Day 748 - Word Recognition and Exploration

It's fascinating to examine the specifics of our communication. Like for instance, when sharing words with another here, often times, we will pick up...or the other will focus in on a particular "word" within the exchange of many words. By giving attention to the particular word of interest...I have noticed that much potential is possible.

What I mean here, is really taking the time to elaborate and go into the various points of fascination that open up in our communications. Like specifically and for instance, in a most recent text messaging conversation i had.....I had shared many many points with a distant friend/associate....and of all the things i had shared...there was one point that came up as like somewhat of a consumption and a preoccupation. Which is interesting in and of itself, because the question opens up, as to, how often is it that, we are unable to actually practically work with information effectively here?

I mean this is somewhat reflective to the way in which our world exists here. World and Words....notice the paralleled similarities here...I mean in the spelling and the sounding here....Word and World...how closely related in relativity these point are. I mean our words make up the world so to speak as how we speak things so...as a reflection of our action...words in action make up our physical movement...the parts...the mechanics to and as the specifics of and as our motion. The movement and doing as our response abilities here....so much so as our capabilities here to exercise in and as our daily expressed/lived actions.

So, what I would like to reiterate in this sharing here today, is the point that often times, there is a particular moment of reactionary impulsing to particular language that is used...and this is often reflected back to us or another in and as our communication. And within being perceptive to such instances. there is tremendous potential that is possible to open up in and as the moment. Here comes a point of self-honesty in and as the moment of sharing and looking and seeing, and somewhat daring to actually stop and look at what is here to investigate. I have noticed that in many instances, i was some what reluctant to actually stop and bring attention to the word in question that would come up in a moment as like a point of dissonance within myself or the person I was communicating with.

What i have found to be really cool...is that by actually give care to this point...where there is a real sense of regard for the starting point of sharing as caring...and opening up such an instance as an expression and sharing of myself in a way that is cool....because I am giving from and as the principle starting point of "Give as I would like to receive"...and what I have learned within and as this Regard for myself and others is that the development potential that opens up is Awesome in many profoundly unexpected ways. You see, I see....that by making the effort here in and as particular Word recognition, we bridge the gap in and as our communication...and so it's like an enhance of the harmony between parties as like the flow of musical notes as the words we speak to one another being a complimentary aid of assistance and support in all ways Best.

I mean, if you really, really think about words,..Like really really look and see and the movement that comes up in and as how particular words are used and abused....it is really really the truth of and as our substance here....I mean...the words are very much in and as the make up tuning of and as the law of and as how and why we are being here. Interesting, isn't it?

DAY 725 - JESUS CHRIST!

Some Good Friday Cheer.

An Extra Blog Special for Today!

Warning Very Dark Comedy. The Tragic Kind. It's really not even very funny it's so ridiculously absurdly vulgar. Though it's not even that vulgar when we consider the scope of the vulgarity in and as the acceptances and allowances in our shared existence Here. So ya it's vulgar.

This Blog Contains Explicit Language. If You are sensitive about the Words Jesus, Christ, Religion, Christianity, Holy....I suggest You Stop reading Now and close this page, You've been Warned! Content may be regarded as Offensive. Intent is not to Offend. Educational Insight in a very explicitly direct/indirect manner.

May provoke new Consideration that is Life Altering. May just piss you off. May just invoke a response of like whatever...meh.

Question Your Response. For it is You.





Did you ever Notice that the words "Jesus Christ" are used an explicit expression as a way to express a point of shock and or surprise, like "Holy Fuck"?  Maybe for even more dramatic effect, You say, "Jesus Christ, Holy Fuck...or Holy Shit, Jesus Christ...or Jesus Fucking Christ"

Ever notice how the Jesus Christ is a religious sacred kind of talk as like a point of worship...and at the same time if this word is misused that same christian might flip their lid and go JesusFuckingChrist on You...I mean the worship becomes a form of warship battle...where the whole love thy neighbor as yourself kind of gets lost in the Holy Shit debauchery of it all.  I mean Jesus Christ the polarized word relationships are bloody ridiculous.

Jesus Christ was Crucified on a Cross....Allegedly...as the story goes....and for that the common national holiday is referred to as Good Friday. Jesus Fucking Christ....think about it. That's kind of fucked up.  A dude who was regarded as Most Excellent in so many ways...aka, the son of God...I mean that is some Heavenly Shit...Talk about Wizzardry Magnificence...And what is the democratic vote of the times....Holy Shit it's Jesus Fucking Christ public persuasion....propaganda...Voting for Stupid Shit...Has Anything really changed Since The Jesus Hanging? Ya, Now commemorate the Jesus Assisted Suicide by celebrating the day as GOOD Friday! Jesus Christ....

Are you ever really safe is you require someone else to save You? I mean Jesus Christ...This Savior shit is total Bullshit...For there a Hero there needs to Be Cowards....Savior/Hero Attitude is for Cowards....Jesus Fucking Christ

Christian flock to church on Good Friday to watch/participate in a Stations of the Cross Service/Ceremony.....Jesus Christ....How fucked up is that....Imagine everyone voted to Kill Your Son of Daughter because they were totally fucking Awesome...and Every Year afterwards...everyone real lived the massacre and Believed it was for the Best, Like some Real Martyr Shit. Jesus Christ, Shit is So Ridiculous....Jesus Fucking Christ.

Hunting for Easter Eggs, which are commonly chocolate...is like trying to find little pieces of Holy Shit...you Know because Holy Fucking Shit...It's Easter...Happy Easter...Eggs represent fertility and this is the time that's prime for Fucking!

How come there isn't more public talk about the absurd ridiculousness of Religious Culture Tradition that is interwoven into modern day society as the Holidays...I mean Holy Days...Jesus Christ, shit just got religious....or wait a second...Are we all part of a Giant Religious Hypocrisy By our Very Birth Certificate Here? Jesus Fucking Christ...Shit just got Holy See A Conspiracy here as the Cons Piracy as the modern day long Con....I mean Jesus Christ...this Con has been a long time Running....Jesus Christ What the Fuck?

Instead of Praying to Jesus, Why don't You Pray to Yourself...I mean that way You can know for sure whether you are going to follow up on the Request/Prayer. Jesus Christ. lol. Don't you think Jesus has got more than enough Junk Mail...and repeat orders...I mean clean your own dirty laundry.

