Day 721 - Is Embracing the Cold a Key in Physical Body/Mind Awareness Here?

I've been exploring Cold Water therapy.  It's a fascinating process. I suggest googling, "Wim Hof" aka, "The Ice Man".

The focus of this blog here today is to remove any energy within myself with regards to "Cold".



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to associate fear and a general resistance towards the cold as like not wanting to get cold when and as I am warm.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for regarding Cold as separate from myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating a energetically polarized relationship between Hot and Cold,...where Hot is a positive thing and Cold is a negative thing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for associating Warm with a mild positive energy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for associating the word Chilly with the word bad and also 'not being good' and with a generally accepted negative energetic charge.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having positive energetic experiences within myself as a general point in regards to warm and hot temperatures and also a generally negative energetic experience towards cold temperatures....or as like a bit less good than warm/hot temperatures.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself dismissing the therapeutic support for the body within working with Cold.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the generally accepted ironies within society/cultural-norms about temperature and specifically the words, "Cold" and "Hot".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the Irony about the specifics accepted within North America culture about catching a "Cold" as like a type of sickness/flu...and not realizing the irony within a typical "Cold" where one may get "Hot" in the process....which is kind of funny in the process....because it seems like a bit of a balancing act here.....where it's like You have a Cold and thus You get Hot in the process as like the body's way of balancing out the internal temperature within oneself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I am able to have influence on my body's ability to regulate temperature as a result of and as my connection here with breath.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the self-investigation into the nature programming conditioning of the mind consciousness as a result of seeing the extent of my automatic bodily reactions to Cold as like an ingrained Fear point that has been developed and conditioned overtime as a result of and as the way I have conditioned my mind and body here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having a survival mentality relationship towards temperature and the specifics of weather...where there is a point of dissonance within myself with regards to the specifics of Temperature and Weather Conditions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for accepting and allowing Weather and Temperature to exist as points that are separate from me to a certain extent as like regarding myself as somewhat inferior to Temperature and Weather.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having been somewhat conditioned throughout the years in my environment to fear the elements to a certain extent as like a matter of survival.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how self-expression can in fact be suppressed in regards to the Elements here as a result of and as the specifics of our emotion/feeling about things and also as a result of accepting and allowing particular points of knowledge and information about things, without actually questioning it for oneself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent of the suppression that exists here in our world as a result of and as Word Relationships.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for conditioning my perspective about reality based upon what other people say.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to blindly accept points as truth because many people believe them to be truth.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having subscribed to the logical rational that if many people are saying something is so, than it must be true and that I do not really require to investigate the point myself because clearly it is true....otherwise so many people wouldn't believe it to be so.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the fuzzy logic at play within and as the general acceptances and allowances of just following along with the crowd....as like not really considering that everyone within the herd is potentially also using this exact same fuzzy logic....which in a way makes everyone within the group a kind of lemming where it's like the blind leading the blind all the way into and as their very own self-demise.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to face the Herd mentality in society/culture here,...even when as as I have tested a point and proven it for myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for conditioning myself to not like to have to deal with directing the Herd on points of realization that are not commonly realized or understood.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being rather self-righteous in keeping my self-realizations and insights to myself as like a sort of coping mechanism with the patience required to communicate points effectively to people who currently do not understand said things/points.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be impatient in word/though/deed as like reacting to the Weather/Temperature of myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having a hard time fathoming the interconnectedness with bodily well being and breath awareness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having a negative energetic reaction towards the words "meditate" and "meditative"...and also for associating these words with various mental masturbation practices...and generally thinking that anyone who meditates is engaging in the egoistic practice of stroking one'es own ego...and that the whole meditation thing is always rooted in the desire for more positive energetic experiences.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the physical body/mind process of self-awareness as Everything Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for assuming that in being born here in this shared reality of ours, that everything is taken care of for me and that I don't really have to do anything...and that I can do whatever I want because Everything is taken Care of.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for blindly assuming that the authorities of Science are accurate in and as what they say to be true.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for separating myself from and as Science.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to doubt the validity of and as myself as here as the very empirical evidence of and as Science.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having created dissonance and opposition in regards to the words Science and Scientists...as like making believe these words to be points of and as self-righteous governing authority.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the scientific process of and as my mind/body relationships here as like the signs and symbols that exist within and as me here that are working together in playing their parts.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for dismissing and disregarding the creative ability of and as each individual part/life that makes up and supports the inner-workings of my Body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent of support always all ways available here within as as the serendipitous interconnectedness of and as the willingness and openness to investigate the possibilities that open up within and as the king of Questions....meaning, where Oneself realizes and understands the self-regard within and as the AsKing...asking of Questions here...as the Self-Authority Governmental Science Investigation and Discovery Journey here...as the growing prosperous potential expansion and development.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the interconnectedness of and as Structural Resonance Alignment within and as the AsKing of QuestIons here as being a point of self-reflection of as as the tune that I am sounding/reflecting here....and how within this process....the answer/solution/question is being mirrored back at me within and my participations within our Shared External Reality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating a dissonance between my internal reality and my external reality here....where there has been a generally accepted disregard and cover-up operation of avoidance as like a procrastinating neglect of exercising the daily practical living of the extent of self-responsibility required to exist here as a constant and continuous Life Force.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the blockage from and as the extent of oneself existent within and as the air of Ego...as the colorful energetic spectrum of feeling/emotion energy as the range from Inferiority to Superiority.....

