Day 772 - Life is a StandUp Comedy

 



It's funny you know, when you really get something, like you totally got it. I mean it's that moment of aha that can turn into a real hahahaha ohhh man that's funny, that's rich, that's just so great. pure gold. So money.

See, our lives are like an ever evolving learning process of self-expansion and recognition here, and we are all ways the butt of the joke. I mean we are the source of it all. We are in the house of mirrors and everything exists within ourselves and is mirrored outward as our external reality.

It's interesting to see, when we go for prolonged amounts of time without any relief... I mean, like, just perpetuating a build up of our own self-induced stress that we blame and judge and really believe it's all out there, outside of ourselves. So in a lot of ways, this is not so funny...and that is precisely the point....the knot in the funny....the knot in the fun, because we are too tightly wound, taking ourselves way too seriously, not recognizing the jokes, the points, the learning lessons, the mistakes, the problems and the solutions.

See, it's interesting; Self-honesty through accepting and allowing ourselves to be vulnerable with ourselves here,...our self-in-to-me-I-see...our self-intimacy, the taking the time to look, to care, to in fact recognize the bits of things that are happening within ourselves here.

See, these 'bits' are the jokes....and it's interesting, because everybody has so many bits here, I mean, we are always working with bits of information, and so much so it's in these moments of working with information...and there's a plethora of ways in which this is so...the amounts of varying relationship dynamics is tremendous.  The jokes, the fun, the funny, is the balancing act of not taking ourselves too seriously within and as the work we are engaged within, because we are at work all the time so to speak...our very design is as a working body here,  i mean our body doesnt take a vacation every few days,.., it's an all the time thing.

So, in having some laughs while we work, while we share, while we converse, while we play, we allow ourselves to learn and grow...we are creating a natural learning environment for ourselves within ourselves by allowing ourselves to recognize our accepted and allowed moments of ridiculousness. I mean wow, if we really have a look...it's like so often we are missing out on the fun and the funny because we are not being self-honest with ourselves here. Faking to be cool when in fact that isn't really cool.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to play it cool when shit is not all cool.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating a too prolonged build up within myself without getting to the punch line, the joke recognition, seeing the ridiculousness that i have accepted and allowed.

I realize it's kind of funny to exist as a living joke and to within and as the joke, forget that,.. Tag, I am It.  Like, oh shit, I totally forgot what the fuck i was doing.....what i have been doing....oh man...fuck.  Looking back at my set, as my acceptances and allowances that are ridiculously unacceptable it's like wow talk about bombing. Wait no, don't say bomb if you are being recorded....oh shit is this blog being recorded....lolol.  But seriously, butt butt butt...we are the shit....the whole spectrum of it, it's like we got a giant ball of shit here, the planet and it's a matter of shit management, i mean shit, take a regard of the fact that if you don't move the shit through your body on a regular basis, you are going to fucking die,...maybe through explosion, maybe not.  Point being here, is that I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to forget that I am always working and playing with a bit of some sorts, because that's the standup comedy life process here.

I realize it isn't to say, we must deliberate be fuckup's in order to be funny and have fun....no that would be dumb. Everyone is already a fuckup, Obviously myself included.  It's to self-honestly allow ourselves to recognize our weakness and to turn them into strengths, and to allow ourselves to play with these points of self-development.  Allowing ourselves to be cool in walking a point of weakness into a strength. Allowing ourselves to enjoy the journey/ride/adventure within and as our natural learning abilities here.

It's funny,

When we allow ourselves to be too hard on ourselves,

It's like we are deliberately creating a Hard-On within our minds,

You know,

A throbbing erection to mind fuck the shit out of ourselves with...

and it's like,

every time we allow ourselves to be hard on ourselves about something, it's like we are creating a new big dick inside ourselves,

as another big dick example to fuck ourselves with.

Excuse my Dick humor here,

I'm just dicking around.

