Day 757 - The Flick of the Con

 


I've learned some ironically funny things about Conflict.  Specifically, myself relationship within and as conflict...how primarily so much so it is a decision of myself to accept and allow such relationship ridiculousness as the particular dynamics of various degrees of contextual relationship dynamics.

To place this simplistically,...the point is this....Being at war/odds with things is so much a choice within and as the accepted and allowed word relationships that exist within oneself as the particular feeling/emotional charges one holds onto as a debt bond.  Fascinating it is to see the word relationships as debt bonds...the specifics of particular relationship information contexts as carrying so called charges which are essentially a sort of zing I have been doing onto myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to slow down in such moments where it is in fact possible for myself to see and realize what I am in fact allowing....and to from here actually change the very nature of my word contractual relationships.

I realize the absurd ridiculousness of creating debt for myself within and as my word relations.

I realize how ridiculously absurd it is to bond myself to debt as like making myself dependent upon charges held against myself that I am so much so at the mercy of.

I realize the absurd ridiculousness of drafting such absurd contractual relationships within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extensive nature of each and every moment as an opportunity to so much so check myself within and as my word relationships...as I see and realize my words are my bonds.  Within this, I see and realize my words as the best bonds are that which are based within and as the frame work of equality and oneness...that exist free from conflictual feeling/emotion charges against myself that create a trigger as a reoccurring and perpetuating reactionary debt bond.

I commit myself to absolving myself from debt/conflict within and as my word/world relationships Here.

I realize this is a word by word process.

I commit myself to living the self-correction of and from conflicting contractual terms of word/world relations to substantially beneficial terms of word/world agreements.

Day 654 Forgiveness and Surprise

It's always interesting to see what can open up and develop when we utilize our potential .



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having neglected to to face problematic issues in moments because the outcome of such a situation is not certain.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the irony within fearing uncertainty. I see/realize and understand how ridiculous it is to accept and allowed uncertainty to exist as an excuse/reason/justification for non action within creating/developing solutions that are best for all.

I see, realize and understand how adjustments are often made to solutions as the process implementation of solutions/corrections is walked and that initial solutions/self-corrections are not necessarily concrete as the effective implementation of solutions/corrections is a process within space and time like that of concrete/cement which takes time to settle and dry once it's been positioned.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the surprises that often come out of and as a result of taking responsibility for situations of conflict...meaning, that when and as I see there is an opportunity for me to direct a situation of conflict, this in many instances is a cool point of support and assistance that is able to develop and evolve.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having neglected to face every instance of conflict that exists within my mind. I see/realize/understand how allowing a conflict to remain within my mind without immediate direction and response when I in fact see the scope of the situation...is in fact irresponsible.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting immediate responsibility for my thoughts/feelings/emotions in every moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the constant and consistent application of self-responsibility required in working through the depths of my mind.

I see, realize and understand that self-forgiveness is not really effective from the starting point of giving in order to get....even though that as you give to yourself you get to receive....which is really like a bonus in fact....because I see, realize, and understand that self-forgiveness is an actual self-expression we give/create for ourself here because it is a vital necessity within walking the process journey to Life as All as One as Equal.  Self-forgiveness is Self-Responsibility.  Self-Responsibility is Self-Expression. Self-Expression is Self-forgiveness. Sharing is Caring.

I commit myself to Sharing and Caring about myself as All Life Here.

I commit myself to perfecting my ability to live self-responsibilities.

I commit myself to practical living self-responsibility as who/how/why I am here.

I commit myself to daily self-reflection as a learning tool.

When and as I see myself resisting to look at a point, I stop and breathe...I see that this resistance that is coming up within me is actually like an alarm and siren going off within me as like a totally clear indicator that I have a situation within myself that requires and needs immediate attention and direction. I therefore take immediate responsibility for the resistance in the moment and create the solution to the problem/resistance. I see, realize and understand that obviously it is important to always take care when walking/working with resistance and that it is not in fact responsible to create unnecessary risk for individual well being and safety as a point of facing resistance. I see/realize/understand the practicality and common sense applications within working/walking through resistances.

Day 623 Information Assessment

When and as I see myself looking at information where I have a particular formed relationship connection/impression, I stop and breathe, I say, "I am here", I see/realize/understand the impracticality of taking personally the information I am examining/investigating. I see/realize/understand how forming a reaction to a point/question of self-realization is ridiculously absurd. I see/realize/understand how I can in fact look at information within myself without being consumed/possessed/influenced by the information within myself. I commit myself to rigorously self-investigating myself here as something I am passionate about. I commit myself self-enjoyment within the process of self-reflection and self-correction. 

When and as I see myself going into the particular energy that is associated with the information that I am looking at that exists within my mind, I stop and breathe, I say, "I am here", I direct myself to respond in a way where I give myself the best support and assistance in changing my ingrained acceptances and allowances. I commit myself to changing my acceptances and allowances that are not in alignment with what is best for all Life here. I commit myself to operating/existing/expressing from within the starting point of and as what is best for all Life here.

