Day 718 - Removing the Ego from Greatness, the Grounding Process

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into the point of big ego as a result of having good results within particular points of sharing/performance.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thirsting for the recognition as the praise within a job well done as like mastery in execution.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to mentally masturbate accepted and allowed suppression into a transmuted experience of Superiority that feels so good from the perspective of getting myself high within and as my very own self-induced trite.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the psychic vampirism within and as the accepted and allowed big ego reaction as getting high as a result of the actions/responses others share.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking the ultimate life and living is within and as the established status position within the world system as recognized fame and fortunate.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the absurd ridiculousness of ego.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for denying the inferiority which fuels the attitude of ego.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying the self-righteousness within ego as like believing that I am entitled to a positive high energetic buzz.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the pain and trauma as the self-inflicted self-abuse that exists within and as the reactionary play out of ego.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for bouncing around in reactionary polarity play as character personifications as either big or small ego...based upon the judgement of sizing myself up in relationship to others here as my ego competition for ultimate supremacy here as like the KingOfTheCastle, the One Winner.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having resisted to examine the reactionary positive energy high or big/super ego.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for suppressing the solidarity here as the relationship with all my peers here as the various reflections of myself as One and Equal as Everything here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating a dissonance within myself as an ego personality that is incomplete that cannot relate to all Life here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for denying the abuse of greed as ego.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being self-righteous in fighting for my very own limitation as the result of being defensive in relationship to other ego's here/

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for participating in sports and activities from the starting point of ego as like the encouragement of dissonance within myself for the potential moment of bliss that may result from existing as the great one winner for a brief moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to disregard all Life here within and as a result of being preoccupied with my own ego status in relationship to others ego status.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to thrive of the misfortune of others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being blinded within positive energy participation as a like a form of mental masturbation into a daze,

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to stumble and fumble around within a haze of positive energy feelings of disregard for the actually status and state of World affairs.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for dismissing accounting responsibility for myself as an able bodied being that is here that can support the stopping of bullshit here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing the propagated ego hero character that exists within our world that is like the status acceptance and allowance agreement that abusing life for an experience is is what this world is all about.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for just wanting to be a part of the big ego story here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for desiring and regarding to be well accepted and regarded by others as a result of doubting myself and believing that I can only trust myself if I have the trust of many others believing in me.  I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how fake this believed trust to be, when one rationalizes one's very own state of mind from a starting point of dissonance in relationship to Everything here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowiing myself to encourage the continuation of cognitive dissonance in our shared world.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for limiting my potential expressions here within the justification that it feels good to win at the expense of another feeling bad in loosing and that is just the way things are...so the decision is either abuse or be abused. I realize the absurd ridiculousness of the mentality of apathy, lack of self-trust, lack of self-confidence, and the lack of empathy and remorse.

When and as I see myself going into a energetic high experience in and as reaction to receiving positive feedback, I stop and breathe, I see the specifics of the point that exists as a dissonance within myself...I forgive myself for accepting and allowing such a dissonance to exist inside myself as the acceptance of myself as less than life here. I realign myself as self-regard as I care to make sure I effectively remove the contamination in my vocabulary and within this I reestablish the terms of agreement here as what is best for all life from the starting point of myself existence here as Oneness and Equality.  I realize and understand I am in the midst of the birthing process of myself actualization here as All as One as Equal. I commit myself to the humbling gratitude in seeing/realizing and physically learning to stand and walk and move in always that are best for all of Life here.

I commit myself to stopping apathy.

I commit myself to living self-trust.

I commit myself to living self-confidence.

I commit myself to empathy.

I commit myself to compassion and remorse.

I realize the practical application of not allowing myself to be consumed within any point, because that is not practical in supporting my ability to live responsibility here.

I commit myself to exposing the ridiculousness of the ego games here.

I commit myself to educate on the character dynamics of ego.

I commit myself to stop perpetuating our culture of psychic vampirism.

I commit myself to removing the ego from Greatness and grounding myself within the earth here as commitment to Life.

Day 669 - Work and Play

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having a negative energetic charge in relationship to Work.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having a positive energetic charge in relationship to Play.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that I can counteract Work having a negative energetic charge by attaching Play to work with a positive energetic charge.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating a sort of neutral energetic relationship with regards to work and play.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having a preference towards play over work.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating opposition towards work in play...as like having these words existing within me as opposing forces.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for desiring Work to be Play.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for struggling to always have a harmonious balance between work and and play.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to give up play time in order to take on more work time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing the responsibility of creating more work for myself and less play.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that for work to exist without play is for work to exist without enjoyment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to require to work without having enjoyment within the work that I am doing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating conflict within my effectiveness in maximizing my working potential as a result of having a preference towards spending my time playing sports/games.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having always the idea that I should look to minimize the amount of work I do and maximize the amount of time I play.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to resist exercising my working potential.

I forgive myself for being in opposition towards work.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for connecting work to a point of survival that I have to do.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting upset that I live in a reality where work is required and to a certain degree enforced as a necessity...while at the same time play is not regarded as being an equal necessity.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging myself for creating so much play time for myself when in fact I live in a world where a tremendous amount of abuse and suffering exists...and that there is much work to be done in order to remediate the situation to an optimum/harmonious balance of both work and play.

I realize that in order for the World in which I live to get to a point of assistance and support for all life to have an optimum and harmonious balance of work and play requires a tremendous amount of work.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to let go of leisurely pursuits so that I can take on more Working responsibilities.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding the opportunity that exists for me to Work as a Leader within the Wold System.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having the attitude that I don't really want the responsibility of having to work very much and that I would rather focus on having free time for myself to be playing and learning how to play better.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having a procrastination attitude towards Work and within this directly comparing Work to Play...as like Work being of less value to me than Play time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being apprehensive about creating Work for myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having a preference for only engaging myself within Work that doesn't really seem like Work and could be definitely be regarded as Play.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having judgment about myself as being selfish from the perspective of only really regarding myself and no other life within not wanting to Work and and Wanting to Play as much as Possible.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that even looking at this point of creating more Work and Responsibility for myself is stupid...and like why would anyone want to create more work for themselves.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for dismissing the need for me to be a Working Professional within the World System and that I do not really require to be educated within the various professional fields of study because there is already so many professionals working within the various fields of study...and thus there is already, seemingly more than enough people Working.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for when I was a child, creating this idea about not really needing to contribute to society because there is already so many people contributing to the way society functions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for abdicating my self-responsibility for the ways in which I function/participate within society.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for logically reasoning as a child that I do not require to involve myself within a position of importance or significance within society because there is already so many people looking after these positions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having some shame and judgement about acknowledging my resistances to taking on Work and dedicating myself to laboring the facilitation of great change within Our World System that is best for all Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not pushing myself as hard as I am physically able to push myself within Laboring great change within the Word System.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist as a sort of outcast in the word system from the perspective of deliberately minimizing my Work/Labor within the world system.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to take responsibility for the World System that I participate within.


To Be Continued