Because you know,

it's kind of funny,

I mean realizing the extent to which we fuck ourselves is tragic,

Tragic comedy,

A divine comedy if you will,

because there is so much learning in store,

I mean we are all such a wealth of storage...

and it just so happens that sharing our realizations has the capacity to be both fun and funny.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold back on showing myself the funny here, as the moments/points of ridiculousness that I have accepted and allowed.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to forget to look at the ridiculousness of myself within my acceptances and allowances as the source of funny.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to suppress the fun and funny I have within myself that is at the core of my being here.  I realize and understand that the fun and the funny are here for everyone, we are all a part of it, and it is in fact best shared as like we are each the story teller, and what's cool about a good story is the fun and the funny along the way.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to take it easy within recognizing difficult things I have accepted and allowed.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for choosing to create a fearful frame of mind when I am faced with points that are challenging.  I realize that is ridiculousness, because going into a fearful mind state when things are difficult and unfamiliar, does not really assist and support oneself to move with a sort of effortless ease as the presentation of our in fact developed response abilities as the ways in which we are skilled and versed in movement.

I commit myself to sharing my process of life standup comedy.

I commit myself to encouraging others to share their life process of standup comedy.

I commit myself to share points of relationship that are easily relate-able, so that the fun and funny can be had by all.

I commit myself to educating through sharing stories/jokes of trials and tribulations.

I commit myself educating myself about others by being interested in listening to their stories of trials and tribulations.

I commit myself to being open minded.

When and as I see myself having difficulty communicating with someone, I stop and breathe, I have a giggle as I recognize I have been fucking myself unintentionally....which is pretty ridiculous....i mean to fuck yourself and not realize how you are fucking yourself is pretty fucking questionable...I mean what the fuck is going on!  SO, I recognize the specifics of the mind fuck, and I forgive myself and correct the discrepancy within myself as the point of conflict/friction/blockage that i had been brewing/building within myself.  I let it go.  I open up my ability to relate here. I see for real what is here,  I allow myself to return into and as Flow Here, by being completely open and at ease within myself here.


I commit myself to being a pillar of support in communicating with others.

I commit myself to gratitude within and as the process sharing of words here.

I commit myself to many daily word exchanges.

I commit myself to treasuring each and every word exchange.

I realize word exchanges are kind of like the stock exchanges...because words are instruments here of tremendous value.

I commit myself to cherishing my words and the words of others.

I commit myself to see the assistance and support in words always all ways.

Day 696 - Discipline

Throughout my life I have had mixed emotions in relationship to the word "Discipline."


Discipline started out as something to be feared. My parents were the Administrators of Discipline. As far as I understood....Discipline was only something terrible as a form of punishment that I would associate as being like a kind of torture that would be done unto me in some capacity as a result of my "misbehavior" according to the Administrators of Discipline....aka....my parents.


So, Discipline and I did not get a long. I did not like Discipline. As far as I was concerned, Discipline could go fuck itself and die...for I would have been satisfied with no more dispensing of Discipline from the Administrators of Discipline...aka...my parents.


Note, for the record here....No blame is being pointed at the Administrators of Discipline Here...this is a Story about my Relationship with Discipline. The Word...


So, not until I became wayyyyyyyyyyyyy older than my first receiving of Discipline as an apparent method of Torture employed by my parents...aka...my Authorities...

Now in all fairness, I do not recall my Authorities....I mean my parents ever once mentioning that they were Disciplining me as a method of Torture. No, the informed me that I was receiving Discipline as a form of Punishment as a method to instill in me regard/respect for the behavior/actions that was required and to be expected of me from my parents....

What's interesting is that Discipline often arose as a result of my unexpected behavior and was seen as a method of remediating behavior that my parents did not like...that was not appropriate in and as their judgement. Granted....perhaps some of my behavior was outlandish...

So Discipline had become quite the resistance movement within me....to the point where my mobility was in rebellion to my parents in and as Defense of Discipline...meaning, my relationship with my parents developed to a point of no regard....no regard from the perspective that I stopped listening to them. Sort of. I would hear what they would say....and I would deliberately side with the point that they were in opposition towards. Meaning if they thought some idea was particularly good....it was therefore bad to me. 