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the temperature exchange within oneself as the participation within and as as energetic reactions, from the shortness of breath to the ineffective blood circulation of various degrees of accepted and allowed fear.


To Be Continued

Day 588 Personal Self-Interest?

"Do I fear letting go of my personal self-interest?"


Within looking at this question I see there are words I must investigate more in order to have a well rounded response/answer/solution here.

The words I am looking at here are "personal", "self" and "interest".

In looking at the words "personal self-interest", I ask myself, "is there any other kind of self-interest?" Can Self-interest exist beyond personal self-interest...or can Personal Self-Interest be expanded by enabling and harmonizing Personal Self-Interest to work congruently with Interpersonal and Universal Self-Interest?

Why have I primarily only regarded Self-Interest to exist on a personal level? Do I see and realize the disharmony that results from neglecting to simultaneously regard Self-Interest on a Personal/Interpersonal/Universal level?

Can Self-Interest exist and be aligned in and as personal/Interpersonal/Universal physical embodiment of what is best for all Life?

I'm questioning the outflow of my past behaviours from the starting point of neglecting to regard and consider Interpersonal Self-Interest and Universal Self-Interest...and how Personal Self-interest took precedence over the others.... the consequence of such an outlook participation is interesting because when the starting point of me/self is separation/private than the public good(s) is harmed in the process because of and as an unfortunate chain reaction... started from a place of dissonance...so this dissonance resonates throughout existence as my contribution/participation within and as our shared existence here.

Now, what I am noticing here is that it is important to get out of the singularity mentality as the either or of things...like one or the other...because we are in fact multi dimensional beings...and so there are always many facets/dimensions to see.

To be Continued

Day 587 Questions Give So Much Support

Continuing from my blog post, "Day 580 Gifting Myself Within Self-Reflection"


Here are questions that came up within me in my previous blog that require further investigation/exploration.


"Is it wrong for me to exist the way I have existed?"


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist within the right/wrong frame of mind. I realize and understand that existing within and as the polarity equation of right/wrong frame of mind is not in fact what living life self-expression is in fact all about. I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of judging every action as right or wrong. I see and realize and understand this to be in fact a point of and as a conflicting reaction energy reality that perpetuates both the right and the wrong as like the right makes the wrong so and the wrong wouldn't be wrong without the right and it's just so limiting as like being caught within and as this inner turmoil war that is the fighting for peace as like trying to reconcile while not realising and understanding how holding the missile in pursuit of peace perpetuates the war of disregard within and as the two sides of the same coin kind of war that becomes a matter of subjective opinion that opens up and breeds questionable understanding because it creates and perpetuates this grey area mentality of this middle road delusion of the right and wrong being relative to where your standing and it's less than seeing the whole equation as it is what it is because of what is here and so, I commit myself to stop limiting myself within and as the self-appointed judgement upon my every action here as right or wrong within and as the realms of positive/negative energy persecution.

