Day 578 Journey out of the Illusion and into Life

Journey out of the illusion and into Life

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It so funny how one point of misdirection can forever fuck with us as like by just missing that one thing…the course is totally a discourse…as like we were off the track and therefore become our own study as a self-investigation as we become the course of study into and as our self-discourse here as we see the mistake(s) we have made. And isn't it interesting that within every we mistake we see, realize and understand….an opportunity/answer/solutions presents itself…as what has always been here but was hidden from view…yet not really because the point was always in plain sight…though the mystery of grandeur as like the great conspiracy as to see why and how it is so…is like the ultimate distraction in the search to discover why we are so the way we are. Isn't it fascinating that when we are looking for something we are sure to uncover something in our search for something…Though what I've come to see and realize is that to have any expectation as what the discovery will be as like a great hypothesis as the primary suspect of distraction/illusion being created as the just guess/guest within and as our inherent need to serve our selves justice….but isn't it funny that it is within our hunches as our guesses/assumption/and perceptions and perspectives that we miss the big picture, the grand illusion because we've always been playing a smaller scale game within the box of the grand hypnosis and illusion that was make/made to believe as our self-fulfilling prophecy. Isn't it interesting that generally speaking we are as the human species, are not very specific as to our self-fulfilling prophecy and within this discord and great disregard for the marvel of ourselves here as the great creators. we are in fact disenfranchised within and as our personal business not realizing and understanding our universal and interpersonal business because were stuck in the context of the spell we created as our spelling it so as the law of our being in and as the impressions we formed since our very first contact here. The maze if you will as we participated in our first zing….a shock if you will as isn't Life shockingly amazing and profound….a trip if you will…as the will is certain in and as the tree of Life…as the growth being a point of self-determination in and as the self-responsibility in and as our duty to express our self unconditionally here as our best sharing/showing/performance…though what is keeping us within a limited frame of conditions…as like being unconditionally conditional….predictable if you will…as like stuck...in the stock of our initial investments…in and as our commitment to the fear of loss we believe is the ultimate derivative stock that continuously and consecutively derives the most profit…as yes…the game is rigged and we are the magnificent magicians that have rigged the chess board…each player being a point and a specific role in the game we play together yet not sure what side of the board we are on…and who the real king of the game is…though it is all here and there is no greater or lesser player….but there is and always is as long as there is a conflict at play…and the game we tend to play is within conflict….what a strange thing…as we try to steal better and better…and the ultimate and grand better….stealing another’s winning to create a loss and grow a win constantly and consecutively this strange interplay…but why this funny and distorted balanced erosion as this sure continuous dissolvement….but hmm….really….the cycle…that cycles so….within the fabric of cycles and patterns…all within and as part of a grand pattern of interconnectedness…the independent, dependent and interdependent…together apart and reliant….where am I going…how do I get there…as the cross of here…as the road the journey begins and ends at the same place…into and out as the in and the outcome together…as like there’s no clear point when it’s all merged together as it’s all relative…yet definitely specific and exact…and immaculate perfection in the intricacy of the matrices of and as our mathematical certainty…yet we are the anomaly none the less…so what is certain is that we can never be certain…accept when and after we expose the fraudulent deception of the uncertainty predictability variable as the what the….question/answer/solution…specific….creation…momentary interplanetary here….how could we ever be anywhere else but here….but how we define here and how we see here is in the eye of the beholder…and isn't it interesting the words we use to describe and create because how we create is and as our individual favoured/flavoured self-expression as our personal dance and we make our dance interpersonal as we do it together…and all the while being independent in our moves yet dependent upon the synchronized harmony of the give and receive relationships…as the profound awesomeness is entirely within and as to our committed agreement to our self here…as each here…one and other…here..as each one here all accounted in the counting the math that we move as One in the greatest dance of all time…as like the timeless time because time just becomes a system of how we move within our space…as like the nature and the flow of our song of progression and  the music continues…and it’s funny because it’s all ways our move,,,and to not consider the potential consequence of our move…within and as fearfully moving we created the paranoid box thinking mentality…that has us shuffle side stepping our turns as like yearning for more…yet faking it the whole way because the commitment of our every turn and move has lacked authenticity because there was always that shade of doubt within the question the answer and the solution as who am I and what am I to do here…hear….hearing….court hearing…the nature of law…as our grand master judgement…it is written so as we so it so…and we are the rulers of our here togetherness…whether I wrote it or you wrote…it…the I in the You…how do we do…because the You and I are forever bound….because the you is me and the me is you….so why do we need to refer to the I …if all is I…and yes…were are all realized as the all seeing eye…here as our mind…is the nature of our programming and the law into and the nature of the programming is extensive,., yet very meticulously specific in as being precisely what it is because of the sequence of events as the musical notes of intent that shaped and determined…predetermined the events of our history and future to unfold until we stopped the story…and started to take self-responsibility for our self-created moral allegory…which is our amazing disgrace as our fall from grace on the trip we call life…not realizing and understanding how we been constantly falling…as the fall of mankind…though the funny thing is that getting up is just a move away…and we have the will to move ourselves into and as the standing players on the chess board to determine the makeup of the game…and it’s not to say those who are standing cannot change the nature and the rules of the game….because to get up together as one…as individually standing all together here is the power of oneness and equality…as to have the ability and capability to direct the weather…as to weather the storm of consciousness in specific ways…as to direct the positions and plays that be, to be the best case for all life…as like moving out of the matrix illusion of choice…and into the rhythmic harmony dance of Life…here here…as our sound unbound here. Hear hear.