I commit myself to becoming more and more specific within and as my process of self-investigation.

I commit myself to Specificity within my communication...and I commit myself to Specificity within and as my Journey to Life.

I commit myself to developing Specificity as a Cool point of and as Self-Expression.

Day 618 Relationship Association

So, I've become aware of how I have little moments of accepted and allowed justified judgement within myself as a form of self-talk/backchat...where within this behaviour I am sitting/standing within a point/heir of self-righteousness where I create this better than perspective...where I look at the person within my reality as less than me...I have done this within the justification that there being stupid...or don't realize that there being stupid...and whats really stupid about this is that I talk to myself about this...as like justifying and believing it to be necessary that I process and figure this out about and by talking about it to myself from the starting point of reacting to it...and what's funny and ridiculous about this is that within my mind...I see how I have been validating this behaviour from within the starting point of wanting to make sense of what the fuck is happening in my environment...like wanting to define another being..as like make sense of why they are like they are...what's interesting about this...is that its delusional...because obviously there is so many factors that goes into a person being exactly the way they are. What's also interesting about all of this is that this explains me as why I am exactly the way I am. And so within seeing the small reactions...I am able to investigate and forgive myself for all the little moments...and get to know myself for real as a point of and as self-intimacy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying judgment within myself as a form of self-talk/backchat...where within this behaviour I am sitting/standing within a point/heir of self-righteousness where I create this better than perspective...where I look at the person within my reality as less than me. I see/realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of such participations. When and as I see myself creating judgment within myself as a result of having even a minor reaction within myself, I stop and breathe, I say,"I am here"...I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating separation between myself and another being here. I see/realize/understand how within understanding the nature of a reaction I participated within...I am in fact able to see how I created the particular relationship dynamics that originated from a state of cognitive dissonance as manifested perceived separation. I commit myself to releasing myself from manifested perceived separation in my relationships with beings here. I commit myself to stand/sit One and Equal here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying stupidity. I see/realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of justifying stupidity. When and as I see myself trying to make sense of something within my mind by justifying stupidity as the reasoned logical explanation, I stop and breathe..I say "I am here"..I self-reflect upon the point in question...I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself of for justifying and rationalizing stupidity as an acceptable human condition that is beyond repair. I commit myself to self-correcting every aspect of my accepted and allowed justifications within and as the word stupidity. I commit myself to investigating all my relationships and the nature of my accepted and allowed word associations. I see/realize/understand the practical living support within remediating my vocabulary, as a way to prevent cognitive dissonance within myself here. I commit myself to take self-responsibility for my mind. I commit myself to purifying my vocabulary. I commit myself to purifying the nature of myself here as what I accept and allow to exist within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself of not realizing and understanding the delusion of trying to make sense of things when in fact common sense is lost within the moment and statrting point of trying to make sense of things. When and as I see myself trying to make sense of things, I stop and breathe, I say "I am here"..I look at my starting point here, I see/realize/understand that the starting point here as what is best for all Life is in fact always common sense. I see/realize and undestand that I do not require to make sense of things when in fact I allow and accept myself to stand within and as the self-direction of and as common sense...as like this is the point of self-reflection here...where in fact I am giving myself the opportunity to see with clarity here the common sense reality that is always here. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting myself access to practical living common sense reality within trying and attempting to make sense of things within and as my mind consciousness system. I commit myself to establishing and solidifying practical living common sense reality within myself here. I commit myself to the flexibility of mind within and as common sense physical reality. I commit myself to understanding and self-realizing common sense here.

Day 605 My Personal Business Corrections

I commit myself to business.



I commit myself to personal business.



I commit myself to interpersonal business.



I commit myself to universal business.



I commit myself to personal responsibility.



I commit myself to interpersonal responsibility.



I commit myself to universal responsibility.



I commit myself to looking at and understanding personal/interpersonal/universal business/responsibility.



When and as I see myself being spiteful towards self-responsibility/business relations, I stop and breathe, I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for holding onto a point of spite within myself within and as the form ofanger/blame/frustration/irritation/annoyance, and I give myself a release from being bound to this energetic charge imprisonment...I commit myself to preventing the continued outflow of such a particular behaviour pattern within myself...I commit myself to understanding the ramifications/consequences of spitefulness...and to self-correct every point of spitefulness that I see.




When and as I see myself being spiteful to myself by placing myself in conflict within and as my business responsibilities, I stop and breathe, I see/realize/understand the absurd ridiculousness of mind fucking my potential success here within being most effect within and as my business responsibilities. I see/realize/understand the absurd ridiculousness of self-sabotage....and I see/realize/understand how self-sabotage is linked to positive energetic charged desires as the reasoned justification to validate and excuse such self-sabotage. I commit myself to self-correcting every single point of self-sabotage within myself, by self-forgiving myself, self-correcting my behaviour programming, and self-committing myself to the prevention of self-sabotage as the self-realization and understanding that prevention is in fact the best cure.