When and as I see myself questioning myself as am I right/wrong, I stop and breathe, I investigate why I am concerned with the valuation and definition upon a point of being defined as right and or wrong. I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of moving about from and as a starting point of justification...like justifying the right or the wrong. I commit myself to stop the fighting within myself as the right/wrong divide.


"Am I trying to justify self-interested pre-occupation when in fact I exist in a time/space reality that requires extensive assistance and support in re-aligning the framework rules to support what is best for all Life."

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying self-interested pre-occupations as a way to give myself an experience of contentment within and as a form of self-satisfaction that I am in fact right in doing what I am doing and therefore due to my righteousness I can garner a false sense of confidence because of the justification which I can utilize as the methodology to fuel the religion of self-belief from and as the perspective of my self versus your self as like this war/conflict that needs separation as the fuel/grease/oil to remain intact. I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of utilizing justification. I commit myself to stop searching for contentment and self-satisfaction. I commit myself to realizing and understanding myself as the source of and as content and satisfaction here. I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of creating a point outside of myself as the vehicle to transform the standing up of myself into and as physical sound ground in and as the harmonious balance of stability. I commit myself to trusting in and as physical self-expression as the key to me here in and as physical sound stability...existing beyond the limited dimensions of polarized energy equations of right versus wrong. I commit myself to practical living...and the question/answer to 'what is practical living' comes from within and as my self-trust here.

When and as I see myself consuming myself within self-interested pre-occupations that do not serve the best interest of all Life here, I stop and breathe, I investigate what I am avoiding to see, I face my accepted and allowed resistances/fears/conflicting energies and I take directive self-responsibility in sorting out the inequality that exists within myself. I commit myself to purifying my starting point for being/expressing myself here as Equality and Oneness.


To Be Continued with investigative exploration into and as the following quest-full questions:


"Do I fear letting go of my personal self-interest?"



"What else do I know besides my personal self-interest?"



"How would I exist here if I moved out of a desire based starting point of self-interest pre-occupation?"



"Should not the point of living here be for everyone to have the opportunity to investigate and explore their personal self-interests?"



"Why am I resistant to fully letting go of my personal self-interests when I know and realize our shared reality requires serious changes in order to assist and support all Life here as what is best? Would this not be a point of serious change?"



"Do I see how I argue for my own self-imposed limitation within justifying/desiring to spend my time within recreational/leisurely pursuits when our shared reality requires intensive labor investigative pursuits in order to stop the heinous abuse that is perpetuated as a result of disregarding what is best for all Life here?"



"Why have I allowed myself to regard my-self as separate from everything else here?"



"Is believing Self to be separate from everything else here  a way to justify the use of blame and abdication of personal self-responsibility and self-accountability?"



"Do I see how I have not really understood the extent of self-interest in the greatest most profound sense because I resisted living from the starting point of Equality and Oneness in every moment?"



"Do I see how self-interest from a starting point of self being separate from everything here creates a disharmony as a cognitive dissonance to the understanding and self-realization of what is best for all Life here...and how regard for self-interest in the most profound sense is the regard for what's best for all Life...as that's the best self-interest....the only real self-interest....because anything else is less than considering all Life One and Equal Here?"

Day 582 Self-Satisfaction?

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist within and as the single mindedness of me as ego, not realizing and understanding the singularity of me primarily existing as separate from everything else here.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have existed within my self-confined self-interest as a singularity separate from everything else here.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not live the self-realization of and as the interconnectedness of everything here.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being resistant to exploring the my self-intimacy within the question, "Is it not each individual's self-responsibility to direct our individual self-stimulation....self-satisfaction...and amusement?"


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for existing within relationships from and as the starting point of stimulation from and as the perspective of being a distraction and a point of creating the illusion ofchoice/freedom.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for be abdicating self-responsibility as a result of existing within and as relationships of stimulation from and as the starting point perspective of distracting myself from myself by fearing to investigate the nature of my thoughts/feelings/emotions.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to justify existing within relationships from a starting point of fear/distraction/stimulation.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create self-manipulated logical reasoning as to why the meaning of my existence should revolve around this singular point of and as self-stimulation.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for making self-stimulation to be a point of conflict as either "right" or "wrong".