Day 577 Positive Voice Tonalities Self-Correction

Continuing from my previous blog entries within the blog series "positive voice tonalities"


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for self-victimizing myself within working with small children.


When and as I see myself self-victimizing myself by judging working with small children as being a burden and hardship/challenge, I stop and breathe, I see working with children as a cool opportunity of support and assistance. I realize and understand the tremendous learning opportunity that is available within and as self-reflection and self-introspection. I realize and understand the attitude of gratitude within and as the work I do. Icommit myself to stop limiting myself and and my potential abilities to do excellent work by taking on judgments that self-victimize myself and my relationship with others in the process. I commit myself to stop self-victimizing myself with judgement. I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of self victimizing myself with judgement.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking the actions and responses of small children personally.


When and as I see myself taking the actions and responses of small children personally, I stop and breathe and allow myself to have a laugh for a moment at my own expense as I see and realize the momentary ridiculous absurdity of my acceptances and allowances. I commit myself to stop taking peoples actions and responses personally. I commit myself to standing within a point of physical stability so that I am able and capable of directing all reactions and responses.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be self-righteous in relationship to small children.


When and as I see myself being self-righteous in relationship to small children, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand that this is totally not cool and is most unacceptable behaviour, I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of such particpations. I take full self-responsibility in releasing myself from the restraints of self-righteousness. I commit myself to stopping to accept and allow self-righteousness within myself. I realize and understand that self-righteousness in relationship to others promotes and reflects accepted and allowed separation within myself. I commit myself to self-correcting all point of accepted and allowed separation within myself.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how abusive it is to deliberately make a point of speaking in a higher pitch positive energy voice tonality to children.


When and as I see myself reacting in a high pitch positive energy voice tonality, I stop and breathe, I take a moment to start again, I take a moment to see and realize the ridiculous absurdity of my momentary mistake within and as reacting within and as a point of positive energy higher pitch voice tonality. I commit myself to use my voice as a point of self-expression as the sounding of words as who I am within and as self-expression as LifeEquality and Oneness. I realize and understand the suppression of my voice/sound within and as I react in a moment as either positive or negative energy. I realize and understand that it is not about me trying to be in a neutral voice which is like an in between of positive and negative as like a mixed reaction. I commit myself to developing my sound self-expression as the presentation of the self-realization of Life Equality and Oneness.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the nastiness of speaking in a higher pitch positive energy voice tonality.


