Day 781 - Go for It - The Movement and Moment of Doing

Taking the Time Here to Recognize the Act of Making something Happen....You know, that moment of Doing, That moment where you make the decision to move yourself for yourself....you know, because you see a possible play here and you want to make it work.....So, You go for it.

Now, timing is a funny thing in the act and moment of doing...because we play/work in time and it's the fine tuning of our actions in time that assists us in seeing the results of our creations here.  See, there is so many ways for us to move ourselves and some ways are more efficient and others are less efficient...and some just are not in relation to being efficient or inefficient....they just are simply what they are and there is no competition or friction about the play and working of oneself in motion here.

I'm recognizing a correlation within myself with regards to my attitude in mind and my ability to move myself physically. Like, specifically....what I mean is the me here within and as my Beingness here as the Player who exists within and as both Body and Mind...but is also the decision maker...and word regulator.....sound technician..the story writer author of my movement/physical life here.

Writing with this regard towards physical movment, sounds kind of strange and sort of obscure....because it's like a mind fuck of sorts that comes up within me...like this conscious thinking that i've always been moving myself this whole time...this whole life of mine.....But the reality  and truth of myself is in fact a lie of sorts, because I have come to understand that me as the Being Player here hasn't always been calling the shots and making the plays for myself here....it's like I've been taking orders from myself as my mind as consciousness/ego, a lesser version of the best of myself here as my Beingness Signature and Expression in every movement and moment.

I had a my weakness come through in my mind this evening as the thoughts about how I could let slide my writing of my blog this evening.  The fact of the matter here as me from the core of my Being here, is that I really do enjoy expressing myself through writing....I enjoy the flow of connecting my sounds through the addition of words in and as the formation of sentences coming together to share the flow that exists within and as the inside of me outside as like a sort of weather and temperature thing....the waterfall that is me. Hmmm, maybe i need to play and work within this temperature thing as the water that is me....that sounding of how that came out doesnt seem quite right....but hey maybe that's because there is an inkling of an inclination to stop myself and censor myself from actually moving myself within and as my words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to stop myself from moving/living my potential as a result of not realizing and understanding the mechanics of  my mind consciousness programming where I talk myself out of doing/moving and continue within and as thinking within and as mind consciousness. I realize I am in the process of getting to know myself for real....because it's like to a certain extent as I aged throughout my life here...i learned to cover myself up and hide the truth of myself as like my Beingness sound signature here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear being made fun of and being embarassed as a result of sounding unfamiliar and or out of tune with what is typically already known and obvious within and as basic programmed predicatable behavior.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to resist stepping outside of my comfort zone from the perspective of expanding my potential and my life as my home here...as like the movement of myself here within and as how i challenge myself-development here.  I commit myself to learning.  I commit myself to making improvements within and as my work and play time here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to understand and know the truth of myself here as words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to sabotage myself within and as my words from and as the perspective of Ego Mind Consciousness as the real disregard for my well Being Here in and as my physical Body.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to neglect awareness for myself within and as word and world here as my vocabulary and my physicality here...as like all is part of my self/flesh here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge the amount of times I make a mistake before I got the point within myself as a complete knowing and understanding that I can share and explain the various relationship dynamics/mechanics of and as the various states of motion that one can experience within and as the mistake where one reacts within  one of the many realms of intenseness as a result and consequence of our emotional outflow....where we are in fact allowing ourselves to be self-victimized by our very own reactions of Ego.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to Fear letting my ego go.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not now what it is like to live always without  the thoughts of self-sabotage as the thinking my way out of doing something.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing nor understanding how the trap of my mind as ego within and as consciousnesses energy was to over think things for myself...as the specifics of talking my way out of actually doing anything....because you see...I am quite capable and able to talk my walk as i write myself here...and the fact of the matter is....that as I write...I see myself here for real...is like as I write...I can hear myself loud and clear...as like the me that has always been here...yearning to be heard as the voice that has been suppressed in favor of self-suppression as the fear ego mantra of submission in energy patterned behavior of various dimensions of polarized constructions, also know as the war between good and evil picked from the tree of knowledge.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand myself as the Tree here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to pick on myself and others from and as the starting point of bullying where I cut myself down as like not allowing myself to grow and develop where I have the potential to branch out and blossom in a whole assortment of ways that are seemingly unimaginable.  I realize myself here as a tree. I realize to see myself as what I previous could not perceive myself as, is a great assistance in expanding my perspective and perception of and as my capacity for developing my very own personal self-responsibility.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing nor understanding the terror of self-inferiorization....as the parasitic vampire like self-inflicted condition of twisting and turning words around within the mind to reflect the feeling and or emotion of the moment...and to be so convinced that is the totality of myself ability in the moment that I don't want to even question my status update, because the fear of not being real is so real that desire and urge to be accepted by anyone other than myself is so great....because ironically, the definition of authority has been transmuted outside of self...myself here.  I commit myself to re-establishing myself here as Authority and Author of myself here as the Director of myself here,,,and I commit myself to share with others how self-direction is a matter of self-regard and the willingness to speak for real on behalf of yourself here making a stand for all life here as one and equal.