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating judgments about self-satisfaction and amusement.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how within investigating a point of introspection I have a tendency to polarize my findings as like right and or wrong within and as positiveand negative energies.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for seeking self-satisfaction within creating a labeled self-definition/judgement upon a point with a polarity friction/conflict energy.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for utilizing the point of self-satisfaction as a coping mechanism as a way in which I could justify that I've done enough and that I do not require to push myself harder.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating the experience of self-satisfaction as a positive energetic experience within myself that can be identified as a reward and rewarding.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist within the frame of mind and belief that I require to be recognized with rewards because I have completed work/jobs/tasks/activities/performances/achievements/accomplishments.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the absurd ridiculousness of making myself believe that I reached the required level of complacency in order to be compliant as a self-righteous superior ego frame of mind and thus I can rest and relax because that is the reward of self-satisfaction that I am kind of like on a vacation because i don't require to push myself to do more because I am self-satisfied and believe I've already done enough.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for abdicating self-responsibility within and as my relationship to and as the the point of self-satisfaction. I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how I buried my actual potential for self-expression within and as the point of self-satisfaction because I made self-satisfaction to be a point of positive energy experience which cannot exist without more and more negative energy within myself.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist within the point of giving up from and as the perspective of validating the giving up experience as a result of creating a justification of self-satisfaction

Day 581 Self-Intimacy within the Question

Continuing from my previous blogs:

"Is it not each individual's self-responsibility to direct our individual self-stimulation....self-satisfaction...and amusement?"


I see here how in the phrasing of this question I was existing within the single mindedness of me as ego. Me as a self-interested singularity if you will...me as primarily separate from everything else here. Me within theacceptance and allowance that each being here exists within this starting point of self-confined self-interest as a singularity separate from everything else here. Obviously this mental framework is ridiculously absurd because there is self-evident interconnectedness with everything here.

There was some resistance within myself to exploring the self-intimacy of the question here.

Within examining this particular question, I looked at the point of self-stimulation as the means to generating self-satisfaction and amusement. Within looking at this I did not really want to regard the point that stimulation is an abdication of self-responsibility from and as the perspective of being a distraction and a point of creating the illusion of choice. Also within this point, I see how the justification has existed within myself to see a self-manipulated logical reason as to why the meaning of my existence should revolve around this singular point of and as self-stimulation. It is shameful to see that my preoccupation has been self-satisfaction and amusement.

I was looking at the point of self-satisfaction within our shared reality as a coping mechanism as a way in which one can justify that enough effort/work has been done...that there is a point of complacency as a point of acceptance within self that aligns within the mentality/belief that I deserve a reward now because I am done and satisfied with my performance/achievement/accomplishment and thus I am self-satisfied because I have made myself believe within my mind that I reached the required level of complacency in order to be compliant as a self-righteous superior ego frame of mind...and thus I can rest and relax because that is the reward of self-satisfaction that I am kind of like on vacation because I don't require to push myself to do more because I am self-satisfied...

So here I see self-satisfaction linked to a point of giving up...from a certain perspective...because it's like agreeing that I will not keep open the self-investigation any longer because I am satisfied with the result I have already receive...and I found what I was looking for and therefor if I find anything else...it will most likely be in direct conflict with my expectations and ego frame of mind as what I am looking for within and as amusement/stimulation.

So, obviously I do not particularly like to see and regard self-satisfaction as a grand illusion as the justified reason for an experience of greatness within myself. I mean I am kind of ashamed to see how I worked so hard to convince myself of my own justified self-satisfaction while abuse perpetuates itself everywhere as a reflection of the inherent system which I am a part. So I mean to see and realize that self-satisfaction is totally bullshit when considering that to be totally satisfied about anything when even a single point of suffering exists here is a cop out and total disregard for the well being of life...as like this is to say ya I am satisfied with disregard for the well being of all Life here...because hey check out what I've done...I've self-glorified my individual personification within and as the reward center of my mind and therefore I have validated and excused any doubt that indulging within various relationships from a starting point of self-stimulation and amusement is questionable activity.