When and as I see myself speaking in a higher pitch positive energy voice tonality, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand the nastiness of speaking in a higher pitch positive energy voice tonality. I take self-responsibility and self-accountability to self-correct the situation and prevent the continued play out of manifested separation. I commit myself to purifying my sound as equality and oneness. I commit myself to sound self-expression here.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the shame within reacting to children by speaking to them in a higher than normal voice tonality.


I commit myself to stop reacting to children. I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing separation within myself towards children here. I commit myself to equalizing myself with children here. I commit myself to educate others about the ridiculous absurdity of speaking to children within and as a point of positive energy.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for going into the nice guy character construct in relationship to children where I believe I do not have a connection with them and I have to earn their validation and approval through speaking from a starting point of positive energy.


When and as I see myself going into the nice guy character construct in relationship to children because I believe I do not have a connection with them and I have to earn their validation and approval through speaking from a starting point of positive energy, I stop and breathe, I direct myself to speak from a point of natural sound physical stability, I realize and understand children I see to be me in and as another Life here, I commit myself to stand equal and one with everything I see here, I commit myself to stop doubting myself in relationship to others here, I commit myself to my self-validation as self-trust and self-honesty here. I commit myself to stop seeking approval. I commit myself to approving myself as what is best for Life.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how equally fucked it is to speak to children in a negative or positive energetic voice tonality.


When and as I see myself energetically speaking to anyone, I stop and breathe, I commit myself to ground my sound in and as physical stability as my self-expression here as sound that cannot be bound to the limitations of energy conflict/friction, I commit myself to communicating effectively and efficiently with profound clarity. I commit myself to play with what I say. I realize and understand the ridiculously absurd nature of communicating from a point of positive or negative energy. I commit myself to purifying the nature of my communication here as Life Equality and Oneness.

Day 576 Positive Voice Tonality Self-Corrections

Continuing from my previous to blog postings:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for perpetuating emotional turmoil within myself by deliberately going into positive energetic voice tonalities as a way to make connections and keep the peace.

When and as I see myself believing that I need to go into positive energetic voice tonalities as a way to make connections and keep the peace, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand how within this particular mindset I am perpetuating the war/peace conflict/friction as a result of believing positive energy is the answer for negative energy...while not realizing and understanding the fact that positive energy is manufactured ans secreted from the negative energy that exists within myself and that by buying into the participation and reasoned need to go into positive energetic experiences with my voice, I am compromising myself and others as a result of not standing within and as sound stability. I commit myself to stop justifying and reasoning the belief/need to exercise participation within positive energetic reactions as the only way for me to keep the peace and make connections with others. I realize and understand the self-sabotage and absurd ridiculousness of the self-manipulation tactic of compromising physical self-stability for the desired positive energetic reaction. I commit myself to stop sacrificing physical sound stability by believing that I can effectively support and assist another by existing within the conflict/friction voice tonality of positive energy.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking offense to the learning ability of small children.


When and as I see myself taking offense to the learning ability of another, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand I have patience, and that by taking things personally is to in fact disregard my patience which is ridiculously absurd and in fact self-compromising to physical sound stability. I realize and understand that any time my patience is tested by me taking offense to something and having a restlessness come up within me, that there is a point of self-improvement opening up where I can gracefully assist and support myself to re-align my effectiveness within and as the point as the measure of prevention is the best cure...so that I no longer enable myself to fuck with myself by taking offense to another being's process/learning ability. I commit myself to letting go of the urgency to resist patience in moments where my patience is a practical living point of support and assistance. I realize and understand the practicality of living patience as a point of support and stability for my process of self-perfection as equality and oneness here. I commit myself to exercising my patience within process participation here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having moments where I reacted as a point of impatience with the young children I was working with today.