I commit myself  to stop slacking off in regard for my words here...and within this i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to isolate myself into inaction as a result and consequence of fearing  the moment of moving myself within and as the practical application of myself living words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand my creative capacity for self-developing solutions that are great.

 I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear my potential here as a creative solution developer.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to disregard...and really disassociate myself with the word "Developer"

I commit myself to playing and working with the word  "Developer".

I commit myself to delving...and diving into and as the practical living of my potential within and as the word "developer"


To Be Continued

Day 753 Consistency and Moderation - A Complimentary and Practical Living Arrangement,,,Like a Fine Tune

 



When you take two things that are good and you pair them together, the potential increases....like a good investment....You know this...and I mean the song gets better....it's like adding depth to the pool you are swimming in.  It's fun to begin wading around in shallow waters...like a wading pool....I mean it's a cool place to play around within....though, that is not all there is.  Potential exists beyond the shallow waters of the wading pool.

Word Relations are a lot like the 'wading pool' analogy I present here. Though, that is not all they are.  Like for instance when you pair words together to create the specificity of your sentencing...the potential to increase the depth of your pool exists.  I mean words are like the water to swim with and within. And the words are like the giving ourselves depth to move about in so many ways as the expressions of ourselves that exist within and as ourselves here.

The better we trust ourselves to work and play with our words here....the more expansive our swimming pool gets...and ironically enough our response ability to play and work as our sound expression here, becomes more clear, as a finely tuned clearly defined shape....as we exercise/drive/sculpt/draw our formations together as a reflection of and as our-self standing here as Collaborator...a worker and player here.

So much so, the way I like to look at things here is from the perspective of expansive potential possibility.  This I see is the depth of the water to swim in that exists our Expression/Flow/Opportunity here as Creation Creators.

Movement is Dynamic.

There is a definite momentum to movement.

Words are movement.

Words are moving and standing still as sounds structurally sound. A fascinating surety here indeed. I mean there is a reflexive responsibility about words and at the same time there is a firmness holding on together about words. This seeing about words stems from the branches/roots that are parts/pieces of the Tree of Self/Life here as who we are as Sound.

There is so much more to say....

The orchestra of word arrangements is a timeless classic.


For the moment here, lets pay particular attention and regard to the acknowledgement and appreciation of:

Consistency and Moderation....together in unison....as the complimentary relationship pairing here that bodes well for the composer who combines these harmonies here in playing and working out various notes that make up the masterpiece that is the inevitable Greatness of Life living arrangements Here.



To Be Continued as I provide more specific direction into and as the diving board for the deep dive.

Day 717 - The Order of Things

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having a warped sense of order from the perspective of disregard for and as the Equality and Oneness of all Life here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that if things are ordered in a particular way than they cannot be regarded and ordered in another way that is equally great.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating orders as like codes and commands within my mind from a starting point of conflict and friction where the point of war is encouraged as a polarized energetic work and play that is out of sync.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for dismissing my ability to remediate myself as the words that exist within me and that come up inside me from moment to moment as thoughts, words, deeds.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being selective in establishing a value order of worth to the words/thoughts/deeds that come up within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to over value and under value the equality and oneness of the relationships as words/thoughts/deeds that exist within and as me here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself play out bodily reactions as my thoughts/words/deeds as like having a mind and personality of their own as like separate from who I really am...which is kind of interesting in and of itself, because for a dissonance to exist in thought/word/deed as mind/body//being relationship here than this is quite ridiculously absurd. I mean it's like a triangle trying to move in one direction together by always pulling and pushing against each point as like never creating a continuous harmonious and melodic flow.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to delay my continuous application on points of self-regard as the responsibilities that are mine to deal with.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting the order of my things.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating disorder in myself and this the world as a result of being poorly informed and having consequences manifest as a result of my very own acceptance and allowances of misinformation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating disorder within myself here as a result of misinformation and disinformation.

