Day 718 - Removing the Ego from Greatness, the Grounding Process

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into the point of big ego as a result of having good results within particular points of sharing/performance.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thirsting for the recognition as the praise within a job well done as like mastery in execution.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to mentally masturbate accepted and allowed suppression into a transmuted experience of Superiority that feels so good from the perspective of getting myself high within and as my very own self-induced trite.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the psychic vampirism within and as the accepted and allowed big ego reaction as getting high as a result of the actions/responses others share.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking the ultimate life and living is within and as the established status position within the world system as recognized fame and fortunate.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the absurd ridiculousness of ego.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for denying the inferiority which fuels the attitude of ego.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying the self-righteousness within ego as like believing that I am entitled to a positive high energetic buzz.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the pain and trauma as the self-inflicted self-abuse that exists within and as the reactionary play out of ego.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for bouncing around in reactionary polarity play as character personifications as either big or small ego...based upon the judgement of sizing myself up in relationship to others here as my ego competition for ultimate supremacy here as like the KingOfTheCastle, the One Winner.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having resisted to examine the reactionary positive energy high or big/super ego.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for suppressing the solidarity here as the relationship with all my peers here as the various reflections of myself as One and Equal as Everything here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating a dissonance within myself as an ego personality that is incomplete that cannot relate to all Life here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for denying the abuse of greed as ego.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being self-righteous in fighting for my very own limitation as the result of being defensive in relationship to other ego's here/

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for participating in sports and activities from the starting point of ego as like the encouragement of dissonance within myself for the potential moment of bliss that may result from existing as the great one winner for a brief moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to disregard all Life here within and as a result of being preoccupied with my own ego status in relationship to others ego status.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to thrive of the misfortune of others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being blinded within positive energy participation as a like a form of mental masturbation into a daze,

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to stumble and fumble around within a haze of positive energy feelings of disregard for the actually status and state of World affairs.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for dismissing accounting responsibility for myself as an able bodied being that is here that can support the stopping of bullshit here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing the propagated ego hero character that exists within our world that is like the status acceptance and allowance agreement that abusing life for an experience is is what this world is all about.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for just wanting to be a part of the big ego story here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for desiring and regarding to be well accepted and regarded by others as a result of doubting myself and believing that I can only trust myself if I have the trust of many others believing in me.  I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how fake this believed trust to be, when one rationalizes one's very own state of mind from a starting point of dissonance in relationship to Everything here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowiing myself to encourage the continuation of cognitive dissonance in our shared world.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for limiting my potential expressions here within the justification that it feels good to win at the expense of another feeling bad in loosing and that is just the way things are...so the decision is either abuse or be abused. I realize the absurd ridiculousness of the mentality of apathy, lack of self-trust, lack of self-confidence, and the lack of empathy and remorse.

When and as I see myself going into a energetic high experience in and as reaction to receiving positive feedback, I stop and breathe, I see the specifics of the point that exists as a dissonance within myself...I forgive myself for accepting and allowing such a dissonance to exist inside myself as the acceptance of myself as less than life here. I realign myself as self-regard as I care to make sure I effectively remove the contamination in my vocabulary and within this I reestablish the terms of agreement here as what is best for all life from the starting point of myself existence here as Oneness and Equality.  I realize and understand I am in the midst of the birthing process of myself actualization here as All as One as Equal. I commit myself to the humbling gratitude in seeing/realizing and physically learning to stand and walk and move in always that are best for all of Life here.

I commit myself to stopping apathy.

I commit myself to living self-trust.

I commit myself to living self-confidence.

I commit myself to empathy.

I commit myself to compassion and remorse.

I realize the practical application of not allowing myself to be consumed within any point, because that is not practical in supporting my ability to live responsibility here.

I commit myself to exposing the ridiculousness of the ego games here.

I commit myself to educate on the character dynamics of ego.

I commit myself to stop perpetuating our culture of psychic vampirism.

I commit myself to removing the ego from Greatness and grounding myself within the earth here as commitment to Life.