Is it a wonder why comic book superhero movies are so popular...or why there are so many action movies existent...Is it all a Jesus Fucking Christ Super Star Play?  Jesus Christ, Holy Shit,,,things are Ridiculous

We Live in a time and age where Shit is Ridiculously Offensive...Like Jesus Fucking Christ...and Holy Shit...Typically We shy away from focusing on the grotesque Nature of our acceptances and allowances here...Because those with the Most Money Sing the Gospel of Positvity...and the Majority who are not the most Wealthy...Desire to have the Fame and Fortune of A Jesus Christ Superstar...Not realizing the whackness of our Celebrity Culture...a total Gong Show Sacrifice where Killing of Life is a must in order to Hail the Profit/Prophet Money....Jesus Christ...the Money Game is got You taxed by the Mind...Give it all away and see how positive you are...maybe then You can thank God and Praise Jesus

Praise be Jesus...Or should it be, Praise be thy Money....If you Got the Money...You Get the Honey....No Money = No Honey....What Kind of Worker Bee Get's All the Honey...None of them...all serve the Queen....Jesus Christ...Slavery is evident in the mind of our being Here...Check the law...It's Like a tax on Your Life that You are Indebted to...Support a Charity if You got some extra money...to feel Good about Your Honey...and Believe You're part of the Change...yes, ...Changing the Minds of those who think that  maybe a real world shift is possible....Charity just encourages shit getting more fucked up...Jesus Christ....What Would Jesus Do? Didn't he cause Havoc for the Tax Man?  Maybe we should Vote on a New World Order...You Know the kind that is most excellent in regarding all Life here....Where the Standard of Living has a High Quality Standard to it...Not this sweatshop low quality slave labor Bullshit.

Is Jesus Christ a Corporation? Like The God Corp? Believe in the God Corporation...where your prayers will be answered...Like the way offensive filth is generated as trolling and disinformation on the internet...and general bullying as a coping mechanism for inferiority complexes.  Jesus Christ, an epidemic of Inferiority Complexes is evident in world of disregard for living words here.


Jesus Christ, Happy Easter!

Holy Shit!


See the Insanity of a Jesus Christ Devotee Here

Day 710 - Legging go of the Knee'd for Ego

Read this blog here that is a transcription of the video "Revenge of the Ego". Read the words, Hear the words. Take your time.

In writing the title for my blog here, the thoughts that came into my mind were "wait, hold on, I don't want to let go of the Ego do? Don't I maybe need it...or like is it possible for me to exist without it....what are other people saying about the ego....isn't there something about just kind of managing your ego....maybe I should investigate the ego more before I decide to commit to a title that supports the notion of letting go of the need for Ego."

I see my knee injury that I am facing as coming at a very pivotal time in my life. I have been utilizing this is a point of support. Support from the perspective of reflecting upon the consequential build up of my mind consciousness system acceptances and allowances.

I see this knee injury as being a wake up call of sorts from the perspective of like, "hey my body is telling me something....my mind has been telling me lots of things that I have been buying into as idea's that is like contributing to me existing here as Ego...Dare I say Super Ego....as a being who has been influenced and controlled by energy, the very energy i have given credence to...as the ego....the motivation...the motive to do or not do in so many instances...as the pull/push...why....the purpose having been the energy as the what I believed came natural to me as what I wanted...and my belief in being devout in giving myself everything I want...as like creating this compromising position of sorts...a self-sabotage...self-manipulation if you will....where the wants become congruent with the needs to such an extent that there is like a blur between what is actually what...and just become an auto-pilot drifter of sorts as following the code....the code i created within myself as the ego markings...the map of how I respond to stimuli...how I am able to function....like an addict....doing whatever it takes to feed the want that has become a believed need...and making this a purpose of sorts as kind of enveloping within myself create black hole.

The irony of course is being careless and negligent within heir of superiority as the super ego stronghold....which is like a beingness lock down into suppression where the ability to see and breathe is often negated as like an unfortunate result of being so engulfed within a state of one's own personality possession. I see this as the consequence of bad Accounting...meaning, the neglect of my words/actions/deeds....where the pile-up/build-up became a pressure point crystalization that was just too much....a tipping point. a breaking point if you will....an explosion of sorts was the experience of my knee in a moment of physical activity where it seemed like I should be able to bend and contort my body into such a position without consequence.  And reflecting on past instances...I see that I was in fact able to make such pivoting maneuvers without pain and injury....but in looking back, I did not have the accumulation buildup that I had when I went into this particular fall....it's like the pressure buildup was just too much....there was no escaping it.

This consequential fall is quite interesting in and of itself and I am grateful to be here reflecting on the points as I see here this is all part of me Learning, expanding my realization of what in fact Self-responsibility is. Seeing here how my neglect of responsibility manifested and revealed itself in my physical body as me participating in an activity without the ability to immediately bounce back up and recover...it's like I had the idea/belief that I should be able to..and that nothing will happen to me....yet I see I didn't even consider why I wasn't able to...as like initially my Ego was too much to even see what I have been doing to myself in and as my thought/word and deed without and even realizing the severity of how creation in fact works as the working of words as the put together manuals and instructions for how things are to be formed as the information used to build the structures. No, I didn't think it of any paramount importance for me to be so disciplined that I accounted for Everything within myself...each and every single thing.

So, Oopsie, I have had a slip up a mighty great fall...due to some seriously neglected...disregarded and regarded accounting...as my self valuation...self-evaluation....and the irony here...is in and as how I have been living my-self-created-evaluation...and so the results are specific to me here...as my relationship reflection of me here as/with/within Everything here...and fuck....it is clear that the moment to moment application of practical living self-responsibility has been less than effective..and therefore I am facing the consequences of believing Life to be the Kneed for Ego...as like the only way to function here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the kneed for Ego I created within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that if everyone here is an ego, than might as well be a super ego.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to trap myself within ego.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I've fucked myself so hard within ego.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having continuously fucked myself within and as ego.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting lost within my own ego.  I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding the trick of ego in being for getting and the forgetting that ensues within the starting point of being all for getting...as like not seeing and realizing the togetherness of words as complimentary players here...but just abusing words as instruments of consumption.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for abusing words as a result of accepting and allowing myself to often regard words as meaningless...and to therefore never really care about myself or take myself as the living words seriously.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for seriously fucking within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for seriously fucking Everyone, Everything up.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to face myself and take responsibility for fucking everything up.....like....always believing to such an extent...that I do not require to be totally accountable as being the One here who is responsible for Everything being fucked up.

I forgive myself for fearing my own judgement within placing myself in a position of standing accountable for Everything here. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging myself as being too big an Ego to actually stand as a self-responsibility completely, embodying self-ownership for the total fuckup that exists here as everything.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get fearful in talking about Everything as a point of Existing and Life regard.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking of myself as Everything...and that being like too much.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist as too little from the perspective of my potential ability to live self-responsibility here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to substantiate myself for real with my acceptances and allowances.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting stuck in personality character constructions that are less than Who I really am.