I forgive  myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how my full living potential has been out of order and it is my self-responsibility to put myself back in order as the restoration of and as my full potential ability and response ability as the love made visible as become the working action as the play write right rite here as the hearing is clear in and as the sound that is me. I realize and recognize the sound that is me is rooted in and as the epitome of me as Oneness and Equality....a sound so here that is always here no matter what...a sound so here that is always sewing and is sown here that this sound as who and how I am here exist beyond a physical body yet the sound is express as the physical body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and regarding my Sound mind here as who I am beyond a quantum mind and body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the pulse of my sound here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent of the embodiment of sound within and as the form in information.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for suppressing and fearing my sounds. I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding the absurd ridiculousness of fearing my sounds....because I am my Sound...and to make a statement acceptance and allowance of existing in fear of my own sounds is to accept the sound/disharmony resonance as like a less than wholeness of myself as sound here....this is like to break myself into pieces...as to accept myself as less than who I am....to make myself but a derivative of myself...that is continuously conditioned into new conditioned restraints which make the derivative of the derivative less and less...as a cycle of confinement within and which the belief is perpetually justified that escape is a valid option...when in physical fact you all it...as everything here...so to create a separateness as like a great big mess is a bit of a discombobulated message as like not realizing how and why oneself deconstructed/constructed oneself here.

I see realize and understand the irony of not realizing what you are doing in the moment as you flow in the moment doing what you are doing...and here I see how great potential and great consequence exists...because from the perspective of certainty and uncertainty working here at the same time...and what is real is always a point of self-honesty...the question as the king....because the king is asking....so in asking you stand as the self-authorization for total regard or disregard...and either way the starting point of creation/self-here is Oneness and Equality, so TAG we are always It...and learning/studying our action and participation and looking at ourselves always, makes what is clear clear...because we always make it...because we are the one's that made everything up in the first place. And therefore each has already won as firts place...so as the king of asking the question you are right and wrong in the moves we make and regardless of the amount of right turns or wrong turns it is a matter of reading the words here and looking and sounding the in form as the information here as the self-reflection as who and what we are.

I commit myself to working and playing with myself/world here as what is best for myself/Life/world/earth/Mind/Body/Being Here.

Day 608 Self-Movement

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for restricting/resisting myself-movement here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understand my ability to move myself here is somewhat reflective in and as my relationship to words as like how I accept and allow words to exist within me. I see/realize/understand myself movement here in and as moments of self-expression as being a self-reflection and presentation of how I accept and allow myself to live words. What I find interesting about the living of words is the fact that the words are alive within myself as like all the words are all ready in place and basically from moment to moment I am able to direct the flow of my words as like a musical conductor directing the orchestra.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting to be self-disciplined and self-diligent within my daily investigation of and as the nature of word relationships within myself. I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how my words are like musical notes and instruments that are specific in physical structure/being/sound...which is much like musical instruments in for example an orchestra...and the correlation I am connecting here is that if an instrument is not tuned properly it will be out of sync as like existing within and as suppressed ability to perform and function at its full potential. So, I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the profound impact words have on my ability to perform and function within and as my self-movement/self-expression here. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for suppressing my Life potential within and as the living words. I see/realize/understand I am best able to express myself when and as I immediately self-correct a missed tuned word...as like a word that i need exists within and as a particular resonating disharmony.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having not realized and understood my profound ability to tune/program/deprogram myself here within and as a self-reflection of and as my word relationships. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand how my words impact and influence my world. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how my world as how I see is a result of my words as how I have accepted and allowed myself to exist in relationship to words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting to gift myself with the orchestration of specific plans on a daily basis as a way to prevent myself from being less than effective. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for giving myself the option/choice to cancel out on my orchestra of specifically detailed plans.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding myself here as the conductor of and as the orchestra/symphony/self-movement within and as the self-realization of myself here as a 'show and tell'.

When and as I see myself resisting to follow through with a plan, I stop and breathe, I say I am here, I look and see the points of practicality, I see/realize and understand the sound support within making and living decisions from and as a starting point of practicality.I commit myself to sound practicality.