I see here how the makeup of me here is in fact rooted within and as systems of self-stimulation. I see here how self-stimulation is like a point of amusement. Like there is an excitement component movement to it.

To be Continued

Day 579 The Question in Hearing and Seeing What is Here

It's interesting and shameful to see my relationship to and as what I hear within a moment. Why? Because I've noticed that in certain moments what I hear resonates so painfully clear with what I have accepted and allowedwithin myself. What's interesting to see within these particular moments of hearing here is that there is a point of profound self-reflection and the opportunity to assist and support that unfortunately gets misdirected within taking offense/defense to what I here...where the point of my self-reflection and self-introspection gets lost within and as my self-judgment as how I have defined what is here as separate from myself...and within this point of accepted and allowed separation, I see and realize that I react within the various realm of self-judgement, because it is as I define a point separate from myself and believe another to be separate from me that there real shame perpetuates because it's a point of hiding within myself where I want to focus on controlling another through the realms of my own self-righteous judgment where I have defined me as right and another as wrong and within this the point of seeing and communicating I am at a cross roads of sort...an accepted and allowed conflict...because what I hear here always exists within me...because if we regard the point of relativity and the point of how I hear as a reflection of my ability to process within myself...what I always here is therefore a reflection of me here.

So what I am starting to realize and understand is the unfortunate chain reaction that happens from time to time as the perpetuated play out in the interpretation of self-defining-judgment within and as how I hear here. 

I have been continuously given tremendous support from children with who I am grateful for the opportunity to work with on a daily basis teaching skiing.

I teach a particular child once a week for many consecutive weeks and this particular child reflects the points that I have attempted to hide from myself and what is interesting about this...is that I've resisted to investigate the extensiveness to which this child reflects points that exist within myself. So much so, that in many moments I would simply try to ignore the sounds coming from this particular child, because I was trying to protect myself from facing the points of self-correction within myself that are most unfortunate...and in this way...I see and realize my minds tendency within my self-created auto defense systems as a way to prevent me from really facing the roots of a point within total self-reflection...

So this particular child so clearly embodies the point of stimulation for self-satisfaction and is quite effective in directing/orchestrating his own personal self-stimulation and amusement as his constant continuous motion without particular regard for how his desire for self-stimulation and self-satisfaction impacts and influences those around him.