To Be Continued

13/03/2015 ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- >>> 01/01/21

THE JOURNEY CONTINUES,

Picking up where I last left off here:

"TOO LITTLE" and "TOO MUCH" is EGO.

Equality and Oneness Together as One WORKS WELL to  Prevent the possibility of self-compromising.

PROCESS is for the PROS TO SAY ------- > PRO SAYS #worldclassplayer

To Be Continued

Day 701 - Flow within and as Fortitude of Purpose

I have given myself temporarily, and different moment a specific fortitude of purpose...and within and as this point...I allowed myself to move as a flow...where I would not accept and allow the excuses and justifications that came up within my mind to distract me from and as the flow of my movement as the steadfast determination within and as the practical living fortitude of purpose.

A point that is interesting within examining this here....is that as I look closely at this point...I see that I removed the choice....the option to entertain deceit as like a choice to not go along with my planning as the specific specification of and as my self-designed....self-enacted purpose of fortitude.

Now, I see that throughout my life I have had many, many more moments where my steadfast and determination as my fortitude of purpose, was in fact lacking the strength and vigor required to actually stick to and stand firmly grounded within and as my commitment.  This giving up on a purposeful direction has been somewhat of a weakness of mine...where I have often questioned my origins of creating such a point in the first place...and usually such a point was then excused when and as the going got tough and a point/thought/emotion/feeling came up within my mind that challenged the flow of my movement...and it's like I didn't know what to do...I didn't realize how fast I was engulfed within and as the possession of mind as like a point of distraction from and as my initial gift giving enactment to myself as a Fortitude of Purpose...a direction...a commitment....and perhaps in these many times, instances....it was a necessary experience for me to experience in order to see the truth of my acceptances and allowances as how I have accepted and allowed myself to be conditioned and influenced by my very own programming. Also, I would say the purposeful giving of myself lacked the fortitude with purpose as the strength of character that would not quit even though the option of quitting and giving up would be a readily apparent option, time and time again until I proved to myself that quitting wasn't an option. Slacking would not be tolerated. Accepting less than my potential is not accepted and allowed.

I have been reflecting here today on points of self-denial and self-deceit as programmed conditioned suppressions that have compromised my potential moments of self-expression....self-creation as who I really am.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand how I have conditioned myself into a weakness of character where deceit and denial of self are tolerated as particular coping mechanisms...as an outflow of the thoughts/emotions/feelings that I experience within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not really grasping the fact of how the alignment with thoughts/words/deeds reflects the overall character Being here....as either self-honesty of self-dishonesty. Self-honesty is and as the physical alignment of what is in fact best for all Life. Self-dishonesty is the disregard of consideration of all Life and to only regard oneself as separate from the rest of Life here....this is the epitome of self-interest from the perspective of focusing on interests that exhibit and reveal the consequence and the lack of consideration for the effects of one's actions on the lives of others here. Self-dishonesty is to superimpose the validation of the consciousness energetic polarized friction systematic conflicted movement of oneself here as a mind consciousness organic robot.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for denying myself access to the programming and conditioning of myself as a mind consciousness organic robot.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to investigate extensively the suppression of myself here.

I forgive myself for thinking I can pick and choose self-honesty and self-dishonesty...as like being self-honest about some things and self-dishonest about other things....like believing that by deliberately focusing on some points and avoiding other points I can be projected as self-honest while keep the self-dishonesty in tact. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have fought for my own limitation as suppression of potential expression here within and as a result of fearing to be self-honest always all ways...unconditionally self-honest here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying the play out of self-dishonesty.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to take self-responsibility for points of fuckedness I have created as self-dishonest...self-deception.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the consequence of perpetuating the the self-inflicting misfortune of self-denial as a result of and as accepted and allowed self-deceit as like the fear to actually take responsibility for the creation and expression of One's Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for harboring anger and frustration and sadness and disdain towards myself for my accepted and allowed suppressions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for becoming addicted to dwelling within and as my very own sorrow to a point of actually being in self-denial about the suppression I have allowed to remain within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying the existence of suppression within my character as a result of and as the desire to be liked.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have allowed myself to live in fear of being disliked to such an extent that I would compromise the character of myself to such an extent that I would deliberately choose to not express myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing the controversy of self-honesty within and as myself here...as like the great unknown of my true potential here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold myself hostage within myself as a result of  and as the fear of of ridicule, judgement and unflattering opinions/judgments about my character here. I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding the irony within and as such acceptances and allowances as that I have actually been perpetually justifying the creation of that which I want to avoid as fear of ridicule, judgement, and unflattering opinions/judgments because I have kept these beliefs existent within me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how deeply rooted this point of desire to be liked has existed within me...that I have deliberately played out polarized relationships as a consequence of such conditioning...where I would deliberately put on an act to be liked...or deliberately put on an act to avoid the process of being engaged within relationships with various beings. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being so conditionally restrained within and as my ability to express myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not know what it is actually like to live my life unconditionally as self-honesty as who I am here in and as the self-trust of and as the self-expression of myself here...without the fear to live/give the best of myself here...as the constant stability of myself here as I remain here grounded within as the life physicality...beyond the energetic veils of consciousness programming.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how avoiding points of uncomfortability that exist within myself is like giving myself a false positive impression of myself as being all good when and as the truth of my reality is that I am being governed and controlled by my very accepted and allowed discomforts as fears.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being complacent within and as fear programming where I avoid going into my discomforts in order to prevent the continuation of such problems existing within myself. I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how enacting/creating solutions can be an uncomfortable process at times...because it is totally new...and that the particular adjustments and points of comfort require to be established....so obviously, in developing/creating something new for myself...there is going to be discomfort....because this is how I can effectively learn to groom my comfort-ability within myself as the self-actualized learning from my discomforts. I see and realize here how by not being afraid to get uncomfortable....face the discomforts within my acceptances and allowances...that I can actually get to know myself better....become more self-intimate within myself here...facing my relationship conditioning and at the same time expanding my relationship with myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for complicating my ability to live as the flow within and as the Fortitude of Purpose.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for wanting,needing, desiring the flow within and as the fortitude of purpose.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to give myself permission to practically live as the flow within and as the fortitude of purpose.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how in fact the flow within and as the fortitude of purpose exists within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for searching outside of myself for the flow within and as the fortitude of purpose.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting stressed about the practicality of giving myself purpose within and as my Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for becoming frustrated within seeing, realizing the inconsistency I have exhibited within and as my life as purposeful living.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being disappointed with points of inconsistency within and as my desteni process journey to life...as my daily writing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fall within the point of daily writing, where I have allowed excuses and justifications to exist as like a form of self-dishonesty as a means of validating self-interest that exists separate from the interests that are best for all Life here.