When and as I see myself starting to generate a reaction within myself as a point of impatience, I stop and breathe, I hold the point within myself, I look at the point, I seen and realize the consequential absurd ridiculousness of choosing to perpetuate the existence of such a point within myself, I make the decision to terminate the point by looking into the origins of the point and making the decision to forgive myself and create a script of preventative measures to fine tune my alignment within and as the principle starting point of equality and oneness. I commit myself to stopping to breathe and hold the points of energetic instability within myself as I take self-responsibility and self-accountability for that which I have accepted and allowed that is not in the best interest of Life here.

Day 575 Positive Voice Tonality Self-Corrections

Continuing from my previous post:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for using a positive energetic voice tonality as a point of self-automated defense and coping mechanism.



When and as I see myself reacting with a positive energetic voice tonality as a point of self-automated defense and coping mechanism, I stop and breathe, I ground my sound in physical stability, I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of charging up my voice within and as a higher pitch positive energetic tone, I realize and understand the internal and external abuse within communicating from a starting point of energetic reaction. I commit myself to communicating from the starting point of sound physical stability as the recognition and understanding of Equality and Oneness Here.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for trying to manipulate children by using a positive energetic voice tonality.



When and as I see myself attempting to manipulate someone by using a positive energetic voice tonality, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand I am able to be much more effective in assisting and supporting learning comprehension by speaking/communicating in a lower voice tonality, grounded in physical stability. I realize and understand that I am able to to play with my communication by playing with the range of my sounds and voice tonalities. I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of justifying the participation within particular energetic voice tonalities from and as the starting point of reaction/conflict/friction within myself. I realize and understand voicing reaction is in fact a self-suppression of self-expression....where as specifically directing the sound of my tone within communication is in fact a cool point of self-expression as physical sound stability here. I commit myself to play with and as my sound self-expression here. I commit myself to experimenting with my communication. I commit myself to let go of fear within and around communicating. I commit myself to being a sound communicator.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to strain my physical body within reacting to children by speaking to them in a higher pitched positive energetic voice tonality.


When and as I see myself separating myself from children I stop and breathe, I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of separating myself from and as the equality and oneness with children here. I realize and understand the practical living support within and as the point of "You is me in another Life" I commit myself to seeing and participating within and as the practical living of the statement, "You is me in another Life". I commit myself to removing the separation I have created towards children here. I commit myself to removing the separation I have created towards others hers.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for doubting my effectiveness to communicate with children in a a low grounded physically stable voice tonality.


When and as I see myself mind fucking my effectiveness to communicate with children in a low grounded physically stable voice tonality, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand I am capable and able to do so. I realize and understand I have in fact proven to myself that I am able and capable of doing so. I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of creating justified and reasoned doubts within myself as like an excuse to exist within a point of reaction as opposed to standing within and as the living practicality of what is best for Life here. I commit myself to standing in and as the living practicality of what is best for Life here. I commit myself to gracefully step out out of mind fucks when and as I see myself momentarily engaged within a mind fuck. I commit myself to giving myself stability when and as I face moments of temporary instability. I commit myself to the process of self-perfection. I commit myself to/as effective communication.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that people require to be persuaded and influenced with positive energetic voice tonalities.



When and as I see myself believing that I require to influence someone with a positive voice tonality, I stop and breathe, I see and realize that I do not require to encourage energetic friction within and as my communication with fellow beings here. I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of trying to forge connections through and as the process of conflict and friction energies within myself where I do not in fact stand one and equal with the being I am communicating. I commit myself to regarding all beings here one and equal. I commit myself to stop looking to persuade and influence people with positive energies. I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of influencing myself and others with positive energy. I realize and understand the abuse and disregard for Life within channeling/spewing positive energetic responses within my communication here.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing people having temper tantrums.