To Be Continued

Day 578 Journey out of the Illusion and into Life

Journey out of the illusion and into Life

Rap Flow Freestyle Harmony

It so funny how one point of misdirection can forever fuck with us as like by just missing that one thing…the course is totally a discourse…as like we were off the track and therefore become our own study as a self-investigation as we become the course of study into and as our self-discourse here as we see the mistake(s) we have made. And isn't it interesting that within every we mistake we see, realize and understand….an opportunity/answer/solutions presents itself…as what has always been here but was hidden from view…yet not really because the point was always in plain sight…though the mystery of grandeur as like the great conspiracy as to see why and how it is so…is like the ultimate distraction in the search to discover why we are so the way we are. Isn't it fascinating that when we are looking for something we are sure to uncover something in our search for something…Though what I've come to see and realize is that to have any expectation as what the discovery will be as like a great hypothesis as the primary suspect of distraction/illusion being created as the just guess/guest within and as our inherent need to serve our selves justice….but isn't it funny that it is within our hunches as our guesses/assumption/and perceptions and perspectives that we miss the big picture, the grand illusion because we've always been playing a smaller scale game within the box of the grand hypnosis and illusion that was make/made to believe as our self-fulfilling prophecy. Isn't it interesting that generally speaking we are as the human species, are not very specific as to our self-fulfilling prophecy and within this discord and great disregard for the marvel of ourselves here as the great creators. we are in fact disenfranchised within and as our personal business not realizing and understanding our universal and interpersonal business because were stuck in the context of the spell we created as our spelling it so as the law of our being in and as the impressions we formed since our very first contact here. The maze if you will as we participated in our first zing….a shock if you will as isn't Life shockingly amazing and profound….a trip if you will…as the will is certain in and as the tree of Life…as the growth being a point of self-determination in and as the self-responsibility in and as our duty to express our self unconditionally here as our best sharing/showing/performance…though what is keeping us within a limited frame of conditions…as like being unconditionally conditional….predictable if you will…as like stuck...in the stock of our initial investments…in and as our commitment to the fear of loss we believe is the ultimate derivative stock that continuously and consecutively derives the most profit…as yes…the game is rigged and we are the magnificent magicians that have rigged the chess board…each player being a point and a specific role in the game we play together yet not sure what side of the board we are on…and who the real king of the game is…though it is all here and there is no greater or lesser player….but there is and always is as long as there is a conflict at play…and the game we tend to play is within conflict….what a strange thing…as we try to steal better and better…and the ultimate and grand better….stealing another’s winning to create a loss and grow a win constantly and consecutively this strange interplay…but why this funny and distorted balanced erosion as this sure continuous dissolvement….but hmm….really….the cycle…that cycles so….within the fabric of cycles and patterns…all within and as part of a grand pattern of interconnectedness…the independent, dependent and interdependent…together apart and reliant….where am I going…how do I get there…as the cross of here…as the road the journey begins and ends at the same place…into and out as the in and the outcome together…as like there’s no clear point when it’s all merged together as it’s all relative…yet definitely specific and exact…and immaculate perfection in the intricacy of the matrices of and as our mathematical certainty…yet we are the anomaly none the less…so what is certain is that we can never be certain…accept when and after we expose the fraudulent deception of the uncertainty predictability variable as the what the….question/answer/solution…specific….creation…momentary interplanetary here….how could we ever be anywhere else but here….but how we define here and how we see here is in the eye of the beholder…and isn't it interesting the words we use to describe and create because how we create is and as our individual favoured/flavoured self-expression as our personal dance and we make our dance interpersonal as we do it together…and all the while being independent in our moves yet dependent upon the synchronized harmony of the give and receive relationships…as the profound awesomeness is entirely within and as to our committed agreement to our self here…as each here…one and other…here..as each one here all accounted in the counting the math that we move as One in the greatest dance of all time…as like the timeless time because time just becomes a system of how we move within our space…as like the nature and the flow of our song of progression and  the music continues…and it’s funny because it’s all ways our move,,,and to not consider the potential consequence of our move…within and as fearfully moving we created the paranoid box thinking mentality…that has us shuffle side stepping our turns as like yearning for more…yet faking it the whole way because the commitment of our every turn and move has lacked authenticity because there was always that shade of doubt within the question the answer and the solution as who am I and what am I to do here…hear….hearing….court hearing…the nature of law…as our grand master judgement…it is written so as we so it so…and we are the rulers of our here togetherness…whether I wrote it or you wrote…it…the I in the You…how do we do…because the You and I are forever bound….because the you is me and the me is you….so why do we need to refer to the I …if all is I…and yes…were are all realized as the all seeing eye…here as our mind…is the nature of our programming and the law into and the nature of the programming is extensive,., yet very meticulously specific in as being precisely what it is because of the sequence of events as the musical notes of intent that shaped and determined…predetermined the events of our history and future to unfold until we stopped the story…and started to take self-responsibility for our self-created moral allegory…which is our amazing disgrace as our fall from grace on the trip we call life…not realizing and understanding how we been constantly falling…as the fall of mankind…though the funny thing is that getting up is just a move away…and we have the will to move ourselves into and as the standing players on the chess board to determine the makeup of the game…and it’s not to say those who are standing cannot change the nature and the rules of the game….because to get up together as one…as individually standing all together here is the power of oneness and equality…as to have the ability and capability to direct the weather…as to weather the storm of consciousness in specific ways…as to direct the positions and plays that be, to be the best case for all life…as like moving out of the matrix illusion of choice…and into the rhythmic harmony dance of Life…here here…as our sound unbound here. Hear hear.

Day 566 Anyone Here?

I've been looking at the point of self-investigation of self-interest. And the question comes up, "what is Self?" It's interesting to question "Self" because within doing so, We see what is reflected/revealed here as our Character/Persona/Identity/Being. I've also looked at the point of self-interest from the perspective of Self separate from everything else here and self-interest being the interest of an individual being here without any particular regard for the other individual being's here. It's interesting to see such a shameful acceptance and allowance. A question that comes up within myself is,"Shouldn't self-interest be the same interest as the collective interest...Like, myself interest is what is best for all Life here because I am in this one Life here? How is it that there can be a difference of opinions within self-interest? I mean really were all in this Life together and Lifesustainability is and as a result of Life dependency, interdependency, and independence. Like, One cannot exist without the other One.