When and as I see myself entertaining an excuse/justification within my mind as a means of distraction as entertainment to keep me in a state of self-dishonesty where I am looking to deliberately avoid self-honesty, I stop and breathe, I am self-honest with myself as to actually take responsibility in forgiving and self-correcting the accepted and allowed suppression of character. I realize and understand the best character to be that which is principled within and as the starting point of what is best for all life. I realize and understand the regard and consideration for all life within and as the starting point principle of what is best for all life. I realize and regard myself as all Life within and as the principle of what is best for all life.

I commit myself to practically living the principle what is best for all life.

I realize my effectiveness within and as the living of what is best for all life has been a learning process as I have been facing my self-dishonesty and walking a process of self-correction where I am learning to be self-honest as a point of stability within and as myself here.

When and as I see myself desiring to be liked or fearing to be disliked, I stop and breathe, I see realize and understand the suppression within and as myself, I commit myself to expressing myself from within and as a starting point of self-trust. I realize and understand I will encounter doubt from time to time as like a cross referencing point of and as my self-trust and self-realization of myself here...and that doubt is a practical tool of self-support to assist and support self-stability within and as the process journey to life here.

Day 691 - The Dynamics of Creation

Continuing from my previous blog, Day 690 - What's Best for All - Guiding Me in Thought, Word and Deed.

Here I am looking at the relationship dynamics of Problem and Solution in and as the Creation process.

So, let me first begin with a question, which is an inquiry about the word Problem. Initially my thought is that a problem is bad or somewhat negative in scope. However, here I see it is important to regard the fact that a problem does not require to be limited to being "bad or somewhat negative." And for this reason, In my writing investigation here, to widen the scope of perspective perception, I will utilize the definition of the word "Problem" as follows:

Problem: an inquiry started from given conditions to demonstrate a fact, result or law.


OK, now lets look at the word Solution.


Solution: A means of solving a problem or dealing with a difficult situation.
                'The process or state of being dissolved in a solvent'

What's interesting about a Solution is that it has a relationship with a problem...where a Solution is in fact incorporated into a problem...This creates new dynamics.


Why am I looking at the relationship dynamics of Problem and Solution in and as the Creation process?

Curiosity.


What jumps out at me here....is the Dynamics of Creation...

What do I mean?

The potential self-expansion....self-discovery....self-exploration....new connections in perspective outlook to support the growth in character ability of expression of thought, word and deed.

"If there's a Will, there's a Way"

"A Willing Way"

"Where there's Life, there's Direction"

"Movement is synonymous with Life"


I find it interesting to regard movement in and as Language.
Sound.

What's interesting in Examining/Investigating a "Problem" is that the Answer/Solution is in the Problem....or more specifically...Not in the "problem"....Get it ? ...Knot in the problem! The particular conditions that frame the Conditions....the Context...

What's interesting I see here is the barometer of our word and world relationships. Because I see here how our words reflect and reveal the weather of our current conditioning here. What's interesting is that it appears to be mostly an unconscious thing that we all really want to share the truth of our weather/conditioning.....yet the irony is that so very often the truth of ourself expression here is suppressed and buried as like a cover up story. Interesting though, is the fact that talking about the weather in an external sense...or the "News" is popular socially practiced etiquette in conversing with one another on a daily basis...whether or not You know the person you are encountering very well or not. Interesting I see here...is that this basic on the surface communication is more just a talking from the perspective of talking as like an acknowledgement of facts...without really getting into anything personal. Yet, I see here a potential correlation reflection with the accepted and allowed regard for ourselves here....Because, giving such regard for "chit chat communication" with the people we encounter is not a guarantee of sorts...it's a maybe...And, OK, where am I going with this?

This here I question as the weathering of our current accepted and allowed circuitry as how we have wired ourselves together here as like just kind of functioning...happening...without really understanding and realizing the extent of How we in fact are happening to be functionally existing here in and as our complete capacity.

Why is this so?

I am reminded here of a Movie, "The Never Ending Story"...Where in this movie/story...the, "Nothingness" is taking over....and nobody knows what to do....the irony is that nobody is really doing anything...nobody has any real trust in themselves to look into and explore the Question/Journey as to Why the "Nothingness" is taking over, Except a Boy named "A Trail".  What is ironically funny here is the name games within this movie. Also the fact that the people of the land don't believe that "A Trail" can be a way to solve the "Nothingness" from taking over....because he is just a boy...and it is believed that you must be a Great Warrior Man at the very least in order to face the "Nothingness" and possibly save the land from total self-destruction. "A Trail" is sure of himself in terms of his commitment to facing and Stopping the "Nothingness" from taking over.

What's ironic here in regards to this movie...is the parallels with our accepted and allowed society...and how we have structured the positioning of labor positions...where there is emphasis on being a "professional" and that in order to be a professional....you must go through this education like gauntlet of a Schooling system...where you will be than typically ranked and categorized into your specific "job" based upon your scoring.
Now, the point I am bringing up here...is that the way our schooling systems are setup...is not really an effective method for problem solving....and thus creating solutions that are best for all inhabitants here. Which is really quite ridiculously absurd.
I mean really, there is so much disconnect it seems with practical support in and as the Dynamics of Creation...Like...I mean, the fact that I am writing this....is evidence.

My writing is evidence in fact.

Whether I say it so or So I say it is not.

Either way,

My writing is evidence in fact.


Question the evidence in fact.

You will Realize the Solution in Fact.

For it is the Solution in Facts,

That Will support the Questions in Fact.


Have You heard the Words,

"Everything is in Reverse"?

Even the Words and World we converse Inn....

Is not it Odd?


Birth to Death

When maybe it's actually,

Death to Birth


Like,


There's no After Life...

There is only Before Life.


Because,


Before Life is the Potential of Life...

Whereas, After Life...

There is no Potential.


Get It

Got It

God It

Gooooooooooood


The Flow is the Wolf symbolism in and as how we together stand alone here and move together as One and equal Alone...ALL One Here....

See the Equality in and as the To Get Here...To Get There....we Move Together Here...as the All Together Here....


We Get it

We Got it

We God it

We Gooooooooooooooooood

Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa


Hahaha!


Isn't it funny !

The Dynamics of Creation ?