Day 599 Certainty

So,

Sometimes I have found myself speaking from a point of uncertainty within myself. Like I am speaking to others from a starting point of treading lightly, like being overtly careful, due to having a fear of judgment inrelationship/association to the people I am speaking to. This can also be regarded as desiring a favorable response, wanting to be liked, wanting things to go your way, fearing conflict/disagreement/confrontation, lack of certainty within and as self-trust to speak from the heart as what is best for all. It's like a point of being in the middle of processing how to move about...a hesitance if you will...speaking without an all the way commitment to the speaking as a point of self-expression...kind of reactionary in nature due to being invested within the desire for positive reactions and being dreadful of negative reactions.

So,

Obviously this uncertainty within communication is absurdly ridiculous and is a complete hindrance on my ability to self-express myself free from fear.


So, 

Even just the tiniest little bit of judgement/fear/desire/doubt within our communication fucks with our ability to be certain about our self-direction within and as our self-expression from moment to moment.


So, 

I am looking at and investigating the word "Certainty".


So,


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting to realize and understand the practicality within aligning myself one and equal with "Certainty".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting Certainty within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for trying to establish Certainty within myself without understanding and realizing the dimensional dynamics of uncertainty I have created within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the practicality of structuring my writing process around and within the process of specific word assistance and support, so that I am capable and able to take the specific words and immediately implant them into my daily living as seeds of assistance and support that will enhance and expand my ability to self-express myself here as what is best for all Life.


To be Continued

Day 566 Anyone Here?

I've been looking at the point of self-investigation of self-interest. And the question comes up, "what is Self?" It's interesting to question "Self" because within doing so, We see what is reflected/revealed here as our Character/Persona/Identity/Being. I've also looked at the point of self-interest from the perspective of Self separate from everything else here and self-interest being the interest of an individual being here without any particular regard for the other individual being's here. It's interesting to see such a shameful acceptance and allowance. A question that comes up within myself is,"Shouldn't self-interest be the same interest as the collective interest...Like, myself interest is what is best for all Life here because I am in this one Life here? How is it that there can be a difference of opinions within self-interest? I mean really were all in this Life together and Lifesustainability is and as a result of Life dependency, interdependency, and independence. Like, One cannot exist without the other One.

What's interesting to see here is that Self is in fact Life. Within looking at this point the question comes up, What is Life Interest...or more specifically what is the best interests of all Life here?

Obviously Life sustainability is the best interest. Life assistance and support.

So if you dare to regard yourself as Life there is a point of self-responsibility and self accountability, which can also be articulated as Life-responsibility and Life-accountability.

Obviously there is much work to be done within our own personal life in equalizing our-self...our-life here...because really we've been conditioned to exist as less than Life here. Because if you look at the nature of what is collectively accepted and allowed within our shared Life/reality here, there is in fact no regard/value for Life here.

Obviously this is a massive problem for Life here.

I implore You to Life-Investigate Your Life Here and see that it is each individuals Life-responsibility to facilitate solutions as assistance and support that is best for Life Here.

What is the point of being here if you do not regard and value all Life here equally?

If you are stuck within the point of self-interest where you disregard all Life in favor of the pursuit of your preferred means and methods of stimulation, Your part of the problem that requires Self-Correction.

If You are serious about taking individual responsibility and accountability for All Life Here, I implore You to investigate the Desteni I Process.



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Day 549 Facing the Drama Here