When and as I see myself fearing someone having a temper tantrum, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand the practicality within stopping this fear immediately, as I see and realize how fearing someone having a temper tantrum in fact perpetuates inner turmoil within myself and in fact in no way practically supports myself or the other being in which I am communicating with. I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of fearing reactionary responses. I commit myself to immediately directing reactionary responses with grace, care and gentleness as I commit myself to becoming a real gentle man who cares for and regards all Life here as a care taker for what is here and what is to come here.


To Be Continued

Day 574 Positive Voice Tonality

So I was working with a whole bunch of 5 year old children today and I noticed a peculiar thing where I would speak in a slightly higher pitch towards them when I was trying to get their attention and tell them or show them how to do something when they had been distracted. It's interesting because I was aware of how I was sounding out my words...and I was kind of like what the fuck...and it was somewhat difficult for me to talk to them in a lower voice tonality. 

What is interesting about this is that I noticed my effectiveness in communicating/directing the points of learning comprehension was most effective when I made the effort to make sure I spoke to them in a low physically grounded voice tonality.

What's interesting about the higher pitch voice tonality...is that I noticed I was speaking in that pitch as a point of reaction...where I would go into the I'm a super nice positive friendly guy personality...and within this...I would speak from within a starting point of positive energy, and the intent of doing this was that there was a belief within me that I would forge and or strengthen a connection with the children through the use of sounding really positive within my energetic responses.

What's interesting about this is that I noticed how today was more challenging/stressful than usual as I had many moments with the little guys where I was seeking out their approval. I mean its kind of funny and ridiculous to see how I would go into this nice guy construct of like "ya you can agree with me and you can listen to me...because just listen to how nice my voice is when I'm talking to you...don't you think I'm so nice and friendly..."

What's interesting about this is that I've made some bullshit associations with going into positive energetic voice tonalities as a point of making approval/validation with others....specifically little children.

What's also interesting about today is that I really played with how I spoke to the kids in some moments...where I made a point of really speaking in a low voice...and what's interesting is that the kids were so much more responsive to me with the lower my voice tonality. It's like so ridiculous in a way because...when I would be "trying to be all positive in my voice tonality" it was a struggle for the kids to comprehend what I was saying...and I would have to repeat myself and establishing comprehension with the children was much more difficult.

I see here how also the point of positive voicing tonality would come out as a consequence to having negative reactions within myself...where I wouldn't necessarily be particularly pleased with the child...and then it's like I would speak in a way of sucking up to them because I feared them having there own temper tantrum...and so believing that I got to be super positive with them as a preventive means to them having temper tantrums.

And what is interesting and ridiculously absurd about my particpations in fearing the children being emotionally distraught and having temper tantrums is that I was having so many little temper tantrums within myself and in a way was trying to cope/manage my own emotional inner turmoil.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for using a positive energetic voice tonality as a point of self-automated defense and coping mechanism.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for trying to manipulate children by using a positive energetic voice tonality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to strain my physical body within reacting to children by speaking to them in a higher pitched positive energetic voice tonality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for doubting my effectiveness to communicate with children in a a low grounded physically stable voice tonality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that people require to be persuaded and influenced with positive energetic voice tonalities.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing people having temper tantrums.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for perpetuating emotional turmoil within myself by deliberately going into positive energetic voice tonalities as a way to make connections and keep the peace.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking offense to the learning ability of small children.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having moments where I reacted as a point of impatience with the young children I was working with today.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for self-victimizing myself within working with small children.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking the actions and responses of small children personally.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be self-righteous in relationship to small children.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how abusive it is to deliberately make a point of speaking in a higher pitch positive energy voice tonality to children.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the nastiness of speaking in a higher pitch positive energy voice tonality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the shame within reacting to children by speaking to them in a higher than normal voice tonality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for going into the nice guy character construct in relationship to children where I believe I do not have a connection with them and I have to earn their validation and approval through speaking from a starting point of positive energy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how equally fucked it is to speak to children in a negative or positive energetic voice tonality.

To be Continued

Day 573 Process of Change

I've been looking at the point of change. Specifically making new goals/patterns/habits/routines/commitments and within this seeing how to be most effective/efficient in implementing these changes.