Day 675 - Supplant Fear with faith

“Supplant fear with faith”.  What is faith? Faith is the self-trust and self-responsibility in taking care for self-honestly determining our very own fate.  See, this is an interesting point of correction. To succeed fear is to stop accepting and allowing fear to take over as guide and therefore replace/correct/supplant with faith/self-trust/self-honesty.  It’s interesting that it has been an arduous task for me to actually gift and give myself the support and assistance that I require. What is also of equal interest is that the “learning of lessons”…correcting my mistakes…sometimes took me longer to figure out…because of a rigid stubbornness of mind…a fear mind set…a belief…a blockade in my teach ability….resistance. Gratitude is a great attitude. Being grateful is great. Be great. Live Gratitude. It’s the Best Attitude. Want to be the best and most proficient learner? Be grateful. Always all ways. I have found out the hard way…a most unfortunate tragic comedy really….that to spite myself/life by actually resisting gratitude in my practical living behavior and expression made my ability to learn/comprehend/see my reality clearly and actually utilize my creative abilities….not possible. What’s interesting about this, is that gratitude is a really easy humble thing to live and is in fact a really fun way to be. What’s funny about this is that by resisting to be grateful has been like a point of misaligned pride in thinking that I mist punish myself for my mistakes as like the only way I can learn…to the point of being so stubborn in not wanting to acknowledge my errors and being so fearful of them, that, rather than having a laugh and being rather playful about my ridiculous errors/mistakes and bouncing back up from my falls…it’s a most unfortunate thing to wallow into the depths of despair where the depression is oh so heavy as a holding added weight onto one self as like a bumbling along through the storm of emotion that is keeping the livelihood of self in hiding…like a fearing to actually stand up within oneself and take ownership for being here and able to problem solve and create….the gratitude way as the “I live to give…and therefore I get to give…because I got it to give…because I get to give because I got it to give…and when you get it…understand yourself here and the potential….there is no real choice about it….it’s like ya, well obviously I’m going to just do what’s best…I mean that’s real justice. Isn't it?

What I want to share here now is the point about belief. Belief is so often misguided….and misaligned…as like a false flag operation…perhaps well intention'd…but unknowingly fucked. Belief is the trust point often without having reason or rational as to why the trust should exist…I mean here enters a point of hope….and faith in relation to hope…where there is like an idea that things can work out without actually having to do anything….though what is interesting here…..is that in writing this myself here….I see how I have lots of resistances towards belief….like that is how I have created confusion within myself….a relationship with belief separate from myself…where I blindly followed the words of another and took it on within me, a belief without the real testing and investigation….which is an act of cowardice really.

So what’s interesting and really cool is that a real belief….is a real life here. Meaning, to become the life you want to live. Meaning, Know thy Self. Self-Creation here. I have struggled with this point of self-creation here within and about the point of belief….because I could always see the potential within and as self-guided belief…as the “Be Life” within and as the correct alignment and understanding of belief. Though which also perplexed me was the obvious fact that belief has so often been backwards kind of thing…where it was obviously skewed…and it has been easy for me to see the “Lie” within belief.  What I did not realize I was doing for quite some time was stumbling back and forth between my actual potential as how to believe in myself and the actual resistance to the very word Belief. I was caught in my own self damnation…judgement….self-judgement…believing in things in myself that are actually not of practical and tangible support for myself.

I have shown myself many times throughout my stumbling’s within Life, that I actually am capable of making great things happen. The Flow of making great things happen as the momentum is momentous is a real treat, a real pleasure and a real joy as a favorite self-expressing movement of mine.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing the doubt within delayed movements as like being points of fear that effect my self-trust….belief…knowing in myself…and are actually points of support to show to me…where a point of weakness has not been strengthened as being learned into new abilities as the practical living result of taking responsibility for my every actions…making me my very own action hero…as I save myself the heartache and misery of resisting gratitude as being the greatest of attitudes…and therefore I continuously move in creating my moments of practical living actions…that are of a continuous motion in and as the mathematics of addition and multiplication…as I develop my stamina in going on and on without a fumble or a tumble….though when I do….it becomes no big deal…because I see what I did there and have a laugh at my own expense…as I enjoy paying the immediate price in remediating my deficiency in action so that I do not perpetuate an allowance of reaction…for I am my very own action hero…I am the very best me…because I see and know that is the responsibility commitment like a wedding vow I make onto myself to give to myself whatever I need…so that I can always take what is here without delay…so that my responsibility is swiftly as it is quickly so that I maximize my playtime potential as a result of understanding the equilibrium balance  of work ethic as my very practical living of self-discipline…meaning that I will do whatever is necessary in order to create the best solutions….because I am very goal oriented in and as focused direction in seeing how to score a great play as a result of willing to hard work a fantastic result.

I see, I know now how I feared belief itself as the truth of myself in and as the very fact that I have not known myself as well as I would like to and therefore it has always been difficult to have a very strong belief in myself….because I actually feared getting to know myself….facing myself…all the various faces that I have accepted and allowed….because I mean…wow…there is nothing scarier than facing all the mirrors of one’s very own reflections. Laughs out loud…a belly full of them. The jokes we play on ourselves here are like the worst king of jokes, really tragic stuff…and I mean it’s ridiculously absurd when we actually reflect of the extent of our acceptances and allowances and we go through our rationalized and justified fears…I mean like wow oh my god really….really…I created such a state of affairs for myself.

What’s interesting is that I have had the fortunate opportunity to have actually experienced the letting go of fearing many of moments and actually totally committing myself to trusting my movement and just continuing to do so….again and again and again…..Repetition is the key here….Don’t step…get it get it….Got it…because we you got it you don’t have to get it because you got it. But its important to remember that in the beginning of learning something new….we require to get the hang of it before we got it. Why do you think it is that we love to hang out with people we like….because it’s fun to hang out….because it’s a process we've learned…a sharing that comes natural…a natural learning ability…to get the hang of it…I mean we are closely related to monkeys…and monkeys love to hang around…like the arangatang…lol…I like monkeying around with my words in how I say and share the play that is me as a resulting reflection and expression of the work that I do.

What’s funny to look at is how I can see here in my process of taking self-responsibility for all my shit…in some instances it’s like I would get myself into a state of shock and awe as a result of looking at what it is I have in fact accepted and allowed…,missing the gratitude in these moments….for actually seeing/catching the pattern…so that I have the opportunity to learn from my errors…and create new pathways for myself…as ways forward that I can be totally satisfied with.  So, the point I am getting at here is that I see , realize and understand the importance of giving focused attention to the solutions I can work…that I can actually see within myself that the potential exists….that before I actually walk the correction in the future…it’s like I already simulated the situation in myself as a result of connecting and aligning with the potential that has always existed within me…and therefore realizing and recognizing an awesome play in which I am able to make when and as I am potentially faced with such a scenario.   I make myself a power player within and as my taking of self-responsibility. I am grateful for my commitment to learning. I commit myself to being humble…and therefore allowing myself to learn as effortlessly as possible as a result of realizing and understanding how learning is a natural process as I allow myself to naturally learn/move here…as water/sound/self-expression.