When and as I see myself just kind of going through the motions of my emotions within a particular situation...which is the result of how I relate my words to my participation here, I stop and breathe, I say I am here, I self-correct the emotional experience/relationship/attachment, I direct myself to play with what I say...as I see/realize/understand myself to be playing/making music as I communicate myself verbally.

When and as I see myself having a thought/judgement/justification that just seemingly randomly pops up within my mind, I stop and breathe, I say I am here, I commit myself to purifying the nature of and as my words. I commit myself to investigating the extent of the nature of and as my words.

I commit myself to understanding practical living words as a point of and as self movement.

Day 596 Rhythm

So,

I'm looking at the word "Rhythm" and how everything has a "Rhythm" like a timing and a co-ordination...how things move within a movement/moment...and I am looking at the point of rhythm here because I see how sometimes I have lacked real flexibility and versatility in my movements/moments...and I am taking the opportunity here to write this out as a point of support for my self here.

So, 

I was just questioning the rhythm within classical music and noticed how the rhythm within classical music has pauses and stops unexpectedly and goes in all sorts of directions...like the rhythm and harmony cannot be expected...like the music can take unexpected twists and turns...and really just move in ways that you have no idea where the music and the sound is going to go until it comes out in the moment and you hear it so.

So,

I've been looking at and questioning the sometimes seemingly unpredictable nature of weather...and Life self expression...like the result is an accumulation effect...yet the the turns and twist and the pauses and stops are what are seemingly unexpected....like the speed of how fast or how slow things will go...the timing and co-ordination...is kind of like the play...within how I say and see the rhythm of dance and prance...as how things go and move about....

So.

This writing here is me playing with my rhythm and really what I find interesting about all this is the fact that I see my ability to be creative within and as my rhythmic self-expression. "Rhythmic self-expression?" Self-expression encompasses rhythm and is an important component in and as how one expresses one self here. What fascinates me about this is the stopping and starting and the in between stopping and starting...like the speed at which one operates and initiates particular movements/sounds...like how to orchestrate the play of what you say and how you play with and as the moves you make.

So,

I'd like to share some self-forgiveness in relationship to what I see and realize about rhythm:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for becoming inflexible with my rhythm where I feel that breaking out of a particular pattern of behaviour just seems too difficult/hard.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the harmony of life self-expression as being in tune with classical music.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how much potential I have for self-direction within every moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the plethora of options that exist within and as my self-direction within and as a moment of breathing here with awareness...as like how I play with the in and the out of my breath..and the in and the out of my sound...as how I move me within and and as physical sound around.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding myself as "rhythm".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding my abilities and capabilities for orchestrating creative rhythms within myself as cool points of self-expression.

I commit myself to embrace rhythm as a cool word of support to assist and support harmony within and as life self-expression.

I commit myself to play with and as the word/practical living of rhythm.

I commit myself to live the word rhythm.

I commit myself to stop limiting greatness potential within and as my rhythm here as what's best for life.


To Be Continued

Day 469 Director and Conductor of the Symphony

I've come to see and realise that each being is the director and conductor of the symphony.  What I mean is that every physical being is sound expression. Each of us is the director of the movement of our sound.  I mean, sure we can allow our movements to be influenced as a result/consequence of our acceptances and allowances...which is like an accepted and allowed resistance within ourselves....which in turn, makes our ability to move and express ourselves limited.  I've been working on releasing the accepted and allowed programmed conditioning that has existed within me as emotion and feeling reactions. It's really quite ridiculous when you investigate/question your every emotion/feeling reaction.  It's fascinating to see how we have been conditioned instruments so to speak.  Like our how to speak, is so conditioned...I mean the language we learned is part of the programming...and there can be influential reactions within language that trigger reactions within ourselves.  What's interesting is that everything is learned. What's interesting about everything being learned is that, I for one, in many incidences, didn't really think about what I was learning. I mean I was learning before I was thinking, now that I think about it...lol.

The point I'd like to share here is that our ability to really play is dependent upon our ability to use resistance as a life road map....as the point of realising that resistance exists as a form of reaction so to speak, as an emotion/feeling/thought.

What I am saying is that, to enable ourselves the ability and opportunity to have free range within our self expression, is dependent upon our ability to face our accepted and allowed programming restraints/conditions that have been installed within on us throughout the years beginning at birth....and have been re-enforced throughout time without our really understanding what the fuck is going on.