What I've noticed and realized is that big results and drastic change is the accumulation of a series of many very small steps.

I've noticed and realized how my success or failure within a point of change is specifically the result of my very small steps.

What's interesting to see here within and as the process of change is how steps can also be referred to as calculations or acceptances and allowances.

Each step/calculation/acceptance and allowance happens within a moment.

What I've come to realize and understand is how simple it is to re-align/self-correct myself when I lose my balance as a result of a miscalculated step.

What's interesting here is to see the equality within how easily we can support ourselves in a moment...or how easily we can fuck with ourselves in a moment....because the basic mathematics always applies as the accumulation effect/factor.

What I've found difficult about stopping a pattern/habit and creating a new pattern/habit is looking for the change to happen automatically within myself without any real self-directed effort/commitment and or challenge...like for instance making a plan...and just kind of expecting that my thoughts will walk me through the change...as like telling my body what to do in every moment.

What's interesting about this...is that I am faced with the particular thoughts/feelings/emotions that are linked/formed within myself as the accumulation that has been accepted and allowed within myself with regards to my oldpatterns/habits.

What's interesting to see here is that in order to effectively integrate a new pattern/habit/routine/change, I require a series of new steps and this series of new steps requires repeated repetition in/as order to/so be effectively integrated within myself.

What's interesting about this is that by questioning my every step within developing myself I can practically see and realize the effectiveness of each step. Within this, I can play with a series of steps/movements and within doing this I can establish rhythm and tempo and build upon my application.

What's interesting about this is that I am my own science experiment and I determine the science experiment.

What's interesting about this is that the science is all ways awe-so-me. Here is where things get interesting...because I am the starting point of determining my awesomeness in application. By realizing and understanding that anything that I do that is not cool/awesome is a misstep/miscalculation where I then forgive myself for accepting and allowing a point of less than awesomeness/cool to exist within myself. 

What's interesting about the process of change is that the more specific I get with my questioning of myself here, the more I enable myself to expand my practical living application of awesomeness/cool as that which is best for all Life. 

What's interesting about this is that by constantly and consistently being on the quest of question specificity within and as process of self-perfection in and as the science of awesome/cool practical living applications...it is clear here to see/hear and realize what the answers/solutions are as the ways to effectively and efficiently correct my momentary missteps/trips/falls/stumbles/bails.

It's interesting how within the realization and understanding that the question is one and equal with the answer/solution...and that we are here as the starting point of it...that it is really only a dare to care...a dare to see what is already here...which is fascinating because what's blocked me from seeing and realizing what is here is that I've been too damn scared.

And what is interesting about being scared...is that to really question the fears around why I could be so damn scared is to in fact see the scars that are burned into my memory as various emotional energetic traumas that burned me so bad I've created a self-automated defense system to circumvent any possible chance that I would have to face such a point again. 

What is interesting about such a scenario is that by being scared it's like I'm choosing to inject myself with a poison as the needed justification to prevent myself from getting poisoned again...which is really quite the tragic comedy if you will see the irony here in its profoundness of what I resist will persist because I am persistently enabling the resistance as the self-automated defense system to circumvent any possible chance that I would have to face the point again...and so it's not like I am facing the point again as a new time...but constantly keeping alive the old traumatic history of the past continuously repeating a predictable future again and again and again and thus making the change/self-correction to the future next to impossible because of the extensive nature of my self-automated defense systems as the ridiculously absurd rationality of placing an obstacle in front of myself as the means necessary to avoid facing an obstacle.

To see the ridiculous absurdity of perpetuating self-harm out of fear of being self-harmed...is to see our self-responsibility and self-accountability to stop harming our-self here.

The truth hurts when you step out of the lie, so embrace the pain and realize and understand the weakness of character is leaving the body as we build and strengthen our character as the image and likeness of that which is always best for all Life here. Awesomeness Cool.