 To Be Continued

Day 673 - Fear is the Fare we Pay

So the word Fare within Fear has been kind of jumping out at me as of late.

It's interesting because I have in recent years defined fear to be a rather negative thing...and it's interesting because the word fear shouldn't really be defined to exist within and as a polarity definition....meaning that I see it as being unnecessary for the word fear to hold onto a negative energetic charge.

So, looking at the "fare" within fear...It is cool to see the fare being like the price we pay in learning a lesson....facing something new....as there in many cases are natural fears so to speak in facing things that are new....because in this perspective...it's like our body has defense mechanisms in place to protect ourself...and fear is like the main defense mechanism...that kind of acts like a guide to pause/delay/postpone our movement within a particular point....like a resistance to being potentially reckless....like a signalling in our body...to say...hey...be alert, take caution.....be aware...
What's interesting is that in looking at any particular word you can make it out to be something positive or negative...in terms of carrying a particular buzz....feeling or emotion....like attaching an energetic high or low to the word.

What's interesting about the word Fear is that I had previously defined it as being like the lowest of low's...like the most negative word....and in my thinking in the past...I believed everything comes from fear....like love for instance....because love is like the polar opposite of fear....the high....so love in mind was only possible because of fear....and I pretty much believed that because of the energetic relationship of words....all words are based and rooted in fear to a certain degree or another....meaning that it was just like the intensity of fear/dissonance/conflict/friction varied....but essentially it was my belief that Fear is the source word origin of energetic friction...polarity...

So, in a moment ago having looked at the word "fare" within fear...I wanted to investigate this....because to me this seems like a balancing of the scales so to speak....like, specifically signifying how my relationship with fear has been irrational to a certain extent...and that by understanding the "fare" within fear..my fear can be rationalized.....now that sounds silly...rationalizing fear.....see that sounds funny to me because "fear" in having initially being defined as pure negative energy....I believed fear to be something that is totally unnatural and totally irrational....like fear itself...the experience is a mistake....a mindfuck....

Ironically enough in looking at "fear" here as a word....it is a bit of a mind fuck to define fear as purely rational or irrational....well wait a second actually.....in looking at fear from the perspective of being something that is irrational....I mean....that it like not really real to a certain extent...I mean to rationalize irrationality...is a kind of hocus pocus make believe....and so to be able to discern between rational...and irrational is a matter of self-honesty introspection....

Where am I going with all this "fear" talk about types of fear being either ration or irrational....???

Specifically I am looking to allocate clarity for myself within and as the word "fear".

I see how at the moment I'm not really sure If I know how to live only rational fear....as like a point of support.....because I am certain I have engaged myself within moments of irrational fear....

I would say this is what I am looking for....support from fear....to understand how to utilize fear as a guide...an aid....a point of support in keeping myself physically aligned with what is best for all life here...

How do I see fear as having the potential to be a great tool of support?

Fear is a strong physical body support.....fear lets us know discomfort within ourself....when we are stepping out of that which we know......what we know is comfortable....what we don't know can be rather uncomfortable....this is the body's built in self-preservation system...like a kind of gps compass monitor kind of thing.....

So...fear in learning something new....is a sort of recognition process....where the terms of the circumstances require to be established....and the fear is in and as the unknown so to speak,,,,

The irony here is that fear is the defense protection against death....which is interesting to regard and look at ....because life fears death....yet all life dies....and without death there is no life....and so it's like death and life are synonymous of one another....so to polarize them as the wither or game is silly....because it's like missing the point and not seeing/realizing/understanding/regarding the interconnectedness of all Life/Death here.

It's interesting to me to look at life and death as stages....and they are two different stages....yet...they are very much the exact same stage.....like life is the present....and death is the past and the future....and so.....well maybe Im a bit off on the life is the present and death is the past and the future....always away...absent from the present....because whenever it gets here its gone. Perhaps death is just a dimension within Life....as Life is also a dimension within death...

OK, the point about stages....the life stage....and the death stage.....it's like we are here in the present....as Actors....to act on stage...which is life....our movie our story here....our play...and all is an actor within the total story/movie/play/work here....and yet....everybody for the most part is Reacting the death stage....and the irony is the reverse order here.....like instead of acting....there is a lot of reacting going on....reacting being a sort of backwards relationship with fear....instead of fear being a great enabler...as a compass/tool/learning aid...as like the road map as in where to go....it's being a controlling/regulating feature....as a disability...in preventing most people from going there....facing the unknown....and the irony of the unknown...is that it's just the natural fear of the unknown....which is really the sustenance, nourishment and nutrients which is the food of support as the fare and price....gift...of creation here....because creation is really birthed in and through the unknown...as like the processed walked into knowing...even though there can be self-trust and self-honesty....and self-forgiveness....the unknown is that which is undefined....and it's interesting in regarding this very fact of "unknown"..."undefined".....because if we look and access our very relationship with word/world definitions....what's the problem with that which is undefined?  Well..since birth we've operated under the characterization and pretense of definition....language participation here through definition....I mean the pictures on our televisions nowadays we refer to as high definition....because it's very clearly defined and it's easy to see the details very well....

And so it's interesting of and in itself to fear the details of something....because the truth is in the details so to speak,,,,ironically....how we speak the truth is in and as the detailed specifics of what it is we say....and how it is we say what it is we say....

The truth is the fear...and the fare here.....the life and the death here.....

Interesting to see how the is a polarized dissonance generally accepted between the relationship to life and death here on our planet earth amongst our species of human.

Life is devalued in order to give life more value....
Most individual human life not regarded....revered....so....therefore the death of most individual human death not regarded and or revered....

Interesting how....the human has been conditioned to believe to care about oneself...yet not realize and understand how it is to care about everyone as oneself....

Death of plants/animals/insects for the life of man is an irrational cost of business here?
Death of plants/animals/insects/humans is just the cost of doing business here?

What is the business here? who made business here? who established what is business here?