In my previous blog I said, "I don't really have much drama in my life if any." I reflected upon these words here and I see this as a result of me having been isolated within my own mind where I have been disconnected from the total physical reality here. Because the total reality of Life here is full of drama as like so much injustices/trauma/abuse existing here. Within this I see how it is my self-responsibility to face the music/drama here as all the injustices/abuse/trauma existing here. Like what is this Life I have here for if I do not stand up to do everything within my capabilities to stop abuse from existing here within our shared physical reality. I mean look at the way our economic system operates...like how human functioning is based in and around a peculiar relationship rules we've formed around money. Like life is totally disregarded in the name of money. I see how money can be a great tool to facilitate the movement/expression of Life. I realize and understand there needs to be a serious attitude adjustment...where we as humanity get our priorities aligned as what is best for all Life here. Because at the moment we've been actively or passively choosing to take the piss out of Life...as like just real total travesty...as like we've created a real muck of a gong-show scenario that has become quite the global epidemic of rapid destruction of Life/Earth here...as a result of being totally out of line in giving a shit for what is best here within and as our self-responsibility to care for one another and have a sustainable shared reality where we all reap the benefits of the common good.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for distancing myself from and as universal responsibility as seeing and realizing and understanding my relationship/agreement with all Life here as what is best for all Life here within and as the starting point principle of oneness and equality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for becoming sheltered within my personal bubble of things are all good where I can have an easy like vacation style lifestyle because I was a fortunate winner in the birth lottery where I was born into a family of money/elitism...where basically I am benefiting from the atrocious abusive economic system where few benefit and many suffer.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having been hesitant and resistant to really push myself full force and dedicate my life living here to working on projects that would be for the benefit of future generations of Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get stuck within the all good attitude of focusing on my personal reality while disregarding and distracting myself from the greater outer reality as like the big picture within and as the consideration of Life interconnectedness within and as oneness and equality here where all Life is of and as the highest value.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for distracting and confusing myself from the big picture of what is going on within our global reality by choosing to allow myself to get caught up within moments of petty bullshit as like having reactions to others within my personal reality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the shame within deeming myself not worthy of taking on a large role within and as the standing here as a being who speaks up for what is best for all Life and directs and facilitates practical living solutions for the betterment of all Life here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the shame within getting caught up within petty bullshit within my mind in relationship to events/beings within my immediate environment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for accepting and allowing myself for daydreaming about possible courses of action for myself without actually physically moving myself within and as practical living self-movement that is best for all Life here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that it is enough for me to be at peace/ease within the personal/interpersonal relationships within my reality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being selfish within not giving enough attention to directing/creating solutions for big picture world problems that exist within our reality. I realize and u understand that obviously in order for myself to be in a position of creating/directing big picture solutions for our shared reality that I have to stand effectively within all the small points/relationships as the personal and interpersonal relationship.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having justified not pushing myself to investigate all the atrocities that exist within our shared reality because I do not experience a desired positive energetic stimulationfrom doing so.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having been conditioned to only give my attention to that which I believe will give me a positive energetic experience. I realize and understand the design flaw within only focusing on the positive energetic experience...as this is the current predicament of humanity as like we are fueling the chaos/drama/abuse/disease within not realizing how we disregarding our equality and oneness within and as everything here.

To be Continued

Day 548 Relationship Drama

I've been reflecting upon the point of relationship drama. I don't really have much if any drama in my life these days. I've come to realize and understand the practical living solution for resolving any issues of drama that come up within myself as the tool and application of self-forgiveness. I am committed to living self-forgiveness as who and how and why I am here. Self-forgiveness is perhaps the greatest gift I have been bestowed within and as. I've had extensive situations of drama within myself within past relationship particpations. What I've come to realize and understand about such particpations as acceptances and allowances is none of it was in fact real. Drama is fiction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having created extensive amounts of drama within myself...and I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding that I was creating make belief within myself as like a juxtaposition posed prose of absurd ridiculousness as like super imposing an illusionary perspective reality upon myself within and as the veils of mind consciousness energetic distortion as a plethora of feelings and emotions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having not realized and understood how I created and formed my mind consciousness system as like a perpetuating ongoing drama based upon and within and as myreactions to external reality. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I was born into this world within an induced stupor where I would regard everything to be separate from myself as like being blinded from the actuality of my images and likeness within and as complete total self-reflection.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how addicted I became to inducing myself within a stupor as like make believing and perpetuating the delusion of drama/conflict/friction/separation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the shame within choosing to create a make belief reality where I am in a perpetuating state of delusion as like the self-manipulated induced stupor of perpetuating my own self-hypnosis of fiction/drama.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the profound simplicity in utilizing the tool of self-forgiveness as the practical means necessary to self-correcting and self-gifting/giving myself clarity within and as the self-realization of myself here within and as everything.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I conditioned myself to separate myself here from everything. I realize and understand the process journey to Life as like bringing myself all together here as life as like piecing myself back together. I commit myself to moving through the self-imposed restraints and conditions I bestowed upon myself as the words I accepted and allowed myself to speak and think as the ink that stained me within and as the consequences of physical traumatic abuse.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the shame within victimizing myself and all Life within and as the accepted and allowed perpetuated stupor I induced and encouraged as energetic reactions to external reality. I realize and understand how the design of humanity has been a shame as like being born into bondage as like energy resource consuming ridiculous absurdity. I realize and understand my decision to purify the law of my being here as Equality and Oneness.