572 Self-Interest Corrective Alignment

When and as I see myself resisting to question myself-interests, I stop and breathe, I question myself-interests, I realize the fact that there is insight to be garnered within questioning myself-interests here. I realize and understand why a hesitance as a form of resistance exists with specific regards to questioning myself-interests...because if I in fact question myself-interests here, I will in fact open up the opportunity for myself to see my conditioned programmed reality as how I have self-defined myself here. I realize and understand within daring to look at my acceptances and allowances here, the opportunity exists for me to take self-responsibility for my acceptances and allowances by removing all acceptances and allowances that are not totally awesome. I realize and understand my the pre-programmed nature of my mind/ego is to self-destruct my physicality...and therefore the point of revenge of the ego exists within my base programming as like a self-automated defense mechanisms to impulse/stimulate me within my mind to resist going there within my mind to actually see what it is I am perpetuating within myself that is totally and completely ridiculously absurd. I realize and understand how the nature of my mind consciousness system is to be motivated and moved by stimulation/fear/energy as like a particular buzz/shock/stress/strain induced upon my physicality...as like a cracking the whip upon myself as like a mind/body master/slave relationship. I realize and understand my self-commitment in equalizing my mind/body relationship here. I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of existing within a master/slave relationship as the mind to the body. I commit myself to stopping the inequality within and as my mind/bodyrelationship here. I commit myself to asking myself the difficult questions that directly challenge my programmed conditioned nature. I commit myself to utilizing resistance as an indicator to see where I am required to investigate/explore more.

When and as I see myself trying to over simplify the intricate complexity of my mind, I stop and breathe, I face the intricate complexity of my mind by utilizing the process of simplicity by working/looking at one point at atime and within this accumulating the points as like doing the basic mathematical accounting in counting each point and seeing the various connections that are formed and related as a result of the plethora of acceptances and allowances within myself. I realize and understand the practicality in keeping things simplistic within working with information by having a basic structured approach/methodology as how to systematically walk/work through point one by one until I am done. I commit myself to a basic simplistic approach/methodology in walking/working through my mind of acceptances and allowances one by one until I am done. I commit myself to stop trying to over simplify things as like a point of trying to create a shortcut within and as the desire to avoid/fear doing the labor within totally understanding the intricate complexity of my mind. I commit myself to practical living basic simplicity within as myself expression here. I commit myself to simplicity in design. I commit myself to Life simplicity.

When and as I see myself desiring/seeking out stimulation/entertainment/distraction, I stop and breathe, I question why I am looking to be stimulated/entertained/distracted, I investigate the full extent of my question, I look to see what I am resisting, I face my accepted and allowed resistance, I make the decision to no longer accept and allow the point of resistance within myself, I realize and understand myself responsibility as self-directive decision maker here, I realize and understand the point of self-determination/self-will within and as the self-responsibility and self-accountability of practically living self-directive decision making here. I commit myself to the self-responsibility and self-accountability within and as the practical living self-directive decision making process here. I realize and understand my self-governance as the law/rules of my being here is stemmed and rooted in my effective efficiency and ability to practically live self-directive decisions. I commit myself to practically living self-directive decisions that are in alignment with and as the principle of equality and oneness as what is best for all Life here. I realize and understand that what is best for all Life here starts with what is best for myself here. I realize and understand my decision to align myself as what is best for all Life here. I commit myself to becoming what is best for all Life here. I commit myself to giving myself what I would like to receive. 

When and as I see myself fearing to let go of my impulsed desires, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand the principle of what is best for all Life takes precedent over my impulsed desires, I realize and understand I have made the decision to give myself the best Life support and assistance and that this is a labor intensive self-directive decision that requires relentless continuous constant and consistent participation as my self-disciplined routine of the simplicity of one breath at a time. I commit myself to stepping out of mind reliance mental reality and into practical living physical reality participation. I commit myself to establishing a practical living self-disciplined creative structural approach for the birthing process of myself here as Life.