We are the decision makers of business here....it's all of our business here.....earth...life is the business here....all is in the family business.....

funny....tragic...ironic....comedy here in and as our relationships here.... I mean from our particular word associations and definitions....to the actual interpersonal actions....well, can the interaction between one another be effective....if our word relationships and associations are not effective....it's interesting because,,,,we are made up of information....genetic code....and it's all a language organization system interplay...and we can actually establish the terms for the effectiveness of earth/life coexistence here to be in harmonious relationship terms with death here....like the heaven and earth merged together as one....we rectify....self-correct the hell....which is here....and therefore create the eternal glory which is the win/win equation as the restoration of balance as the order of things in and as life/death support here...as how to live without being victimized...disenfranchised through fear...and actually learn to create a new from venturing into the unknown which is the present moment and the future possibility and potential ultimately greater reality as a result of the accumulation of greatness.....though if we have a balance and order of greatness here....can the best become better than the best.....is there room for improvement and expansion.....oh the possibilities existing within the impossibilities as like what is not yet possible for ourselves...as like a limited reality where the limits can be pushed/challenged/changed/expanded....manipulated/leveraged....played with worked with......

To be continued

Day 602 Conflict of Interest

I find the point of "conflict of interest" to be a ridiculously absurd scenario that is far too regularized within society.

Here is why:

I see that "Interesting" comes from Interest and so I relate the point of "conflict of interest" to that of "Conflict of Stimulation"...Meaning that it is Obviously All about being Stimulated....and being Stimulated particularly in the right way...you know the right kind of stimulation....which is an interesting thing within and of itself, because getting rubbed the wrong way is stimulation too.

So, 

I notice, "Conflict of Interest" to be about unfavorable masturbation....I mean getting rubbed the wrong way.

What the fuck is unfavorable masturbation?

Unfavorable masturbation I see as having 2 main outflows:

1)Mental masturbation: getting worked-up/stimulated emotionally about something. To put it bluntly, being triggered and reacting to some dumb ass bull shit

The irony is that all forms of mental masturbation are self induced. And being triggered by some sophisticated clever intellectual shit is one and the same as reacting to some dumb as bull shit.

I see that this is a consequence of being addicted to fucking with yourself to such an extent that you believe you can't have the good fucking without the bad fucking.

What a stupid rationalization this is, "You can't have the good without the bad".  This induces the mentality that you must be bi-polar. Like, in a win/loss relationship with yourself. Fighting for peace. Like deliberately giving yourself pain/grief/sorrow/depression/despair as the necessary chemical concoctions believed to be necessary to extract the experiences of ecstasy/pleasure/relief/happiness. 

2) Physical Masturbation triggered by Mental Masturbation: jerking off to porn/desire/fantasy...rubbing one out because you're all worked up.

Now, some of you may be wondering like, 'what the fuck'...how the fuck am I suppose to rub one out...or, 'oh shit, rubbing one out with porn is a conflict of interest'...what the fuck, I don't get it...or maybe something along the lines of, 'you think what I am saying is total bullshit'...and well...fuck...if there's been any reaction to my words...than I've just helped you rub one out...triggering your conflict of interest....how stimulating....

To Be Continued

Day 540 This is Why Christmas is Bullshit

I just watched the video, "This is Why Christmas is Bullshit"

A point within the video that sticks out that is totally fucked up is how congested everything gets. Like shopping malls, airports, and highways. Movement becomes seriously restricted because everyone is trying to do the same things at the same time. This mentality/behaviour is most unfortunate.

I was looking at the irony of how everyone perpetuates this "most wonderful time of the year" where movement is seriously restricted because everyone is trying to do the same thing at the same time which results in a less than desirable time for everyone.

I'm teaching skiing this winter at a ski resort and some people were telling me today how they don't even bother to come skiing from December 23rd to January 4th because the ski hills are a zoo...like everybody is on holidays at the same time and the ski hills are just so over crowded that a person's movement/flow on the ski hill is restricted/hindered as well as the quality of the snow/terrain gets tracked out rather quickly. The ski hill becomes like a congested highway.

This point about the movement/travel/flow being restricted because everybody is trying to move at the same time has me looking at the general consensus with the way commerce works in our shared reality.  I see how holidays are in relationship to commerce...and I question whether or not there would be a better more consistent stable annual flow/movement/travel if there were no holidays/special times of the year.

I also reflect upon the nature of the typical work week of the Monday to Friday grind. Yesterday my roommate was asking me if I was going out last night, saying and reminding me that it is Friday night...you know Friday night is one of the 2 main nights to celebrate during the 7 day week because you don't require to go to work the next day...assuming that you are one of the average people who work they typical Monday to Friday grind.  Also Friday night is a popular night to go out because so many other people are going out to get drunk and wasted because they too are looking to take the edge off all the stress of the restricted movement/strain of the Monday to Friday daily work week grind.

I know I hated going to school Monday to Friday. I know I was so happy when it was Friday...especially Friday afternoon.

Is there a better way?

Could things be better for everyone?

Will things have to get shittier for some in order for things to get better for the majority?

I've been paying attention to the weather...and the weather seems to be all out of whack...like it's not really snowing that much where snow is typically required to be...and it's snowing in places where snow is not typically required to be.

Our current weather patterns reflect the nature of the times within humanity. Chaotic, sporadic, consistently inconsistent, and totally bi-polar.

What's interesting is that there is like this bullshit hope within humanity that things will just work out for ourselves where we will be fortunate and prosper while everything goes to shit all around us. Whether it be to get the perfect weather while the weather is wreaking havoc elsewhere, just kind of hoping that nature works out in our favor while not ever really considering the extent of our own nature and how nature as we see nature is a reflection of our inherent nature and that nature is reflecting to humanity it's forces and how destructive our forces can be when our forces are not in and as a balanced alignment.

So: money, travel, nature, work, holidays........hmm...

Money determines the amount we are able to travel.
Money determines the nature of our travel.
Money is what we work for.
Money determines our holidays
Money determines our work.

I question the planning of holidays.

Personally I do not want to go somewhere to vacation on holidays when everyone else is also on vacation on holidays.  It is not practical for the majority of people to be on vacation/holidays at the same time. Or is it? It makes it easier for the super elite to vacation when the majority are not able to be on vacation...because the majority are on vacation all at the same time...and this makes less traffic for the minority for most of the days throughout the year because the majority is slaving away, saving their few extra dollars for a less than stellar congested holiday that is burdened with more stress and strain because the system is not designed to be stressed and strained...and stress and strain are forms of unnecessary abuse.

Stress and strain are unnecessary forms of abuse? Why then do we accept and allow ourselves to perpetuate a global matrix system of continued ever evolving stress and strain? Who is responsible for stopping and changing the global matrix system of continued ever evolving stress and strain but ourselves?

But what if we don't want to give up our Christmas? Like to spite what is best for all Life...because we have memories that we want to cling to and hold onto forever more...that consume us and delude us from even realizing and understanding how these few positive memories block out all the horrendous trauma that is happening all the time because so much negative can secrete the tiniest small little bit of ecstasy and well that lovey dovey feeling is like a gooey warmth that drives/funnels/perpetuates abuse/evil/inhumane acts/ as everyone desires the almighty gooey orgasm lovey dovey energy secretion.