What is fascinating about the playout of my reactionary defensive conflicted relationship with my parents is that I wasn't really consciously aware of how I was existing in a perpetual state of reaction in relationship to the existence of my parents.



To Be Continued

Day 695 - Torture

Let's look at the word "torture" for a moment:

The action or practice of inflicting severe pain on someone as a punishment or to force them to do or say something, or for the pleasure of the person inflicting the pain.

Great physical or mental suffering or anxiety.

A cause of suffering or anxiety

Inflict severe pain on.

Cause great mental suffering or anxiety to.


Synonyms of torture include:

abuse, ill-treatment, maltreatment, persecution, sadism, torment, agony, suffering, pain, anguish, misery, distress, heartache, affliction, scourge, trauma, wretchedness, hell, purgatory, harrow, agonize, crucify


The reason I bring up the commonly accepted dictionary definitions of torture is because I noticed within myself that I had kind of disregarded the severity of a lot of the synonymous associations to torture here, as well as the points of mental suffering and anxiety.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting to take self-responsibility for torture.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for distancing myself from torture by taking on the belief that torture is only something that really happens in a far away secretive place where government or military agents are torturing a terrorist as a means of getting them to confess certain information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that torture is something that only happens to very few unfortunate people.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking nothing the phrases...."stop torturing your mother"....or "stop torturing your brother"....or "stop torturing him/her"...or "Why do you have to torture him/her, you know it provokes them?"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking amusement from torture.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for deliberately provoking others into uncomfortable situations because I believe it is good for them.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that torture is good for some people...like they really need to learn things that most unfortunate way.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying torture.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that torture from the perspective of deliberately triggering strong emotions and discomforts within others isn't really torture.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to dismiss actions that deliberately provoke and stir up emotion within others without providing any frame work of support in order to remove/remediate/correct emotional disposition.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have tortured myself within incessant thought/feeling/emotion participation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understand judgement to be a form of torture.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to torture myself within self-judgement and self-comparisons.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for torturing myself within and as my accepted and allowed backchat about anything and everything.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing a relationship with torture to exist within myself where I accept and allow torture to as a justifiable action.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for compromising my relationship with myself and others as a result of accepting and allowing the validation of torture to exist within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting and disregarding myself and all all Life here within and as the justification for the existence of torture.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding the extent to which our world system perpetuates torture.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for nor realizing and understanding the inherent nature of my mind in thriving off of the acceptance and allowance of torture.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how polarized energetic word relationships contribute and perpetuate the existence of self-torture within one's mind/body relationship....as an unfortunate out flowing consequence of the accepted and allowed input.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for manipulating myself and others with torture tactics from the perspective of deliberately invoking anxiety and angst within another.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to become addicted to torture.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being inconsiderate to others who are being tortured by themselves and their relationships with others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting compassion for humanity.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which humanity tortures itself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the mistreatment of humanity.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying the mistreatment and torture of humanity.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to ignore and excuse the torture of animals.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying the torture of animals as being necessary for the benefit of humanity.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for rationalizing the existence of torture.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for torturing others within and as my deliberately intense interrogation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to torture myself within and as the acceptance and allowance of subtle thoughts that seem so right.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to torture myself within harboring opinions about others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing it to be necessary and normal to participate in assumptions, judgments, opinions about others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for torturing myself within reacting to information....and believing it necessary for me to react.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which torture exists here in our shared reality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not even regarding the design or torture here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for ignoring the torture that exists here.

