Day 406 Teacher
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
disregarding the responsibility and the importance of the role of a world
teacher.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have
doubted my worthiness and discipline to actually walking the committed process
of taking all necessary steps in making myself available as a world teacher
here to assist and support the betterment of humanity.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not
realising and understanding the consequences within not taking the
responsibility of becoming a world teacher serious…as like realising the
opportunity to give as I would like to receive…as like making a point of doing
this because I see that I am capable and able to, and I know I have the
potential to be a really great world Teacher.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
fearing to help myself.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
fearing to help others help them self within sharing self-realisations and
practical applications of assistance and support as like things I have learned
and corrected…and within this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing
myself for fearing to be challenged about what it is I know and realise.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
seriously disliking to be challenged.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
taking challenges personally as like being emotionally sensitive to challenges
as like seeing challenges as like a form of arguing.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being
paranoid about people arguing with me and wanting to argue with me.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
getting frustrated with requiring to be very patient within teaching as like I
forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for placing expectations
within learning…as like expecting there to be a certain level of expediency
within and as a point I am educating others about/assisting and supporting the
implementation of.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
getting angry, frustrated and disappointed with myself and others when a point
of self-realisation is taking more time than I would like it to take.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting
displeased with the time that it takes to sort things out as like the time it
takes to process understanding as like the time it takes me to learn and
comprehend things. I realise and understand that I can expediate process of
learning and understanding within stopping all judgement as judgement is a form
of mental fear as like a mental barrier that inhibits quantum realisation.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
desiring instantaneous results…and I forgive myself for accepting and allowing
myself to take it personally about the time it takes for me to process points
of understanding/self-realisation here as like specific points of individual
processing.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
taking offense and getting bothered by people challenging my intellect as like
my smarts…as like challenging me within and a way of testing my comprehension and
understanding of points of self-realisation.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to become
bothered when I am sharing a self-realisation and people are looking to find
some other authority over the information as like being in disbelief and trying
to discredit the validity of me being the source of a self-realisation of
knowledge and information as like not seeing me/themselves defined as like an
authority of facts.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not
accepting myself as an authority of facts as like realising myself as the
source code of self-realisation…as like its within understanding my past
acceptances and allowances that I am able to foster change and re-script myself
in ways that are best for Life.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being
defensive when I am feeling challenged by others who are testing/challenging
and attempting to discredit myself as an authority of information as what’s
best for Life.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not
realising and understanding the point of World Teachers as like authorities of
knowledge and information as what is best for Life as like the real facts of
existence…living words of sharing assistance and support….the truth of matters.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
having been paranoid about peer review as like getting feedback and support of
my peers as like fearing myself as not good enough to collaborate and work with
my peers and within this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
having feared to really accept myself. I
realise and understand the absurd ridiculousness of suppressing self-acceptance.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having
created justifications and reasons and excuses as like ways to avoid self-acceptance.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being
paranoid about self-acceptance…as like fearing to really love myself.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being
embarrassed with the absurd ridiculousness as like having been paranoid about
accepting myself and qualifying myself as worthy to participate within group
activities and be an equal party within and as group participation's such as
peer review.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
having been nasty to so many of my peers over the years behind their backs…as
like realising and understanding how I created, justified and validated the
fear of peer review within myself as like fearing the wrath of my own accepted
and allowed judgement existing within others…as like knowing and understanding
the nastiness I have spoken and felt so strongly about others…as like a hateful
disgust.
When and as I see myself reacting to peoples reaction within
sharing a self-realisation/sharing some facts, I stop and breathe as I realise
and understand the process of self-realisation as a process and that each
person is within and that judging any point within process is ridiculous
absurdity as like wow, taking anything personally is such a mind fuck.
I see specific points of further investigation here with
regards to paranoia of peer review/evaluation…and relating and pertaining to
specific memories about myself holding strong criticisms and judgments about
my fellow teammates while playing hockey as a youngster….as like having formed
dislikes or likes based upon teammates abilities and therefore placing
discrepancies within and as equality and oneness together as like everyone
having equal and one Life value….
To be continued….
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