To Be Continued, As I realize and understand I am required to take self-responsibility for this super elitist position I find myself sitting within.

Day 493 Questions Today

I asked myself questions this evening....the question are;



When did I first give up on myself ? 

When did I quit/give up on myself ? 

When did I first decide that I can slack off on self-willed commitment ?

When did I decide it was OK to stop learning something that was difficult for me to comprehend/master ?

When did I first become Frustrated ?

When did I first become Angered ? 

When did I first become Annoyed ? 

When did I first become Upset ? 

When did I first become Disappointed ?

What was my first Justification ?

When did I first learn what is Best ?

When did I first learn what is Great ?

When did I first learn what is Happy ?

When did I first learn what is Joy ?

When did I first learn to Lie ?

When did I first learn Manipulation ?

When did I first learn what is Awesome?

When did I first learn Hate ?

When did I first learn Hurt ?

When did I first learn Pain ?

When did I first learn Funny ?

When did I first learn to Laugh ?

When did I first learn Want ?

When did I first learn to Share ?

When did I first learn to Cheat ?

When did I first learn Strength ?

When did I first learn Bravery ?

When did I first learn Courage ?

When did I first learn Honor ?

When did I first learn to Play ?

When did I first become Scared ?

When did I first learn Worry ?

When did I first learn Thinking ?

When did I first learn Fear ?

When did I first learn Question ?

When did I first learn Become ?

When did I first learn Story ?



There are many more questions to ask myself. I am seeing and realizing it is important to understand what I have learned. I see and realize I learned things without understanding things. I see and realize I never questioned the consequences of what I learned ?

Right Now, I am Questioning How it is I Learn ?


What is Learning ?

What is Understanding ?

What is Comprehension ?


What was the first mistake I made ? Was it the first thing I learned ? Can I learn without Mistakes ?


Do I need Mistakes to Learn ?


Can I Learn without making Mistakes?


How do I Make Mistakes ?

Did I learn to Make Mistakes ?

Are Mistakes Learned Behavior ?


When did I first learn Behavior ?

Is a Mistake something I don't Know ?

Can I know what I don't Know ?

Can I Learn what I don't Know

Why am I asking so many Questions ?

Are Questions Like Mistakes ?

Do I need Mistakes and Questions to Learn ?


Why do I not like making Mistakes ?

When did I learn to not like Making Mistakes ?


When did I first fear asking Questions ? Was it because I feared being exposed as not Knowing ?


When did I first place importance on Knowing ?


Did I trap and confuse myself within my own Knowing ?

Why do I say My Own Knowing ?

Is Knowing a point of Individuality ?


Is Knowing a Secret ?


What is a Secret ? When did I first learn a Secret ? Is Knowing a Secret

Is Knowledge and Information the Secret Programming Code ?

Is Knowing and Understanding Words the Key to Understanding the Secret Programming Code ?

Did I Create My Own Secret Programming Code ?

Am I The Only One Who Has the Key to UnLocking My Secret Programming Code.

Are Complications forms of Mistakes as like Mis and Dis Information ?

Are Complications Failures to be Simple ?

Can Complications be Simplified ?

Are Simple Complications Easy to Correct ?

When did I first Learn Corrections ?

What is Correct ? Is it that which is not Wrong ? Is Something always what It is Not ?

By Having Something, Do We Not Have Something ?

Can We Be Everything and Nothing ?

Does Nothing Come from Everything ? Does Everything Come From Nothing ?

Where is the Beginning of Nothing ? Is there and End to Nothing ?

If Nothing Has No Beginning and Nothing Has No End, Does That Mean Nothing Is All That There Is ?

Is Nothing the Source of Life ?

Did Life Come from Nothing ? 

Is Life Make Believe ?

Is Life What always Is ?

If Life Has No Beginning and Life Has No End, When Does One Become Life ?

Does One Become Life when One Gets Together with One to Make another One?

Is Life Just 1 + 1 = 2 

Is Life 1 and =

Is Life 1 and = Together

Can Life be One and Not Equal ? Would the Math work in the 1 + 1 = 2 Equation if One and One are not Equal.

Is Life as Simple as 1 + 1 = 2 

If 1 is Life and there are many many many many many 1's and 1 doesn't count all the 1's can Life be Accounted for ?

Is the Accounting for Life 1+1 repeatedly till all 1's are accounted for ?

Can I become 1 ?

Am I already 1 ?

Do I need to see and Realize Every 1 So I really Know and Understand that I am 1.

In the beginning was the word and the word was with God and God was the Word ?

Becoming Creation is with Words ?



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the simplicity of myself within and as words within and as the understanding of the passage " In the beginning was the word and the word was with God and God was the Word"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting lost within Word, and I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding myself within as as the living Word.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding myself as the living words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting my creation as the living words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for negating myself responsibility within the living of my words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding myself within the words that I speak.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how my thinking thoughts is the automation of the accepted and allowed programming code that Is keeping me lost from living words for real ?

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding thinking as the system for not knowing myself as the source of living words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having resisted to question what it is I Know.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for trying to figure myself out within thinking instead of just looking at myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the support within looking at and questioning my thinking ?

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the point of self-support as self-direction within asking the questions I need to know?

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the purpose and point of asking questions on a Need to Know Basis?

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to ask myself what it is I Need to Know?

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not pushing myself to ask the right questions as the right questions being the questions that I need to Know.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent of my needs.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for limiting and suppressing my needs within the fear of asking the wrong questions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understand that there are no wrong questions because all questions are all right.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing my righteous authority.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that my righteous authority must be wrong and that I am to blame for existing as a righteous authority here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the difference between self-righteous and righteous.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging self-righteousness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get lost within and as self-righteous judgement.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for trying to escape self-righteous judgement.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting the self responsibility to correct all my self-righteous judgments.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to stop self-righteous judgement.

I commit myself to the understanding myself.

I commit myself to knowing thy self.

I commit myself to understanding words.

I commit myself to becoming words.

I commit myself to living words.

I commit myself to remediation as the solution to purifying my vocabulary.



When and as I see that I do not know a word, I stop and breathe and I question the meaning of the word. I look at the meaning of the word. I look at each letter of the word. I look at how the word sounds. I play with the meaning and the sound of the word. I sound out word. I make connections within the word. I learn the dictionary definition of the word.  I see if I can expand the meaning of the word within looking at the word. I realise the living of words. I realise the living of words as the living of gods.


When and as I see myself resisting to ask a question, I stop and breathe, I ask the question and I realise and understand the tremendous assistance and support within asking questions.