I forgive myself for justifying the denial of the existence of torture here because it is something that is very negative and I believe it is better to focus on the positive.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for perpetuating the existence of a negative world as a result of believing it is better to focus on the positive.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for dismissing accountability and responsibility for actively disengaging torturous acceptances and allowances here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being conditioned to torture as being a normal part of life on our planet.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having resisted to really reflect upon the point of torture.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for dismissing my mind/body relationship within and as the word torture.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding abuse within language as a point of seemingly invisible violence. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing  myself for not realizing and understanding a toxic tortuously toxic vocabulary

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go along with the torture that exists in our shared reality, by not speaking up.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how cruel and inhumane the design of our shared world system in fact is.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being fearful of torture to such an extent that I would submit and suppress the expression of myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding torture to exist as like a fear derivative.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have been manipulated by torturous tactics.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to manipulate others with torturous tactics.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the relationship with torture and schadenfreude.


When and as I see myself about to engage myself in torturous activity, I stop and breathe, I see/realize and understand the unacceptable abuse and disregard that torture is in fact. I realize that torture is reacted out in many different ways. I commit myself to let go of reactions by grounding them into the earth with the awareness of my breath here as the recognition and acknowledgement of knowing what is and isn't best for Life.

I commit myself to sharing insight and perspective about the extent to which we humans have collectively accepted and allowed a World of torture to exist here as our shared reality and planet.

I commit myself to assisting and supporting the transformation of a prison planet world system to that of and as Heaven on Earth as the presentation of what is best for all Life.

I commit myself to sharing my vision of playground planet earth.

I commit myself to stop the existence of Torture.

I commit myself to providing realizations about the ridiculousness of torture.



In looking at the word torture....

it's like "to right you are.....too right you are....the self-righteous staunch of justification/spite/retribution/revenge/belief/security/control/programming/conditioning... torture...torch her...an ultimate burn....it's like an act of killing...if you consider the trauma that can be associated with torture...it's like killing someone's beingness whether they actually totally physically die or not, because if a being is so traumatized....it's like you/they are already dead inside....like a serious stuckness....where it's like this constant shaking of instability and insecurity....where it's like being so broken and compartmentalized into these tiny pieces....yet in actuality you are the sum of all the pieces...


I commit myself to stop perpetuating an existence of Torture.

I commit myself to the prevention of Torture.

Day 686 - Christmas Irony

"...The Spoiling of Our gifting Inheritance opportunities Here" (Mike McDonald - Day 685-The Interconnectedness of Good and Bad)

Let me begin by sharing some common synonyms associated with the word "Irony":

Sarcasm
Causticity
Cynicism
Mockery
Satire
Sardonic
Paradox
Incongruity
Incongruousness

There are 2 Very Common Antonyms associated with the word "Irony":

Sincerity
Logic

The roots of the word Irony, As well as "Socratic Irony"stem from the early 16th century via Latin from Greek.

See earlier meanings as:

'Simulated Ignorance'

and

'Dissembler'


Let us now look at commonly accepted definitions of Irony:

The expression of one's meaning by using language that normally signifies the opposite, typically for humorous or emphatic effect.

A state of affairs or an event that seems deliberately contrary to what one expects and is often amusing as a result.

A literary technique, originally used in Greek tragedy, by which the full significance of a character's words or actions are clear to the audience or reader although unknown to the character.


Do You Realize the Christmas Irony?

The "Christmas Irony" is but one example outflow of the Irony that exists here.

Whether You realize the "Christmas Irony" or not may reflect your "Character" here...as your participation within your acceptances and allowances here. Note the third common definition of irony listed above in italics. This definition can also be referred to as 'dramatic irony'.

The Irony of "Christmas" is that we are the very Butt of the Joke....and the popular funny of the times...is a most unfortunate, tragic comedy....a reflection of our historical origins.....re-gifting....a re-cycling...a re-presenting...if you will of the acceptances and allowances of the regard/lack-of-regard of the Human Condition...and for the Value of All Life Here.

Here are some Socratic Irony Exemplification!

Isn't it better that the sentiments of "Christmas"...you know, 'the spirit of giving'...and, 'good timing and good cheer'....are only a 1 day out of the year living?

I can't imagine how problematic the world would be if everyday was like "Christmas"....Can You? It would be so difficult to perpetuate the upkeep of War.