I mean, if you have a look, in most instances you have a reaction, it's like an automatic response...that automatic response is the result of particular programmed conditioned acceptances and allowances as a reflection of and as self-defined judgement. Individualized as each persons programming is based on how we have related and reacted to stimuli/others within out environment.

Like if you consider the point that everyone is the director and the conductor of sound/energy and we are always emitting/admitting our expression as our acceptances and allowances, and we are out of tune...I mean we aren't tune within and as a harmonious union of what is pure awesome, than our sound is less than, as like a fraction of our actual potential, which is in fact a reflection of conflicted friction within ourselves...as like the mathematical division of a loss taking place.

So, imagine, everyone is a musical instrument broadcasting/playing/expressing sound all the time...like a constant resonance is taking place...and all the time....the resonance frequency is out of whack...like there's always some sort of distortion....I mean that's like a constant storm always brewing and getting worse....and we just keep perpetuating it....not realising and understanding that it is in fact the way we are accepting and allowing ourselves to exist that is creating a situation that just keeps getting worse.

I mean, if you have a look...it's like a generally slow destruction....with humans....well arguably faster and faster destruction...as if you examine human behaviour throughout history....it is clear that we are getting faster and faster at consuming ourselves/the planet.

You would think based upon our natural learning ability...as like ability to learn with an effortless ease...that we would just keep getting better and better.....not worse and worse...so to speak....I mean, look at most people when they die...it's because the body has failed....really old people look like zombies kind of...you know...it's like the skin is barely fastened on the body....I mean, so many old people in old age homes....where there totally fucked up...waiting to die basically...like so many various ailments...existing within a limited ability that has generally become more and more limited throughout time....I mean that's fucking brutal...

Could this brutality be because it's been collectively self-induced?

Meaning everyone is spewing garbage at one another?

Like our tuning has always been way off?

I mean, that we humans as a species of Life never got the message loud in clear in and as our sound expression?

So, our existence here in time has been our compression of consequence....as our sounds becoming more and more dense....condensed...as our con...as we have conned ourselves throughout time to believe anything but the truth of ourselves/reality?  Even going so far as to dismiss and diss as like to vomit with grotesque and dismissive language onto anyone who standsup amongst the disaster here, and is like hey, there's a problem here....kind of like Dorothy in the wizard of oz....trying to inform others of the message....take warning....precaution...we have a serious storm a brewing that isn't getting any better....onto we weather the perfect storm...as like recognizing/realising/understanding the consequences of our actions/reactions/acceptances and allowances....and take accountability as our self-responsibility in being the weatherman here as the determining factor of the nature of things...as we in fact are the things here...and when we do the accounting and count everything...1+1+1+1.....until we have added all the 1's together...forming a total of everyone/everything....as all of existence here....like the puzzle/equation/words/sounds/puzzle pieces of ourselves here....like the Mr Humpty Dumpty's who had a great fall from the brick wall of common sense understanding, forgetting and contaminating the basic elementary principles of a solid foundation of oneness and equality together forming the perfect sound formation as that which is always best and most triumphantly excellent because what is totally bodacious for You is totally bodacious for me as the enforcement practical living of the best insurance policy of giving what we like to receive. The epitome of the win/win equation/situation/experience/Life

OK, so my point of my sharing here today is to look at Ourselves here today within and as the words "director of the symphony"

Symphony=an elaborate musical composition for full orchestra, typically in four movements, at least one of which is traditionally in sonata form.

Sonata form=A form of a movement consisting of three sections, the exposition, the development, and recapitulation, often followed by a coda.

Exposition=A setting forth of meaning and intent. A statement or rhetorical discourse intended to give information about or an explanation of difficult material. An act or example of exposing.

Development=A significant event, occurrence or change.

Recapitulation=An act or instance of summarizing the main points of something. The repetition of an evolutionary or other process during development or growth.

Coda=The concluding passage of a piece of movement, typically an addition to the basic structure

Director=One that supervises, controls, or manages.

Conductors=Are made of materials that electricity can flow through easily. These materials are made up of atoms whose electrons can move away freely.


Note and Pro Tip: Self-Forgiveness is the point of structured creativity that enables self-direction and conduction of the symphony of harmonious balance in epic proportions. The giving You are are in assistance and support for.