that is running? what's your thoughts regarding programming? Are you the source programmer?

Does it seem difficult to do anything out of the ordinary? Like, to dare to act in away that you are not accustomed to? Do you think this is because you are operating within a particularly conditioned program?


To be Continued

Day 558 Facing Myself In My Dream

So the point came up within my dream this morning where I was faced with seeing an individual who I knew who was causing havoc for another individual that I knew. The individual who was bothered by the havoc beingcaused was trying to discourage and scare the being into stopping to participate in their actions of havoc.

An opportunity presented itself where I could confront the being who was somewhat possessed in causing havoc without the other individual being aware that I was confronting the being who was causing havoc. It's interesting that I wanted to confront the being causing havoc without the other individual realizing this. A point came up where I didn't want either individual to know that I knew both of them.

When I confronted the being who had been causing havoc for the other being...I approached the being in such a way where the being did not know that I knew what had been transpiring previously. Also the point came up where I resisted being totally straight up with the being, as like I didn't want to offend the being...but just wanted to present myself as a nice guy that he knows...and in a way just kind of distract him from his previous course of actions. Interesting though that within doing this...the being directed his attention towards another point of abuse...though arguing a lesser self-inflicting form of abuse...and I kind of side stepped around tackling that issue head on from the perspective...that I just kind of moved the conversation along without really acknowledging the point of fuckedness/abuse. The situation/conversation was over rather quickly and I was asking myself afterwards, like what the fuck?...Why did I side step some issues here? The short answer is Fear. Fear of uncertainty within another's reactions...fearing the reactions of another...minimizing the possibility that I would really be required to stand in stability and direct the situation.

I see here how this reflects myself not having the courage to full out face myself in every moment. This is unacceptable behaviour. 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be controlled by fear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing losing face with individuals who have conflicting relationships.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being two faced.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have allowed havoc to exist within myself as a result of mulling over points of fear that exist within me with regards to speakingdirectly and frankly with others in every moment of my communication.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for deliberately glossing over issues/points that require my perspective/assistance/support that I fear standing alone within.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to stand alone within and as my stance in every moment here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for always trying to keep the peace with particular individuals I have a casual relationship with.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to bring forth any intimacy within casual relationship acquaintances. 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to make known my various relationship connections to various beings within my reality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing secret relationships to exist within me as a result of judging the various individuals that I am in relationships with.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing how I have lacked the commitment in the depth of the relationship to myself as a result of fearing to address any particular issues that come up within conversation with another being.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being very sensitive to criticism/reactions/defensive comments.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to take personally defensive comments/criticisms/reactions.

I forgive myself for not realizing how I have accepted and allowed myself to abuse myself within offending myself by holding onto a negative energetic charge in relationship to points of self-judgement as comments/criticisms/reactions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to come across as offensive and attacking another being's character persona within being direct and and speaking frankly within communication.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how offensive I have been treating myself within the acceptance and allowance of fearing to come across as offensive. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have been attacking myself within being fearfully defensive/offensive within comments/criticisms/reactions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for trying to ignore comments/criticisms/defensive/offensive behaviours.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how ridiculously absurd I have existed within communication as a result of accepting and allowing the polarity of offense and defense to exist.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for existing as the justification of fear character within excusing self-responsibility in releasing/self-correcting all polarity relationships that exist within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist as the nice guy character construct as coping mechanism and as an avoidance for facing the fear/conflict/friction that exists within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing fear/conflict/friction to exist within myself as a result of resisting to take self-responsibility for the fear/conflict/friction that I see and realize exists within myself. I realize and understand myself responsibility in directing these situations through self corrective measures. When and as I see myself faced with a point of fear/conflict/friction, I stop and breathe, I direct myself to transcending the point in the moment by facing the point head on within and as the stability of my self-trust here. I realize and understand that I am capable and able to walk through and transcend any point of fear/conflict/friction that exists within myself as I have already proven this to myself countless times. I realize and understand the structured systemic way in which I can practically self-correct myself and transcend any and all points of fear. I commit myself to using a practical living systemic approach in transcending every point of fear/conflict/friction that I am faced with seeing within a moment.

I commit myself to continue to utilize my dreams as a point of assistance and support in accelerating my application within and as the journey to Life.

I commit myself to making the most out of the opportunities I am presented with here within and as I walk the journey to Life.

I commit myself to sharing myself without fear within communication.

I commit myself to self-integrity and self-compassion and self-regard, and self-dignity within communication.

I commit myself to stop coping with my existence here.

I commit myself to stand within and as the stability and the directive principle of Oneness and Equality as I walk my process Journey to Life.