There are a lot of cool values/principles associated with "Christmas"...I wonder if we Humans as a species, really lived and honored such principles daily....what would happen?

There's not enough time to have "Christmas everyday"...I mean, there's a different amount of hours in a day on Christmas....isn't there?

Do You think Heaven on Earth...if there were to be an everyday heaven on earth....that, it would reflect something along the lines of the most amazing Christmas story ever...where all Life was presented and regarded here...and shared and valued as the gift giving self-expressions we are?

Must there exist an equal relationship of Very Good and Very Bad?

How special a time of the year is Christmas generally regarded as?

Would you say that typically every other day, shares the same "specialness" as Christmas?

Isn't it interesting how a 'holiday' such as "Christmas" can be organized in such a way to accommodate a rather relaxed work day?

Is it impossible to imagine a constant giving and receiving experience? Like, where there is a continuous movement and momentum as the flow of the go continuing in and as what is going on....as a harmonious playing and working together that is a seemingly endless production that is Awesome in Magnificence as the marveling gratitude being the accepted and allowed great attitude accommodating the value and regard for all Life here?

Do You See any Christmas Irony in the Current Human Conditioning as Our Wold System Collective Expression?

Notice there is an "Awe" about Awesome and Awful. Awful is like the overdose of Awesome...like the consequence of a serious dissonance....extreme wealth and extreme poverty for example.....a too muchness if you will.....where destruction is the result.

Isn't Awesome Construction much more sustainable and a logically sound investment when and as you consider the alternative to Awesome construction, being the awful truth constriction which is filled with irony....as the holy shit realizations...as the current tragic comedy here?

Remember, As you celebrate this Merry Merry Christmas...what an absurdly ridiculous joke you are....Now it is very very important not to rebel against Christmas....because the only thing more absurdly ridiculous than something that is absurdly ridiculous...Is fighting against something that is absurdly ridiculous....because in doing that you perpetuate and substantiate the ridiculous absurdity...and actually fuel the existence....of the most unfortunate tragic comedy you wish to remedy.

Stand Equal and One with the Joke You are.

Never forget,

You are a Joke!

Haha

Joker.

Make it a good one....the balance between good to bad is out of wack.....

Creative Cool Please!

Regurgitating Repeating isn't working unless it's working...and how many times do you really want to regurgitate the same shit? or Wait...isn't that the point....to regurgitate shit...as like the way to keep on feeding and feeding Bullshit?

Pardon my Shit, lets Substantiate it.

Merry Self-Forgiveness ! ?

Day 678 - Effort

Continuing from, Day 677 - Effort-full


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting caught within the polarization of the word Effort from the perspective of trying to decide which is better of worse...things to require effort or without effort....like effort-full or effortless.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for associating effort with movement...and within this attaching a negative charge...where I have created a resistance to actually moving myself within points as a result of believing and experience negative emotion towards requiring effort to actually move myself within things.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having polarized my effort participations....where I have been effort-full in various applications....working very hard. And, in many other instances....doing almost nothing...virtually putting in no effort into particular relationship developments and living responsibilities. The contrast of doing my best work and my worst work....where it's like maximum effort in some applications and a most minimal effort in other applications....as like the very bare minimum.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have created a fight or flight type of survival relationship with the word "effort"...where it's like...OK...I will live/give effort if I believe it is absolutely necessary from the perspective of my immediate and relatively near future depends upon it....so like if I believe my survival is threatened....than it;s like I thrive in doing what I believe to be necessary. Otherwise....I believe...what is the bother....I don't really require to move....because no imminent threat/consequence that will jeopardize my immediate and relatively soon future survival.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for participating in a relationship with Effort from the perspective of short sightedness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the difficulty within actually and practically living a word effectively, when and as the word has emotional connotations rooted in the fear for survival.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I had impaired my full potential to express and live my best efforts as a result of justifying whether or not I should exercise my best efforts within my sharing and caring for myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the sharing and caring that encompasses the practical daily living application of Effort.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being negligent in my relationship towards practically living Effort.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being shocked with the absurd ridiculousness of actually seeing how I make believed a condition of learning impairment....where my actual effectiveness in learning and expressing myself was dependent upon my emotional disposition.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having resistance to living Effort as always best for Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for abusing myself and others as a result of neglecting to live Effort in always Best always all ways.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the absurd ridiculousness of actually making an effort to avoid effort in life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing the irony within making a big Effort about Effort.