What's interesting to see here is that Self is in fact Life. Within looking at this point the question comes up, What is Life Interest...or more specifically what is the best interests of all Life here?

Obviously Life sustainability is the best interest. Life assistance and support.

So if you dare to regard yourself as Life there is a point of self-responsibility and self accountability, which can also be articulated as Life-responsibility and Life-accountability.

Obviously there is much work to be done within our own personal life in equalizing our-self...our-life here...because really we've been conditioned to exist as less than Life here. Because if you look at the nature of what is collectively accepted and allowed within our shared Life/reality here, there is in fact no regard/value for Life here.

Obviously this is a massive problem for Life here.

I implore You to Life-Investigate Your Life Here and see that it is each individuals Life-responsibility to facilitate solutions as assistance and support that is best for Life Here.

What is the point of being here if you do not regard and value all Life here equally?

If you are stuck within the point of self-interest where you disregard all Life in favor of the pursuit of your preferred means and methods of stimulation, Your part of the problem that requires Self-Correction.

If You are serious about taking individual responsibility and accountability for All Life Here, I implore You to investigate the Desteni I Process.



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Day 564 The Decision to Self-Investigate

Art by Andrew Gable


There is in fact only the real decision to self-investigate. You either do it or you don't. Doing the self-investigative work is the result of making a decision to do it and practically living that decision. 

To do anything well is a decision.

It's when we accept and allow doubt/fear to interfere with our decision making process that we compromise our capabilities to expand our practical living abilities to do what is best for Life here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing the fear within myself and the accepted and allowed doubt to be a reasoned/justified/excuse for fear within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the simplicity in making a decision and moving myself within and as the decision to move myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing the learning process involved within and as the self-expansion of increasing my personal abilities as a result of realizing and understanding the greater potential of capabilities that exist within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding have I have blocked myself access from reaching my full potential of capabilities within subscribing to inner-turmoil within myself as like the accepted and allowed conflict I am trying to make peace with.I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding the point of trying to resolve conflict within myself is a point of shameful disgrace because within this very acceptance and allowance there is in fact an absence/doubt of self-trust...it's like enabling a battle to ensue. Lacking/doubting self-trust is unacceptable behaviour and is a total disservice and point of self-sabotage.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the shameful disgrace within the very acceptance and allowance of trying to resolve conflict within myself. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be ruled and controlled by the uncertainty of doubt within and as my abilities/capabilities to self-direct effective conflict resolutions within and as the self-realization here of myself as one and equal as the question/answer/solution Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have strained my physicality as a result of accepting and allowing myself to exist within the belief of "trying" to do things without committing myself fully to doing the things.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the backdoor excuse within the point of committing to trying something without fully committing to completing the point. I see and realize the life force essence of and as when there is a will there is a way...as our will is our seed that grows like a tree that branches out in support which is rooted in foundation platforms of support based upon sound principles to assist/facilitate the process commitment that will unfold/blossom within and as the physical action commitment to do the work required to be done.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist within and as the self-compromising point of making excuses before I begin a task by accepting and allowing the attitude, "I will try to get the task completed".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing a point of quitting and giving up to exist within myself as a justifiable/logically reasoned belief that can be validated within myself as a result of "trying" something.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that, "as long as you try that's all that matters"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for correlating trying to a point dependent upon emotion/feeling reaction to doing something...as like a judgement assessment belief to validate whether I want to keep at the task at hand or not based upon my feeling and or emotions that have been connected to the physical task.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating excuses and limitations upon my physical performance within particular tasks before I even get started within the tasks. I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding the weakness of character within "trying to commit to something" as like being a total shameful disgrace to going all the way and making the decision to make the point work as getting the job/task done no matter what...as like failure is not an option...the point will be completed/resolved. I realize and understand that my will is my way in which I am able and capable to effectively and efficiently do things.

To be Continued