When and as I see myself having resistance towards a particular dynamic of business/relationships/self/movement, I stop and breathe, I see/realize/understand that I have created a conflict...as a specific energetic impression....I see/realize/understand that this is in fact a choice....I see/realize/understand my self-responsibility in self-correcting the choice I made...by making the decision/choice to align my decision/choice within and as self-support and assistance. I commit myself to stop compromising my self-movement. I commit myself to stop choosing to restrict my access to Life assistance and support. I commit myself to stop creating energetic impressions/affiliations/frictionstowards particular points within my reality here.




When and as I see myself suppressing self-responsibility/self-expression within business relationships out of fear of losing existing business relationship, I stop and breathe, I see/realize/understand the absurd ridiculousness of choosing to rationalize the influence of fear upon every decision. I commit myself to stop suppressing self-responsibility/self-expression/business-opportunity/self-expansion. I commit myself to being genuine and sincere within business relationships. I commit myself to sharing self-responsibility/self-expression within business relationships as a point of practical living genuine self-expression and sincerity. I commit myself to sharing the appropriate amount ofinformation within business relationships. I commit myself to seeing/realizing/understanding the nature of business relationships. I commit myself to developing and enhancing business relationships. I commit myself to building and expanding business relationships. I commit myself to being authoritatively authentic within and as business relationships. I commit myself to practically living the word business. I commit myself to myself as business.




To be Continued

Day 575 Positive Voice Tonality Self-Corrections

Continuing from my previous post:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for using a positive energetic voice tonality as a point of self-automated defense and coping mechanism.



When and as I see myself reacting with a positive energetic voice tonality as a point of self-automated defense and coping mechanism, I stop and breathe, I ground my sound in physical stability, I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of charging up my voice within and as a higher pitch positive energetic tone, I realize and understand the internal and external abuse within communicating from a starting point of energetic reaction. I commit myself to communicating from the starting point of sound physical stability as the recognition and understanding of Equality and Oneness Here.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for trying to manipulate children by using a positive energetic voice tonality.



When and as I see myself attempting to manipulate someone by using a positive energetic voice tonality, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand I am able to be much more effective in assisting and supporting learning comprehension by speaking/communicating in a lower voice tonality, grounded in physical stability. I realize and understand that I am able to to play with my communication by playing with the range of my sounds and voice tonalities. I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of justifying the participation within particular energetic voice tonalities from and as the starting point of reaction/conflict/friction within myself. I realize and understand voicing reaction is in fact a self-suppression of self-expression....where as specifically directing the sound of my tone within communication is in fact a cool point of self-expression as physical sound stability here. I commit myself to play with and as my sound self-expression here. I commit myself to experimenting with my communication. I commit myself to let go of fear within and around communicating. I commit myself to being a sound communicator.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to strain my physical body within reacting to children by speaking to them in a higher pitched positive energetic voice tonality.


When and as I see myself separating myself from children I stop and breathe, I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of separating myself from and as the equality and oneness with children here. I realize and understand the practical living support within and as the point of "You is me in another Life" I commit myself to seeing and participating within and as the practical living of the statement, "You is me in another Life". I commit myself to removing the separation I have created towards children here. I commit myself to removing the separation I have created towards others hers.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for doubting my effectiveness to communicate with children in a a low grounded physically stable voice tonality.


When and as I see myself mind fucking my effectiveness to communicate with children in a low grounded physically stable voice tonality, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand I am capable and able to do so. I realize and understand I have in fact proven to myself that I am able and capable of doing so. I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of creating justified and reasoned doubts within myself as like an excuse to exist within a point of reaction as opposed to standing within and as the living practicality of what is best for Life here. I commit myself to standing in and as the living practicality of what is best for Life here. I commit myself to gracefully step out out of mind fucks when and as I see myself momentarily engaged within a mind fuck. I commit myself to giving myself stability when and as I face moments of temporary instability. I commit myself to the process of self-perfection. I commit myself to/as effective communication.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that people require to be persuaded and influenced with positive energetic voice tonalities.



When and as I see myself believing that I require to influence someone with a positive voice tonality, I stop and breathe, I see and realize that I do not require to encourage energetic friction within and as my communication with fellow beings here. I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of trying to forge connections through and as the process of conflict and friction energies within myself where I do not in fact stand one and equal with the being I am communicating. I commit myself to regarding all beings here one and equal. I commit myself to stop looking to persuade and influence people with positive energies. I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of influencing myself and others with positive energy. I realize and understand the abuse and disregard for Life within channeling/spewing positive energetic responses within my communication here.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing people having temper tantrums.



When and as I see myself fearing someone having a temper tantrum, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand the practicality within stopping this fear immediately, as I see and realize how fearing someone having a temper tantrum in fact perpetuates inner turmoil within myself and in fact in no way practically supports myself or the other being in which I am communicating with. I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of fearing reactionary responses. I commit myself to immediately directing reactionary responses with grace, care and gentleness as I commit myself to becoming a real gentle man who cares for and regards all Life here as a care taker for what is here and what is to come here.


To Be Continued