When and as I see myself faced with a moment where I am resisting to apply Effort, I stop and breathe....I see/realize and understand that I am faced with a moment where I have the opportunity to learn from my mistake and actually correct/remediate a contaminated relationship towards a particular point. I create the perfect correction as a result of giving forth my best effort in taking responsibility to do what needs to be done.

I commit myself to sharing my realizations about Effort and my past relationship suppressions within and as the point of Effort.

I commit myself to expanding my practical living application of Effort.

I commit myself to growing my expression of Effort.

I realize my Effort is the strength of my overall character here, both inside and outside.

I realize my self-responsibility to live/give my best Efforts...And, I realize Sharing and Caring are Paramount for Life Sustainability Here.

I commit myself to Life Sustainability as the Effort required to practically live/express/give as I would like to receive the realization that Sharing and Caring is Paramount Here.

I commit myself to Sharing and Caring as Paramount Here.

I commit myself to practically live to give....realizing that Life self-expression as who I am here is in and as the gifting.

I realize a strong depth of gratitude for the effort I have put into writing Self-Forgiveness.

Day 450 Family

This is a continuation from my previous post where I opened up the point of "family" and brought forth a big picture perspective and consideration about the word "family" being all that is Here as everything Here is Part of and as the Earth/Life Family.



What I would like to share now, is some self-forgiveness in regards to "Family":



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding as a result of not considering all Life within the equation of being part of the word family.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting and disregarding the well-being of family.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging and comparing and belittling my family.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for holding onto grudges against family members.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for separating myself from parts of my family/Life?Earth.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having created a hierarchy of family importance as like believing and perceiving some family members to be more valuable and important and within this consideration, consequently neglecting and disregarding many family members.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting the point of understanding that my relationships with immediate family members in my environment reflects that which I accept and allow within myself...and therefore my immediate family member relationships are like keys for me to see me in and as self reflection as what I have accepted on a small scale...and therefore reflect the larger picture of what and why the world as a whole is the way it is.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for deliberately being nasty to family.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be in conflict with family.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to take family interactions and communications personally.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having resisted having patience with family.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having polarized the word family.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having deliberately tried to alienate myself from family.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to manipulate family.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be victimized by family.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having feared family judgment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the simplicity of existing here with everyone as part of my family.


I commit myself to regarding Everything/Everyone as part of the Earth Family

Journey to life, Day 2, Family

Ok, so it was my brother from the same mother's birthday yesterday and it is my father's birthday today.  A couple of immediate family birthdays.  Why do I say immediate family? Well, when I laboured my way down the birth canal, I was welcomed by my mom and dad. Two years later, I was here to welcome my younger brother with my mom and my dad. This same process happened two more times. So immediate-family in the sense that we beings would be living in the same shared space..under the same roof.  Note the emphasis on, "under the same roof".  When we are born,..we are immediately here with everyone here.  It's like I was here before I was so called birthed here out of the womb...it's like I moved from darkness to light....inside...to outside. How was my body created? Well, my dad's dick was inside my mom's vagina...and abra kadabra like arts and crafts...a seed and an egg came together...the egg being kinda like the soil...and the seed being kinda like the tree...that made me into a tree of life so to speak...I mean metaphorically speaking as I like to use metaphors as that is why I say like soooo very much.

