Day 396 Work Talk
Recently, I've been sluggish getting into a groove at
work…as like being very effective within the work I’m doing…specifically in
tree planting…as that’s been the work I've been participating within.
There’s been resistance within me about the work…as like not
wanting to do the job anymore…feeling tired…thinking about what I will do when
tree planting work finishes up very soon.
What’s ironic about the resistance towards the work and
thinking about how I will make money once tree planting ends…is that I am not
maximizing my effectiveness within doing the work as like consuming myself with
resistance to getting into a groove and becoming productive and efficient with
my movements.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to
sabotage my best tree planting production within thinking about other things
while beginning to tree plant.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not
realise and understand that I make myself feel tired within thinking about things
that do not pertain to the work I am doing…as I realise and understand that
shifting my attention away from what I'm doing within thinking about future
projections when I have a specific task at hand is not helpful and is in fact a
hindrance to my effectiveness within the task at hand.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being
righteous within my thinking about other things while I have a specific task to
do…as like thinking I’m just going to keep thinking within my mind about
whatever comes up because I want to be distracted and kind of forget about
being here within the work I am responsible for.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
feeling sorry for myself within thinking about others things when I have a
specific task to do…as I realise and understand I am responsible for my work
production effectiveness and that by participating within thinking that’s not
related to the working I'm doing, creates a situation where I am not as
effective as I am capable of being.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to spite
myself within diverting my attention away from my best work performance within
deciding to move slow within thinking about all sorts of things that are not
related to the tasks at hand.
I realise the ridiculousness of choosing to compromise my
best work performance.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
compromising my best work performance within choosing to focus my immediate
attention within thinking about other things.
I realise and understand the absurd ridiculousness of having
a job to do and deciding/justifying that because I’m not that keen about the
work I have to do…I’ll focus my attention within thinking about being somewhere
else doing different things…while I do the work I have a responsibility to do.
When and as I see myself choosing to think about things
other than the work I am required to do, I stop and breathe…I focus, myself on
the task at hand and I realise the absurd ridiculousness…as like
self-compromising and self-sabotaging stupidity of choosing to think about
things other than the work I am doing…because I realise directing energy away
from the work at hand is not helpful for me doing/giving my best work out put
performance.
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