I realize and understand that to continue to play out the time looping of my mind as a perpetual motion energy charging and enhancing physical Life consuming abuse/abuser is ridiculously absurd and bizarre. I commit myself to restoring self-dignity and self-integrity as a result of the labored digging up the buried design flaws within myself, and integrating physical structured Life support as what is always best for Life as the realization and understanding of Oneness and Equality.

I commit myself to sort through every point of drama/fiction/friction/conflict that comes up within my mind as I realize and understand this is the practical living way for me to insure the prevention of continuous cycles of abuse within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the shame within perpetuating and inducing and glorifying continuous cycles of abuse within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having thought before that I can just understand something within my mind and than that's it the correction has been made and I am changed. I realize and understand the extensive self-discipline and meticulous specificity required in laboring practical living change as the remediation of and as self-corrections for each and every accepted and allowed inaction within myself. I commit myself to the remediation process as I see and realize this is how the self-purification process works as a gifting/giving myself the opportunity to stand here as Life manifested/birthed in and as physical living reality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having played so many deceptive games with myself as like running confusion and distortion programs within my mind as like operating within layers and layers of built up energy accumulation and like the cycling spirals built up and layered upon each other as like my self-created labyrinth.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating and perpetuating drama/fiction/conflict/friction/shame/despair/cowardice within myself as a result of denying the extent of what it means to stand within and as the humbleness of taking self-responsibility for physical reality as a being that is determined to clean up the mess as the false messages that I participated within and contributed to and passively accepted and actively encouraged and distracted myself from taking ownership for the extent of the evil heinous atrocities that exist here within and as our shared reality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how self-responsibility is one thing that cannot stand the testaments of time within and as stimulation. I realize and understand how self-responsibility can be temporarily stimulated within oneself as like a bridge/crutch of support and assistance well one garners the self-direction and stamina to stand without the energetic impulsiveness of fear as like the roots of energetic manipulation that induce that extent of human harm and disregard for one another. I realize and understand committing to what is best for all Life is beyond any form of stimulation as it requires real physical labored movement/action that cannot be faked. I realize and understand how nothing would is required to be done within and as make belief reality as like to remain within a self-induced stupor of energetic reaction as the physical depleting life resource. I commit myself to preventing self-destruction. I commit myself to Life construction as the best self-construction as the self-realization and understanding of the process of self-forgiveness and self-correction as the required standing within understanding of Oneness and Equality being the starting point of Creation.

I commit myself to stand within and as all of existence here as the commitment to and as the manifestation of Heaven on Earth as that which is best for all Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for suppressing the sadness that exists within and as a result of reflecting upon my images and likeness as the internal and external horror stories of and as our reality here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for making believe that the horror that exists within physical reality is not really real because of the belief that life is all about the here after. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating a mystery and therefore being lost from life as a result of not realizing and understanding myself as the missed tree of life...as the consequence of not accounting for the Equality and Oneness of Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understand myself as the missed tree of life as the perpetuating mystery searching for meaning within knowledge and information that I could just believe as myself proclaimed justification framed reality.

To Be Continued

Day 489 Who am I ?

I found this writing in an old note book today, I'm quite certain these are some of Bernard's words that I copied down because I figured I would be helping myself in writing out these particular words. So, here I am writing them out again, and sharing them with You!

Who am I ?

Is the question that is programmed

Yet it is a step to let go of eventually

No one in dimensions has the answer

The answer do not exist

That would be separation

Process is a trap-to be seen and given up eventually

But not yet

To do this - All must do it - Or no one will



We will be in process till all have transcended and become self honest expressions of life - all is as it must be for all to walk
So - have your childhood again
In the Unified field You can change the past or the future will be the past again.


Now each must find Self Honesty
Self Honesty is about understanding Life
to stand as all Life
and understand that in practical application
to do what it takes in the face of all.