Ok, so, i'm ranting and raving all over here about family and the process of becoming family and haha I'm giggling about what I just wrote, "the process of becoming family" as this is my 7yr writing process to nothingness so to speak...as well, We are all here and therefore All here as/with/in/on Earth are Family as One and Equal. It's like everyone has the same name,..first name: Oneness  middle name: And  last name: Equality

LoL! Oneness And Equality. That's You and Me and All that be as All beings here are Oneness And Equality.

So, believing that I'm not related to every Oneness And Equality is ridiculous because Everyone is Oneness and Equality.  Our Family name is therfore, Oneness And Equality. We are all Family Relatives.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising that All here is my Relatives.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for separating myself from my Relatives.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that some Relatives are more special than other Relatives.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that everyone is not related.
I forgive myself for not realising the simplicity of Oneness And Equality.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fighting  family.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating war with family.
I forgive myself for not realising the whole Family is Here as each Being, Oneness And Equality.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging and comparing  Family against Family.
I forgive myself for not realising that each member of  Family, Here, is Oneness And Equality and that Comparing Oneness and Equality against Oneness And Equality is ridiculous because each Being is Oneness And Equality.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising the absolute awesomeness of Oneness and Equality.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising the awesomeness of awesomeness as the awe-so-me-nest.  ahhahaha cool. Got it!

I realise the absolute awesomeness as the awe-so-me-nest of Oneness and Equality.
I realise that All Here is my Family Relatives.
I realise I am not separate from my Family Relatives.
I realise Earth is our One Nest Equal It Why..as Oneness and Equalit is the Life Policy.
I realise there is no superiority/inferiority within the Oneness And Equality Family
I realise the simplicity of Oneness And Equality.
I realise that creating war/fights with my family implies creating war/fights with myself.
I realise the ridiculousness of fighting myself.
I realise that my whole Family is Being Here as Oneness And Equality
I realise that each member of my Family Here is Oneness And Equality and that Comparing Oneness and Equality against Oneness And Equality is ridiculous because each Being is Oneness And Equality.

I Forgive myself for not realising the labour required to birth myself as Physical Oneness And Equality Here.
I fogive myself for not realising the extent of the labour process for each being to finish the birthing process as Physical Oneness and Equality Here.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging the birthing process for Physical Oneness And Equality Here.
I forgive myself for not realising Life birthed from the Physical as Physical Oneness And Equality as the 1 + 1 + 1.....etc...etc..accumulation effect as Life birthed from and as the Physical is the result of self-willed individual labor/labour....meaning, Each being must birth themself as Life....Obviously there will be great assistance and support to facilitate the birthing process as Life as all-ways support allways as what is best for Everyone as Oneness And Equality.

I realise the labour required to birth myself as Physical Oneness And Equality Here.
I realise the extent of the labour process for each being to finish the birthing process as Physical Oneness and Equality Here.
I realise Life birthed from the Physical as Physical Oneness and Equality as the 1 + 1 + 1...etc...etc..accumulation effect as Life birthed from and as the Physical is the result of self-willed individual labor/labour...meaning, Each being must birth themself as Life...obviously there will be great assistance and support to facilitate the birthing process as Life as all-ways support always as what is best for Everyone as Oneness And Equality.

When and as I see myself judging my family, I stop, I breathe and I realise the ridiculousness of judging the intensive labour process as I realise judgment creates labour complications and it is best for everyone to keep the labour as simple as possible as nobody likes labour that's made more complicated than it needed to be.

I forgive myself for not realising the consequence that judgement manifests as labour complications to birthing Life from and as the Physical Here.

I realise the consequence that judgement manifests as labour complications to birthing Life from and as the Physical Here.

When and as I see me/you participating in judgement, I stop, I breathe and I take responsibility for the judgement by sharing my insight about judgement and the manifested labour complications that judgement causes...which is unnecessary abuse which makes labour pains more intensive.

I commit myself to birthing myself as Life from and as the Physical as will assist and support the faciliation of Life birthed from and as the Physical.

Labour doesnt stop untill the process is done. Lets alleviate as much labour complications as possible. An Equal Money System will assist and support the Labour/Labor process.